/lit/ - Literature

>>19344006
Fit lads.

Based animechads taking over /lit/. I look forward to all the widdle babies crying about anime again.

get

>>19344005
>who would I be "wasting" my infinite powers on otherwise?
So you are saying that answering questions on 4chan is the optimal decision for someone that has acquired all the knowledge?

>>19344006
Books with this aesthetic?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o-gSnZnOtNw

DON'T have sex.

>>19344033
Good advice

>>19344044
have sex

>>19344047
Make me

Someone tell /pol/ about Spiro T. Agnew's attack on the liberal mainstream media in 1969. We've been caught in a time loop for 50+ years.
https://www.encyclopedia.com/politics/legal-and-political-magazines/vice-president-spiro-t-agnews-claims-television-news-biased

>Now how is this network news determined? A small group of men, numbering perhaps no more than a dozen anchormen, commentators, and executive producers, settle upon the 20 minutes or so of film and commentary that's to reach the public. This selection is made from the 90 to 180 minutes that may be available. Their powers of choice are broad.

>They decide what 40 to 50 million Americans will learn of the day's events in the nation and in the world. We cannot measure this power and influence by the traditional democratic standards, for these men can create national issues overnight. They can make or break by their coverage and commentary a moratorium on the war. They can elevate men from obscurity to national prominence within a week. They can reward some politicians with national exposure and ignore others.

>>19344062
How about you just fuck off back to /pol/ and not derail this thread with politics?

>>19344062
>Now what do Americans know of the men who wield this power? Of the men who produce and direct the network news, the nation knows practically nothing. Of the commentators, most Americans know little other than that they reflect an urbane and assured presence seemingly well-informed on every important matter. We do know that to a man these commentators and producers live and work in the geographical and intellectual confines of Washington, DC, or New York City, the latter of which James Reston terms the most unrepresentative community in the entire United States.

>Now I want to make myself perfectly clear. I'm not asking for Government censorship or any other kind of censorship. I am asking whether a form of censorship already exists when the news that 40 million Americans receive each night is determined by a handful of men responsible only to their corporate employers and is filtered through a handful of commentators who admit to their own set of biases.

>Now it's argued that this power presents no danger in the hands of those who have used it responsibly. But as to whether or not the networks have abused the power they enjoy, let us call as our first witness, former Vice-President Humphrey and the city of Chicago. According to Theodore White, television's intercutting of the film from the streets of Chicago with the "current proceedings on the floor of the convention created the most striking and false political picture of 1968—the nomination of a man for the American Presidency by the brutality and violence of merciless police."

>If we are to believe a recent report of the House of Representative Commerce Committee, then television's presentation of the violence in the streets worked an injustice on the reputation of the Chicago police. According to the committee findings, one network in particular presented, and I quote, "a one-sided picture which in large measure exonerates the demonstrators and protestors." Film of provocations of police that was available never saw the light of day, while the film of a police response which the protestors provoked was shown to millions.

>>19344071
I just said I don't use /pol/, you illiterate moron.

>Now the upshot of all this controversy is that a narrow and distorted picture of America often emerges from the televised news. A single, dramatic piece of the mosaic becomes in the minds of millions the entire picture. The American who relies upon television for his news might conclude that the majority of American students are embittered radicals; that the majority of black Americans feel no regard for their country; that violence and lawlessness are the rule rather than the exception on the American campus.

>In this search for excitement and controversy, has more than equal time gone to the minority of Americans who specialize in attacking the United States—its institutions and its citizens?

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>>19344081
We don’t care. Take this shit to /pol/.

>>19344087
Alright, you win. Let me just delete the posts so you won't be upset, and not repost them in the next five threads.

Someone force me to have sex right now

>>19344006
I want to draw like that.

>>19344062
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>>19344081
It's not a 'timeloop' lol, this is just how the American propaganda complex has worked for a very long time.

>>19344278
Has it changed for the better or worst?

>>19344286
It hasn't changed, that's the point.

Any reason why people were seething at the results of the 2021 Virginia gubernatorial election?

>>19344306
Democrats got completely wiped from statewide offices and lost the house of delegates

>>19344251
I believe in you.

>>19344306
Just more controlled demolition American politics, Democrats got btfo by conservatives that won't even protect confederate monuments that shitlibs still call 'white supremacists'. It's all so tiresome.

Do I need to read anything before or can I start reading the critique of pure reason without any background?

>>19344362
Books from John Locke and David Hume, as well as rationalist philosophers such as Gottfried Wilhelm Leibniz and Christian Wolff.

People say gender is a social construct and that it isn't a binary, but wouldn't we all be non-binary by definition? No single male behaves the same way. What's the precipice of "maleness"? Zyzz? Zyzz lifted weights, does that make every male who doesn't lift weights part of the non-binary? Does that make every woman who lifts weights non-binary for doing a masculine act? How does being a "tomboy" differ from "non-binary" if it's merely doing atypical things like sports? Am I non-binary because I like baking, cooking and interior design? You are who you are, and your sex is immutable. Gender isn't real. This shit is propagated by white women and men who are butthurt about not being a minority and have to project themselves onto the oppression olympics.

>>19344378
I think it’s time you take your meds.

>>19344368
thanks anon, I have already read Hume in college

Why do americans get so shitblasted when some middle eastern country or China bans one of their movies?

>>19344378
Who cares? Trannies and the sort are fake and gay. Just enjoy life.

>>19344378
The separation of the word 'gender' from 'sex' is a 20th century subversion. Gender is sex and it is biological. Gender ROLES (the actual social construct in questions) are organic expressions of human psychology and biology. The binary of male/female is unbearably ancient and deeply rooted in the human psyche. It's the sun and the moon, the sky and the earth, a mortar and a pestle, the mother and the father. Their project is the product of total spiritual malformity and doomed to fail one way or another.

>>19344399
>>19344415
I only made this post because I got an email from the university for an event from a "non-binary lesbian" with her/their/its pronouns (with links to tiktoks explaining said pronouns) in the signature. It also talked about how gender is used to oppress black people, yet I'm sure my parents would disagree with that.

>>19344378
Yes and no.
Talk to the average person, and he will have a set of traits which he attaches to "manliness". That set of traits is the construct. When you believe the construct is more true than reality, you have been fooled by it. Most are.
Reality is as you said, we can generally attach statistical tendencies to sex but each person is individual. You are right that the common discourse does not get this point, it's pretty sad because a lot of people suffer from it.

>>19344452
I don't think you're necessarily being 'fooled' by it if you recognize that it's necessary for the structure to exist. Sure you can suggest modifications to the structure, but erasure of such a fundamental concept is as much a folly as trying to erase something like 'self' or 'family'.

>>19344306
A Democratic senate leader lost his re-election to a republican truck driver who spent less than 200$ dollars.

>>19344006
wihtout fail every day i cant start working on the novel until 4pm. i wake up at 7am, currently in between jobs, nothing else to do. i thought i would be liberated. yet every day same shit. i fuck around all day. sure i read books or this or that but it's all just procrastination. then 4pm a switch flips and i work like a madman.

>>19344462
I never said to delete it. But when you you see young teenagers stressing and going in loops about what is "manly" or not, they have been fooled.
When someone says, "I can't do this, that's unmanly", he has been fooled, because he thinks this set of statistical traits is him and he has to abide to it, otherwise he is Wrong. That's being fooled, that's believing in circular logic. There's nothing inherently wrong with being fooled, but it's sad to see people suffer because of it.

