/lit/ - Literature

>>19435498
Butters, what's your obsession with linking the previous thread? Are you that much of a schizo?

quick shout-out to Christina Applegate and our impending disintegration

wow, beautiful painting

I wish I'd be a talented person.

Boning a twink with a chokehold.

I have talents but no drive. I am the embodiment of the failed gifted kid and I'm so tired of living this way. I know that I have potential, I'm just such a depressed lazy motherfucker, which is terrible to know about yourself.

I have a great self employed job where I could easily make 6 figures if I put in the basic 40 hours a week, but instead I do the bare minimum and barely scrape by in life.

I've been studying music since I was 11, I have a very good understanding of theory and composition, but when it's time to sit at the piano or put the pencil on the staff paper, I just can't push myself to sit there for longer than 5 minutes these days.

I'm not as knowledgable about writing/reading compared to music, but the desire is there for me, though I similarly never follow up.

I don't want to be one of those old people who knows they could have been great but chose not to for whatever reason. It's truly my biggest fear in life to end up like that.

Because of this I'm going to start a journey of reading from the great minds of the past to hopefully find some inspiration. I'm planning on going to the bookstore in the morning when they open to pick up some staple pieces of work. I am going to start with the greeks because that's what I hear from basically everyone on where to start when beginning to understand philosophy. I'm open to hearing suggestions of other places to start or where to go after the greeks, so if anyone has any recommendations I would love to hear them.

I hope we all make it anons, I really really do.

>>19435498
How to leave 4chan and internet in general? I want to turn my life around bros. I'm tired to being introverted. I want some love. I want friends. Books for this feel

>>19435641
the first thing you have to accept is that the internet is real life. it's not 1998 where the antisocial nerds are on the computer and the well-adjusted cool kids are outside. even if they are outside they're staring at a screen displaying the internet.

>>19435641
Just stop going here.

>>19435641
start lifting to get a little bit of energy and confidence

>>19435648
I meant the social bullshit like reddit(it's terrible). Thankfully I only follow some programming subreddits.
I also want to give up anime as it's mostly a waste of time. I'm a weeb cuck right now. I even was able to give it up for a solid year or two but I saw some clips on YT and I'm back again. I get some fun out of it but overall I feel unsatisfied with it.
The biggest problem is I lose track of time when browsing the internet. Part of the problem's mine but they're made that way but It's just a feedback loop of haven't done work, feel like shit, browse /lit or watch anime, work gets piling up, feel like shit again and repeat.
I hope to truly break this vicious cycle and not be a slave to my brain chemicals. I wanna make the brain my slave. I'd be doing work for some time and get on /lit just for 5 minutes, 3 hours gone (real story of today).

I lurked this week and I think this board is completely and utterly shit.

>>19435649
I try to but I justify myself with shit like only 5 minutes and I'd lose hours.

>>19435652
I used to do some running like 2 weeks before. I stopped doing it though. Maybe should start running again.

>>19435498
I think I have a sexual problem called fascism

>>19435668
look up the social media and linkedin accounts of people you went to school with

>>19435675
yes start running, and start lifting too

>>19435498
Women need to come in my life. I forgot how to socialise, much less talk to the fairer sex.

>>19435504
Butters is hiding their tripfag to post these?

Taking a step back from hating on the insect -

Has there been an equivalent to a "butters" on any other major board? Meaning a tripfag who occupies so much discussion and attention garnering (You)s to the point where they've become ingrained into board culture and all but the most recent newfags recognize them completely? I only browse /tv/ /lit/ /adv/ and /his/ but nowhere have I seen a tripfag gain this much notoriety. I wonder if she's accomplished a persona that doesn't exist on any 4channel board to date.
Anons who browse smaller boards, feel free to chime in.

>>19435764
should get a life mate
thats the only way

>>19435498
lurking for something i can start woking in

i’m finding it increasingly hard to justify speaking or writing any words. it hardly ever seems like any of the things that come in to my head are worth trying to communicate, theres just no point.

>>19435768
there was a tripfag who absolutely shit up the startrek general on /tv/ and was also ironically a female outspoken leftist exatly like butters. she basically tried to turn it into her own little clubhouse and even made a discord group for shitting up the threads. things kind of went downhill for her when she gave up too much information and people started showing up at her work and trying to dox her and stuff and luckily after months of fighting she gave up and fucked off

>>19435768
I know of no boards with such recognizable anons as /his/ and /lit/, even discounting copypasta fags who can be easily impersonated like GDP=tourism and there is no physical evidence of the battle of stalingrad. JWschizo, Coemgenvs, Butters, there is genuinely no comparison to the level of unneeded autism present in these three posters alone in any board I know of. At least JWschizo stays on topic enough and inspired MSpaint porn on /his/, and Cumbenis is so retarded he's funny half the time and you get the sense that he probably uses the board without tripfagging. I cannot think of a single positive thing about Butters.

>>19435602
Read rich dad poor dad.
You know those carpe diem retards that ooze vitality? That book is their manifesto, almost. Suspend your criticism of how "dumb" it is and give it a read.

I have this gut feeling that the past two years has aged everybody prematurely. I know it could also just be me getting older, but I've noticed people of all ages around me - friends, coworkers etc. - looking a lot more haggard, less hair on their heads &c. Hard to tell if it's just in my head, but I think I'm right.

>>19435826
go to 8chn or move on faggot

>>19435768
>>19435826
/lit/ really has its own specific board culture I've never seen a board like this. I lurk a few other board but but this board seems it's like not just 4chan culture it's really /lit/ culture. Not that I like it I'm just stating a fact. I don't really know how to express this but when I use /lit/ I feel like I'm using one of these forums in the 2000s when there was forum culture. There's so many recognizable things and memes and repeated gimmicks and it's not just the tripfags there are certain autists without a trip that are recognizable by their typing style and subject of discussion and reoccurring threads

>>19435884
Solid effortpost. Any books you can rec on this topic?

>>19435884
There are many things I hate about /lit/ but I think the pace is pretty good. I can't use fast boards anymore because things just move on too quickly and if a thread doesn't get immediate traction it will be bumped off in a blink of an eye; but slow boards aren't much fun to use and are more for specific queries where it's fine to wait a couple of days to get an accurate reply, so they feel a bit more utilitarian in that respect. /lit/ could afford to be a bit slower but its a nice middle ground where most threads stay around for at least a day, often more, but you're also not waiting days for a reply.

God is love

Almost got into a car crash today in heavy rain but swerved in time to avoid it. Usually a near miss like that would send the fear of god into me but I felt basically nothing this time. If anything it was kind of fun.

>>19435498
I don’t know if I’m more afraid that I won’t get another job or that I will.

>>19435902
Books for this feel?

>>19435768
Half of /lgbt/ is tripfag drama.

>>19435855
Yeah these two years have been five years and everyone is either a touch mentally ill or fully off the deep end now.

>>19435838
I'll look into it. I'm willing to get rid of any biases to gain some perspective. Thank you anon

I had a dream where I was cooking speed.

