/lit/ - Literature

Im almost 30 and still a virgin. The reason I dont see the point in visiting a hooker is that I need validation and companionship before losing it.
Perhaps Im a complete fool.

>>19728254
Today I got a speeding fine and they say I have to attend some stupid "speeding course" which will tell me how bad of a boy I am for driving 40 in an empty road that some retard arbitrarily decided you can only drive 30 in. They said in the letter "speeding kills over 1000 people a year" when that is a blatant lie. No, speeding doesn't kill; reckless driving does. Plus, the government right now kill millions of little babies in the womb, chop their heads off, rip their limbs apart, yank their organs out, slice them up, and throw their limbs in the dumpster. Every year they're literally murdering millions of innocent little babies, but they pretend to care about the 1000 who "die of speeding". No, all they care about is sucking money out of you, grabbing your throat, squeezing it, making you lick their foot and kicking you in the head while you're on the fucking floor.

Literally just go and read history. All the kings and powerful men were crazy syphilitic lunatics. You know what Napoleon used to do? When people came to his court he would pinch their cheek so hard that it would start bleeding, and the poor idiots couldn't do anything except stand there blubbering because they knew protesting means one of his brainwashed lackeys will kill you. Look up Cambyses and his cruelty. Look up every single ruler and tyrant in the history of mankind. Power makes people mad. We don't need a fucking GOVERNMENT CHARGING US MONEY FOR DRIVING 40 MPH IN AN EMPTY ROAD BECAUSE THEY WANT TO LINE THEIR FUCKING POCKETS.

>>19728265
I hate it too. Volume volume volume in dating and they smell an aimless coward.
Well, work on that anon.

For the longest time my only guiding principle was to not be bored and to avoid being tied down by obligations to other people. To that end I searched out a Job that paid decently for few hours so I could mostly have free time. I avoided intimate relationships with women, or even casual sex because I know how 'casual' can snowball. At a certain point I started cutting friends off because I found going out, or even thinking about other people an annoyance, eventually I isolated myself entirely, and with the exception of work and the occasional prostitute I never had to speak to or think about anyone.

Today I woke up and it all felt like a prison. I had seen my actions as a kind of escape from the crab-bucket of middling drama and vampiric responsibility, now it just feels like a cage. I hate my job, I hate who I am, I hate my past, I hate my prospects for the future is more of the same. The worst part is I was so good at isolating myself I have no way pack, no unburnt bridges, no lifelines. I am at sea and there is no land or ship on the horizon.

>>19728295
I feel like I have nothing to say and going on a date is akin to job interview.

>>19728254
defending trans culture in one discord while i'm anti-Semitic in another. I stand for nothing but the thrill of dis-agreeing.

>>19728314
Right. You, and many/most here, aren’t doing anything interesting or life sustaining. The computer has hallowed us out the same as video games hallow people out.
Media devours us. We need to get offline and direct our lives somewhere.
>job interview
And fuck I hate jobs

>>19728325
This can be a good way to learn the ins and outs of various ideologies, their rhetoric, their modes of thinking, likely paths of future evolution.

Just don't lose yourself in the process.

>>19728325
You should be pro-Semitic and anti-tranny, nigga.

>>19728332
It's what I'm doing on 4chan

I hate faggots

>>19728335
maybe tomorrow.

>>19728332
yes. As far as 'losing yourself', I've thought this could happen but my IRL actions pull me right back into my own being despite this dance I do on the internet and with my closest friends.

>>19728363
>IRL actions pull me right back into my own being

It sounds like you might have a more solid set of core values than you give yourself credit for then.

>>19728371
yes this is true. I have no illusions about the extent to which I can push my already formed, innate/received values but putting on skins is a form of intellectual play I have to indulge in (perhaps it is part of my values).

>>19728254
i wish i was "an artist"
not in the noble sense, the sense of being a "true" artist, of improving my artistic skills and creating something with genuine artistic merit. no, in the trivial sense, in the sense of considering myself an artist, of being thought of as an artist or a wannabe artist by those i know, of showing up to social events for local artists and so on, all the secondary things which are quite independent of my ability to put out art of actual merit, but which form an identity.

i have the necessary artistic output for that low goal, but not the personal style or any of the other required qualities. a personality rather easier to imagine as a novelist, though that is still a poor fit.

>>19728254
Fuck, why didnt I acknowledge you when you popped up, I stared blankly. When I made small talk only to quickly divert my attention to someone else...
Then later when our paths crossed again and you said hi, I didn't respond, saved by my companion responding, afterwards asking if it was meant for me.
Yes I feel a sort of disdain towards you but I see myself above being this petty, all of this was unintentional, I wanted to talk, I was interested. Now I acted out some lowly high school drama and I feel ashamed.
I will be assertive next time, this painful lesson will remind me.

>coffee shop in library doesn't take my type of card
>cute girl gives me coffee for free

>>19728582
Good luck,anon

>>19728254
>write what's on your mind

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t0I4mTEdAf8

>>19728582
coffee is for faggots. It did not start human revolution. It did not bring humanity to higher consciousness. Its all just propaganda. Fuck coffee and fuck coffee creamer

>>19728582
based
>>19728628
cringe

>>19728363
>As far as 'losing yourself'
not that anon but it can happen that the fake rage becomes real pretty fast and without one noticing

I was going to to write a non-fiction book on The Great WWOYM Thread Wars of 2021 but then it all stopped. Everything is in control now. :(
I was going to cover everything, the reign of the DBZ poster, the anime poster, butterflies hypocrisy, the lack of moderation, etc.

>>19728628
Interesting hill to die on.

>>19728637
>>19728662
>meme responses
I won the argument

>>19728648
i'm full of rage but the causes aren't transferred to the scapegoats under regular circumstances. I know what you mean though as there was moments when I worked for a Jewish owner at a restaurant and I could feel legitimate hate rise and justify its position in my mind. It unironically took months to completely rid it.

>>19728582
that's nice of them, but you should go back and pay in cash next time

>500 read
>200 want to read
>if i read 50 of those a year it would take me 4 years to get through
this feel

>>19728796
stop reading for the status

>>19728841
implying
and dont you have a heart of vanity that such was your first thought

When it comes to global warming, I trust that China will come through and save our asses. Why?

Unlike the Western elite, the Chinese elite are loyal to their nation and people. You will see Western elites trying to move to Mars or bunkers somewhere. The Chinese elite will stay in China, and they will work to ensure China stays healthy. That necessitates stopping global warming. Moreover, the Chinese are less ”hand-wringing” than the West, and will attempt geoengineering which the West shys away from.

Global warming being a global problem, China solving it solves it for everyone. Thus, we just need to sit back until Hong Kong or Guangzhou begins sinking beneath rising waters, and they’ll take care of it.

>>19728928
>thinks global warming is real
need i remind someone supposedly well read that the world was a lot warmer during the roman/grecian period and yet humanity never more prospered than then.

you're a fucking retard dude

>>19728950
lol

>>19728265
why do you think you are a virgin at your age?
this is an honest question

>>19728928
China is the one driving climate change, dummy. Their use of coal far exceeds any other developed nation. And I'm pretty sure they're signed onto close to 0 climate agreements/commitments. That's what's funny about all these movements and people trying to guilt Westerners into thinking they're the problem. China isn't going to listen to the cancer that is globohomo while it's on the ascendent and closing in on #1.

>the Chinese elite are loyal to their nation and people.
Please stop drinking the Kool-Aid. If you honestly believe this you're pretty ignorant.

I'm feeling much better since I started doing keto diet
It is not miraculous, just a diet with little to no carbs, but it did improve my life and I'm happy for it

>>19728928
China, along with the rest of the 1st world in the northern hemisphere, won't do anything about it, because they will net gain farmland from climate change. So what if they lose some coastland? China already forces millions of people to mass migrate within the country for other reasons, like when they redirected rivers for the Three Gorges Dam.

I welcome climate change and the extinction of our species
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BB0aFPXr4n4

>>19728995
no that anon, but I will turn 30 in a month and I'm in the same situation

a short answer is that I don't people, I don't socialize, and then I don't have any opportunities to have partners, or friends at all.
this happens because of the massive anxiety in which I feel always negatively judged by other people, so I choose to avoid them altogether.

been in therapy for a year. didn't help much desu. may be back in march if I can afford it

>>19728995
the only way a person ends up like that is by not acting

>>19728995
Honestly? I completely supress what is sexual. Im terribly afraid of physical intimacy and sex. Sexuality just isnt natural to me when it comes to showing to girls.

I love jadeyanh

Us
and them
Over and over again

>>19729007
China might be driving climate change right now, but one day they’ll have to deal with the crisis like the rest of us.