>>19344502
Cont.
The structure is useful. But after you realize it is just a structure, a thing, you can do with it as pleases you. It is not something bad, it's just is. But it's like seeing someone work only with saws because "I'm a carpenter and carpenters use saws", when the current problem could use a hammer.
We all grow up fooled, atleast most. Many die that way.

>>19344502
This sounds like cope from someone who once sucked a dick.

>>19344502
>I never said to delete it, I just said that people shouldn't adhere to social norms because muh circular logic
I think it's important for people to have ideals of behavior to measure themselves against and live up to. It's good for people to endure suffering to live up to said ideals of behavior. It's a problem when these ideals become corrupted and manipulated, like when sign and signified become confused (i.e. pickup trucks signal masculinity because they represent utility, work ethic, and power, so men trip over themselves to finance muh big truck), but it's ultimately it's for the broader social health that people try to set themselves to some kind of standard. Honestly I think that's kind of self-evident and arguments about how this logic is 'circular' don't deserve response or thought.
>just do whatever guys! :)
lol

>>19344502
lol, what the fuck are you saying dumbass

I think I've come to a point in my life where there is no reason for me to go on doing anything. It feels like a giant wallpaper, vivid and almost real but now matter how many times I try touching, it is always just a wall.

And the strange thing is, I've accepted it somehow.

>>19344488
>Democratic senate leader lost his re-election to a republican truck driver who spent less than 200$ dollars.
Kek, what the fuck, this shit reads like a political novel or something.

>>19344306
American existence is constant seething about politics

>>19344521
I've sucked dick before and see no need to cope with it. If you're going to call me a fag atleast attach a funny picture.
>>19344544
I've never said people shouldn't use it. Please read carefully. What I am saying is closer to buddhistic thought or stirner egoism.
Suffering is vital for our society. Without it, we would suffer more. Fooling is vital. Or maybe not - but the current reality is that the society relies on it. The original questioner asked about gender, this is gender. Gender is a construct, it is as real as other constructs are, like chairs. If you stop believing in the construct it starts to degrade.
>Just do whatever
Yes. I have no authority over you nor wish to have, stranger. But if you asked me for advice I'll generally recommend not being fooled. Note again that not being fooled does not mean not abiding to the construct: it simply means to understand that it is a construct. It shifts and changes and adapts, and if you wish to, you can ignore it.
Would you call a car mechanic who refuses to fix bikes because they are not cars a fool? (Not because it's not worth his time or hurting him somehow, but simply because it's not what he "does")

how do you make a girl less shy of you after a display of godly intellect?

>>19344431
I feel like I woke up one day and everyone went insane overnight

i cant stand myself!

>>19344502
>>19344518
Imperatives are implicit in descriptions

>>19344006
I'm so excited to get married, wish we could skip the reception...

My brain has been balkanized.

>>19344657
who are you getting married to, anon?

>>19344643
You have to slowly pull her out of herself. A used woman will kind of submit herself to you when she views you as above her, an inexperienced one will wait for you to take some sort of control over her. All of this assuming she is actually attracted to you.

>>19344638
>Would you call a car mechanic who refuses to fix bikes because they are not cars a fool? (Not because it's not worth his time or hurting him somehow, but simply because it's not what he "does")
Case in point. To describe a car mechanic is to describe a function. A car mechanic who works exclusively on bikes is wrong because he fails to live up to what he is. There is an imperative attatched to his being. As such, a man who sucks cock violates the imperative implicit in manhood.

>>19344657
Congrats anon :)

>>19344006
I wish I was Xi Jinping. To be that powerful, to control the lives of a billion people… he must feel like God. I felt like God once, when I was on an airplane and I looked out the window and saw the clouds beneath me. It was sublime.

>>19344671
You're going to attract the tripfag

>>19344665
are you implying that i beat the poor woman? sorry but this is not a place for barbarians

disgusting

>>19344638
I just think you're making a category error. Being 'fooled' implies it's some kind of trick. I think a better terminology is 'investment'. People should feel an investment in a common culture between themselves. People should be on the same page and have a similar set of references to draw on, that's what creates unity and stability and normality. You're merely casting this in a negative light then backing away from it. I guess that's fine if you want to be some kind of too-bigbrain-for-you esoteric hermit but is that a useful way of thinking if you care about society at large? Not really.
>Would you call a car mechanic who refuses to fix bikes because they are not cars a fool? (Not because it's not worth his time or hurting him somehow, but simply because it's not what he "does")
Why would you compare a simple profession to something as fundamental as gender? Gender is something featured at the very heart of mythology and cosmology in every culture. I don't think it's a good analogy.

godtier

despicable

amazing

>>19344698
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>>19344689
>drinking your calories
unacceptable apart from alcohol
stop consuming this shit

pretty good

underrated

>>19344709
Nothing wrong with a fine craft soda.

>>19344689
>>19344693
>>19344698
>>19344706
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>>19344718
is this the new onions?

>>19344684
No she just wants to fuck you and is waiting for you to make a move dumbass.

>>19344732
Just some faggot spamming. Either ignore it or report it.

>>19344734
but everytime i do that she starts blushing and stop saying anything

>>19344660
So you're saying that the act of divine inspiration is like a Bosnian-Serbian conflict between your conscious brain and your instinct?
So would the finger of God in this instance be Slobodan Milosevic?

I have no idea what the fuck you're talking about.

>>19344723
>craft soda

American culture never ceases to amaze

>>19344742
stops*
we're on a literature board for god's sake

>>19344738
>vitamin water reviews

>>19344742
You're meant to fucking ease it out of her, touch her, take her somewhere. Fuck me man, courting is instinct, stop thinking.

>>19344762
stops from saying anything*
we're in an intellectuals hub for crying out loud

>>19344761
I'll have you know that Tuxen Brewing Co. is Danish.

>>19344667
You see? You believe the title is more than the person itself. You think the description is reality. Its a shoddy use of language I'm doing, because 'real' is a tricky thing, but the car mechanic goes home and fucks his wife, yes? That's not included in the title of car mechanic. Or some of them paint.
Ask the gay subculture, and a real "man" is a big hunky piece of meat who wears tights or something. The concept of man exists in both of the viewers heads, and it can drift from one imperative to the other.
You are going to call me a relativist or something. Not the point. The point is not to discredit the structures, but to recognize them as such. You can build others.
>>19344690
Cus I'm crudely trying to explain a concept that is hard to talk about and I don't know the 'proffessional' language. Investment is a good term.
Look man, I've said again and again that the construct is not bad. It causes suffering, some times, and when I see suffering I feel compassionate and sad. In my personal experience people who recognize reality tend to be happier.
I am comparing a profession because gender is not "that" important. If we all stopped believing in gender, nobody would care, right? But we do. It's not divine, it's just something that is, and it is bigger than us or smaller than us if we think of it so.
I go outside and I interact with people and I observe how my constructs shift and change. I don't like people less for them, but generally I found when I overtly invest myself in those constructs I hurt myself, so I generally try to do it less.
Anyhow, would you call him foolish? It's an important question besides the gender one.
>Imperative is implicit in description guy
(Mobile won't let me >>)
Maybe? But you can just not listen to the imperative. Also,
A man is a human being with xy genes. Where is the imperative?

>>19344742
Play minigolf with her

>>19344774
you don't get it man, she's very very shy like very shy

Should i read the bible with notes and commentaries or leave them for a second read.

