/lit/ - Literature

Nothing has been the same since the French Revolution. We live in a dark age.

>>18055062
Unironically based.

i salute him.

>>18055086
One of the few pleasures that heats my phlegmatic temper is the certainty that wherever people live, crime arises alongside virtue.

>>18055139
>crime arises alongside virtue.
What?

That quote is fake. It was from a proto-onion type piece that the Village Voice did.

>>18055201
>dude trust me

I read daily and discuss what I read on /lit/. I count this as a part-time literature degree, but without the tranny professors part.

1-5 read plotinus
6-0 read Jean Calvin

>>18055062
>”oh hey sorry anon for letting myself into your private library, but I just needed to study your big books...”
What do?

>>18055230
That’s probably more than all lit students famalam

>>18055086
Nothing was ever the same.

>>18055274
Are they big enough for you?

>>18055274
Hide the coke

>>18055170
Virtues are laws. These laws do not benefit all.

>>18055459
I don't know what you're saying. It's always been observed that crimes increase when people become wicked and corrupt, not virtuous.

>>18055062
du du du du DU DU DU DU DU DU DU DUD DU-TU DUD DU DU DU DUD TU-DU

People still think "tranny" or "you will never be a woman" refers strictly to transexuals, but trannies are just the symbol of 21st century leftist thought: truth doesn't exist, everything is relative, high mental illness, ugliness, ungodliness, depressive aggressive behavior, gender and racial ambiguity, etc. The fact that actual transsexuals browse 4chan too is true but irrelevant.

I can't for the life of me understand how people fall in love. I've been with my share of girls, but I've never "loved" any of them. I grew fond of them perhaps, the same way you grow fond of your neighbours or family members maybe, nothing too emotional. How can anyone love a girl when no girl out there is anything special really?

>>18055509
Maube you're aromantic

>>18055476
Shhh, let anon feel smart.

>>18055509
Nobody is truly special, but they could be special to you in some way or other.

ASOIAF has convinced me that when it comes to writing, length is not a virtue

>>18055588
I wanna make a joke about GRRM having lots of girth but I can't think of anything really

>>18055476
>It's always been observed that crimes increase when people become wicked and corrupt
Give me one example.

My first book, which i bought when i was in 1st grade, was on mythology in general. I remember re-reading greek mythos over and over again. It was so fascinating. Maybe there was a reason why i bought that book.

>>18055630
Upon meeting your mother, I have grown wicked and corrupt.

>>18055509
This might be just infatuation but a girl i got rejected by in my highschool contacted me again later on and she asked me out on a date. My nose bleed the first time I saw her and I loved how she looked. When I got home there were thunderstorms and my heart was tempestuous. My heart was beating like mad and things felt rosy. How short all of it lasted. I went crazy and did things I'd have never done but once the many surfeits of desire subsided, I knew I'd done her wrong.

She wanted a serious relationship and I did too. Perhaps I was being a coward but in a sense, I was bound by social and historic forces which made marriage with her a difficult prospect. Although it's foolhardy to think about such things, she was special to me and while marriage should never be an expectation going into a relationship, it ought to be a distant possibility.

While I considered it, I couldn't bring myself to shag her knowing I couldn't commit to a long term relationship either and so we parted ways. I guess she's moved on from our chance encounter and Ive begun to as well but as Dylan sang: So if you find someone that gives you all of her love
Take it to your heart, don't let it stray
For one thing that's certain
You will surely be a-hurtin'
If you throw it all away


I Miss you.

I don't know why I wake up. I don't know why I get out of bed.

Wondering if there’s any expats on here.

How do I nudge a friend away from psychoanalysis? Everything is psychological determinism to him now., whatever you say or think...

I am reflecting on my days on Tinder and Bumble. Back in college, I made profiles on these apps and swiped around. I wasn't seriously looking for anything. Hell, I didn't even want to lose my virginity. But it was fun, and there's something nice about getting a match, and knowing that off a short description and a few pics of me, some girl was interested. But what I didn't expect was that women I found attractive matched with me. Women who in real life I would consider way out of my league matched with me. It was great. But afterwards, I was pretty much the dog who caught his tail and now didn't know what to do. I chatted them up, and a lot more than I expected chatted. There were a few who even took things in a sexual direction. It was an eye-opener I guess, because women I thought were out of my league really liked me, they were sending me nudes and asking for them, etc.

In the end though, I deleted the apps. It was a fun experience, and I am glad for it, because it boosted my confidence greatly. But at the same time, I have this hang-up with sex, where I want to lose my virginity to a girlfriend/wife, not a hook-up. And although girls were into me, the topic of dating never popped up, much less a relationship. I broached it with two girls but being in college and all, serious dating wasn't on anyone's mind. So in the end, I ended up deleting the apps. The women I had met irl I let know that I was focusing on my studies (I felt like giving them an explanation for disappearing was only fair), the others I ghosted (I know, I know). Now that I have graduated, I am planning on hitting the dating scene again, but with a long-term relationship in mind.

>>18055870
Not exactly sure what you mean by "psychological determinism," but that is not what I would call psychoanalysis

>>18055960
>mfw only get matched with single mothers

>>18055476
>Virtues are laws. These laws do not benefit all.
Has Christianity been something good or something bad? I find the question not so easy to answer. At least, even a Christian will have to admit that Christianity was not all good. The same can be said about every religion, every system of values and virtues. By putting great emphasis on one thing, you neglect the other thing - and in life you have to be flexible. Virtues tend to run headlong into the wall. Doesn't every virtue system include the unspoken virtue of not being too stubborn about sticking to the virtue system? Many people forgot this. And things get even more complicated: the virtues of one system are sometimes the crimes of another. An ancient Greek will have much to argue about this with an ancient Christian. Which virtue is the true one? Wars have been fought over this. Whoever does not believe in my virtues is my enemy. That is how we have often thought and acted. Perhaps the one who has no virtues is the most peaceful. Virtues exclude all those who are not virtuous. Virtues are a yardstick, and yardsticks were used to beat children. You are not like us. You must change or leave. And if not by your own free will, then by the use of force. When you play soccer without counting the goals, there are no bloody fouls. But when you count the goals and give the winner a trophy and thousands of spectators cheer, there is a lot of hatred and violence.

>>18055506
Exactly. The same can be said of incels as a boogeyman used by the left. I wouldn't attribute all the same characteristics to them as you did to trannies, but the basic principle is more or less the same.

>>18055630
Read Thucydides for example, he talks about this exact thing.

>>18055960
When I was a teen I didn't think I'd ever lose my virginity. But I didn't really actively think that, I just passively, vaguely accepted this as a fact of life. Some girls had been interested in me growing up, having crushes on me and even asking me to go out with them, but I was too autistic to do anything with it. I was also too sensitive to the naysayers in my own head and externally and I doubted myself. Part of me thought (again, subconsciously, a vague feeling) that the whole world was in on some joke and girls who said they liked me were just fucking with me for some reason. I didn't kiss a girl until I was 19 and was basically dragged out of my comfort zone by her. She was down to fuck too but I was still not comfortable enough, but we did make out and grope each other and whatever. A year later I lost my virginity to some other girl. Both women were solid 8/10s. Those experiences and others have built up my confidence and finally made it sink in that sometimes, for whatever reason only God knows, women are sometimes genuinely attracted to me and like me. What a strange concept

>>18055513
>Maybe you're a romantic
No, actually I feel as though I may be the opposite. I've never been much of a, romantic, far too much idealization in that saga. Though I do enjoy some romantic-era works.

>>18056081
> I've never been much of a, romantic, far too much idealization in that saga.
that's not the line. it's never was much of a romantic
I could never take the intimacy

>>18056104
>that's not the line. it's never was much of a romantic
I don't know what line you're talking about. I was just deliberately misunderstanding the anon I replied to.

>>18056155
it's from a song dude, kanye west? do you ever go outside fuckken geek

>>18055062
I'm doing good in college, getting good grades but I don't know, it all just feels so vain. It doesn't fill the void. I have a good friend but I don't really care about relationship with him outside of keeping it to a bare minimum decency. I can't get over my ex and the fact that it was me who dumped her, even though she was great. She was probably the only person I've ever loved and the only person that ever loved me. There really doesn't seem to be a point to live anymore.