I wanna read faster bois, being the weeb I am I'm reading light novel/web novel but even these only contain 80-100k words and its taking me like solid 4-5 hours to finish them. How to read faster?

>>19436085
What? How the hell do you cook speed?

https://youtu.be/dR6NRPIG3wU

>>19435962
>Half of /lgbt/ is tripfag drama.
Oh this lmao though I only go on gaygen

>>19436200
speed (the drug)

I have this feeling like I have to do something, but that something is deprived of dignity these days.

>>19435764
Gnarly scar on her arm. Anyone know how she got it?

All my attempts to escape loneliess fail terribly. I'm giving up.

Is it better to embrace chaotic vigor in your 20s or should one go the other way and slow things down, be the opposite of most youngsters ?

>>19435768
>She is almost 40
I knew she wasn't over 40 :3

the optimal state of being for any thing, creature, idea, or system is to be like a rope that is not so taut as to threaten to snap, yet also not so flaccid as to be useless
in a state of perfect tension, man grows best, and civilizations drive each other to great heights through competition

I need someone to take care of. I need someone who needs me.

Dubs decide what I'll read this week.

>>19436734
Something about the anatomy of penises.

I go to reddit to get angry. Also America needs to die already.

>>19436734
sissy fag shit

>>19436734
f gardner

Would anyone like a donut?

>>19436792
Good try
>>19436827
Crocodile was fun
>>19436830
Aren't donuts supposed to be the disk-shaped with a hole in the center?

>>19436734
john green

>>19435498
Seems like the only girls that are interested in me are 3 years younger. Not sure how I feel about that considering my younger brothers girlfriend would be older than them.

>>19435768
>>19435826
>>19435884
I would say that the exact same thing applies to /asp/-/pw/. It's one of the most unique boards on this website, in that it has a specific lingo that can easily alienate those who aren't in on it, as well as memes and jokes that are, again, pretty damn niche. To me it's by far the most fun place on all of 4chan and it almost never failed to get a laugh out of me for years.
There's multiple recognizable non-tripfag anons over there, to the point where it feels like a community, in an age where few boards authentically reach that position. There has been a degradation in quality ever since the split this year (and the consolewars faggotry), but it's still relatively carrying the spirit of pre-2016 4channel through its unbridled autism.

>>19436903
/mu/ had the saddest fall from grace with violent dilution in its culture thanks to notoriety amongst normalfags and the looming shadow of e-celebs. it slowly kept degrading until it became a dead end. it's a real shame because circa 2011 /mu/ stood its ground in the pantheon of 4channel, pumping out infinite amounts of original content daily, but alas its really large influence lead to its downfall.

would you rather serve in heaven or serve in the hell?

>>19436953
reign in limbo

>>19436953
heaven is the realm of the infinite, so there.

I just want people to think I'm great and the idea of falling in anyone's eyes scares me a lot. Is this what they call vulnerable narcissism or something?

>>19437078
Yea

>>19436734
Clockwork orange

>>19436970
>Neverending storrrrryyyyyyy, neverending stor-y….

>>19435768
in the /acg/ general over on /vg/, there's a literal shitposter. Just someone who posts screenshots of animal crossing villagers shitting themselves and feeding their shit to others. They never say anything, but their posts always get at least two or three replies, and they do this all day, everyday. The sheer autism it would take to continue to do this is beyond human comprehension.

>>19436734
felix guattari - chaosmosis
make a thread about it once you're done

This will sound weird, but every time I can actually smell something distinct with my nose is a positive moment for me, since my senses are dulled so hard due to depression and it gives me a faint hope things are improving. My nose is more or less turned off like 90% of the time

>>19435602
You will end up like that if you keep this bullshit up.

Do not look for motivation or meaning on how to live your life in other people. Especially old dead men.

If you lack motivation and are weak-willed, succomb to discipline and perfecting. It will pull you out of your misery, I can tell you that from personal experience.

Force yourself into productive but uncomfortable or difficult situations. No matter how small, never look directly at a task that needs to be done, no matter how insignificant or mundane, and simply shrug it off for later.

Your life will improve a lot if you focus on the little by little. Don’t try to do a 180 in a day, you will fail.

>>19436734
The girl with the lower back tattoo - Amy Schumer

>>19435768
>/tv/ /lit/ /adv/ and /his/
What a God awful combination

If my baby wasn't aborted they'd be 3 in a month

>>19437154
You’re a woman?
Your fetus*

>converting to catholicism because of an anime character
based or haram?

>>19436734
Krishnamurti's Notebook

>>19437188
Hope it makes me lose my prejudice against Indians. They smell like curry.

>>19437181
If I were referring to what they'd be in a month, why would I say fetus.

>>19436717
i'll take the offer, Im so dysfunctional and incompetent that I've just had a terrible panic attack while walking into a store, why am I so fucked up

>>19437083
How do I let go of it?

>>19437211
you never had a baby and if the fetus was not aborted you have no guarantee that it would have been born breathing and live for three more years still

This was from a dream I had years ago and I never posted it anywhere.
Let me know what you fags think:

Destitute houses dotted the serpentine dirt roads like seashells on a beach, so rare that the trees surrounding the roads loomed truculently as though daring me to walk beneath their multitudinous branches. The vehicle I was in was adeptly maneuvering the roads, weaving through the dense trees and locating each building to be disappointed by the vacuous space within each house.
The engine sputtered.
Within the forest I found a great clearing, with a serene valley resting between the trees. I paused to observe the surrounding environment, gleaning any information I could in the hopes of making the correct decision.
The engine died.
The humming cacophony of an engine continued.
I strained my eyes to see a pick-up emerging surreptitiously from the trees ahead of me.
*bang*
*thwack*
The rapport of a rifle startled me, and the urgency spawned by the projectile exploding into a nearby tree invigorated me.
*bang*
*thwack*
I ran. Behind trees I ducked and through bushes I crawled. The situation was bleak, outgunned, outnumbered, and outran. They were always catching up.
*bang*
*thwack*
Why is this even happening to me? Why don’t I have a gun? Anything would help but
*bang*
But instead of the soothing sound of a bullet colliding with hard wood, I felt a deafeningly sharp silence pierce into my calf.
Laying on the floor I realized that this would be it. The final moments characterized by undulating floors and agonizing misery, and then I finally heard the bolt being pulled back, the empty cartridge who’s counterpart was resting within my shredded calf ejecting from the chamber.
*bang*
And the silence was deafening.

>>19437229
In your world of autism, do I need have said
*If I hadn't had an abortion, it would be conceivable (mind the pun) that my child would be 3 in a month*

>>19437239
wtf does truculently and multitudinous mean.
This is the worst thing I have ever read

Is anyone familiar with chronic pelvic pain syndrome? I don't have any infection according to the urologist but my dick hurts every day and makes me want to fap. Apparently it's more to do with psychosomatic issues.

