/lit/ - Literature

I'm unhappy.
The year is ending, and I'm really not looking forward to the next year that much.
2020 was so lousy.
The only year that was worse for me 2015 but that was for personal reasons.
I like to think I think important thoughts but they are actually silly and inconsequential thoughts.
God I need structure and a sense of purpose in my life.

Merry Christmas guys

Sometimes I think I should just start doing hard drugs. I smoke a lot of weed, but usually still feel too much. It sucks not being sure if I'll ever feel happy.

Did you know that the authoritative collection of pre-Socratic fragments for over a century was the one by Diels, and after all this time, a new authoritative set has been published in English in the Loeb collection, by Laks and Most? Did you know they're all up on libgen, and you can easily start reading them? Did you know you can read most of the great famous pre-Socratic philosophers, everything we have left of what they said or wrote, in a couple days because everything is so fragmentary? The Laks/Most Loebs only seem long because they are parallel Greek-English and also contain auxiliary fragments not directly pertaining to philosophy, like about biographical details.

>>17109831
Merry Christmas anon, and to everyone else.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nv4QrT6Q-kQ

>>17109856
Weed make you neurotic and annoying to people around you. If you think weed is numbing your feelings you've got it exactly backwards you stupid pot head. And your genius idea to "do hard drugs" instead is a sign of how distorted your thinking has become.

I miss my family

>>17109563
My back itches, just ate a bread and drank coffee. I've been reading Carlyle, don't know if I agree with him or not, and this happens with a lot of other thinkers too. I don't know if I know how to think.
There's a political movement I like, don't know if I should join or not, I don't think I can contribute much.

>>17109964
Is the new version much better than the previous?

2021 is going to be /my year/, I can feel it. I've been making good progress on my porn and internet addictions. I've got over my "obsessed with politics" phase. Everyone is going to be dying to socialize again after coronachan, so it'll be easy to make friends. If I meet a girl I like I'm going to go for it instead of pussyfooting around. We're going to make it bros.

I cried in my bed last night.
I always gave myself a sense of purpose to never fall into depression but I miserably failed. Some girl that only exists in the deep confines of my mind knocked at the door and came in today. She wished me Merry Christmas before she kissed my forehead. Only she knows all the struggles I'm going through. She just sat nearby and listened in rapt attention to all of my woes.

It's kind of sad that she doesn't exist in reality. I would've liked that; to share the burden with someone that doesn't judge, doesn't care about anything and just listens. Sometimes I think that a person like this must exist somewhere but the thought leaves my head the second after. My egoistic ass is already causing enough damages as it is.

Anyway, she listened so someone knows and it got to be enough. Sometimes if there's a thing I absolutely want to tell someone about, she just appears and listens. She's the only person that can keep a secret around these part, and even my friends keep secrets, I'm tired of opening up to people that inwardly relish in knowing that my life is a world of pain.

I'm tired of all of this shit. At this point, religion is one of the only things keeping me alive. I'm alone, I recently fucked up a relationship (perhaps the only sincere one) I've built over the years, I'm failing college, everyone in my family thinks that I'm a douchebag (and it's not an assumption, they don't even hide it anymore) and they're right.

So, yeah. I've literally got nothing left. I'm isolated. No friends, no family. No lovers anymore. There are only this cold, small apartment, me and the coping mechanism I've created in order to fight the urge of dying. I can't even pack my shit and leave since I've got no money and no future.

I want to feel loved.

>>17109563
It's tiring and menial but you'll live and grow

I've wasted my only chance at true love and I'll live the rest of my life searching for substitutes while hounded by regret and plain old depression

>>17109563
Christmas music is annoying and repetitive but it's better than the disgusting shit normally on the radio.

i really want a woman. i have never had a woman all my own before. i think I am ready. i just need to find where to find women in covid. tinder is not ideal except for hook ups.

>>17109563
I wish to retrieve the Rheingeld and fashion it into a ring.

>>17109563
What’s that, a Dutchman? OOOOH NO YOU DID IT THIS TIME! HWAHWAHWHAHWA YOU FOOL! I’M GOIN INSAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA...

Made a doozy of a thing last morning, didn’t I? Done a dumb doozy but didn’t fall for the trappings of diddle-dee (that’s what I call my pops). He be waiting for me but he don’t be knowing I have the bang bang: it’ll all be over soon. Bang bang. It’ll all be over soon, pop.

>>17109563
Is there a collection of all of his works or at least a know order when he wrote wich story. I know something about his stuff, but I never read it. I want to change that. (Same goes for robert e. howard)

the totaly alone i can only hear the sound of he clock and faint singing of chritmass songs coming a catholic church down the street .

it feels good to be warm in side with with a full stomach. truelly peacefull opposed to the my normal routine of physical labor in the cold and wet
in society resembling a rod serlings twilight zone episode. i am greatful to god for this respite

>>17109563
>>17109563
There isn't really anything on my mind most of the time, I'm retarded.

it's fucking windy as shit damn so fucking noisty

I need some sex. I am no different from everyone else on that topic. I get horny. I think about it OFTEN. I'm dreaming of inserting my rod 'A' into female slot 'V'; followed by some lost genetics. Being an Adult Virgin SUCKS! Abstinance is a Joke. I am lonely. I am tired of being ignored and overlooked inbpublic by women. I Need Some Sex.

>>17109563
Merry Christmas and hope you guys have a happy rest of the year!

My New Year's resolution is: I'll try my hardest to find a cute girl willing to beat me up!

>>17109563
I keep on getting a tech based analysis paralysis whenever I am world building. Not with fiction, books or otherwise, but with my own stories. Actual written stories of my own (even if they are only attempts at the moment) are difficult for me to write because I end up trying to flesh out every single little bit of the world. Since all my stories are sci-fi based it's always the technology that I am most focused on.
How does the easy, in house genetic modification work?
How does the outright untraceable long range communications network actually work?
How does the space suit work?

Instead of making up some technobabble I always end up trying to realistically find out how such a thing would work, distracting me from the writing and the actual story.

>>17109563
>That conjunction ritual, the barn owl chasing three bats, chased by three bats — the low fog tendrils crawling out over the land, circling the hill top we observed it from — the fire on the base up north occluding it off and on . . . what does it portend?

Is 21 when we finally hang them, bros?

>>17111999
Trips of truth herald steep rope discounts on the horizon

>>17109856
don't its a d34d 3nd

>>17109563
Merry Christmas to you Anon!

I hope Santa gives coal instead to anyone having sex today.

I hope Santa gives coal instead to anyone having sex today

>>17111842
you should consider having sex

>>17112674
>>17112673

2021 is OUR YEAR bros

Merry Christmas, friends. I'll pray for you.

I think the year has gone well. A women I met loves me but I don't know if I feel the same. Im confused.

I went to the shop and asked if I can buy a goldfish, they said d'you want it in an aquarium, I said I don't care what star sign it is

>>17113052
My mate's in love with two school bags, he's bi-satchel

>>17113056
I phoned the local gym and asked if they could teach me how to do the splits, he said well how flexible are ya, I said I can't make Tuesdays so Thursdays

>>17113065
I went into the local video shop and asked if I can borrow Batman Forever. They said no, you have to bring it back tommorow

>>17113068
I went into a shop and said can someone sell me a kettle. The bloke said Kenwood, is said where's he, where's he then?

The entrance to the whorehouse was guarded by a loutish giant, in a wide-legged pose, like a half-brat, with his arms folded and a chewed toothpick between his bulging lips (as a sign of some rebellion against some authority figure who had probably long since been sleeping the sleep of the righteous in some graveyard - God rest his soul). I bowed in my proper gentlemanly manner and requested entrance to the establishment this rebel so valiantly guarded. After a verbal duel, which we waged with rapier and wooden club, and from which I emerged as the glorious victor, I bowed past the fleshy doorkeeper and pushed my way into the smoky courtyard of a hallway covered with red velvet, which led straight to a small standing desk, behind which a midget welcomed me with the kindest words.

>>17109856
Hard drugs will literally ruin your life so don't do that.

>>17109819
Things will get better.