>>18055976
Well, that's how it seems when he talks! For example, I'll ask him why is he with this current gf specifically (what is it about her that makes her special) and the response will be something like "ah, well you already know it's because of early object relations". Or in some other context will talk about how every relationship is just recreating the childhood relationship with your mother, stuff like that. Same thing if I come to him looking for advice, he'll just reduce it to some psychoanalytic concept and the solution is always to get psychoanalyzed or go to therapy. Doesn't really feel like a friendship anymore, makes me wary of what I say to him and that doesn't feel good. Takes me a long time to (if I even manage to, sometimes) get him to exit the theory and answer something from his own perspective, or even any other perspective other than the psychoanalytic one.

My dick is broke and it's really draining my will to live.
Condition is rare; treatment options are limited, low success rate and expensive.
It got worse over the years.
Can't talk to anybody about it.
Got no money to pay for treatment; college student.
Don't think I will ever be able to ever be in a relationship again. It's been long enough that parents have started taking notice, just dodging any questions.
Can't imagine offing myself over something so retarded but I wanted to marry, have kids and all that.
Life is a joke.

>>18056229
>My dick is broke
Wdym? Erectile dysfunction?

>>18056229
just transition fren

I regret my life so much. I really feel that I’ll never live a life worth living and suicide actually seems like the sensible option at this point. I don’t really see a reason not to do it.

>>18055509
I think love is when people give grace to each other, and wish the best for one another. It is when we recognize that, though people have countless flaws, each has the seed of goodness sown in them. And when you love someone (more than attraction, more than familiarity or friendship) you wish to see that seed of goodness grow. When they falter, you try to forgive them, when they succeed, you rejoice in their goodness.

How can anyone love a man or woman when they are not truly special? I think when we recognize good in them and they give us hope for the world. Love grows when it is reciprocated. To be the recipient of grace and forgiveness from the hands of another, when we don't deserve it, to realize that someone else sees in you something good, and for which they are hopeful that it can grow, that makes love possible.

>>18056164
Unironically kill yourself. You'll regret it if you don't.

>>18056263
You shouldnt kill yourself and you need to let go of being grounded in earth and get bible knowledge asap

>>18056259
>Condition is rare
lrn2readingcomprehension

>>18055274
Depends how old my movie is
>Old Old
Kick the hussy out, tell the wife that the neighborhood girl broke in, and while you won’t press charges this time because she’s otherwise been a good Episcopalian, ask the wife to tell her next time she wants a book she better request it at church, rather than rifling around my study for it herself

>old noir
Act haughty in the dim study lighting, wait till she makes her move, flip a coin, and bed her if it’s heads, send her home if it’s tails.

>newer noir
Send her home or go full home defense mode, that bitch gon’ kill me

>modern
Play completely dumb. “Yeah, did you want Robinson Crusoe or something? That’s a pretty big book, I even have the hardback edition.”

Started Brothers Karamazov on thursday. about 150 pages in. I started it once 10 years ago but lost interest. This time I was thinking this is the most interesting and rewarding novel I've ever encountered, but now.. it's getting a little dull again. At the time of writing this I doubt I will finish it.. 10 years ago I thought it was sometimes unfathomably brilliant, a lot of the time dull and it feels it again.. Maybe I got lost in this whole Katerina Ivanovna affair. It switches from the monestary to Katerina Ivanovna and Grushenka somewhat abrubtly and eclectically, and it's a little bit hard to follow. I think Mitja has come to the conclusion that Katerina will never want him because he lost some money on Grushenka, and so he has decided to leave Katerina with head held high, not because he wants to but because he keeps punishing himself. He thinks it's the thing to do, and he thinks that he wants Grushenka, possibly because he went with her a few days and he thinks that is what having gone with her should mean, but more likely because he needs a harbor to crash whatever savings he has into once he has finalized the affair with Katerina, which, again, I don't think he wants to do. And I don't think she'll want to either, and maybe it is because, as he said, she loves her holiness, but the thing is that Katerina is one of the few people who know that Mitja is, ultimately, very good, even though he doesn't understand it himself. This is very good for me, as a reader, because I am judgemental, and it is very good for me to be reminded that a man like Mitja, who seduces and dumps aristocratic virgins (unless he embellished out of self-loathing) can very well be a much better man than myself.

That's what I think but I'm really not sure. Maybe I am interested. I could be 2dumbe for Dostos literary genius and have most of the above wrong though, I'm not sure. Hopefully Katerina will clear up some things. Maybe my real problem with the book is I'm reading it too fast. I got the /lit/ bug recently, I just want to finish a bunch of books. Supposedly that is going to save me.

In reality what I should do is just get my regular life in order. I've sort of gone with Jesus' advice that one should rather listen to Teaching than busy oneself with the world, but if one is to give one must first have something to give, and I'm just walking in stupid circles trying to get wise. I don't know, I switch life-plans significantly more often than I switch socks (and that's probably a bad thing).

>>18056218
I see. He'll get over it eventually, this is like chemistry students who begin to see the world in very mechanistic terms as soon as they learn a little bit. With more knowledge that starts to go away.

>>18056352
I’m also 150 pages in and I’m not that into it either but I never was.

>>18056274
I’m not a Christian anymore.

>>18056363
I just liked the starets a lot desu

>>18056229
Freeze your sperm maybe. Or sell your body to pay for the treatment.

To what degree is what authors write necessarily influenced by what they consumed a lot of growing up?

The reason I ask is because I, like a lot of boys today, grew up largely on video games and anime and if not those than fantasy books. As an adult, I can read some fantasy but I don’t really read much of it and I don’t love it. Still, as an amateur writer I find that a lot of what I come up with is tinged by fantasy in someway. For example, there’s a certain idea I want to write about and I think I can write it well, but for the some reason, the idea is all wrapped up in a fantasy aesthetic and so I feel like in order to tell this story, I have to write fantasy. I don’t have anything against the genre. I just don’t really want to be “the author who writes fantasy”. I can read it and I can even wish the story had been a certain way, but I don’t really want to write it myself. So what am I supposed to do with that? How do I balance feeling like I have a good story to tell and then ability to tell it well with not really wanting to be an author of those types of stories? Is this resonating with anyone at all?

>>18056370
I hope you find a way that works for you.

>>18056352
Dostoevsky takes work. He was once my favorite writer and certainly one who had the most powerful impact on me, but now I don't have the patience for it. Although I never got around to reading Demons which I want to before I die.

Many knowledgeable writers have leveled valid criticisms against him and one is that he meanders and can be undisciplined. For me I always while reading him II always thought of myself as a pilgrim journeying through the desert, occasionally rewarded by finding an oasis of insight. He's the type of author you read to learn about life and human nature, it's an education and so it takes effort.

I also feel that Dostoevsky was a much more inspired writer once he came down from an epileptic fit, which he experienced as divine visitations in which his temporal lobes were filled with the all pervading love and fear of God. He'd recover and proceed to write about it and those were his most inspired passages.
>Love a man even in his sin, for that is the semblance of Divine Love and is the highest love on earth. Love all God's creation, the whole of it and every grain of sand in it. Love every leaf, every ray of God's light. Love the animals, love the plants, love everything. If you love everything, you will perceive the divine mystery in things. Once you have perceived it, you will begin to comprehend it better every day, and you will come at last to love the world with an all-embracing love.

>My young brother asked even the birds to forgive him. It may sound absurd, but it is right none the less, For all is like an ocean, all flows and connects; touch it in one place and it echoes at the other end of the world. It may be senseless to beg forgiveness of the birds, but, then, it would be easier for the birds, and for the child, and for every animal if you were yourself more pleasant than you are now. Everything is like an ocean, I tell you. Then you would pray to the birds, too, consumed by a universal love, as though in ecstasy, and ask that they, too, should forgive your sin. Treasure this ecstasy, however absurd people may think it.

>>18056415
>For me I always while reading him II always thought o
For me while reading him I always thought of myself

I hate bumpfags.

>>18056415
>a pilgrim journeying through the desert, occasionally rewarded by finding an oasis of insight
that's exactly how I felt 10 years ago. eventually I got lost in the desert. We'll see this time. But this time I am reading it because I have made a friend who is a very fine man, and who in many ways personifies pious innocence, and he told me he became religious in his teens from reading Karamazov. So I'm curious to see what got him.

>>18056163
>>>/twitter/

That Johnnie Walker guy’s a real jerk!

