/lit/ - Literature

>Pro-Gun
>Pro-Universal Healthcare
>Anti-Zionist
>Pro-Life
>Anti-Trans
>Anti-War
>Don't know what that makes me
>Nobody agrees with me on everything
>Can't get active in any of them since the general participants will hate my guts if they find out my other views
I wanna just go live in the woods.

The hypocrisy of mankind at large is so indescribably fucking exhausting.
It seems that any person that prescribes to any collective identity is a hypocrite on at least some level.
The amount of hypocrisy, double-think, and cognitive dissonance in society at large genuinely makes me not want to participate. Dozens of times a day I find myself making mental notes of hypocrisy from all manner of places, and each one is the mental equivalent of a punch to the gut. I could walk them off if they came in more sparsely, but as it stands my metaphorical abdomen is pulverized into hamburger.

Not sure where to ask; what do you call it when you're a gigantic fucking retard in some regards, but very smart and adept in others?
It's not savant syndrome, since you're only a genius in one area with that.

I feel like people continuously over/underestimate how smart or stupid I am because they'll see me catch one quick or be super knowledgeable in one area, then be practically retarded in another, or vice versa.

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>Pic related, trying not to slip up again
>Meditations