/lit/ - Literature

>>13201537
>>13201567
it's really late here and I'm up since I just got done with exams, hope the text is not too messy but I probably won't be able to control it.
latex and leather has its beginnings in not wanting to be you, be touched or anything related but become a pure machine of sexual desire and stimuli. A person will fuck a full room of non-fat people dressed in latex too, will let anyone in latex touch and be near them as none of their human flaws are showing and they look somewhat attractive but eerie, of course the eerie and sex has a strong connection as sex at first from being young and not understanding it is inherently scary.
Femdom isn't as simple, usually comes from the mother as much as I don't want to go all Freudian, but it also has a deep root in wanting your innocence destroyed but also have it back in some sort of way from your childhood. The mother wants to protect you but also unconsciously corrupts you sexually completely. As a child you trust your mother the most, so femdom happens as you trust the woman controlling you. Allowing her to hurt you. A sort of anti-mother. Those that do seek the escape of life and back to the arms of the feminine also want it. Femdom can also be a tool to deal with having been abused or humiliated by the feminine, to look at it and sexualise it. (if you fear anything at all, you can ultimately sexualise it completely and override the fear value for a sexual one)
Whenever I explored bdsm I liked it because of the screaming and expression the most, the expression of fear. Taming the thing you've feared as a child for your entire life, it's there, bound and you are either inflicting, watching or receiving it. We like it in the same sense that we like being chased or watching horror movies. They're deeply connected phenomenons. Extremely.
Sexuality is pure energy of either wasteful depletion or positive production. A circuit between the human and the cosmic energy. Look at it in the terms of your entire life and you will likely find something, there's probably some truth in what I wrote too but you want to ultimately look inwards and outwards at the same time.