/lit/ - Literature

>be me
>went jogging last night, felt good
>bought a small amount of junk food and carby food and ate it late at night
>went to sleep at 2 am
>woke up at 9 am
>browsed internet on phone
>read a chapter of a history book
>went driving, felt sad at seeing more qts and Staceys than usual
>drank coffee, read a pseudy novel
>ate regular food and chocolate at home
>browsed internet
>went for a walk of around 6 miles; listened to podcasts
>somehow late evening
>currently drinking coffee in car again; may have fast food but I'm not very hungry; will then waste time at home

Another coffee is maybe indulgent but I deserve it for facing the pain of being an ugly beta in 2021 and all previous years in my life.

I applied for a job earlier today and I've just searched for people in the job on LinkedIn and it's mostly elite background types from Oxbridge and international places. Feels bad not being /elite/.

I think I may start working hard on stuff tomorrow. I've already started producerbulling (although not for the past 3 days) and I may try to take it to the next level. Or at least not waste 2+ hours every weekday evening with driving and coffee drinking.

I should start working harder in my current job but the returns diminish very hard past a certain point. It feels very zero sum. I'm at the rank where doing better or more work would not benefit my career at all. Leading work that takes up other people's time is what matters. Fitting in would be better. I remember watching American Psycho before an interview many years ago, back when I was failing them badly, and it didn't help. Corporate normieness can't really be faked by me in a dignified or non-cringe way. It's like trying to chase a rainbow.

While driving I saw this normie couple and then a nerdy guy some paces behind them. And I saw some old, lower class guy with shabby clothes. And I saw a short ethnic minority looking person. People must see me and instantly spot how low status and pathetic I am.

>be me last night
>did productive stuff in free time in evening after going for my drive and coffee
>decide not to go jogging at night
>lie in bed, browse internet instead of read
>sleep
>wake up
>start work after doing a few chores
>work
>work is so boring; can't really bother to do anything
>have lunch
>work becomes busy after lunch and it will be busy until Friday afternoon
>go driving after work
>currently drinking Costa coffee in car
>plan to go to read or do something other than waste time online (though not quite producerbully) before going to gym later

Work is merely a load of paperwork at this point. Sometimes that paperwork depends on contributions from other people and I have to email them and they always take too long.

>be me
>went to gym last night
>browsed internet in bed then slept
>woke up this morning
>started work
>worked; work was really boring and there was little to do
>manager is on holiday
>looked up this area I could potentially contribute to but I realised it amounted to a load of process and bureaucracy that the company says it needs but its absence has literally never been mentioned
>decided not to do it for now
>invested in low market cap cryptocoins
>spend last hour at work doing producerbull stuff (my own stuff) for 55 minutes; felt great
>had to lie in bed for 40 minutes after work to rest my eyes
>go outside in car, now drinking coffee and browsing internet
>will maybe do an hour of producerbull stuff when I get home, then jogging, then reading, then sleep

My job is so boring. Thankfully corona eliminated my commute and allowed me to save much more of my pay. If things were normal I'd be poor. I would be too poor for stonks, crypto investments, crypto gambling, endless £3 coffees, and so on.

I can never come close to the weekend feels during my weekday drives and coffees. It's a doomed habit. When I was doing it a few months ago when it was dark before the end of the work days it was even more pathetic.

Feels good to be able to do producerbull stuff now. Feels good to not have junk food during weekdays, although my weight hasn't seemed to go down.

>be me
>finished work on Friday evening
>week had a lot of work but not too much; feels good to have a 3 day weekend
>do an hour of producerbull stuff in my free time after work
>go to gym on Friday evening after driving around and drinking coffee
>sleep
>wake up at 11 am on Saturday (slept late because if internet timewasting)
>go driving outside, drink coffee, read a pseudy old book
>eat regular food at home and some chocolate and sweets
>browse internet
>go for a short walk while listening to a Richard Spencer podcast (would be wary about openly saying that if I wasn't so sure he was a Fed)
>go jogging after the walk, feels good
>browse internet; end up leaving things too late for a fast food binge like I was planning
>decide to not do anything productive
>lie in bed in late evening, continue reading the most pseudy book there is until midnight
>decide to have a quick internet browse on my phone before sleep
>sleep at 3.45 am
>woke up at around 11.15 am
>browse internet on phone in bed for over an hour
>eat regular food
>went outside, drove around, drank coffee, read a really pseudy book
>went for a 2+ hour walk while listening to Cum Town
>now binging on fast food
>decided I'll leave productive stuff for tomorrow and just relax today

It was pay day and I am now financially comfortable enough to gamble on shitcoins.

Internet timewasting can be brutal for free time.

I watched a lot of a personal finance vlogger and now plan to get a credit card. I watched some of a university vlogger 8/10 girl vlog and it's genuine lifemogging stuff. I'm glad the government is gouging students. It also hit home how much Corona restrictions improved my life due to homeworking saving me time and money, reducing my time in person with normies, allowed me to browse the internet at work.

The first two days of the two day weekend have been a bit forgettable.

