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>>15916732
>Sex can be anxiety inducing when you only have every once in a while / with strangers
You said it man, only had sex twice, really which was with girls I didn't know the day before (and they initiated it, I'm too much of a shy fag to get a partner proactively).
One of my (girl) friends recently proposed we could start having benefits together (it was at a party and I said I felt weird about starting it out when people are in the next room) and honestly, I'm really the anxious type and feeling weird about it. At the same time, it could be the thing that could get me going if we just had sex on the regular as friends.
What stresses me out is that many of my friends know her and if I do bad, this could ruin some friendships, idk.

Since I'm blogging already, got to say I just wish stress didn't have such crippling physical symptoms. I get very nauseous and light headed from it, which is the initial cause of my panic disorder. I have this sort of obsessive thinking that I may think what activities could be ruined by me panicking for no reason.. and they become my triggers.. this lead me to some strange phobias, bros. (whoever read all of this, props to you and thanks)

be it heaven or hell, it all sounds really tiresome