/lit/ - Literature

>>17017042
>the man who wrote Ode to a Grecian Urn was 23 years old

There is nothing I desire more in this world than to be beaten up by a cute girl!

>>17017042
Hopefully not. The great reset seems pretty gay.

>>17017422
They're trying to reduce inequality without a massive scorched earth war which is historically the only way massive wealth inequality gets reduced. Seems p smart to me both from the perspective of the ruling class and plebs alike. Conservatives love the ruling class, so why don't they let them rule then?

>>17017042
Don't people stop growing at like 17? My coat from last year is much too tight and I am not fat.

>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2_3B8How0K8

>While I'm makin and takin, emcees shakin and flakin
>Pre-heat my oven to three hundred degrees and start bakin
>Emcees like potatoes, beats kickin like Cato
>Gettin philosophical like the Greek man Plato (who?)
>Greek man Plato (who?)
>The Greek man Plato

Start with the Geeks or you can get the BOZACK

>>17017422
>>17017542
It has little to do with inequality. It's supposedly about redesigning the economy to be more ecologically sustainable, using the economic lull from covid as a window of opportunity. The problem is neither such problem, almost by definition, can be addressed by capitalism except by fortuitous accident.
These are types of investment with either no tangible ROI or a net loss in capital, essentially the equivalent of charity or humanitarian aid. Feeding the world's poorest for example is a net loss, because they don't have money to pay for it. Preserving the environment means leaving forests and biomes alone rather than harvesting lumber or extracting oil from it. There is no incentive for profit-driven industry to sink costs into operations that will not give a tangible financial return. What happens when you try to have capitalism solve these problems is that private equity firms give developing countries massive high interest loans, as that is the only way for them to profit from infrastructure development or non-commercial spending.
These problems can only be addressed by globally coordinated state actors operating on non-market principles where the goal is not to turn a profit but accomplish an end in itself. The great reset will fail because it thinks capitalism can be retrofit to solve problems that contradict its logic.

Women have no soul so i don't know what i'am supposed to love about them.

>>17017542
Conservatives love a bunch of foreign nationals, traitor lobbyists, Jewish people, tech and media corporations pushing tranny propaganda 24/7?

Most conservatives respect that there will always be naturally talented people and people naturally talented for leadership. That doesn't mean that they accept any leadership by default. You must be thinking of liberals and their fetish for "rule by experts," where the "experts" decide who an "expert" is using their "expertise," and the liberal doesn't think much about the recursion there because he's busy eating Ethiopian food in Austin, Texas!!! #KeepAustinWeird

The people shilling for the Great Reset are the Ethiopian food eaters, who think greater rationalisation of society and economy means more Ethiopian food and fewer work hours, and somehow don't realise that all the "experts" pushing for it are also having memos leaked about how they use immigration to dilute unionisation efforts. The "experts" are smart enough to know that these retards can be manipulated into permanent slavery by a Youtube video.

>>17017811
Capitalism depends on laws and regulations. It's easy to "retrofit" it for sustainability. We already have banned dumping toxic waste in rivers or putting lead in gasoline or using chlorofluorocarbons that destroy the ozone. So many problems have been fixed decades ago through regulation. Sounds like you've read too many communist blogs and have a warped view of capitalism that's stuck in the 1870s.

>>17017875
Have you read the Powell Memorandum or the leaked Citibank plutocracy memos?

>>17017860
Ethiopians are a branch of orthodox Christianity, so your Roman death cult actually requires you to welcome them, so change that tune Christerino, or burn in the hell. Have a nice day.

>>17017892
Nah, I'm not that into right-wing conspiracy theories.

>>17017875
Companies have successfully lobbied to remove anti-trust laws. They're always on the look-out for loopholes they can abuse such as philanthropy because gifts are tax-exempt and setting up bank accounts in tax havens like the Cayman Islands.
These problems are still relevant.

>>17017893
>>17017901
I'm glad we established this early in the thread that anyone who continues talking to you is stupid and their wasted time is on their hands. A tip if you want to troll in the future, pick a single troll narrative and seem obliviously devoted to it. Don't swap between various unrelated or tenuously related inflammatory positions.

For example if you want to LARP as an oblivious liberal or progressive left guy, it would be part of the troll narrative that you acknowledge the Citibank memo thing as bad, but you would brush that aside and get the focus back on how you credulously think tech CEOs have your best interests in mind. You could even play with that contradiction and apparent cognitive dissonance in a subtle way. But you can't just say retarded shit for the sake of retarded shit, especially when it doesn't match.

>>17017875
Regulations just means restricting capitalism, you're not actually doing anything to change it. So the nature of capitalism isn't changed, it's just banned from certain activities. And this does not resolve the issue of how depriving it of agency can lead to constructive solutions. Negating something damaging from wreaking havoc--prevention--is not the same as a positive solution--a cure.

>>17017892
Oh, yeah, I saw the Citibank one. It just was just some report that said companies that make products aimed at luxury consumers will do better because of rich people in China or whatever. Was that good advice to invest in luxury goods makers now that we have a decade to see if it was right? Just compare the returns on Amazon vs. Kering or LVMH? So some midlevel Citigroup analysts came out with report saying to invest in luxury companies that turned out to be mostly wrong. Who gives a shit. Conspiracy chuds are insufferable.

At this point I can only hope everyone suffers immensely from the system they have created. I think it's very poetic that humanity, in its desperate wish to be "free" to do everything the fuck they wanted, will become enslaved by their own selfishness, greed, lies, lust and irresistible tendency to always choose the path of least resistance. I hope that at some point humanity will suffer a great collective death where they will realize what they have done but they will be unable to change the system in any way. I hope they will collectively feel like drowning for a few years before the big sleep of consciousness, where their lives become completely automated. It's going to be hilarious when they will see that their kids are indistinguishable from machines.
I am looking forward to the destruction of all culture, morality, beauty, belief, because people deserve none of these things. People only deserve to be fucked in the ass over and over by a cold, faceless machine with none of these things to give them hope.
Fuck humanity so much, fuck all of it, fuck people. There can't be a God who cares about this garbage animal in particular. Why isn't there a God for rats? Rats are a better thing to have than people. if there's a God for mankind it has to be an abomination, just like people are an abomination in the animal world.

>>17017918
Same trolling advice back to you buddy, you have to decide if you're going to be a comedy podcast listening communist cuck or a Qanon consuming conspiracypede chud. Pick one.

>>17017947
>miserable communist lashes out at content people by wishing mass death on humanity

lol

>>17017947
>Notes From The Underground 2 : Schizophrenic Boogaloo

>>17017965
I'm not a miserable communist or I wouldn't think we're headed to a shitty future. I want humanity to prosper as a mindless hive, I only wish that during the transition they realize what they have enable, and that there will be no way to avoid this endgame. You have no reading comprehension.

>>17017983
>what they have enable
What have they enabled?

>>17017983
Sorry if I'm not carefully analyzing every single word and nuance of your conspiracy spam doomer shit. Trying editing it down to something readable next time.

>>17017927
This. But in my opinion you should also leave room in your rhetoric (I don't say the word in a bad way) for people who a priori don't want a "cure" to capitalism. There are lots of good ordinary working people for whom the idea of "abolishing capitalism" is just never, ever going to make sense, it would take a thousand years to make them feel comfortable with any such idea or slogan. But it would also be stupid to write those people off, much less look down on them like pathetic plebs for not acknowledging the glory of communism or whatever. That's not raising consciousness.

I try to just talk about policies without assigning labels to things. Very few working class people are libertarian utopians when it comes to deregulation, the vast majority are for simple regulations and protectionism that would choke monopolies out of existence and collapse the international financial system anyway. I'd rather get 80% of the population thinking of such things as good, by reflex, than go from 1% to 5% of the population having high-level theoretical knowledge of Marxism. At least as a starting point.

I'm not even a communist but I'll gladly ally with them against this system. Brenner is the best writer on the coming depression that I've seen:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=krP6eJZehSw

>>17017936
This is better trolling but still mediocre. Leave the chuds thing out, no one actually says chud, and any people who do would be calling for beheading citibank employees.

>>17017983
Stop responding to it.

