/lit/ - Literature

first post

i think around the same time slashdot started waging war on firstposters was the same time slashdot started dying. half the fun and addiction of slashdot was refreshing trying to get firspost. it made the site what it was, killing it made the site dead. always weird when people wage war on their most engaged users.

my dying wish is for the people of the world to live in peace

>>19140218
not gonna happen. i was reading the dod report to congress on china's military capability yesterday and war with them is definitely on the menu. we're going to weaken their economy first like we do to muslim countries when we let sanctions rot them for a few years first before we bomb the hell out of them. we'll break them up like we did with yugoslavia.

>>19140237
their plan isn't to actually hit the mainland at all but to fuck up every country allied with china to make the region unstable and then to blow up china's navy(which like every other navy on the planet is outmatched) and prevent them from using their water routes for trade. us can't compete economically with china anymore so they're using force, look at "civil unrest" in myanmar, thailand and hong kong for glowie handiwork.

>>19140178
Is the pursuit of happiness seflish? Do I really pursue the sin of Luxury without admitting it outright? Who do I think I am to believe I should be able to discuss happiness, as if I know what it even is? Is happiness a passing emotion, or a state of mind? Should I listen to the Egoists and the Stoicists and Meditators and ignore the negativities of life, being in my own sphere conducted by the winds of happenstance? Or should I deny the clinical structures of society and pursue nothing more than the actualization of my Self?

I just cant seem to concentrate on reading books.

>>19140178
cute image

>>19140218
wasted

Slaughter the people of the world who do not look like me or have the same beliefs. It's the only way to save it.

People have an extremely poor aesthetic sense and I hardly know anyone who knows how to appreciate a master painting, a beautiful poem or who understands the deep nuances of classical music. I have always looked to scholarly art and cultural works that have passed the test of time for powerful insights into the human condition, but the more refined my aesthetic sense becomes, the more I realize that it is out of step with what the average person will ever understand about life. People turn much more readily to vulgar and easily accessible enjoyment than to a more sublime enjoyment that requires work. No wonder they listen to Negro music and fall into pornography so quickly.

>>19140218
>dying
no

>>19140473
Happiness, like love, is an act. Its not something thats happening to you randomly, it is something you do.

>>19140178
I need a cute bottom bf

im smoking weed every night again. disappointing. every week i quit and every week i start again. maybe some people are just meant to be degenerates forever.

>>19140473
I dont think trying to be happy is selfish. We are all different, all you have to do is to crack you. To figure out what makes you happy. Make a mental note when you do stuff and suddenly you notice "this is nice". Also try not to have big emotional contrasts. If kite-surfing is the only thing that gets you up to 90 in happy feels, and with that have you crash down to 10 when you aint out on dat dere wave. Better to learn to meditate and hover around 70 all day erry day than being on the emotional rollercoaster your ego wants you to be on.
(Thats kinda what the dude in the sauna next to me just said 10minutes ago. He was several times in a monastery where you dont talk for 40days)

>>19140616
smoke cigars instead, if you want to give up something, you need to replace it

>>19140494
Same. I'm a believer in the internet stupefaction effect. When I was 17 or 18 I could sit and read Dostoevsky novels and read them through. I barely went on the internet and didn't have a smart phone. My mental world was so less cluttered and overloaded. Now if I even try to read a book of that scale it takes far longer, if I finish it at all. And the reason for this is quite obvious to me. I'm reaching for my phone or on my computer now. These apps have been allowed do dominate the human mind. This info-addiction has destroyed what made me stand out and individuated.
If his happened to me, a 30yo millennial boomer, I fear for zoomers who have had this inflicted on them much earlier in life and with greater intensity.

>>19140616
You feel isolated and alone. Smoking weed is the easiest way for you to overcome your feelings of isolation from the world around you. Your ego is whats fucking you up. Going for a walk and talking to strangers would do more for you.
t. doing opiate pills a couple times a week

>>19140178
Good lord I have about 11 months left before I get out of this NEET lifestyle. How am I supposed to finish reading the works of Plato, Aristotle, and Hume. Goly shit I have no self discipline I wasted my last 7 months reading manga and obsessing over someone. This was a very retarded desicion fuck my Goodreads's reading challenge is still 10/20 there's too much to read

I'm thinking about learning Hindi
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ADdC50IEQYw

>>19140616
what's weird about this is that you could just not be in possession of any weed. problem solved. just don't buy weed.

I'm in the process of reading the 2nd book of my adult life and it's cringe I didn't start reading sooner.

>>19140645
Focus on building better habits and tools for personal organization in these next 11 months because if you're this chaotic as a NEET your cultural productivity is going to drop to zero when you have responsibilities

>>19140641
i wont deny im an "isolated" person mentally but i do go out a shit ton and have many friends. but when i am alone and nighttime comes, weed is simply all i know.
>>19140673
but i like smoking weed on weekends and dont want to stop that. i just want to stop the dependency. which i have done before. i just cant seem to right now

Man I feel good for the first time in days. Did cardio first thing after waking up and I feel like thats a big part of it. Anyway today I came to realize my life is not as shit as I always think ever since I left her. I have it pretty good if I really think about it. Being alone doesnt have to be the worst. Yesterday I finished my 20th book this year and that number was my goal for the year, now I can just cruise and chill. I barely notice the opiate pills but its easy to stop for a week or two, so I'll just to that and sweeting things up a bit after that time period.

I will be 35 on sunday. This is the first day in weeks that this doesnt depress me. I am just half done with life. I am at my peak, if i lost 20lbs I would look the best I have ever looked in my life. 20lbs is totally doable. Must remember doing cardio to reach weight goal but more importantly to not feel like shit.

>>19140693
And they say weed isn't addictive, what a load of bullcrap.

>>19140616
What makes you want to quit?

>>19140693
I'm sorry for having jumped to conclusions about your isolation from others anon. Weed is a tricky think man. Your mind will always come up with excuses to smoke whenever. I dont touch the stuff these days.

>>19140697
Weed taps into your internal reward system. It can ruin your entire life. I have had many many friends that got fucked by weed for decades. I was one of them.

>>19140693
The world sucks dick, we all have our own ways of coping. Be glad that it's something relatively harmless, in your case

>>19140618
>He was several times in a monastery where you dont talk for 40days)
that sounds like an interesting experience. what country if you don't mind?

>>19140716
>fucked by weed for decades
Literally how

>>19140694
Not trying to be a /fit/ bro, but think about adding some other exercises, bodyweight or lifting if you have access to a gym. I'm not sure what it does to your body, but it helps somehow, makes you feel better in many ways. Good on you for keeping things together.

I feel like, if I had some kind of social circle, I could leave 4chan (and by extension, all the other social media sites like Reddit and YouTube) behind. I don't have a social circle though, let alone a social circle that shares the same interest in literature that I do. As much as I would like to think that I can become some kind of lone Henry Darger-esq hermit, writing and reading and studying (and ultimately, languishing) in social isolation, I've tried it, and I can't. As much as I try to fight the fact that humans ultimately need social interaction, I can't. I'm sure there are some people who are genuinely able to thrive completely alone, but I am not one of them. There's always been talk of sending letters and starting a writer's correspondence ring but that will probably never happen because (rightly so) nobody here trusts any of you fuckers enough to give out a personal address, and the novelty would probably wear off after a few weeks.
Being a zoomer raised on the internet, I spend a lot of time wondering how things were before the internet became really prominent, specifically the early 90s (strangely, an era I have a lot of nostalgia for, despite being born in 2002); what it would actually be like communicating primarily by letter (or by primitive email), not being able to just buy physical books off of the internet on a whim, etc. I bet life felt like it moved a lot slower, and I wonder if it really was more peaceful. I'm sure there are some oldfags here who remember this time and they'd probably tell me there was nothing really special about it, but it still fascinates me.

>>19140755
By having weed rule your entire life. Got weed dont do anything but watch tv shows and game. Got no weed feel.like shit and run around like a tard trying to get some. Associate with the lowest of the low to be able to score weed. This is europe mind you, its not like in the states here.
The thing is weed makes you okay with doing nothing. Decades can pass by and you never developed past the point when you started smoking it. Sitting on the same sofa like 15years ago talking about the same kind of dreams like back then BUT NEVER DOING ANYTHING except talking about it.
Tldr: weed can be like quicksand for some people

>>19140178
I’m currently employed as an engineer. I do roughly 2-4 hrs of work a week and get paid for 40. The rest of the time is spent playing minesweeper (I’ve gotten decent, my record is 69 seconds on medium difficulty), shooting the shit with coworkers, or being on my phone. Nobody seems to give a shit either.

