/lit/ - Literature

>>17625878
>held imaginary interviews in my mind as a famous screenwriter

>>17625878
>>17626255
jeez, you guys are me

>>17625878
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>>17626393
this is literally me

>played an imaginary rock concert in front of the whole class

>>17626419
>didn't practice
>don't understand basic music theory
>only know the pentatonic scale in 1 position.

>>17626439
those are literally my nipples

>>17626439
>>only know the pentatonic scale in 1 position.
That's all you need to riff out some solos fren

>>17626457
They sound the same as very mediocre guitarist ever.

>>17626462
Some fuzz and feeling and you are good to go

>>17626468
If you're mudhoney in 1992 yeah

>>17625878
Daydreaming is by far my greatest vice, even worse than the internet. I will just sit and daydream for hours at a time about having a girlfriend, getting married, having kids, being a great film director, what the movies I would make would be like, what I would say interviews... I have to stop. I have to stop daydreaming and start actually creating something. Actually doing anything is kind of terrifying though because you risk making something that isn't as good as it is in your head. But at least you actually do it instead of merely imagine it.

>>17625878
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>>17626799
Wow this is literally me.

>>17625878
>>17626419
SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP!

>>17626820
Me except I'm 24...

>>17626829
this was me a few years ago when i cared about my life

>>17625878
I hope the jannies don't nuke this thread. It's on topic enough, isn't it? It's about our failure to achieve our artistic (but usually literary) desires because we just daydream all the time instead of doing something real. Let us comfort each other. Please. I need this.

>>17626829
Literally in 20s

>>17626472
YOU TAKE THAT BACK
WE RESPECT MUDHONEY IN THIS HOUSE

>>17626836
Are you saying you cared about your life when you just sat around thinking? So now what do you do since you stopped caring about life? Just sit on the couch without thinking?

>daydreamed of reading threads about my work on /lit/

>>17626843
A lot of this I can't relate to because I did graduate, I did have a job (but haven't for about 2 months now), and I can drive but a lot of this hits pretty close to home. I constantly put things off. I'm constantly plagued by boredom. I convince myself that I'm ready to improve but then I sabotage myself by spending the day daydreaming or shitposting. Sometimes I don't even do that. I'll procrastinate in a "constructive" way. I'm not ready to X because I need to Y first. Do you know what I mean? It sucks. How do I break out of this?

>>17625878
>>17626255
Literally me

>Imagine reading my own Wikipedia entry
>"Anonymous is regarded as of the most influential writers of his generation[7]"

>>17626865
Just keep refreshing this thread to see if there are new replies and I'm sure things will get better

>>17626874
>Besides his native English, Anon is fluent in German, French, Italian, Latin, and Ancient Greek. He is self-taught.
I only know English.

>>17625878
HOW DO I STOP THINKING I DONT WANT TO JUST DAYDREAM ANYMORE PLEASE HELP ME

>daydreamed of telling my story about how my journey started from /lit/ and anons introduced me to all the high end philosophy as the Kant of this century.

>>17626933
why would you want to be the kant of any century pleb

>>17626255
Niggas

>Imagine reading my own Wikipedia article
>"Anonymous is regarded as one of the most influential authors of his generation"[7]
>"Anonymous was awarded the 2059 Nobel Prize in Literature 'for his diverse writings, which probe the great moral and spiritual quandaries of our time with boundless imagination and fidelity to the human experience'"[9]

>they're talking about me on that stupid podcast again

>>17626942
he changed the horizon of philosophy

>>17626991
yeah toward being gay

>>17627005
Yeah but Schopenhauer made it based

>>17627015
no he made it retarded so now its gay and retarded even worse because it has gaytardation

>>17627023
Have a (You) anon man.

>>17626439
>he thinks musicians who make music non-autists listen to know music theory

My daydreaming isn’t even wish fulfillment anymore. The girls in my head friend zone me now. When I imagine myself as an artist it’s always someone who barely sells that gets okayish reviews.

>>17627054
Why?

>>17626847
You're competing with polyphia in 2020 anon.

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>>17625878
>enacted out loud being interviewed by a Johnny Carson-esque late night host about my debut novel
>describe my troubled young adulthood when I was conceiving the novel
>am overly modest about the positive feedback I've received about my work

>>17627046
Almost all pop music follows the circle of fifths. The circle of fifths is based off the major scale and is quite simple. It's the key to ez mode song construction.

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>>17627149
I find it hard to imagine myself being successful.

>>17626255
>famous
>screenwriter

>>17627293
why?