> Please stop drinking the Kool-Aid. If you honestly believe this you're pretty ignorant.
Find me one Chinese politician who openly expresses the type of hatred of China that the average American liberal politician has for America. Hell, I envy them. I envy the a lot for this actually. In America we have a constant flood of American people openly hating the country, everyone from the president to teens. In China, everyone (barring some ethnic/religious minorities) is happy with their country, proud to be Chinese, etc. You won’t find Chinese media saying their country is inherently evil or built on ethnic hatred. In America that’s what they all believe.

Any self-torturerchads here? How can I make myself more uncomfortable? I'm fasting, freezing with no heating and a only a cold t-shirt on, sleepless and depriving myself of sleep, and forcing myself to write extremely boring and uninteresting political reports with a strict deadline of 4am in the morning. Taking a cold shower soon. Cheating right now by coming here but how else can I make myself suffer (without overly serious long-term health issues) to stop resisting pain and learn to accept and like suffering and struggle?

>>19729061
chinese are:
>genociding muslims
>putting gays to death
>putting troons to death
>glorifying their traditional culture
>nationalist
>commissioning large scale public works projects
>advancing science
america is:
>pandering to gays, troons, browns, and women
>allowing crime to run rampant
>allowing sodomy to the point of pedophiles coming out into the open
>decaying academically
>destroying their own history, culture, and attainments to bend the knee to wokeism

yeah dude you know. i'd rather be chinese right now. one of this countries is going to win the arms race and it isn't the one that wants their military men to fuck each other up the ass wearing high heels and tranny socks.

>>19729102
only 3 of those statements about china are true

>>19729083
What is the purpose here?

>>19728254
Back to Finnegans Wake, can anyone understand it? How do they even call it s book

>>19729102
The reason what the US and Europe are currently doing to their populations is bad is because they enervate the spirit and create what Renaud Camus calls UHM, "undifferentiated human matter." What the mainland Chinese have done and are doing to their own population is the same thing, by different means, and a hundred times more effective.

If you removed the CCP from power right now, China would splinter into a thousand warlord factions who don't even have the vision to reunite the country with a new Mandate of Heaven. Even if you somehow avoided this, and created a stable Chinese state that also isn't tyrannical, which is impossible because the current tyranny with its faded Mandate is the only thing holding the country together, the country would remain mostly dormant for a century or likely several centuries, because that's how long it will take to heal the psychic wounds inflicted on the Chinese spirit.

The CCP is a container made of dead but still rigid flesh, it's just an exterior wall barely holding the Chinese mass inside. But what's inside is putrefied liquid, the most optimistic take you can have on it is that it's the primordial soup and raw genetic material for a LATER robust nation.

If the CCP starts listing in any way, the whole container will burst. And the more rigid it gets, the more it outwardly proclaims its strength, the more brittle it gets, since it has no organic lability anymore, like a state is supposed to. It can't weather any shocks or absorb and redistribute energy.

The CCP knows this and they know the one hail mary play they have left in their playbook is to start WW3 so that at least the "default" direction of politics within China is to trust whatever reigning power can still organize violence and maintain Han territorial integrity. The CCP basically needs a world-ending war to stay in power. But they are also militarily weak. America and even much smaller nations could wipe out all Chinese infrastructure within days even without nukes and mass starvation and rebellion, not to mention the disloyal, poorly trained, paper tiger army with no internal unity, split into regional sub-armies, would implode the country without even needing to fight pitched battles. The one hope the CCP has is to fight basically a Vietnam-style asymmetrical ethno-war for survival while taking massive 100:1 casualties and just hope to outlast the enemy while the world burns.

All this is true even though the US military is a fucking joke too. Doesn't matter because they still have Nintendo video game consoles that can incinerate continents, for now.

>>19729102
>Arms Race
I doubt we’ll ever go to war desu. Neither China nor America wants to be nuked. Mark my words, the Taiwan issue will be solved peacefully.

Anyway, my biggest fear at this point is the Democrats/liberals kicking off a civil war. You might think I’m schizo, but in the past few days I’ve seen a ton of “We are in a civil war” articles on Politico, on the Guardian, the New Yorker, etc. I feel like they are trying to normalize the idea of a civil war so that they can start a real one and kill anyone right of Obama.

>>19729083
this is so epic. i could never do something like this myself but please continue to report your findings. make a trip or something

I don’t enjoy anything anymore. Things that used to bring me pleasure; nature, music, art, literature, now do absolutely nothing. I can’t kill myself because my family would be devastated so I suppose this is just how life is going to be for the next four decades

>>19729083
Payot, Education of the Will
Waddell, The Desert Fathers

But you should read about yoga and transcendental meditation instead since this form of asceticism has a lot of pitfalls and is usually misguided and leads to dead ends and misunderstandings. Discipline needs to be directed into something meaningful. Negation is only the road to a higher affirmation.

>On Beauty
>Enneads 1.6
http://www.sophia-project.org/uploads/1/3/9/5/13955288/plotinus_enneads.pdf
>And this inner vision, what is its operation? Newly awakened it is all too feeble to bear the ultimate splendour. Therefore the Soul must be trained—to the habit of remarking, first, all noble pursuits, then the works of beauty produced not by the labour of the arts but by the virtue of men known for their goodness: lastly, you must search the souls of those that have shaped these beautiful forms.

>But how are you to see into a virtuous soul and know its loveliness? Withdraw into yourself and look. And if you do not find yourself beautiful yet, act as does the creator of a statue that is to be made beautiful: he cuts away here, he smoothes there, he makes this line lighter, this other purer, until a lovely face has grown upon his work. So do you also: cut away all that is excessive, straighten all that is crooked, bring light to all that is overcast, labour to make all one glow of beauty and never cease chiselling your statue, until there shall shine out on you from it the godlike splendour of virtue, until you shall see the perfect goodness surely established in the stainless shrine.

>When you know that you have become this perfect work, when you are self-gathered in the purity of your being, nothing now remaining that can shatter that inner unity, nothing from without clinging to the authentic man, when you find yourself wholly true to your essential nature, wholly that only veritable Light which is not measured by space, not narrowed to any circumscribed form nor again diffused as a thing void of term, but ever unmeasurable as something greater than all measure and more than all quantity—when you perceive that you have grown to this, you are now become vision itself: now call up all your confidence, strike forward yet a step—you need a guide no longer—strain, and SEE.

>>19729213
what about reading?

>>19729259
I barely read anymore. I’m down to a couple of books a year

>>19729213
anhedonia is treatable, anon

I only dream.

>hate beatnkik culture
>love the doors
How do i reconcile?

We're humans. I typed this. Soon I'll click Post.

>>19729427
why does this bother you? also whats your fav song

idk

>goodreads changed their layout
>adding items is even worse now, looks app-y and shite
holy fuck you retards

>>19729430
idk, peace frog

test

>>19729455
Good song

>>19729083
tried auto-erotic asphyxiation yet?

Anon, you need to finally learn your lesson.
What you're chasing doesn't exist. Only the promise of it does. That promise will lure you, bring you deeper in, coax ever more time and energy out of you, because you think there's something behind the door at the end of the tunnel, a soundless roar or a brief tingling fleshy lightness, and so you take trembling steps forward and assure yourself, out loud, that this is what you want. It's a magic spell. Say yes, yes, I love this, I want it, yes, and in inks and screentones draw the circle of Solomon round your head, and Beelzebub himself will be at your command... that is what you believe, what you allow yourself to believe, what you want to be true.
What you will find, if you follow the tunnel to its end, make the secret combinations, speak the passcodes, and open the door for yourself, is that there was never anything behind it but a bare brick wall.
Every time have to be reminded of this fact. Every time, you let yourself dream of hidden vaults, rumored chambers long-lost, secret corridors guarded with countersigns. Every time, you find the same door, open it, and sigh, promising yourself not to be deceived so easily again. And every time, as soon as you're out of the tunnel, on the favored walks, under the skies and stars, you dream again, of enchanting mysteries waiting only for someone to find them.

>>19729083
have a constant high pitched tune playing, only eat what you dislike

How do I kill the inner pussy that makes me fear conflict and feel inferior?

>>19729046
tiny PP?

>>19729645
Take up boxing or train in a contact sport of some kind. Something that encourages healthy aggression combined with camaraderie.

>>19729678
Actually already do.
Helps a little, but doesn't solve the problem. At competitions, I still can't unleash real aggression and feel anxious.

A strange dream. I was a medical student intern observing an experienced surgeon conduct anatomical exploration on a human body. Only thing is, the body was still alive and just took it. I witnessed the surgeon slice open and demonstrate parts of the muscular, skeletal, and even the cardiac system before my very eyes. I have absolutely no experience in medicine and neither does my job concern itself with healthcare.