When exactly did 'incel' become synonymous with misogynist? I knew some self-proclaimed 'incels' 8-9 years ago, and I wouldn't say they were sexist. They were either socially awkward dudes who were too afraid of rejection to talk to girls, or guys who spent every second of their free time playing on the starcraft 2 ladder and then being sad when they don't have any friends in real life.

>>19437244
Not that poster, but I was just saying it never made it to baby status is all. I understand the intent of your post though. Lots of death, lots of life coming and going. Try not to live in the past so much (ha, rich coming from someone who reads a lot of history)

>>19437268
Jesus get a second opinion (and third and fourth) before just accepting some doctor's "bro ur probably imagining it," for some reason this is one of doctors' favorite things to do, talk straight out their ass and shoot from the hip

>>19437269
when elliott rodger happened

>>19437270
No, you are biased in the sense that you think talking about such a thing in the past is not a good idea or whatever, and for that reason you took a totally reasonable thing to say, to refer to a thing as what it would be not what it was, and claimed that it was a foolish thing to say.
If what you're saying now was what you had to say, you should have said it outright. As opposed to being overscrupulous without revealing the hidden purpose for being so.

>>19437244
no you don't spend time thinking about what might have been at all maud

>>19437269
Incel originally was a self-diagnosing term for online communities of men who felt rejected by society and (as men do) created a culture/subculture around it to figure things out collaboratively, and it then took on some self-deprecating and silly connotations as a result of that

What really changed it however was when women and normalfags discovered it and of course, any time women and their normalfag slaves detect weak men, let alone men who are openly being vulnerable, let alone men who are criticizing them, they have to utterly humiliate and crush them. So normies did what normies do best and degraded and diluted the term until its meaning asymptotically reached "thing I don't like" status.

>>19437268
lol, sure that's the reason anon

if I studied astrophysics I'd be celebrating the third anniversary of me living in the moon colony I designed and built myself in a month

>>19437344
so like the other guy, instead of saying this opinion outright. You hide it and are overscrupulous and hide your true intent.
Do you not see how that is a bitch nigga thing to do?

>>19437362
>n*gga
Please don't say this, it's offensive, just say nigger.

>>19437355
I have no disagreement that you are more likely to live on the moon than get a woman pregnant

>>19437362
why say this >>19437154 at all

>>19437371
It's what is on my mind

>>19437371
sorry it triggered you so much

Since I quit eating unhealthy I lost the desire to eat at all

I'm shitting at church

>>19437181
Fetus and baby are not mutually exclusive terms

>>19437469
Fetus is potential infant

>>19435855
Nah bro you're likely just getting older and noticing it

>>19437475
Still not mutually exclusive to child. Thats like saying infant is mutually exclusive to child

>>19437475
>>19437490
Oh I forgot we were talking about the word baby. Point still stands

>>19437339
Naw, I was just sensing (projecting?) regret and trying to console. (Or start to console. This has been abandoned for semantics). I never said “foolish”. Projection?
Writing is sometimes inadequate in getting our messages across.

>>19437490
>seed is tree.
>ALL SEEDS ARE TREE

>>19437469
>>19437475
>>19437490
>>19437497
all irrelevant as I was referring to what they would have been not what they were.
>>19437524
A seed has a much lower chance of strouting than a 2 month old (which was when it was aborted) has of being born.
But if it were a sapling and one said, "if I hadn't dug up that sapling three years ago the tree would be this tall by now" that isn't unreasonable in the slightest.

>>19435498
I still have unreal DOMS in my traps two days after my Homeric bottle return excursion. I dont have weak traps either, I cannot believe how taxing that was

>>19437593
>2 month old (which was when it was aborted)
Fetuses can’t develop outside the womb, especially at two months

Condolences

>>19437665
I'm very confused, you realise this is about what would have been if it wasn't aborted (taken out of the womb) right?

This is probably cringe, but I sometimes wish I experience a near-death event (like being shot in the arm or something). I've read that people who experience such things gain a clarity about what they want out of life.

>>19437345
Incel post

>I've read that people who experience such things gain a clarity about what they want out of life.
Yeah or post traumatic stress disorder

>>19437881
Meant for >>19437784

>>19436951
/ic/ fell off super hard too. /lit/ is the only place that has remained fun and has kept its individuality throughout the years. I HATE TO LOVE YOU BITCHES

>>19437892
>>19437881
I mean, sure, but at least they have the chance of clarity. I dunno. I feel like I am just going through the motions and doing what my family/friends/etc what/expect me to do, instead of what I want to do.

>What do you want to do, anon?
I don't know, but not what I'm currently doing.

>>19436951
2011 /mu/ was a truly comfy board

every relationship been in have attempted to be in has either started with a cucking or been ended by a cucking.

>>19436951
That's why every 4chan board has a nigmune system now, the one thing that can hold back the normie tide is saying all kinds of niggers. I got curious and searched for 4chan /lit/ on reddit the other day and found a bunch of leftist podcast trannies complaining about how unironic the racism and nazism is here. If you're reading this and you're a racist nazi, thank you for your service. It can't be easy repelling all these trannies day in day out.

>>19437917
>I mean, sure, but at least they have the chance of clarity. I dunno. I feel like I am just going through the motions and doing what my family/friends/etc what/expect me to do, instead of what I want to do.
Just realise experientially right here and now that you are in the process of dying and are going to die and when you realise this ask yourself how will you live your life?

>>19437225
Meditation(meaning intense and deep introspection) allowed me to meet my feelings, my desires. Bit of an odd expression but I don't know how to explain it any other way. There is a knowledge of your feelings, their source and the direction they are moving(you) in that is very difficult to be aware of in the moment and can only be uncovered through a sort of inward interrogation. As I came to understand my own feelings and desires and the systems(and by systems I mean the kind of machinelike subconscious entity inside of you that is shaped by both biology and your experiences) that they arise from I was able to reshape my own behavior.

>>19435498
11 days ago I underwent surgery for a torn ACL and Meniscus, incurred from my work as a lighting technician on a film set. For the first time in almost 2 weeks I was able to stand up on my own two feet and walk again. I understand now why toddlers swing their stubby little arms in circles. I must learn to trust the surgeons, to trust the brace, to trust the titanium screws in my femur and tibia. Most importantly I must learn to trust myself again, and that I will not fall and crumble. I was able to grab myself a glass of water, and an apple off the kitchen counter, something I couldn’t do before. It strikes me how our independence and sense of self is made up of such microscopic things. I am grateful for good medical care, and for my body’s ability to repair itself. To stand on your own two feet is a blessing.

>>19437937
Nah not being a racist nazi doesn't mean you are le normie. I think it's great that this place has freedom of expression because it allows me to know my enemy but I will keep triggering the racist nazis here till I die

it's almost comedic how far just spending less time in front of screens and more time outside takes you

>>19437966
People like you are not what hes talking about, hes talking about people that literally can't stand to see racism, they simply cant exist somewhere where it isn't censored

>>19437994
Oh okay I misunderstood

>>19437154
repent

>>19435498
One of the fucked up things about life is that the damage already has to be done for you to learn. The mistakes have to be made. The stove has to burn the hand, the lie has to be believed, the heart has to be broken, for you to learn that fire burns, that words are to be doubted, and that the heart is fragile. Knowlege is not implicit, but cut into you.