>>18055509
I'm incredibly heart bound when it comes to love. First there's physical attraction, which my standards are pretty easy to hit. As long as she is in at least average shape and makes an effort she's approachable.
Then there's the important stuff. Actual comparability. I'm an author and spend a lot of my time in my head. Am I going to lose her in my fantasy or will she understand and join me? (You can usually tell this pretty quick.)
Then skillset. Is she drug and std free? No kids? Maybe she's also artsy? Is she trying at life?
Does she respond to my subtle flirts? Is she single? Does she look at an old European painting and feel like its a long lost home?
If we get this far I have a very high chance of being completely smitten and enchanted.
I haven't found the one that wants to go all the way but when I do find someone even if its just for a few years it just feels right. I'm not whole when I'm not in love.

>>18056447
>in his teens
That's an interesting detail because I first got into Dostoevsky in my teens as well, which partly explains how formative he was of my identity as a writer. Now as an adult, somewhat ironically, I don't have the patience. I would say youth is the best time to read him supposing your are sufficiently literate and intelligent, otherwise it's an impenetrable wall. Your mind is still primed for instruction. It's easier to feel what seems like the saintlike divine inspiration with which moves through him. A few of his characters, Raskolnikov especially, are very relatable for your typical angsty teenager.

I would give anything to be 14 again. I would settle for 18. Hell, I would even take 22. I would gladly give anything to be one of those again.

a lot of things indicate that I should never marry. I should drop it entirely, and if a woman gets interested while I'm not trying then I could maybe be open to it. It happens, I'm good looking but I'm socially and psychologically retarded, and really not much of a man. If I make this decision I'm going to have to find ways to make life meaningful.

I hate globohomo far left faggots so much. They are anti-human, and they can't seem to talk about anything but their fucking faggot politics.
Why do you have to make everything about gender? Why? Is it just a marketing thing because you know you will get points for nothing?

>>18056633
Being single/unmarried leaves way more potential for benefitting the han race, or living a more spiritually pure life. Keyword is potential, it obviously still takes work and discipline

>>18056688
Basically. You're also guaranteed to get attention. Positive from fellow group-think NPCs, negative from everyone else. And in the narcissistic modern world, any attention is good, especially if it requires zero brain activity and effort

>reading Understanding Media : The Extensions of Man
I wonder what would Mcluhan say about the current state of social media, internet and globalization.

>>18056514
How old are you? and why?

>>18056514
Even if you had to relive your life exactly as you had already lived it, knowing full well that you would end up back at the point where you wished you could reset?

>>18055229
You can just google it and see lol.

>>18056688
I've lost long term friends over that. I have a wide range of subjects that I can talk about from myths and legends to my books to my art to history and biology and engineering but no...I get a brick wall that spoke like a broken record. Great.
Where did your personality go, old friend? I miss the person that was destroyed by your fanaticism.

getting laid tomorrow and fuck am I nervous

They said I'm "divorced from reality." Ok, but I don't remember ever marrying reality. Where's the marriage certificate?

>>18056987
Booooo, get off the stage

>>18056981
It would be so easy for me to accept the progressive politics if only these people weren't entirely about reaffirming them with every fucking breath they take. Oh you are nonbinary? OK fantastic, I don't care. Can you please not make your entire person about being nonbinary? Do you have a personality at all if I remove that element from you? Why am I supposed to like you if there is absolutely nothing outside of that? I am I swear to God the most progressive and liberal person in the world, I am completely blind to these things as long as the person is pleasant. and has a heart and a soul. And yet I cannot find any of these people who are anything but fucking idpol. They're like robots, holy shit. And the right wingers are the same. When did people get hollowed out like this? It wasn't like this before?

>>18056763
I’m 28. I just regret a lot of my life to this point. I would do it differently.

>>18056828
Obviously not. In that case, I would like to fast forward.

>>18057035
>I'm fine with queers as long as they're nice
>but none of them are
I think you might not be as progressive as you think

>>18057143
>I'm fine with queers as long as they're nice
>but none of them are
I am only asking for your personality to not be "HELLO I AM QUEER DID I TELL YOU HOW QUEER I AM? QUEER RIGHTS FOR ALL, I HATE CISSCUM QUEER PEOPLE ARE GREAT CHECK OUT MY QUEER WEBSITE FOR QUEERS"
I'm not even hateful I am just not fucking interested but that's illegal apparently.

I'm reading Eagleton's Introduction to Literary Theory

At the beginning of the book, makes an interesting point in regarding how English literature was at first motivated by aristocracy in order to "teach" the lower classes a proper and right behavior, one that was such that the aristocracy would remain in power, worker would have something to do with their free time and not get too politically involved, and appease their wish of aristocratic luxury by experiencing through literature and identifying themselves with the country as a whole.

Now this seems to still be happening, and I wonder to what extent I am a product of it. The media I consume now, books, films, television, may play the exact same role: to prevent us from overthrowing the upper classes and their illegitimate power, both entertaining us and teaching what is right (for them).

>>18056514
What regrets do you have?
I'm 29. There are things I'd have done differently, and while I'm not the person I wish to be, I think taking different decisions in the past would have me strayed further away from it fully into being that feeds the capitalist system.

>>18057197
Listen man I hang around a lot of pretty faggy people and none of them are like this. Might be a zoomer thing.

>>18057212
>What regrets do you have?
There’s almost too many to list. The places I lived in, where I went to school, the relationships I had, almost all of it. I’m just pretty miserable and hopeless and I attribute a lot of it to the life path I started to take when I was younger. You know? You only have a certain window to do certain things and if you don’t do it in that window, they’re gone forever. People say “No. you can change.” Or “You can start now” or whatever but I don’t believe that and it doesn’t redeem the here and now anyway.

My penis is hard at this moment.

>>18057222
My complaint is strictly online, I don't know about IRL since I haven't had a life in years. But I've meet people in the liberal spectrum who were like this IRL too.
I am just frustrated because this is all that these people present to you. Hello I am a nonbinary latinx trans disabled person. What do I make of that? What is your personality even like? I don't give a shit about your skin color or sexual orientation, you're not telling me what you're made of. But I am supposed to not only accept but LIKE this just because if I don't I am a Nazi. It's retarded.

Yesterday I held 18-year-old boobs for the first time. There is no going back after this. They were so, so firm. Every woman I've ever been with has been older than me, and their breasts were soft and going-flabby. This 18-year-old had such amazing breasts. My life will never be the same. I will never date beyond age 20. I can only desire youthful girls now. The MILF thing is a perversion and regret my past wooings.

>>18055509
I felt this way for many girls until I met the one i actually did fall in love with. I miss that woman so much. I rememebr gaping her asshole in a log cabin on top of a mountain

>>18057257
Oh, then in that case I would advise you to get off twitter (or wherever you're encountering them) or at least avoid engaging with people who have a bunch of identitarian buzzwords in their bios. Nothing good comes from arguing on the internet, no matter how good that little hit of rage feels in the moment.

>>18057265
Nah man huge fatass tits are the best

>>18055062
>DINOOOOOSAAAAWWWWWWRRRRRSSSSSS

>>18057282
>I would advise you to get off twitter (or wherever you're encountering them)
I am either unlucky or that's the whole fucking internet outside of 4chan.

>>18057232
You're romanticizing the past. Yes, you can only do some things within a time window, but why do you regret not doing them? A large part of this regret may be very well not because you wish you had done it (because at that time you chose not to, which was, for you at the time, the best possible decision) but because you don't have the past or experiences that dominant cultures expects of people — but fuck these standards.
You're fine, anon. The only thing that matter is the present. If you suck now, focus on sucking less. The past won't matter that much if you're happy in the now.

>>18057384
>why do you regret not doing them?
Because I’ve unknowingly led myself down a path that I just personally find redeemable.
> A large part of this regret may be very well not because you wish you had done it (because at that time you chose not to, which was, for you at the time, the best possible decision) but because you don't have the past or experiences that dominant cultures expects of people — but fuck these standards.
I don’t know what you mean.
> The past won't matter that much if you're happy in the now.
I’m not.

>>18055274

>slap
>throw out of the library
>fuck
>" and don't ever come in here without my permission again, whore "

>>18057432
what do you need now, to be happy now?

gilmore girls is not a good show, but I haven't seen it before and I have seen every good show a lot of times already. A lot of edgy shows do really get worse when you get older, gilmore girls is at least blue-pill wholesome

>>18057546
Give it more of a chance. I felt that way at first too but it grew on me.