Such a bizarre dream, I wouldn't call it a nightmare though since I wasn't the poor sod on the surgery table. But goodness was it bloody as it was precise, like a robot building a car but in reverse, and on a human body.

>>19729678
Actually the pussy inside makes me not act up at any point. As if my task was to bother other people as little as possible.
Example: I don't argue; I'm afraid to make the move with girls.

>>19728628
based
>>19728582
>>19728637
cringe

>>19727173
>>19727178
>dont want to randomly read about dudes putting stuff in each others rectums for no reason? you are so fucking pathetic and spiritually dead!!
these posts are genuinely surreal in their sheer absurdity

>>19729645
knock people at random when walking in the street

>spend my late teen/early 20s able to weasle my way into any girl's heart I wanted to
>withdraw from all society for five years
>still think I have the ability to do this but I can't get passed the initial conversation
Idk what it is, but they never respond after the first convo and I know that's where I'll really shine. This is really starting to soul crush

>>19729897
based

>>19729841
How can you learn from or study the LGBT perspective of you don’t read anything by them?

>>19729946
>study the LGBT perspective
ramming their dick up a shit-chute? i'll pass.

>>19729913
how did you do it back then?

>>19729977
idk. I had a VampireFreaks account and they'd flock to me. Honestly, I've got this thing where girls with baggage hunt me down like sharks to blood. I think that's part of why I stopped bothering. It got fucking exhausting.

>Be me
>want to learn to draw/paint
>Afraid to damage environment or increase carbon emissions by buying paper or paints, etc
Pls help. My goal is acrylic painting but they say that causes microplastic pollution. And the paper manufacturing causes pollution too.

>>19729989
paper is all made from self-sustaining farms now, Anon. Don't worry about it.

>>19729913
>hey never respond after the first convo and I know that's where I'll really shine.
This is how the game shifted. I got laid so much in the OKCupid years, then the dating app age began. Suddenly I wasn't the one articulate guy in a sea of "Hey" "Hay sexy" "Hi" "U fuk?" messages, I was one face in a sea of other average faces.

I only did okay on Tinder once I adapted, and even then it was soul crushing as you say, and in hindsight I massively regret the shit I said and did to get laid. Nothing major even, I never disgraced myself in an overt way, but the very fact that I would talk to those women while they're implicitly disrespecting me and making me jump through hoops. The only dignified thing I could and should have done is to abstain and look elsewhere. Instead I caved and spent several years begrudgingly using the apps.

No matter how good your strategy to break through that initial barrier, the fundamental fact is that 95% of women are swiping left on you if you're below "very handsome." Women on dating apps rank something like eighty to ninety percent of men as "below average," which obviously makes no sense statistically.

>>19729946
i dont care about the lies and faux-moral justifications gays tell themselves to justify their shitty behavior

>>19729083
levels of based previously deemed impossible

I spent $200 on a required math course that I'm failing and I want to die

>>19730001
It's also about the person using the app too. A girl using them is basically just looking for gigachad to fuck their brains out and for orbiters to give them validation throughout the day.

>>19728254
I'm basically innumerate (certainly when it comes to macroeconomic matters), but since we're on the topic of conspiracies I'll note I recently read a essay by an Italian philosopher, evidently well read in economic matters, wherein he contends that the COVID pandemic is a literal government conspiracy of unprecedented proportions meant to save the global, and particularly Western, economies from another 2008 crisis by artificially both accelerating and decelerating said crisis in a sort of controlled highly turbulent yet ultimately system-survivable landing.

In effect, because of the unsustainable levels of global financial debt, all prognostications indicate that the future will be characterized by recurrent 2008-type crises and financial stagnation and retraction on a global scale. Indeed the US economy was barreling towards something close to collapse, but that this latter event was preempted by an artificially induced global pandemic which provided cover for a financial rescue package far bigger than that obtained in 2008 under the pretext of the largest, "entirely unpredictable," global-scale cause majeure in modern history.

Furthermore, that things will never go back to normal socially and politically because they will not be going back to "normal" economically to begin with. I.e. the problems inherent in the current stage of capitalist development are unresolvable unless a thorough restructuring of society as a whole is achieved, meaning that the West (moreso the rest of the world one imagines) is already in the maw of a camouflaged regime of economic authoritarianism and determinism, extending and indeed englobing the entire public surface or sphere of the capitalist-controlled commons: media, major internet platforms, universities, etc.

The article in question was recently published in the LA Review of Books Philosophical Salon section. The writer maintains the scenario is genuinely real and not simply a philosophical hypothetical. I take it as a very engrossing example of science fiction, if only because I can't imagine a situation where professional Wall Street traders, who are quite evidently in the front lines of major market developments, would not have seen a major debt crash, let alone one bigger than 2008, barreling their way like a gigantic guillotine only to then see the entire system "miraculously" saved from such an inevitable collapse by an unprecedented (yet thoroughly felicitous for the system) cause majeure in the form of the COVID pandemic (and ensuing politically frictionless financial bailout) and not put two and two together with not a single whistleblower from said sector appearing, as a result of the statistical irreality of such a supposedly thoroughly organic and coincidental confluence of events, to call out the rouse.

atomic habits is changing my life at 30 bros.

no looking back only forward.

>>19730019
Why would China, which is keeping cities in lockdowns as we speak, help out the West so much? They are literally trying to overtake the West, they have no interest in helping prop the Western economies up.

>>19729213
Fellow anhedonia sufferer here. The best advice I can give is to think about what caused your anhedonia, and proceed from there. Most people get it from medication, but if that's not you then medication might be useless in treating it.

I seriously think 2022 might be the year I solve my anhedonia. It has to be my diet - something I eat is perpetuating the illness. After I eat stuff sometimes I can literally feel things get less enjoyable. Anyway, keep your chin up anon. I was about to drop out of university, I had suicidal thoughts, but I'm starting to think maybe there is an exit for every one of us.

>>19730019
Is this Agamben?

Have you read Brenner? He basically applies Marx's "capitalism inevitably arrives at this crisis bros" model to the longue duree of capitalism, so we're only reaching the irreparable, no-more-bandages situation NOW. He says that real growth ended in the '70s (real growth being a key term) and this was only artificially buoyed by post-war reconstruction where there was infinite capital and free government research grants to go around. But the wages of the rich still should have equalized with those of the poor over time according to orthodox economic thought. Instead, right around this time, "finance" exponentially increased the amount of wizardry and exclusivity it had, and created the modern vulture capitalist paradigm.

Basically, the global economy is one giant pyramid scheme, but it's also dead (cannot unleash any truly new productive forces) and is essentially in a state of autophagy. The elites at the top of the pyramid know this, and all they can do is strategically control which parts of the body they reduce to mush by "feeding" on them to filter more wealth their way and maintain high capitalism (which is thus an artificially sustained relic and is, effectively, trying to die and give birth to something else).

This would make sense as the next phase: switch to even more controlled economies with "soft authoritarianism" through cooperation with neoliberal nanny states.

Have you read about Samuel Francis' idea of anarcho-tyranny, or his use of James Burnham's managerial class thesis to argue that the true bourgeoisie is dead and the managerial class is the actual current reigning elite, wearing the old bourgeois cultural forms like a skin suit? Also relevant, Djilas' "new class." Apparatchiks and technocrats are not just an extension or appendage of a "bourgeois" state, they are what replaces bourgeois capitalism.

>if only because I can't imagine a situation .....
It's systemic, no one of them has all the pieces, probably extremely few among the elite even consciously think in these ways. They are acting as a cybernetic unity, they are dialectically pushed to do what they're doing, with a perfect fusion of useful idiots and reappropriated ideologies (dumb silicon valley redditors thinking they are saving the world), actual intentional evil guys (probably rare), crackpot theorists and strategy thinktanks. All managerial class interests are "channeled" into cooperation, they do not consciously cooperate for the most part. Sam Francis is very good, Leviathan and its Enemies.

Also read Quigley's Tragedy and Hope. This already happened in WW1. The inflation crisis after WW1 was a "great reset" that artificially prolonged bourgeois capitalism because it was a fait accompli. The banker elites first resisted it, then learned to cope and regained their ground even better (with financial/vulture capitalism). Look at the Powell Memorandum too.

>experience beautiful thing
>start to respond emotionally to it
>weird reflex in my mind decides that's bad and turns off feelings until the beautiful thing goes away
I would like this to stop.

>>19730019
very interesting argument. link to the essay?

>>19730044
I believe China has hinted at there being some sort of conspiracy afoot. In other words, COVID is real, and may have been somehow inflicted on China.

>>19730085
i'd like to read more about these. can you name their books?

>>19730100
>inflicted on China
Well, if that is true then the West is truly incompetent because the virus has been far worse for the West than for China.