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. Women (a large majority of them at least), are not malicious on purpose; it's a part of their nature, they can't help it. A woman will never love in the same way that a man can, its not possible. So what do you do? Go gay? No. That's a sin, first off, and there are plenty of examples and studies that show the reality of homosexual relationships. After awhile you start to cast about, looking for love and not caring what form it comes in, man or woman, and I've realized that no matter where I turn, I cannot find what I'm looking for. I've become convinced that it doesn't exist, and even if it did, the odds of me and that person ever coming into contact are slim. Plus, I'm a massive retard, I'd probably fuck up if I ever did get the chance and meet somebody. It almost feels like an intentional choice; either get with a woman and deal with the hardships that relationship brings, or get with a man and turn into a degenerate and slide into sin. Where do you turn? Is this why so many people have become monks or nuns, because there wasn't anybody else to love except God himself?

>>19344813
What denomination are the notes and commentary from?

>>19344892
Love is wanting the good. Love your family, you friends and your couple. If you are looking for a second mother you will never find her.

I waste away in bed for twenty-two hours in twenty-four, and eat no more than five hundred calories per day. Reality does not interest me, because fantasy is far more sweet. And I am in this state because a frivolous girl has attached her needle-like straws to my heart, and now sucks out my soul. It goes unnoticed. My housemates do not care, my family cannot see, my professors are maybe just now starting to wonder where my work is...

Now I imagine a real tragedy befalling me, and how poorly I would cope with it. But at least then I would get sympathy, I would get to experience the relief of crying over someone's shoulder and have the opportunity to deepen my bonds with others through that grief. But in this case, I am afraid to say anything to anyone out loud. Being in love is so shameful. I am ashamed of the pain it causes me because I ought to be able to stop the feelings at any moment, but always choose instead to let them continue worming their way along.

>>19344914
Theology school University of Navarra Spain.

You're such a bloody pervert
And I'm such a bloody mess
And although I've got a lot to do
I'll wait you undress, and I'll
Just sit beside you while you talk about your day
Even though I know you'll tell me 'You weren't listening' anyway
And then now, while we're here
Let's just talk like we were special
Nothing is more special than belief
Let me jump, and run,
let me dance away below you, and
Make sure I never tell a lie
Let us be as one, like Nathaniel and Bartholomew
Not now, but before we die

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gOFTKir3UCU

>>19344087
Cry more you fucking sissy bitch cunt. THIS IS NOT YOUR SAFE SPACE

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4df5BGCMLQI

partiboi finally upload a new mix

>>19344892
There is no solution. Once I learned that my desire for a woman who is sexually desirable, personally respectable and interesting, intellectually dynamic, and worth loving and committing to long-term couldn't be attained in a single woman, I assumed I would have to fragment my desires and choose between them.

Either a woman is sexually attractive but she's a dead-end moron, or she's an interesting person maybe worthy of love but a neurotic desexed borderline FtM, or she's a dunderhead broodmare pumpkin spice basic bitch. I figured my only choice was to pick which of these three I wanted to spend my time on, or try to find some way to spend time with different women who fulfill at least 2 of the categories, for example by fucking interesting but unstable whores while marrying a stable basic bitch, or trying to find an interesting stable bitch who is neurotically desexed and finding some way to fuck sluts on the side.

After some soul searching I couldn't even be enough of a degenerate for the having my cake and eating it too combinatorics approach. So all I could do is pick one of the three fragments of a total woman and devote the rest of my life to ignoring that it isn't enough.

But lately my desire has gone down another notch and I find myself not wanting that either. Actually it's more like my interest in women has gone down. I still feel desire but some part of me is like "this is what I want? really?" when I try to fulfill it or channel it into a woman. I can't even bring myself to sexualize them anymore. I think I probably feel like the average guy would feel about sexualizing a jailbait teenage girl. There's some primate part of me that could do it, but every other part of me is like "dude why." But I feel that way about women my age.

Instead of my sexuality and appreciation for women totally fading away it's still there just to annoy me though. I'd rather be asexual than this limbo state with all the downsides of asexuality and of being a normal man.

>>19344892
For the love of God was the only real reason there ever was to do anything.

Hollywood has only been going for 110 years. Before that people weren't absolutely constantly battered with nonsensical epic love stories every waking moment.
Before this people had the Bible.
After the story of creation the first lesson in the bible is Adam and Eve - That women don't handle their business and will drag you down with them, so you shouldn't listen to them or trust them, and that is why the man is the head of the household and society, because women will just cover everything in shit and ruin the most simple things. They are limited by short sightedness and material concerns, shallow and distracted.

The young man in the west presently has his views of women shaped by pure fiction from cradle to grave. The movie Titanic has more cultural gravity than the story of Adam and Eve in the consciousness of the western boomer NPC. This is a dead society.

Even in places like India and China in the present day there is very strong tradition and people get married in very formal and arranged ways. In Japan they have very clear ideas about gender roles and most women interviewed on the street have no idea what feminism even is. Italy, Eastern Europe, and the Spanish speaking world have no relation to the western illness, and of course the Muslim realm doesn't either.

You are supposed to see your marriage as something that is part of your family and society, part of growing up, and part of your responsibility, and something that is taught to you by the older generation, not some magical love story that feeds your ego as some kind of special magical event that only you are witness to. Love is a great big meme, you can become attached to someone and harmoniously fond of them, but you are supposed to be practical around what you do in terms of marrying and raising kids.

>>19344803
I wrote up a bunch of shit and then deleted it all because you're retarded. Look, if she is that shy you need to get her alone with you. It doesn't matter what, it doesn't matter if it's just you talking to her. When I was in the 8th grade I made a girl like that into my girlfriend by forcing myself upon her. You have to make the effort, you have to pursue. I started walking this girl home, sitting with her at lunch, eventually we're holding hands when I walk her home, she starts talking more, eventually she is comfortable enough around me that we can have something approximating a relationship when it is just us as she was still deathly shy for most part(less around me as I had established myself as safety and a source of confidence for her). If this girl is attracted to you, as you seem to believe, go do something with it. Don't think that talking to her a bit during that hour that consists your lecture is enough, invite her to do something with you, go somewhere with her, be around her. You have to establish yourself as someone that she can be comfortable around however the fuck you go about doing it.

>>19344892
>either get with a woman and deal with the hardships that relationship brings, or get with a man and turn into a degenerate and slide into sin. Where do you turn? Is this why so many people have become monks or nuns, because there wasn't anybody else to love except God himself?

The entire point of a relationship is that it is mutual effort on both of your parts towards the ideal that is love. People turn to the cloth to dedicate themselves to a higher love than that for the ideal that is the union between man and woman but towards God. What do you think love is exactly?

>>19345033
i won't force myself upon anyone. i get it might be taken as a sign of love but that's not who i'm. and it's true i have been busy but i've dedicated a big chunk of my free time to her. and all things considered it's quite hard when she won't talk she that's all we have.

>>19345090
when that's all we have*

any poos blazing fireworks for diwali tonight?

Since today I'm completely out of an incredibly toxic relationship I should've left months ago and holy shit it's such a relief to no longer have this massive weight clinging to my ballsack. Most likely would've been stuck in it for at least a few more months if it wasn't for this other girl who demonstrated what else is possible.

>>19345090
>>19345102
it's literally your job, if its too much work pursue someone else.

I would love to read or write a better sequel to The Final Empire. The book left us with ultra-powerful assassin mistborn Vin, well-intentioned but hapless Elend, and the huge mystery of the Lord Ruler. The sequel proceeded to spend 90% of its screentime on some Twilight-tier romance bullshit where Elend's half-brother is an evil edgy ninja with schizophrenia.

