/lit/ - Literature

>>19940379
Good morning I hate women

First for based female readers

I hate querying.

I hate writing a synopsis. I hate writing the one-line summary. I hate the query letter itself.

Mostly, I hate how transparently SJW agents are. No one wants to read about trannies on a journey to remove J.K. Rowling from Harry Potter.

Any femanons want to be my gf

>>19940397
Write better. "muh SJW bluehairs" are a boogeyman

>>19940409
>muh SJW bluehairs" are a boogeyman
not that anon, but they plainly are not.

>>19940379
>can see the outline of her bra
Whore

I watched the first episode of Pop Team Epic and I was successfully confused, and it was funny as fuck. We brought my wife's car to the transmission shop and now I'm going to read Consider Phlebas
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>>19940419
>w-we don't even exist....
why are you all like this?

>>19940409
Haven't started sending out yet, so not salty about rejections.

Just hate reading the lists of every agent. Go have a look, it's bloody awful. And then yeah, the summary, query letter, et al. that they want you to do. Seems like I'm doing their job for them, in the hopes they'll take 15% of anything I make.

>>19940379
I went through the same phase
books are expensive, especially the good looking hardcover ones
so I got an ereader and pirate all books I read now
still buy hardcover books occasionally if I really liked the book

>>19940405
You can be their gf

>>19940379

Her being so dumb and trashy only makes her hotter bros...

>>19940438
What have you written?

>>19940456
Explain how

>>19940379
fml there are big-titty w*men in the DM's who want it while i have panic attacks waiting for skinny beautiful high IQ happa creature to reply back.

>>19940409
Do you go outside

>>19940389
Hatred will poison you.

>>19940502
It's a literary fantasy about a deeply religious society in decline. A new cult pops up, saying there's a new goddess who will remake the world, and the state tries to suppress it.

Story follows the guy who made the cult, an agent of the state, a high-ranking zealot and a girl who grew up in the cult as they explore how a stagnant land can be changed. Basically a parable about how revolution never has a happy ending, status quo is not maintainable, and sometimes the best thing is to go be independent elsewhere.

>>19940379
dem some juicy milkers

>>19940535
You are already a tranny so...

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>>19940536
Thanks for turning /lit/ into /r9k/

>>19940379
need to figure out where to go after Mauss, Girard and Malinowski in terms of anthropology

I'm trying to get an espresso machine to work but it only produces sour coffee. I want to conquer it; I cleaned it, went to a fucking coffee shop to buy the correct grind size but nothing. Another cup, another sour espresso shot.

>>19940574
Not yet I'm not. Another few years of not fucking and who knows how I'll snap

>>19940578
forgive me anon. It is nearing spring-time. I too wish I could be sent to horny jail and continue my work uninterrupted by these thots.

I know this has been said countless times before, but the invention of social media and smartphones ruined the internet.
The internet becoming a huge billboard and controlled by corporations was inevitable, one could even argue that it could be forseen in the history of the dot-com bubble, but it makes be mad anyway.
I include this website as social media too.

Posting here. The thread was deleted.

>>19940503
If anyone is ESL, its you and if you are not, what you said is even more pathetic. Pretty is more synonymous with beautiful than attractive. The former two have aesthetic elements about them that go beyond crude sexual selection which if anything demerits your argument. As the overwhelming majority of men are ugly or average at best (sans muscles), it no consultation prize to have slept with them and they consider anything with a hole and some remote biological indication of fertility to be enough to impel them to fuck you. In their postorgasmic prolactic cloud of regret they see you for what you really are. A disgusting pigface of a woman who can't control her eating habits or her sexual proclivities. You will never be pretty no matter how many men have slept with you. You become more disfigured. Meanwhile actual Stacies attract the 1% of men who are fit and have good faces.

>>19940592
That's the idea. Women trust other women much more than men.You can be the first Tranny Ted Bundy. But only if you pass.

>>19940602
Whats the solution? Destroy the internet? Ban social media?

>>19940606
Too manly to pass sadly. Nothing a bit of sissy hypno cant convince me otherwise of

Is everything just culture wars?
Will the things i love be laughed at and ridiculed by future generations?
Do i like these things now because they actually are great, or just because it’s apart of the epoch i have been born into?

>>19940756
yes
you fight the culture war
or you might as well not like anything at all

I think I need a break from here. See you guys in like a week.

>>19940761
post in /sffg/ please

>>19940568
Story doesn't follow the goddess too?

got a tarot deck
wat nau
I've just been shuffling it non stop for the past 10 minutes

>>19940315
One who finds appeal in mystery is a monkey proud of their ignorance. One who seeks knowledge and understanding of Truth, is a child of the creator, God.

To be a part of Gods creation, purely as an ignorant creature, as opposed to like a plant scaling a wall or rod to the light of sun, feeding on the creative genius that lays beneath the appearance of the world, is for the merely created being to construct themselves in the divines image.

>>19940760
>or you might as well not like anything at all
This is what i’m starting to feel. I’m paranoid about the things i like. if I actually like something because it’s great in itself or what if i was born in some alternative universe where the world disagreed with me, would i just follow them and be oblivious to the fact that i’m just following them? Now it makes me doubt the things i like. But i need to be passionate about something and need to know im right and would still like these things no matter what the consensus of the world is. Now I’m doubting everything and hate everything. Does this make any sense?

>>19940815
Seems like the cause for irony bros becoming a thing. Just be sincere and if a culture war nigger tries to rope you into politics tell him to fuck off

>>19940805
play go fish

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>>19940536
So is /lit/ the new /r9k/?

>>19940379
What's her name?

>>19940805
Learn the meaning and symbols on each card, it should keep you busy for couple of weeks because there are hundreds of significant details to catch.
Learn different spreads, settle for one.
Draw cards.
Meditate.
Bang wiccan hoes

>>19940774
Since the goddess is a personification of lies, you could say it does.

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>>19940840
This is good, Anon. Is it finished?

>>19940824
The thing is idk if anyone can truly be sincere.