I was thinking and realised I thought "10 years ago when I was in university" and that is depressing.

>>18148281
live to find another mistreated woman and have a life you both deserve, anon.

>be me last night
>browse internet, drink coffee, don't bother exercising
>still do 30 minutes of productive stuff at midnight
>sleep at 2 am
>wake up after 9 am
>start work
>work
>finish work
>go driving and drinking coffee to try and recreate the weekend feeling
>feels better than yesterday, because the end of the week is approaching, but still not so good
>will go to gym soon

Life feels so mundane. My job is so boring. I hate having to be judged by normies at work.

>be me
>Monday was a typical weekday
>slept in bed for almost 2 hours after work
>did productive stuff in my free time in evening
>woke up today
>started work
>had almost no work to do for most of day
>spent so much time on 4chan
>day was initially comfy but has since become dreary after work
>went for a drive and coffee after work but the magic isn't present; likely because there's so much of the week left
>will likely skip productive stuff this evening to conserve my energy (not in the previous doomed way but in a new, very calm way, where I know I will be fine tomorrow)

My job is so pointless and dreary and the comfiness is being marred by the worry that I'm not normie enough for my coworkers and something bad may be coming down the line.

I have a job interview with another company and I searched for people in a similar position in LinkedIn and the people in the same position are much older than me. It kind of hit home how much of a bubble my large company is and how other places can be wastelands. You can be on £50k and simply be a glossier version of middle aged minimum wage workers. I think I won't be serious about the other job because it looks like an increase in rigmarole. Once I fall through the social cracks in a workplace and I'm resting in the underground soil, there's some comfiness to it. Leaving would just repeat things.

I read some articles during the work day about "pitching a startup" and networking. It was depressing. There is so much to consider these days when doing anything. Bureaucracy is everywhere. It's checklists all the way up or down. Everyone ultimately has to be a middle man because of all the specialised tools and services being used.

>be me
>had a fast food binge last night (only have junk food on weekends now)
>went home, browsed internet and read until I slept
>woke up at 10 am today
>spent an hour prodoocerbulling after I woke up; felt great; didn't even browse the internet beforehand
>had a large shit
>went driving on a sunny day; drank coffee in car and read books
>bought junk food on way home; had regular meal at home and 1/3 of a binge
>browsed internet
>went for my long walk while listening to Cum Town, Richard Spencer, another podcast; felt sad at seeing young people enjoying life
>walked 3/4 of the way (around 7 or 8 miles)
>was going to go for another drive and coffee but it was too late
>just bought 2/3 of a binge and currently eating it
>was going to do something productive at night but will just spend rest of evening on internet and then reading in bed

Normally I'd say at this point that I hope I can finally start working on productive stuff in my free time but that has happened all week, so I'm not feeling very sad. I can improove by not even having junk food on weekends

>be me
>normal week of work
>on Monday I did productive stuff in my free time, under my own initiative, for the first time in over a year
>also did the same on all other weekdays in the evening, except Thursday
>had no junk food on weekdays for a few weeks now
>finish work yesterday afternoon
>go to gym
>go shopping at a supermarket
>do productive stuff in my free time from 10 pm to midnight
>read in bed, sleep
>wake up at 9.30 am today
>browse internet in bed; read light non-fiction book in bed; finish it
>go driving on a sunny day; drink coffee in car while browsing internet and then reading a pseudy old novel
>read for over an hour; drive back home, eat regular but carby food
>do 1 hour of producerbull stuff and it feels good; wanted to do something during the day to see what it's like prodoocing when it's sunny outside; FOMO was not a burden
>went for a walk while listening to Cum Town and another podcast
>go jogging after the walk
>have gone for another drive and coffee
>normally would've had junk food on a Saturday by now but I've left that for after this coffee; will get fast food
>will do another hour of productive stuff at home afterwards
>will then read and sleep

The sunny weather has made the Stacey sightings go up by ten times, which is demoralising.

Feels good to finally be doing productive stuff in my free time — both learning and unironic producerbull things.

It kind of hit me how screwed the West is demographically, morally, etc.

My job is very boring. I read about how office politics only gets more important after promotions and I don't really know what that will be like, in terms of experiencing it and what it will feel to definitively hit a career dead end. Maybe at that point my career will feel similar to my social life now: something that could theoretically improve but which lacks qualities that I can't even emotionally recognise because I'm so doomed in this regard.

>be me
>previous three days were normal weekdays, except I worked on productive stuff in my free time after work
>be me today
>woke up
>worked
>finished work
>went jogging after work
>now in my car, drinking coffee, browsing 4chan
>will do productive stuff in my free time when I get home, for around 2 hours
>haven't had junk food on weekdays for almost 2 weeks

Feels good to finally be doing productive stuff in my free time, through my own motivation.

I was sad when Chauvin was found guilty. What a disgusting farce. The West is doomed.

My job is so boring.