There's nothing on my mind.

>>18057567
I'll admit there are some characters I'm more or less fond of

>>18057439
Cringe

>>18056163
I don't like to listen to rap or pop.

>>18057274
>I rememebr gaping her asshole in a log cabin on top of a mountain

Is this a metaphor

>>18057468
I don’t even know honestly. I suspect I can’t be. Hence, all the regret. You don’t have bother yourself with this by the way. I’m just a stranger to you.

>>18057889
It's Kanye West, everyone knows him whether you like his genre or not. You just like to veil your racism as a "dislike" of their music

>>18057917
kys unironically

>>18057917
Are we at the point where not listening to rap is equivalent to racism

>>18057917
NTA but rap music is like taking a drill to my fucking ears, when a shop puts on some fucking mainstream rap music I try to leave as fast as possible. You don't understand how much of an ear raping experience it is to listen to rap if you're used to classical music. And the people who make the rap look like the most fucking unbearable shit imaginable, I hate their loose clothes, I hate their crotch grabbing gestures, I hate their tattoos, I hate the fucking lyrics, I hate their mutilated English. It's like a celebration of everything that is ugly and horrible about the world and they could be white, black, chinese, or from another planet I'll hate that shit just the same.
Even if I were actually racist, the racial modifier wouldn't possibly increase how much I hate the rap music because it's already cranked to the maximum hatred I can muster.

>>18057546
My mom likes that show.

>>18058107
it really is the kind of show a mom would like. blue-pilled wholesome, quirky, feel-good. I mean I think it was more or less made for ambitious upper middle class high school chicks to watch when they came home from school. just another niche in some sense. but it's ok.

>>18058057
>muh classical music
Shut up man, I'm a classically trained musician and I can enjoy rap

>>18058147
same.

I got a belly during this pandemic,funny because I used to think that being fat couldnt be that bad.But I feel it,I feel it attached to me,this fat on my stomach,as if I had something external hanging off of me, all the time as if I had a cloth or a blanked on me,and its not even that big,its not even noticeable under my shirt.I wonder how a truly fat person feels,probably terrible.No first hand account can properly describe this feeling.

>>18057439
>>>/r9k/

>>18058212
I know what you mean. The thing I found was just how much warmer I felt all the time. Walking from one destination to another would make me sweat. Any kind of physical exertion made me sweat obnoxiously. It's a response that made me not want to exercise which only fed the problem.

>>18058212
I legitimately, legitimately don't understand how people can allow themselves to get properly fat. I hate fat people so much.

>>18055062
I have so much I have to do, so much I want to do, and so much will do. But my mind is still totally hazy. I thought exercising would help clear my mind and make me a better everything. Still, I'm healthier than before and the healthier someone is, the better you are at living, thinking, and being. It's a slow process and I'm a slow guy, but things will change.

>>18058307
Quick fix cardio becomes impossible when you're fat because of the street it puts on your knees and lower legs, they give out before you're lungs and heart do. You can still do cardio and lose the weight obviously, but jogging/running is the fastest way. Gotta resort to walking, biking, heavy bag boxing, stuff that takes longer

Too sleep deprived to read today, which will break my ~35 day streak of reading everyday after getting myself back into it. Just gotta get back on the horse tomorrow. Tomorrow I will try to read the roughly 100 page second section of The Sound and the Fury. Yesterday I read the 75 page first section. Gud stuff

>>18058412
Or just eat less / better?

>>18058463
That isn't a quick fix either. And I'd rather just lose 10 pounds by blowing my head off instead

>>18058489
Why not? Just starve yourself a little. It's way quicker than cardio.

When the Amazon truck backs up it sounds like a giant raven.

>>18058412
*stress it puts on

Not 'street'

I write in notepad instead of word because fuck autocorrect. Spelling mistakes just give the original manuscripts an aura of authenticity.

I want to organize a benevolent cult.

>>18058647
I would love to be the left hand cult man. Someone to rally the troops and give impassioned speeches while stuff's on fire. Ya, that'd be awesome.

I’m like terrified to just quit my job without a backup plan. I’ve posted about here just about everyday for a week or two now. I know it has to happen but I just can’t bring myself to do it.

>>18056259
>>18056262
Anon deleted his post this is what it was:

My dick is broke and it's really draining my will to live.
Condition is rare; treatment options are limited, low success rate and expensive.
It got worse over the years.
Can't talk to anybody about it.
Got no money to pay for treatment; college student.
Don't think I will ever be able to ever be in a relationship again. It's been long enough that parents have started taking notice, just dodging any questions.
Can't imagine offing myself over something so retarded but I wanted to marry, have kids and all that.
Life is a joke.

>>18057911
>I suspect I can’t be
Are there any objective elements in your life from which you drew this conclusion?

Fill the wheel for me, please. Rate every aspect in your life from 1 to 10, and fill it accordingly in the wheel from centre to periphery.

>>18058663
Have you been applying to many other jobs so far? Any interview offers or responses?

>>18055062
I really hope Joe pays off the rest of my student loans. I have enough to knock them out right now but I want to use them to buy a car outright. That would be a perfect storm.

>>18058787
I’ve not applied to anything. There is nothing else I want to do.

>>18055062
wondering if i'll ever collect all 4 pages of this masterpiece

>>18058758
I mean, how objective can we be about ourselves and our lives? I’m not even sure what might qualify as objective. It’s a deep rooted impression based on perception and experience.

As for the wheel, I’d put myself at a 2 or 3 in everything.

>>18058817
>I mean, how objective can we be about ourselves and our lives?
We can be fairly objective.
For example, there are people who see themselves as bad students, always not enough, despite having grades decent enough to pass that say otherwise. A measure of academic success can be grades enough to pass, however a sense of inadequacy my be superior for many reasons (recent, or forced in childhood).

For example, what about yourself makes you think you are a 2 or a 3 on an intellectual level?

>>18058868
I was a mediocre student most of my life. Actually, I was a bad student. It took me six years to graduate from college in an easy major and I was on the verge of failing that entire time. In my job, I constantly make mistakes. The only thing I enjoy is writing and I don’t think I’m good at it.

>>18057546
>>18058138
I've only seen a few episodes of K-dramas but they seem to be very sincere/wholesome and kind of take me out of the whole redpill mindset. Consider giving them a try, you might like them.

>>18058800
If by nothing else you mean no other job... what would your ideal "backup plan? be?

>>18058934
No idea, dude. I want to write. That’s really the only thing I still want to do at this point. I wanted to go live in another country, but I’ve started to realize it’s a pipe dream.

>>18058883
Being a bad student does not reflect necessarily a low intellectual level. It may be the case, but it's a superficial judgment. Say, some people have many worried or self-esteem issues because of which they cannot focus enough when they study, or they lack the long-term planning abilities required to perform good because they never learnt them from their parents or secondary education. I cannot make a case for you here — I do not know you, but I can be fairly sure that you're more intelligent than you think you are, and if you feel bad it's maybe because your expectations are too high and you're only human.

The important thing is that you graduated. It doesn't matter how many years it took, it's not a race. Most people don't even go to college. Would I be wrong if I say that your parents did not go to university?

Can I ask what is your job?

I have a confession to make.
The administration and my advisors tell me I need to quit pursuing a CS degree or do it at another institution. I refuse to do either and persevere with a CS degree at the school, but I've done little to improve my self-learning skills. I'm only starting now, but I feel like I've wasted my academic suspension. Yes, I got suspended, and it sucks. I still go to CC, but...hmmm.

>>18058953
Make your own website and put your writing on it, take writing/journalist classes, apply for low level writing jobs. If nothing works out in that field you're still doing something you enjoy, and you tried

>>18058953
I get you, I've been there. I'm the anon you originally replied to and his advice was good too but you should look into r/leanfire and r/fatfire as well.

I've been dealing with depression for years, and I've decided that one day, I'll go away. It won't cure how shitty I feel all the time, nor will it magically cure every last one of my problems, but I'll be away and that's all that matters. Disappearing from circulation is the only way to die without truly dying. I won't be anything but a distant memory for the people that cared or pretended to care. Like a child, or a very old person, I won't be expected from shouldering responsabilities once I'm away. It's the egoist's ultimate move, but just as I don't want to be burdened, I don't want to burden anyone. I don't want to live in my shithole country, don't want to spend half of my life alone, don't want to rot and become retarded with age, having done nothing but expecting everything from my children and thinking of it as a normal thing.