Guys I have to leave. I need to stay away from 4chan but I can't go completely without internet. It's just impossible for me to live without the internet.
Where the fuck do I go? Not other imageboards, not Reddit for sure. I need a quieter place with no anger inducing shit in it, no jezebels, no zoomer degenerates, no trannies, no normies, no weebs or furries, no leftists, no /pol/, just normal people to have a minimally stimulating conversation with, because normies here are like farm animals. I am so tired of trannies and /pol/ and bait and porn everywhere. Where do I get some rest? All of these things used to be a nonfactor years ago, you had to specifically seek them out to find them. Now finding something other than that has become impossible. Seriously I need to go.

>>19940833
She's 17, don't get any ideas...

>>19940852
T'is, yes. Complete at 94000 words, after my last edit. I also have a friend who was an editor for a magazine (nothing noteworthy, just a business mag) who helped edit it, too. I think it turned out well.

>>19940883
I strongly hesitate to even mention is, as i love the place and know 4chan is a cesspool that might pollute it in some way. But at the same time, it isn't a secret place.

Check out nationstates.net. It's a fun little tongue-and-cheek nation simulator, where you get humorous issues to solve which affect your country. There's also a very active forum for everything from general chat to roleplaying.

>>19940854
Why not? Why cant you?

>>19940379
Me gusta grande tetas

>>19940434
Update: my faggot wife went to sleep so I have watched 4 episodes of Pop Team Epic and played cars and ball with my son in the kitchen. My 18 month old was also laughing at the anime because it is so overtly humorous. He's now building mega blocks and I'm gonna fucking pass out myself when I start reading this book

>>19940379
All the reading doesn't save her from being an eternal midwit, like almost all booktubers.

>>19940952
>my faggot wife
lmao

>>19940969
>All the reading
>implying she has read a single book

>>19940610
I don't think just banning social media would solve the problem and the internet is a very useful tool if used correctly.
I don't know the solution, regulating some practices that are used to make people addicted to these websites surely would help, but the main problem remains human and cultural and would require people to understand the problems of these websites and too much internet use in general and wanting to be better.

>>19940602
>I include this website as social media too.
that's because you're an assblasted newfag who never used the internet before the era you're lamenting

>>19940379
I can save her
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QLGd-z3qdAU&

>>19941108
The musician?

>>19940756
Greatness is only ever in the present.

>>19940840
I would have been in interrsted in the goddess actually being a characrer, an interesting one. Sequel?!?!?!

Some years later some new people growing up get the same ideas but one young woman is actually goddess like and begins gaining a cult following?

>>19941222
It's very low fantasy, I'm afraid. More like historical fiction, just in a made up world.

>>19941201
How is that?

>>19941233
Yea nothing magical, just like some Cleopatra Guniveire type thing, or ancient Greece goddess worship with preistesses. Interesting dynamic to start to introduce woman power and woman wirship as the religious source, how a worship of mother Mary began etc.

Goddess just being a woman with ideal trancendant qualities. A beautiful sexy woman Plato, gaining a cult following, vying for power,

>>19941250
Oh, well, there is a girl who is raised as a "high priestess," with the goal being to sacrifice her so that she can be reborn as the avatar of the goddess. Sort of what you're wanting, except, with the whole thing being a lie, she obviously just dies.

Best part is her father walks her to her death like a bride to a groom. Some interesting character dynamics after that.

>>19940379
Do you think she'd play with my pp if I become a famous genre fiction author?

>>19941334
Do you think she care about books and authors?

>>19941250
Also, you read Cromwell's Arthurian trilogy? I have a feeling you have, but if not, give it a go. You'd like it.

I want to start writing but I'm old and only read about three books every two years.

>>19941429
What genre?

>>19941450
literary fiction

>>19941360
But... she has a lot of books? Her whole online presence revolves around literature? Are you implying that women treat their hobbies as fashion accessories?

I'm seriously beginning to doubt the intelligence of the people who rule me. It's astonishing how little credibility they have. They owe their position to nothing other than bald, brute, naked power. They are leading humanity to extinction or nuclear holocaust in their despicable narrow-mindedness while the masses fight each other over phantoms of ideology. I loathe these scum and pray for their bloody downfall.

>>19940567
Poison is good. If it doesn´t kill you it makes you stronger.
Do you want to be a weakling forever?

>>19940389
shut up b*tch

>>19941500
Rationality has never convinced masses until it's too late. The pen might be mightier than the sword but reason is weaker than emotion

>>19941546
Based

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>>19940578
literally name one time in history where book nerds were the epitome of sexuality. Books are a moisture killer, bro.

>>19940379
who is whore please

>>19941661
Some Dutch bookstagram hoe, look up the filename in catalog and you'll find her @. Someone posted it few weeks ago.

>>19941711
>in catalog
archive

>>19940379
i love my horsems

>>19941711
How do I do that?

My mind has been balkanized, fragmented and irreparably fogged, as I’ve been reading and rereading the Arab-Israeli conflict for the last week or so, in anticipation of an upcoming trip.

Most people need guidance. Instead we are at the mercy of psychologists, preachers and teachers who just see those who look up to them as useful idiots or walking dollar bills. To be honest, they are as lost as anyone else and in need of guidance themselves.
I don’t know what do to. Learning from books or aimless experimentation is limiting, and being adrift in life destroyed my spirit and is driving me insane. They say your youth is a high point of life, but the only things I feel are despair and bone deep tiredness.

She came out from her room and sat down adjacent to me. Wet hair in a towel. Comfortable clothes. Fishcake at the table of a mutual friend. Her table, I realised. Her voice made me look, her freckles and eyes made me stay for a beat longer than normal. She made my jokes quicker than I could and so I fumbled my words. I sat the whole time with my coat on.

I left my friend's house and came home to my own. I tried to make conversation with my girlfriend and got a few words out of her before she went upstairs.

>>19941873
Did you bang tho

>>19941883
Neither. Barely spoke to the friend of a friend but she's been on my mind since. I don't think I'd cheat on my girlfriend. I don't think I could break up with her either, I'm in too deep: house and pets.

>>19941711
Just post her fucking name already

>>19941873
>got a few words out of her
:(
Relationships are very hard work.

>>19941943
Agreed. We've been going out about 5 years, but sometimes you can't help feel like you've chose the wrong person; and sometimes it's more effort to break up than to stay together.

My girlfriend is going through a rough patch in her life with her mental and physical health and as a result all she does is sleep most of the time or watch TV. I just wish she could be happier and livelier.

Looks like it's over. 4th year of university and I'm dropping out. I did everything I could to stop it

>>19942030
>I did everything I could to stop it
Did you really?