>>19438059
You can somewhat learn from other people's misfortune, but I suppose that's just outsourcing the suffering. And the lesson doesn't tend to stick as well of course.

Whenever something bad is done to me or someone wrongs me I sit down and write about. That is how I conquer it. By this means I am invincible.

>>19438068
I was being rhetorical, but like you said, you don't learn on a visceral level until it happens to you and is your first-order own experience.

Leftists understand the world better than anyone and are correct like 95% of the time. It's just that (1) all the things that they think are "bad" are actually good, and (2) they are evil.

I don't like this board anymore. Every time I come here, I get the distinct feeling that no one in these threads is going to make it.

>>19437947
interesting!

>>19438127
Yeah, people have been getting more shitpost-y, less sincere, more detached from reality as time goes on. It's hard to feel connected to people here for some reason, everyone is pretending to believe in some dumb, obscure ideology and acting like a big shot for it.

I don't like being prejudiced, but I can't shake the feeling that Muslims are essentially something dark and ignorant. They're very shifty, sketchy people by and large. Undubitably so when it comes to kafirs, who they generally view as subhuman and therefore worthy of all forms of disrespect and deception.

>>19438127
>I get the distinct feeling that no one in these threads is going to make it.
There's still me anon. Have faith. I am the chosen one of this board.

>>19438241
Maybe their hostility has something do to with the fact that your country (assuming you're American) keeps bombing them for no reason? What would those who lost family members to these drone strikes think about western people?

This year will be the fourth New Year's Eve I spend alone.

Honestly the biggest disappointment of the past few years for me was realizing japan is just like any other place, and the people like people anywhere else. I wasn't dumb enough to actually move there or anything, but I had that obscure hope couched in me and it just kinda died once I learned the language.

>>19438261
You're not alone if I'm your gay internet boyfriend who never talks to you again after this thread but prays for you that you have a pleasant Christmas and New Year's in one month's time

>>19438269
Haha weaboo

>>19438269
It is still an outlier in many respects but yes of course they're just people

>>19438269
I have this otherwise intelligent friend who isn't even a weeb and has never watched an episode of anime but keeps idealizing Japan for some reason. He doesn't know a thing about the absolute state of the life of the average Japanese, but somehow thinks Japan has everything figured out and every other country should model themselves after Japan. Weird how some people get these fixations on Japan.

>>19438277
Guilty as charged
At least I'm aware about it... haha...

I want to be special but I am not one of those. I cant seem to find peace with it despite saying that its okay to be unimportant.

>>19435498
Trying to figure out which book to buy if I want to learn Latin.

I hate the fact that I'm about 13 years older than my colleagues because I've wasted so many years of my life instead of actually trying to achieve what I've always wanted to be.
I would never actually admit that if somebody were to ask me (and that topic does come up occasionally).

When I was 22 I knew I wanted to become a cop, one of the good ones that don't treat people like shit.
Almost 13 years later, I became one.

What did I do in the mean time?
Get a useless fucking degree, start a useless fucking masters, become depressed and almost joined the fucking foreign legion because I didnt know what to do with my fucking life while everybody else was out there working on their dreams, towards their future with a house, a spuse and kids.

Take it from a now 35yr old boomer, kids: don't let anybody tell you that a linguistics (or related) degree is worth shit and especially don't let yourself be fooled into thinking that you'll somehow find a fulfilling future in freelance work if you aren't
a) very disciplined
b) willing to sell your soul
c) willing to sacrifice your sanity, your time and your life in order to scrape by

I can only speak from a European perspective, but I don't think it's much different elsewhere: chances are that if you're the type of introvert that spends their time on books, games and being melancholic about the world itself, if you tend to think of yourself as an "ideas guy" who likes to build castles in the air and never actually commits to it... don't fool yourself into thinking you can do freelance work.

I'm far happier now than I've been for most of my life; I make good money, I love my job and I don't fall asleep with the weight of my own worries pressing down on my chest.
I mean, I'm still getting tired of the same old adolescent jokes my colleagues tell ("hurr tiddies, hurr booze, remember when XY was so drunk hurr tiddies on instagram"), but apart from that they seem to be good people.

Being worried about my future and being afraid of eventually becoming homeless has become my default state from the time I was 15 until I was 34.
Two times, I've been ready to kill myself and if I had lived in the US with the easy access to guns and everything, I might not be typing this.

Fuck it, I'll just keep typing.
When I was 30, I lost my last job and was afraid that this time, I was definitely going to end up homeless and eventually dead. I was driving on the highway when I was suddenly hit with the first and hopefully last panic attack of my entire life and oh boy, is that a fucking scary and SHITTY thing to go through.
I started crying and my fucking face froze, all I could do was try to breathe and not crash my car at the same time. I just couldn't stop crying and was even unable to move my fucking mouth, it was fucking terrifying.


Also, working out is a great antidepressant once you actually put on your shoes and stick your face into the cold wind of that shitty place called outside.

Hate how retarded everyone around me is. I'm not even an intellectual and I've only read 50 books in the past 2 years but even still everyone around me is so fucking retarded. Not even the slightest hint of a capability for free thought. Lay out an argument with supporting evidence and they just say "I don't believe that" or give you some empty platitude then go back to soaking up their ZOG mindslop.

>>19438312
It's definitely one of the best looking places from the outside, but a lot of everyone's individual happiness suffers in the process.

What really surprised me is just how 'normal' everyone is. There's this massive irony about weeaboo-ism that's hard to express. You see, nerds from all over the West want to live there because it seems so weirdo-friendly. But actually, society there is really "normalfag"-ish when you get down to it. Everyone keeps up with the same TV shows, games, and anime, and you have to know it to a degree or you'll get ostracized and maybe even bullied by people around you. It's functionally the same as mainstream Western society but less forgiving - a different coat of paint honestly.

And if you tell someone there "I want to live in Japan", the main thing they'll ask you is "Why not stay in America/Europe?" and talk about higher salaries or better working conditions. And over time I realized they're right. There's nothing inherently better about Japanese society, at least disregarding the trend of SJW shit in Western society lately. That's why it's insane to think a guy who's a loser in the US or Germany or whatever will start his social life when he moves to Asia. If you really can't find friends at home, you won't find friends anywhere. People are the same worldwide, maybe that's sad but that's the way it is. If you just really love Japanese shit and understand life there is 90% the same as at home, that's good. Just don't get any weird delusions about life being better there.

That's what I've learned, anyway.

>>19438372
What does it feel to be a cop?

>>19438257
I personally didn't bomb them. And if they have such a grudge, maybe they shouldn't have come live in the country they hate.