>>17018007
There's this tendency to think in binary all or nothing terms of either capitalism or communism. That's not the case, and in fact its an ideological mechanism of capitalism to use the fear of communism to maintain the status quo.
I am not calling for communism. I'm calling for state interventionism, a well established precedent within capitalist economies. States have a particular relationship with capital that allows them to foot the bill for basic research and operations that do not turn a profit. The US government is able to fund a military with almost a trillion dollar budget. The military is a much more vast organization than any corporation and has a different solution profile than a business. Governments invest in militaries with the expectation that the RIO will be in terms of non-financial results. Militaries are bottomless black holes where money is thrown in with no expectation that it will ever come back out.

Investments in environmental initiatives are similar. They would be financial black holes and the return is the ends in themselves, not monetary.

Heroin was underwhelming but a worthy attempt, alas the promise of intense euphoria might have robbed of the experience. I'm disheartened, even though I yearn too, I shan't pursue this path. Where am I too seek true Hedonism?

>>17019228
What life leads to being underwhelmed by heroin?

"All that social media will achieve is it will cause the aliens that find us to hate us"
-Frankie Boyle

>>17017042
>Will the Great Reset really come to pass?
if it cares more about 'improving' a broken system than meaningful change, probably not

>>17017042
I miss papa franku

>>17019368
Honestly it's not what it's hyped up to be. Try it for yourself. It's about the same as a warm embrace or a fun night out with your friends it's just a 'comfy feeling' nothing beyond having a nice warm blanket on you after the end of a nice day of productive work and socializing with your friends.

>>17019368
>>17019427
Forgot to answer, beyond average living conditions, solid friend group who hasn't changed much since I was 3 years old. Successful life, oh and I got interested in anime and found 4chan...

>>17019228
I wanted to try heroin for similar reasons and wondered if this might happen to me too. Can you describe your expectations, why you took it, and what actually happened?

9/10 get addicted
if you get addicted you will become an animal
don't do it

>>17017042
I just want to be a dried out husk before I ruin humanity anymore than it's already been done. I'm having my mind grinded in a blender so our overlords can reclassify humanity as a simple perversion, of which is but a part of any conscious being. I'm ruining humanity and being tortured for it and I'd like to have mind ground up enough so I don't exist and can't give our overlords a means to regress humanity to a non-conscious state.

>>17019610
Seek help anon, these seem like schizophrenic ramblings. You are better than giving in to your delusions. You know they are generally meaningless.

>>17017843
Humans don't brother

>>17019636
Idgaf I'm not fighting I just want these creeps to pull the plug.

Started reading the technological society and I am really blown away be the history of technique where he talks about Greece, Rome, Christianity, etc. what i found convincing was his dispelling of the myth that the East is anti-technique and the west is pro-technique (to put it very simply), when in fact the West has time and time again relied on Eastern technique to advance themselves.

It's especially compelling when you consider the commonly held notion here on 4chan (specifically /pol/) that Japanese and Chinese people are better than "whites" at improving things, but lack a creative impulse. Basically they're saying they're better technicians in Ellul's sense of the word.

>>17017955
Except that the other guy seems serious and has arguments, you're just spouting nonsense and then going "muh right wing conspiracy theory!!"
Whatever side you're on, you're not making it look good.

My mom just instructed me to go to my grand ma house because grand ma cannot find her cat and the tv remote. Off I go. Wish me luck - if necessary I will pray Saint-Antoine de Padoue. He helps to find anything !

Shhhhh heres some attention. now stop trying to bait me

>>17020750
If Anthony doesn't answer a diligent search, try Zita. She only helps people who have conducted a thorough search. Or with keys.

>>17017542
>Conservatives love the ruling class,
None of this makes sense. Sorry OP but you do need to read Don Quixote and consider the windmills.

>haven't written more than taking down or shuffling notes and ideas for a year and a half
>have done nothing but think about aesthetics and my personal philosopy in that time and plan my next works
feels literary. i'm the tiger who wanted to be a poet.

It will certainly be tried.

To think that Alex Jones was right all along.

>>17018265
>Investments in environmental initiatives are similar. They would be financial black holes and the return is the ends in themselves, not monetary.
I see what you're saying, but those initiatives would constitute what in business is called loss preventions. According to a Stanford research group climate change could wipe out 8 trillion worth of global GDP by 2050, 2 trillion less than half of the US's GDP. However it will be spread out over most of the Global South and mostly affect poor brown people who barely have a pot to piss in as is so nobody cares.

>>17017542
>trying to reduce inequality
>reduce
do you think "reduce" means "increase and make permanent"?

>>17017542
>they are trying to reduce inequality
Not sure if you are stupid or naive, maybe a combination of both?

>>17021422
Climate change isn't real retard.

It's all been used, it's all been done.
Can I borrow your thought?
I'll steal your mind.
The greatest thief.
박혜진

I've been totally fucking myself over for the past few months trying to keep a relationship with an ex going. It's gnawing at me day and night, and it seems pretty hopeless. No doubt a year from now this will seem pretty trivial and silly, but right now it's tearing me up.

I like to self insert as the guy in romance stories. It works best with the 'dumb/awkward but lovable' type, especially when paired with 'intelligent/spunky/assertive' girls. In every romance story I've ever written, that has been the main dynamic.

>>17021437
>Climate change isn't real retard.
Stop getting your "redpills" from /pol/ and read a book.

Maybe I'll do NoFap for a week on monday.

>>17017995
tl;dr anon is experiencing schadenfreude at the hubris of the middle class

I'm so fucking bored I'm looking forward to sleep. Tomorrow will be the same, and so on until the big freeze. How I wish for something amusing to happen.

>exam tomorrow
>most of what's coming is poems
>still don't understand poems
I'm in my Masters in English and I still struggle with poetry. Am I just too autistic?

I love videogame OSTs.
I listen to them even when I'm not playing videogames.
If you have a problem with this, fuck you

All things point to my family wanting me home for Christmas. Why? Literally every one of them, sans my little sister, all abused me.
I hate their little fake religious "rebirth" they've gone through; all a ploy to try and forgive themselves for their past sins. I remember absolutely everything.
I fucking hate my life. I just want to be left alone. But no, my family still tried to get their hooks into me. I understand why people just pack it in and go missing now. A new life, a new country, seems like paradise to me.
Let them scour through the debris of a life they made certain was going to implode. I'm done with it all.

Are we being raided or did we just take a lot of stupid pills this weekend? Thread quality went down overnight, so I suspect it's a new influx of people who are deeply insecure about people who read books. That or a lot of posters got so deeply twisted last night that they can't tell what board they're on. If it's the second, based.

>>17019427

Try crack , I had similar feelings about heroin

>>17019427
interesting anon thanks for sharing

>>17017542
>They're trying to reduce inequality
Between the lower classes by increasing inequality between the ruling class and the cattle. Wake the fuck up.

Faulkner is maybe the only author who can hold my interest over subject matter I have negative interest in to begin with

>>17022768
M8 if you can't put up boundaries with them in your life, I'd recommend starting anew. It won't cure everything but it would stop the additional grind. My family did some fucked up shit (and still do) but I don't mind token visits. Most of the reason I don't mind is because my actual life is so fucking insulated from them. If they tried some shit to fuck my life up, I'd cut them out but their ability to do anything is vastly diminished now to the point it's really not a worry. Seek help in how to separate your life from theirs, whether that's physically or just practically. The only thing I'd worry about in my current set up is if I got married and had kids, I'd need to explain why my family should never be allowed contact with the kids. I'd move country rather than risk exposing another generation to their shit, but since I've little to no prospects of getting hitched soon, it's a fairly distant worry.

I've seen someone who called himself traditional catholix monarchist turn Muslim within a span of week

>>17023862
Probably a schizo.

Just kill all non-whites and any whites that have ever fucked outside their own race. World problems will be fixed instantly.

>>17023946
Post chin

So in the last thread I learned about frisson. But what does it mean if you get it very frequently?

As I previously mentioned, I have felt it with increasing frequency of late. This has especially been the case as I have been advancing in my skill as a writer and a poet, and also as I have been delving into meditative prayer more.

Does anybody have any explanation for why I might suddenly be experiencing frisson with ever-increasing frequency? It's very common for me now, more than it used to be.

I spend my days seething with rage at the world because I can't kill myself yet due to family and other obligations. I daydream about killing myself all the time, I want out of this horrible boring disgusting world. Everything makes me sick, there is not a good thing.