>>19942042
Not as much as I should have

For all those late bloomers, how the fuck do you deal with behind 10 years behind your peers of the same age?

>>19941966
You gotta invigorate her man. Take her to something exciting. That depressive state doesnt just go away. It takes a shock to come out of it
>>19942030
Bro why? Surely after 4 years you're only a semester away from graduation

>>19942030
give us the details lad

>>19942054
>>19942056
>mental and physical health goes to shit
>memory barely works
>can't sleep
>always constipated (even with proper diet)
>hate leaving my room
>decide to stop attending class in the middle of last fall
>go back this spring
>uni revokes my aid from last fall, demands I pay $4000 in compensation
>only calls to tell me this at 11am this morning
>it's due in 3 days
>can't pay it, mother is broke, father is homeless, can't get a loan
>can't even do a payment plan
It's really over now. I know I'm in the wrong. I fucked up. I just didn't thing this would be the killer. Somehow I thought I would survive

>>19940389
mostly based

>>19940756
i like this picture quite a lot.

>>19940952
>my faggot wife
very nice, how feminine is her penis?

>>19942091
Oh I see. Well I'll tell you one thing. Your physical health and your constipation is very likely caused by your mental health. In a time like this its important you exercise and maintain a good diet and sleep schedule otherwise you'll be extra fucked. Getting the physical health problems out of the way is the first step. As for everything else, I have no idea man. Good luck

>>19942091
(cont.)
Also, to rub salt in the wound, today is the day I landed my first internship. A software engineering intern that pays $25/hr. I guess that's gone now too.

>>19942129
Yeah, maybe. I dunno. Thanks for the luck

>>19942142
Why cant you do the internship?

>>19942149
They pretty much only want college kids, right? When they learn I'm not finishing my degree I doubt they'll still want me

>>19942156
Just dont tell them dude. Lie if need be. Do the internship and save money so you can reapply to the university. Talk yo the dean and see if you can make up the failed classes at a community college. You're not homeless right?

I've had incredibly vivid dreams the past week and it makes waking life harder than usual because all of my unquenched desires and fantasies feel so real in my dreams.

Along with the various dreams of lovely women and beautiful places that I will never be with or see, my most recent dream was one where I encountered a clone of myself, except he was wearing a mask and sunglasses and a hood. He charged me with a screwdriver, so I grabbed his arm and turned it onto himself. I don't speak like this irl, but I yelled "I am Principle, and you are my brother, Ambition! I must kill you!" When I plunged the screwdriver into his chest, he vanished and I began screaming until I saw a blinding light and woke up.

This may have happened because I'm going down a lucrative career path I don't care about, and am with a girlfriend I don't passionately love anymore, or some other reason I haven't figured out yet.

Last night I dreamt I was shearing a corn field with a girl from high school I never spoke to. It was nice, but today I feel alone and isolated.

>>19942170
I can lie, but they want to hire everyone they give internships to, they'll find out sooner or later won't they?

>>19940379
I want to breed her with my penis.

>>19940389
very based

>>19942182
How long is the internship for?

>>19942209
2 months, then they hire after graduation

>>19942173
>"I am Principle, and you are my brother, Ambition! I must kill you!"
K I N O

>>19942211
Well fuck it bro. Take the internship, save money and fucking lie if you have to. If they dont hire you get another job and finish your degree. its not over yet

>>19942233
I wonder if I could bullshit my way into doing the internship and getting hired through them. Maybe when the internship is over if I get a return offer, I explain what happened and they'll give me the full job offer. That would be amazing

>>19940379
Cupid you cruel imp. You struck me with your arrow and let me suffer, cruely twisting the arrow on your godforsaken day.
Now I traverse the path of being an afterthought to someone I found important. Being confronted with that fact every other daily, you vile wench.
No longer I will fall for infatuation, you have not bested me yet!

>>19942243
There's still hope my mans. Make a good performance and hopefully they'll recognize it.

>>19941966
You've gotta do everything in your power to help her man or leave.

Has anyone ever spontaneously realized years later that someone had a crush on them?

>>19942260
Thanks dude. This is helping me a lot. Maybe there's still a chance

What does it feel to be in love with a girl who loves you? Is the sex different then?

>>19940379
would fuck but not breed

>>19942278
I have never had sex with anyone other than my fiancé. It is very loving and gentle, took a long time to figure out what worked.

Today is my thirtieth birthday and I sit on the ocean wave in the schoolyard and wait for Kate and think of nothing. Now in the thirty-first year of my dark pilgrimage on this earth and knowing less than I ever knew before, having learned only to recognize merde when I see it, having inherited no more from my father than a good nose for merde, for every species of shit that flies—my only talent—smelling merde from every quarter, living in fact in the very century of merde, the great shithouse of scientific humanism where needs are satisfied, everyone becomes an anyone, a warm and creative person, and prospers like a dung beetle, and one hundred percent of people are humanists and ninety-eight percent believe in God, and men are dead, dead, dead; and the malaise has settled like a fall-out and what people really fear is not that the bomb will fall but that the bomb will not fall—on this my thirtieth birthday, I know nothing and there is nothing to do but fall prey to desire.

>>19942049
Behind in what way?

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>>19942054
I can only do as much as she's willing to do. I go and do things and try and drag her along but I can't force her.

She blames a lot of her issues on her physical ailments, but I believe she's covering up her mental illness.

>>19942277
Yeah man and dont forget that university is still an option too, just with a bit of good financial planning

>>19942333
Happy birthday anon

Lately, when I look into a mirror I cant recognize who is looking back.

>>19942353
Physical ailments are often downstream from mental ones

>>19942371

>>19940379
I've been wanting to know the name of this woman for my whole life. Why is no one saying it?

>>19942371
Sometimes I look in the mirror and think I look pretty good. Other times I look dorky.

>>19942049
10? Im behind 15 years in some areas.

>>19940379
My father asked me to walk with him and tell him how I think of his fatherhood. Truth is, he was a terrible father and if he wasn't my parent I would have disliked him completely. I'm afraid I will break his heart tomorrow but he only started treating me like a human being recently.