However I have an issue. I realize that with my lack of effort, I could be and do cause problems for my coworkers whom I genuinely like, that they have to fix. At what point is it selfish to keep working there and collecting paychecks knowing I just cause problems because of my lack of effort?

>>19140697
after being a stoner for 5 years i can safely say weed is 100% addictive and weed is 100% a gateway drug
>>19140699
i just want to quit smoking weed every night. its become purely habitual and sometimes i don't even enjoy being high anymore. like alcohol id rather keep it for the weekend.
>>19140707
weed drains the soul out of you. sometimes i feel i am a husk of the person i once was.
>>19140747
while it is better than when i was being a boozebag a year ago it is still draining the life out of me
>>19140809
>weed makes you okay with doing nothing
this entire post was very well said. cheers
weed deludes you into thinking its acceptable to turn off and be in a limbo state.

i have maintained my habit before and i do not think i am doomed. i have simply been in a self destructive slump for a few months now. oh well. ill try again next week i guess.

>>19140755
He’s a lazy ass looking for a scapegoat

>>19140790
Man is a social animal. Our brains decay without human contact. Most people suck though, thats why we use tools like drugs to temporarily bypass our isolation. You are able to reflect and you can articulate yourself well, you will be fine. And yes it was a slower time back than and also a more genuine one. Imagine how awesome and real the 80s must have been. There was this vid on youtube, just a guy fliming and talking to people on a saturday coming in and out of a gas station near disneyland or something. People were so friendly and connected and real. Today is so fucked.

>People have an extremely poor aesthetic sense
He says while posting Boucher

>>19140750
Somewhere in asia. I cant remember if he said the name of the country. It wasnt india that I know. Maybe he said thailand.

Have you ever slowly realised someone you're in love with is a calculating, remorseless, self-possessed, manipulative, dissembling person? The hopelessness it's inspired covers everyone and everything. She's made me cynical about myself and everyone else

>>19140888
Trips of god I hate women its unreal.

>>19140790
3rd world '96er here. I just wanna tell you that what you're going through is not at all uncommon, and it's pretty normal to have less and less friends as you grow up, honestly. I have and have had many friends, some I know/have known since middle school. As a student, you have a lot more free time, and you share the same space of your everyday routine with your friends, that being school, so you're hanging out all the time, and you're also living in the same area so it's very to keep in touch. However, you grow up. You move out. You get a job, and so do all your friends. You might keep in touch through texting and whatever, you might hang out maybe once a month, but eventually that too will slowly fade away, as they and you find new friends and create new social circles, especially starting from the workplace. You drift apart. It might be sad, but it's normal. And another fact is that your personalities change, your interests change, your values and habits change. You'll start seeing that as you are now, you really wouldn't be compabitle with your friends if you went back in time as is. You no longer have much in common on many levels, if you're being brutally honest. I currently have many friendly acquiantances, but like you, I no longer have a social circle, and honestly? I stopped feeling bad about it. I'm absolutely not a hermit nor antisocial, but I don't resent my lonesome anymore. You start appreciating your own company more, with time, and you'll also realise that if you were given a choice, having just a handful of friends is absolutely fine if not ideal. If you want advice on how to find those friends specifically, my advice is, contrary to popular belief, is to NOT purse them specifically through hobbies. No hobby, no matter how much you're dedicated to it, could ever act as a basis for two people to click. If they do, it's purely coincidental. Just because you WANT /lit/ friends doesn't mean that you NEED them. You just want someone to talk about your hobby with, and that's fine, but you can't choose friends just off of that. Or rather, you could, but it will be a very shallow and ephemeral relationship. Trust me, I've been there. I'm not saying "don't make friends with /lit/ people", I'm saying to not let "/lit/ness" being your prime criteria for friendships.

I just got a 5-day leave from work
I've got pic related in my shelf.
How long does it take to read it? I know it's short but I also heard it's difficult and perplexing. Will a week be enough to read this if I read about 60-70 minutes a day?
Thanks anons

>>19140898
I don't hate women, but I'm losing hope that a woman can be both beautiful and kind

>>19140888
I've been infatuated with this woman 12 years my senior for a very long time, and I'm pretty sure she's colder than an iceberg and possibly very heartless.
She's 43 years old, 9.5/10 looks, but also single, unmarried and no children. Three years ago I was bewildered by the fact, but I've pretty much figured out why that is.

>>19140903
It's only 100 pages but take your time with it. Maybe read twenty pages and give yourself a break. It depends if you've tackled anything like this before really

>>19140178
rum makes me morose and I hate wine. what should I drink instead? beer and cider is fun, but the alc content is so low

>>19141104
Try arabic coffee. The stuff with cardamom.

>>19141112
Oh, that's nice, that's definitely something to try, but I want to get wasted in a fun way.

>>19141104
Whisky, obviously

I have to finish Don Quixote, also I hate how adulterous society is. I might just stay alone and read /lit/ and watch /film/

>>19141175
yeah but, I don't have any whiskey

I don’t want to take any drugs but I also don’t want to keep losing my hair.

I despise the way I look.

>>19141232
Then go buy some you dumb motherfucker. My god.

i don't know what to think: i don't remember anything from my childood and with anything i mean literally anything.
I only know who my parents are, that's the only remaining information from when i was a child.
And no i have never took any kind of drug in my life.

i always thought the point of democracy was that you could vote out bad people but it seems to me like the whole nation hates their government, yet one election after another, our ruling class stays the same

>>19141227
>I hate how adulterous society is
What does this even mean?

>>19141267
I'm not the kind of trashy that goes and buys alcohol when I'm already drunk, jfc

Mr. Beast Reacts Trying Not To Laugh

I'm supposed to be working on my thesis. But I haven't done anything. Haven't talked to my professor in months. I feel like a bad influence to my friends rn so I don't talk to them anymore. I pick up books, I go exercise, I'm always alone, anything I do I feel guilty cause I'm not working in my thesis. All my previous interests (literature/art/philosophy/films/exercise) seem childish right now.

>>19140178
I'll do it

>>19141285
That people are just cheating each other and men seek sex with other people's wives

How the fuck do I think about what I want to write, let alone actually writing it? The thought of putting any effort into this is supremely cringe and I can't get beyond that, even if I don't intend for anyone to see what I write. I just can't write anything down because I find it cringe.

>>19141359
I think the ability to do something despite its social connotations is a necessary skill for life. You also grit your teeth and walk home if your knees hurt, right? Social pain is not much different

>>19140616
i know that's you tao, stop wasting your dad's money on weed and try writing a book that doesn't suck instead

>>19141380
I get what you're saying, but I "write" in the privacy of my home and no one knows I write.
Could this block be a cope stemming from knowing that I have nothing interesting or worthwhile to write about?

On the other hand I see some of my normie friends posting shit poetry online like it's something worth showing, and some others actually publishing pseud articles in small newspapers and I get mad because they write awfully and still find the courage to show everyone their work, while I struggle with writing anything at all. At the same time I think that if I actually wrote something I could easily outdo them. Am I just a huge narcissist? I am objectively shit, but at the same time feel like I'm better than everyone else (actually not everyone else, just normies, maybe that's my salvation).

>>19141414
im not tao

the rich will eat the poor

>>19141359
Start by ceasing to define everything in terms of "cringe" and "based". Are you really letting what some philistines might think to stop you from doing something? Get a grip.

>>19141278
Your dad stuck his finger in your asshole

>>19140616
I've been smoking way less. I used to every day (night really) but now I'm doing 2 weeks off and 4 days smoking.
Just keep it up, I've started the 'one week on one week off' for about a year and only a few months ago did it stick. Now I'm up to even less than that. Don't expect to succeed in one go. You see that it should be lessened and have taken action towards it, that's how it starts.