There is a really interesting story about Vin taking Kelsier's place as leader of the crew, trying to make peace across the final empire, discovering the truth about Ruin, and so on. Instead it got bogged in some shitshow about Elend working out his daddy issues.

Conservatism is the punk rock.

It's always indecision and lack of clarity.
It's clearly at the point where I can ask her out, and even if it wasn't, there's literally no loss because in a week there will be another woman. But I can't for the life of me think of where the fuck to invite her out to?
Same with my writing, I want to write something, I have the time to write something - but which thing? There's no shortage of average ideas. Some disciplinarian will say it is better to pick one idea, even if it is unspectacular, and polish it than to not write at all. But I suck at 'polishing' ideas because I can never pose specific solutions to the plot/structure problems that are clearly flawed.
Even today I want to ensure I don't go empty handed to this party, but what do I bring? A bottle of wine? So unimaginative, so unthoughtful.
I will always be distracted by abstracts, by generalities, never crystalize the specificities. Always hypothesis, never action.
Always "something" never "this thing".

>>19345184
lol

I'm sad and lonely. Give me (You)s

No man is an island,
Entire of itself.
Each is a piece of the continent,
A part of the main.
If a clod be washed away by the sea,
Europe is the less.
As well as if a promontory were.
As well as if a manor of thine own
Or of thine friend's were.
Each man's death diminishes me,
For I am involved in mankind.
Therefore, send not to know
For whom the bell tolls,
It tolls for thee.

I want to quit this site cold turkey because I'm starting to get anxiety over being accepted among anons. I'm really not bigoted or a neet, but I feel like I needed to so you guys would like me.

Starting today I'll stop giving a fuck about what you think. Thank you for reading my blog post and good riddance.

Soon, my love. I'll give you all the time you want.

>>19345196
Only if you promise to (You) me back

>>19345196

Why did that trannie butterfly make a second thread?

>>19344006
sometimes i wish i was in artist circles but i'm shit at art, don't know any artists, and most damaging of all can never really take myself seriously as an "artist" rather than an Anon who happens to occasionally make bad art.

Conservatism is the new punk rock.

>>19345255

How the fuck do people with something to say actually put that shit on the page in a coherent work of fiction? Completely blows my mind. I get pulling a Stephen King and putting a retarded story on the paper, and writing boring shit without anything to say. How people create literature is beyond me.

>>19345255
>conservatism
>new
you didn't think that one through, did you?

>>19345228
like all tripfags/namefags, all they want is attention and validation. At this point, I consider it a mental illness.

>>19345257
these are the ramones? they look tacky and their music was worthless.

>>19345276

Finished my magnum opus tonight. I’ve titled it The Will to LARP.

>>19345291
The world as CRINGE and representation

>>19345225
>>19345226
I love you

>>19344945
its pretty good too

Haruki made eye contact with himself in the rearview mirror. The way his eyes shined mesmerized him, like they were emeralds narrowing his focus between a woman’s chest. And since Haruki marveled at the exquisiteness of his face, his eyes weren’t on the road. There was a lurch every now and again, garroted by a slow pull that maybe, just maybe, things weren’t going to be ok. The cars were probably at a red light. Why else would they stop? Maybe the cones in his peripherals had something to do with it. Haruki couldn’t be sure. His face was too good.

(I have decided to steal Murakami’s shtyle. The first paragraph of Hard Boiled Wonderland and The End of the World is without a doubt the best way to start a novel. That’s why I am forced by the laws of 4chan to take it for my own.)

Society made me this way

>>19345198
I love this guy so much. Meditation 17 is one of the best works of religious thought ever.


>>19345196

>>19345198
>No man is an island
Heh he never met me

You will never be Bulgarian.

>>19345533
Thank God

>>19345533
noooo

>>19345533
I'd rather be Slovenian

I feel so trapped. I'm stuck here in this place. I can't escape. I'm so isolated. There's no way to reach out. The worst part aboutthe feeling is the total helplessness of it. I dont have that fire to keep going. I feel like I'm being dragged along by a current. I dont know what to do.

Why does every O.Henry collection have "A Retrieved Reformation"?
I've been trying to find a collection with "The Ransom of Red Chief"; Barely any have that but always have the former.

>>19344006
Christ is risen from the dead,
trampling down death by death,
and unto those in the tombs,
bestowing life.

What happened to /qa/? Why is the board nuked? There's only three threads up rn.

>>19345582
It's an improvement.

>>19345593
Pretty much.

Is there a book that is like this movie?

>>19345660
The novelization.

>>19344006
Any german bros or german learners? Do you know good books to learn german from A1 to B2?

>>19344892
>Go gay? No. That's a sin, first off, and there are plenty of examples and studies that show the reality of homosexual relationships.

>>19345666
There is no novel of it Satan, there an unfinished Edgar Allan Poe fragment it's loosely based on but the director said it bares little resemblance to the final work of the movie.

muscle relaxers
https://voca.ro/1Whma7uFSqRh

>>19345582
it had devolved into only wojak posting and the mods went for the nuclear option because they couldn't handle it not being used for its stated purpose

>>19345677

seriously questioning my ability to make meaningful connections with other people, if only religion was the panacea for alienation that it's purported to be

>>19345677
No 1 cares about 1 irrelevant unit that BASED philip of Macedon put into the dirt you faggots

>>19345761
They were one of the most effective fighting units in Greece, more successful than the Spartans. Philip paid tribute to them

>>19345751
Same

>>19345751
>>19345792
I have friends. I've had these friends for years. I've seen these friends regularly for years. Regularly meaning just about every weekend, excepting the first several months of the covid shit. And yet when I'm not around them I sort of forget they exist. i never really text them or anything. And I also feel like i dont really know them and that they dont know me. Ive known them for years but their personal lives are still unknown to me and mine to them. And beyond that I never feel authentic around them. I'm a very gloomy person but they all know me as always joking and happy. I dont like to show my unhappiness. It's sort of a personal ethic. I remember one day I was thinking a ton about suicide and cut my wrists. Someone told me that day that he always loves to see me because I'm always happy and an inspiration. It's really fucking weird. I always feel lonely

>>19345582
oh, they were raiding /a/ earlier. otherwise i'm not sure.
>>19345710
it's been like that for ages. so i'm thinking they got themselves the idea to raid other boards, and then mods came and did their job and nuked the place like god smiting gomorrah.

>>19345816
why cant you tell your bros about your pain, you're not meant to whinge and whine all the time but if you cant tell your friends that youre doing bad who can you tell

tomorrow will be the first day of the rest of my life

>>19345896
>if you cant tell your friends that youre doing bad who can you tell
You guys

>>19345925
no. you've been suffering for years and your life is filled with regret.

>>19346007

>>19346007
regrets are cope and stupid and for the unintelligent

Can someone articulate why someone would want to be a tripfag in a website that prides itself in anonymity?

>>19346066
having a name doesn't make you special on reddit
LOOK AT ME AHH LOOK AT ME PLEASE PLEASE LOOK AT ME AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I GET NO ATTENTION IN REAL LIFE BECAUSE IM A MID-40s SPINSTER THAT WORKS A SERVICE INDUSTRY JOB
PLEASE LOOK AT ME PLEASEEEE

>>19346066
attention

>Two threads of this general.
>This one is actually about people writing what’s in their mind
>The second thread is just full of schizos.
Why?