>>19940389
Based
>>19940391
Lmaoing at your failure

I hate how all her books are new and pristine

I won't lie and say I haven't bought brand new books occasionally but like I still mostly have used books that have been fairly weathered

>>19941722
Best post in this thread
More pics

>>19940931
Because I’m not sure how much of my sincerity is influenced by my epoch. It doesn’t feel like it’s mine.

>>19942373
I think that's the case with some things, but she has a heart condition that I dont think is caused by it, but it definitely ends up enabling her.

Listening to my neighbour's dweeb son. He must be about 7 or 10 I can't tell, but he's annoying as hell. Raising a kid these days would be torture. I mean I was the same don't get me wrong and I'm also a fuck up so there you go. Anyway, children seem their cutest at about 5 or 6 and after that they're a burden. Yet my instincts tell me I need to pass on my genes. I get why dad's abandon their children. I want to impregnate some chick halfway across the globe, secure in the fact that I've continued my bloodline but abrogating all responsibility. Then my son grows up, hunts me down and kills me. But by that stage I'm so fucked by alcoholism that there isn't much left to kill. He drowns me in the urinal of the dive bar where I spend my days and I'm finally happy.

>>19942544
Every thinking man's dream. However, you have to leave a 3/4 finished manuscript/manifesto under a seat at the dive bar to will be discovered and published 40 years after your death.

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>>19942560
I think you two about covered it all yourselves, well done

I'm bitter because I'm 22 years old and every time I shave it wrecks my face with razor bumps and it just reminds me that my dad died when I was 14 and didn't inherit the typical father-son lessons, including how to shave.

>>19942571
have you tried a single blade safety razor? You have to go slower but the single blade is less friction and for many guys results in less bumps.

>>19942618
I haven't but I'll look into buying one. Thanks for the rec

>>19940839
>Bigtittygothegg
Please anon, I'm trying to quit cooming but this bitch still haunts my wet dreams

>>19940389
good morning, sir!

>>19940883
>Where the fuck do I go?
Outside.

>>19942270
Realized a few days ago that this cute girl in my AP Latin class senior year of highschool was interested. I think I would have quite liked her but I was involved with several other girls at the time.

>>19942442
He's attempting a reconciliation. Him asking was a soft admission of wrongdoing

>>19940806
You disgust me.

>>19942464
Why should your epoch be divorced from you? Humans are holistic. You can't start atomizing every little trait

>>19942571
My dad didnt die but he didnt teach me shit either. He has a theory that you're supposed to throw your kids to the wolves. The adveristy will make them stronger. If they fail it means they weren't good enough to begin with. So naturally all of his children are failures because I guess kids actually need to be raised.

>>19942674
>You can't start atomizing every little trait
I can’t help it. It hurts my brain and i panic :(

>>19942049
Coping.

>>19942719
Retrain your brain bro

>>19940379
How much money *your parents* use on books for you

>>19942270
What hurts the most was that there were so many.

>>19942751
How?

>>19941711
name pls faggot

>>19942828
Practice

My mental well being is deteriorating. I turned 23 last month. Birthdays always depress me because i always end up alone on them. But this birthday hit me especially hard. I realized I'm not an adolescent anymore and that my late adolescence and early adulthood were wasted. I didn't achieve anything but unlike other losers I didnt even have fun. And now I'm a failed adult. Even if I somehow pull together and succeed the opportunity for youtful pleasure is gone. My future prospects are bleak. I've been really depressed. i tried to reach out to the friends that I have but there's not much they've done. I'm drinking in excess to compensate for lack of excitement. I feel really trapped and want to run away somewhere but I have nowhere to go. I had a big fight with my dad yesterday. he's sick of me in the house and has been alpha maling me. I'm generally non confrontational so I snapped. He threatened to kick me out. I briefly indulged a few fantasies, all of which i know would end me up either dead, in prison, or psych ward so I was forced to reconcile. That just makes me feel defeated. Theres no escape. I'm imprisoned. Captive.

>>19942945
idc just tell me who this slut is

>>19942945
Get out of there, Anon. Such enviroment will unironically kill you.

>>19942957
I think its @erynsarchive
I was looking up book tiktok girls and all their rooms and bookshelves look fucking identical

>>19942662
>reconciliation
I'm wondering if I should give him that, when does one become a doormat and when is one allowed to withould reconciliation?
I am not vengeful but I can't see myself forgiving his physical fights and belittling...

>>19942981
I got nowhere to go. I've been daydreaming about finding some whore to run away to Vegas to. But unfortunately due to lack of education or vocational skills I'll be fucked if I leave for anywhere

>>19942945
move to the deep south or whatever the equivalent is in your country and don't talk to your family for a year

>>19940833
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>>19942957
fabulouslybooks

>>19942945
The only think I could give you as advice is for you to move out and find a healthier environment, but that is easier said than done and I don't know what your life and its conditions are so I can't really give you a lot of help.
About the wasted time, think about it for a second, the more time you ruminate over how much time you lost you are actually wasting more time miserable instead of enjoying it. So, start looking ahead and see what you can do now to improve your life and to enjoy it more and stop wasting time.

I wonder what I did wrong, what was my mistake to end up where I am, but deep down I know that there wasn't one big mistake, just bad decision after bad decision, slowly getting myself into an inescapable.

>>19943000
You're always in your right to withhold but what would that do for either of you? He already suspects what your answer will be surely. Imo the best course is the truth though it is likely to be painful for both sides. Maybe you can move on with life but if there's a chance to express to him the pain and resentment he's caused it can be freeing to you going forward.
Someone who accepts an apology is not a doormat and someone who strikes at each wrong done to them is not a hero.

I gotta go see about a girl lads

>>19943015
thanks, but now I'm disappointed

It’s been almost a year, and I still miss him. I think of him so often, although I know that he wants absolutely nothing to do with me. I had an oddly vivid dream of him on Monday night. He was standing in the hallway just outside the door of my apartment— I could see him through the keyhole, but the angle was such that I couldn’t quite make out his face. I was about to let him in, but for some reason I hesitated for a moment with my hand on the doorknob, heart racing. When I finally opened the door, he was gone. I looked down the hallway, and all that I could see was the blur of someone stepping into the elevator, before it began sliding shut. I called his name, running down the hall towards him, but he didn’t answer, and the elevator closed just before I could reach it. I stood there frantically pressing the call button, but it didn’t light up. I hurried into the stairwell and ran down the stairs as fast as I could, all eight flights, nearly tripping over my own feet in my haste. I hoped that I could reach him before he left the building, but I was too late. When I reached the foyer I could see him through the glass doors: a tall, thin figure striding decisively away.