>>19140178
I just like to say "I hate niggers"
books for this feel
inb4 architecture shit
I' not into buldings

Feeling really jaded. I have reached the point where I'm not mad anymore, don't blame society anymore, don't blame others anymore, don't even blame myself anymore. I'm just tired and everyday I suffer away in silence. I don't know what the plan for me is. I know God exists, I know there must be a plan for me. I know that my suffering can't be meaningless. Everyday I sit on the bus and I listen to people talk and talk and talk about school, about work, about what so and so did and my mind is just blank. By the time I get out of the bus I'm already dead inside and I move through the motions, sitting in class, pretending like I care about what I'm being taught. I pretend that I like people and I smile at them and I laugh at their jokes and on my break I retreat to a silent hallway to sit and eat my lunch in peace. I feel like all my life I have been doing what is expected of me, playing along with the game of society. When I look around I feel like I am the only one who sees it all as a game. Like I am the only one who has a problem with becoming a fake person in order to fit in. I don't think other people even realise how superficial and fake their personalities are. Their personalities are like white sneakers. I don't have any friends at all, only acquaintances. I don't have any family either. My isolation has become a quiet wellspring that I can dissolve into and it's both entrancing and mind numbing.

>>19141538
Rest assured, the world is full of pretentious whiny twits like you

There's a new girl at desk in my apartment complex, cute black girl with a billion stickers on her laptop that range from bible verses to akame from akame ga kill. She sounds exactly like my type, and I'm also black.. I want to ask her if she lives in the building (some people at desk don't) and if she wants to come over for dinner and watch anime lol.

>>19141563
On another note do you guys also find it weird when people put their entire personality on the back of their laptop?

>>19141563
I wouldn't go for dinner right away.
Either drinks or just ask her to go for a walk or something.
Good luck, nigger

>>19141571
>Good luck, nigger
thanks but I'm not Lovecraft's cat

>>19141282
If you want to understand Marxism it's basically "what's the point of 'liberal' laws and slogans that say everyone's an equal participant in the state, and the state represents the people as a whole and not just rich fractions of the people, if inequality happens anyway and even gets worse? shouldn't we fix the actual occurrence and causes of this instead of just papering over it with more reforms that are exploited and circumvented in the same way as the last reforms?"

If you want to actually achieve this goal, become a fascist

>The coming of Caesarism breaks the dictature of money and its political weapon, democracy. After a long triumph of world-city economy and its interests over political creative force, the political side of life manifests itself after all as the stronger of the two. The sword is victorious over the money, the master-will subdues again the plunderer-will. If we call these money-powers 'Capitalism,' then we may designate as Socialism the will to call into life a mighty politico-economic order that transcends all class interests, a system of lofty thoughtfulness and duty-sense that keeps the whole in fine condition for the decisive battle of its history, and this battle is also the battle of money and law. The private powers of the economy want free paths for their acquisition of great resources. No legislation must stand in their way. They want to make the laws themselves, in their interests, and to that end they make use of the tool they have made for themselves, democracy, the subsidized party. Law needs, in order to resist this onslaught, a high tradition and an ambition of strong families that finds its satisfaction not in the heaping-up of riches, but in the tasks of true rulership, above and beyond all money-advantage. A power can be overthrown only by another power, not by a principle, and no power that can confront money is left but this one. Money is overthrown and abolished only by blood. Life is alpha and omega, the cosmic stream in microcosmic form.
>The meaning of socialism is that life is dominated not by the contrast of rich and poor but by rank as determined by achievement and ability.
Oswald Spengler

>As far as financial morals are concerned, I should say that from being a country where practically everything and anything was for sale, Mussolini has in ten years transformed it into a country where it would even be dangerous to try to buy out the government.
Ezra Pound

>>19140884
damn, it actually sounds appealing. I might like to go somewhere like that

How is one even supposed to fall in love with modern women, most of them go through like 5 boyfrieds before they even finish school and by the time they want to settle (late 20s early 30s) the number has probably gone to 10+, on top of it all the bagage they will bring from all those failed relationships and you seriously can't look me in the eyes and tell me this woman would make a good partner or mother? Is it just marry your highschool sweetheart or settle?

>>19141681
>fucking your gf
>can't stop thinking about other guys' dicks

>>19141681
>the number has probably gone to 10+
What country are you from? 10-20 was normal for college girls in maybe like 2010, now it's easily 30+ for an "average" normie girl. Remember, the average girl doesn't see anything wrong with being a whore, it's not like the old days where they like being a whore but they at least unconsciously know everybody looks down on whores. They fully, 100% do not care anymore. I know girls who slept with 3 guys in one weekend, I know girls who have had a different guy every 1-2 weeks on average for 4 years of college.

If you do ask a girl you're dating how many partners she's had prior to you, don't act concerned about it. Act "sex positive" like you don't care and you're just curious, so she'll tell you the "truth." Then double or triple that "truth" again, and you probably have the real number.

>>19141681
I should've married my highschool sweetheart. She's married now and it breaks my fucking heart, we should've grown up together but her family was Catholic and didn't want me around.

>>19141681
most people have lower standards.

>>19141697
>licking an ice cream cone
>someone calls out to you "bro you know 24 other guys licked that first right"

>>19141681
ideally, you'd have the same number of hookups/relationships and wouldnt care that much about her experience (unless it's much bigger number than yours)

>>19141704
I understand that this might be a difficult concept for you to grasp anon, but other people and food are fundamentally different things.

>>19141751
It's an accomplishment for a man to have hookups/relationships, it's not an accomplishment for a woman. A woman hooking up a lot is a similar level of pathetic as a man jerking off a lot, or something even worse and more pathetically self-indulgent, like jerking off while smoking weed and ordering a bunch of junk food every night. It's not an accomplishment for a woman, it means she's a sad empty being who takes the path of least resistance to get validation and companionship and feel good about herself.

A man could be notoriously promiscuous, fuck 150 girls, and still be a good man and a good father, because sex means nothing necessarily for a man. It could still be the case that he fucked all those women because he was just very successful and charismatic and wasn't looking to settle down yet.

A woman who has sexual interactions with more than 4 or 5 guys by the time she's 25 is a massive red flag, it means she has so little to offer that she has to rely on trading her pussy for attention and stimulation. It also means she doesn't value herself or separate herself from the herd at all, she only does the bare minimum to keep up with the local herd's standards for self-respect and self-control. That's an extremely bad sign. Not only will she be a bad mother and bad partner, she's probably dumb and weak too, and will pass that on to your kids.

>>19141772
Agreed. When women start acting like full people and not fungibles, they will have a right to be considered as such. Until then, tell the gender that tarts itself up and spends all its disposable income on titillating men and competing in female hierarchies on the basis of who is the best man-titillator that they are effectively objects.

>>19141776
>A man could be notoriously promiscuous, fuck 150 girls, and still be a good man and a good father
Do you really believe that?

>>19141563
ten bucks says she has a white bf or is lesbian

>>19141788
not for a second, those kind of guys can't stop themselves from cheating. a guy like that will never be able to turn down pussy even if it means destroying his family and ruining the lives of his children.

>>19141786
Do you generally approach women with this attitude? There must at least be a small part of you that understands that other people are also three dimensional human beings with their own lives, and that there's no bogeyman called The Woman that cakes itself in makeup and dates other men to hurt your feelings.

>>19141751
>ideally, you'd have the same number of hookups/relationships and wouldnt care that much about her experience (unless it's much bigger number than yours)

Statistics about number of pre-marital sexual partners and it's impact on marital longevity/happiness/health make it impossible for me to "not care that much". All of this alongside my own personal beliefs and God's wisdom of course.

>>19141788
I'm not saying there aren't other factors to consider, for example if the reason he fucked so many women is that he's a frat boy douche who never matured past the age of 21 and spends all his time chasing women, that's bad. But within the group of men who have fucked or who could fuck 150 women relatively easily, there are plenty of male subtypes who are just genetically blessed or otherwise incredibly fortunate, and whom women would find attractive as long term partners.

Can you really blame a self-made 100-millionaire or eccentric ultra-successful guy for taking pussy that was thrown at him constantly, while he was still a young guy? These may be rare cases but my point is simply that a man isn't necessarily, instantly garbage for having a high "body count."

A woman is, because casual sex for a woman is basically binge eating, it's a purely self-indulgent activity that can be undertaken at any time. The male equivalent of having casual sex isn't just having casual sex too, it's eating an entire XL pizza and quart of ice cream in stained sweatpants while not showering for 5 days.