>be me
>went to gym after work yesterday
>went for a drive, drank coffee, browsed internet on phone
>was confident all day that I'd do productive stuff in the evening
>got home after drive
>unironically do productive stuff in my free time for 2 hours; do actual producerbull stuff; doesn't take any effort at all
>read book afterwards, sleep
>wake up early before work; waste most of the time on internet instead of sleeping more
>start work
>really slow day at work
>work
>finish work
>do chores, go for drive, currently drinking coffee
>will do productive stuff when I get home for about 2 hours

That's the first time in over a year I've done anything productive in my free time. Feels good and it wasn't even a struggle. Maybe I can amount to something after all. Maybe I have the superpower version of autism. I also like that I did it late in the evening. That's what all the bigbrainers do.

I have so much daylight to experience and waste in the evenings now. This reminds me of a summer some years ago.

My job is so menial and boring. Nothing is really happening.

>>18057122
YES! I GOT IT

>>17904084
Nice, I haven't seen that pasta in a long time, I posted it last year but haven't gotten a single (You). It used to be popular before 2015 I think.

bump

>>17810392
Cheers anon, I love you too.

>>17788538
>mfw when I realize medieval works will be published sooner if this goes through because the university presses won't have to go through an arduous process of assembling a team for translating them for non-Latinate plebs

>tfw can't start with the Greeks because I got no Greek
>tfw can't start with modernity either because I don't speak French
OCD is a bitch. How do I overcome this, bros?

How do I get over my deeply nihilistic malaise? I can't even write down a list of stuff for myself to do later without feeling cucked by spooks and wanting to delete it.

>be me
>finish work on Friday evening
>go to supermarket for a large shop (walking around the shiny building on a cold evening with lots of time between myself and Monday seems like the weekend's peak)
>spend evening on internet, vidya, finishing Serotonin by Houellebecq
>browse internet on phone in bed very late, watching society return to a centralised media ecosystem
>wake up on Saturday morning
>play vidya
>go for a joggerino
>eat food, including chocolate
>browse internet
>play vidya
>browse internet and eat food
>browse internet in bed
>sleep
>woke up an hour ago, browsed internet
>unsure whether to go for a long walk or not

Feels sad that the world is regressing to establishment media domination through government intervention. And this is just the beginning. I'm not looking forward to my taxes funding lower midwit 'local journalists'. The BBC will always be funded through tax in some manner (the defunding campaign will never succeed). Acceleration would be funny if it wasn't the cause of high taxes.

I had this moment last night where I was playing vidya and this memory resurfaced of me at university during a series of first year classes that lasted for part of a term. Nothing notable happened, it was just a consistent room, time of day, time of year, and weather where I was an ugly pathetic loser, and which embedded deep in to me.

A few weeks ago, in a videogame, this really bland area with grey walls and clouds, along with music in another game I'm playing (a kind of corporate / preppy overworld theme in a game that combines youth and sunny days with a dark theme) triggered this memory of bored days in my teens that made me realise how wasted my youth was. That was unpleasant. I just wanted to bing bing wahoo.

I read a novel and it was enjoyable but ultimately insubstantial. I mainly read non-fiction now. My attention span has been unharmed by the internet but I retain little because I don't really care.

I have been enjoying the Moldbugnaissance.

>be me
>finish work on Friday evening
>go to supermarket for a large shop (walking around the shiny building on a cold evening with lots of time between myself and Monday seems like the weekend's peak)
>spend evening on internet, vidya, finishing Serotonin by Houellebecq
>browse internet on phone in bed very late, watching society return to a centralised media ecosystem
>wake up on Saturday morning
>play vidya
>go for a joggerino
>eat food, including chocolate
>browse internet
>play vidya
>browse internet and eat food
>browse internet in bed
>sleep
>woke up an hour ago, browsed internet
>unsure whether to go for a long walk or not

Feels sad that the world is regressing to establishment media domination through government intervention. And this is just the beginning. I'm not looking forward to my taxes funding lower midwit 'local journalists'. The BBC will always be funded through tax in some manner (the defunding campaign will never succeed). Acceleration would be funny if it wasn't the cause of high taxes.

I had this moment last night where I was playing vidya and this memory resurfaced of me at university during a series of first year classes that lasted for part of a term. Nothing notable happened, it was just a consistent room, time of day, time of year, and weather where I was an ugly pathetic loser, and which embedded deep in to me.

A few weeks ago, in a videogame, this really bland area with grey walls and clouds, along with music in another game I'm playing (a kind of corporate / preppy overworld theme in a game that combines youth and sunny days with a dark theme) triggered this memory of bored days in my teens that made me realise how wasted my youth was. That was unpleasant. I just wanted to bing bing wahoo.

I read a novel and it was enjoyable but ultimately insubstantial. I mainly read non-fiction now. My attention span has been unharmed by the internet but I retain little because I don't really care.

I have been enjoying the Moldbugnaissance.

>>16455117
>“There is nothing behind the Curtain or Appearances unless we go behind there ourselves!”

>>16228720
Just watch this instead
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=coJjo3NmAEI

Jannies please... >>16211162 I know I called you tranny jannie, and I know you don't get paid, but please, just do it for me this once, clean up the fucking board

>>16199092
>capping your own post