When I woke up on Tuesday morning, I remembered the dream so distinctly that I wrote it down in my journal before even getting out of bed. It seemed to have some strange significance. That afternoon I walked to campus to pick up a copy of an article that I had requested through interlibrary loan. It was cold and bright outside: the sky was a clear, cloudless blue, and the snow was starkly white in the intense sunlight. I think I saw him as I was walking, although I can’t be absolutely certain. I wasn’t close enough to see his face clearly, but nonetheless I feel sure that it was him. He crossed the street in front of me, and I saw him look over his shoulder in my direction a few times before he turned the corner and disappeared.

Moments later, all of my hurt feelings flared up again. A tidal wave of shame crashed over me, capsizing everything, leaving me adrift. I saw myself objectively for a moment, as through his eyes, and the knowledge of my complete impotence, of my total undesirability, made me feel sick to my stomach. I forgot about my article entirely and walked to the park instead, the one that used to be a cemetery. I sat there for who knows how long, staring up at the bare branches of the trees above me, trying to restore my equilibrium. Once the icy metal of the bench started to make my legs go numb, I got up and left.

By the time I got home, I was freezing. All evening, my teeth were chattering and my hands were shaking. I buried myself under three duvets and put on a thick sweater, but it took me hours to feel warm again.

God— I still want him so much that the thought of it makes me dizzy. I miss the sound of his voice. I’ve resigned myself to the fact that it’s over, but after all this time, it still hurts. It doesn’t get easier.

>>19942142
My work is hiring 0 experience welders starting at $24/hr. School is a scam.

It’s been almost a year and I still miss him. I think of him so often, although I know that he wants absolutely nothing to do with me. I had an oddly vivid dream of him on Monday night. He was standing in the hallway just outside the door of my apartment— I could see him through the peephole, but the angle was such that I couldn’t quite make out his face. I was about to let him in, but for some reason I hesitated for a moment with my hand on the doorknob, heart racing. When I finally opened the door, he was gone. I looked down the hallway, and all that I could see was the blur of someone stepping into the elevator before it began sliding shut. I called his name, but he didn’t answer. The elevator closed just before I could reach it. I stood there, frantically pressing the call button, but the down arrow wouldn’t light up. I hurried into the stairwell and ran down the stairs as fast as I could, all eight flights, nearly tripping over my own feet in my haste. I hoped that I could reach him before he left the building, but I was too late. When I reached the foyer I could see him through the glass doors: a tall, thin figure striding decisively away.

When I woke up on Tuesday morning I remembered the dream so distinctly that I wrote it down in my journal before even getting out of bed. It seemed to have some strange significance. That afternoon I walked to campus to pick up a copy of an article that I had requested through interlibrary loan. It was cold and bright outside: the sky was a clear, cloudless blue, and the snow was starkly white in the intense sunlight. I think I saw him as I was walking, although I can’t be absolutely certain. I wasn’t close enough to see his face clearly, but nonetheless I feel sure that it was him. He crossed the street in front of me, and I saw him look over his shoulder in my direction a few times before he turned the corner and disappeared.

Moments later, all of my hurt feelings flared up again. A tidal wave of shame crashed over me, capsizing everything, leaving me adrift. I saw myself objectively for a moment, as through his eyes, and the knowledge of my complete impotence, of my total undesirability, made me feel sick to my stomach. I forgot about my article entirely and walked to the park instead; the one that used to be a cemetery. I sat there for who knows how long, staring up at the bare branches of the trees above me, trying to restore my equilibrium. Once the icy metal of the bench started to make my legs go numb, I got up and left.

I was freezing by the time I got home. All evening, my teeth were chattering and my hands were shaking. I buried myself under three duvets and put on a thick sweater, but it took me hours to feel warm again.

God— I still want him so much that the thought of it makes me dizzy. I miss the sound of his voice. I’ve resigned myself to the fact that it’s over, but after all this time it still hurts just as much. It doesn’t get easier.

>>19943417
I make $140 in 6 hours driving for fedex and $100 in four hours on door dash. I'm going to get a CDL

>>19943323
Same, what happened?

my brain has been balkanized

I flirt with frumpy women and then move on without sealing the deal. I do this for practice and to stroke my ego.

>>19943482
>>19943482

How do they react when you move on? Do you feel any type of remorse?

>>19943492
I imagine some are a bit disappointed while others feel better about themselves. Sometimes I'm remorseful but it's a great confidence boost.

>>19942945
Your just 23, calm the fuck down and go party.

>>19943506
How much time/effort do you put into flirting with them? Is it just making idle comments and chatting them up in bars, or do you fake serious interest and pretend to want an actual relationship? The former seems mildly shitty, but the latter would actually be fucked up.

>>19942945
Wish I'd realized this at 23 and not 26, still there's plenty of experiences to be had so putting yourself out there is still worth it.

>>19942371
This is me whenever I haven't gotten a haircut in a while or that time I shaved off my beard.
>No the symbolism of your post wasn't lost on me, I just identify greatly with the superficial aspects of myself

Does reading prepare you for death, as Bloom says? Are we all reading against the clock? Every time I look at the mass of books I have accumulated over the past year or so, I feel very anxious and impatient. Does anybody else get that feeling?

>>19943539
I'm generally very affable and outgoing and sometimes it's hard to turn off the charm, it's hard for me to tell exactly where the line goes. I like to give compliments and lift people's spirits but with women there's an area of ambiguity where I like to dwell.
>serious interest and pretend to want an actual relationship
I'd never let it get this far. No they're mostly acquaintances or people I meet for one night.

The trailer for Baz Luhrmann's Elvis biopic just came out. I'm cautiously excited. I'm a huge fan of Elvis and Baz Luhrmann is as decent as a big time director in modern Hollywood can be. I'm just worried the movie is going to focus too much on niggers and play up the 'Elvis stole black music' angle based on the last parts of the trailer.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=spnVHmREpuo&t=54s

Imagine an infinitely long Ferris wheel inside a dimension of nothingness. You're granted immortality and the recognition of your immortality, and you have the ability to breathe. At some point a magical blue hot dog appears in your hand, and you decide to eat it because you still starve despite being immortal. The magical blue hot dog gave you the runs. You shouldn't just eat a magical blue hot dog, idiot. Do you stay in your diarrhea-covered seat for eternity, or do you jump off and fall forever into the void?