>>19346085
The other one is the thread where they all seethe about how someone else made the new thread first

>>19346093
its not someone else tho, we know exactly who it is

>>19346104
I dont keep up with the drama. i just write whats on my mind

Posted a little while ago about a girl complimenting my clothes while dressing like a literal homeless person. Want to thank the anon that told me to go for it, spent some time with her since then. She's a nice girl.

i wish i could save him in some sort of time machine :(

I'm jumping and jagging, finding an impossible happiness... I melt and form again, I exist without mold. The electricity damns me again and again yet it matters not. Every action is delicious, every sight is eternal. What a world! I will wonder on infrared light for the next 800 years.

what do you guys think of hummus

>>19346159
I make my own hummus, it's a beautiful thing.

>>19346159
I love it. I have been obsessed with it since I was very young

>>19346159
Truly wonderful stuff. That greek style cuisine in general is my favorite

>>19346159
Im eatin za'atar bread right now. Shoulda grabbed some hummus to go with it oh well

>>19346066
I came from other anonymous boards, /b/, /tv/, /mu/, /new/, etc. anonymity ruins boards. There’s no special charm. It attracts paranoids and trolls who want to prey on them. I do this for myself. Anonymous makes a thread shit for bringing this up all the time.

Muslim qt update

We've now held hands and been on a date. Going to coom inside her eventually.

>>19346186
you are literally the one who ruins every thread you touch lol

>>19346186
>I do this for myself
Believe me, we know.

>>19346203
treat her well you fucking sperg, godspeed

red dead redemption 2 has some of the worst writing i've ever seen. its monotone in emotion, the characters are like cardboard cutouts. and they sacrifice any sort of artistic merit to put political nonsense in it. i can't believe some people out there enjoy things like these. i'm an idiot for not spending my time reading more books, but i guess it never hurts to put yourself on the other side of civilization and see the things they enjoy, i guess

>>19346186
>anonymity ruins boards.
You're completely wrong. It allows for a fantastic dynamic. I can post whatever retarded shit and not have to answer for it. Allows me to be flexible. I can approach things from any angle I want and pretend I'm sincere

>>19344793
what a bunch of fucking hogwash. you're a pseud. you said nothing.

>>19346227
It is fairly tame writing, it would be cool if they made a game with the realness and depth of Cormac Mccarthy novel.

>>19346273
God, no, I don't want a reddit game.

>>19346282
Filtered

I should finish Dubliners. I still think about that one story where the old man tells the little boy that if his son had a playground wife he'd beat the kid within an inch of his life.

>>19346159
It's shit. Looks like it too.

>>19344793
Structures arent arbitrary. Final Causes are real.

>>19346302
This, if you need dip there's queso, guac, or salsa, maybe hot gravy if you're suicidal

>>19346249
Trolling. I said that.

>>19346312
In part I suppose. Being a clean slate every post has other advantages too

>>19344006
I've been debating whether to burn a few bridges . I've decided that if someone wrongs you who is of no consequence to you in the scheme of things, you should always go on a warpath and destroy them.You can't let anyone step on or disrespect you. Otherwise you take on the pattern of a pushover and weakling.

Granted, by "destroy" that typically means just sending them a mean text message that excoriates them on the deepest level by applying my writing skills and keen understanding of the inner workings of human personality to point out all their worst flaws. I see no need to go beyond words when words can do so much.

>>19346321
>lol this nerd just sent me an angry text the length of a book
>lmao loom at this he actually said "thou"
>hahaha what a fucking lame ass

>>19346321
You don't go on a warpath lmao, you just move on.

>>19346312
You obviously love the dynamic of anonymous image boards because you spend every fucking day shitting this one up. why lie?

>>19344006
I am intellectually bored. A bit spiritually bored, artistically bored, and the like, especially with the state of the culture today. I want to see cutting-edge innovators, see the world break down a little so it can be rebuilt, and better yet see a revival of something actually timeless and not just nostalgic. I also want to change myself and become more ambitious. I want to hear new ideas that challenge my current ones, but most you read about online I have already heard. Obviously I have to find better ways to branch out.

What I think is going to happen is that - since there has been an over-abundance of media and information in recent decades, for the near future we'll only see everything underground surface and resurface. The aesthetic of the 80's has to come back, next something on the internet that's been obscure for ten years is suddenly mainstream, and so on. Eventually everyone will be exposed to everything from every recent decade, most important philosophies, most important art movements, and eventually modernity will be understood in a far broader scope than we know it today. We're still processing each year, all the way back to the industrial revolution, even the french revolution. One day the internet will let the common man see it all. That's already starting with the new generations. Some will live their lives constantly flooded with info, childhood to death, more and more. Maybe the signals blend into noise and the young become nihilistic and skeptical. God knows how people will see the world in a hundred years.

>>19344006
There is nothing edgy left. De sade, Hitler, whatever. It's not bene remotely shocking. Does anyone know anything actually edgy?

I don't know what to do with my life. Did you anons ever figure it out and think "yes, THIS is why I came into the world"? I don't even know where to start

>>19346388
I want kids and to marry for life, beyond that I've no fucking clue.

all the debate over human nature
human nature is some fat fuck italian giving a girl with daddy issues $1000 to debauch herself on camera

>>19346388
Ever tried drugs?

i got 2 girls ones in heaven and ones below

>>19346388
I had that exact experience; it was the most unearthly beautiful intense feeling, it was a feeling beyond what I thought could even exist, just the entire world, everything, being transformed into beauty and hope and meaning, after so many years of suffering.

It was based on one concept basically: forgive everything. That was the kind of thing that animated the whole experience. Like dont hate anything, try to love everything.

>>19346380
Sotos?

>>19346380
Have you heard of the lament configuration?

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Suicide_in_Lithuania
:(

>>19346403
sounds like a bladee lyric

>>19346418
What is it?

>>19346380
Holocaust denial will always be edgy, if edge is all you value.

>>19346436
Not really that edgy. Did some event occur whatever. It matters a lot more who was right in the conflict

>>19346421
>male rates six times higher

Always a depressing sight

I think this guy is trying to tell me he's a shitty friend. I guess I should take the hint.

>>19346380
Fancy a mining job in the Congo?

>>19346478
Hitler and the Nazis were wrong

Refuse to have sex because I will not take the risk that I may make a woman feel good

>>19344012
<3

Hitler was a homosexual

>>19344892
I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. Men (a large majority of them at least), are not malicious on purpose; it's a part of their nature, they can't help it. A man will never love in the same way that a woman can, its not possible. So what do you do? Go lesbian? No. That's a sin, first off, and there are plenty of examples and studies that show the reality of homosexual relationships. After awhile you start to cast about, looking for love and not caring what form it comes in, man or woman, and I've realized that no matter where I turn, I cannot find what I'm looking for. I've become convinced that it doesn't exist, and even if it did, the odds of me and that person ever coming into contact are slim. Plus, I'm a massive retard, I'd probably fuck up if I ever did get the chance and meet somebody. It almost feels like an intentional choice; either get with a man and deal with the hardships that relationship brings, or get with a woman and turn into a degenerate and slide into sin. Where do you turn? Is this why so many people have become monks or nuns, because there wasn't anybody else to love except God himself?

>>19346653
Factually, no. Ah and I don't like Hitler (I'm more of an Italian fascist appreciator) but your post reminds me of a historical fact that I've always found funny, Jean Cocteau defended Hitler "because Hitler is... LE GAY!!!" (wishful thinking on his part) and then got massive backlash for it after WWII, almost faced charges lmao.

I think Salvador Dali also said some shit about how the idea of Hitler jerking off was his fantasy or something, iirc. Modernist times were so funny.