>>19141824
I'm married to a woman who isn't a whore. Being a three-dimensional human being isn't something that happens automatically, it's something you earn and work at. Most women are not encouraged to work at it, so they don't, so they don't become three-dimensional.

I never said anything about my feelings being hurt. I am just judging you for being a whore. Your attempt to redirect it into social shaming, with the implication that I'm weak and fragile and so on, is an example of your one-dimensionality. You can't think outside of social validation and social approval, so you assume others are weak to it as well. I've judged you, you feel bad, so you are trying to make me feel bad and withdraw my judgement. But I can't do that. You are a whore, you have to live with it.

>>19141853
>The male equivalent of having casual sex isn't just having casual sex too, it's eating an entire XL pizza and quart of ice cream in stained sweatpants while not showering for 5 days
Bro you're just making shit up

>tfw going through some shit
>be thinking like "how am I ever gonna get through this"
>suddenly remember all the other shit you've gone through
>far, far worse
>burst out laughing
>"this shit? this is where it stops for me? fuck outta here"
wagmi

>>19141704
>consumption behavior in relationships
capitalism did a number

>>19142058
>the year is 2025, the five year plan has banned analogies and metaphors on the basis of socialist realism, being a tranny is now mandatory (on the basis of socialist realism)

>>19142065
>being a tranny is now mandatory (on the basis of socialist realism)
kek

>>19142065
I just know you are a mentally i'll american

>>19142065
>being a tranny is now mandatory
I hate trannies as much as the next fag, but get real lmao

it is likely I will never touch a woman ever again

>>19142208
make an exception for your fist

it seems like everyone either assumes the soul exists or that it doesn't and none explain how it fucking works either way. Ever since I started thinking that a material explanation of consciousness just being a side effect of thinking kind of makes more sense functionally than a non-material explanation it's like I can't protect my mind from nihilism and atheism. Even though I don't think the weight and meaning of consciousness is removed when it is explained materially and I feel like in a certain way it actually affirms free will since if you are your brain and your brain is controlling your decisions then you are controlling your own decisions and when I look around at the world I still think that God or something like God exists it's still like something fundamental has been removed from me

>>19142311
do you have any good argument for why it should be necessary that anyone should be aware of all the mental processes involved in being alive? is there any function that could not be fulfilled if awareness of said function was taken away?

>>19142321
it's wouldn't be necessary like you directly evolved it or something it would come along as you get smarter and start perceiving perception. When an insect or a slug takes in sense perception the neurons just respond sort of mechanically and the slug's brain doesn't exactly perceive the sense perception because it doesn't need to in order to respond to it. Think of the slug's brain as a mattress. When you press down on the mattress it can respond by becoming indented without having to actually perceive the fact that it's being pressed upon. But a human when taking in sense perception doesn't just respond to it, but actually thinks about it. How can something think about something if it isn't aware of it? I think human memory works in a different way too. When you press down on a mattress and then take your hand away it doesn't immediately spring up. It has "memory" but somehow that kind of memory is different from our memory. I realize that this whole idea is speculative and doesn't make complete sense but when I think about the immaterialist conception of consciousness, they provide absolutely no explanation for what the mechanism is as to how an immaterial soul has awareness. In terms of function it makes more sense for a brain to be aware than some nebulous concept of a soul.

>>19142368
also I think the human brain also becomes aware and forms the concept of a self when it starts thinking about something. It thinks about something, then takes in its own thoughts as another kind of perception, realizes that to be thinking about something something has to be doing it, and then realizes that what is doing the thinking is itself, and forms the concept of an "I." I don't know if an I is required for consciousness or not but that's another theory.

>>19142368
>what the mechanism is as to how an immaterial soul has awareness
if you're looking for something to understand it means you're looking in the wrong place.
Good luck anon.

>>19141282
We don't elect the ruling class, we elect middle management. The economy rules, the government follows (or chases after it).

It's better to have experienced politicians in middle management, who owe their career to the nation than random Joes, so yeah, those faces tend to be old and familiar, but even they cycle in and out at a slightly faster rate than the bread winners they referee for. Some families have more staying power than others, but in the end, it's only the chairs and the music that are eternal. Complaining about the current batch ignores the inevitability of repetition, even if the chairs are rearranged.

The alumni make me so incredibly depressed.

>>19141356
Seems more of an anti-society thing.

Is it worth it to get a PhD just to teach assuming it’s free?

>>19140616
Does marijuana impact your behavior and impede your progress to your goals? I’ve smoked every day for over 15 years, and I’ve got a steady job and a wife and free time, so maybe you’re either being too hard on yourself, or maybe something else is impeding your progress toward whatever goals you have?
If it is the weed tho, it’s time for cold turkey my friend; can’t smoke if you don’t have

>>19140937
>She's 43 years old
jesus christ stop simping for prehistoric pussy. does anyone on this board have even a single molecule of testosterone in their body? go out and bang 18 year old cunny and youll forget all about that dinosaur whore.

This world is just a loading screen before real game begins.

How do I process trauma? It seems that therapists don't work. Both of the ones i had have abandoned me. It seems like i make more progress in my own by meditating anyways, so is that the solution? Is this something I can think my way out of? I've been using IFS as a modality and it helps structure my thoughts.

>>19142747
Teach what? TAing isn't teaching, teaching a course is mostly boring, you will hate undergraduates by the time you get to teach them (it's not glamorous), and if we're talking America or the UK a PhD doesn't guarantee you a tenure track job by a longshot, even adjunct jobs are competitive now.

If you can exploit the programme and you know what to use it for, do that, but be 120% knowledgeable about what a PhD entails before going.

>>19142782
Well, my bachelor’s in economics and I’ve been working in a tangential field since I received it. I don’t actually particularly want to work in the field or continue to study it, let alone teach it but it doesn’t exactly lend itself to anything else else. I suppose if it has to be within that field, I prefer studying, teaching, working in (in that order). To be clear, I work in Uni admin right now. This is America. I suppose I’d try to teach college courses and if I can’t, just teach high school. Again, not excited about any of this but preferable to alternatives I think.

i laughed at my cat doing retarded shit while i was unmuted during an important zoom meeting and now i feel greatly embarrassed even though it wasn’t that big of a deal maybe.. just slightly humiliating hm. should i just brush it off?

I wish I could talk to someone who lives (lived) in a monastery.

if i were to fall
i would fall so deep

>>19141887
No, he is absolutely right.

>>19140178
Is the self something which only one will ever understand? Or is self-esteem achieved through interaction with others besides oneself? Ironic in a way, is it not, that self-worth is vaguely dependent on how others perceive oneself?

To be selfish is something I know not how to do, thus, i write to You.

>>19141776
>>19141853
Thank you for bringing some light into the darkness. If a woman has slept with more than 3 men her ability to pair-bond is irreversibly destroyed. No one ever talks about this. Women are getting unhappier and unhappier because of their choices but in the end they have endless feminist made-up bullshit stories to choose from, blaming men for anything happening to them. How can we get out of this cycle. How can we save our sisters and wives from this hellscape? The only answer I can see is religion.

>>19142766
When he said 43 and 9.5/10 I knew something was off with that anon. If he was desirable enough to smash this rockstar he would be smashing top shelf young pucc instead as you said.

>>19143332
it has to get worse before it gets better

>>19140178
There was a brief period in my early teens when girls would flirt with me and express interest in me and another one when I was twenty-four. Once, a girl I worked with even straight up asked me to go on a date with her. I've always been too much of a sperg though.
I'm 29 now and a khhv. I have no social life and have no idea how to even start. Please tell me I'm not gonna die alone never having felt love.

>>19140561
Why would you post Boucher?A neoclassicist for example would find his works vulgar and trash.

>>19143417
Read erich fromm the art of loving. Just disregard all the muh capitalism brainwashing attempts. Its a quick read and it will help you understand where to go from there.

>>19143446
Wow I've only read a synopsis and I already agree with everything, not the anon you suggested the book to but I will be checking it out. Thanks for the rec.

>>19142880
21st century monasticism is probably LARP though. I wish I could talk to some hardened priest in the Ethiopian Highlands, some aged villager in the isolated Sahel somewhere in Niger or something, some war-hardened Darfur peasant. I don't know if the white Christian missionaries out there are LARP though...

every night i scream myself to sleep

i'm about to spend $400 on books

>>19143481
Father Lazarus ElAnthony. The coptic monastic tradition is basically as it was 1600 years ago.