I won't wait till I'm married or have children to go away, I'm only waiting for the right time, the right amount of money and the right opportunity to come. I'll graduate college in a few years and the sole reason I went to college and persevered despite my crippling depression was to live an unfettered, middle-class life away from my place of birth.

>>18058959
>Would I be wrong if I say that your parents did not go to university?
They did but neither of them finished. Only one of them was really in the picture at the time and I never really got advice from them anyway.
> Can I ask what is your job?
I do finance and accounting stuff for a school.

>>18058984
I will. Still, I just feel like I’m wasting my time and what I actually have to do for money or whatever instead feels like I’m wasting my life and isn’t worth it. I’ll do it but feeling is hopelessness basically.

>>18059084
I just can’t even bring myself to care about retirement or finances or any of that. The idea of even a decade or two slogging through this sort thing is unthinkable at this point.

>>18059122
Tough position to be in and you're not alone, wish I had better advice but your dilemma reminds me of the protagonist in Keep the Aspidistra Flying by George Orwell. Either way, godspeed anon I hope you find happiness (whatever that means)

One evening as the sun went down
And the jungle fire was burning
Down the track came a hobo hiking
And he said, "Boys, I'm not turning"
"I'm headed for a land that's far away
Besides the crystal fountains
So come with me, we'll go and see
The Big Rock Candy Mountains"
In the Big Rock Candy Mountains
There's a land that's fair and bright
Where the handouts grow on bushes
And you sleep out every night
Where the boxcars all are empty
And the sun shines every day
And the birds and the bees
And the cigarette trees
The lemonade springs
Where the bluebird sings
In the Big Rock Candy Mountains
In the Big Rock Candy Mountains
All the cops have wooden legs
And the bulldogs all have rubber teeth
And the hens lay soft-boiled eggs
The farmers' trees are full of fruit
And the barns are full of hay
Oh, I'm bound to go
Where there ain't no snow
Where the rain don't fall
The winds don't blow
In the Big Rock Candy Mountains
In the Big Rock Candy Mountains
You never change your socks
And the little streams of alcohol
Come trickling down the rocks
The brakemen have to tip their hats
And the railway bulls are blind
There's a lake of stew
And of whiskey too
You can paddle all around it
In a big canoe
In the Big Rock Candy Mountains
In the Big Rock Candy Mountains
The jails are made of tin
And you can walk right out again
As soon as you are in
There ain't no short-handled shovels
No axes, saws nor picks
I'm goin' to stay
Where you sleep all day
Where they hung the jerk
That invented work
In the Big Rock Candy Mountains
I'll see you all this coming fall
In the Big Rock Candy Mountains

>>18059122
>I just can’t even bring myself to care about retirement or finances or any of that. The idea of even a decade or two slogging through this sort thing is unthinkable at this point

I 1000% sympathise, but at the end of the day it is something you will HAVE to think about whether you like it or not. I know what you mean though, it's almost impossible to think about in a very literal sense - like when you try to think about you can't think at all, like you're staring through dense fog or television static, the thoughts just aren't there.

If you haven't already, I would recommend getting out in nature for a day or two or longer if possible and just having a really long, honest, frank conversation with yourself. Have the conversation out loud if you need to (that always helps me for some reason). In this conversation, you want to outline all your possible options. If you don't know your options, or don't know much about them, discuss with yourself steps to take to find out more about them. Identify all the pros and cons about these options. Identify what it is EXACTLY you are scared of or worried about when it comes to each option (e.g. I am scared of ending up in a job that makes me unhappy etc.). You don't need to come up with solutuons to these anxieties just yet, but articulating them out loud will be helpful. If there are still gaps in your knowledge or gaps in the conversation, acknowledge them as gaps and then make a plan as to how to plug those gaps (e.g. make a resolution to research a particular course more, or ask a friend who knows more about X topic than you do etc.) So much of our mental paralysis comes from feeling overwhelmed by what we do not know, having a conversation with oneself about this can help resolve mental blockages. It won't solve everything of course, but on the long course of life it may move you even a step closer toward something productive, rather than wallowing in complete stagnation.

The language of the youth in 10 years is going to be an English-Japanese creole. Already more and more Japanese words and phrases are becoming commonplace in anime-adjacent communities.

>>18059403
I really don’t think I do have to. I’ve planned for a while now on calling it quits before I got old and with my family history, it’s not unlikely I’ll grow old whether I want to or not.

I appreciate your advice and I know you mean well but I’m really just done outlining. I’m done planning. I’m done chasing, hustling. I’m over all of it. It’s exactly the sort of thing I just simply don’t want to do anymore. There’s no options to consider anyway.

ANTARCTICA IS SENTIENT

I have resolved to move cities at the end of this year. Now I can't muster even a shred of enthusiasm for my job, with the knowledge that I'll be leaving, but I still have a minimum of at least 6 months left, which is a long time to slack off for.

I'm losing my few IRL friends that I've known for a decade or longer. All these people I used to know are getting married. I'm still a virgin, maybe I'm still too young for it to really matter but I know I'm just old enough for it to be pathetic. My best friend is a fat, lazy NEET and he's losing his hair. I still think about my college gf every day even though it's been much longer since we broke up than we were ever together. I want to read; I want to write, but I lack the motivation to do either. I steal every paycheck I collect. A grad student instructor I had is 30 now. I desire her, but I don't know if it's lustful or something almost pure. I ran into her in January and she won't leave my mind. I keep dreaming about drinking tea with her and holding her hand. Is that foolish?

>>18059882
Why would it be?

>>18059978
It's both very tame, almost childish, and totally unreflective of reality or likelihood.

>>18060011
So?

Am I crazy for thinking that people have taken the coronavirus almost too seriously? At this point you can get vaccinated so why bother prolonging regulation? People have dealt with worse tragedy and sickness in the past anyway

My biggest regret in life was trying to start a prog rock band in high school instead of a punk one

>>18055062
>tfw my parents couldn't figure out what to name me for the first several months of my life so they just called me mookie after the guy in the OP picture
i'm white and both of my parents have masters degrees

My girlfriend dumped me and I don’t have anyone else in my life. I often wander through the streets expecting something to happen.
How do you even meet people after college? I work from home.

>>18060138
I'm not getting vaccinated, but I agree, people did take it way too seriously. People we're assaulted over it and life has been accosted more by the measures than the virus itself.

>>18060138
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qp3gy_CLXho&ab_channel=RealTimewithBillMaher

>>18055086
The American revolution preceded it, and set the wheels in motion for the French Revolution

>>18060138
Are you crazy? They turned this 2 week lockdown, which might’ve even been unnecessary at that point, into a 2 year frenzy of paranoia. You know, when I think about how this whole thing has put so many people’s lives on hold I almost can’t believe how ridiculous it is. This isn’t like having your lives delayed by a world war. This is something way more pathetic and just sad at this point.

>>18060199
>How do you even meet people after college? I work from home
I wish I knew.

>>18060361
French revolution was going to happen regardless. American revolution just sped it up by highlighting the already intense social and economic contradictions that existed in 18th century France.

>>18060138
I don't think you're crazy. I've only known one person this entire pandemic who contracted the virus, and he was perfectly fine. This shit has gone on too long.

What do you do when you find out something you've been working on has already been done better? Specifically, I'm working on a story which features Civil War hold-outs and has characters who paint themselves to match the surrounding landscape to hunt trespassers. A couple days ago I watched the new Wrong Turn movie, and both of those concepts were in the film. There's even a speech at the beginning which not only conveys the exact meaning of some dialogue from my work, but is in fact a 75% match for vocabulary. The other 25% is just bloatage in my prose which I meant to cut anyway. And almost every single aesthetic concept and philosophical point I tried to explore was also in the film, except it was all executed much more concisely and with much more emotional impact than what I wrote. Like every plot device I had in my novel now just seems like a watered-down version of what I saw in the movie. I was so stunned that I actually had to stop and consider the possibility that I had somehow seen this movie before and then forgotten it. And on top of all of that, all the reviews I read online described it as mediocre and shallow.

The characters, setting, and overall themes of my novel are way different than the movie, but now the differences just feel like contrivances designed expressly to distance my work from accusations of plagiarism. I just don't feel like I can continue.