>>19438351
Me too man but then I remember the vanity which takes over me when the thing I was look ahead is over. I imagine even if I do somehow achieve "recognition" for my art work the feeling of vanity will still be there. But then life is long when you're lonely so to kill boredom you gotta fill them with something that you give a shit about.

>>19438312
>Weird how some people get these fixations on Japan.


My guess is that it's a combination of two things:

1. Japan is incredibly alien to "us westerners" and aside from scientific and economic exchange (i.e. trade), we have literally no cultural exchange with them aside from niche entertainment for younger people. They could as well be on another planet for all we know about them.
All of us have more or less solid ideas about life in other faraway places (Russia, Australia, EU, US, even Latin America), but Japan is like Africa: we do not (like to?) think about what life there actually is like and so we don't even bother to make the most superficial inquiries on google or wikipedia

2. Japan is still a first world nation and arguably one of the most technologically advanced ones. When we think about them in these terms, we think about Sony, Skyscrapers, Cars and the biggest city on the entire planet (Tokio); in these terms, they completely succeed and that sets them apart from African countries for example, who mostly dont succeed in terms of "being high advanced". We associate Japan with terms like smart, disciplined, nerdy, technologically advanced etc... and obviously as western countries, we strive for these qualities ourselves.


People treat Japan like a fascinating creature that they like to look at from afar, while nobody makes an effort of communicating with it (or vice versa).

>>19438405
There is something so fucking depressing underneath your post and I can't translate it into proper words man. Like dreaming about some place for years and then realising that it was all a delusion or future will be no different from past.......there's way more to this feel that I can't put into words, fuck

>>19438270
ty anon. I hope that you'll have nice holidays also.

>>19435498
Maxfield Parrish was a good artist.

>>19438409
Oh I don't defend them by any means, but consider that America is supposedly a liberal democracy where leaders are elected by the people, and don't forget it's the tax money that is spent on military funds. I am only saying that if they happen to hold a grudge, at least we can see where it comes from.

>>19438459
Yeah, it's kinda sad. No escaping from your true problems really.

>>19438434
replace "Japan" with "China" here and you're spot-on

I want to write a book but I don't feel like I have enough life experience to say something.

>>19438492
>wants to write a book but has nothing to say
top qualifications for being successful in genre fiction

>>19435498
“We found that the outcome of a decision can be encoded in brain activity of prefrontal and parietal cortex up to 10 s before it enters awareness. This delay presumably reflects the operation of a network of high-level control areas that begin to prepare an upcoming decision long before it enters awareness” (Soon et al., 2008)

>>19438407

>What does it feel to be a cop?

Well, that's a broad question but I'll try to answer it as best as I can. Mind that I work in central Europe, so depending on where you live, your mileage my vary.

I'm part of what you might want to call anti-riot police, although we're actually a rapid response team for anything ranging from conducting raids, escorting protests, supporting local PDs (especially criminal investigations, since they rarely have the manpowero to raid drughouses and other shitholes), conducting arrest warrants and all that. We have swat training and equipment for the unlikely case that the actual swat team takes more time than usual to show up. Not my favorite part, wouldn't miss it if the situation never came up.

The work itself is 70% waiting and 30% action.
The 70% waiting consist mostly of preparing your equipment and vehicles, organizing and communicating with higher ups in order to keep everybody up to date on the plan for the week (day/night shifts, trainings, raids, deportations, protests and other big scale events to attend). When you're not preparing and organizing, you'll be doing paperwork (usually reports and documentation of previous engagements and operations).
The internal joke is that, just like having sex hurrhur, 20 minutes of action usually come with 2 hours of tedious shit surrounding it before and after the fun happens.

The 30% action mostly depend on the type of situation and person you're dealing with (on your team and on the other side). Since we're divided into alert companies and usually work in teams of at least 1x5 (or 2x5, 3x5... depending on the scale of the engagement), we can work pretty well even with aggressive people without letting things escalate.
It's a little bit paradox that "normal" patrol cops (which is not to say that they're better or worse than what our units do, I honestly mean that) only work in pairs of two and therefore always have more risky interactions BY DEFAULT.

For instance, we get to know who we're going to arrest days before we actually do it, put on the scary looking uniform and drive up to their house where we jump out with 4 people, enter the house with or without the door intact and in general get to get our hands dirty if they want to play rough.
Because we can be the scary grunt type of cops that aggro in groups like mobs in WoW, we can effectively minimize the risk of actual harm for ourselves and the potential suspect.

Basically, the nature of our job requires us to work in bigger groups and that in turn ends up making our engagements safer for everyone. Sometimes having 8 more or less scary looking people search a group of drunk/aggressive eastern europeans is less dangerous for everybody involved than having 2 normal looking patrol cops doing the job. It's an effective deterrent.

Aside from that, the 30% action part obviously consists of working with witnesses, assailants, EMTs, firefighters and whoever else happens to be on scene. cont

>>19438431
Something that I give a shit about? That would be me. I've contemplated suicide a few times because I cant seem to know myself and without that Im complete lost in world.

It's easy to become a pessimist anitnatalist when you have a small penis.

Its also easier to see through religion. Your own existence is evidence of an inherent uncaring or cruelty in the universe. Yes I have had gf.

>>19438679
Having a small penis has no bearing whatsoever on Truth claims, you just have a small penis.

>>19435498
Ejaculating cummies inside bussy.

>>19438688
Don't do him like this let him cope

>>19438688
I know that, kiddo.
Just taking some mental inventory. "Write what's on your mind" and such.

Well, that's whats on my mind; How my dick and its experiences have warped my world view. I think it should be taken into account when speaking on the male psyche.

>>19438731
How small we talkin' here?

>>19438743
Only 4 inches and some change in length.
Girth is not an issue, as I'm about 1 inch girthier than average. When I squeeze the shaft, the head gets as big as a golf ball.

But that length, that length is a destroyer.

>>19438753
My penis only grows to about 5 inches when I'm stimulated by a woman irl but when I watch hentai it grows to its full length, 6.5 inches.

>>19438731
My penis is very small when flaccid but grows to six inches fully erect. Its really annoying

>>19438764
>>19438770
I see your complaints, but you have much better "ready to rock" state than I.

4 is my bone-pressed. Nowhere to go but up.
Plus I wear this on my sleeve. I power half of the united states with natural gas runoff from my small dick energy.

>>19438781
>>19438770
I just farted.

As an older gen-Z (~24) there's been nothing sadder than seeing some people my age co-opt the fashion sense of kids still in high school. It's embarrassing. Face it bud, you missed the boat.

>>19438789
Ugh, that's fucking so based.

i have a situation i need advice on from a trustworthy bunch on lit

so i have schizophrenia and i met a guy who also has it at the ward and we decided to form a band together along with my normie friend
the guy plays guitar, i play bass and my friend plays drums

the thing is, we've had 10 practices and what this guy does is just start shredding even tho he can't shred. he starts soloing even tho he cant solo. he always has distortion up to 10 and never ever listens to what anyone else is playing. it's like he's in his own world. he thinks he can play hendrix even tho he cant play blink 182 properly
its incredibly iritating, its ruining my peace of mind and the drummer agrees with me so we decided to find a normal fucking guitarist and we found one.
so is it a scummy move to stop playing with him? i can't take this anymore. he's really messed up and he's doing absolutely nothing to help and better himself and he's messing us up in the process.