>>19143446
Thanks anon. I'll give it a look :)

>>19143531
Do it.

>>19143605
it's $500 now

some of them are christmas presents

Does God withhold happiness from me because I masturbate

>>19140267
China is smart to rule with an iron fist. They can shut down any instability with extreme prejudice

>>19143640
You do it to yourself.

>>19142872
No. You should brood about this for weeks and be extremely self conscious to make sure it never happens again

>>19143655
Well yeah thats what masturbation is

Using 4chan for a stand in for social interaction is causing me longterm negative effects

>>19143723
Don't know what you're talking about, hasn't done anything bad to sneed

>>19141681
How long can this last? Surely theres a breaking point somewhere, right?

>>19143735
I think we're long past it. Marital outcomes and as a result outcomes for their children only get worse year by year in the western world.

It amazes me how people have every weekend of their calendar filled out with social activities for months into the future.

it's like boom bye bye in a batty boy head

>>19140693
>but i like smoking weed on weekends and dont want to stop that. i just want to stop the dependency. which i have done before. i just cant seem to right now
when i was on the cusp of starting to get addicted to alcohol, i would take moments in which i was sober and dump all the alcohol i had in the house, regardless of how expensive. i kept doing this until i stopped buying more, and for me personally in my case that helped. not really advice just writing what's on my mind.

>>19140178
I wish there was a way to vent my frustrations on the concept of the Death of the Author. It is an utterly retarded concept and it is selectively being used.
1) It been used to push ideas the author never intended. Either to:
a) Push an agenda.
b) to simultaneously condemn the author for a perceived message in the story.
2) People defend thematic inconsistencies or things that contradicts the perceived/stated message as if the story was a biography and the author doesn't have full control of the story to iron out the flaws.

>>19143766
And then everything implodes and I can be grug and club grugette over the head until she loves me. Right?

>>19143966
more like you just have to settle or try a lot harder to find a good woman and more and more people are going to die sad and alone without children or family until values change/people realize how fucking miserable they actually are(which is kind of underway now at least in the us)

I have 2 hours left if I want to get 8 hours sleep. How is my schedule always so packed? I just want to write and paint and time is just flying.
At least it's Halloween month in a day or so...but my family is going on vacation which means I have to take care of the animals on top of everything else.
I don't hate it, but assuming I retire at 65 I have 30 more years of pure busy.
Bleh.

>>19140937
>but I've pretty much figured out why that is.
Do tell
I fell for a woman seven years older once.

your 4chan posts will get more readers than any real work you ever try to make

>>19144103
based!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

>>19144103
I often wonder how much my incessant shitposting has influenced individuals, board culture, and the zeitgeist generally

It's a baseball league here in the world of Monkey Mountain,
played by the great monkeys, which started when the first ball and bat
and the rules of the game were handed down to them.
In the Monkey League, a number of great players arose
from among the nameless monkeys,
whose faces and appearances all looked the same.
They included the legendary home run king,
who batted an unprecedented, record-breaking
80 home runs in one year, Steroid Monkey;
the one who bested the god of batting, Monkey River's career batting average
by two thousandths, the miracle hitting machine, Upper Monkey;
the greatest catcher of the Bigfoot era, Mister Monkey;
later, as manager, he would go on to break the record for most league wins,
with a legendary ten-season-long streak!
Then came the golden age of the M-League.
A miracle monkey came along
and shattered those previous legends one by one--
the monster, Monkey Blue!
This maverick of the league was the only one with blue hair,
who, despite weathering ugly discrimination and crafty persecution,
triumphed over them with overwhelming talent, ultimately becoming a hero,
and a symbol of hope for the monkeys!
Although a rookie, Blue put the brakes to the king, Steroid Monkey!
Breaking his bat as well as his heart, Blue drove him to retirement.
Then, with his mighty pitching arm,
Blue led the underdog team Monkey and Club to victory,
preventing Bigfoot's championship streak from reaching 11.
The public accepted this new hair color,
and there was no doubt in anybody's mind
that the era of Monkey Blue had begun! But then...
...that great tragedy, when a near-perfect game was foiled,
and a monkey was killed, took place!

>>19143432
The aesthete knows how to find beauty where there is some. The neoclassicist looks at Boucher through the series of artistic conventions to which he subscribes because they seem to him more apt to allow him to express his deep feeling about things as they are. It is naturally appropriate for the viewer, in order to extract more varied substances from his observations, to learn to compose with the different aesthetic paradigms, in such a way that from Poussin as from Delacroix as from Van Gogh, he can acquire complementary aesthetic lenses, although he can naturally keep some of them more dearly to his heart than others insofar as they are more properly in resonance with his own sensibility.

>>19143830
I did this with drugs also, just throwing it away constantly and eventually you'll get sick of spending hundreds of euros because you know you're gonna trash it anyway.

I don't understand people who say that they still feel like a child even into their 30s. I'm not going to claim that I am perfect, but I do feel as though I change and mature with each year of my life. I feel very different now than I did five years ago, eight years ago etc. I still feel like the same person, but also that I've grown into a more 'refined' version of myself. Anyone else feel this way?

>>19144219
I feel like I've grown into myself, and it's a very ugly sight to behold

>>19144219
they live like children

>>19140178
My life isn't going how I wish it had, and all my plans end up falling apart.
I've turned into someone I despise, and that fire that once kept me going doesn't seem to be there anymore. Feel like an old man in a young body. I would rather die than keep living like this.

>>19143735
I think more and more women are getting to their late 30s and 40s and regretting not having settled down and had children. Perhaps their lessons will filter down to younger people over time? Although I don't think it'll happen quickly.

I also feel like this phenomenon is partially a class thing. I did the whole middle class to college pipeline and there is a great self-consciousness amongst both men and women about admitting to wanting to get married and have children. It's 'uncool' to even admit it, even though I think that a lot of the people I know secretly like the idea more than they would let on. Meanwhile, all the working class people I know get married in their 20s and have kids before 30. I think over time it might become socially acceptable again to want to settle and have children earlier, once this current cultural phase burns itself out.

On top of that, there is of course the issue of financial stability. Professional class want to reach a stage of financial security before they have kids, which is increasingly later and later in their lives, whereas working class think about that less for better or for worse. IQ shredder etc.

keep waking up after just a few hours feeling sad about shit

First time I've had booze in a while and I think my hatred of it has worn off because I can almost feel it working the way it used to again, it's opening the door to happiness the way it used to. It's letting me feel music, feel nostalgia for old things I used to love. Letting me feel sexual attraction. What kind of awful life is it where a drug that is a net drag on your happiness is the only door you can open that leads to a release of dopamine? Where your two options are no feeling and no happiness ever, or a drug that will kill you and turn you into a monster but at least you can play a video game and have a good time?

What is this hell and will we ever be released from it? Is this a moment in history or was life always like this?

>>19144282
How many people live like this though? Are most people actually out enjoying life and we're just outliers who have convinced ourselves that this is the only reality?

>>19144257
I'm moreso wondering about the immediate consequences of having such a massive population of people, childless, alone, unhappy. Surely these conditions breed some kind of collapse or civil conflict.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eUb0C0iI_GE

>>19144335
Their money probably influences something, not really sure what. If it isn't spent on your family I guess you have more purchasing power.

>>19140178

When will I ever be good enough for the one person I try to love but never seem to can: Myself.

>>19144257
the real question is, since older parents mean higher chances of mental illnesses, especially autism and schizophrenia, how long it'll take until the economy starts being affected by a significant part of the professionals being fucked in the head

I recently started thinking about muh whiteness due to getting the results from a DNA ancestry test and I don't know what to do about it other than fight off the plague of fake white guilt. I don't think there's any books to really help me through this issue. Part of me wants to embrace something larpy like volkish asatru but part of me just wants to not have to think about race at all. Unfortunately the zeitgeist is basically fucking and sucking at the topic of race.

On a positive note I did find out that the old amerifat cliche of "1/37477472727298363829 native american blood sweaty (:" is actually true for me and my family. 99.2% White and 0.8% Native American. Can't wait to share this with my mom, who cares about the family tree.

Its ironic that i have 4 planets in 7th house natal chart but im a 29 year old virgin.

I've done it! I've really done it now. The one thing I didn't want to happen. I've become numb to pain of my sins. I've really done it now.