>>19346670
No he was gay, he never had sex with Eva Braun, he had fruity mannerisms. He had no kids.

>>19346677
Didnt dali used to host massive orgies but because he had a phobia of vaginas he would just sit in the corner and jerk off?

>>19346653
>>19346670
>>19346681
>Hitler was aware of Röhm's homosexuality. At this point they were so close that they addressed each other as du (the German familiar form of "you"). No other top Nazi leader enjoyed that privilege, and their close association led to rumors that Hitler himself was homosexual.[8] Röhm was the only Nazi leader who dared to address Hitler by his first name "Adolf" or his nickname "Adi" rather than "mein Führer".[7][9]

>Hermann Rauschning claimed to have seen in Hitler's First World War military record an item concerning a court martial that found Hitler guilty of pederastic practices with an officer. Rauschning also claimed that in Munich Hitler was found guilty of a violation of Paragraph 175, which dealt with pederasty.

>The hard evidence that Machtan presents is a number of documents that, he contends, have been unjustifiably dismissed or ignored. The main such document is the so-called Mend Protocol, a statement made in 1939 by Hans Mend, a dispatch rider who had served with Hitler during World War I. Mend testified that during the war he had seen Hitler ''bedded down at night with 'Schmidl' '' -- Ernst Schmidt -- his male whore.''

>Machtan also cites notes left by Eugen Dollmann, Hitler's interpreter. Dollmann wrote that he had heard Otto von Lossow, a Reichswehr general in Munich after World War I, read from what Lossow claimed was a police file containing statements by young boys in Munich. Those boys, according to Lossow, said that Hitler had paid them to spend the night with him.

>>19346681
This doesn't mean Hitler was gay. Didn't he execute the leader of the Sturmabteilung (Ernst Röhm) who was gay/fucked his men, and say it was an abomination? He was probably some kind of paraphiliac/asexual. I'm a fag by the way so I'm not biased.

>>19346704
Me...

was always drawn to dali but have trouble articulating why

>>19346725
Art at that time was very interesting, it was already flirting with the provocation and nonsense that now prevails in contemporary art but artists still had a sense of unique personal creativity and theoretical artistic knowledge + felt it was their duty to put out interesting ideas that were relevant for their era. I'm making a thesis on modernist art

>>19346717
>>19346720
Eugen Dollmann (8 August 1900 in Regensburg – 17 May 1985 in Munich) was a German diplomat and member of the SS.

>Dollmann was fond of Braun, a sweet and simple young woman who confided her sad life to him. She was known throughout the world as the German strongman’s mistress, but, as she confessed to Dollmann, there was no sexual intimacy between her and the Führer. “He is a saint,” Braun told Dollmann wistfully. “The idea of physical contact would be for him to defile his mission. Many times we sit and watch the sun come up after spending the whole night talking. He says to me that his only love is Germany and to forget it, even for a moment, would shatter the mystical forces of his mission.”

>Dollmann strongly suspected that the Führer had other passions besides Germany. On Christmas Eve 1923, when he was a university student in Munich, Dollmann had been invited to an extravagant, candlelit party at the home of General Otto von Lossow, who had helped put down Hitler’s Beer Hall putsch in November 1923. During the evening, Lossow took Dollmann and some of his other guests into his parlor, where he entertained them by reading selections from Hitler’s thick police dossier. “In a café near the university on the evening of, Herr Hitler was observed . . .” Lossow’s voice was matter-of-fact as he read through the depositions and eyewitness reports about Germany’s future leader. The general’s small audience listened in rapt silence, transfixed by the portrait of a Hitler who was more interested in boyish men than in national politics.

Dollmann was gay himself and had gay orgies in Venice.

my throat is clogged with week-old phlegm at this point
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iKCDrH1zz-8

>>19346738
>gay orgies in Venice
Not the first gay degenerate from this time period that I hear had gay orgies in Venice kek what's up with that, was that a common thing?

>>19346769
Italy was always kind of like that, Roman aristocrats always had a lot of boys and girls to have orgies with. I don't think that ever went away from ancient times.

>>19346769
Rich port cities always have degeneracy. Venice, London, Amsterdam, NYC, San Francisco, Tangier, Bangkok, basically any major port of entry in the modern age is going to have a district or two to contain it.

>>19346720
Rohm wasn't liquidated for being a homosexual but for being a threat. Hitler knew about Rohm's homosexuality for years and didn't seem to care

>>19346786
>>19346793
Damn I wish I was a rich fat fascist fuck in 1913 having degenerate orgies in Venice with some twinks yet here I am in 2021 stuck at my minimum wage job like a piece of shit in the midst of this woke circus

>>19346818
I hope you're not making minimum wage in America, those are terrible wages

>>19346818
You probably want to read d'Annunzio and some early Isherwood. Isherwood's Berlin trip was during the height of Weimar degeneracy when they divided the whole city by fetishes because sex tourism was the only thing keeping up with inflation.

I'm sick of living in this pozzed culture. I've traveled extensively and have lived outside the West for most of my life, but the globohomo plague is everywhere. Sometimes I daydream about living in North Korea or Afghanistan. Do you think that's doable?

i be standing right here but i pretend like i dont hear them v_v https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i3aG8JQoQ0w

>>19346911
Housing is cheap in Syria.

>>19346911
It's doable to neck yourself faggot

man i dont even wanna fuck half the time, can we just talk like normally. damn

>>19347271
Women don’t want a deep bond. All they care about is sex, the whores

video games are the gesamtkunstwerk

>>19347396
nobody gives a shit

>>19347404
stay mad readcuck

>>19347396
Ok no but do you have anything actually interesting to say about the Gesamtkunstwerk? I think about the Gesamtkunstwerk every day so I am interested in everyone's opinion

>>19347422
I do, I stated an interesting and controversial (and correct) opinion, that videogames are the gesamtkunstwerk

>>19347437
My nigga the Gesamtkunstwerk needs to be art

>>19344081
>Now the upshot of all this controversy is that a narrow and distorted picture of America often emerges from the televised news. A single, dramatic piece of the mosaic becomes in the minds of millions the entire picture. The American who relies upon television for his news might conclude that the majority of American students are embittered radicals; that the majority of black Americans feel no regard for their country; that violence and lawlessness are the rule rather than the exception on the American campus.

Journalists are worse than any other group threatening this country and this is precisely why.

Can we not talk about America

>>19344378
This >>19344452 gets the answer pretty good. I think the "role" of each sex is both biological and social, but when biological constraints are no longer a threat to us, social "constructs" allow faggots to fiddle with this meaning and run amok.

Wittingenstein shows that nearly everything - minus basic biological reality - is a social construct. We agree on what something is (i.e. the meaning of a word) and we use that as a foundation to build a society. When we can't agree on what even the most basic words mean, they lose their meaning completely, and this tears a society apart.

>>19347286
>the whores
i wish. they’re constantly weighing me as a potential monogamous romantic partner. why can’t chivalry and courtship be dead

I really don't want to learn about french fauvism it's so fucking boring. But I have to.

>reading pic rel
>second half operates entirely on gay porn logic mixed with torture
>it mainly follows a mary sue shota who repeatedly falls into gay rapey scenarios
>the author is most likely one of those fujoshi who in school would write stories about her male classmates
>yaoi is literally a industry of gay manga directed at women in japan
fuck whoever recommended this

>>19347737
>the author is most likely one of those fujoshi who in school would write stories about her male classmates
Reminds me of a girl I went to high school with. It was senior year. She was kind of ugly desu. Not ghastly or anything byt definitely lacking pleasant looks. She was trying to flirt with me one day. I had never talked to her before. She was showing me memes on her phone. She kept swiping and we were laughing. Then suddenly she swiped to some weird gay hentai. It had all the ahigo faces, drool, tiny touching penises etc. She made this noise that was like a "oh!" She quickly turned off her phone and looked away. We never spoke again.