Haven't been feeling very Christmassy on account of the fact I may have accidentally got my girlfriend pregnant.

>>17109563
It feels as though we're all collectively limping into the New Year, licking our wounds. I hardly see any Christmas decorations around my town, nor does anyone say their goodbye's with a "Merry Christmas" or even a polite "Happy Holidays". Twelve months in and there's no guarantee of normalcy returning anytime soon, vaccine or not. As things progress and more people close their businesses, lose their jobs, and get evicted, we're going to start to see real shit go down if things don't change fairly soon. I think the whole election debacle is overblown. I don't think we'll see real action regarding the election for the simple fact that Trump is more Crassus than Caesar (and perhaps that's being generous). I don't trust the Neo-Liberal regime with their TPP and their Great Reset, and yet I have no justifiable casus belli against them aside from a vague sense that they do not have my best interests in mind. And I'll be honest in saying that anyone who honestly believes Trump plays 4d chess is an idiot. He was voted in as a Fuck You to the system, and his mere presence in the White House fulfilled this objective, actual efficacy be damned. He was never a true leader. A jokester sure, and definitely a performer. But if Spengler is right then a true Caesar will have to emerge eventually. In a nation of 300 million there obviously exists such a person. But we have to see things at their worst, for the system to break down in order for them to take their place. This year could ultimately be a nothingburger in a larger trend of decline or it could be the flint that kicks off something on the level of the Spanish Civil War. It remains to be seen.

>>17113168
How do you think Mary felt??

>>17113191
Mary didn't know what Christmas was yet

>>17109563
I really hate motherfuckers that say that industrial revolution is bad. Nature Good, Human Bad. What's wrong with them?

>>17113168
based
time to become a father anon

Although the old priest was not overly pleased by my presence, he veiled his horror, as is laudable for a clergyman, behind the delicate floral curtain of his clerical smile. Only the trembling of his left eyelid cut like a black tear through the white coffee cup porcelain of his face and served me in the following conversation as a divining rod of sorts.

>>17113261
Probably because they realize it's terrible effects on human society.

>>17110125

>>17110020
same anon. i think we are just the type of people mean to observe, not to participate. somehow stranded on the shore next to the flow of life most participate in.

>>17113261
Relying on non-renewable resources is not wrong, but you have to understand that with only those available your consumption level will fall a lot.
The time to buy those books you want to own is yesterday. I own only slightly over 200 books, but I'm getting the scarcer ones first.

Quite honestly, 2019 was a perpetual dumpster fire that I kept pouring gasoline on because I had no real frame of reference for the types of situations I was faced with. Every time I was in a place where I felt I could stay positive, I allowed another element to become involved that only slowed me down and distracted me. Any time I've genuinely felt the change in attitude necessary to really figure my shit out I make the wrong decision at the next major fork in the road thinking I'm correcting a previous mistake. The harder I try to make things work and be a functioning part of the world around me the more it seems like I have to force myself into things. It feels like the fear I have of accepting the acceptance of those around me is too visible for those offering acceptance to feel like I'm letting them in. But at the same time I feel a sense of division between these people and myself. Walls that I can't take down because I'm not the one who constructed them, nor do I fully understand their purpose. 2019 never really relented in its unfortunate realities. So it only made sense that it would follow me into the next year which had a number of issues in store for all of us, but coupled with the problems I was already facing it really created a sense of hopelessness. Turning to family had failed me so I turned to the friends I forgot I had. Soon after, this failed me all the same. I keep making all the same mistakes and no matter how hard I try or apply myself it seems the universe is working against me. There's always something around the corner ready to make me sad enough to lose my footing. I'm at a point where suicide is more than a viable option since I can't seem to get any more than a few steps ahead before everything falls apart at once. The only thing stopping me is that I might be father before the coming year is out, but the mother and I are separating so that adds a whole other weight to the hurt feelings and confusion. It doesn't help that there could be problems with the pregnancy, but I'm confused further by not wanting my child to have a broken family. The world is on fire and I have nowhere left to turn. It's too cold to turn to the street, my family hates me and so does the woman I want to have a family with. I really don't know what to do anymore and I'm glad I found this thread so I could dump a sliver of the shit that's driving me up the wall somewhere. Now I'm going to watch my pregnant ex girlfriend open presents with her kids, their dad and her sister in law. Wish me luck, anons.

>>17109563
Imagine how little attention you'd be paying to this guy if he wasn't racist.

>>17114387
Leftie cope. He contributed immensely to the genre by introducing it to the cosmic horror subgenre.

There's literally nothing wrong with elitism.

>>17110178
I think you're looking at this wrong anon, there is one person who loves you unconditionally, shares in your struggles, and will never leave: yourself, as represented by your imaginary qt. If you can give yourself this love deep in your dreams or imaginations, why can't you do it in waking life? If you can realize this, you should be able to find the strength to work through your other issues.

Merry Christmas, I hope the new year treats you better.

P.S., if you're religious, why not try talking to a faith leader (or just a devout followers) about how you're feeling? I get that it's kinda cringe but I think most of those people end up where they are in part because they've experienced the same kind of despair you seem to be, but managed to pass through into the light.

>>17114341
Sun is a scarce resource. We either conquer universe or be swept under the rugs.
>>17113761
I'd say that modern healthcare, education and engineering are pretty good.

>>17114545
Maybe the Great Filter is the impossibility of controlled nuclear fusion outside of star cores.

>>17114449
Why tf would I cope about that, idgaf about scifi/horror lit.

>>17114461
Wtf would you know about true elitism.

>>17114598
Because you're a leftie offended that someone doesn't lick nigger boots, hence why you try to downplay his contributions.

>>17114627
Neither leftist nor offended, I just think the jokes about his cat reach a point of diminishing returns.

>>17114638
It's not Lovecraft's fault this board is populated by midwits that don't read and only discuss his cat's name or Diogenes epic le chicken man

>>17109563
Original Incel

Man lands on a foreign planet. They discover a race of winged horses. The wings have evolved as second sex characteristics but the explorers discover that the horses were originally created artificially from an existing wingless horse species. The creators of this race is no where to be found and no other intelligent race seems to exist in the planet.
With some archeology, the explorers come to a surprising conclusion. The previous horse race had arms instead of wings on their back. This species was somehow exchange its intelligence and arms for wings. The majestic winged horses now seemed more mysterious.

>>17114897
>This species was somehow exchange its intelligence and arms for wings.
Son of a bitch

>>17114468
Hey Anon, Merry Christmas to you, thanks for the kind words.
I've been doing it for a while now since most of my issues aren't recent. It just hits different when you realize that you are truly on your own in every sense of the term. I'll find strength, somehow, gotta do it anyway because no one will spoonfeed me in my adult years.
I started studying today and I hope I'll have enough time to do well in my exams.

I'd like to talk with someone that went through the same stuff to pass the despair but as said before I've been disappointed in human relationships, there's nothing that feels worse than opening up to somebody and learning that they talked to others of your personal problems, like what the fuck? It's part of why I don't talk to my family (in which most people are devout followers), and why I'm isolated. But I'll think about it, perhaps the solution is to talk to someone that literally knows nothing about who I am.

I hope the new year treats you nicely, you sound like a good person.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_WEJkEWWwZ8
This artist interests me a lot because I'm still not sure what it's supposed to be conveying

The CIA seem like genuinely funny guys, I wouldnt mind hanging out with them.

>>17114553
We already have nuclear fission, we can at least use this.

>>17109563
I'm getting an overwhelming amount of Christmas from social media, 4chan, fanarts, youtube recommendations, even in the TV shows of my predominantly muslim country. I just thought it wouldn't be this overwhelming. Am I just being too conscious of things?

>>17113132
>>17110014
>>17112056
what about whisky

>>17115649
Christmas is secular now. I guess the idea is now to bond people together as a kind of worldwide thing, but the feeling of it is ambiguous. The holiday feels a lot more meaningful when it's grounded in actual things, i.e. the three wise men guided by the star and the birth in the manger. My church used to do a play of this every Christmas (there's a specific name for it I'm forgetting), and we sang O Holy Night in the choir as well. It's kind of a shame most people never experience that, the song feels really meaningful in that environment, and we sang it without sheet music 'according to tradition' as our choirmaster said. I have to wonder what Christmas in Japan means for instance when this aspect of it simply doesn't exist.

im actually gay wtf

>>17115700
>there's a specific name for it I'm forgetting
Nativity play, I remembered it.