>>17017893
>jah saves

>>17024237
>there is not a good thing.
There are lots of good things, you just like seething best.

>>17024274
There only one thing and that is sleep, but I sleep 2-3 hours a night unless I take medicines. So I can't even lay down and sleep to get a break from this ugly nature and the ugly people in it.

>>17024307
Trees are good things. Well made cake is a good thing. Birds are very good things and also very important. Boats are nice things. Water is also good. Stationery is often quite fine. Tiredness from hard work completed to satisfaction is also a nice thing. Soup can be good too, especially when it's cold out and it warms your face and hands and insides. Many animals are also rather sweet. Fruit is another nice thing.

>>17024336
>hedonism good

>>17024346
Silly anonkun, hedonists don't drink soup.

My schedule lay on the Roman Capitol, daggered. "You too, Deutsche Bahn?" the deadline huffed in a dying voice, its papery toga stained by ink. The conspirator bats buzzed around the marble pillars of time management. The cackle of an approaching red light caused a cluster of gawkers to burst apart like fireworks. It was quarter to twelve. The gawkers were all retirees, silver-haired and barely clothed. Their heads separated neatly in two, like pot lid and pot, a long row of hollow pots. The mind's eye marched past them generalesque, tapping the limy tin with its wooden spoon and saying "hollow" to each. Or was it teacheresque?

When I think about my 8 year old self with the tennis racket guitar,
It's like what Marco says about how he can reach back into his childhood through meditation and change the past. A part of us really thinks that we have comforted our kid selves in this way. I just like the thought that I've always been true to myself, as opposed to being imprisoned, locked into this personality with attachments and fingers that want to curl around the same handles every time there is a failure in the system. I feel a Godly love in this memory because something burned down through the shitty roof of my childhood home and made me want to strum the stupid tennis racket like a guitar. Why would I want to do a thing like that? Because something was beaming at me the way I beam back at smiling dogs with lolling pink tongues passing me on the sidewalk, saying "pick up that tennis racket and strum it, become familiar with your future coping mechanism." And why all the deja vu lately? The unfamiliar feels familiar. I can insist on impossibilities. And did you know there was such thing as jamais vous? It's when the familiar feels unfamiliar. Jumping at shadows in the corner of my eyes, feeling like I will scream if something blinks back at me through my blue-dark windows.

>>17024159
Maybe your habits are becoming healthier and so your dopaminergic system is less burned out or otherwise depressed. Or it could be just as simple as now that you're paying more attention to frisson you're learning how to trigger them more regularly. It's nothing that mysterious, it's just a kind of pleasureable stimulus response to a wide variety of stimuli (it's what the whole ASMR scene is about). I can set off mild ones just by tugging my shirt so that it lightly grazes my back (although if I keep doing it the response will peter out, as expected).

>>17023946
Not fixed, but yeah a whole lot better.

>>17024727
I had a pitchfork guitar.

>>17024727
>The unfamiliar feels familiar
That's déjà vécu (already lived). There are other ones besides jamais vu, like presque vu (seen before) where you think you're about to have a great thought and then nothing happens, or déjà rêve (already dreamed) where something happens IRL and you feel you had a dream about it before it happened.

I I I me me me

I don’t even wear diapers but I have a diaper rash from chafing. Boys I want to kms. Who gets a fucking diaper rash

>>17024842
I’m not even baby

I am going to stop drinking as it only makes me acutely aware of how miserable I am Nd then next week I will start again because wine is three dollars at the grocery store and I am a lush

>>17024842
Just because it's called a diaper rash doesn't mean only diapers cause it

People keep saying these really obvious things in conversation as if they have just invented hot water.
I can't deal with it.

>>17021478
>>17023955
I actually find some unexpected answers in this book.

Idk what I’m going to do. I’m honestly horrified. Never thought i would get to this point but here I am. Idk whether to shave or to just keep it bushy. idk what’s she’s going to think of my skinny physique and the fact that I’m below average in size. Honestly the whole situation just seems unpleasant I should just tell her that I want to wait till marriage because at that point she would be locked in and just have to accept it.

When weather report said in all seriousness Tuesday will be more cloudy, my mother and I laughed heartily. In time span of month or so we saw maybe whole 5 minutes of sunshine.

Thinking about whether my life is as tough as it should be... I feel this thought will greatly occupy me today.

He searched through his 2014 meme folder. Though disorganized, he could intuit the general position of the meme he knew would make for the perfect reply. Add the seconds passed, he knew his chances for getting a fpbp were rapidly declining.
And there it was a crying fisherman wojak with a boot on his fishing line. Incredible. He prayed for an easy captcha. If properly executed, this post would receive at least three (you)'s, easily becoming his most successful post of the day.
The captcha loaded. Gerald clicked the three cars.
His heart sunk as the images began to slowly fade. All hope was lost.
As he waits for the captcha to process his answer, he immediately checks the update button, and there was the first poster already ahead of him. Fueled in rage, the college dropout stared at one of his 5 screens and gazed upon the first reply. It was none other than "my diary desu", attached with a sad pepe.
Gerald exploded internally. "Faggot", he thought in resentment, "it's not even funny." To compensate for his failure, he thought of resorting to the good old reliable, the opus of (you) bait one shall say: the unrelated twitter screencap.
Thus he took to twitter for his cause. With a gaze sharper than any pirates', and fingers oily enough to be invaded by burger troops, he typed in "women of color" at the search bar. The plate of tendies began to cool down as his middle finger rubbed up and down the scroll wheel on his mouse at top speed.
And there it finally appeared: a tweet written by a transsexual anarchist, whose bio consists of too many mental illness' to count on one hand. Right click, screencap, done. Not enough time to move the it into the /pol/ folder, he thought. Attention awaits him.
Gerald spared no time opening the reply window. "Oh god, oh fuck. Why NOW?", he yelled internally as he tried to correctly capture the traffic lights in this damned captcha.
After the 3rd try he has done it at last, and now nothing would stop him from bathing in (you)s. But as soon as he hit "post", a trembling, suppressed fear occurred which he had not taken into consideration: "Specified thread does not exist anymore", the red pop-up says. "No way, this can't be..." Gerald feared, and clicked on 'update" one last time. The thread was indeed pruned or deleted by the almighty jannies.
In devastation Gerald returned to his old habit of youtube binging. The tendies are already too cool to enjoy, and the not-so-crisp taste combined with today's defeat left his mouth with bitterness that only a new joe rogan episode could eliminate. Thankfully the gods answered his prayer this one time and granted him this video on his feed.
The glow of his 5 screens filled the dark room with melancholic cyber-ambience, and while Gerald was at last defeated by the unruly forces of the internet, he at least could finally learn to clean his room and thus take up more responsibility by the father figure he has never had.

>>17025087
calm down, either she'll like it or she won't. Get it out of the way.

>>17025111
That hit a bit too close to home.

I broke my wrist last night and got three big lacerations on my arm from breaking some windows to save some dogs during a house fire, the owner of whom I absolutely despise. It's all in a days work for a hero like me.

My lads, everything is so dreadful these days, I drink, I write, I wait for the day to pass, as if anything pleasant was to be found in the future.
Everything goes wrong, I could not even begin to tell you all of the things that are utterly devastated.
But tonight, by some miraculous act of fate, I have been invited to dine with some people I barely know, I could have declined, as I'm clearly in no condition to go, but I honestly don't care, I'm going.

>>17025937
Go to rehab anon, you deserve a better life.

>>17023670
This. My parents only met my fiance twice. When we have kids, my kids will never meet their grandparents if possible
I took one too many painful lessons on what NOT to do when raising a child, and I plan to raise kids with self-confidence who learn to love themselves and not be scared of the world.
My sister moved to another country (I'm from the EU) when she was 21 and she looks way healthier and happier than me who kept contact with my parents until 28 (I'm now 2 months away from 30)

face-to-face with the fact that the reason of my misery was always internal; quite liberating, pinpointing it led me to the never expiring solution

>>17026056
Suicide?

I have such an excess of fear. And fear I wouldn't mind in itself, if it weren't for the physical effects. Every day I dread the pounding heart, pounding so hard it hurts my chest, the sweat, the nausea, the trembling. It feels like losing my mind. It feels like dying. I would rather die than keep dying these little deaths every day. But what can I do? It's stomach bug season, and I'm deathly afraid of catching one. I haven't thrown up in 8 years now. Sometimes I think I'd rather die than throw up.