I’M HERE. I EXIST. I’M ALIVE. I BLEED AND CRY AND FAIL AND TRY AND HOPE AND DREAM AND GIVE UP AND START AGAIN AND GO ON AND ON AND ON AND ON.
I AM HERE. I AM ALIVE.

>>19943593
How does it feel to be a racist fuckwit? I can’t imagine being moronic enough to actively degrade other people on the basis of race: a social construct that revolves around meaningless physical characteristics. You’re honestly pathetic, and so was Elvis. You deserve to die alone while sitting on the toilet, just like that stupid fatassed motherfucker that you idolize so much did.

WHAT IS LOVE

After a long and difficult week at work, I have precisely nothing and no one to look forward to over the weekend. I think I'll drink and sleep a lot.

>>19943700
If you have to ask you’ll probably never know.

>>19940969
>all the reading
yeah just like the van life youtubers actually live in their vans right?

>>19940379
alright wit hmew bokboby8.
>ib4poetry

>>19940389
Based. JFL at all the seething eunuchs replying to you.

>>19943707
zoomer failure
https://youtu.be/HEXWRTEbj1I

>>19943736
anon
this is the tourist /r9k/ refugee thread
what are you doing here

>>19943736
Thats a zoomer meme

>>19943741
I didn't realize it got this bad

>>19940379
More of her

>>19943741
This is my safe space

>>19943696
I know this is bait, but you're still a nigger

>>19943704
At one point, the only thing I had to look forward each week was hitting a punching bag with a metal pipe during my boxing training. I hope things get better for you, anon.

>>19940379
This is why I solely use libgen and z-lib if I can help it. The other option if what I want isn't available: Buy the kindle version, rip the DRM, return and refund.

>>19943804
But I still buy physical books because I love them. I just have a lot of books I want, but I'm not going to shell out money for a physical copy of every one.

>>19943707
retard

>>19942406
just some big tittied blonde tik tok girls.
literally thousands of them, all interchangeable.

I just ordered Hello Fresh. I got two discount deals and the meals seemed good, so I decided I'd try it. I ordered brown sugar bourbon pork chops, taqueria chicken bowls, southwest stuffed zucchini boats, and creamy tortellini limone.

>>19942571
Probably just your skin.
Mine is like that. Whenever I shaved, I would get red and itchy spots. It almost stopped when I started using a straight razor, but it's kind of a pain in the ass to use when you don't have the time (I don't anymore), so now I just take my clipper and trim as short as I can without clean shaving. It's not like I need the clean shave anyway.

>>19942945
>23
>not an adolescent anymore
anon, i...

>>19943833
That sounds really delicious. My dinner is in the fridge. At some point tonight, I'll be eating it.

>>19943423
>impossible to tell if the person writing is male or female
English is such a garbage language.

>>19943833
I'm a fedex delivery driver and I regret to inform you "hello fresh" is more like "hello putrified". Those boxes are always leaking rotten vegetable fluid. I hope yours arrive as advertised, but from what I can tell the original blue apron are the only ones that are packaged correctly

>>19943417
Where at

I think I will just give up.
There, I have given up.
I can't tell if it feels better or worse.

leave me alone

>>19943881
I’m a woman, if that matters. I didn’t really think that I needed to specify.

>>19943975
will you marry me?

>>19943975
Are you a woman (female) or a woman (male)?

>>19943994
asking the real questions here

>>19943994
>>19943995
Transwomen are real women

>>19944030
And ciswomen are fake women because Baudrillard hyperreality. Yep, got it.

>>19944030
>Transwomen are real women (male)
Fixed that for you

>>19943786
Thanks anon. That sounds like fun, maybe I'll try it out.

>>19943994
I’m a woman (biological female), not some man who’s LARPing in order to get off. Shocker, I know.

>>19944061
These guys bothering you?

>>19944069
you need to leave, I saw her first

>>19942650
Outside it's a dumpster fire infested with rapefugees. There is only ugliness in this city and my neighborhood specifically is drug dealer central. I can't travel miles and miles just to take a walk in a place thst isn't shit. And if I did, what would I do anyway? I sit down somewhere and drink. You just don't get to talk to anyone. People are like faceless ghosts.
I am so deeply tired of everything.

>>19943423
>>19944061
went from gayest post on /lit/ to giving me a half-chub pretty fast in all honesty my brethren

>>19944103
it was the opposite for me
went from beautiful gay romance to generic shite

Writing a song about the past and how I'm always having a convo with the trauma side of me. Writing to my trauma side and arguing with him cursing him to the day I die about how he put me and got me stuck in this hell. Putting him deep deep down in that well where the water done swelled and drowned him deep deep into this stuck-in hell where now he's my Company, my only source of a friendly friendlurely comfort oh lord.

>>19940379
Teaching women how to read was a mistake. We should have kept literature safe from them.

>>19944266
that woman does not read
it was letting them work and allowing them to be promiscuous that is the problem

What the fuck do I do?

>>19943423
wht did you do fag

>>19944103
I know that you’re just fucking around, but the idea of anyone finding this excerpt from one of my depressing journal entries titillating is oddly hilarious. I’ve written an embarrassing amount of this shit, and this one was actually pretty restrained.

>>19944108
Why don’t you just imagine that I’m a man, then? You know, death of the author and all that. Pretend that this is actually a gay romance, just like you pretend that women’s self-expression is inherently trite and invalid.

>>19944355
of course the woman is homophobic

What the fuck is wrong with me?

>>19944320
become the gf brother

>>19944365
We can’t tell you unless you give us some detail.

>>19944416
I like woman but woman hate me
the last time I talked to a girl was a decade ago
and I don't talk to them because I don't want to bother them
guess I'll die

>>19944365
You ask vague questions that lack specificity which prevents proper diagnosis of underlying causes of flaws and tension in your life. These questions tend towards all encompassing statements rather than actual quests for methods and places of possible remedy.