I'm gonna read all your posts. Yes, even the schizo ones.

academia is so fucking gay you have to kiss ass of your peers and tacitly agree with their ideas just to progress discussion without triggering a passive agressive grudge lasting entire research careers

It doesn't matter who you are, what you are, or who you like to date - as long as you are willing to let Him in, you will find eternity. The Pope and big business "churches" can't do that for you. They're frauds, and they will go to Hell for being frauds.

>>19144643
Well said. Praise be to Isma'il ibn Jafar

>>19143332
>If a woman has slept with more than 3 men her ability to pair-bond is irreversibly destroyed.
I don't disagree with your general line of thought, but is there any research backing this up or are you pulling it out of your ass

>>19144698
The pair bonding nonsense is an r9k/pol psyop designed to even further demoralize those poor sods. One of those things where an infographic meme is posted around for a month, anons take one glance at it and the accompanied greentext, assume it's true because 4chan so smart or whatever.

>>19144707
you know, I thought as much. there was another thing I heard a while ago, that a woman supposedly absorbs the DNA of every man she has intercourse with. as soon as I looked into it, it turned out to be 100% bullshit. a lie based on a complete, probably deliberate, misinterpretation of one line in a research paper. it's funny how misinformation gets spread around freely while the truth is a Google search away

>>19144744
no offence anon, but if you ever believed for a second that that could be true then you are retarded

>>19143615
I wish I had 500 to spend on books. by which I really mean I wish I had quite a lot more than that to spend, so that I could freely spend 500 on books, because if I only had 500 there'd be plenty of things other than books I'd also like to buy

>>19143778
honestly, that must be pretty amazing

>>19144748
really? really? I don't see why. I think you might just be a bit thick, yourself. there are heaps of scientific discoveries that are difficult to believe and would be considered ridiculous not that long ago, and then they become accepted by the scientific establishment and the average dumbass alike, as if there's anything intuitive whatsoever about them, and then on to the next ridiculous discovery that soon becomes common sense. I mean, in a broader sense, practically everything that's considered common knowledge now would be utterly alien to your ancestors of just a few short generations ago.
I can't see how someone's retarded for entertaining a possibility like that when hearing it for the first time out of context. the only thing retarded is blindly going along with info you hear and not doing your own research if you have the capacity to do so

>>19144219
people who feel more refined are usually people who lost the critical thinking they once had.

Yesterday the darkness took over. Even the guy that delivered my alcohol at 11pm looked at me like i was a walking dead guy. He adressed me by my first name "Anon, are you alright?" and i had nothing to reply to this stranger and just shut my door. i feel like i'm being captured and poisoned by some faceless entity. i can't sleep anymore unless i'm blackout drunk. thank god i get to go to work today. being alone for so long is not for me.

>>19144792
>the only thing retarded is blindly going along with info you hear and not doing your own research if you have the capacity to do so

This is literally the opposite of retarded

>>19144818
cope

>>19141681
Had two girls with that were throwing themselves at me that I didn’t go for. The first because she had a boyfriend. The second because I’d recently gotten a girlfriend.
Later found out that at the time they were interested they were both virgins. (And they were both 20/21, with me being a couple years older)

>mfw
I’d never cheat on someone, but cucking someone on the other hand…

>>19144872
is that so

>>19144792
why do you believe DNA exists?

keep fantasizing about finding out my ex from a long time ago is now with a man who's treating her wrong, and how I'd meet her somewhere and she's tell me and I'd get to save her. Pathetic as that is to begin with, I left her.

>>19144950
boring. I see right through your argument. your problem is reading too much into what I said in a pretty specific context and generalizing it in a way that clearly (I would think) wasn't the intended meaning

>>19144877
think about it, its literally a subjective auto-perception that can be by various factors. in my personal experience, people are always dumb in the average, but when they grow older they dont know how dumb they are because they "refined" themselves, and that refining is just an auto-perception that is based in one or two grandiloquent realizations based in working and seeing life as a social jungle where they can survive, or pretty trite things like having a house, pretty mundane experiences that change their entire behaviour and expectatives of themselves and their own mind and how can and should function their own mind. basically they recluse their own imagination and critical harsh thinking by his own will and in order to be adapted to the environment they percieve and they, finally, embody that environment. you feel mature when you think you perfect yourself in adaptating to your percibed environment. even if its cheesy, when you lose "the child in you", you have or will have a problem. but most of times when you get to that point you cant have the profundity of thought to understand it.

>>19141824
Women are not fully developed humans
Which is why, for the largest percentage of world history, they have not received full human rights

>>19145101
>even if its cheesy, when you lose "the child in you", you have or will have a problem.
its cheesy to think 'the child in you' is cheesy. some things must be stated into the ugly mug of the worldy with proper boldness.

LATERAL
MOVEMENT
LATERAL
MOVEMENT

>>19145101
then why do people always describe it as a bad feeling

>>19145119
>LATERAL
>MOVEMENT
we're not into lateral movements. from side to side, you know. we going forth.

>>19145089
my point really was that anyone who knows literally anything whatsoever about cellular biology would understand that the idea of someone "absorbing DNA" through their vagina (whatever that means) is absurd

>>19145119
nice

why did this devolve to hating on women what's the fucking point of that I understand it may be on your mind but you have to understand you trigger eachother and no one wants to read this shit

>>19142065
STATE
ENFORCED
HOMOSEXUALITY

>>19145157
its the tranny monad at work: it (they/them) hates women for it (they/them) sees rivalry in women as a specie.
do not. I repeat: DO NOT, get your self groomed to a STC (small tranny cock).

classes just started and there’s this qt who sits next to me; short hair is my weakness

>>19145157
its the tranny monad at work: it (they/them) hates women for it (they/them) sees a competitor in women as a specie.
do not. I repeat: DO NOT get your self groomed to a STC (small tranny cock).

>>19145163

Sexual thoughts are killing me. It's so incessant and intense.

>>19144086
Hi. What did you mean by this?

>>19143477
>>19143595
Its worth a read, just keep in mind guys, this guy is a jew and even one of the most influential people of the frankfurt school. He is giving you truths on the topic of love in order to lower your defenses to slip you some commie hippie anti western bullshit. Y'know these kikes just cant help themselves.

>>19145150
great, so you're calling me a retard for not having studied much cellular biology? alright, I'm sure you're a real renaissance man yourself, and a vagina expert no doubt. I, in my ignorance, though, didn't immediately see what's "absurd" about it, given microchimerism itself is a studied phenomenon. but I did think it sounded sketchy, hence I looked it up to find out. bit much to call someone a retard over lacking this very specific knowledge, though.

Do you ever have random chatter going in your head completely unrelated to what you're currently thinking about. It's not like hearing voices, just background chatter. Almost as though two people are having a conversion far away and you can *just* hear what they're saying underneath the sound of the "closer" voice?

When I first got Hinge it used to only show me absolute hideous ugly monsters and now it only shows me incredibly hot girls. I wonder what that is about.

Is no one going to comment on the misuse of 'ulterior' lol?

I started watching the Star Wars movies with my daughters recently. Just watched Return of the Jedi yesterday and I am amazed that I did not remember how bad of a movie it is, on pretty much every aspect possible.

>>19145617
No.

>>19145633
No.

i downloaded over 100 sex related mods for Skyrim SE and i am lost, totally lost. i have made my perfect wife, we fuck and installed a baby mod we have 3 kids together in whiterun. i cant do anything but fap

Fuck Joe Manchin. Keep sucking Mitch's mushroom cock

>>19145628
The algorithm is much more nakedly there to see on Hinge. It's astonishing there aren't more rules / laws about this stuff, it's the difference between self esteem and no self esteem for a lot of people

Do I have a responsibility to help someone with BPD? Can they even be helped? Even if it hurts me? Maybe I'm just addicted to the drama and coping by pretending I want to help

>>19145751
no of course not. you gotta cut these losers out of your life, they only serve to bring you down.

>>19145757
If they could get their lives in order by being directed to mental health services isn't there a bit of responsibility on others to get them there? I feel really churned up about this

>>19145768
No. You only feel that way because you're close to them, just cut them out. Losers are contagious.

I want a new job, but I have no idea what to look for. I don’t exactly want to continue doing what I do now.