>>19346380
I went through a lot of phases. I was supporting Hitler, Monarchy, Ted Kaczynski, etc. The thing that upset my family the most though was when I said pre marital sex is a sin and that marriage is indissoluable. The fact that I dont have sex is the most edgy thing about me.

>>19346659
Get thee to the nunnery

>>19344006
I love Robertson Davies but reading him has made me very sad.

>>19348405
I know the feeling, I love women but hearing them makes me very mad.

>>19346725
Looks AI generated

>>19347437
>it's controversial therefore it's interesting

>>19344006
I love Asuka Soryu and want to have sex with her!

I learned this song this week and I'm happy about it, but I'm annoyed at the poor audio quality from the mic on my phone.
Hope you like this at least:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O8Zbkc6THBk

a once whirling world became
stagnant, again
my mind is bursting out of frame
please help me, my friend

the woods call in the dawn of fall
and I can hear their screams
one step away from losing it all
but still I chase my dreams

now there is no one to blame
but myself, again
love, work, it's all a game
please help me, my friend

Consciousness has to be some sort of punishment. I had an idea that life is actually a prison sentence of some sort of distant alien race. This is hell, barren and unsatisfactory.

>>19348767
do something with your life and it won't feel like that
seriously, get off this website and actually do something

>>19348767
Babbys first gnosticsm

i think we need to bring structuralism back, it's the real shit, poststructuralism subverted it with sophistry

Consciousness has to be some sort of blessing. I had an idea that life is actually a gift from some God. This is Heaven, full of wonders and satisfaction.

>>19348730
wtf this is so fucking beautiful and deserves more attention
im subbing hoping you will post more. i actually like the audio quality

>>19348730
I've always wanted to play music, ever since I was a small child. My parents wouldn't allow me to take music lessons, listening to you perform this piece reminded me of my lost dream. I need to buy an instrument. Thank you, Anon.

>>19349083
Thank you for your encouragment and the sub, it motivates me to post more content and learn new pretty songs. But you'll need to be patient, as it takes time to learn a piece properly, but I will deliver.

>>19349122
Please go and buy yourself the instrument you want to learn the most, anon. It doesn't have to be the best in terms of quality but a decent one will be a magnificent start for you to learn. It is very rewarding (probably the most rewarding activity in terms of noticeable progress and relaxation/fun it offers) and healthy in every aspect.
Thanks for your kind words, and I hope you find the time to learn and the enjoyment out of the instruments you want to learn.

>>19344006
I'm so oppressingly sad and I hate myself for feeling so. I'm a student studying abroad that'll probably get a pampered baby label stuck on him the moment he dares to complain. Please spare me, I'm painfully aware. I come from a small town in Belgium, perfectly located. It's only now that I'm here that I realize how much I love it. I'm so homesick, it's indescribable. Part of it might be that I'm not a city person. Putting me in Brussels might've had a similar, yet diminutive, effect. I'm an extremely reluctant person in asking help or showing sadness or suffering. Yet, after much inner debate, I've naively tried googling a remedy. The first article I find is a top 10 list from "savethestudent.com". Littered with "memes" it tries to pamper towards this corporate, youth stereotype. Which i thoroughly believe I'm not a part of (without divulging onto you my entire life story). It took them one sentence to already start shilling me a product.
>"Give yourself 24 hours, and then pick up a phone and ask your new mates if they fancy a coffee or treat yourself a free Greggs sausage roll with your student discount (because, let's be honest, that solves most problems)."

Already feeling guilty about even in search terms admitting my sadness, reading send me overboard. One of the few places I've found comfort recently is /lit. I know these threads pop up from time to time, so, please. If you have any advice you could give me. Tell me.

And yes, I should probably stop "being a baby" and "man up". I'm just thankful I've so convincingly proven myself what I want in life, that I already know where my happiness lies. Soothe me /lit, if you've got some. I try to not think about my homesickness, not give power to the thought. But even when I shut it out, it's still there. Like a thin blanket of sadness hanging over me constantly. And I have to endure seven more months of this. If I don't find a way to cope with this, I will completely go mad, turn alcohol, drug user or worse.

>>19349230
How did you learn piano? I've been trying to learn on and off for the last few years.
I can play by feel sometimes but I still hit wrong notes and my hand coordination is awful.
I have no strategy for learning, I would just like to be able to improvise someday.
If you have any resources please share.

bump

>>19344006

I am really fucking seeking for that one lore-universe where basically during WW2 there was some sort of alien fungi invasion.

Basically was so bad that the entire southern hemisphere got wiped out. Eventually human nations had to flee to space to build their own planets and the Nazis were the last to leave because they insisted in being the last protectors of glory.

Have been searching for over a year for it now after I initially lost it

>>19350101
Also I am a double-indenting retard who keeps forgetting how to write

>>19349462
Homesickness is a bit like heartbreak where it hurts so much, but has also happened to pretty much literally everybody so it's difficult to complain about. Like heartbreak it WILL pass till you only get little pangs now and then. In the meantime try and hold on and phone home sometimes. One thing that helped me was just exploring my new environment. I'd just walk through Montreal, pick a landmark like a pretty church or something and explore the city that way. No idea if it will help you or not, but there will be something out there.

Also stop namefagging.

i want to get the shit kicked out of me. i feel like i deserve it.
is there some sort of service i can pay for where i just get jumped randomly by like 8 dudes?

My dad texted me asking what i wanted from this thai place and i responded with "General thai chicken. Medium Spicy" and he responded with "Gay" and a laughing emoji.
He doesn't understand that medium is already relatively spicy AAAAAAAAAAAA

Visiting my family for the first time in two years, exhausted and haunted by the phantom of failed potential for what perfect love & understanding could have been for us. I wish I didn't have to guard my heart with them.

>>19349490
>How did you learn piano?
I always had an interest for it but never acted upon it till I was about 21, when my dad gave me a digital piano as a birthday present. Got my hands acquaintened with the keys, looked up chords on the internet and played those, then tried to replicate the melodies of some of my favorite songs on the instrument. Took classes for a very brief tiem afterwards, and they can definitely help you with your technique, but I'd advice only taking them once you have some grasp on chords (you don't have to know them by name at first, just copy what you see in charts, but you'll have to memorize them if you wish to improvise in the future), rhythm/tempo and develop some dexterity on your fingers, which can be obtained by playing scales with one hand, then the other, then both at the same time until you get fluent.
YouTube is your friend, and my advice would be that you don't pay too much attention to sheet music at first and just learn songs from guided tutorials. Also download Synthesia for free (you can find the cracked full version for free on youtube) and download songs as midi files ("song name+piano midi" on google) so you can play along at different speeds.
Buy a decent Yamaha/Casio digital piano (88 keys if possible, if not a 76 key one will do), they all have different presets and an integrated metronome which will be incredibly helpful. Also get a cheap sustain pedal on amazon.
You don't need an acoustic piano till later on if you're serious about commiting to the instrument and are ready to invest on it and have the knowledge on what to get and have developed the skills to "deserve" one.