>>19944425
anon's future prospect with woman
Three of Cups

>>19944425
I sympathize— that sounds rough, anon. Keep in mind that you can’t form meaningful relationships or become more adept at interacting with women if you don’t even try to approach them. But honestly, I know it’s not that easy— a lot of women are entitled and will respond with hostility, but not all. Why do you say women hate you?

>>19944425
Sounds like something a whiny little bitch would say. I can see why they hate you.

>>19943423
anonettes future prospect with EX
Knight of Cups

>>19944446
>Knight Of Cups Keywords
UPRIGHT: Creativity, romance, charm, imagination, beauty.

I'm going to achieve incredible success. I'm watching what I'm building slowly come to fruition before my eyes and it's beautiful. I wish you all that same feeling, and same success. This is and will continue to be an incredible decade for those who are intelligent, disciplined, attentive and perseverant. I know many of you are most of those traits, and can be the rest if you decide. Good luck.

>>19944446
>>19944441
Oooh oooh do me anon.
Not sure where I should go out tonight. Think a penciled in date will fall through tomorrow. Unsure what path to follow in my life, whether i should go back to waging because I don't know how to pursue going about self-employed in a way which is actually sustainable. Even artistic endeavors are hitting an impasse as I feel I have run out of things to say, topics to explore. At the core of this I see a problem with rumination which never translates into problem solving towards actions. I make poor decisions which causes me be risk adverse and not act except for when I have special reason to (i.e. when factors outside my control make success likely).

My girlfriend is great. She likes to cook and clean, loves taking care of me and is up for anything sexually. But l dont love her like she loves me and l cant get over how unsexy her body is.

>>19944515
be nicer to your mom anon
she's been through a lot just to raise you, the fact that she lets you do her alone...

>>19940389
Dangerously based

>>19940389
greeting from Kazakhstan with love

>>19944477
I'm dyslexic, anon
I can't read that

>>19944515
put a kid in her this instant and jack off to porn for whatever it is you need she doesn't provide. I'm telling you anon, do not fuck this up you will regret it for the rest of your life.

>>19944515
bro you've literally got it fucking made

>>19944061
Wanna be my gf?

>>19944369
*sister

>>19944520
lol

>>19943423
He must have had a huge dick

>>19944515
>l cant get over how unsexy her body is.
if she is fat you've married a time bomb

>>19944078
Beat it punk, the grugette is MINE

>>19944477
drew a card for you anyway
King of Pentacles
In a career context, the King of Pentacles is a great omen indicating successful business or a business empire. He signifies thriving in work matters, achieving a high level of status in your chosen field or reaching your goals. It can also indicate that an older man will provide you with practical support and encouragement in a career setting. This man will be generous towards you in terms of giving you his time, support or advice and you would do well to listen to him. It can also be an indication that you may be suited to a career in finance, business, banking or more Earthly fields.
In a financial context, the King of Pentacles is also a good omen as it represents hard work paying off. Things should be going well in money matters at the moment. You may have reached a stage of financial security and stability in your life, this will not be by chance but a result of all the effort and prudent investments you have made previously. You are at a point where you can be generous to those around you and enjoy the finer things in life.

>>19944515
Just make her exercise

>>19943885
>makes less than a package handler
>has to work ALL fucking day
I dont envy your position

>>19944592
Alright my turn
Should I be worried about that growth my my right testicle?

>>19944600
my contractor has a ton of routes in three states and is in the top 5% in the country, I personally do not have to work like a UPS driver for a fraction of the pay but I know what you're talking about

>>19944592
thanks anon. Things aren't that great financially at the moment, they are better than they have been, but it's still constrictive. I wonder what form this practical support in a career setting will come from, I find it sad that I wish for a helpful interveaning force like that.
Anyway, thanks again.

>>19944597
>>19944586
>>19944555
>>19944543
l dont want kids. She used to be fat but lost a ton of weight so she's all...saggy. Also has a messed up lowed back so that whole area looks weird and she cant do any real exercise to tighten her body without hurting herself. Also has a lot of other health problems and a lot of stress and anxiety.

>>19943423
Im usually juggling between wanting a tradwife, wanting to knock up dozens of women, and commiting suicide.
The feeling for each if them comes and goes over the course of a few days.
Im almost certain that Im bipolar but given that I kinda hit the rocks early in life its not surprising that I cant make up my mind on anything more serious than If I want to eat or just lay in bed.

>>19944604
Reverse three of wand
Yes, go get it checked out

>>19944630
see >>19944626
Which should I do? one, several, or none?

>>19944630
>>19944638
I can clarify
Should I dedicate myself to finding and being with one good woman
or
Should I seek to have many children with many women
or Should I accept that I wont have any and embrace my probably violent and untimely death?

>>19944638
The Magician (Reverse)
If you are single The Magician indicates that you may be becoming cynical about love and your future love life and feeling like you will never attract anyone good to your life. Don’t lose faith. If you stay positive and send love and light out into the world you will eventually attract the same back to you!

>>19940379
how do i get a white blonde gf like this?

>>19944626
judging by the fact that you actually wrote this, i would say you can safely rule out 2 of the 3 options.

>>19944653
Well, alright. I'll trust you on this.

>>19944661
:( b-but look! >>19944653
Anon said I just have to keep a positive attitude towards love, come on man dont do me like that.

>>19944660
just bee :^)

>>19944660
Be African American

>>19944583
It wasn’t like that, so I wouldn’t know.

>>19944557
>>19943987
At this point I think my best bet is to join a convent.

>tfw anon hasn't even get to know you and she already hates you

>>19944693
>>19944693
So it was purely platonic? Those are very strong feelings for someone you're not physically intimate with

>>19943423
>>19944693
maybe you shouldn't have cheated on him like the dumb whore you are

>>19944715
anon, you should know by now
girls only cheat on beta orbiters
if the dude left, that means she's dating a bad boy that cheats on her

>>19940405
>>19940405
ill be your gf

>>19944743
I've never actually had a gf, ever

>>19944743
I <3 u

I'm starting to feel depressed for real, for the first time in my life. I've had some physical problems so maybe it's health related but usually I'm able to maintain being hopeful. 2 years of adversity, I'm finally on the path to making some serious changes, and now I feel actually really bad. I have so much trouble handling anxiety and stress, even though I've learned a lot of physical coping techniques. It's very hard for me to just relax. I have this intense sense of impending doom. Maybe the isolation is really getting to me.