>>19730085
Clearly you're thoroughly informed on this type of theory. Everything you've said could have been stated by Fabio Vighi, the philosopher who wrote the essay I referenced. https://thephilosophicalsalon.com/red-pill-or-blue-pill-variants-inflation-and-the-controlled-demolition-of-society/

>>19730107
Robert Brenner, I've mostly seen his lectures here and there and read some articles. It's weirdly difficult to find recent writings or articles by him but he has done recent talks and interviews. He's a UCLA professor of History of Economics. Here's something recent by him
https://againstthecurrent.org/atc200/economic-turbulence/

But I suggest looking at his lectures on Youtube where he goes over the nature of the recurrent financial crises from a Marxist (but never doctrinaire, basic bitch Marxist, just heterodox economist) perspective.

The other writers I mentioned are Sam Francis, a right winger and paleoconservative who some have said predicted Trumpism. What he really did was predict (in an article "From Household to Nation" especially) that American public consciousness wasn't quite ready for the paleoconservative, populist, "economic nationalist" movement Pat Buchanan tried to make in the '90s, but that in another generation it would be. He is definitely right wing though, his desire was to mobilize "MARs" (Middle American Radicals, basically white working class people neglected by the leftist radicalism of the 1990s and 2000s) into a new coalition capable of resisting America's crony capitalist uniparty politics.

His best book is Leviathan and its Enemies, which he wrote in the 1990s as a massive synthesis of all his ideas and attempt to create the ultimate strategies for resisting "Leviathan," the late managerial state. He get the idea of the managerial class from James Burnham, a Marxist turned conservative elite theorist from the mid-twentieth century. Burnham's two biggest books are The Managerial Revolution and The Machiavellians.

Another good book by Francis if you are interested in his internal critique of modern conservatism is Beautiful Losers. If you are interested in that topic generally, Paul Gottfried is the best to look at.

Miloslav Djilas is just a Yugoslav communist who became disenchanted with the way communism developed in post-revolutionary states and critiqued it in "The New Class: An Analysis of the Communist System." His argument was basically that instead of creating a classless society, a "new class" simply emerged that dominated society via the party bureaucracy instead. If you're interested in this line of critique, you should look into other "post-Marxists," but especially look at Christopher Lasch (see The Revolt of the Elites and the Betrayal of Democracy) and Paul Piccone (see https://c2cjournal.ca/2009/06/where-marx-and-conservatives-meet-the-writings-of-paul-piccone/, "Where Marx and Conservatives Meet: The Writings of Paul Piccone").

Carroll Quigley wrote two major works: Anglo-American Establishment, and Tragedy & Hope. The latter is very long but worth it:
https://thirdworldtraveler.com/Banks/Tragedy_Hope_excerpt.html

Everybody should know Quigley's name and what he claimed. Others who draw from Quigley are Gary Allen ("None Dare Call it Conspiracy").

Also look into Jekyll Island

>>19730129
I'm just an enthusiastic dilettante, I'm mashing together a dozen things here. Gonna read this, thanks anon.

As a sidenote, I wonder how Agamben is doing. He is a leftist critical theory darling too and then he went anti-mandates because it's the most fucking obvious thing any leftist critical theorist who studies "biopolitics" would do, and all his supposedly leftist colleagues threw him under the bus with typical neoliberal slurs like crank, fringe, crazy, right winger, etc.

>>19730044
>They are literally trying to overtake the West
No they aren't. Their economic and military growth is done for the sake of empowering themselves, not to become the global superpower. They simply want their own sphere of influence, and a return to a multipolar world (as does Russia) which has been the norm for most of history.

You should read John Mearscheimer. I had him as a prof at UChicago. He became a laughing stock in 1994 for vocally opposing Ukraine's decision to give up its nukes, predicting the exact situation we have today. He's argued correctly for decades that regional hegemony is the default state of global affairs (also, his website has his face photoshopped over Machiavelli kek) and it will be again soon enough.

>>19730194
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/John_Mearsheimer#The_Israel_Lobby_and_U.S._Foreign_Policy

this guy rules

>>19729152
Sorry anon who posted excerpts, i can't hold myself from wanting to read it now.
On another note, required readings (and stuff to prepare for it) and tips to get through, lads?

>>19730194
>They simply want their own sphere of influence, and a return to a multipolar world (as does Russia) which has been the norm for most of history.
That time is over. Globalization, the global nature of the economy, instant communication, etc. all mean that there will be one global hegemon.

I apostatized once in my life...at the peak of my life till that moment. I’ve convinced that the crippling physical pain I’ve suffered from roughly that time was God’s way of putting me on the purgative path.
But like Caesar said, “it’s easier to find a man willing to die than one to endure pain patiently.”

>>19728415
The answer is always more work

>>19730364
Be glad you're back on track. We're sll gonna get there, brother.

>>19728928
>we just need to sit back until Hong Kong or Guangzhou begins sinking beneath rising waters, and they’ll take care of it.
>like China doesn't hate Fan Kwai Tong and hope it burns down again
Uh...

>>19730172
Wow. Great recommendations anon. A couple more off the top of my head:
>The Servile State by Belloc
>The Road to Serfdom by Hayek

Naomi Klein's "The Shock Doctrine" is a pretty basic intro into these kinds of tactics. Also, I STRONGLY urge this anon >>19730085 and everyone else replying read COVID-19: The Great Reset by WEF's Klaus Schwab. He lays their plan out very clearly. He recently came out with a follow up "The Great Narrative" just last week:
https://www.amazon.com/Great-Narrative-Reset/dp/2940631301/ref=tmm_pap_swatch_0?_encoding=UTF8&qid=1641952102&sr=1-1

According to waruso I'm the first person to mention his new book. I'm sure no normies will ever hear of it either. It's a shame how they can openly brag about this stuff. And nobody cares, because nobody reads.

>>19730395
there's nothing to be done about it. if the masses tolerate a tyrant they'll have a tyrant.

>>19730379
Thanks brother.

>>19728950
Based. Anyone who doesn't see how global warming is going to be the next global "crisis" to implement soft authoritarian policies is beyond lost. The CFR came out with a book called "The Fight for Climate after COVID-19" a few months ago urging similar policies to the ones used during the pandemic to fight climate change.

>>19729007
>>19729061
Read about China's thorium-powered nuclear plants. They're ahead of the US in renewable energy without the "world is ending we need more wind mills/solar panels" and Green New Deal brainlet hysteria.

>>19730001
>in hindsight I massively regret the shit I said and did to get laid
Same. It's a Faustian bargain. All the countless hours I spent imagining what to message girls and the low depths I'd go to. It poisoned my soul. And for what? Maybe a dozen meaningless flings and nice hook ups over a course of nearly two years.
Thank god I'm in grad school now and can meet women organically. If I waste this opportunity I'm just going to become voluntarily celibate. At least I won't lose my dignity playing the jester like I did during the whole pandemic.

Conspiracy theorists have a lot of good points, but how do you rationalize the idea that lots of people are in on JFK/Moon landing/9-11 hoaxes and not one person blows the whistle?

>>19730406
What can they do? Speak with uber drivers and average people you meet in brief daily encounters to truly gauge the zeitgeist, at least in America. These aren't the people on Reddit or 4chan. They don't fall for the Baudrillian covid pornography. They realize they're powerless and only do what they can: live their lives and try to make ends meet. What more can you accept of the average person in this climate?
I don't like drifting into this "NPC" talk. Sure they don't read lots of books and probably don't even want to. But they aren't idiots either.

the concept of eunuchs is so fucking crazy and they exist both west and east. more than once, uniquely, someone had the idea to take young men and cut their genitals off to turn them into obedient slaves. and millions of parents acquiesced to this. sometimes grown men submitted to it just to become the servant of some emperor. not only was this deed thought up more than once, but people willingly continued the practice for thousands and thousands of years until just recently.

now today trannies cut their own genitals off just for funsies.

what the fuck is wrong with humanity

>>19730476
I imagine the practice originates in animal husbandry.

>>19730476
When castratos started getting popular in European opera, the amount of parents castrating their kids made governments bring in laws against purposefully creating a castrato. Suddenly parents started reporting lots of kids accidentally becoming castratos, because the law only outlawed doing it intentionally.
Essentially what's wrong with humanity is they are far too into opera and tiktok.

>>19730476
It makes sense from a logistical standpoint. You need somebody to guard the palace but also need to be damn sure he doesn't have anything to do with the queen. The result is pretty simple.

Now, castratos are a different story. I think that really just sells you on the cruelty of people.

>>19730532
imagine ending your own bloodline and ruining your child's life to whore them out
>>19730545
>male jealousy leads them to fearfully demand all other males that might ever go within 500 feet of their woman be castrated
that's a massive self own and just pathetic

I have one word: Cherish.