>>17017042
Kinda want to break my arms tonight.

>>17026059
what else? i've tried, but that's the only thought that has given me confort in the last years

>>17026073
Go for it, you might want to have some heroin ready just in case, it seems to be trending recently.

>>17021496
Oh, I like role-reversal too.
Tiny guys and Girls that can crush watermelons with their thighs. He wears comfy oversize sweaters and she wears a leather jacket and ray-bans. CUTE!

>>17026076
You should talk to somebody, it helps.
And remember that it is never too late to improve your life, I'm in a pretty dark place too, but things can improve, anon.

>>17026090
I've got half a bottle of tequila.

I got a 100 on my test bros. My chinese ex gf and latina ex ex gf complemented my looks today. I usually code in java but yesterday i wrote a code to make it rain in python. Did i tell you i am a premed student? Yesterday i resuccitated a 2 day old corpse. I bumped my head on my way out of the classroom today because i am 6' 2 tall. Of course all of these achievements i have managed inspite of bumping dying threads on an anonymous website 8 hrs a day. It is true most anime posters are sub 90 iq, but not me hehe. Sadly i am bald on one side of the head.

>>17024956
Yeah, I invented hot water, and it's not that great.

>>17025087
It's not the size of the boat, it's the motion of the ocean.

>>17026074
Nothing an evening with the boys won't fix

>>17026137
I don't drink (because of the fear of throwing up)

Just felt like writing random stream of conscious

A gold bullet of sun breaks through my temple and spills grey matter on the bed. My cat jumps on beside me and licks the goop tentatively. I rub my fingers against my forehead as thoughts lay deflated in my skull. There's nothing between my ears but light, I open my mouth and fireballs fly out. Admittedly, I've had more comfortable mornings than this but it could be worse. My cat hasn't said anything about the state of my room or the fifteen mugs and water bottles plopped randomly like subway trash. I have class in forty minutes and I haven't checked whatever assignments are due, but it's unlikely that fire breathing and a hole-filled head won't suffice as an excuse for my unpreparedness. I watch the sun loading up another ray to smite me with but I try to keep it nonchalant. Like Captain Ahab I think the sun is a dick, and I can't be bothered to pay it mind just for a couple cavities in my skull.

>>17017843
you have no soul either, my friend, nor does anyone. Or anything. Love what's left of the world without that

>>17026108
That'll do nicely.
>>17026169
That just sounds like a anxiety disorder. Better self medicate with heroin or alcohol.
>>17026076
Have you tried going to a psychiatrist? or self medicated with heroin or alcohol. whichever is easier and more accessible to you.

>>17017415
Try selfharm

>>17026186
>A golden bullet of sun breaks through my temple and sprays grey matter on the bed. My cat jumps up beside me and licks tentatively at the sludge. I rub my fingers against my forehead and thoughts lay deflated in my skull. There's nothing between my ears but light, I open my mouth and fireballs spill out. Admittedly, I've had more comfortable mornings than this but it could be worse. My cat hasn't said anything about the state of my room or the fifteen mugs and water bottles spread randomly like subway trash. I have class in forty minutes and I haven't checked whatever assignments are due, but it's unlikely that fire breathing and a hole-filled head are a valid excuse for my unpreparedness. I watch the sun loading up another blinding round to smite me with but I try to keep it nonchalant. Like Captain Ahab I think the sun is a dick, but I can't be fucked to start throwing spears just because of a couple holes in my skull.

>>17025087
>I should just tell her that I want to wait till marriage because at that point she would be locked in and just have to accept it
This is going end your relationship, either now or later

>>17026169
Of all the reasons to avoid drinking this has to be one of the worst

>>17026169
>>17026227
>That just sounds like a anxiety disorder. Better self medicate with heroin or alcohol.
This guy seems like he's got heroin on the brain, but I unironically did self-medicate with alcohol to deal with an anxiety disorder- now, I can't advise it, because I'm what you'd call an anti-addictive personality, but I did keep a flask of high-proof on me for a while, just to take a sip before talking to strangers, or such.

>>17026586
Did you find it worked? Settled anxiety?

>>17026663
Not him but heroin dude, SSRI or Cognitive Behavior Therapy work better in the long term. But it definitely does work, just start slow with one or 2 beers or a sip of vodka/whiskey here and there.

>>17026663
yeah. keep in mind I'm talking in single-sip doses here.

>>17022665
What do you listen to?

I want to kill myself, but I still installed tinder for some last minute sexual pleasure before I reach the other side. I've gotten a few matches, how do I tell girls (and guys) on tinder I want to wear a skirt and get pegged by them?

>>17017042
A few weeks ago, I watched this tutorial on how to sing like Kurt Cobain (not a singer, just watched it out of curiousity) and he said something along the lines that Kurt would try to push his voice to max but as soon as he was trying to hit those high notes, his voice would start to give up and crack since it was out of his reach (or maybe he did it on purpose but that's besides the point)
Anyway this led me to compare it with my brain: just like his voice, it is decent but whenever I try to push it to max, it just cracks. I might have a glimpse of some big brain knowledge but then I find out there's another layer of complexity to it and my brain gives up, it becomes too much for me. I suppose it's the midwit curse.

I'm having a very good day working from home. Feel very professional and component, in a way that I don't normally feel. I'm such a good corpo

>>17027240
Compotent desu*

>trump to pardon assange
>ACLU tweets "Pardon Snowden."
>someone links me to it
>read comments
>it's all liberals and "Ridin with Biden! Dog mom :) Liberal Socialist" people shrieking that assange/snowden should be killed for being "traitors" and "russian spies" and celebrating g-men
>literal cheney-tier republican talking points from the mid 2000s, the shit jon stewart made fun of
>but they're all liberals
>cheerleading the intel community and warhawks

Has anyone else hit that point where they see the beliefs of the masses as completely meaningless?

>>17025111
Genuinely excellent Gerald, but you're ruining your life with the youtube binging day wasting, and you should read a book all day today to break the pattern before you wake up 35 years old someday soon, suddenly too deep down the hole to ever find the motivation to change again. From there things get really weird. You don't want to know how weird.

>>17026113
My male friend says this is the best post of all time

Why can't I find the antonym for respectively. Where is it and why isn't it used more? Doing everything in backwards succession is such an intriguing concept.

>>17027888
Irrespective of

>>17027896

Thanks anon, but it just doesn't into the sentence very well :(

I started talking to a cute dorky girl online that lives 20km and likes krautrock and anime. She hasn’t responded in a day I really hope she does.

>>17028020
There aren't any girls online anon, it was just me checking if you would fall for it. Gootz ya, now try heroin and try to forget about me.

I was constipated all weekend and was worried that I would have to go in to the office tonight in such a state, but I just extruded a healthy sienna kielbasa during a visit to the water closet.

>>17028155
I'm happy for you, Anon.

>>17028020
Don't simp, king. If she only hits you up when she is bored she isn't worth it. There are plenty of reasons why it would take a day or two to get back to someone, especially given the time of the year and finals schedules and whatever, but don't put all your eggs in this basket. Don't hang on the phone waiting for her to text. Discord girls are mentally ill.

How do you interpret the following sentence :

>See how the infinite divides.

Is that the infinite divides things, or the infinite is dividing itself?

>>17017042
I'm a stupid, lazy, terrible person, but things have been going very well for me. Lately I've been unsure if I'm on a 6 year lucky streak, or if I'm just too pessimistic.

>>17017042
nah. its a facebook-tier buzzword

>>17028892
The interpretation would be left up to the following sentences to fill context.

>>17028921
It doesn't give that much context.

>See how the infinite divides, and the divers are not to blame for the rift spanning distant shores.

I guess you could say that the "rift" tend to imply the first interpretation but I don't really feel it. Maybe it's meant to be ambiguous.

>>17025111
I saved this post. I will then wait a couple of weeks before reposting it and it will guarantee me at least 2 or 3 (You)'s.

>>17026074
This picture reminds of the story Silence - A Fable by Edgar Allan Poe. It's a very good story that has always somehow fascinated me.

I'm thinking of ending things

The only way for a "Great" Reset to occur to to push propaganda enough. We have entered the technological commercial age. All giants try to push as much propaganda as possible to subvert the minds and cause civil dissonance. But propaganda is optional, which is why we are all here. It's only a matter of years until a "Great" Reset would actually come by if all the right measures and right circumstances occurred. But as for now enjoy your time while it lasts because anything could happen in the future.