>>19144423
What kind of normlfag do you hve to be to be affected by white guilt

I'm moving out of my parents' house tomorrow, thrilled but kinda scared desu

>>19144152
based post, relativism is a meme

>>19145130
what are people describing as a bad feeling?. i dont understand
>>19145670
but the beginning is still kino, or is just my memory?.

if I met franny I'd smash her head in as soon as she opened her mouth

>>19140178

I feel like people and adolescents nowadays are more infatuated with or watch more anime and play more video games than they do read books or watch movies and TV due to a lot of reasons, mainly accessibility, relatability, and helping someone tap into one's creative potential. Therefore, it's one reason as to why you might find a teenager that's watched Hunter X Hunter but not Breaking Bad at some point in their life due to how it interconnects with their own life more so than contemporary television.

While I am not dissing films and television by any means necessary, I can't help but think that, coming from experience, a lot of our youth have grown deluded with society's sense of creative control, and it has been ever-growing stagnant due to lack of guidance (whether it be from home, education, or our own oeuvre) or resources (whether it be public funding, self-funding, etc.)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qA1B5moCEj4
This but transcribed.

>>19140178
Quite tired of seeing this stupid edit

>>19140218
You're stupid. Peace is simply a state of being that can change at any time. We have grown and learned much from wars and conflicts and we may once again find conflict in space potentially in new and horrible way.

/lit/'s top books lists are not any less bad than imdb's top 250 movies

>>19140178
What changes should I make to my lifestyle to gain more energy and concentration? I want to have the endurance to work on my writing for longer hours.

>>19146032
Such lists are always retarded and only pseuds are interested in them

>>19146121
Good night sleep, physical exercise and limiting internet.

>>19145617
my brain sets a soundtrack to what happens based on lyrics. like I was going out in the rain this afternoon thinking about my ex and I unironically heard Bob Dylan sing

"I'll follow your casket
on a pale afternoon"

it's like there's a subconscious library of song lyrics and it chooses lyrics for the situation

>>19146253
I havent felt like tht since I was 15 and did literally nothing but listen to music

I finally blocked her. Then Instagram spazzed out and showed me the messages she sent replying to my goodbye. She seemed to confirm she was cheating on me as I suspected, then it said "don't know whether to be annoyed or -" and then it deleted them.

What the fuck do I do now :(

>>19146398
be happy you dumped the whore and fap to 2d like you were always meant to

>>19145930
>is just my memory
I'm afraid it's your memory.
I remembered fondly the Tatooine part too, but it's just really dumb. Like nothing makes sense at all during this whole segment. Also it lasts like 30 minutes and doesn't really move the story in any way at all.

It's a boring, blue skied day. Same as the previous one, and the one before it, and the one before that.

>>19144698
No clue about any of this pair bonding shit but I was reading a few studies(or I guess they were effectively surveys, which a lot of psychology shit is) not too long ago about how the effectiveness of sexual bonding is reduced in people as their number of previous sexual partners goes up. Same people are, more likely to cheat.

I wonder if it's that these people are born whores or through their actions have desensitized themselves to(or maybe demystified) the act through their hunt for novelty.

I have no idea what language I want to learn.

>>19146253
Every now and then, usually when I get sleepy (especially when I'm deprived of sleep), I get auditory hallucinations. I can tell they're halucinations because instead of hearing these voices like a case-study schizo, it's like I'm being "forced to imagine" the voices. Imagine someone saying a sentence, like you might be doing for this one. Now imagine you didn't inhibit the concept of hearing that voice in your mind, but it was put into your head unwillingly. That's what it's like. While it sounds creepy as fuck, I'm totally used to it and comfortable with it.

The reason why I mention this is these sentences and phrases are totally random, as in usually they're more-or-less grammatically correct, but the semantics are all over the place.
>"I felt like a canoe."
>"I am fucking thousand."
>"They are NOT women-colored."
>"Bless the brown sugar people. I hate them."
>"What happens if you die of one while one is active?"
>"Nice and slimy and very small!"
>"What time are you haunting there, pool-head?"
>"That sadded Livercups..."
>"A numbered race of jumping-boats!"
Sometimes it likes to make up words and names:
>"Scrable" (SKRAY-bul, /ˈskɹeJ.bl̩/)
>"On the box, it's quite hortitious" (hor-TIH-shus, /hoɹˈtJʃəs/)
>(in a British accent, even though I'm American) "That was a really good job, Gorgie" (GOH-jie, /ˈgɔː.d͡ʒi/)
>"What's another Bibotism thing?" (BYE-ba-tih-zm, /ˈbaJbəˌtJzm̩/)
>"There's nothing more (word I can't remember) than Zachary Diddid's..." (DIH-dihdz, /ˈdJdJdz/)

I got a bunch more of these if you faggots want them for writing prompts or name ideas. Some names I found in the journal I keep of these that I found quite interesting:
>Isaac Falkland
>Shahton Airflower (don't remember how "Shahton" is pronounced)
>Josef Gaberhatch (GAY-ber-hatch, /ˈgeJ.bɚ.ˌhæt͡ʃ/)

>>19146828
samefag
>low-caps I's turn into J's
no wonder people don't use the IPA on 4chan lmao

I've understood that I will never write a great book, be it fiction or philosophy.
What now?

I remember when pangs of guilt controlled me. When I would move myself to tears by only the thought of what a monster I have become. When fear dominated me. Then I had a shrewd of a conscience. Now I'm numb. I've accept that I'm a monster. That it there is a hell, which there most likely is, I belong in it. I sometimes have a flash of memory of back in my childhood when I had some semblance of innocence. Now that dead. I've lost any innocence I once had. And what did I trade it for? Pleasure. Yes the most primal thing we desire. I'm an animal now. I mere beast wearing the skin of a man. I laugh and I pretend to be the same as them, but i know my sins all too well.the devil is my owner now. There is no God for me.

>>19146959
SO WHAT IF YOU CAN SEE THE DARKEST SIDE OF ME
NO ONE CAN CHANGE THis ANIMAL THAT I HAVE BECOME

>>19146979
Yeah very funny anon. But to most I'm an animal. Most people would say i don't deserve basic human rights for what I've done. You would understand if you've done something so horrible that you feel no longer human

>>19146986
why don't you just post what you've done. rape? cut up some people? spill the beans, champ.

>>19146997
Because I could get b&

>>19147009
bullshit

>>19146986
God forgives you don't worry.

How do I cope with being a dilettante?
Even if I manage to make something, some professional will call me an apostle of virginity and steal it.

>>19146959
Just spill it. My guess is rape or close to it. Pleasure is such a mundane motivation on the path to evil. The pinnacle is being possessed by the spirit of the divine and believing one self truly righteous in committing horrible acts against a human and more so humanity. Perhaps can be characterized as the pleasure of justice but it is not this animal shit you talk of.

>>19147147
cp

>>19146959
if God has let you live this long it's because He still has hope for you

>>19147216
Oh no. About as bad as the Greeks who proudly kept a harem of young boys to keep their cocks warm. But somehow they're not evil, just eccentric, eh?

>>19147216
you need to understand that God can still love you. It is in His power to rehabilitate you, and He wants to help you do that, but you do have to believe that He could love someone like you. He can.

tuna and ritz crackers yummy!!!!!
*kicks my legs back and forth like a baby in a high chair*

>>19147263
What exactly is your point?
>>19147265
I wish I could believe that. I've tried praying for God to change my heart and it hasn't worked yet. It feels as if the devil owns me now. If so I'd rather die now and face hell than love long enough to hurt someone

>>19140178
beer, boobies and butts

>>19147301
potentially helpful prayer, I've prayed this a couple of times

"Narrated Anas:
Allah's Apostle said," None of you should long for death because of a calamity that had befallen him, and if he cannot, but long for death, then he should say, 'O Allah! Let me live as long as life is better for me, and take my life if death is better for me.'"

Good luck anon. He does love you.

>>19146959
>>19147216
Rope yourself. Dont cry for sympathy here you are an awful human being and you deserve to suffer horribly. You are irredeemable I would literally spit on you if I ever saw you irl go fuck your self pedo faggot.

>>19146986
PLEASE HELP ME BELIEVE
THATS NOT THE REAL ME

>>19147415
You're right anon. I'm working on it right now

https://www.twitch.tv/kafkaesqueroach
I love listening to my waifu read Cioran.