I've got this girl that is almost certainly developmentally disabled(80 iq retard or mildly autistic or something) that is incredibly into me in one of my CC courses and for whatever reason I'm interested.

>>19438840
I think it's completely fine to stop playing with him. You'll feel a great relief once you stop.

>>19438856
i also didnt mention he's out of scale sometimes but absolutely ALWAYS out of rhythm
he also comes to practices with huge blunts which he smokes by himself which is absoultely terrible given his condition

>>19438840
Keep him on and shift him to a rhythm role.

t. played in bands for twenty years now.

>>19438875
>absolutely ALWAYS out of rhythm
Make him download a drummer's metronome and have him practice guitar to it. You can even get a visual one if he can't do clicks.

Tell him half-hour, every night, or he's out

>>19438880
he can't hold a fucking rhythm to save his life

what you're thinking about- he can't do it.
he cant palm mute A power chord for half a bar then switch to E power chord at say 110 bpm

what he can do, on the other hand, is come to every practice and demand we play SRV even tho he cant play 1 lick of SRV, but he can butcher a SRV song, that's for sure

>>19438840
If you've given it a try then yeah, if you're just dumping him before properly explaining your feelings and making an attempt to help him improve you're lame.

>>19438898
Keep him in the loop.
You guys can work on serious stuff without him, but jam with him anyway. Ya just gotta.
I've had to do that like a hundred times. You got to pity jam with people sometimes.

>>19438840
Become a real gentleman and learn classical instruments instead of the jewtar, faggot.

>>19438875
What's the benefit to playing with this guy? It doesn't sound like there's a single enjoyable aspect to it.

>>19438931
tnx i was leaning towards that idea also.

im excited about the new guy cause he's really good but we will prolly continue to jam with him occasionally

>>19438939
sometimes when he feels normal he can lay out a nice clean solo but it happens for 1 minute every 3 hour practice
i dont have much friends so that's why im playing with him
we will try to brush him up with practicing easy songs from start to finish 100% precise. and the metronome is a great idea
but we will also primarily focus on the new guy

>>19438940
Sometimes its the guy who can't play that has the uncle that has the connection to get into the big club.

Just sayin'

>>19438372
so are you saying that people should follow their passion or not?

>>19438974

Yes, that is step number two.

First and foremost, I'm saying people should have a long and hard think about step number one first: What do I want in my life and how can I pay for it?

I can tell you what I want from life: one day, I want to live in my own house and have a fireplace and a garden with a tree. In that house, I want to live with a partner that I value for how much we share the same passions and raise kids with her.
That has been what I want for over a decade.
I have known the answer to question 1 for about 16 years and haven't even ASKED question two for most of my life: how am I going to pay for that?

You could also rephrase it and ask "How do I get there", but I myself and 99% of people here are realistic or cinical enough to understand that this question always boils down to "How do I PAY for the life I want?".


To answer your question: Do follow your passion, but NEVER do it blindly. If you blindly follow your passion, you'll might end up with little money and tons of worries.

If you can trace a compromise between your passion and the way to pay for it, you'll end up with little worries and enough happiness/wealth to keep you from actively hating this life.
I wish somebody had told me 10 years ago, but I only have myself to blame for being so retardedly short sighted.


Step one: What do I want from this life?
Step two: How do I pay for it?
Step three: Where is the compromise that brings 1 and 2 together?


Basic stuff, but I'm not the brightest candle on the cake and had to learn it the hard way.

>>19439063
What if what I want in this life is freedom from existential dread?

>>19438372
Not as old as you anon but I had a very similar realisation after graduating with a similarly useless humanities degree. I even did well in my course, I went to a good school and got a bunch of academic prizes but none of that means shit in the real world. After 2 years of waking up in the morning with panic attacks I realised I needed to do something a lot more structured and vocational to stop me going insane.

>>19439063
>I can tell you what I want from life: one day, I want to live in my own house and have a fireplace and a garden with a tree. In that house, I want to live with a partner that I value for how much we share the same passions and raise kids with her.

Nearly every guy that is not a complete retard tells me this man and I feel the exact same way.

>>19439063
There's a bloke I know in real life who works a boring but decently paid bank job but wakes up early and writes for an hour every morning. He has a beautiful fiance, a stable career, and publishes the books he writes through small local presses. I was speaking to him once and asked if he ever wanted to write full time and he straight away said fuck no. He's a bit older than me and at the time I didn't get that at all. I've always had this pipedream of being a famous writer. But now that I'm a bit older I'm realising that 1) not only is that not feasible in the slightest, but 2) its not even necessarily what I should want. The older I get the more that guy is a role model to me and living the type of life I now aspire to.

>>19439115
Pro golfers always look like they hate golfing.
I always imagine the hobbyist happier.

Pistachios are like women, I'm often in the mood for them but when it comes to getting inside them the effort vs. payoff balance sheet is never worth it, and after I've already committed and gotten them anyway they just sit in my apartment for a year doing nothing until I eventually see them in the right light and remember to throw them out

This is the first leftist I've read about who isn't a murderous psychopath. After reading her thoughts on the Leninists and the Russian Revolution, I respect her. We should follow Luxemberg.

>>19439084

Obvious disclaimer: I'm not a therapist or psychiatrist.

>I want in this life is freedom from existential dread?

That is the bare bones of what I and everybody else wants in life, just without the extra flourish (fireplace, garden etc).
Here is how I broke it down for myself, long before I got a more precise idea of what I actually want in life:

1. What is existential dread?
For me, it's the fear that my entire life is a sand castle build on a beach. No matter how nice the afternoon sun is right now, the sun will inevitably go down and the tide will rise. If I want a safe castle, I better start building elsewhere and for real this time, because sunset is literally on the horizon and I'm afraid of getting old without having built a safe and dry castle for my future.

That is existential dread to me; to know that you're not out of the woods yet and not knowing WHEN or IF you ever will be.

2. How do I make the existential dread go away?
I make it go away by removing the circumstances that prevent me from building my safe castle.
That means, getting rid of financial instability and behaviours that endanger my financial well being. I need money for my castle and I need to not lose it.

3. How do I make money for my castle and not lose it?
I personally set my sights on a stable government job that would also be interesting and diverse enough to not become tedious or boring. Then I got in shape, worked somewhat hard to succeed and got the job. That way, I can make enough money to live a decent life right now and save up enough for later.


Mind you, I'm just a cop, not an investment banker or any other kind of super successful "play hard, party hard" money maker that makes millions by the time they're 40.

Ask yourself what you're actually afraid of when you focus on the existential dread that is always there in the back of your mind (at least it was for me, always lurking and low key poisoning the good moments I had in life for most of the time).
Then articulate what you're adraif of (my bet is it's gotta do with becoming homeless or something similar) and then plan on how to avoid that.
Act accordingly.