I just don't know anymore, lads.

Hi anons. My ex cheated on me. Now I hate and can't trust women. Not just that but I developped a sexual attraction for traps now. If she knew this you think she would think I'm a faggot loser or she'll be spited.

>>17017042
>Great Reset
Gibberish cope spread by wagie losers. Only the hopeless regurgitate this idiotic conspiracy.

>>17023862
If you want to attach yourself to dogma, religion, etc...it ought to be organic not salad bar pick-and-choose. Though since Catholicism is the greatest religion of all it is quite easy to "pick and choose" without organically enveloping yourself with it. LARP is a scourge on man, but it can be defeated by letting what you believe grow naturally.

I had a nice dream about a woman and now I feel a vague kind of loss

Big titties are the only thing that keep me from killing myself

>>17027802
read tons of stories from 30+ neets who just lost all hope someday and weren't aware of how much time really passed. now they're kinda fucked for good unless they have someone to rely on. very scary stuff. I'd rather end up like travis from taxi driver than in inescapable neetdom

>>17017042
For fucks sakes, I hate having to wake up for work so early. Not only that, to get there I have to ride a barely held together bicycle that my grandad bought second hand over 30 years ago. And there's an over 40% chance it'll be raining when I leave the house. At least I've only got like a week and half left of this, then I'm back on the unemployment battalion, unless of course a Christmas miracle happens and some office cunt who eats £3 meal deals for breakfast, lunch and dinner takes pity on me and offers me an extension of some sort so I can keep pushing yorks from one end of a warehouse to the other all day long for a little while longer still. Bought a load of books today though as a little treat which was nice. Right, anyways, I'm off to bed lads. Sleep tight my lovelies.

You ok?

>>17029779
who anon?

>>17029779
Not really.

>>17029586

>>17021513
>read a book
Great argument.

>>17028061
lolbased

>>17026113
bretty gud

cant get my sleeping pattern in order. fall asleep late, wake up dead, end up taking a nap, the nap makes me fall asleep late, repeat. it's shitty. I can afford it being shitty but I feel like a zombie a lot of the time

>>17029944
Stop making me feel old anon.

>>17030078
The most important thing about sleep hygienic is waking up at the same time every day and not napping irregardless of when you fall asleep.

https://www.cci.health.wa.gov.au/Resources/Looking-After-Yourself/Sleep

>>17030078
>>17030102
also try heroin or alcohol to help you.

>>17030078
wake up when you want to wake up, regardless of how hard it is - set 3 alarms if you have to
don't take a nap no matter what - drink some caffeine if you have to, but don't do it within 6 hours or so of when you want to go to sleep
go to sleep at a set time - if you're not tired, you didn't do enough - get more exercise

>>17028892
the infinite just is. Most of your conscious existence is just imposing division on what's 'one," The very act of living is watching the infinite divide.

Used to come on /lit/ when I was 19 and internally laugh at losers on here for having shitty jobs or NEETing at an older age. Now I'm 24 and as much a loser as the litizens I laughed at. The worst part is I can't see anything that I fully did 'wrong' other than the obvious career choice (musician). I worked hard everyday since high school and lead a pretty healthy, ascetic life other than on weekends when I went to local shows. It may in the end be worth it but it sure doesn't look like it will. I should have seen the many signs that artists around me struggling gave off but I just attributed it to lack of hard work which was a huge mistake. Anyway I'm starting a new project with a girl soon.

It's said that it's human nature to always want more, to the point that they get what they want and instantly stop caring about it, only wanting more. It's funny how true that seems for me right now. I swear, though, I'll break that pattern as soon as I have decent, sustainable income.

>>17030154
>>17030111
>>17030102
ill try it

>>17030181
You haven't gone all in, if you are going the high risk route of musician go all the way! try heroin like >>17026227 get drunk every day like >>17025937 this is your life, live write! Hell even try going outside :3 I believe in you anon! you might even get to hold girls hands !!!!!!

>>17030102
At my job I work one week of 7-3 then one week of 3-11. Endlessly, until I retire.

>>17030245
Yea but I been looking for other options now that making music for whole days has lost some of its meaning. Talebs notion of Extremistan and how we are in increasingly in an environment that relies on extreme rare events really brings me down in regards to ever having a music career.

I like my girlfriend but I worry that others will judge our relationship. I know it's not something one should care about, but I suppose I take the judgements of others more seriously than I should.

>>17030385
physician time.

>>17030462
>Talebs notion of Extremistan and how we are in increasingly in an environment that relies on extreme rare events really brings me down in regards to ever having a music career.

You are thinking to much about the human experience. It hasn't changed much through the ages.

>>17030518
Stop being a weak shit and stand by yourself and your girl.

>When I get a blunt, I light it. Take two pulls, and get excited.

17 days until weed is legal.

>>17030518
Is she a different race or are you a budding Humbert?

>>17030518
do you let her get railed by Jamal or something?

>>17030729
A little bit of both. She's of age but looks a lot younger.

>>17030883
Jesus anon don't you respect yourself enough to uphold your woman?

There's something more viscerally disgusting about farting and shitting with this particular drink in your system than anything else. Your shit doesn't just smell like shit, it smells like an open sewer, rotting flesh even, but that's all alcohol does is rot your flesh, but for some reason the rot in your intestines just feels and smells worse than even if you were to get drunk off something like Bud Light or cheap whiskey.

>>17030973
don't i know it brother

>>17030973
take the hashpill

>>17029882
My bb :)

>>17031122
why hash instead of regular weed flower or dabs?

I wish I had a teacher to really push me to be my absolute best.

>>17029595
I am currently trying to avoid this outcome. I stopped smoking weed last spring after ten years of almost daily use, I started reading again, played less videogames.

Now I have this fixation with clearing my backlogs so that every moment can be an honest assessment of how the time should be spent, instead of reverting to something just because it's there. It's made me realize how many videogames and tv shows were just something to do instead of an actual worthwhile experience, resulting in me giving away nearly half of my physical media. I want to be more selective in the future, because if even the escapism starts giving me anxiety there's no point. I'm still struggling with anhedonia sometimes, because the weed isn't coating everything in vague comfort, but I enjoy the sobriety and clarity. I know on some level it's kicking the can down the street a bit, but I wanted to excise the numbing over-stimulation before tackling the harder stuff.

Should stop smoking soon. Books are nice. Have a fine day anons.

>>17017947
Cringe but redpilled.

>>17023459
>That or a lot of posters got so deeply twisted last night that they can't tell what board they're on.
I thought I was on /sci/, then I thought I was on /lit/ but then I realised I was on /sci/ all along. Then I closed the tab and went back to /lit/.

>>17026202
>you have no soul either
Hylic

I think I just found the secret of prolonging reading concentration that even the great philosophers knew of, bros. I'll share my findings once I've completed my research.

>>17017042
i was with her for years and now im not. its been a year but ive been dreaming about just walking with her recently

>>17017396
nowhere near his best poem

shut the fuck up whiny ass bitch

Why is shallow entertainment so addictive? I come here to troll threads again and again when I know I'd have a better time reading, playing a game, even watching a movie. But I still do it. Wtf

>>17017042
/pol/ and /biz/ are like crack; /lit/ and /adv/ are like a cigarette.

>>17017843
Men don't have souls either. We are equally shallow, vain, lazy, narcissistic primped up show-bulls gyrating in place on a merry-go-round platform at the center of the visible universe, a universe that by its interminable revolution we have construed to be ever-changing and yet ever-fawning, unknowable and yet perfectly reflective of our own circular plight, a reverse-panopticon beholding us from every angle, an Eden ours for the venturing if only we'd stop spinning our wheels, detach and veer off on the mind's tangent into the big empty. I've read that suicide, counterintuitively, can be an evolutionary advantage; those tribes whose depressed, effete, useless men removed themselves from the breadline were better able to support their healthy individuals. What's this say about the soul except that it is a vestigial object, a steam engine that's been outmoded by the splitting of the atom--in short, that the Major Man was only ever a stepping stone to the heights we occupy now, that progress, like inflation, is both artificial and irreversible until the moment of its tipping over. In the end, you and I will amount to nothing but words inscribed on a microchip in a junkyard. Or wisps in the cloud that exists nowhere and sheds its hosts as an insect sheds skin. All you can ever do is stare lifelessly and lustily at the mare's supple rump oscillating right in front of you, until the day everything collapses and you wake up and conjugate your bodies in the dingy trash heap of civilization. Embrace women. Or embrace men. It doesn't matter. But loneliness is a terrible perspective from which to observe entropy. [[[Btw, I'd better not see this gracing the pages of that new magazine. I'm fuckin serious.]]]