>>19147549
begone thot

>>19147563
2015 maymays

Once man peels away belief he inevitable finds that the only core within him is an ignoble one given over to evil. Man suffers because he is a creature created of material greed and merciless selection pressure and this is why any philosophy of human nature without the spiritual invariably reaches the point where man behaves as a villain and there is nothing within him to stop that.

>>19147470
Suicide baiting now?

Leave the thread anon, I am being serious stop begging for attention you are not a tortured soul, you are just a terrible immoral person who deserves to suffer. No good comes of you posting here no one will forgive you and no one will feel sorry for you and the fact you're begging for sympathy makes me want to report this to the police.

I just want more time to write. I thought being on vacation would give me that time, but the demands of entertaining hosts and the sensory overload of being in a house so completely chaotic has rendered my brain into some kind of survival mindset. I can't think or come up with creative ideas, I just drink beer and listen to my in-laws talk about the most inane shit. I need to just take a loner vacation. Check into some hotel in the city and just write and read for like a week on my own. No wife, no kid, no distractions. I'd only leave my hovel to go get coffee and food, taking with me only a notebook or novella and wallet, no phone or anything to bring me out of that dream like existence or being completely alone. Being alone is just as nice as being with those you love, but one without the other for too long can really take it's toll.

>>19147549
This is really unhealthy on a metaphysical level. You've essentially trapped yourself in a demiurge-esque illusion where your spirit is no longer free but out of fear of loneliness has chained itself to a transactional relationship where you are the lesser

>>19147470
know that no one deserves to be forgiven anon. no one. it is only an act of mercy from God. Hope for that mercy.

>>19147585
YOUR BOTTLE'S ALMOST EMPTY
YOU KNOW THIS CAN'T GO ON

>>19147625
>swearing, touching your dick, or being prideful are morally equivalent to being a pedo or a murderer
Come on man, you can't really believe this garbage

>>19147216
Did you make it or just jerk off to it? If you made it then yeah that's pretty bad, but if you just jerked off to it then I don't think it's the worst thing in the world.

>>19147671
Pride can certainly lead to things as bad as murder

/his/ is an absolutely brainlet board.
I can't seem to change. Ever. I am the same lazy piece of shit with the same shit habits.
My self discipline is non-existent.

>>19147671
I believe that anyone who can believe that God will forgive them, should believe that God will forgive them. I believe we literally exist to give a form ot Gods love. When we believe that God loves us *in spite of who we are* then this purpose is fulfilled most pristinely. I don't believe that human beings should ever expect that there is any limit to the mercy that God is capable of.

>>19147741
/his/ is infested with useful idiots being controlled by cluster B's on a discord. You might as well be talking to a chatbot because everything they do is based on a scripted goal.

>>19147740
Like what?

>>19147754
And I believe that all of that is irrelevant to our happiness and well-being as people

>>19147755
I just want to talk about history in a comfy way, not get goaded into "Islam vs Christianity vs paganism vs haplogroup HRT #678789" discussion for the umpteenth time.

>>19147774
An unwillingness to change your ways or do anything that goes against your ego leading to disasterous decisions and ruin. Pride was a big factor behind the Challenger disaster

i'm comfortably high on acid and listening to this
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sqQ59i4PmGEPmGE
i'm trying to read Chalmers book on philosophy of science at the same time but i keep getting distracted in my head

>>19142311
>>19142368
>>19142387
The same haunts me, but I find the material explanation to also not be satisfactory. What binds consciousness to a self-aware machine? What makes you yourself, and not someone else? What even is self vs non-self in a purely material world, what grants us a sense of body and mind over one set of chemical interactions? There must be some second factor that isn’t just material that creates such a delimitation. Otherwise, experience should be unbounded, meaning the experience of one mind is also the experience of another mind. Consciousness, as a phenomenon, can only be described as matter experiencing itself. But then why the illusion of divided experience at all? And if you unfold matter experiencing itself dialectically as Hegel did, what is the end product? And why was it unconscious or disunited in the first place? And if it was completely unconscious to start with, what differentiates that from a singular, unified world-conscience?

I swear every time I try to do some tech-oriented project on my own I run into like a dozen new things I've never heard of before, and to do one simple task you need to have like 5 separate programs installed, one of which costs money, and something that is easy to do in Linux is complicated as fuck in Windows for some reason. Especially whenever I need to build or compile something myself, I just feel lost. I have no fucking clue how people just know how to do this stuff naturally.

eday fix

my ancestor...

I believe that everything that is good for me to say has been said. Thank God. There could be things that would be good for her to say, but it's not my place to go digging in that. We'll see. Remains to live. I can't kill myself, so here we are.

The rotting disease in the west is a lack of cope with mostly nature. They can't accept being born as a sex they don't identify with. The cant accept being born in a family that was less rich. They can't accept being born in a country that was more rich. They cant accept that our ancestors did more good than harm. They can't accept a system where someone more talented that them can earn more. They cant accept that men and woman have evolved to fit different roles. They cant accept being born more ugly than others. They just cant accept that nature rolled a dice and they didn't win, because in the end, they are cowards that can't live with loss.

>>19148338
Desu I have trouble accepting my tiny peepee

Anyone know how I can learn to make good typography (soulless but good quality commercial stuff is enough)? Is /ic/ a good board to ask this?

rotting halcyons of days long gone by are amplified by aphoristic sequins in this obstinate twilight. Maxim Gorky markov chains superlatize and conceptualize the man-moon hybrid creature in it's supine position. I am scared, as I should be.

>>19140178
Tomorrow is my first day at the new job, only 2 hours from now until my alarm will ring and I am still awake. Sometimes I just wish that I could still be a neet.

>>19147216
if it was 16 years old or something like that and you feel bad for it then you should kys since you put the law above common sense

>>19140178
I may die, my consciousness may be erased, which would make most people uncomfortable when they think about death. But ultimately i think this is a good thing because through my erasure new egos and new life may be created. I like to think about all the atoms in my body that were once part of beings in the past or at the very least have been impacted by other beings in the past in a way that they eventually were fated to become a part of my body. Not only human beings but of the animals and plants that i've eaten who had to die so that their molecules could become a part of me and the production that is my body. And from even animals that have been dead for thousands if not millions of years whose atoms were recycled into the air and into the soil and water and eventually found their way into my body to become a part of me.
Im starting to think that i do not wish to be remembered. I do not care if my existence appears pointless to other people. But i do care about leaving a positive impact, even if that impact isnt credited to me. It feels like the right thing to care about when thinking about how one exists among other people and in larger constellations of people and things. I think about how i will never know about what my ancestors from thousands of years ago were like as people and even if they only exist now as traces within the collective record of memories of the earth their existence lead to my existence. Because of that i love them even if i cant know them because i know that they wanted to have a positive impact on the world which is why they procreated and created new life. They still exist through how they impacted and helped create my world even if their bodies dont exist anymore. And they live through me as ghosts that are neither present or absent from my life

>>19148734
You will be conscious again. If it happened once, its bound to happen again.

I can’t articulate in words why I love Tolstoy’s prose so much. Can someone put it in words for me.

>>19147894
that's why the tech bros get the big bucks i guess

i'm not happy and i can't justify why. i've just felt this way for a long time

I can't wait to get off work so I can drink myself into a stupor

>>19140473
>selfish
i hate this word so fucking much, kretins like you have burned it up and divorced it from it's meaning. And when you use it you use it in a manner where the answer is obvious.

>Is my pursuit of happiness for my own best advantage and happiness selfish

Why do you even need to ask that you little shit? Yes it is selfish. Is being selfish (((((((((bad))))))))))))) ? No, everyone is.

>>19147216
Kys pedo you were correct about not deserving basic rights. Literally nothing is forgivable about cp, nothing biological nor moral. Kill yourself 100% unironically I hope you get hit by a bus

>>19140178
kek
tomorrow morning is my weekly required STEM class
where I seethe as my contrarian addled brain tries to apply Baudrillard troll logic to everything said
sadly thought I am not smart enough to this

New thread
>>19149395

>>19140178
I'm thinking about ordering a hotdog with fries

IM TIRED OF READING DURKHEIM

I hate niggers

Dragonballs has absolute contempt for literature and board etiquette. He’s too lazy to connect to the previous thread? Too stupid?
No, it has to be malicious. Fuck /a/tards