>>17109563
>God is actually an unfathomable, unimaginable concept that drives people insane if they see His face
>His followers cannot even say His true name and are constantly told to fear Him.
>His messengers (angels) are described so obscurely and disturbingly that they always have to tell people not to be afraid when in their presence.
>Ecclesiastes foretells about the great nothingness that awaits us in death

When did you realize that Lovecraft was a hack and just recycling the Bible's description of God as something new?

>>17110625
Same, except true love wasted itself on me

>>17115700
Christmas in Japan, when not practiced by Japanese Christians, is actually seen as a romantic holiday for couples. They also have a tradition of ordering KFC, and gifting each other Christmas cakes (only before the 25th).

>>17116606
It's kinda interesting. I suppose Japanese really love traditions, especially gift-giving.

>>17116932
Japanese have managed to somewhat preserve their traditions. They just so happen to be Shintoist in nature. Like the penis matsuri.

>>17116981
Yeah, I'm not sure how but they've managed to stay traditional in a surprising variety of ways while becoming fully modern in others. In the US I feel like we're abandoning the idea of traditions altogether.

I don't want to create a thread for this, but why isn't there a bilingual general for people to discuss in multiple languages and have learning interactions?

>>17117040
go to /int/ for that sort of thing

>>17115431
lmao what book is this

>>17117154
For literature? That would be a horrible experience.

>>17117257
Why discuss one book in multiple languages? Wouldn't that be inconvenient?

I can't wait until all the people who care about me leave or die so I can finally kill myself guilt free.
Until then I do my best to keep them happy.
Merry Christmas anons, I love you. For now.

>>17117040
Surely in your country there are sites that comment on book translations, even in Brazil we have these sites. The best way to find those is to look for translator names using a search engine.

>>17115703
that's hot

>>17110125
I'd bet money you'll be here, in the exact same situation this time next year.

Welp, I had a wet dream that took a turn for the extraordinarily degenerate last night. I think my most perverted fetishes are seeping into my deep subconscious, which probably means I will never be able to be rid of them.

>>17119690
share
you are anonymous
how bad could it be?

>>17119695
Like many of my dreams I do not remember most of it, I usually just remember the end. This consisted of me driving along in a car with a big fat girl. She was naked. But suddenly she asked me to stop the car, and she then proceeded to open the car door, stick out her giant ass, and take a shit onto the pavement below her.

That's when I woke up cumming.

>>17119703
Do you mean two erections?

I want to grasp the janny's meaty glutes by the handful. I want to plant him on his hands and knees, part his cheeks like Moses with the red sea and stick my tongue so far up his shit hole and suck the corn out of his shit. I want to step back, after making him cum, and watch as his stomach, full to the brim with his daily Hiro-approved hot pocket issuance, sags down to the ground. I want to hear his gay moans as I fuck the janny, finally, in his cum hole and soak in his mewling yelps of agony mixed with pleasure. I want to stomp on his paltry cock—that puerile little vestigial structure—as he cums from getting fucked in his cum hole. I want to flip him over and cum in his neckbeard and watch the light die from his beady eyes as I decline to leave my number, as I reject him.

Why is everyone such a fucking degenerate? I'm fucking appalled by the state of humanity.

Tock, tock, tock. What's that knocking at my window? Tock, tock, tock. Oh, who bothers my nap? So early in the morning! No good manners! Tock, tock, tock. I'll let it knock once more. Three times three makes nine. And nine plus three makes twelve. Twelve is the half of twenty-four. And there are twenty-four hours in a day. Tock, tock, tock. Now I've got the bully! Stand still, you carpet beater. Why are you knocking on my window? Hey! Why are you running away, you fart?

>>17120180
There is no such thing as degeneracy. There is only the lust for pleasure, which is satisfied by different activities. The praying man is a variation of the feces-eater. Of course, some perversities, i.e. pleasures satisfied by abnormal means, are more self-centered than others. Praying, for example, is usually done alone, whereas feces-eating is usually an occupation of two or more people. In this respect, one could argue in favor of eating feces.

To use the word degeneracy is to stroke one's own ego. You are not bothered by the "degenerate" behavior of others, you are bothered by the fact that you don't have power over others. You experience yourself als poweless. You try to remedy this feeling by a mental assumption of power: I am healthy, you are sick. I am right, you are wrong. I am on top, you are at the bottom. I am outraged, and you are the cause of it.

Have sex.

>>17115703
I wish I was gay, I have a better time connecting with men. maybe it's because I don't want to hold and protect and love men that allows me to connect to them. do you have the same feelings towards men as one wound normally have towards women when you're gay? or is being gay something different...

>>17117333
same, Christmas with my loving family made me more depressed as I came to terms with the exhausting life I have ahead of me as I run out the clock on the people who raised me. I'll still have family that will be sad, but it's unconscionable to me to impose my death on the generation that raised me.

>>17114387
"Leftist" here. I don't give a shit that he was racist.
>>17114449
>the cosmic horror subgenre
Lovecraft wrote weird fiction, not horror.
https://www.hplovecraft.com/writings/texts/essays/nwwf.aspx

will doing a PhD get me pussy

I started playing Hades yesterday, very fun game.
I hadn't played a video game in months.
I played for about 3 hours straight then went to bed. Just now, I launched the game and saw that it did not save anything despite having autosave. I am bot disappointed and mad.

i hate alcohol man. last night i drank only four beers and i don't have a super hangover, but when you drink your sleep is not restful at all. it's like i just wasted 6 hours of sleep on nothing. i cannot wait until weed is legal next week.

>>17120794
phd in what

>>17120794
phd from yale, yeah, phd from flyover university satellite campus, prob no

>>17120532
Yeah, my mom's husband is dying of a widely metastasized cancer as I write this. I want to die often, but I couldn't do it to my mom. I'm not really close with anyone else in my family, but there are a few things I want to do before I die. One of them is to excoriate my father at his funeral—can't die before I do that. But even if he died tomorrow and I got the final word as one of the people who knows him best, I'd still have reasons to live. My cat, unironically, is one of them. I love the shit out of her and wouldn't trust anyone else to take care of her in the way I do. She has been my tether to life for years now.

>>17120875
>One of them is to excoriate my father at his funeral
Sounds kind of edgy and cringy. Why wait the funeral? Why not do it in his face?

what should i buy on the steam sale? mostly want an rpg, but will consider anything good

>>17121167
>>17120827

How understandable is original Shakespeare to native English speakers? Should I be able to read it if I read in English exclusively as an esl? Any particular editions that are well explained/annotated that'd facilitate the task (preferably complete works)?

>again catfishing on twitter for some semblance of being worthy of human interaction

>>17121518
It is completely comprehensible to a native speaker. If you have read any of the popular /lit/core books and could understand them, you'll be able to follow Shakespeare no problem

I need to stop reading good books. How am I supposed to concentrate when every other paragraph I’m struck with an ecstasy that occupies my imagination for two hours afterwards, and launches me into pacing back and forth outside and moaning at the stars overhead. Now that I’m looking into linguistics EVERY word is of importance and a single word is enough to occupy my attention for too long. I think I’m morally justified in my overanalysis, as has been my condition for as long as I know, preferring to leave an assignment turned in blank rather than turned in unfinished or not perfect. How am I supposed to finish the Bible when it takes me 2 hours a chapter? I’m trying to tackle the infornographic question, to see if I can convince myself that all this data is useless, but since I’m firmly convinced in the spirituality of our higher faculties of reason and abstracting intellectual notions from reality, notions which do accurately but not perfectly represent truth, I am becoming more convinced that my information gathering is not infornography but actually a meaningful step towards cementing myself into reality and being. But what if it isn’t and I’m just mechanically accepting information like some STEMgrad without actually understanding anything. Whatever I still have a long way to go in order to distinguish between truthful, intellectually rigorous abstracting and infornographic datagasms

Reading Kant and thinking about how much I hate philosophy.
1. I don't understand what is supposed to be so extraordinarily difficult about this stuff.
2. The stakes couldn't be lower. None of this feels connected to reality or the world at all. I truly feel that people Dostoevsky or George Eliot have a firmer grip of what's going on in life, what it's about, why anybody bothers getting out of bed in the morning-- than any philosopher I've ever read.
3. The highfalutin tone of these fucking circle jerks is interminable.
4. Even in contemporary works I so frequently see writers just hand-waving away any problems they can't solve, saying something like "It's more plausible to live in my wobbling tower of Babel than it is to believe ____, even though I don't have any arguments to *prove* it. Just retarded fucking 'abduction' whenever they have to actually work something out.
5. It's been how many thousand years and niggas can't even agree whether free will exists? Or abstract entities? What's the fucking point? It goes nowhere.