>>17625878
Do you want to write or do you want to be famous and enjoy consuming literature. I love racing. I'm a little sad when I remember my elementary school years wasted on sports I didn't give a shit about. Maybe if my parents had put in me in a kart at age 5 like most of people who make it I could be a lot closer to driving professionally. Even so, I still love it. I would be happy to spend my years driving around the local kart track in my rinky dink lo206 kart even if that's the only racing I ever get to experience. If you truly love writing, write for the sake of writing. Enjoy the experience of the act itself, and maybe someday you will look back on it and miss the quaint days when you wrote only for your own enjoyment.

https://youtu.be/qYYIzDMJbpY

>>17626899
Then learn a new language, idiot.

>>17626829
This is frighteningly me

>>17628784
What are you doing to stop yourself from continuing to be like that?

>>17628803
Thinking

>>17625878
>>17626255
Fucking pathetic.

>day dream about being a famous poet
>but like some cool poet guy, like a new movement that completely captures the zeitgeist, like new age beat poet or something
>get so famous i fuck rupi kaur, but never call her back because her poetry is trash

>>17628852
For me it’s daydreaming about how I’ve become superstar A list tier celebrity off the kino off my poetry and I friendzone hot actresses that are all over me

Come here to discuss your dreams
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>>17628817
This. Holy shit. Yikes.

>>17625878
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>>17626866
stop dreaming and start doing, losers.

dreaming about getting bullycided for writing something that is unacceptably cringe

>Daydream about living in a comfy /lit/ city
> Walking outside in the pleasant afternoon weather just enjoying the sights and sounds of the beautiful architecture and the people enjoying their leisure time
>A light drizzle starts coming down and I duck into a warmly lit café
>At a seat facing the window I see a couple in love and I'm happy for them I wish them the best and I pull out my notebook and begin writing

>>17625878
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>>17626393
Imagine being so sad you daydream about being a famous writer. Not being wealthy, or being a celeb, or having a family. A fucking writer.

>>17627242
Still, only good pop writers know music theory, popstars tend to be retards, though there's obvious exceptions, like Ariana Grande, a mediocre musician with outstanding technique, or Charlie Puth, a pop artist that actually knows his shit.
>>17627214
This guys are fucking autists, they're like metalheads wanting to be trap artists. Rock guitar is dead.

>>17629202
How is that more sad than dreaming of being a famous actor or athlete?

>>17629298
Based and Xenophanes-pilled.

>daydream about having exactly the same unsatisfying life that I do now but with more money, while not actually ever spending any of it or indulging in the freedom it would provide
>to dream of something greater feels narcissistic
>why am I like this

>>17629202
>or having a family
Why would anyone daydream about this? Anyone can knock up some girl and be morally obligated to take care of her and your offspring

>>17629574
>anyone can be happy
>why would you want to be happy?

>>17626829

Anon this hits a little to close to home...

>>17627539
Because I’ve never been successful. I’ve never experienced what it’s like to win. So all I can imagine is what I see in books or movies. Yet it feels false. Whenever I imagine someone praising me I start to feel like I’m being lied too or they are secretly making fun of me.

>>17625878
I want to be a remembered writer but being a famous one sounds like hell.

>>17629801
Many people feel nothing when they win. They find out that the praise, the women, the money and the power that they so ardently longed for don't taste as sweet as they initially thought.

>daydreaming again
>write the greatest American novel of all time
>keep myself Pynchon-tier isolated, no social media, no photo ops, nothing
>the literary world is abuzz with speculation as to who this wunderkind could be
>finally agree to do one live interview on a late show
>show up in a tweed suit, smoking a pipe, heavy sunglasses shading my face
>Jimmy Kimmel asks some banal question about my inspiration and how it feels to carry around the burden of such genius
>I lean in
>my shades slide just far enough down my nose to reveal the slightest razor's edge of pupil in the nearest camera
>"*Ahem.* Well Mr. Kimmel, fuck niggers, fuck trannies, fuck kikes, and you know what, Jimmy?"
>"Wh-what is it, sir"
>"Most especially and above all else, FUCK jannies."
>sprint off the set, take off my fake beard, board a greyhound bus for the Canadian border, and spend the rest of my life looking over my shoulder for Mossad agents

>>17626255
This but I dreamed of being the UFC middleweight champ with an undefeated record and an 85% finish rate

This thread is beyond pathetic.

>>17630038
kek

>>17626965
>Anon was found in his bedroom at his parents’ home, face-down in a pool of his own urine, surrounded by lewd drawings of Japanese cartoon characters and The following books: James Joyce’s Ulysses, Thomas Pynchon’s Gravity’s Rainbow, and Infinite Jest by David Foster Wallace. A cryptic message was scrawled on the wall directly above him: “fuck butterfly.”

>>17629208
Considering most pop music is manufactured by producers and song writers who absolutely do know music theory, it doesn't matter what industry plants do or do not know if you want to be a musician.