>>17017042
The real Great Reset will be the friends we made along the way

>>17017042
older brother attempted suicide yesterday, second time this year. first was in January.
It may seem strange but I honestly despise him for it. Ive never much cared for him but now I truly hate him.
I remember the first time, he jumped off our second floor balcony and shattered his hip. I could hear him yelling and screaming out in pain from my room. I quickly deduced what had happened, since earlier he was in an argument with our mother and said something along the lines of "you make me want to jump off the balcony". I listened to him yell out in pain for a bit, and the only thing I thought to myself was "what a fucking idiot." and I put on some merzbow to drown out the sound. it was night and there was no one at home except for me and him at that point in time, I was the only one who could help him or call an ambulance in that moment, and I didnt. I left him out there and made him wait for out mother to return home and find him in that state, I dont even know how long he was really out there for. The second time, which was just yesterday, he purposely overdosed on medicine. Me and my brother stay on the second floor of the house, so I was downstairs, doing whatever and when I was about to go back upstairs I could hear my mother sobbing. she was talking to a lady on the phone who was repeating the phrase "1, 2, 3, 4, 1, 2, 3, 4" it was a 911 operator instructing my mother on how to perform CPR. She had found my brother in his bed not breathing with a suicide note on his desk. eventually the ambulance came, got his breathing and blood pressure under control and took him to the hospital.
I hate that cunt so fucking much. I dont think this is the normal response to a family member attempting suicide but I dont care, I want to break his jaw whenever I look at him.

>>17032827
hey man, you sound like your family's issues have infected you as well. Seek help. I'm serious. (Doesn't have to be a therapist. Just talk to someone) Try to be gentle with your family, they are fallible, selfish, unremarkable people the same as you. Also, you have to be 18 to post here

>>17032853
im 20. brother is around 28 maybe? i dont know.
also, im fine. his suicide attempts left me largely unaffected emotionally. I just really dont like him.

>>17030973
>blue when cold
what's going on here? is it the little sticker that changes color according to temp? if so, that's pretty cool

Nigerian Juju Fetish Forum: FML.>>17032743

>>17030518
post her onlyfans

>>17030973
Is that a beer in a plastic bottle?
Do americans really?

>>17032743
true philosophy fren.

>>17033317
Europe had beer in plastic bottles singe ages now, although it's usually a 2L bottle intended to be cheap stuff for parties and alcoholics with very limited budget.

>>17032908
Maybe he has borderline personality disorder or some kind of cluster b personality disorder it's really hard to care for those people. But it's useful to learn skills to set boundaries in relationships with them. Seek a therapist if not for you then for your mom. Good luck anon.

>>17033394
Eastern Europe trash 'beer', yeah. It's really disgusting.

>>17032827
>>17032908
You shouldn't feel bad about it, everyone thinks the same about suicides. Nobody actually feels any empathy whatsoever in general.

>>17024114
post hand

>>17032911
Yes it does, there's some other cheap shitty beers that do that too, I think Coors does it
>>17033317
It gets you as drunk as a six pack for a third of the price

>>17033677
>It gets you as drunk as a six pack for a third of the price
If you can't afford a six pack you shouldn't be drinking.

I need to change community, I have tried almost everywhere on the internet but it seems like every environment about the topics I am interested in has the same people, same thoughts, same values as here on 4chan more or less. IRL I have no outlet because this town is shit and I hate it and I've burnt bridges with everyone in it. I feel like going mad sometimes when the only human contact I have is this site and 90% of it is aggravating

>>17033756
If everyone you meet is doesn't meet your requirements maybe the problem is with yourself? Stop expecting of others what you can't meet yourself faggot.

>>17033693
I drink precisely because I am in that position

>>17032908
>>17032827
It seems like you have some extremely serious issues of your own, Anon. Ignoring your brother wreathing in pain with a fractured hip after he tried to kill himself while you were the only person around that could help him? This is somewhat disturbing. And what would have happened if you found him overdosing instead of your mother? You would have left him to die and just to watch some anime or something? Seriously, you need to seek help.

>>17033782
get yourself together anon, don't be a worthless waste of space. strive for something more.

>>17033782
>>17033793
Remember even if nobody around you cares for you or your success, I do.

shoulda banged that QT when I had the chance

>>17033793
I don't think anyone is truly worthless even at the lowest pits of depravity, I'm in this bad moment now but it too will pass. I take comfort in knowing that everything is transient.

>>17033853
>I don't think anyone is truly worthless even at the lowest pits of depravity
based and christpilled

>>17033853
Good on you anon, now lay of the booze. You can climb out of this pit I believe in you :)

>>17033866
I'm actually an Atheist but thank you, the world would be a better place if people acted a little bit more like Jesus (and Judas, the holiest apostle imo, not that my opinion matters)

>>17033780
please take a bread knife and saw your stupid fucking head off thanks

>>17027768

It’s both programming and a crisis in identity. Also, the CIA owns the media.

>>17033954
I wonder why you can't find a community that will accept you. I guess you are stuck with us.

>>17033987
I'm sick and tired of this act, people on this site are worthless trash. I thought anonymity brought up sincerity while all it does it bring up even more LARP than social media and nothing but the worst of the worst. Fuck you, I hate you.

>>17034009
look at how you are acting would you act like that to a person in real life? You don't belong to a group because you don't know how to behave yourself. You are raging at a internet stranger who's trying to point out your behavior.

>>17034034
>look at how you are acting would you act like that to a person in real life?
Yes if they acted like people act on this shit site yes.
People acted like trash first, every single time, I treat them like trash if they act like trash. It's not my fault if people are garbage, but people on this site are particularly loathsome and I want out. I really want out, I had no problem because fucking Facebook and phoneshittery. I hate normies so fucking much.

>>17034047
*before facebook
I am more social that you are you fucking chinlet. I had more friends than you, I got laid more than you. You are framing me as some kind of reject when it was me who rejected you all. God, people are disgusting. You're right that maybe there is no community for me at all.

>>17034047
See your problem it's everybody's else's fault but your own. You are the trash here anon.

>>17027768
It's amazing how the intelligence services have completely neutralized the left as a threat to capitalism. Personally, I've learned to stop worrying and love neoliberal capitalism. Not even trolling, those new Apple headphones with the gyroscope so the surround sound stays fixed in place like a theater even if you turn your head are comfy af.

>>17034063
I ghost people, people don't ghost me.

>>17034055
Did you start posting racist memes on Facebook so everyone realized what a chud you are? Bummer dude, get some social skills.

>>17034071
Being anti social isn't something to brag about. Get a grip on reality.

>>17034079
keep projecting retard
>>17034086
I don't brag about it, it's just that the instant you claim to be dissatisfied people assume you are not fitting into society because you don't meet the standards, and other stupid projection and strawmanning. It's just not true, it is my problem with people, people don't have a problem with me.
What reality should I get a grip on? That people are trash?

do do dooo do do dooo do doot do doo do do do do do do dooo
do do do dooo

>>17034113
People are hopeless trash. I don't know why people pretend otherwise.

>>17034113
Take it to /r9k/, no one cares.

>>17034126
whine to the jannies faggot

Most friendships are boasting circles and dominance head butting. Who needs it? The primary interactive state of humans is boredom. Why even bother?

I've just finished a 3-day period of no internet use (barring wikipedia for references during reading), and I've realized the internet should have never become a tool for leisure. During that time, I must have read 100+ pages per day, and also completed a video game which is rare. Right now, I'm limiting my leisure time online to 3 hours per day, but perhaps I will make it smaller or find some other solution later. Hell, I even came up with a topic to explore and write a piece about, which is quite rare for me. When you're not distracted by constant sensation, you're much more capable of addressing all the things that matter to you.

>>17026257
>just because of a couple skull cavities.