>>19730538
Hey

>>19730558
They tended not to castrate all their children.

>>19730568
ruining the lives of how many of your children is enough?
it astounds me that none of them ever strangled their own parents after such an ordeal. i would have for sure. hell, if my parents had me circumcised i probably would have taken a brick to their teeth as soon as i were able.

>>19730577
that's because you're unstable

>>19730580
it's horrifying. how can you do that to your own child

>>19730567

Any good books to read on whisky?

>>19730599
If they're successful they would be rich for life. It's the same thing that makes parents sign their kids Disney or K-pop contracts. Or makes them professional gymnasts or donate them to the state ballet company. Or makes them mime Like A Virgin in a wig and corset at nine years old on tiktok. You know, the pursuit of money and all that filthy lucre stuff.

>>19730644
Monarch of the Glen if you mean while drinking whisky. Not the best if you're into the study of it as a craft.

>>19729455
Check out war toad

charlie does not surf but i think he should.

I love her...

>>19730657
Thanks but looking for studying whisky as a craft.

>>19730707
So what are you going to do about it?

>>19730716
Nothing because she doesn't know me.

>>19730725
Back to suffering then...

>>19728254
Is this my life now? Just continually cycling through social media, apps, email to distract myself from myself.

>>19728254
The picture is beautiful. Someone in my apartment complex thought it was a great idea to buy furniture from a thrift store and caused a bedbug infestation in the whole building. We've already been through the pest control treatment but I'm still very stressed over it. I found one the other day but it was either dead or dying. I think it crawled under the front door from the hallway. I want this to be done. It's been an awful experience.

>>19730728
Yes.

>>19730100
They built a facility specifically for the development of super viruses. If the outbreak was by accident, the timing of this is all that’s off.
China has a demographics problem and they wouldn’t mind losing a few of their older citizens, not to mention the west shooting itself in the foot over this. You bet there’s a conspiracy! Big pharma profits, security states are clamping down, MSM is openly lying harder than ever and Bill Gates is giggling like a school girl over it all

>>19730728
Naw. Shut them off.
>Cyber bullying? Wtf? Just walk away nigguh

>>19730948
I wish I had the willpower to. But I'm like an addict that needs constant stimulus. As soon as I remove one stimulus I just find a replacement. Even when I manage to take a break from the internet I just lose myself in some equally shallow pursuit. Beginning to see the attraction people have to Schop's views on the continual striving of desire..

>>19729657
chode desu

I tend to dislike spending time with people like me, either in terms of manner or interests. I don't know if that's because of narcissism or self-loathing or I'm just naturally unpleasant myself.

>>19728628
I do think coffee is overhyped by normies to justify their Starbucks addiction, but fleshly ground black coffee is based

>>19728254
Wish I had the discipline to devote myself to one area of knowledge. I'm very much a jack of all trades master of none. The problem is that the internet allows me to explore anything I wish so I'll frequently go on these little binges exploring niche topics, but I never really remember or retain any of it. And with books it's the same way. Currently my reading list is 30 pages long. Even what I have already read I barely remember aside from when something triggers a memory of it. I'm beginning to wonder if I should try to cut away more distractions and dedicate myself fully to studying what I remember the most of. The bigger problem is just my fear of missing out. That maybe cutting out more stuff will just make me stupider I'm not sure.

>>19728254
if i'm schizophrenic what does that say about you? huh?

>>19731259
Why are you here advertising that fucking chain store?
Coffee has been an American addiction for ages

>>19731238
Some people get addicted to physical fitness.
Find something you want to do and let it become your obsession, if that’s all you think you can do.

>>19728254
Optimism co-opted by limpwristed liberals and fascists, and deprecated by mud-eyed leftists, to deceitfully abrade social malcontent at injustice is the most destructive thing that has ever happened to our generation, or perhaps even to the species. True optimism in the spirit of the human condition and of the human race in general -- its possibility and potential to better itself -- is the most important feeling we can gift to the youth who will come after us.

Fuck nihilism.

Fuck the blackpill.

Fuck lying in the mud and taking your beatings. We are fundamentally good creatures that can change the world for the better. The universe is better for had having us bundled in its warm contours, and I refuse to believe otherwise.

>>19730644
One more drink and you're dead. This is no way to talk to a suicide head.

>>19729989
Imagine drinking this much soi lmao

>>19730644
I still have a little whiskey left and therefore a chance.

>>19730465
I feel the same way, especially about 9/11. The amount of collective effort and collusion needed to pull that off would leave a giant paper trail and hundreds of sources of leaks, even in the earliest stage of the internet. I get Tower 7, I get the powerful interests who benefitted, etc. But there must be thousands of pages of documents behind any attempt at an inside job. All it would take is one person.

These days every Trump quote is leaked and makes the front page of the Washington Post and I'm supposed to believe that 99% of the truth behind 9/11 is kept airtight by hundreds of bureaucrats and major politicians for 20 years? Lmao

>Conspiracy theorists
Don't use this word though anon

i need a passive activity to do while reading. at first it was playing RuneScape but i got max level and now it's boring. just something on top of reading so i feel doubly productive, i know some people like to cook or wait for laundry while they read but one can only cook so much without getting fat and one can only have so much dirty laundry. god why i can't i just focus on reading on its own i'm not gonna make it

>>19728254
pray NOW

>>19731517
to whom?

>>19731522
why're you asking me questions you know the answers to?

>>19731522

>>19728265
>validation and companionship

These don't exist, son. grow a pair of balls. go to the hooker. You are just a body. If I put a bullet in the back of your head, you would die even before your skin could sense the shot and communicate it to your brain.

Goddamn pathetic whiny faggot neck yaself

>>19731576
based yeezy

>>19728651
I'm so glad they're over... for now. I thought these thread wars were a feature, and not a bug. This is my favorite general and it unironically made me sad. I think they intensified and peaked last summer though... so watch out for summerfags.

/mu/ is full of hipster. negro and kpop trash, but on reddit i can find specific smaller subreddits dedicated to decent music of whatever genre i desire. /tv/ is television garbage and hollywood gossip, but i can find small subreddits dedicated to good 20th century films with actual artistic visions behind them. /sci/ is nothing but vax and race iq threads with no more than 2-3 active threads containing posters that at least have half the mathematical literacy i can find on reddit but still no more. /ic/ can’t even compare with shitty reddit artists, /g/ is mogged into oblivion by hackernews and /r9k/ is overrun with normies, women and coom posters such that i’d rather just go without even if there is no decent alternative. And /lit/, what about /lit/, hmm.

The mystery of rational abductive reasoning is thusly broken down thricefold : Simplicity, Explanatory power and evidence.
1.) Simplicity signifies Occam's Razor, the belief with the least amount of assumptions is preferabble. But this also means that each belief is well-supported as it reasonably is. Each belief must rely upon its support in an accurate manner.
2.) Explanatory power. The power of abduction itself, abductive reasoning can be used as a support of beliefs. If the simplest reason (the only explanation with evidence) is unlikely, this leaves room for greater abduction.
3. Evidential Support. If the evidence is likely given a hypothesis, then the evidence supports the hypothesis.

Simplicity is crucial, while explanatory power and evidence are tied. This is the end of man's rationality based upon their knowledge based.

>>19728254
i wish my memory extended beyond a few minutes

>>19731584
based hedonist

>>19731584
I hate hedonists and hate you.

>>19728628
You have to be kidding me. Coffee fueled Bach, Kant, Beethoven, Balzac, and a million mathematicians; it really is the chad's choice of drink.

>>19731719
>>19731726
the duality of man

>>19731736
Scotch is the chad’s drink.

no, historically speaking Tea is the most /lit/ drink

>>19731746
Coffee, tea, and wine are the most patrician drinks. Scotch is basically just above soda.

>>19731747
Because of proust? Fuck off

>>19731750
Wine is pretentious.

>>19731653
I wanted to get into underground/alternative comics but /co/ is nothing but coomer threads, capeshit, and mainstream cartoons.

>>19731756
> t. g*rm-nigger/nordoid.

>>19731736
>>19731746
>>19731756

Hot Chocolate is the true drink for the Aristocratic. There is nothing quite like Mayan death magic meets Old World sophistication.

>>19731768
Cringe

>>19728313
Based

>>19731746
tfw no aberlour gf

>>19728313
in a way that sounds like a very liberating position anon, you can be a new person when you have no ties to anything. you can move, and just present yourself literally as someone else who just happens to share the same name and none would know the wiser. you are at peak freedom

>>19731736
>>19731746
>>19731750
Only correct answer is Absinthe.

>>19731750
Scotch has more variety in flavor than those three drinks.

mfw vodka

Why was the last Londonfrog thread deleted? Seems a bit arbitrary

Alright, here goes.

