/lit/ - Literature

From Kindergarten to the last year of Highschool, who knew that we were living in an entirely different world? We were living in the womb of potentiality, all responsibility booted to the future, any character shortcomings brushed off because of this idea that we could be anything.

Then comes college a hard reality check. It was only after 4 years of college did I realize how little of a roll I took in forming my life, and how dominated I was by my Dad. I tried to become a chemical engineer just like how my Dad wanted me to. But I failed, re-routed to Chemistry and convinced myself that I'll just get a Masters in Chemical Engineering.

Not once did I ask myself why. Why was I doing this? What's so great about engineering? Instead, it was a clean path that I was given by my Dad. Despite Math always having been by far, my worst subject, I pushed on.

After 4 years of college, 4 years of depression, isolation, I was almost beast-like. I skipped showers, had an unkemped beard, and a deep rage was indiscriminately written on my face. Nothing obvious, but people could sense it, particularly women I think. In senior year of college I had a panic attack. It happened a week before graduation. Something happens to the mind when we reach a natural end in the time of our life and we sudden are seized with a flash of memories. In that moment I faced again 4 years of misery in a brief moment, it was so painful that I had a panic attack and rushed myself to the campus clinic.

I realized in graduation, that the next step was that so-called Masters. But that panic attack made me realize how deeply wrong of a life I was living.

>Did I just suffer through 4 years of college for nothing?

So sorry for the long blog post guys. I got caught up in writing my story, it always tends to happen whenever I recount this. I don't know why but I always like re-writing this story.

To wrap things up, after graduation I ditched my chemistry degree and went into sales. The reasoning was that being in a social environment would help repair my social skills after being so lonely. After two years of that I have nothing to show for it, I suck at sales, but more importantly it's very hard for me to getting through interviews. Now I'm currently learning to code, and enjoying it. I wish I majored in CompSci, because without a degree I'll be stuck as a code monkey. But at least then I'll have a stable job.

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I majored in chemistry, went into sales, now learning web development. I feel my life is pointless. I don't know what am I supposed to do. Anyone else know this feel?

>>13992141
apu made wojak so happy because he was a kissless handholdless v***in. but soon wojak got hungry for binging on snacks.

apu was put in a blender.

>>13512109
gn forever, frog

gn apu... gn forever

>>12768745
No. Fuck off. These posts were perhaps charming at one point, but no longer.

>>12732684
No.

>>12597643
And now you're a twenty-something with frog images on your computer. Let it go.

Of course I would let him in. I love guac.

stop posting that ugly frog

>>12463000
No woman could have written Coriolanus or Hamlet or Henry V. Trips ignored.

Is poetry dead?