/lit/ - Literature

I started a story about a teen stripper/porn star, and was planning to finish it by the end of this year and send it to a publisher. It's not supposed to be an erotica but there's a lot of details on some questionable shit I am embarrassed to even acknowledge I came up with. There is no redeeming quality to this story. I have the need to write it, but when I look at the word doc and read through it I cannot help but feel like a degenerate. How the fuck do I muster up the balls to finish something like this? Let alone send it to a publisher?

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I'm so lonely anons. I'm a broken shell of a man.