I hate women.
Everyday I wake up hating women.
I think about how much I hate women while preparing my coffee, and then again while drinking it.
I sit on the toilet for 30 oo so minutes every morning trying to shit out constipated nuggets that form from the endless stress I feel from hating women all day.

I go through my day and not even once do I consider there might exist a women I wouldn’t hate. On the contrary, I’m consumed with the hatred of every woman I’ve met up to that point, with no exceptions.

It’s important to clarify one thing here though. I don’t consider little girls to be women. I don’t therefore consider my wife, a precious 9-year-old girl, to be a woman worthy of my hate.
But I’m not stupid. I know that one day at a time her slow transformation into a woman will take place. And then, one day, unexpectedly, I’ll have the second most depressing realization of my life: My wife is now a woman, and I hate her.
The first most depressing realization is, of course, that women actually exist.

I hate women so much it’s unreality

>>19731905
>tfw mom was beat by my drunk father ages ago and now i have to sneak in voodka or else she gets flashbacks like i’m some violent drunk as opposed to terminally depressed and just want the tiny piece of calm and detachment that comes with a sippysip

i like this painting

>>19732007
Maps are crazy fun sometimes

>>19732016
>tfw no ethanol for me this month, and I suffer every day, and tell myself every day that surely the worst is over and tomorrow I will feel joy again

>>19732023
Yeah last week I was reading Dune and printed up the map of Arrakis. It’s pretty cool kinda keeping track of where things are geographically located in the story. Should I continue the series or leave it at just Dune? Do the other books have maps (assuming they’re not always on Arrakis)?

>>19728269
Here here

>>19732066
it's hear hear you retard

"Honk if you're horny" is a pun, y'see you honk with a horn, to be horny implies you're in the mood for honking, it doesn't simply mean "make a beeping sound if you're sexually aroused right now".

>>19732113
But am I horny (in the non sexual sense of the term) by piloting a vehicle with a horn, or do I only become horny by using it to emit a sound? I'm asking, and I horny because I'm hoking, or am I honking because i am horny, because I always was horny? Is horniness the potentiality or the entelechia of making a horn sound?

Chuck Jones once said, apparently paraphrasing Ed Wynn
>a comedian isn't someone who opens a funny door, he's someone who opens a door funny
and similarly said
>comedy is unusual people in normal situations, farce is normal people in unusual situations
and I've been trying to think of trite inversions ever since. It's like he found a shortcut to Instagram worthy soundbites that make the speaker seem 3 deep 5 me

Wipe the tears and keep it moving, life is such a doozy

>>19728313
The man created by liberalism

>>19732158
Good question, anon.
>am I horny (in the non sexual sense of the term) by piloting a vehicle with a horn
no
>do I only become horny by using it to emit a sound
you're not horny by using it, horniess is the desire to use it, just as arousal doesn't have to result in intercourse.

>>19729368
Yeah, because it's not real.
Really? Anhedonia? Did you whiny cunts invent a new meme disease because "depression" got too popular?

>>19728265
Get an escort that does Girlfriend Experience? At this point you’re so far behind that it doesn’t really matter anon. Just get some experience under your belt.

>>19728313
Man can only live happy in service to something.

>>19732203
>horniess is the desire to use it, just as arousal doesn't have to result in intercourse.
Ahh so it is giving permission to indulge in intercourse for those who are already horny. Driving all day, obeying the road rules, knowing it's there, desiring to hear the blare of the horn and not being permitted to. They desire it, but they cannot indulge

>>19728254
I hate the internet. Everyone has a contrary opinion. Nobody purely enjoys anything. Every thread on 4chan starts with why why why

>>19732264
>paying for thousands for a hooker
better buy books

>>19728582
Return the favour and give her some too. Ideally, ask her to take her for some coffee

>>19729020
Therapy wont help if you yourself do not stop and think for a second why you are who you are

>>19732410
He probably has anxiety because he THINKS about nothing else except himself.

>>19729020
Most anxiety is a result of unresolved internalized parental judgement. Doesn't mean the parents are to blame, as the subject's subjective sensibilities are also an inevitable factor in how the parental influence was processed in the first place.

>>19730476

>>19732064
Seven pillars of wisdom comes with maps so you can track where and how long Lawrence travelled

>>19732429
how to fix it then?

In everyday language it very frequently happens that the same word has different modes of signification - and so belongs to different symbols - or that two words that have different modes of signification are employed in propositions in what is superficially the same way.
Thus the word "is" figures as the copula, as a sign for identity, and as an expression for existence; "exist" figures as an intransitive verb like "go", and "identical" as an objective; we speak of something, but also of something's happening.
(In the proposition, 'Green is green' - where the first word is the proper name of a person and the last an adjective - these words do not merely have different meanings : they are different symbols.)
In this way the most fundamental confusions are easily produced (the whole of philosophy is full of them).

In order to avoid such errors we must make use of sign-language that excludes them by not using the same sign for different symbols and by not using in a superficially similar way signs that have different modes of signification : that is to say, a sign-language that is governed by logical grammar - by logical syntax.(...)

The rules of logical syntax must go without saying, once we know how each individual sign signifies.

- Ludwig Wittgenstein, Tractatus Logico-Philosophicus

>>19728628
what about coffee with just cream and not creamer?

>>19728254
Anyone work at an Amazon Warehouse? I'm starting in two weeks, what can I expect? And don't give me the usual sensationalist BS

>>19732664
If you're a storage warehouse expect to have a lot of downtime and low workload.
If you're in a delivery warehouse expect to be moving for nearly 10 hours straight and to be told to speed up(don't speed up, keep your pace because you will hurt yourself unless you are incredibly fit) all the time so that they can meet their quotas. Try to get on the belt either being the guy that puts the codes on the boxes or pulling stuff off the belt to give to the "stowers". Stowing or unloading the trucks are the 2 most labor intensive jobs in the warehouse and at that kind of job you want to be putting as little stress on your body as possible.

Nearly everyone there will be retarded as it is the kind of low class physical labor job that is required to hire anyone and everyone they come across because the slave labor leads to crazy turnover rates.

t. Amazon is paying for my degree

>>19728254
Deez nuts

>>19731480
Knitting or crochet, depending on if you have a lectern

>>19732697
Thanks for the info. I don't know if it's storage or delivery- I know I'm at a Fulfillment Center. I'm doing three 12 hour shifts a week. Bit daunted about but I've also heard it passes faster than you'd think.

>t. Amazon is paying for my degree
What are you in schoool for?

>>19729704
you can effectively have security in one thing only and that is that you are loved. you can be loved by people, but they are fickle. you can be loved by God, who is not. This is what I've gathered. If you are like me, then the reason you are like this is because you are afraid of losing what little connection you have with people, so you just let them have their way and don't do anything to stick out, anything that could Possibly offend.

>>19732792
You'll be murdered first few weeks and then you'll adapt to the workload. Make sure you're eating well and pack a good meal.

Engineering

I feel held back, more than anything, by an unwillingness to fail in my writing. Though I know that finishing pieces and understanding where they have not acheived what I want is crucial to growth and getting better, I am still to easily disheartened by my projects.

I must sharpen the blade on the grindstone

"The wood-carver can fashion whatever he will. Yet his products are but toys of the moment, to be glanced at in jest, not fashioned according to any precept or law. When times change, the carver too will change his style and make new trifles to hit the fancy of the passing day. But there is another kind of artist, who sets more soberly about his work, striving to give real beauty to the things which men actually use and to give to them the shapes which tradition has ordained. This maker of real things must not for a moment be confused with the carver of idle toys."
Why did nobody tell me Genji was so fucking kino?

>>19732794
>then the reason you are like this is because you are afraid of losing what little connection you have with people, so you just let them have their way and don't do anything to stick out, anything that could Possibly offend.
this, then, it should be pointed out, is because you don't trust that anyone anywhere loves you, which is a real tragedy and not your fault. if you are like me. it's this knowledge that you are anchored somewhere that is the difference between being confident and being insecure, I think. Believing that there is, somewhere, a real home to go back to. I had this for a little while and lost it again, and I felt very clearly the difference. Now maybe with God. Shit doesn't matter so much if you trust that you are loved.

>>19731626
nah man id say the war peaked in the fall. DBZ poster ruled for most of the summer and then the animeposter came back, DBZ poster disappeared, and then it was a free for all

I envy the Jews greatly. They have Israel, a place they will always be safe for them, a place that will always be of their faith, their culture. They are blessed, because having that is invaluable.

In real life and on other social media I always encourage multiculturalism. How can I not? I am of a tiny minority, for me society being multicultural is paramount to my survival. But in my heart, I think the world would be better off as a bunch of ethnostates, one for each people.That isn’t possible, so here we are.