WHY WOULD ANYONE WASTE THEIR TIME ON FRENCH INTELLECTUALS HOLY SHIT THIS IS GARBAGE.

>>18060138
>taking the vaccine
Wow what's it like being an impressionable woman?

everyone is so mean on the internet. it's so tiring.

I hate when all of Christianity is reduced to John 3:16

>>18060742
I love how all of Islam is summarized in Surah al-Hamd.

>>18060854
Is it though? I think Islam is more than what Muslims officially believe. There's a whole culture surrounding it.

Taking a break from instagram or social media really does wonder to ones mind. I feel more free with my time and just generally don't feel obligated to open that app anymore. Some of you say coming to /lit/ or 4chan(nel) constantly is horrendous but it's nothing compared to these social media. They are literally built to get you hooked like a zombie. I'd rather be here than there.

>>18055062
I traded the best friendships in the world for loneliness and self-imposed isolation, out of my own hubris nonetheless. I thought that by staying around I could only ever hurt them. I had to. It won't last much longer. It's easier to say goodbye to someone you used to know than it is to mourn a close friend. I hope they'll all understand. "Turning and turning in the widening gyre. The falcon cannot hear the falconer. Things fall apart; the centre cannot hold." I don't know how much longer it will be, but it can't be but soon. I only worry that in dying, I will be handing a veritable death sentence to my mother, who has done no harm to anyone, and does not deserve to feel the pain of burying her son. We're all dealt a rough hand: you must either live long enough to bury your mother and father, as is the natural course of things, or you should perish and hand them the greatest sorrow that could ever befall them. The universal constant in this is grief. Someone has to feel it; always and forever.

Got an offer for support from some so-called 'hybrid' publisher/agency, who I submitted a fantasy novel to on a whim (they came up on a google search near the top). They claim to be an agent and a publisher, and they also want some ridiculous fee. It stinks, more or less. I honestly did not expect to hear back from them.

Seeing some of the other novels they've published, they have seemingly faded into obscurity very quickly and don't appear to be physically available in bookstores (despite this mob claiming that the books they publish can be found 'in all good bookstores').

Not to mention, the 'agreement' they sent me claims 100% royalties for the author, which makes no sense (they probably mean '100% of whatever's left' after everyone else takes a cut). Is everything a scam nowadays?

>>18060361
Nothing to do with it idiot. American Revolution was very different

>>18061306
American revolution was undoubtedly connected to the French revolution, even if it was not the primary influence or cause for the French revolution itself. To say that the American revolution had "nothing to do with" the French revolution is ridiculous and just blatantly wrong.

>>18055274
Try to act cool while I try to figure out how my library went from a shitty ikea shelf that I mostly use to keep assorted documents to its own room larger than any other in my apartment, and how it contains a woman who knows my name, but whom I've never meet. There's a mystery afoot and I'm gonna get to the bottom of it.

>>18055781
>My nose bleed the first time I saw her
go back to /a/ faggot

>>18060934
You shouldn't confuse Arab culture with Islam. Islam is all-encompassing and has rules on almost everything, but it can lend itself to and be implemented on different cultures. See how Iranian Muslims or Turk Muslims differ with Arab ones, despite all being Muslims.

>>18061385
It has nothing to do with the negative consequences that followed. American Revolution was against tyrants and justified and just a regular revolution like many others that happened in history. There's a reason why Burke supported American Revolution but didn't support French Revolution

It's so easy to manipulate philosophically weak retards if you know how exploit their fear of death.
What a fucking clown world.

>>18060681
i could handle the meanness if they weren't so stupid

I dont know how other people make it.

>>18056081
not a romantic, aromantic

>>18061554
healthy functional habits instilled by healthy functional structure in life from a young age do wonders for further developing those things on your own later in life

chances are if you developed something akin to a dependence of videogames as a child, or some such thing just for one possible example, maybe a severe aversion to doing your chores or a situation where you never even had to do chores, there is a possibility that you are going to be in trouble later in life

Suffan. Skrix arganol. Quiz arpatan gascoqn fuit? Ezpit durrdan voipun sturn vit un helmend arganol. Turdin est un essexum iao.

That is all.

>>18061639
I personally have a problem regarding living in ignorance, running away from personal responsibility and not knowing what i want. Sure, maybe those problems are easy for other people to fix but for me its too much for my frail self. I agree that healthy habits from young age, do lay a foundation for the future situations.

>>18061694
>not knowing what i want
this is extremely important I think. I effectively destroyed my life so far because all my life I had absolutely 0 direction, when i was a child i just played videogames, when I was a teen i just drank and smoked weed, my entire philosophy of life was basically some lame excuses about personal freedom and "yolo" attitude built on a foundation of nihilism, and as i approached the end of highschool this issue developed into pretty severe anxiety about what i was going to do, and when the end of school came i just COMPLETELY shut down for years, just NEETed mostly, and further destroyed my mind and body in the proces. it wasn't until maybe 25 that I FINALLY came to grips with things and found direction; what kind of person I wanted to be, what I wanted from the world, that sort of stuff, but by that time as i said I was just fucked up beyond belief from a lifetime of poor lifestyle and im still struggling to dig myself out of that hole

>>18061724
>it wasn't until maybe 25 that I FINALLY came to grips with things and found direction; what kind of person I wanted to be, what I wanted from the world, that sort of stuff, but by that time as i said I was just fucked up beyond belief from a lifetime of poor lifestyle and im still struggling to dig myself out of that hole
How did you come to a better insight?

>>18061745
a lot of life experience and confusion i guess. the older I got the more the cracks began to show in my world view and my life, and when things really began to fall apart in life, so did my general world view. from that point there was a long period of just pure confusion where whatever "direction" and world views i had (if you can even call it that, it was more like an amalgamation of excuses) vanished, and I was truly like a ship drifting in the middle of the ocean. in this time there was a lot of confusion and i certainly did a few more things i am not proud of in that confusion, falling into similar traps, but that overall was still a learning experience, and after a time of this i just came to a point where I entered a more focused period of reflection and self awareness, and that is when I dispensed with the internal lies and addressed all the mental games i played with myself in the form of insincere motivations and justifications and excuses for poor self destructive, often hedonistic behavior, and really broke down my thoughts into a sort of pure simple distilled form of what I TRULY valued in life, and it was from those values that i began to build my thoughts up anew and find direction, what sort of person I really want to be, all that good stuff

>>18061541
People that lack a fear of death are the most sound people in the World.

nigger pleroma

>>18061724
>it wasn't until maybe 25 that I FINALLY came to grips with things and found direction; what kind of person I wanted to be, what I wanted from the world, that sort of stuff, but by that time as i said I was just fucked up beyond belief from a lifetime of poor lifestyle and im still struggling to dig myself out of that hole
Same here. Same feeling.

>>18061013
What would you say is the main difference between mainstream social media and chans? Personally I'd say that I'm wasting too much time on youtube, twitch and 4channel altogether. It's constant escapism and never runs out of content. Never used insta, Facebook Twitter and co. though I do see how that would be worse than what I already use. I guess only using chans without mindless youtube and twitch watching would be a big improvement.

>>18061826
How do you cope? I have a ridiculously difficult time reconciling who I turned out to be and who I wish I turned out to be as well as the feeling that, because I realized them too late, I’ll never live up to my ideals. It’s gotten pretty bad and I really need help.

>>18061985
Similar here since 26. But it kind of doesn't work for me anymore. Close to 30 and falling back into old habits. I'm not a good person.

>>18055630
African americans

>>18055274
Expel her.

>>18061826
>it all comes down to experiencing various things
what was that one experience which shaked the foundation the most?

>>18055509
>How can anyone love a girl when no girl out there is anything special really?
Have you tried dating a woman of quality?

>>18056270
This anon is a tremendous loser, don't take advice from him.

political science is such a fucking meme. I've chosen it as my minor and there's not one seminar on economic theory. what the fuck

>>18055274
>What about you instead study my big cock?

>>18055062
Some people don't think it be like it is, but it do.

Truth is, there’s a certain degree of floundering which if allowed to happen in early life, you simply cannot recover from.

>>18056164
I think you’ll be okay anon. Just go on tinder and get over her.

>>18056164
Is the ex taken now?