>>19439214
tl;dr

>>19439214
What I'm afraid of is that nothing is compelling enough to make life mean anything. All the while I'm working for a better house to dread life in.

Your problems are material. That's foreign to me.

>>19439224
There are things worth living for and towards, you've just got to find them.

>>19439269
I've probably had a lot of those things.
You'd be amazed my life. Its just, as I get closer to 40, I find the bad far outweighs the good. What good is a nice house and partner for chronic pain and discomfort patients?

I think you might need to live a little more to see where I'm coming from.

How come everyone who takes antidepressants turns into a lunatic?

>>19439224
>Your problems are material.

They absolutely are and in some way, I'm grateful for having found a solution to that problem (for now).
YOUR problem seems immaterial and that is absolutely foreign to me.


>What I'm afraid of is that nothing is compelling enough to make life mean anything

I never thought my life had any meaning, ever. I can confidently say that I never bothered with religion, spirituality or the search for a deeper meaning in life.
The world as a whole is far too unkind to the undeserving and the innocent to be the stage for any god like creator or other fantasy shit worth of consideration. Concepts of an afterlife or any forms of rebirth or ascension are alien to me, as is the idea of unlocking a hidden meaning beyond the individual pursuit of happiness.

I would like to ask you why you think there would be a meaning to life in the first place. Who told you that there was a meaning behind your existence?

On the grand scale of things, you and me are nothing but self conscious improbabilites and our ~90 years of existence is a mere blink of an eye for the universe in which we've lucked into existence.
For you and me, there wasn't anything of relevance before and there won't be anything of relevance after, just these ~90 years.

I find much comfort in the knowledge that no matter how hard any of us fuck up or succeed, there isn't going to be a scoreboard in the end. The end will always be the same for everyone, a final rest without regrets and worries. What more could you hope for, honestly?

What you do on the road to that final rest is up to you and I think trying to extract any more "meaning" than that is to actively create worry where there should be none.
Not trying to be an edgelord or something, but this compulsive search for meaning always makes me think of a dog that won't chase a cat because it thinks itself to be on an invisible leash that neither it nor anybody else can see but that in his mind MUST be there, even though the dog itself doesn't know why.

Nobody has found the answer to your question for the last 50000 years, chances are that you'll just waste your best years on the same dumb question.

>>19439328
>a final rest without regrets and worries.
I don't believe that.
Nobody actually knows if this is true.

>>19437147
What's your combo faggot?

>>19439338

But there is literally no more reasonable assumption.
To assume ANYTHING else would be completely contrary to any logic or credible experience.

You could as well believe in pink elephants carrying your soul to Valhalla where you're forced to feast on nothing but strawberry ice cream and pickles with the ghost of Norman McDonald for eternity. Completely nonsensical, but not a single bit less illogical and idiotic as any other assumption other than the "black screen and over"-scenario.

>>19439362
Its not nonsensical.
In all this time, with all of this matter, I was created at least once by chaotic forces.
I have no way to verify that my subjective experience never existed before and never will again. In fact, given infinite time, matter, and space, it becomes less likely our substantiation is a one time event.

Some faggot in an SUV just ran over like 20 little girls near where I live. If I ever have a family I'm moving out to the boonies; our society is gay as fuck.

>>19439389
>I have no way to verify that my subjective experience never existed before and never will again.

That is a COMPLETELY arbitraty thing to hinge your happiness upon.

You have no way to verify that the pink elephant valhalle doesn't exist before and after your life here either, yet no rational person worries about that.


If this quest for meaning truly is more than a meme to you, it's a self inflicted burden upon your happiness that only you can lift because only you insist upon carrying it in the first place.

I hope that day comes sooner rather than later for you, because one day you're going to be pretty angry at your past self for wasting so much time and effort on something so arbitrarily pointless.

Be safe and when you find the time, ask yourself why the people around you are living their lives without worrying about the pink elephants. Maybe ask yourself if you can do what they do and stop carrying the burden that isn't there.

Best of luck and good night!

>>19439308
don´t trusts doctors of the mind. ever. its just that simple.

>>19439415
I desperately want children but I worry about the lives they will live if I mess up or even if I do everything right.

>>19439416
>ask yourself why the people around you are living their lives without worrying about the pink elephants
I like to think its a lack of imagination.

g'night

>>19437213
ok bby, where do you live?

>>19439415
Where?
The continent is good enough. No need to give me your life story.

>>19439420
Same. Parenting has always been hard but in this point in history it's almost impossible to do correctly.
>>19439433
America, The United States Of

>>19439439
>America, The United States Of
Oh good, that means people will talk about it.

I thought you were going to say SA or something.
That's like every day in Brazil.

>>19439416
>to hinge your happiness upon.
>it's a self inflicted burden upon your happiness
you are confusing life and existence with happiness. in other words, you have clear that the meaning of world is happiness, so that is the reason you don't care about those things. it´s not like you really don't care but that you just answering.
you live because a sentiment. i don't know what is better. it's pathetic but also i understand that is unnecesary unconmfortable seeing or feeling the inconstancy in everything.

>>19435813
She will never be a woman.

I don’t know if I should learn German, French, Italian, or Spanish. I’m also interested in the Netherlands, Denmark, Norway, and Iceland.

>>19435813
fuck bashirfag

>>19439480
Learn French or Spanish. French has a chance of surviving due to West Africa, Spanish will survive due to LatAm. In the EU all languages will all be replaced by English over time.

>>19439497
Okay but Bashir himself was based, just so we're clear.

>>19439420
I'm assuming since you post on 4chan your life is fucked up in some way and yet you still want to have children, which suggests you don't view life as totally irredeemable even in the face of difficulties. You have you trust that things won't be any different for your own children.

>>19439531
>I'm assuming since you post on 4chan your life is fucked up in some way
:|
I mean, my life's not perfect but it's not bad. I would say that most issues facing me are solvable. I worry for the children of the future because of AI and global warming, which aren't solvable but are existential threats they'll face.

>>19439610
>I mean, my life's not perfect but it's not bad.

OK that's good to hear, I'm the same way. You can forgive me for making the assumption though.

I love my friends, I love God. I see God in good people.

>>19439665
So did all those people who just SUV'd in Wisconsin.

>>19439682
Oh man, God have mercy on us.

>>19435602
As a fairly successful 39 year old who once felt this way, power through and work on yourself. Mediation and running helped me, something will help you. 99.999999% of problems in life pass with time, because we grow.

tfw post-1900 financial imperialism

>>19439682
Sport utility vehicled?

The wind blows, and women come to hate you.

>>19439752
Gotta learn how to hold it in, anon. Or how to excuse yourself before letting it rip.

>>19439759
That's true, don't break wind in front of the ladies.

>>19439682
>SUV'd in Wisconsin.
Was it a white guy or a Muslim

dead dead dead dead dead dead dead dead dead

I don't care about anything.