>>17629208
The compositional style of polyphia is a ton of actual technique, some music theory, and cheating by using daws to digitally compose ahead of time and then practice the composition. Their later work is very rhythmically syncopated and mixed with a hip hop beat but every instrument is being played at an extremely rhythmically tight level in a new and unique way of composing that admittedly is kind of cheating. The thing that makes it insane is the arrangement on the newer stuff.

>>17626829
>can't listen to music without pretending he's the artist
What the hell do you think other people do when they listen to music? It's like saying you can't watch a movie without imagining what it would be like to be the main character.
This was clearly created by someone who lacks any perspective on life. It makes you feel good to daydream about success? Things always seem better in the fictional environment you created yourself? Holy shit, how original and deep. Truly you sir are a casualty of the modern age. You've escaped from the herd to find yourself in a pit of despair. Guess you flew a little too close to the sun there on wings of wax, huh Icarus? What the fuck kind of success did you expect to achieve at 19? Are you pissed at yourself because you don't own a company when most people your age still live at home?
Anyone who relates to this is in fact a pathetic loser, just not in the brooding romantic way they'd like to imagine.

>>17625878
/lit/ should have a confessions threat similar to 'fat people confessions' in /fit/ where you confess that you fantasized about writing without writing.

when i was kid taking a piss at my parent's house i would look at the brand of the toilet "american standard" and imagine people taking tours of the house a former president grew up in and the guide being like "here is the humble tiolet president soenso used as a child" and people craning their neck to see from the back

>imagined myself publishing a novella which wins minor attention but is eventually overshadowed by the (itself not particularly successful) Netflix adaptation which wildly changed the source material beyond recognition
>cleaning up the house one day, son finds a box full of copies of my novella
>"Oh yeah, I had a lot of fun with those. I'd autograph them and hand them out to my friends. I gave everyone two copies. One for them, one for ebay, I'd say. I wonder if anyone still has theirs."
>"Why'd you stop writing? You could have been famous!"
>"Well, I managed to get further with it than I ever hoped. I can't tell you how happy I was when we all gathered around the TV for my 'big premiere.' Your mother was pregnant with you at the time. I used to re-read my reviews every night. I googled myself relentlessly. Every time someone mentioned my book, I got a little spark of joy. But that little spark was nothing compared to the joy I feel watching you grow into a young man, with all of the advantages in life that I never had. Listen: I think we've done enough cleaning to satisfy your mother. What say we kick off and grab something to eat?"
>son hugs me, and then begins gradually fading away like a ghost as I return to my dreary existence as a 30 year old man who has not had sex in seven years

>still regularly fantasize about attending an elite university
>I’m approaching 30 and I performed poorly in every academic environment I’ve ever been in
What’s wrong with me. I know I’m still going to be this way when I’m 60, and it’s only going to get sadder with each passing year.

Thank you boys. These pathetic confessions have convinced me to stop procrastinating and read again. I'm going for a walk later on. Thanks bitches.

>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cldSZIGfBmU
here's a background song for the thread

>>17627054
yeah, when i imagine finally shipping my next app instead of making enough money to go back to school and get a masters or a downpayment on a house, i imagine getting enough money to buy a new laptop, but i know even that won't happen

thank god cancer got to me early

>>17626255
s-stop

>>17626865
I don't know. I can't stop either.

>>17625878
>daydream my suicide in my 20's followed by my subsequent posthumous fame

>>17631914

i daydream about winning the pulitzer and during the acceptance speech i turn into stone cold steve austin

>daydream about the perfect woman
>still reject her because you can't imagine yourself without trust issues

>enter thread
>its all me
any books for this feel

All of you in this thread will not make but I will. Why? Because I have the same pseud background as you but as a cherry on top I'm a black woman so I won't get the backlash from basing all my work on classic white writers. Lol. Thanks for the help /lit/

>>17625878
When I was younger this was a problem, I started day dreaming like this in primary school, everyone would watch me save the world or some shit. This continued through education with the fantasy's becoming more adult, focusing on getting trapped alone with my big titted history teacher, fucking every girl in sixth form, I didn't use porn I preferred ghost raping people. Adult life and I begin to see issues, for a decent (some say hot) looking guy I don't talk to girls, don't try, games and fantasy novels, weed addiction begins, and this really just made things worse, being able to drift among myself for hours. 19 ok this is a sad, still a virgin, gotta do something. Start taking loads of LSD, helps lol actually really helps, practice mindfulness which is learning to just watch you thoughts, no judgement just learning to separate your self from those thoughts. This helped loads and I started finding these dreams really pathetic and funny, but I don't blame myself, it's not me. Read smarter shit, read Jung The red book, learn about the shadow, decide to learn about the suffering of humanity, do nothing else but day dream about mass rapes, Holocaust, Nankin, 3rd world production lines. Go deeper, embrace the all suffering of nature. Am I depressed? No, I don't know what I am anymore. Now when I fantasize it's like a wave that I watch roll in and out and I know it has nothing to do with me. Got a gf, lost her but for a year I knew love and then worked out loves just another fantasy you play with you partner (read Antony and Cleopatra.)