>>19728651
>I was going to cover everything
But you can only cover it from your perspective
>hypocrisy
Which is a dramatically skewed perspective.

>>19733462
Why would you go on the internet and lie like that?

>>19733462
it was the worst of times. pic related, anime OP maker's Cluster B activating any time he didn't get what he wanted.

>>19732022
I haven't seen that one of St. Augustine. It is nice.

>>19733776
you forgot your trip
>>19733821
the animeposter's descent into madness and vtuber rants would have been a good chapter :(

>>19733821
>the autist in a crusade against anime really thinks anon asking him to stop spamming is proof anon is sick
kek you're just an endless goldmine, keep fighting the good fight for the anime allergic

>>19733859
>that time animeposter got provoked into defending vtuber shit, and someone who was clearly a newfag weeb friend of his from discord came into the thread and started "defending" him by posting extreme cringe

don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened

>>19733462
I think the anon who posted the bullet hell fan art to keep the anime and vtubers at bay won the whole war.

Big sad. Manly men no longer need apply. Fuck this gay retarded and gotish Earth

Perhaps I should legally change my name to Alan Smithee

>>19732827
Is this book good to read?

"About the difference between painting and sculpture, da Vinci stated:

“I do not find any difference between painting and sculpture except that the sculptor pursues his work with greater physical fatigue than the painter, and the painter pursues his work with greater mental fatigue. This is proved to be true, for the sculptor in producing his work does so by the force of his arm, striking the marble or other stone to remove the covering beyond the figure enclosed within it. This is a most mechanical exercise accompanied many times with a great deal of sweat, which combines with dust and turns into mud. The sculptor's face is covered with paste and all powdered with marble dust, so that he looks like a baker, and he is covered with minute chips, so that he looks as though he had been out in the snow. His house is dirty and filled with chips and dust of stones. In speaking of excellent painters and sculptors we may say that just the opposite happens to the painter, since the well-dressed painter sits at great ease in front of his work, and moves a very light brush, which bears attractive colors, and he is adorned with such garments as he pleases. His dwelling is full of fine paintings and is clean and often filled with music, or the sound of different beautiful works being read, which are often heard with great pleasure, unmixed with the pounding of hammers or other noises.”"

>>19733859

https://youtu.be/yzpOjvxVxfg

Death grip syndrome is a consequence of masturbating too much and too vigorously, causing you to lose sensation in your penis/clit, thus forcing you to continue to masturbate even more vigorously if you want to achieve the same desired results. There's a psychological phenomenon similar to death grip syndrome called the law of diminishing returns that states that the value or enjoyment we get from something starts to decrease after a certain point. For instance, if you watch a really great movie for the first time, it's incredible, but any subsequent viewings, though enjoyable, are less so. Remember how it felt when you discovered masturbation and porn, or when you got high for the first time? It was never the same afterward, was it? I'll bet money that you've been chasing that same sensation for a long time. We all do.

Now apply that same logic to all stimuli, in DG's case music. Their music is intentionally very stimulating because they are aware of the fact that in the modern age we are all hopelessly addicted to stimuli because of its omnipresence and how it affects our brains, and as a consequence we are constantly chasing the high that media provides us and DG knowingly provides the overstimulation we crave because we have affectively death gripped our brains into needing increasingly stimulating media. Like drugs, getting likes and karma releases dopamine, and so does cumming and music. DG likens their music to drugs frequently in their lyrics and even mock their audience for being the naive addicts that they are.

Now to cap this off, let me just say that I don't think DG's intentions were malicious in any way by seemingly brainwashing their audience and getting us addicted to their music. If you read even deeper into their lyrics, their ultimate goal is to actually enlighten their audience and make them aware of the predicament we've gotten ourselves into by allowing ourselves to become slaves to technology, specifically screens and social media. Seriously read their lyrics. They want us to see through their ruse so that we will hopefully realize that what they've done to us is essentially what these actually evil corporations have been doing to us since the day we were born, the difference being that, despite DG's misanthropic persona, they want to help lift the veil that has hidden the true objective behind what we thought was meant to benefit us but is actually meant to control us. Like Dorothy looking behind the curtain only to find out that the entity responsible for the people of Oz's hardships isn't a deific floating green head, but a simple old man. Or Neo taking the red pill and finding out that his reality isn't reality at all, but an illusion put in place to deceive him and keep him from the truth. We aren't living, breathing, feeling humans to the powers that be. We're commodities.

Death Grips is an artistic manifestation of this and much more.

>>19729645

You fear conflict because you fear failing. Failure is a gift and an opportunity to learn.

I'm going to quit this fucking cursed place. The influx of r9kniggers such as this faggot>>19728265 is the reason. I came here to discuss authors I like but 1/3 posts are either tfw no gf pity parties, tranny theories or philosophy&theology=incel. I fucking hate this discourse and now I can see that it's not good for me or anyone who whishes to keep their sanity for that matter. If for some reason I'll fail to keep my word I'll flood this place with nigger porn and tranny gore. Fuck you. You know who you are. FUCK. YOU. I fancy myslef as a decent guy but I wish nothing but torturous hell and pestillence and death and cancer and puss to fall upon you and your spawn. You know who you are.

>>19734385
chill out

>>19734385
why umad tho?

>>19734385
You will never be a woman.

Why are Americans so cultureless?

I want to write but I also want people to see what's in my imagination (and I'm worried that writing alone isn't really enough when media is becoming more and more visual) so I want to do a comic or an animation but it takes me a very long time to draw anything and often I'm unhappy with the result.
I know practice makes perfect so I'm just sticking with it instead of giving up like a faggot but I'm despairing at the prospect of wagecucking for years until I'm good enough to even get a few dollars a month through patreon or something. Maybe I'm NGMI and story telling will only ever be a side gig, and I can live with that, but I don't know when I'll get to that point that I feel it's just good enough to share with the world.

>>19734418
No. I will not. I hate this place but I hate myself even more for wasting my time here.
>>19734421
Because you can't speak a single word without having a tranny or a r9knigger fuck everything up.
>>19734433
Good.

>>19734439
My pandering answer is that it's by design, and there is a degree of truth to this in that many Americans live completely untethered from their surroundings, commuting alone from their big, mostly empty houses to pointless, unfulfilling jobs. The suburbs and office parks could exist anywhere. My serious answer is that regional culture still exists within America. For a really broad example, just compare the attitude and mentality of a Californian to a New Yorker. Every city and many rural areas have their regional foods, unique festivals, cultural institutions that are inscrutable to outsiders. I tried to explain the Philadelphia mummer's parade to a guy from Pittsburgh, which is not that far in the grand scheme of things, and he didn't get it at all. Go to a county fair or something.

>>19734385
It's pus, not puss.

What is being on SSRIs like? I dont want to feel the way I feel anymore.

>>19729083
You're a fucking faggot and most likely a gargantuan pussy. It's easy to feign uncomfortable situations when you know you have the option to just turn on the heater. You don't know what it's like to live in a concrete cube without heat.

>>19734439
Capitalism

>>19734587
It's alright.
First few weeks I bounced back to feeling great very hard. Nowadays it comes and goes but I definitely feel worse when I'm off them.
I don't have any particular problems. I can get hard, I don't feel like a zombie. They gave me mad shits when I first went on them but that was brief.

>>19734439
We have a great culture.

Small men don't deserve respect or to live, but we should keep midgets and dwarves around because they are funny.

>>19731653
You go to 4chan for the cynicism and honesty, not because you want to indulge in your hobbies.

>>19734657
Blacks made a pretty good culture for a while, then rap/hip hop happened.
Some films, but that was mostly consumed by capitalism too.
We do see some art develop, we have or had skater culture, but the town square is just mega malls. Sports? Who gives a fuck? Everyone is online ordering shit from one guy. This is as we’ve said before a burgerpunk hellscape

>>19731450
What we do comes back to us. Plastic pollution damages our hormones. I looked into it and I think I’ll be doing watercolors instead of acrylics.

>>19734679
There are boards for that cynicism (and who is honest here? You know how many trolls there are here?). HOBBYIST boards ought to be for THEIR HOBBIES

I found this on Amazon. What's with the second review...

lore seeker pure speaker for sleeker born fever, torn either worn neither lured deeper, cured dreamer, sworn femur horn screamers shorn creatures, scorns features, forms leaders, warn readers swarms eaters thorns Peter, morn’s ether more sweeter, gored keeper wore reaper your healer.


life and death and pain and stains of amber, strifed my breath my brain the strains of embers drived me sweating draining waning letters, knife of lead reframed and raining pleasures rife with dread for shameful passing errors, geist purebred and faithful having treasures.