Any of you ever quit a job to pursue a passion? Did it work out? Did it not work out?

>>18062317
I spent all my savings so I could be a socialist revolutionary for a few years without being a total hypocrite for being well off. Tried it out and now completely regret it because the world ain’t ready for socialism baby. Now I’m closer to Mussolini, a pragmatic of sorts.

>>18057274
kek true love

>>18061993
The main difference between chans and social media I'd say is how they're designed. Chans have an organic element to it that the only reason why you would want to stay would be because of the autists posting in this board. You come back to interact with people and once in a while you can go take a break, at least in my opinion. This being that there isn't an 'unlimited' amount of posts in the chans. We have up to page 12 until threads start archiving or reaching bump limit. Social media on the other hand is designed specifically to suck you in. You keep scrolling and there won't be an end to it. There's always going to be going to be another post you can see at the edge of your screen and your monkey brain will want to see it. Add an algorithm to that which understands you based on what you like and see, and things will become more 'curated' to suit your taste. It's almost dystopian if you take a step back and look at it. Youtube and Twitch is also similar in that regard but it's not the same level in which zuck as taken it. I'll admit I still get obsessed over youtube videos but it was nothing compared to Instagram. I would wake up and look at it the first thing in the morning, it was that bad.
I'm starting to grow more jaded with how things are. Not necessarily in a bad way. If it means I actually get my life on track all the better for me.

>>18062347
Good on you, anon. What, perchance, did you follow on Instagram? I used to be obsessed with Andrea Botez and sug4rfairy that I would always comment on their shit like a simp and hope they’d like it. ‘Twas depressing...

https://youtu.be/gT62wsEgJuI

bro im literally hamlet, but my father's murderer is me (its him), i have to avenge him and kill myself. its like the part in the idiot when he described being on the carriage leading to his execution, im the executioner. i havent slept in three days and i masturbated for 12 hours

Will it be too late when I make it

>>18062369
Go the fuck to sleep

>>18062382
i can't. it's my sister's birthday and i don't want to miss her party

>>18062366
Besides my friends and acquaintances, the algorithm fed me korean chicks. There were some plastic and some not so plastic. I didn't really care whether they were plastic or not, my monkey brain was oogling at them like a shiny rock.

>>18062429
Damn... maybe you need to get a Korean waifu irl and make the next Waldun hapa literary extraordinaire

>>18062331
Hard for me to consider that pursuing a passion.

https://youtu.be/pbs_plSB0UQ

>got my uni third semester result
>everything is Bs and B+
>mfw my Master's track record are all in the B range
This is the first time I'm consistent but I wish I could've gotten an A at least. I'm both glad it's not C but at the same time a little annoyed it's not more than a B.

>>18062449
Politics is passionate, anon. Most political activists would commit suicide without it.

>>18062378
It's only too late to make it if you give up.

>>18062465
Go for the As anon, I believe in you. Less time posting and more time reading/studying/honing

>>18060384
>>18060199
I’ve met some people through open play sports and recreational sport leagues, if that’s your guys thing. Pretty casual friendships, just have someone you know you can talk to and play with on a regular basis, and you can take it further if you want, example I went out to dinner with some teammates yesterday after our games.

God damn I love OPN

>>18062317
This is something that really caught my attention last year around this time. This idea that I had a passion for something and I was wasting my time at my current job. In general I was right, but my passion wasn’t something that I needed to quit my job to do. I’m still wasting my time at the same job, frankly wasting everyone’s time there, but they had 2 years of internships to vet me out and didn’t so almost their fault. I’m looking forward to the day they fire me that I can try and turn the passion into a career, but until then I’m just enjoying it.

>>18059409
>english japanese
The only language people will speak in the near future is chinese. Remember this, anon

I am curry-anon and I'd like to tell all the tall muscular blue eyed chads and tyrones that it's over for you.
You can never compete with our awesome personalities. You can never respect a woman like we do. Just give up. You're pretty face wont help you get a girl.

It's truly over for you all, lmao.

>>18062508
Plenty of junkies who would commit suicide without drugs

>>18062742
I see. I’m probably just going to pull the trigger and quit.

>>18063020
So you’re saying... is that politics is for people in the system, for the system?

Anyone else just automatically adopt this phony fucking persona when talking with people at work and hate themselves for it?

>>18063148
>work
Anon, if you’re well-adjusted enough to work then you don’t belong here.

>>18063204
I have no choice. NEETbux isn’t a thing here and I’m barely holding onto employment at all times.

>>18063212
Damn... I hope you get through that. Are you in Eastern Europe or something? My ex was from there and had no dole; it was depressing.

My psychiatrist won’t give me NEETbux despite diagnosing me with schizophrenia. He forced me into a graduate program I’m dreading because I have to be ever so sociable and read a fuck tonne. It gives me some dignity but I’d rather sit at home and read what I want, write as I please, and pay for various books I need to access esoteric traditions. Such is life.

>>18055062
The greater the need to signal ones virtues, the less actual virtue that person possess.

>>18063252
>Are you in Eastern Europe or something?
America. We don’t have NEETbux and disability is impossible to get as you’ve elaborated. I’m too old at this point to just go back to school.

>>18063459
Really? There was this autistic guy in my hometown who was on disability even though he was totally fine, just a little weird. This was like 10 years ago though, it has probably gotten more difficult since then.

>>18063459
Man, America sounds like a third world shithole. Hope you find greener pastures soon, anon; just remember to torrent books and go to the library.

>>18063531
I don’t go to the library because I live in a college town so the place is filled with 20
year olds and Chinese.

>>18063543
>he doesn’t read
>wonders why he’s poor and barely functional
Anon, I...
https://www.businessinsider.com/what-successful-people-read-2017-7%3famp

>>18063543
What's wrong with that? Seems fine.

>>18063557
When did I say I don’t read?

>>18063583
They make it hard to concentrate.

>>18057135
28 is still young
i feel like you do, at 35
regret is a waste of time
just try do what you need to do lessen it moving forward

>>18063842
not that anon but 28 seems like a death sentence if you have absolutely zero idea when it comes to life and passion and not only what is socially expected from you.

>>18063842
All I’m getting from this is I’ll feel the same at 35 as I do now, which is really not great.

Start living Anons

>Have you ever considered that it might be a good idea to embarrass yourself on purpose? This practice, also known as "constructive embarrassment," is similar to carrying out exposures in cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT). The idea is that by doing things that you find embarrassing on purpose, you will learn that you can handle your feelings in those situations.

I had a dream where I ate camera lenses and the heads of flashlights. For some reason it was both a viable form of sustenance and perfectly safe provided you chewed them properly. So I sat there and chewed, and chewed.

da ba dee da ba di

napoleon was right about cannons

NO

I'm cheating on my girlfriend and have basically no feeling in my penis anymore. I had a bad circumcision as a kid which left me unable to masturbate without lube. So, as a 13 year old I'd use whatever lube I could find in the bathroom. Usually hand soap and shampoo. This left permanent and irreversible nerve damage on my cock, from the friction of my hand on the dried up shampoo residue dick skin. Still, sex feels good. So back to my girlfriend. I recently had to leave the country. Since I've left I've fucked 6 girls off tinder. The other night the most recent one was blowing me and I literally couldn't feel it. She's bobbing on my dick but literally couldn't feel her tongue glide on my shaft or glans. Only her teeth if she made contact. Still it felt nice, almost as a psychological move. The whole time I felt zero remorse for my girlfriend, who's texting me good night and shit while I'm getting head from this tinder girl. The week prior I came in a different girl's asshole. Same good night text from my girlfriend, who's hopeful to see me next month when my visa comes in. She's living with her Catholic parents in the countryside, living a traditional life, dreaming of me. I'm cumming in other girls assholes and mouths simultaneously. The numbness and nerve damage on my cock mirrors my apathy and calousness in the act of cheating. I'm not some psycho - babies are cute, I give generously to charity, I cry at the cinema, I help those in need. But, fuck, I'll exploit my looks and charisma my whole life if it means I can seduce women and fuck them the way they and I crave.

>>18061831
Any book that explains this?

>>18055506
What does this have to do with anything?

I wonder, how many anons on 4chan are people in wheelchairs.

>>18057135
Same for me, going to be 28 soon.