>>19439743
Yes.

>>19439785
White guy, glasses, stocking cap, goatee, answers to "Sam"

I wanted to be normal. Normal is a useful insanity.

>>19435498
There's something about Argentinian football that makes me sad

I feel good. On a cloud.

How do I know that you’re all not just a figment of my imagination and that I’m actually in a coma in the hospital right now?

>>19440007
>comma?
You're more of a semicolon, anon.

>>19435776
How to do if don't already have one?

Seems like an interesting book

>>19440100
Controversy aside, I am surprised at how many FtM people there are. I thought the vast majority of transgender people were MtF but it's the other way around.

>>19440111
Wow, I didn't know that.

>>19437784
Not cringe. That's why people enjoy thrills like scary movies or going on roller coasters. Helps you feel more alive.

>>19440100
It reads like a mom blog and is mostly lies.

>>19438434
>we have literally no cultural exchange with them
I don't think this is true. Isn't 4Chan itself a Japanese creation? And just look at how mainstream anime is among young people in America or how often japanese literature is discussed on this board.

well, if it must be so

>>19438624
Cute pic

>>19440100
>our daughters
Funny how even in anti tranny circles the damage done to boys is ignored

>>19438679
I know what you mean. It’s more a matter of eugenicism than antinatalism, really. Some people have the right setup to create a happy child and the majority don’t, and the ones that don’t are committing an evil action.

>>19440200
I think humanity deserves to suffer, ergo the propagation of children is good

Anyone here think a lost episode creepypasta scenario actually happened at one point to the tee? The concept of it has always fascinated me, and I've seen it covered by stories like "Lost Episodes" by Slimebeast. However, something about them always captures my interest to this day and it makes me wonder. You ever thought about the idea of finding some random, blank VHS tape by wherever odd place outside? The first thing that would come to your mind is: "What the hell is on this? Is it horrible?". Always an unsettling thought to be frank. It just makes me think.

You imagine something that isn't true (yourself in the situation of other), so you can get a genuine distress response, so you can act out your sympathies convincingly.

>>19435498
I've started saving /lit/ threads to my docs. All of your comments here will be permanently archived and there's nothing you can do about it. 600 years from now some digital anthropologist will uncover this thread and that little autistic spat about fetus v.s baby semantics will be placed on display in a digital gallery for all the public to view.

>>19440271
I want to be feminized and then have sex with white guys with big cocks

>>19440271
Nice. Historians will read on my fat, stubby cock.

>>19440271
Oh, and they are already, newfag.

Warosu? Then it gets compressed and dumped into an archive.

>>19438624
cont?

>>19440305
I know that. Some 404 though. And even the archive you can't guarantee it will always be around if someday 4Chan goes down.

>>19440271
I'd be very happy if my shitposts influenced historians

>>19440305
tell me about it. i used to tripfag and every embarrassing thing i said is now archived permanently

>>19440319
Actually that's exactly what we can guarantee by employing an offsite archive.

>>19440323
This is why I can never do politics; it’s way too easy to dig up a thousand Shit posts saying horrible things.
I mean, that and one other reason.

>>19440334
Better safe than sorry. Never know what can happen. I just like knowing I have my own private collection downloaded to my computer.

>>19435768
Jeff Seids on /fit/

life sucks

>>19440402
Life is what you make of it

>>19440338
I used to worry about it but then I realized I'm a leftist and people expect me to be degenerate coomer anyway

>>19440413
Agreed
>>19440402
https://youtu.be/9G42rmPvbbU

You cannot say anything that is contrary to dominant ideology or you will not be virtuous.

>>19440478
I get off on being self righteous against the crowd.

Just wasted an hour or so wondering around my uni library taking pics of books I'll never read, I love taking random old books off the shelf and flipping through them

>>19440615
You think that's bad, I check those out and have hundreds of them like a moron. Ever heard of Koestler's library angel?
>The term "library angel" was most recently explained by Arthur Koestler in his book, The Roots of Coincidence, to explain meaningful coincidences in which the right book or reference suddenly presents itself. Sometimes the book we are looking for or need is sticking out farther than the rest of on a bookshelf, or your hand stops over it, or even, which has happened to me, the book actually falls off the shelf.

>>19435498
i can't find a definition for "limp irony" and it's frustrating me

>>19438851
Is it wrong to date a retarded girl? Is it wrong to have kids with her? Can you trust a retarded girl?

Sneed sneed. sneed. Sneed. Sneed seneed senede. Sneed. Sneed. SNeed. SneedS.need. Sneed.

Niggers are a plague

Please let me sleep

>>19435498
there is no community for me. I am leaving this place forever

I like black people

>>19440808
good for you anon. i love qt black women.

>>19440711
Are you the anon who keeps asking for the big sleep?
Second round of dubs in a row, god bless you man.

>>19439785
A nigger lmao

>post a stupid reply in a thread
>realize it was dumb as fuck
>someone calls me out
>feel so embarrassed I have to take a walk outside

>>19439308
Read Anatomy of an Epidemic

>>19438791
Also 24, 1997 fag, and I've noticed this.
It's not that missed the boat. 96-97 kids are the lost boys. They're trying to desperately escape their senescence as they feel detached from millennials and core Gen Z culture (whatever that even is these days) and are thus desperately trying to latch onto a culture in which they feel they can fit. Thing is, there never was one in the first place.

Said I thought I was finally gonna make it in this general a week ago coming off of a high of a rare success.
I was wrong. And delusional. Again. Things never go my way. Got another 50 years of shit, huh

>>19440724
4channel is the only community for those with no community. Enjoy the break and see you in a couple.

>>19440271
search "write what's on your mind" filtered by subject, OP, thread, and each of these threads will be there. save the ones worth revisiting that you won't be able to search for on waruso unless you remember the exact same words. these generals have a few gems but are easy to find.

>>19440271
also I'm ashamed to say I tried the same thing for a brief while. proud of some I saved that were pruned by jannies but I can't go back and search through the rest for shit. you'll accumulate more shitposts than you can ever consume and just get lost

New thread
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>>19440882
haha loser >:)

>>19440882
kek

>>19440882
Weird. Jannies deleting them and causing thread wars again? Or did OP delete?

>>19435498
HAHAHAHAHAAHA
THAT'S WHAT YOU FUCKING GET FOR MAKING A NEW THREAD TOO EARLY YOU STUPID NIGGER FUCK

>>19440894
Jannies finally did something useful and pruned it just as I was about to call OP a faggot for his pic

Nothing makes sense anymore

All is vanity

new
>>19440907
>>19440907

>>19440922
No

>>19438791
Yeah idgaf since I'm in a music scene and need to relate. Also if you think that this doesn't come downstream from older 'influencers' you're wrong. These kids basically copy shit they see relevant musicians, artists, etc wear.

I prefer my thread
>>19440967
>>19440967
>>19440967

Do you?

>>19440970
No, fuck off.

>>19440970
fuck off butters

>>19441000
>>19440977
beautiful digits of truth