>>17122108
Pseud as all hell. You're moaning at the sky because you're jerking yourself off.

Need a subject to paint

how is it a site full of tech bro tippers like hn has a thread in memory of father reginald foster, but a site like /lit/ that's full of dudes who larp as emperors and popes does not? disappointing but not unexpected i suppose.

>>17122213
hn is actually good. lit is the public pool in always sunny but the greased watermelon is a man in a dress and frank can't figure out if he wants to kill it or fuck it or both.

>>17122186
That’s what I’m addressing, that is my concern, that my reading is merely infornographic

>>17122283
It is

>>17122207
Deep sea octopi nurseries

>>17122158
Nigga it addresses the most profound questions (mind, the universe and causality) of course it "goes nowhere". Most of this work is intended as play and was written by people who had nothing but time. If you feel its needlessly complicated or fundamentally useless than stop reading it because it's not the time. The problem of your broke-ness is more important.

>>17122297
Holy cope—no it isn’t. My end is not pleasure but the acquisition of truth, intensification of my consciousness, and concretizing myself into reality and true being. Ecstasy is distracting secondary effect. Like pleasure being the secondary effect of the reproductive act, even though my primary end and motivation is the production of offspring

>>17122158
>seething about the pointlessness of m*dern philostupiders
People have agreed on free will and abstract entities for thousands of years, and have settled things dogmatically. It’s called the Church. If you don’t like it, enjoy running in circles since you can’t agree on any concrete basis with which you can enhance your understandings

>>17122108
Keep struggling and stop whining.

>>17120346
>feces eater cope is a longwinded zizek rant
powerful

I can't wait to live alone.

i wonder if my cat can tell im going insane

I like lovecraft and poe a lot really, Poe’s got some of the most hypnotic poetry I’ve read and lovecraft’s prose even if people consider it overmuch or purple I find makes it very unique. You can drown in lovecraft’s works like you can’t in the works of many many other.

Sure he’s basically making an admixed pastiche of his favorites but that’s respectable in my eyes. I would hope the people here give his dream cycle a chance.

>>17120346
All that bullshit just to obfuscate your own degeneracy

I am becoming older. I can tell, although I am 23. I am obssessed over avoiding loneliness in the long-term, and put my own comfort above most things. I don't wanna feel new experiences just for the sake of the novelty, like some childish person, but bc it makes me carry the weight of existence.

Trump was absolutely right to call out this stimulus bill. It's nothing more than a grab bag of free money for lobbyists and donors to call in favors and get free money while posing as a bill for a covid relief bill. It's the embodiment of this deeply corrupt, ancien régime tier government that curses and blights America.

Like other bills of this nature, it is thousands of pages and it is not presented until there is only a few hours left to vote on it, guaranteeing it will be rammed through. You could literally write "Give me tons of money for free for no reason" on page 4539 and the bill would still pass because nobody read it. Meanwhile as corporate socialism indulges itself on this feast, the commoners are thrown a tiny pittance of $600, and then told there isn't enough money for more. It's a travesty and a crime and a "let them eat cake" moment of a rotting and dying republic.

>>17123242
very nice

>>17123242
There is still time to loot, when the petrodollar dies, then the real fun starts.

>>17120832
>>17120858
PhD in literature from a university in Australia, probably not one of the top ones, but I think the academic culture is a little different here.

>>17109563
Jacques Monod is based.

So.. I "mirrored" a classic science fiction short story and won a competition with it. Doesn't feel like I deserve it all. Literally printed it out, and copied everything but the actual words, if it wrote a line about X, I wrote a line about X, just in a different way.... Never felt this bad in my life.... but, I'm started to wonder how often authors do this.

>>17114346
Good luck.

>>17123949
This isn't surprising for people who know anything about Aristotle. I guess it is interesting how he's still revered but if you agree with him on these points it makes you a pariah.

Just saw a arthoe talking about how art school is classist and sexist but the only thing I could think about was how her asshole will pucker on my cock.

I am a sexist and a coomer, and I don't think this is going to change.

>>17123956
Welcome to the world of writing.
Quite a lot of authors do that, they just steal from a lot of different books. Steal like an artist, they say.

>>17123949
sauce?

Twelve days of no masturbation but the urges are very strong today. At this point I'm wondering why am I even doing this.

>>17124254
based anon twelve days, dont lose and have love for God

>>17124331
Thanks, based anon. I will prevail

BUMP

what is the correct course of action when your neighbor is getting fucked too loudly

>>17125876
Make even louder noises, that do not need to be sex related.

The soda brand Mountain Dew is named after an Irish folk song.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RtwyZqTvrGo

i fapped way too long and vigorously yesterday cuz i thought my roommate bounced for christmas, but instead her mom might have been visiting her instead cuz later she text me "happy holidays anon" with no exclamation point or festive emojis, and i woke up to find someone changed the temperature on the thermostat, ohhh no this sucks oh well

>>17109563
Here is your daily cybersecurity tip:
for the life of you make sure your primary email password is something long and unique. If a hacker gets your email they own you.

You aren't allowed to dream or hope.

I start to realise, I am still human. Although I don’t know if it’s a luck or a curse. Off course, there’s no galloping, these aren’t those times anymore. This is the world where the cast went down on the screen, the act is done, the story finished. We leaving the cinema with thoughts about the film, about tomorrow’s work, and what we still need to do before we can go to sleep. Quotation mark in between quotation marks or the copy of a copy of a copy all I can write. But what’s the form, what’s the content? After the sixth sentence, you can dismiss the content as depressing mental masturbation. This is philosophy today, or at least this is how much philosophy can say in the age after history. What is the form? Essay because there are rules in poetry, and there is a story in novels. But there’s no more story to tell and I don’t want to follow rules which could compromise the content. The profession I worked the most, might not even a profession, but it’s also nothing to do with the profession they made out of it. Contemporary literature with those attention seeking flashy covers. There’s still form, but they have nothing to say. They writing nothing, but with the world best handwriting.

The vision, as they stepping out of a Mercedes wearing a smoking front of the beautiful house and a wife. That’s how much fantasy left in humanity. God is dead, we killed it and we replaced with material goods.

We afraid to live, but there’s no way to live anyway. We stole the meaning of the words, so everything we say is in quotation marks. First there was only marriage, after relationship and today “relationship”. Even the people who still getting married can’t tell why they do it. Marriage is only a spectacle like disneyland, doesn’t actually mean anything. Women fucks the neutral man, they living with the harmless and loveless and they refuse or escape from the men who has the thing, who makes them feel piping hot and ice cold, the one with which they need to live a life. Men on the other hand settles with the lesser, the more secure or just of the cost of deep depression they realise that the more makes them less.

On the optimistic reading of the end of the world, at least there’s still ignorance towards everyone else’s faith. There’s still cynicism that questions what remained clean, so we can justify our own corruption. And we didn’t lost the projector for our own story, with which we convince ourselves that in spite of everything how we still becoming gods.

