/lit/ - Literature

>>18676031
Well, he does say that apathy is just a form of avoidance. Does your brain just tell you that you don't feel like it and don't care about your status because it doesn't want to face the anxiety of actually having to talk to women? For me that absolutely is the case. I've been staying in and telling myself I don't care about women for years, and actually believed it, but when I read that part of the book I knew it was true immediately. I'm afraid of rejection, of hurting and bothering women, of being known as a creep, and my worst fear is to get fired from my job and arrested because I approached a woman incorrectly and they think I was trying to rape her.
When I was in college in the beginning of freshman year, this girl invited me to her room to hang out, and we had tea and cup noodles in this little blanket fort thing she made. We flirted with each other and I made some physical touching of her leg which she seemed to like, then I left because I had to go to class. I thought she liked me and I was starting off college on the right foot. Back then I was so confident and happy. After that she ignored me and it turned out that she told everyone in the dorm I was creepy and tried to sexually assault her. She even tried to get me kicked out of the dorm but thankfully the RA was a based frat-tier chad and told her to fuck off. Even still, it basically ruined my entire time at college and really fucked me up mentally, making me confused and scared, and caused me to hate and fear women, and also led me to become a reactionary alt-righter since false rape accusations basically became my most important single issue. By the end of that year she came up to me and apologized for what she did, saying she was just afraid of being raped because her feminist older sister had filled her head with those ideas, and she also wanted attention as a hip feminist by being sexually assaulted so she made up the story. Even though I did completely nothing wrong and this was over 10 years ago I think I'm still fucked up from that single event today.