>>17034113
It's not that I don't believe you fit in it's that I know you don't know how to compromise and get along with people. You lack fundamental skills to tolerate other people that would be in your interest to develop. How to develop and maintain true relationships takes effort, clear boundaries and mutual respect among other things.

>>17034180
>just because of a few cavities in the skull.

>>17034201
>How to develop and maintain true relationships takes effort
What is this effort about? Tolerating people's stupid shit you hate and smiling? Tolerating that they do not have basic human values? Wow it must have been such an effort on their side to tolerate a well-spoken, clean, normal person who loved many things about the world.

>>17034386
You can't find social circles that you think you are worthy of because they don't associate with people like you. Stop looking down on others and you might stop being a dick.

>>17034179
I'd like to suggest to everyone by the way to turn auto-update on 4chan off. And app notifications on your phone too, unless it's something you really care about. Stop giving your attention out to things for free, you only have so much of it to work with.

My heart is beating irregularly and I feel constant pressure where the heart is. I won't go to the doctor because if I'm lucky I'll die. I am not using any substance these days so I really don't know what's going on. Maybe I'll go to the doctor anyways. Maybe it's cancer but I don't hope so. I want to decide how to die myself and cancer is way too painful also not a free decision which would be annoying. Then again it could motivate me to finally do it on my own.

>>17034944
you should read Tolstois "The Gospel in Brief". Life is inherently good anon.

>>17028061
>try heroin
Shut the fuck up, siegenigger.

>>17034944
Dude, I had that this year. I think it's "symptomless" covid. I would wake up with my heart beating super fast like I was in the middle of a sprint. Then I'd have chest pain so bad I couldn't sleep on the same side as my heart. This was in the spring around the time of the first lockdown. I'm not going to get tested for the antibodies though in case they use it as an excuse to jack up my obamacare premiums since Biden called covid a "pre-existing condition" in the debate with Trump.

My little brother is becoming more of a chad than me. He joined a muay thai boxing gym a couple years back and now he looks like some sort of weightlifter when he takes his shirt off, whereas my body is quite pathetic. I also fear that he is harder than me now, which was never the case for all our years growing up. I am a social outcast, and he, although our physiognomy is almost identical, has loads of friends and seemingly all of the girls in his school fawn over him. It's really strange, I don't resent him for it, I love him of course, but it makes me wonder what I did wrong or what happened to me to make me so inferior when we are almost genetically identical.

>>17035522
I had a weird experience sort of related to you and your brother. There was a kid in my crew of stoner/skater kids that was on the younger end of the spectrum. He was still in high school while some people were getting old enough to buy beer. Anyways, one night we had a huge party at his dad's house, and there was this fat kid with a stubbly neckbeard sulking around that wouldn't drink or smoke and just sort of shuffled here and there. We're like who the fuck is that dude? And the kid is like "oh that's my brother". I figured it was his younger brother because he had no social skills, wouldn't touch a beer or weed, and had corny clothes. Then later I found out that was actually his OLDER brother. I was like oh wow man, haha. So I guess it can happen.

>>17035522
>I also fear that he is harder than me now, which was never the case for all our years growing up.
Typo or Freudian slip?

>>17035953
In American culture being "hard" means being tough and not letting anyone fuck with you i.e. "The boys in the hood are always hard", here's someone taking the piss out of "hardness"

>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hblAppO67Ig

>>17035522
>whereas my body is quite pathetic. I a
Change this.

>>17035978
>>17035953
I'm British. Hard = adept at fighting. If I'm harder than you I can beat you in a fight.

>>17035994
Yeah I'd associate it more with Britain too. Specifically with "come on if you think you're hard enough"

>>17035994
In America it's almost the same but it generally just means willingness to defend your excessively sensitive pride, often by fighting, but shooting is also seen as a valid alternative.

>>17035522
I understand you, I look somewhat above average but my brother is a part-time model so he gets all the looks. It sucks when your little brother gets a girlfriend before you. I'll keep working out so I can be stronger than him at least, like a big brother should be.

>>17034148
Humans weren't always like this. A healthy group does not do this but there are a lot of insecure people these days. It's probably easier to see what humans are meant to be like if you find someone with a well trained dog who does not need verbal commands to work out what the situation is.

>be me
>work really hard all day
>office located in a giant tower
>want to get up top to the executive floor
>it's all or nothing for me
>try to get as far as i can
>be sperm cell
>pic unrelated

if i reword all 154 sonnets shakespeare wrote, will I end up writing like him?

>>17035208
>inherently
Stop using words you don't understand.
>>17035313
American health system seems harsh man.

>>17036209
Not him, and not saying he would have thought of this, but it's one of the best uses of inherently in terms of heritability. It's practically tautological.

>decide I want to stop being a loser
>start working out, dress better, practice my social skills
>hard work but I keep at it
>start making real progress
>decide to start dating
>hell yeah I've made it
>tfw every single girl I meet is just after my penis
uh what the fuck bros?

>>17034179
I think I'm gonna try that.

>>17017042
Wittgenstein was a suicidal maniac.

>>17036285
Nice, I can't wait to read him. Does he write in english, german or dutch?

I am thoroughly bored by my law studies and filled with anxiety with the idea of it being my career. I'll use the last ambers of my time as a student to write something and try to be published. I have never written anything before and my focus is shot because of internet but somehow I feel like this is my only way out. If I fail, I'll accept my fate as a drone.

>>17017042
The Real Great Reset was the Covid Variants we gathered on the way.

my dad's had a lot of back pain the past couple days to the point he had to go to the hospital. i feel like ive been happy with life for so long and this is just a smack in the face from what feels like death. just another reminder that everything has its end

4chan is one of the best things that the internet gave me. Where would I get such unfiltered, honest even if retarded thoughts if not 4chan. In a way, communicating with people in real life becomes even more underwhelming since I discovered this place, but maybe it's not a bad thing.

>>17036388
Good question. The TLP and his notebooks were all in German as far as I know, but his letters to Anglos were in fluent English. He also learned Norwegian after moving to Skjolden to work on logic in isolation, so he probably wrote some letters in that language.

Every night I pray that I die in my sleep.

I feel betrayed by a friend who I used to consider close and coincidentally it's the perfect time to humiliate him. What should I do?

>>17036742
>I feel betrayed by a friend who I used to consider close
What did he do?
Maybe you're being paranoid and stupid.

>>17035522
who fucking cares, a running zombie has more merit than a regular zombie but it's still a fucking zombie

>>17036209
why is it a wrong use of "inherently"? What is meant is "if there is human life, then that life is good", that goodness is a quality inherent to human life

>>17036742
not do that thing, but forgive him and not hold a grudge. all humans fuck up, I'm sure you've fucked up too, I know I have. the best we can do is try and rise above it

>>17036742
Get treated for bpd

>>17036967
topkek

>>17036597
you have to be 18 to post here

>tfw the more time I spend on the internet the more I realize that my dick is actually on the larger side

I suppose my mind has been warped by porn and reality is much different. I keep seeing people on this website and others talking about their cock sizes and huge amounts of them are smaller than me.

I don't have some monstrous python or anything, but I still seem to be bigger than a lot of the people who post about such things online. It's kind of neat to realize.

>>17036538
I hope he gets better anon.
>>17036597
I love you too desu
>>17036627
Go see a psychiatrist, and maybe drink some alcohol I care about you anon. Don't try heroin.
>>17036742
Revenge is for niggers and (((jews))), what would Hitler do?

>>17036251
thats how hookup culture be
when youre older or have a wide circle of friends you can start dating for personality
most hot girls use sex as validation, not communion

Does spontaneity in a vacuum really exist? If not then that would mean there is something out there without a beginning, something that just is and always has been, that everything is a consequence of, the foundation of existence. If there is and everything has a beginning then where was the first thing ever created? In a void? But that would be something. My point is that something out there exists something that has always existed, beyond the limits of time and space and the universe is something without a beginning, something that just "is". In the bible God says "I am that I am", and I think he always has been, and always will be, without beginning or end, just everything there ever was without exception, no antecedent, or antithesis, merely what is in it's entirety.

>>17037170
not him but similar. I am at the point where i am content by myself and writing poetry. The thought of relationships or even socialising with girls fills me with dread, not because I am anxious, but because I'd rather be writing poetry, playing video games or jacking off than bothering with another person's inane lifestyle and behaviour.