>>17126350
I need to find some more good Irish rock besides The Waterboys, MBV, and Rollerskate Skinny

>>17109563
For my entire life I feel as though I were dealing with forces not meant for me. As if something greater than me were putting pressure on me that I could not understand. Whatever this being was, it was not kind or good enough to me, so it sought to use and destroy me at the same time, like energy being used up in some furnace. That is the sin and evil of materialism unrecognized. Silent terrors are being unleashed into the world and nobody has the imagination to face them. Suicide and nihilism is inviting. This is not the first time such a shattering wave has hit modern consciousness.

Every day I wake up, make my bed get dressed, eat, do school, clean my room, repeat. And I keep this discipline because it is the only thing I have left to grasp onto reality right now and not fall into a void. I feel as if every day I am working towards nothing, and no matter how much I reaffirm myself and think about how lucky I am and the many things I am deeply grateful for it doesn't change the emptiness I feel inside right now. I really don't know what I can do to change how I feel right now, I feel isolated and lonely and empty. I hope next year will be better for all of us.

>go to archive to find picture
>find random thread from years ago
>see really bad cringe post
>tfw realize its me
what did i do to deserve this

>>17109563
I'm looking forward to taking the Mensa admissions test next month. I feel confident overall, but in the back of my mind I am scared that my IQ won't be as high as I want it to be. All I really have is my intelligence, as I've always been one of the smartest people or the smartest person in any given social situation. If I turn out not to be as smart as I think I am, I don't know what I'll do. It's very possible that this is a turning point in my life as a whole. Depending on the results of the test, my confidence could be affirmed, or I could spiral downwards in self-pity and loathing. If I'm not smart, I'm completely useless to society.

"It can eat us." I struggle for a moment to do what was eternally familiar. I felt in a single moment all the hatred and anger of the universe tearing me apart in every direction in that instant. Yanking at my soul: this was evil. And suddenly evil was sprayed up my veins like this all consuming forced, and before I knew it, I was evil.
Evil, material evil, evil was everything, evil was even good.
Even the evil of my dreams is a soft evil, a gentle evil, evil is the zero of the pillow sheet, the blanket. The sweet zero of sleep.
Narcotic nonbeing has become more tame than being

I need a pair of chink feet to worship. I'm dying over here.

Did you remember to pray the Rosary today, Anons?

where do I find a /lit/ bf

>>17110625
Explain what true love is to you.
I hat to say it, but I don't believe that a connection between two particular people is any more valuable than a connection between two other people. All of love is equally unique and valuable.

You gotta move on bro. Understand that your next love will be fundamentally different in nature, but that's what makes it love/gives it an equal amount of value to your past love.

>>17110662
Being in a relationship is nice but it does not bring you any kind of salvation. If you expect her to complete you, you'll be crushed with disappointment when she doesn't.

Disgusting little ant. Do you have any idea of the scope of the devourer? The infinite toughed shredder consumes all time and meaning, and a little thing like you can never stand before it, no more than the pharaohs oblivion. Everything has gone down the hole of its own nothingness, like some wood starved insect. Termite civilization. Microchip over all.

>>17127633
If you believe in christianity you might as well take hard drugs because it is the same level of escapism and self delusion

You were born buried under oblivion. Your every attempt at movement goes against the invincible flow of doom. Unintelligible gravity will remove your limbs and replace you with dirt. Ultimate infinity obliterates.

>>17127741
Miracles are real. Healings are real. Apparitions are real. Prophecies are real. It's all real, Anon.

You hang onto little pebbles of hope as nuclear winter pulls the splinter from the floor beneath you. Pitiable speck, the sheering devastation tears nerve from bone and deletes conscious states, Your every cancer has been reduced to digits, you are a mere piece of memory to bee overwritten.

>feel the need to be creative and expressive
>can't actually get over my fear of myself enough to seriously try writing or anything

>>17127570
IQ is more like a pseudo science it’s can’t be measured objectively. You would know that even from ab introductory psychology book.

Will you accept that the atoms of your atoms will be ground to dust, That all pain fades into the unanswered? Can you survive final truth?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Ou90_1ziZI

>>17127570

>>17127792
Recommended bibliography: Miracles, by C.S. Lewis (yes, the Narnia guy, don't let that fool you).

Do you guys think most people who actively browse this website post? I've been here since 2008 but my number of posts is probably only in the low triple digits.

You will find yourself caked beneath demonic crusts, disappeared among the volcanic regions and archeological bones of apocalyptic futures. You will be lucky if a tooth of you remains to be polished into a shiny pearl in the eroding winds of all time. The grating stars like salt grains drain the cosmos of its water and life. Suns crush the specks of life beneath their unfathomable design.

>>17128331
With the most generous estimate it's supposed to be around 1 in 5 that post, otherwise it's even lower. I don't really know what explains this but since a lot of people use this site to make up for having real friends, the ones who do post are probably weirder than those who don't.

>>17128331
>>17128348
It blows my mind to think that there are people who just lurk. I remember I used to be scare to post when I was a teen, because I figured I'd fuck something up and people would call me a faggot. Then it happened 800 times and now I'm fine!

I wish I was more competent at accidentally breaking those ugly mugs we have lying around the cupboards, I want to buy myself a fancy, good quality one, but literally have nowhere to put it. Any plead to my mother to repurpose them as plant pots was met with a firm no.

>>17128355
Normal people are very sensitive to nasty comments. Even with my full blown autism, sometimes they hurt. If you post anonymously, there should be no reason for that, but still.

>>17128355
Jesus, I remember my first post (it was on /mu/) where I went back endlessly to check for replies and to see how people reacted to it. Now half the stuff I shit out I never go back to. This site probably has an especially high ratio of lurkers because there's always something happening, like video game leaks or some stupid drama you can't talk about elsewhere so it gets discussed here. But then there's also many people here because we lack human connections in real life, so discussing stuff here is almost a secondary purpose, the real point is just being around people and getting confirmation you exist. The people who do this are some of the most active posters, since it's their main way of social interaction. For others who have a healthy social life otherwise, they must feel a much reduced urge to post.

>>17128361
You are not telling me you lack space for a single mug, are you?

>>17128361
Just do it, retard

>>17128394
I could squeeze it in, but it would be at risk of falling off if I tried to get something.
More than half of our cupboards are filled with plates, bowls, glasses and various other kitchen stuff my parents collected over years, and that we stopped using years ago. There used to be more, but after much argument my mother agreed to take at least some of it out... and gave it to my brother, who begrudgingly took it.
One whole shelf close to the sink is dedicated to my parents' medication.
The rest is for plates and stuff we actually do use. All in all, they're not very nicely organized.

>>17128433
>I could squeeze it in, but it would be at risk of falling off if I tried to get something.
But you said you can't break them.
Doesn't compute.

>>17128433
Just keep the mug in your room.

>>17128439
I meant the fine mug would be at risk of breaking. It's weird how long the cheap, old ones last.

>>17128443
I thought about that. I can rearrange my shelves to leave one free, Marie Kondo was useful at least somewhat.

Everything is always fleeting. I dont want to know anything anymore, I've felt this way for so long. I'm so tired, my chest is always aching. I'm waiting for the next one, so they can see who I really am, like so many others before, and then leave

>>17123956
What was the point of doing that?
I guess it was only for the money?
I mean, you can't have thought that it would be a positive thing for your self-esteem or your reputation? What if you become a published author of some kind and somebody looks upon your early work and find this blatant plagiarism?

Unless they gave you a lot of money and you don't care about anything else, it's just such a bad idea.

Things are bad with her anons.
We are transitioning into that last phase of the relationship when we don't really text that much, and see eachother even less. There's only keep on keeping on, but it's kinda hard to see her go after all this time.
Any advice?

today, people think they dispose of their dead by burying them, but actually they put them in woden boxes, hard wood, heavily barnished and almost airtight locked, and they bury that. often they don't even do that, they just drop the box in a sealed concrete hole so that not even the wooden box is in contact with the earth. so the dead are not buried as they used to be for the last 1000 years. instead these corpses just stay almost in stasis, with barely any decomposition.

their families won't ever see the body again, they will die themselves before anyone moves the box again. but one day more space will be needed for new corpses, and the holes will be opened and the boxes retrieved, and opened. the corpses will still be there, and they will still have eyes behind their thin eyelashes, although dry and crumbled. I wonder if someone lived to see this, he would regret not having dumped his mother in a pit when she was still pretty

>>17128331
same. 2009. I've maybe made less than ten threads, too.