>>19350156
Thank you my anon, the namefag is lost, also I'm drunk. HEY! I'm not religious at all. Yet, at home, at my local church, for the beauty it preserves and the symbolism it conveys, I visit it in my twisted, post-modern, confused state. Simply pronouncing, onto myself, that which I'm thankful for, using Jesus, suffering on his cross, as a projection for me to divulge my general concerns. Blessing my family, stating my wishes, a small little conversation held with myself, the statue a mediator, a gateway to put my worries on the shelf. I promised him, dearly, that day, before I departed, that I'd visit him once I'd arrived up abroad. Yet, I've neglected to follow this promise, and thus, this may be the source of my woes. I'll wonder about the city's as you've so pityingly divulged and promptly visit Jesus, hoping it to be the end of my concerns.

>>19350226
One dude is enough, and you need to fight back whilst you're at it. I know the feeling, I have it as well. Every shifty-eyed stare I receive whilst traversing the streets, I hope it's a stare of utter bitterness and hatred and will result in my beating, but not with compliance. We're far too docile and weak, no wars to be fought, eternal peace makes men go insane, we want to fight, yet in vain, no fighting comes. It stems from a visceral longing to feel, it stems from sadness and numbness that we wish to conceal. We want to feel something in this ocean of nothingness, blasting lights and entertainment, laugh whilst you're at it. I want to crookedly smile at my colleagues as well, like in fight club, with teeth jagged, horrid smell, torn shirt, blood dripping, black-eyed, and as well, be vivid and pumping with blood as it swells. I feel alive.

>>19350419
Thanks for the advice! I already have a 49 key midi piano

>>19350384
I have the same kind of feeling every time I visit the home of one of my friends. There is a painting in the hallway, proudly displayed by parents probably conveying onto them its profound meaning, that brother and sister have shared in creating. Happy little households of potential. Sheltered in comfort. Scorn or resentment onto them is only a failing. Be thankful they had what they had and previal. I understand what you're saying, yet feel lucky in a way, I don't know your situation, but in my case, as it is, I must say, it made me stronger. No family to rely on is a huge lack in life, yet that which I've been starved of has made me the person I am today, not perfect, yet I feel well-grounded in reality, torn between comfort and strive. Thank god.

I made out with a hot girl while a guy made out with the uglier girl. These girls and the guy are friends. Then I switched girls with the guy. I made out with the ugly one (she had a shitty sour taste in her mouth) and he made out with the prettier one. Then I took them both, kissed one, kissed the other, and then the two of them kissed. None of it was even pleasurable for me. I had so much slime on my face and a shitty aftertaste. Obviously all three of them were drunk as fuck, I was sober.
10/10 would recommend if you wanna feel numb or see how low you can sink. It doesnt even feel bad, just disgusting, and Im glad I did it.

Was only meant to nap for like half an hour and it's ended up being 5 hours so now I'm raving to shy fx so I'll have the energy to read.
https://youtu.be/VV0I5oQC3k8

>>19350498
Don't touch whores bros, this is the mental illness you're engaging with.

I'm still mad about /qa/ getting deleted.

Can you imagine being born in the shadow of a family, long gone, having acquired a vast amount of wealth through trading in gunpowder and arms under tight restrictions of government shipping blockades, leaving your country, and placing your hopes and dreams and inheritance in your offspring hoping they'll flourish? Poverty-stricken generations gone by, yet holding onto that painting of your ancestors who've so ferociously implored the commercial practices that've resulted your offsprong. Then, continuing its legacy, feeling proud of your achievements, regaining its wealth, not feeling guilty for the things you have done, treading in their footsteps. May this be the reason of salvation and forgiveness, bestowed onto oneself, to continue and flourish under such practies.

>>19350498
stuff like this is much more enjoyable when you are drunk. you square

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>>19350673
It really do be like that sometimes

>>19344645
I like to think everyone who grew up with the internet before smartphones feels this way at least a little. 30 is the new boomer age.
I want to read about the radio generation freaking out about the tv generation

I'm wearing five layers as I step onto the shaft that is my apartments' dwelling. A t-shirt, shirt, sweater, jacket, and blanket. Lighting a cigarette in the hallway, guilty as charged. In my intoxicated state, convincing myself its harmlessness. Plug in those ears, dull out those senes. I blast music, shredding, shattering my eardrums. The song consumed beforehand in gleeful state, reduced to tears. In blank space I stare on the space I used to dance. Your little window into my life, five posts I've made in total. My last one is this. Completely naive and unknowing of your house, your life, your feelings and thoughts in strive through imageboards online. Yet, knowing, in contemplation, that you're out there. Thank you.

>>19350765
you're welcome bro

>>19350765
This is called "sonder" btw.
"Sonder — noun. the realization that each random passerby is living a life as vivid and complex as your own." - The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows.

>>19350440
I'm not religious either, Montreal just has a million of them and I used them as waypoints. But do find some space in your life for the dionysian as well as the appolonian. You'll make it through.

>>19350891
hello fellow Montrealer

>>19350891
>>19350904
Do you guys know French

>>19350982
No, why?

>>19350982
un peu.
im a westie so my speaking is not top shape but i can understand it perfectly

>>19350904
No longer I'm afraid. Back to the prairies for me.

>>19350982
Yep, parents put me in an immersion program just because.

REMINDER:
If you don't make the new thread the animeposter or butters will.
You have 8 more replies until one of these things happens.
Please save us and choose a cool image. Please...

>>19351047
Nobody cares, you schizo, god damn get a life.

>>19351024
>immersion program
What is that? Some kind of cultural thing?

>>19351058
It's a language immersion program in which the children spend all or a large portion of their day learning, in a natural way, a particular foreign language.

>>19351062
>It's a language immersion program
So, a cultural thing, then?

>>19351071
To a certain extent it is, a cultural thing, but not entirely.

>>19351074
Stop being retard, it is.

>>19351047
I don’t think it was possible to be this schizophrenic over a thread.

>>19351058
in Canada you can take most highschool classes in french, instead of just a singular french grammar/language class during grade 9. If your school offers this immersion program you can opt into it.

New thread
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>>19351047
looks like someone took your advice

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>>19351078
new bread

>>19351160
This one was made 3 minutes later than the other and has a shit OP and already faggots talking about "lewd" "boys" in it, let it die

>>19351167
Nah.

i wonder how many wwoym threads we can make before mods stop us. like what if we just fill the fucking board with them right now.
i bet we can get like 10 going before a mod gets here

>>19351191
go go go go

>>19351191
no, 2 is ideal because it's making the anime guy freak out and gaslight himself by ineffectually trying to gaslight others

every time the subject comes up or a new thread turns over he makes 10 posts about how schizo and mentally unwell everyone is, i've even seen him spilling over into other threads doing it

10 will bring the issue to a head and make the mods do something, i want him to be caught in this "war" for another year

>>19351226
Butters, you ain't fooling anyone.

>>19351226
yes but we can escalate this war to unseen levels. your move. im ready when you guys are.
this is the image i was going to use for mine

>>19351226
Are you trying to change history? The anime guy hasn’t once freaked out. It’s always the anti-Animefags that have meltdowns.

>>19351226
I chose a gay pic to accelerate his schizo decline

I feel incredibly drained and depressed, almost sick. Today was fine in every external way, I spent it surrounded by great people but still feel empty. I believe I'm experiencing another crisis of meaning.

I'm unable to escape the implications of materialism, It's hanging over everything. I long for something more but I'm afraid that I'll never find it.

I'm trying to read traditional and spiritual literature in hope that it will see me through this dark time. Any recommendations are greatly appreciated.