I'm right wing but I cannot stand /pol/, especially right now in this cope state with Trump losing. But worst of all is that people don't understand civics and if you try to explain to them how something won't work in the favor of Trump, you must be a discord tranny Bidenshilling demoralization poster.
Yesterday I made posts explaining why the Republicans are submitting secondary electoral college votes- because they need to have them on the books in case the ongoing court cases change the results. But we have all these dumb uninformed shitposts about how its going to be a contested election and VP Pence will get to pick and choose which electoral votes he wants to use, when that really isn't the case. Or they mix up congress debating whether or not to accept state results on an objection with a contingency election where each state votes 1-vote-per-state.
It's really tiresome knowing that trying to give realistic, even if unideal, information will be ignored or called misinformation by most people who just want confirmation bias.

>>17037140
Truth is having a big dick is overrated outside of bragging rights. Vaginal size/depth varies just like penis length, and if you're in a high percentile or size, you are likely going to hurt your girl. I've never been with a girl capable of taking my coke can fat dick into her throat, which pornography has disillusioned me into wanting.

>>17037233
I thought it would be funny to partake in memeing Trump into office 5 years ago... big mistake completely ruined my anime forum... big mistake. I'm not even from the U.S. the flood of retards that came here after the election and the recent tranny spam and cult like Trump behavior is more then I can handle.

>>17017042
>mfw no longer feel the need for love
>mfw no longer feel the need for sex
>mfw no longer fear death
>mfw I now exist in a constant state of bliss

>>17037280
Finally tried heroin?

>>17036908
Then life also is inherently bad. I think both suggestions are equally pointless. For some humans life is good, for some it's bad. That life is both inherently does not change anything.

>Crack open book
>look at table of contents
>assign chapters per day of the week
>read 10 pages, reward myself with a few minutes browsing /lit/, read 10 pages, repeat until I finish the chapter
This technique is so good that I usually finish the book before the week is over because its so easy that I'm motivated to read more chapters per day than I had previously assigned myself.

>>17037287
nope, never done drugs in my life

>>17037308
>how does evolution work
You're here because diversity and competition for life produces the best life for the environment. The fact you're not dead by now means you're suited to the current environment. If you weren't, you'd not be here.

>>17017042
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>>17037710
What's going on anon?

Everything in my life has ended in complete failure. No matter how hard I tried, how well I did, no matter my qualifications and talents, no matter what optimism and confidence I could muster, everything has ended with a slap to my face. I could be the most qualified person in the room and still lose out. I could meet every checkbox and excel past and still be turned down. I could have ten times over the necessary skill and still lose. It's like a curse from heaven for that very optimism itself. It's like divine punishment for a sin I don't remember committing.

If I were at least a mediocre or even person of lesser ability, I could accept it with dignity, saying, "Ah, but of course, that's to be expected." This is the far more stinging and undignified life's path. Everyone had such high expectations, and not without founding. "How did he manage to fail at that? How can he possibly be doing so poorly?" No one looks at a mediocre man, but everyone's eyes are on the man with potential, and thus complete, repeated failure despite rich potential is the greater tragedy. It's the condition to form a bitterness without match, a despair without bound. It's the worst torture that can be inflicted upon a man and all the worse because he can yet bear it up and showcase himself to the world as the most wretched and disgusting failure and an affront to the aspirations of bright youths. Such a man's existence is a blight on the world.

I want to write an epic fantasy novel but I'm wondering if the scope is becoming too broad with all of my different storylines. The main storyline follows child soldiers involved in a larger quest to destroy these demigods that have been subjugating humanity for millennia, but are only mortal for a short period of time that occurs once every 300 years. The strategy to defeat them is basically a zerg rush, to the point where their past attempt was so bad that the derogatory name for this army is the "Disposable Heroes."
The other main storyline is the political drama that coincides the change in the world order as the demigods begin to be killed. You know, the usual clash of noble houses and the Emperor on top. Right now the rival family is more fleshed out than the main family.

The minor storylines include a character banished by the demigods' to play a tactical game and his secondary quest to find the lost heir of his conquered kingdom who only lives because he was sent to play the same game, one that explores pushing the limits of the magic system, a knight who betrays his order's code when he chooses to continue to protect the former prophet he was sworn to after she loses her powers, and a murder mystery investigation that reveals one of the 3rd act's players in the political drama.

The final piece of the story is the very first part I came up with 15 years ago, about a young man who can separate his soul from his body and goes on a grand mystical adventure but I'm no longer certain how to even tie it back into everything else anymore.

I just finished a paper that I started working on during the night. The paper isn't bad, but it's not as good as my usual writing. I wish I could spend more time on it.

>>17037798
>Tfw failed my way into having comfy life with lots of homemade shit
Why do you need some authority to hand kudos to you?

>>17036285
How was he suicidal when all of his family killed themselves while he continued writing?

>>17017042
The future seems so fucking uncertain. I've spend the last two years reading and going to high school, want to be a writer but am also a poorfag. Is there hope for me, anon brothers? I don't write Fantasy or Science Fiction or Erotica or oppressed or feminist or blm or antifa lit. Is there any hope?
All my education and reading to this point has left me with a single conviction; I don't want to be a wageslave. Is that even possible?

>>17037957
Sure. But if you're at all attached to your standard of living, get a job that meets it and write in time off.

I think I've fried my brain by jerking off to long porn marathons at least once a day (and sometimes two or three or even four times a day) for multiple years. I've cut back a lot recently but it's such an easy thing to reach for when you're stressed or having a bad day or whatever. I'm a huge hypocrite who will write about how I want a pure, innocent gf then go coomer mode two hours later.

I think a prolonged detox is really the only solution, but it's so difficult because any slip ups easily spiral into more of the behavior. For example I think I went three weeks or so with absolutely no pornography, then I have a terrible day and meme myself into thinking it's ok just this once, since I'm feeling so bad. Now I'm back to thinking about porn as something that's permissible to consume. I more easily slip into imagining scenes from pornographic films I have watched while trying to masturbate without porn. I start to dream of porn again (this is really terrifying, like my subconscious can't even imagine having sex normally anymore). Maybe I should just lock my computer in a drawer when I'm not at work.

>>17037918
I'm going to dedicate myself to literature and then commit suicide before 50. I'm still deciding between hanging, drowning, and harakiri. My fascination with harakiri ideation has become something of a fetish. I want to feel as much pain as humanly possible as a means of cleansing the soul and having an experience that no surviving person can ever comprehend. Also Mishima.

I don't want comfort. I want intellectual satisfaction.

I AM APPALLED THERE ARE JEWS FREELY BROWSING MY ANIME FORUM. EVEN DISRESPECTFUL ENOUGH TO FREELY CREATE THEIR OWN THREADS. THEY SHOULD BE SHAMEFUL ABOUT THEIR ANCESTORS SLAUGHTERS. SIMON BAR KOKHBA IS LITERALLY THE WORST WAR CRIMINAL SCUM IN HISTORY DON'T THEY KNOW INNOCENT WOMEN AND CHILDREN WERE KILLED!!!!11

>>17038017
Read Osamu Dazai.
>50
Write about all of them in the meantime.

bump

>>17038034
>Read Osamu Dazai.
>implying he isn't already my favorite author
>implying I'm not already taking inspiration from him

>>17038017
I have similar goals. When my work is done, I plan to starve to death in a forest.

>>17038057
This anon's >>17038060 scooping you

>>17038060
i could never do that. starvation is a long, painful process. that's why it's so esteemed as a path to become a buddha or saint.
but seriously, patrician. fuck old age. slaving away and discarding my true ambitions my whole life just to pay for "retirement" where my skeleton decays alive in an armchair to daytime television.

>>17037903
I'm about to start my night, I have 12 hours to write a 4500 words law essay

>>17038017
>>17038060
I second starvation. Try water fasting it's cleansing for both mind and body.

>>17036597
>4chan
i prefer 4channel myself, thank you.

>>17038245
this might unironically be the best thing to happen in modern 4channel history. If only master Hiro would complete the division we wouldn't have to live in constant risk of filthy /pol/ from overflowing to to us.

>>17037308
this is where you are wrong though. to the extent that anything is bad, it is of the flesh. but the spirit is good. and the spirit btfos the flesh. and the spirit is the life.

>>17037995
just dont bother not fapping. One must in this day and age.