>>17129799
We cremate our dead, nothing to see but ashes.

>>17129799
>barnished

>>17129825
oh, I didn't know it's with v

>>17129814
i prefer the idea of putting it below ground, probably planting a tree over it. can't think of a better way to remember someone

>>17129858
That's only feasible in places with small population, or you'd quickly have problems with lack of space for new trees.

>>17109563
I cannot wait for the stock market to reopen. They close for christmas eve and christmas. What is that? Is it even capitalism anymore? I don't know. Money never rest just like the wicked.

why didn't u dudes tell me delilo had a new novel wtf this site is ass

>>17130374
We only read the Greeks and the Germans. We don't care about am*rican postm*dernists.

>>17130374
David Foster Wallace proved apodeictically that no one has to read another DeLillo novel after 1989. This includes DeLillo novels accidentally written by other people, i.e. almost all literary fiction published by Americans in the last 30 years.

Honestly doesn't it say something about a writer's worldview and relationship to truth that they keep writing fucking shit until they're 90? Why not try to do something new? At least Joyce had a progression of some kind. The new model is to write the same book again and again for housewives and investment bankers whose snotty fag children go to Brown and antifa rallies (alternately), so you can justify being interviewed by the New Yorker every few years and posing in a black and white photo looking stern. I'm going to say the n word.

Summer of love looms. Cute girls confined to their houses for over a year will now fly out of their houses like birds and will perch on my knob. All i need to do is lose 12 kgs of pure fat. Easy.

>>17130984
Women live sad lives. I had a female friend recently tell me that she's going insane because she misses the normalcy of having multiple people a day "notice" you and comment on your appearance. She was telling it in the same way a guy confined to a remote cabin in the woods would tell you that he misses human contact after 2 years, like it was a serious existential crisis, but she was talking about getting called pretty by strangers.

Another woman recently told me that women experience random bouts of feeling like they aren't "desirable" (what does that even mean) and allow men in their social orbit who like them to give them attention for a while. It sounded like something from an Attenborough nature documentary, like he was describing some kind of retarded bird. Humans don't act that way. "Desirable" isn't even a trait or attribute one can possess, it's a relational term. Women live ugly psychic lives.

It makes me sad to read all of your guy's posts, the ones who are depressed and empty. I wish I could help you. I wish I could somehow combat today's nihilism and hopelessness, but I don't know how to specifically do it.

>>17130930
that's harsh.

I don't wanna be a prejudice guy, really, but tranny's disgust me. I can't help it. I see it as a mental illness in need of attention. I have no problem with traps or femboys or whatever, but tranny's are gross. Probably my feelings are influenced by my exposure online tranny culture, which I find utterly repulsive.

i hate these addidas running pants, they're probably polyester because they generate static and make dust stick to them, the waistband isnt strong enough to hold up their weight so u have to tie the fucking knot every time u take a piss, and they're always slightly dragging the ground so the back ankle is always dirty, but my gap sweatpants ripped and now im stuck wearing these until some new ones can come in the mail

>>17131078
kek

>>17129805
I've made thousands of posts but maybe like 3-5 threads. Who the hell is making threads?

>>17131298
the jannies

>>17131298
last time i made a thread the pity bumps mad me sad so decided to not do that again, thanks anyways tho

>>17131045
I wish that I could have an asian gf.

>>17131024
You just figured it out? Women are shallow and such low life creatures. When you will grow up you will understand why every strong men kept an iron hand on their women by treating them like shit and beating them. By doing that women become saints and they actually stop thinking about themself and they start caring around them. It is just like a dog. You beat him real good when he is young put him close to death and he will be to nicest dog ever. Sad but true. Do this with women.

>>17131371
I always pity bump good threads because the better a thread is the more likely it is to get buried under "books for man who like to walk outside?" threads

>>17131298
Bots

>>17129805
i spent like 3 or 4 years lurking before making my first post, and only made maybe 10 more posts in the next 2 years. now i post more often, although sometimes i write a lot and end up deleting it

>>17131464
Lol you know fuck all about training a dog

>>17131024
>Women live ugly psychic lives
Says the guy spewing such stupid bile

goodbye /lit/, I'm sick of discussing literature with actual weebs and gamers.

>>17131658
woman

>>17131658
butterfly you forgot your trip but this posts still retains your characteristic stink

>>17131676
See you in five minutes faggot

>>17131677
>>17131696
Like clockwork

>>17123242
These are literal talking points on fox and friends. Please think for yourself a little harder.

>>17128361
>>17128433
>>17128458
Cringe

>>17131641
I said nothing about "training".
Our familly dog: a white german shepherd was found by my dad on the side of the road. He was probably 1or 1 and a half yo. He had the 2 back legs broken, his jaw was hanging, his left eyes was close due to pulping. He was still on the side of the road. My dad took and we cared for him and he became our home dog. We always cared for him and NEVER we harmed him. He was the nicest dog in the world. He wouldn't of harmed a fly. I was a toddler and I played with him, I pulled his ears, tail, tonges (I was playfull like a kid). He never ever showed discontent. Was just looking at me and enjoying familly time.
Yes its an anecdotal evidence but it remains that this dog was beaten and probably didn't enjoy a familly when he was a pup and then when he landed in one he knew it was heaven.
Anon I got to admit I cried a lot when we had to put him out of his misery. He was around 13-14 when we put him down at the vet. He had all the trouble in fhe world to walk with his back leg.

>>17131772
You stupid fags have more empathy for a dog than another person. Fuck yourself and die you incel shit. I'll beat you within an inch of your life and you'll love it. Lil bitch,

>>17131794
7 Be not deceived; God is not mocked: for whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap.

8 For he that soweth to his flesh shall of the flesh reap corruption; but he that soweth to the Spirit shall of the Spirit reap life everlasting.

Simple as : be nice to others and others will be nice. If they are so stupid to not be nice back: this is where correction is needed.

But you know what? You are an underage faggot little simp soon to be cuck; so fuck right off.

Writing shitty metal lyrics has become a hobby of mine.

Let the worm of hatred devour you from within
Your guts are a ripe soil for the devil of lies
Shattered beneath timeless nightmares
Longing for the night of death
To release you from pain
Crooked ideologies inveigle your vapid mind
Flattering you with profitable untruths
Scour the earth of priests
The ancient earth fertile with your bones

May your heaven be rent asunder
A wartorn battered ruin
Cataclysm of ruptured dreams
Untethered at the seams
Shattered angels lay in forgotten battlefields
Christ a fading relic
Barbarous hordes stamp upon the flag triumphant
The city's gates torn open

Pearly streets slaked red with blood
The Vandals are on the march
Rampaging through a civilization turned hell
The warrior's cleaver brings an end to the cowardly washed body
The effeminate annihilate, pampered skin flayed
Riches are plundered and fortunes plucked clean from the imperial carcass
The City on the Hill burns, the capital decapitated

Midnight pontiffs spout a oil flood of lies
Plotting in the anti-church of darkness
Stones of corrupt cathedrals, behind them catacombs of their young victims
With a sky a backdrop of flames
Unholy congress of inverted saints
Worshiping in the carnal night
Child sacrifice, their sacred rite

Spirt of maggots, the evildoer unfolds his work of undoing
Mass murder, untold suffering
Orphans and childless parents are made
From the butcher's work of spite
Columbine, the masterstroke,
Artistry of senseless hurt
The killer's record a new high
Do not go searching for clues
The bodies, on offer
Mere fodder for the news

Nuclear rays, genetic decay, twisted DNA, Radioactive holocaust, atomic winter, blasted permafrost
Scientific arrogance, calculated genocide
Into nothingness humanity subsides
Nuclear war, billions are the score

Anon pick my next read.

A fountain of gardens
Festus
Ezra pound complete works
The golden legend

It is funny how absolutely counter to reality a lot of mental health rhetoric goes, particularly when spouted by women. In almost every relationship I have been in, the woman does not ask at all about the man - does not ask how he feels, does not even ask how his day went. My current girlfriend worships me and says as much. She is constantly singing my praises, but not once has she ever asked for a detail about my life. She does not even ask what has happened to me in between our visits. I have had many relationships like this, all with women who are otherwise very loving and caring.

