/lit/ - Literature

>>11998467
>It takes a lot of work to hate someone you love, doesn’t it?
fuck man, you just externalized a huge pattern in my life. my parents had a rough divorce, constant fighting and I just wanted them to both shut up cause they seemed so childish. then i enter into a (5 year) turbulent, confounding, artistic relationship with an emotionally and physically abusive girl. break it off and fall in love with another poet who i end up believing is the reincarnation of mary magdalene and that we're going to save the planet from destruction by making movies under the mentorship of Paul Thomas Anderson and tons of other whack shit (no drugs). the past few years i've been slipping back into clarity and mundanity even but i'm overwhelmed by constant intense thoughts about the nature of dreams, existence, and death and i know in my body that those thoughts of discomfort come from a sprawling network of abuse haunting my memory but that doesn't excuse the philosophical urgency of them. goddamn being human is a fucking curse but i'm so indoctrinated that all i long for is a proper mate who will comfort me and will raise my little monsters to be passionate, caring, and respectful.