Now 21, a lot better, realistic goals and I'm trying it with writing, lol ik I'm never getting noticed or famous, I tell my friends I live in a utopia, because I have my ideas, my books, and a word processor, I kinda do have everything I need, I cultivated my small garden. Reduced all my desire's, now I only want things to stay the same. Still smoke too much but every day as it comes.

TLDR practice mindfulness, separate yourself from your day dreams, recognize the higher suffering of others and care more about that, reduce your desires, enjoy your utopia.

>>17632109
then make us proud faggot whore

>daydream about discussing books on /lit/
>it's all blogposting

>>17625878
I need to stop. Or at least make it less frequent, because I get nothing done. I always go into a lot of detail for the daydreams too, and I don't even think to do the same for anything creative or coming up with any sort of plan. Only thing that's worked is the imagining of what my life is going to look like if I don't get off my ass.

>>17632113
>loves just another fantasy
No, its the context of Compassion. You are going to need that in your life, both giving and receiving it, so i would advise you not to give up on love

Otherwise sounds good. You're a Chad

Does anyone else ever do that thing where you make images appear in your head, and sometimes these images are of you doing stuff that you think would be cool? I know it probably sounds crazy, but this is something I do quite frequently. It's hard to explain. I think it started happening because, when I was a kid, there was this obscure concept called "fiction", which takes the form of video games, books, and TV. Well as a kid, whenever I was disappointed with my life, I would use "fiction" as a sort of coping mechanism. So now I have this incredibly rare habit of sometimes coming up with fiction-esque scenarios in my head, but they feature me and people I know instead of superheroes and stuff. It's kind of embarrassing to say, but sometimes these headfictions get really personal. With sex and stuff. I guess I just have a tendency to overthink things. From morning until night my internal monologue runs constantly, unlike normal people who apparently only think in short bursts sporadically throughout the day.

I have wasted my entire life just thinking and dreaming. And now at the ripe old age of 20, I am forced to admit that the world has passed me by. I can feel my body failing, knowing each time that I close my eyes that I may never open them again. I will never have a family, or a career, or a home. I am too old to change.

>Internal monologue starts to take the form of an internet comment thread
This lockdown is starting to hit different bros

>>17626255

>daydream about you're mom
>get pig peepee

>>17629182
I BUST IN THE ROOM AND START COOMING EVERYWHERE

>>17627239
That would be a based interview lad. We'll constructed

Consciousness was a mistake

>>17633477
yes

>>17630972
aww, I'm with you bro.

>Decide to do masters in the EU because it's free
>two years long
>be fucking 26 when it finishes
>mightn't get a job out of it
>only doing it to look like I'm part of the intelligentsia

>>17633674
Stop doing it. What would you rather do?

>>17626255
Yeah pretty much, but interviewed as a famous writer.

>>17633674
Lmao I'm 24 and potentially deciding if I want to do this.

Anyone got any EU Comp Sci/Cyber Security grad school suggestions

>>17626864
>>17626965

>>17633674
>>17635536
>24
>Need master's degree to get into industry I want to work in
>Have no academic references
>Grades from undergrad not great
>Work experience since graduation pathetic
>Can't get into the programs
>Can't get a good job without more schooling

>>17635560
>Can't get a good job without more schooling
you can always work the night shift in a gas station

>>17630909
congrats you figured out how the meme template works

>>17635984
That'a not far away from what I'm doing

>>17635560
I was in a similar situation, however I had good professional experience, GRE scores, and LOR opportunities. I'm currently doing Post-Bacc classes right now for the grades and academic references. Thankfully I'm in a STEM field so I can easily go back to work after or continue to Masters field.

You just have to find what works for you anon. Everything is worth fighting for.

>>17625878
>spent another day of thinking of ideas and stressing over what I'll write but didn't write anything

>>17635394
should say I haven't actually done it lol.

>>17630298
I would read what you would write man, I laughed

>>17636416
I want to take a few courses at my BA university to make some good academic references (and boost GPA a little) but it's all online and I know I won't get a good prof to give a shit about me over email. GRE isn't really a thing in Canada for most programs I'm looking at

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>>17626843
what has the median age become here FUCK OFF ZOOMERS

Fame is for vulgar mouths; glory is for aristeic gladness.

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>>17636556
Behold: the delusional loser

>>17630038
heh

>>17626255
Huh, I thought this was my first time posting in this thread.

>>17626829
These 'omg so relatable' memes are so fucking gay