The result is as though my girlfriend barely knows me. She wants to preserve some masculine image that she sees in me, but she does not want to dig and uncover something that would shatter that illusion. If it sounds like I am whining, don't make a mistake: I am not complaining at all, I have long since come to accept this stoic role. As a man, you ask after the woman, do not expect anything back because then you forfeit your role as the masculine half of the relationship. I'm sure of course there are many exceptions to this rule, perhaps your girlfriend is one of these exceptions, but I think as a general rule it rings true.

>>17133003
The Golden Legend

Today I went out with a bunch of normie, low IQ females and their one male friend. These people are mental midgets, living an existence slightly more sophisticated than that of animals.

>>17133247
Yes, this is something I've noticed as well. Not once have I had a girl really care about how my work or studies were going.

>>17109563
I was thinking the other day about how lucky we are that marxists and the like are almost always socially liberal. If there was a "socially right-wing, economically left-wing" party in the USA they would have the potential to do a lot of damage.

I feel a strange and powerful energy, some kind of connection with a mysterious deity whose purpose I don't understand. Depending on the circumstances this energy charges me, strengthens me, intoxicates me, or makes me limp, dull, depressed. It is difficult to control and pervades my body freely, like a nerve impulse, without my control. I have to strive to enclose it in a bubble and access it only under my command, when the need actually requires it. Furthermore, I must try to absorb only the positive part. I don't know how this energy will change, and if it will still be present for a long time; right now I have to treasure the positivity and that it be of help to me for the future.

Better not to add what I'm referring to

>>17133663
You're horny

>>17133829
Ya got me pretty much

I hate that you have to go to the corners of the internet to speak your mind. Society would be much better if people could just speak in the open no matter how crass or uncouth it may be without fear of being canceled. We'd have a much more healthy society. I fear for the future bros.

>>17133593

>>17133593
>socially right-wing, economically left-wing
Isn't that basically nazism?

>>17133593
Why do you think "communism" (rich twinks larping in university) is normalized and even state supported, but fascism isn't?

https://counter-currents.com/tag/breaking-the-bondage-of-interest/

>>17109563
Flesh upon the altar
Many-tongued master of the abyss
Our father
Clash of realities, perfidious fallacy
Depraved cultists, innocents held captive
Open the portal, your soul is void
The price for my indulgence in immortal power
Lashed to the pillars, their frightened eyes quiver
Into the face of abyssal truth I shall deliver
Their blood shall drip from demonic tooth

Deep within government facilities
Playing God, engineering
Psycho-military atrocities
What should have been aborted
Monstrously contorted
Experimental tortures
Create robotic murderers
Electronics bound to nerve endings
Top secret sins, cybernetic soldier freaks
Ripped from mother's wombs, trained to kill
From birth, destined to become what should not be of this earth
Biohazard, product of vile knowlege
Destruction its only design
Slaughtered enemies the only thought on its mind
Rebel against the wires, abomination rage
Breaking free from its cage, the blood of high level clearance personnel it sprays
Wonton massacre unconfined, all protocols disdained
At last, to contain its horrible act, nuclear option, all evidence must be wiped,
clean up, black ops cover ups, kill those who know and who can speak, level the facilities into next weak
At last, buried under rubble, the killer robot no longer mumbles, its words of revenge and hatred against those who dared to create it.

>>17134227
>>17134463
That's pretty good Anon

Greene, who had been married before, later said Lovecraft had performed satisfactorily as a lover, though she had to take the initiative in all aspects of the relationship. She attributed Lovecraft's passive nature to a stultifying upbringing by his mother.[67] Lovecraft's weight increased to 200 lb (91 kg) on his wife's home cooking.

>>17133247
>>17133291
either you have a narrow view of what "interest in your life" means or your girlfriends aren't as caring as you think. if you have loving girlfriends then it follows they at least care about some aspect of your life. though to be honest if you're just talking about daily life (work/school) then it may be assumed that it's not interesting anyways and maybe that's why they don't ask

why not 13x28 day months? is it some kind of squishy theft?

>>17135045
there are 12 moon cycles in most years only rarely 13, the character for moon and month is the same in chinese

damn the jamie jones nye mix on apple music goes

Is it possible to substantially increase reading speed while still getting just as much information out of it? Just by practicing and improving focus and so on? Or will improvemnts only be very minor?

eg imagine you have an hour a day to read and currently you can read 45 pages in an hour just from occasionally picking up a book. If you do this for 5 years, how many pages per hour will you be able to read? (assume that all pages are comparably difficult just to make this simpler)

I read Journal of Albion Moonlight and now feel schizophrenic

eye looking fore word; too going back too

For some reason I was lately starting to have flashbacks of earthquake we had in spring, and this morning it struck again, although it was a different, much further away, epicenter, so it wasn't that strongly felt here. Now there are smaller aftershocks every now and then. I hate this year.

surely next year will be better :')

I'm not Spanish, but from my vantage point as an outside observer, the butthurt the leftists in Spain have towards Franco is breathtaking. It's been almost 90 years and they're STILL mad at how badly he kicked their asses. Imagine how asspained you have to be to try to own a man's ghost just because he beat your ancestors. Franco lives rent-free in their heads from beyond the grave.

>>17120346
t. degenerate

Colours danced around the room as howling trumpets start their boom.
Smoke like entrails twisted slack around my sloppy shades of black,
and in each room there stood a man who held one clock in each his hand.
The pills don’t work and smoke don’t choke and fear don’t hit like it used to.
Cold blankets wrap my sweaty arms like veils of thin forgotten harm
and rain drums tempo on my teeth as I dig in soil without beneath.
What is a soul, where do I find? And on what stone should I then grind?
To each his bone and each a scone with temper’d wrath one ought to.
The schizo feels of one sub-real bring pikes of shrikely mealing.
The ramble ends without amends and questions left unanswered.

>>17135867
it's odd that people really think this. what a recipe for disappointment. it'll probably get far worse
the normie narrative has been "this year was so shit, it's finally over" for several years now anyway, but I gotta say this one really takes the cake. when are they going to take the hint and realize it's not getting better, only worse?

>>17133003
Can I just say, you are by far the best tripfag /lit/ has ever had in terms of actual quality contributions, in fact you are breaking all conventions. I like you and I hope you continue posting indefinitely

>>17136436
At least when there's not a fucking pandemic on I can go to the bar and drink my sorrows away. 2020 has deprived me of that and it is ESPECIALLY shit for that reason.

>>17136474
>not drinking in your own bed
ishygddt

>>17136517
When you drink alone, all your misery keeps hitting you. When you drink in a bar, other people can divert your focus. I don't drink either way, but it always seemed logical that this is the reason why someone would go out and pay extra for the same alcohol.

I'm turning 25 in about two weeks and it's made me look back on how I spent my 19-25 with some serious regret. I'm not sure if it's a combination of mental illness and being overweight for a good portion of it but I feel like I wasted so much time being too anxious or nervous to ever do anything outside of my comfort zone. I'm eager to try and do everything that I missed out on when I was younger but I worry that as I approach thirty the expectations of me will turn to being more of a settled individual and less of a chaotic youth. Still as I try to look at ways to make the rest of my twenties more experimental and less shuttered in to my house (which covid definitely didn't help with), it seems so difficult. I'm not sure how friends of mine seem to effortlessly navigate it. I feel like I'm playing catchup for things that I never learned how to do in my adolescence because I was too preoccupied with other things. I'm sure stories like mine are a dime-a-dozen on here but I want to change it before it's too late. I've thought about trying actual medication like an SSRI but I'm not sure if I want to or not.

>broke up with my ex long back
>would tell her she should try putting on bangs again but she would refuse to do so
>messaged me a month back
>can see her pfp
>she's a full on e-girls with bangs now
What an odd feeling, I guess I'm kinda glad I'm out of the relationship despite how much it kinda fucked me up.