I mean to say they took green eyes and lions and tied queens and kings with dreams of sins and stars with cinnabar like Belteshazzar, they melted idols not of the father, pelted haman monsters like demons in legions conquered by honored martyrs.

L V X tell me rex will thee hex the
perplexed who are vexed with their N O X
when no text nor next of kin can thin the
ayin sin on your skin and win the yin
its yang or the spin its king, just clanging
of ringing bells, it’s not jest it’s just hell.

>>19732794
>>19732881
Nah I honestly feel loved by my parents.
But they are the same in this regard, they probably brought me up this way unconsciously.

>>19734729
You can find great stuff here and you get interesting opinions on material. The problem with Reddit is that it is way too sanitized. You do not get interesting, novel viewpoints there.
For book recommendations I go to my local book man, that is good enough.

I want to go to the book store and get Twilight because they always have copies for a few dollars but I'm nervous about being judged for buying it.

I would also like to visit a different used book store but it's down the street from a friend I haven't seen in a year and I don't want to have the awkward situation of running in to them.

So now I'm pacing my house feeling trapped because I have places I want to go but I have worries keeping me home.

>>19734892
go to that cool book store, anon

>>19731480
play helmie. but how did you read while playing rs? especially the more tedious skills. pdf on monitor? book next go laptop?

>>19734886
>You don’t get to celebrate Hitler and the other fascists there. Or the unironic psycho killers worshiping. Rekt/gore, you can call out kikes and bugmen too.
Oh for the days of stormfags where in their own site

>>19729083
>Cheating right now by coming here
Don't act like you enjoy it lol

>>19728313
You can not live alone.
Was very much like you, but I realised I was retarded and didn't turn my back on everyone.
Then I realised that our modern world loves to create people like you who have nothing and are just a glorified automaton that exists to get drained to a husk in the name of productivity and progress.
Family, friends, folklore and even community are all enemies of this progress so they get eroded away.
None of us birthed and raised ourselves. Don't think that the above are your chains for that mentality is just a trap by progress to bind you to it.

Emily Dickinson scares me a bit. Maybe "scare" is loaded. They feel like invocations of sorts. She feels like one of the Weird Sisters. I'm slightly concerned some spooky witch will appear if I read them aloud at my poetry lectern.

>>19734971
Literally the only boards with fascists and communists are /pol/, /his/ and /lit/. Everyone else is relatively normal.

I broke my diet today. I'm so mad at myself, I let my mind take control of me
I need to be more strict

>>19734624
how do i get them? what is the best one? it is very confusing i dont even no where to start but im getting tired on constantly thinking of putting a gun in my mouth.

>>19735111
poltards raid other boards, take a look at /sci/ for one of the worst example

>>19735115
>I let my mind take control of me
As opposed to?

>>19735105
She's a scary looking bitch, that's for sure

>>19735118
I'm a bong so all I had to do was go to the doctors when I was at my lowest and they gave me a prescription and put me on a waiting list for therapy sessions (which I then stupidly didn't attend because I bounced back so hard when I first started taking the pills that I assumed I didn't actually need to talk about my issues). I'm afraid I don't know what the process is like elsewhere.
The one I'm on is sertraline, 50mg pills. Of the various meds you can be on they're one I often see people say are pretty bearable compared to some of the more zombifying shit.

I'm a vain cunt

>>19735158
much obliged partner.

>>19734839
do you know how your dad got your mom? I mean if you're the same and all

>>19735239
Dude, I've had girlfriends before. The fact I got a lil pussy in me doesn't mean I have no life at all.

>>19734971
I am not sure what any of this has to do with being a stormfag. If you can not handle a little bit of controversial and edgy opinions I am not sure what you are doing here.

>>19730577
>it astounds me that none of them ever strangled their own parents after such an ordeal
they were pretty low T

>>19728254
Gfs are for losers.

>>19731476
>>Conspiracy theorists
>Don't use this word though anon
Why not?

>>19735545
Only if you're a guy. Being straight is for losers

Whenever professors asks us to introduce ourselves, they also says to include our pronouns. Every time this happens, I get scared because I don't want to say my pronouns because I don't believe in that shit. It's even worse when they pressure you a bit. I'm glad to say I've never actually said this.
Although, I sometimes wonder what others think of me for not saying my pronouns. like perhaps they think I'm a chud or they think I'm questioning my own identity.

>>19731653
/mu/ 10 years ago was the best place to discuss music on the internet, yeah you had smaller websites and blogs that were good but there was no other big community with such good taste in music as /mu/. Yeah a lot of it was pitchfork core but you had albums that mainstream outlets called an average 8/10 like ITAOTS which were considered godly, and also praise for bands like The Unicorns and Sweet Trip which no one else gave a shit about, but eventually got co-opted by Twitter when people realized bands like this are actually good.

Apparently Tumblr used to have a decent /mu/ like community too, but I never went there. Needless to say, /mu/ is a shell of its former self. When people started waifuposting Grimes it was over. If you want to see what hell looks like, check out the wpop general there.

>>19732163
I believe this is called chiasmus.

>>19735628
It is. If anon wants a rec Alice in Wonderland has a lot

Growing increasingly tired of such physical limitations as become apparent as a result of exercising one’s imagination.

>>19734335
DG have a lot of interesting lyrics, it's probably an overlooked side to their music. There are a few songs with obvious themes, e.g. On GP which is about suicide. That said it's hard to think of specific examples for your theory. There's lots of references to sex, drugs, modernity, and violence in their lyrics but in casual listening it seems most of them don't have any specific theme. It's a plausible theory though.

>>19735675
To me Ride sounds like a channer, at least from back in the day. Lyrics come across like someone who spent years inside browsing /x/ during its late 00's early 10's peak, and watching gorevids on /b/ and just internalized that whole vibe or texture, rather than anything specific, and mixed it with personal introspection.

>>19728995
I'm retarded

>>19734385
kek. love seeing someone so triggered.

>>19735239
Nta but I have no fucking clue, because unlike him I've never had a girlfriend or anything. He's Middle Eastern so that might have something to do with it.

>>19728254
Please, OP. What city is this?

>>19735610
Where are you? My professors never had us do this in any form.

>>19735722
Why it’s Prague
https://youtu.be/l_dFpKZo54w

>>19735133
Having better impulse control and discipline

>>19735722
Don't mean to brag, but I live there.

>>19734273
can't decide which sucks more, the band or the state

I've fallen in love with a man who lives in that beautiful city. Problem is I'm halfway across the world. It gnaws at me.

I wish I could align the stars for one day and spend it with you around Prague. Walk with you,

>>19735734
thank-you
>>19735751
lucky.

>>19735692
Yes, you are.

New thread
>>19735804

The new thread
>>19735810
>>19735810
>>19735810

Bureaucracy is a great example of the second law of thermodynamics. Bureaucracy always follows the Shirky Priniciple - it becomes dedicated not to solving any problem, but to perpetuating it so that the institution survives. While evolution is the survival of the fittest, Bureaucracy is survival of the fattest. It consumes all the resources and energy in its path, its appetite insatiable, it replaces the ecosystem around it with itself in its constant greed. Many shriek in horror at the the repetition of Sisyphus but Bureaucracy is a whole army of Sisyphuses rolling boulders that knock other rocks like skittles. The civil service, human resource departments, academic administration - truly these are the most existentially horrific collectives imaginable.

>>19735812
There’s already a new thread. No need to make a second one.

>>19735812
Did you really make a new thread when one was already made?

>>19735824
No.
You made that one?
Whoever made that one forgot what board they were on.

>>19735765
Are you a man yourself?
no judgement if yes

The day, the night, the owl, the peach the pear, the angelic sound of going nowhere.

>>19735610
I also never say the 'pronoun'. It should be obvious from my deep voice and beard. I couldn't care any less about what these insects think of me.

>>19735729
I'm the above anon. I go to uni in California (sadly).

>>19736248
Yeah that's what I expected

>>19729645
All the shit album covers are still good, What's up with that?

>>19732264
>>19731584
If you can't tell, OP, these are the worst possible pieces of advice. As long as you understand that there is love out there if and when you want it, there's nothing degenerate about being a virgin. Prostitution is the worst degeneracy imaginable. Don't debase yourself.

>>19728314
unironically going to the gym will give you the confidence you lack even if you resist it. chemicals and shit

"
We still have the writings of the famous "Presocratic" philosophers who, two and a half thousand years ago, analyzed the human condition in searing and terrifying detail. But the way they described people then-hopelessly deaf and blind to reality, arrogant and confused, superficial and living their lives in a total dream, devoid of the slightest genuine consciousness and begging to be deceived, trapped by their own fantasies but imagining they are free-is not just some record of how things once used to be. It's a perfectly accurate portrayal of the human condition right now. "

shieeeeeet