>>18055062
I feel sad. I screw up everything, because I don’t believe I can achieve anything. I can’t see the reason behind anything. It’s all hyper specific. I’m a jack of trades that can’t be sown together. It’s hard to dedicate your life to a small piece of yourself. And I feel I should focus on something different as time passes, with each new iteration. I can’t do this. I can’t focus on one thing only. But the general outlook is hated in a hyper-specialized society. I’m lost completely.

>>18057307
Stay away from any idpol hugboxes and you should be okay. I know quite a few people who could potentially have fallen into that categorization but do not because they haven't gone into the trap of attention-divisiveness and reduced their personality to their minor attributes.

every society needs laws. every lawbreaker must be punished. and since there will always be criminals, punishment is unavoidable. what is unavoidable must be accepted if one does not want to get tangled up in endless contradictions. it is equally true that lemons can be made into lemonade: the act of punishment can be turned into pleasure. why not?

perhaps punishing criminals is more righteous than preventing crime.

>>18060138
>Am I crazy for thinking that people have taken the coronavirus almost too seriously?
No, that's entirely reasonable.

>At this point you can get vaccinated so why bother prolonging regulation?
Yeah, I don't get it. All the fat old politicians got their vaccines so I wonder what they're so afraid of. Maybe they just enjoy shitting on everyone else. If you got the vaccine yourself though, you're a fucking moron. In a country with a population of over 350 million, fewer than 16,000 people under 50 died of covid in 2020. That's just over half as many as die of car accidents in the same age group. So rather than roll the dice with something half as dangerous as something you do every day, you'd rather inject yourself with something with practically non-existent long-term safety testing?

>People have dealt with worse tragedy and sickness in the past anyway
Yes. In fact, this is a good tragedy and sickness, and the only shame here is that there's so many boomers for it to kill. Old people are a blight on our civilization and if they'd had the smallest shred of decency, they'd have offed themselves decades ago.

If I don't start studying right now, i'll have to squeeze and cram things. I have a music project too that i have to fit in somewhere, but i'm so hungry and it's already pretty late. I want to get some yous though and talk in some threads before they die. i'll start studying in 16 minutes, promise.

I can barely make it half-way through this video.
If I didn't change my ways three weeks ago, though, I wouldn't make it five minutes.
https://youtu.be/wtn9KJSaoiQ
>>18064616
There's nothing more righteous than saving a lost soul, and preventing crime means just that.

>>18064852
Use the BlockSite app, and if you could, turn your internet off when you're studying.

>>18055858
Wahey a fellow expatriate. Parents were expats as well or just became an expat once you got to your career? Grew up a standard TCK myself, and as such will forever remain an expat since I have never lived in my native country and therefore have no home nation to return to. Lived in China for a long while, a middle eastern country, and currently in west EU. Plan on going back to China sometime within the decade, if only to see how it's changed in 15 years. How you liking your host nation?

>>18064862
>https://youtu.be/wtn9KJSaoiQ
man i'm gonna try this I'm hella outta shape.. maybe tonight, probably tomorrow. I already showered today, it seems like a waste of water to shower twice in one day, plus I'm pretty cozy

I can’t stand my mental state fluctuating in the same day. Hopeless, joyful, miserable, excited, unmotivated, inspired all in a matter of hours. Making decisions which seem brilliant and correct in the morning and then see them for what they really are — an artifice — in the afternoon. There is no consistency and I can never achieve anything

>>18064868
problem is my studying depends on internet. I don't have a way to download the online lectures, in their format. but thanks for the (you), anon, i've refreshed a couple of threads and gotten no attention, so i will promptly fuck off

>>18055858
Yeah, Canadian here currently in Turkey, been here for a couple weeks now in Istanbul. Entered through Bulgaria, where I was for the previous six weeks, and before that: Macedonia, Serbia, and Albania for about a month each and France for about four months. Been on the road since the summer. No regrets whatsoever - packed more life in these 8 months than the preceding 25 years combined.

>>18064994
tell me about my european brothers

>>18055274
>t-thanks you too

I utterly despise every person on this site, and by extension all people because anonymity reveals what people really are about. You people are filth. You are worse than cockroaches.

>>18065403
y-you too...

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>>18062053
the biggest things were probably A) I realized I was developing dependencies that were starting to interfere with my social life, for one example like I had a best friend for years who was really important to me but we started drifting apart because I was more interested in doing drugs and partying than actually just hanging out. and B) probably the biggest thing, I started developing physical health problems from the way I was living that began to seriously interfere with my life and my anxiety just spiraled out of control from there. and I suppose lastly, everything came to a head with the last day of school where everyone was all making plans for that day and the future and i was just there feeling completely alone and isolated, no idea what i was going to do from there on out. basically completely ill equipped for adult life, and that's when i really just shut down mentally

>>18064136
great passage

>>18061998
I pretty much cope by falling into the same old patterns of behavior that I hate, though to a lesser extent since i literally cannot indulge like i used to because of health issues. At first when i had my revelation I was extremely successful, motivated by that burst of passion I developed a system wherein i essentially applied the same logic of building a muscle to building good habits, IE. the muscle or the will is weak so you start off small, and when you've developed good but minor habits, you can then begin to apply the will that youve developed with those small habits to tackling the bigger issues. through this i lost a lot of the weight I had put on, probably a good 60lbs, put on a little bit of muscle, and got into a better routine, no more staying up till 7 am and waking up at 4pm, that sort of stuff, but several factors including a fresh injury that interfered with my weight lifting really put a damper on that and things went down hill form there, and eventually i just lost that passion that motivated me and capitulated and lost most of my progress

Soul troubled
Thunder and Fire
Rolling in place
Blood red embers
Plunging
September's casualty
Absorbing darkness
Filled with waste

the thing is that father Paisij is right: no one has ever nor will they ever conceive of a greater ideal than Christ.

>>18065809
why love is the greatest concept?

>>18060187
Based Sakuraposter

ideally i'd be against guns if we didn't live in a society where every man truly believes they are their own island despite being under a bigger system altogether.

>>18066013
Guns are fun though. I went sport shooting over the weekend, had a blast.

today I cleaned the whole appartment and read 60 pages of Karamazov. this is a decent haul. I think the thing with Aljosja is he always treats people like he believes they have good intentions. He doesn't always seem to believe it necessarily, though most of the time he does, but he always treats them like they are people who fundamentally have good reasons for being how they are, and not just cunts. Even when they behave like cunts he treats them like this is a minor misstep in what is fundamentally a good life-project. I think there's something right about that, because I think that's how most people view themelves (myself included), namely as someone who fucks up sometimes but who is basically a worthwhile person at heart. He's probably right to respect that about people, that they are really at worst confused, not bad. I read sitting outside in the sun. It was a beautiful day here today. I drifted in and out between reading and eavesdropping on others enjoying the weather. It was pretty nice.

>you shouldn't worry about things, worrying just makes it worse. if you let things unfold it will be for the best. everything is in its right place.
>except these few things, you should worry about them.
this is all spirituality in case you were wondering (and that's a good thing?).

>>18066066
based and checked

New thread, let's go.

>>18066101

I'm trying to read Shakespeare, but like always, I'm fucking failing. When I read his work, no imagery ever pops into my head and that makes the experience excruciating for me. All I see a nonsense mishmash of words..

>>18066130
I remember seeing a book posted on here that was basically prep for reading shakespeare.. maybe by nabokov? it was by some actual author, came recommended

Another fucking evening I can’t spend reading or writing because I’m fucking working.

What are you guys doing?

There's a new thread, let's go.

>>18066101

>>18065793
This story sounds all too familiar. I don’t know if I can keep from calling it quits soon.

What's the bump limit on /lit/?

>>18066300
310

Test

I’m at such a crossroads. I don’t know wtf to do.

>>18066658
How about heading to the new thread.

>>18066101

>>18064852
what are you studying

>>18066676
How about you stop making these, because they’re not related to literature?

Bump

>>18066685
B-But my feelings...

>>18066685
Seethe animefag. I'll continue making new threads before the bump limit.

>>18066714
Whatever. I’m going to do something more productive, like jack off to Serbian models.

>>18066130
>When I read his work, no imagery ever pops into my head
Anon, shakespeare wrote plays. You're reading dialogue. How is imagery supposed to pop in your head? Shakespeare hardly wrote anything that could even be called imagery. That's the job of the director to figure out. Don't forget that these are plays, not novels. Just focus on the characters and what's going on and what they are saying.