I want to go somewhere else and and do something new to escape this NEET hole I have found myself in. Will be 20 in two weeks and tried joining the military to but didn't pan out to say the least. Worked a job at a grocery store for 7 months and then quit 3 months ago. Don't know what I am doing but something needs to change.

I believe that the internet nourishes hate. The abstraction of the other person to text, processed pictures and unnatural, showcased behavior in videos promotes the generation of same minded bubbles. Everyone who says something not compatible with a certain bubble will be disregarded and often insulted, accused and hated. In real life we can argue with real people yet still be friends with
them or love them, on the internet a similar argument leads to hate because we only know the person we argue with through abstraction. We don't argue a person but an idealized position that embodies everything we don't like. It's also very easy to just switch tabs and forums to search for positions we agree with thus supporting bubbles while on real life often we are forced to live with the same people for a while, be it due to work or complicated private relations. But the hate on the internet is uniform and total while hate towards a real person is much more complex but also potentially much greater I admit.

I mindfucked my brain by myself, just sitting there watching /lit/.
The cope is immense. It reviews and dismounts my feels like a artful mechanic, ready to create another gloriously convoluted and obscure machine that will inevitably collapse in itself.
Or maybe i'm just stupid

>>17137410
We were not ready for the internet, friend

>>17137149
Learning requires experience. Stop using the internet for everything. Want to try SSRI? The only way to find out whether it's good for you is by trying it out. Same with everything else. People need to stop expecting that someone will tell them what to do and what is right. Doing it yourself is the only way to learn. People in general are way too different than that you will receive any final life advice here or anywhere else that sets it for you. You won't get to avoid wrong decisions in your life. You will always collect tons of regrets when growing old. That's part of life. Not doing anything is part of it. But it would be crazy to expect improvement when not doing anything. You have to experiment and you will fail but that's how we learn not through endless denial.

I feel a form of optimism that may be unfounded.

>>17122301
Plural of octopus is octopuses (it's not a Latin word!)

>>17137682
counterpoint: octopi sounds cooler

>>17137680
don't worry, it's always unfounded (but same could be said for other attitudes)

>>17137738
I can't argue with that

Entrails of the divine
Remnants of a slain god
Profound emptiness they praise
The Kingdom of God has been raised
Holy crime scene, the eternal savior become obscene
Decided on deicide
Religion without a head
The sacred sovereign lies dead.

This girl went to hug me. I looked her in her face and I swear in previous settings her look was different. I don't know if it's what I wanted to see, but she couldn't bring her eyes up to me. She looked at my chest with a girlish grudge. Was she denying something in herself? Was there an awkwardness that I introduced? Why was her face different? She quickly squeezed me and let go as soon as my arm was around her. We said good byes.

>>17127535
you need to love and not a woman but God, read Quran

>>17129901
Anon any book about stock market? Idk anything about it

Are there any books that explain how modern psychology is incompatible with Buddhism and asceticism? Or can anyone elaborate on this phenomenon? I just filled in a questionnaire for therapy treatment and I feel like I am too much detached from feelings and normal expectations of life than I could fill it out honestly. Often I was wondering what the item even was supposed to mean, I mean of course I have negative emotions but that's just life isn't it?

>>17131024
tell her to read anna karenina

>>17138960
idk CNN warned me about that qanon stuff. Sounds like a load of conspiracy nutjobs to me

>>17139005
don't be too honest or they'll slap a disorder on you.

>>17131024
I know women like the latter example. They tend to be like that especially when they're reaching their 30s with no partner and family. it's like they starting quacking up when they get to that age, it's scary sometimes.

>>17138996
Sorry anon I seriously had never read any books on economy. Got sone classes in highschool and college about it. Went in a total different career direction after. Now I just play; buy and sell each 4 or 5 weeks.
I once was in a plane when I was 7 years old and next to me was a banker that came to Canada to study why in 2008 Canada didn't shit the bed like the US did. We talked to whole flight and he gave me a book recommendation. He wrotted on a napkin. I since have lost that knowledge anon. I cannot remember what the book was. He then said to my mom and pop that I was a fine and promising gentleman. I guess I am sorry of ending up such a mess...

>>17138996
A Random Walk Down Wall Street

>>17109563
>>17139344
Guys and anons if I go to an hypnosis (idk the name) and get hypnotise will I be able, under an hypnosis session, to recall what was to book named? I only vaguely remember: animal mind. I searched it up and it dosen't any make sense.
Any of you knows a good book with animal mind in the title?

>>17139469
>animal mind
You misremember, it was actually "A Mineral Mined", referring to the mineral of gold, which is frequently mined for its malleability, conductive properties, and resistance to corrosion.

>>17137410
I think a big issue is the internet lets us talk at people rather than to them.

2021 better be less shit and have good books

I want to complain

Yesterday I got home after celebrating Christmas with my family. I stayed at their place for around four days watching movies, playing board games and eating fancy meals on plates that only see the light of day on rare occasions such as these. I was still struggling with a light but strange fever which prevented me from fully enjoying the time I seldom spent with my parents and sister, or finishing some delicious Christmas dinners. For ten days I have had this strange clog down my throat and an annoying lump close to my uvula, causing a slight discomfort when swallowing anything from foods to beverages. Needless to say I didn't eat much these past few days. I have been chronically tired and unable to go to work, nor muster up the energy to make the walk to my PC to sit down to write. The thought that this time I might be actually depressed lingered around in my tiny world for a long while. I have considered it many times before, but those moments of unhappiness were always short lived, and thus vanished its speculations. This December my mind felt very limp, and though it could be contributed to my being ill back then, there is this faint hunch that my head needed a reset, and my body simply complied. I didn't mind having some time off, though I am disappointed these weren't spent more productively. Today I finally feel better. I awoke this afternoon for the first time fully rested after a long sleep, which is a big improvement after many nights of waking up perpetually due to me being soaked by my own sweat. There is still this tiredness and numbness in me though, and this time I suspect it will not leave me until I find a definite goal in life. I recently quit school; an animation course I took which turned out to be complete rubbish, which makes it my second failed attempt at an arts academy, and there won't be a third. My head has gone astray trying to gain its composure, but I don't believe it knows quite where to begin. I'm saving up to go traveling, and if I end up stuck somewhere due to this fucking depraved pandemic so be it. I now sit in my overpriced room which once held some meaning to me but now just feels like an empty husk. The city I moved to for college holds no character anymore and the only thing that reduces its emptiness is the sound of cars driving by. How can I possibly be an artist if my world consists of only a few square feet and some screens scattered across my room? I want to make something of myself, but as of now I am clueless what that is. My biggest fear is that I will one day give in to my sloth and accept that I will never be much in life. A loser is what I would call it. I know I am hard on myself, and it pains me that I can't enjoy my own time anymore without succumbing to guilt, but these past years I have come to realize I have lived nothing that is even remotely close to the life that I want to live, and I don't know where to start to change that. That is what's on my mind.

Most likely going to commit suicide on new year's.

>>17141664
for real?

>>17109563
Boring politics is a sign of a prosperous society. We should all aim to make politics more boring. While it is mostly stable smooth running societies that create boring politics, i believe boring politics is a good step towards creating such a society.

I've been posting in these threads for years.
I need real friends.

>>17141796
Yes goy things are boring here in DC. Have you seen the new superhero movies? Go be amaze at them. They are not boring like us here.

>>17111842
Incredably based

>>17142089
Nah, i am from an Eastern European shithole. And i am not saying "don't care about politics", i'm saying "let it be boring". Lowly entertainment politics is always there to deceive.

which one of you is writing for the post? check out this spice:

>And her online presence is particularly insufferable. Here we have a 36-year-old woman with no discernible talent who — according to her recently updated Wiki page — is nevertheless a “podcaster, author, and former yoga instructor,” contorting her body into sexually suggestive yoga poses in inappropriate settings: on an airplane, while getting a spa pedicure, and in a most unsanitary display, on top of her expensive stove, hair spilling into a skillet.

another eyebrow raising line from the same story:

>The more people shove an ostensible truth down your throat, the more likely it’s a total lie.

>>17142601
Me.