It's all going to be alright. I need to remember my priorities. Family. Health. Intentionality.

>>19944705
I’d say it was more or less platonic, but the whole thing was very confusing and ill-defined. I know that my response seems disproportionate and that rationally my feelings are absurd. Usually I’m pretty level headed and reserved, but I can’t explain it— I’ve never experienced attraction like that towards anyone else before. It was just one of those inexplicable things that happens, I guess. I was in a weird headspace last spring, though, and I think that I was the one who fucked things up. I don’t really know what he thinks of me now, but maybe that’s for the best: I suspect that finding out would only hurt my feelings even more.

>>19944763
stop being a bitch anon
go talk to him, get your heart broken into pieces and then pick them up, or die on the spot, your choice
but getting stuck in limbo is no way to live

>>19944763
How long did you know him? Did he also feel the same about you?

>>19944653
Do me, please. What do I need to know/hear/do?

>>19944763
Femanons can actually into feels? wtf

https://youtu.be/fluPyqssP-w
everything you thought you saw

>>19944772
Queen of Wands Reversed
In a general context, the Queen of Wands reversed can indicate that you may be feeling pessimistic, temperamental or overwhelmed. You may have taken on far too many tasks and are trying to keep too many balls in the air when she appears in your Tarot spread. You may be exhausted and heading for burn out when she appears! On the flip side, it can indicate that you are being overbearing or sticking your nose where it doesn’t belong when it appears. If you can offer support to people in need, then do. However, remember, if you interfere in someone else’s business they may not thank you! This card can also represent not taking charge of things and being disorganised or extremely chaotic. When reversed, it is a Minor Arcana card of being inefficient or hindering others. As a person, the Queen of Wands reversed a represents mature female or feminine person who may be demanding, overbearing, pushy and self-righteous or a busybody or bully. She may be a fire sign such as Aries, Leo or Sagittarius. She may be unfriendly, jealous, catty, manipulative, spiteful or vengeful. She may be a malicious liar who is deceitful or unfaithful and a trouble-maker. On the flip side, she may simply be someone with low confidence, low self-esteem or who lacks self-belief and is overwhelmed, exhausted or completely burnt out.

>>19944763
>>19944770
I'm asking the length of time you knew him because you clearly felt very strongly but never moved into the point of physical relationship. How long does it take to develop such an attraction and how long can you hold out on sex for under such circumstances?

>>19944787
> the Queen of Wands reversed can indicate that you may be feeling pessimistic, temperamental or overwhelmed
That’s exactly how I’m feeling, anon. I wanted to know how to escape this shit

>>19944804
no idea bud
it's a deck of cards

>>19944811
Kek, that may be the most sincere answer I’ve ever heard from a divination anon. You’re cool, I hope you have a good day.

>>19943564
>Does reading prepare you for death, as Bloom says?
This comes from Plato

I'm so fucking hungry.

>>19940379
i wouldn't get sober even if i could

>>19944768
I reached out to him over text a few months ago, but he didn’t respond, which was more or less what I expected. That’s assuming that he actually got my text— it’s possible that he changed his number, but I have no way of knowing. I changed mine last fall, so if he did change his then he has no way to reach me now, even if he wanted to. Anyway, I won’t reach out again, because I want to be respectful of his boundaries. Also, getting told to fuck off would probably crush me.

>>19944770
A couple of months, I think. At first I really thought that we’d connected on a certain level, and he seemed pretty interested initially. But it’s hard for me to gauge: I don’t have a lot of experience with these things, and at the time I was dealing with a lot of personal issues so my judgement was not the best. He started to withdraw after a bit, and in the end he broke things off pretty coldly with little to no explanation, which left me very hurt and confused. I don’t really know how he feels, because he wasn’t very forthcoming about that. What I suspect is that he ultimately just didn’t find me physically attractive enough, which makes me feel like shit, but perhaps that’s just my own insecurities. I may also have made things weird between us, because I wasn’t really thinking clearly at the time and acted in a way that was pretty out of character for me. I don’t know if he just lost interest, or if he was never as interested as I was.

reading Zhuangzi right now, finished the Tao Te Ching a few weeks ago. Man this is more interesting than most western philosophy

>>19944857
cheers bro ill drink to that

>>19943015
wtf brah

NE—!

>>19944901
>>19944901
…xt threHd

>>19944906
I'm officially old I guess

>>19944873
Very interesting story. What exactly was the weird thing you did and how immediately did his attitude change following the act? Are you sure the attitude change didnt occur prior to the act?
Anyway femanon, this is purely speculative. You can't know his thoughts without him having told you. You did only know him briefly and so his total disposition and personality are likely far from known to you. Probably best not to torture yourself over something which probably wasnt nearly as deep as you like to imagine.

>>19944906
why are women like this?

>>19944915
I think I’ve given too much detail already, so I won’t say too much more, but it wasn’t any one specific thing that I did. There are multiple things I said that I think may have been weird, but I do have the tendency to ruminate and overanalyze, so maybe I’m just overthinking it. I know that I’ll never actually know what he thinks. I just don’t know why I can’t get over it. I’ve always been highly sensitive, although I usually don’t reveal that side of myself to people. I often take things really hard, but this is on another level. I wish that I knew how to get over it— I’ve tried, but nothing works.

>>19944948
do what >>19944768 says, go full crazy until you reach his true thoughts, get the cops called on you
see the bottom of the abyss

>>19944948
I could help you get over it ;)

>>19944932
I don't know why but every booktok/booktuber is a tranny loving whore

>>19944906
>linktree
usually high odds shes a whore but sometimes there isnt an onlysimps link.

>>19944955
There’s no way. We won’t interact again unless he initiates it.

>>19944958
I doubt it.

>>19945014
>I doubt it.
You just need a little love

>>19945023
I probably need a lot of things, but that’s not one of them.

>>19942270
There was this one girl I had a crush on at my job. We clicked in a kind of mutually awkward way. I had never experienced that before because I keep completely to myself and am very much a hermit who lacks life experience. But I didn't know what to do or say so nothing came of it. When I look back I see a couple other instances in high school where a girl was interested but it was never obvious. I never experienced high school romance or anything like that. Those were years ago though. Now I am completely lacking in personality and am truly just a spectator. I'm really not sure what my future holds .. nothing good.

>>19945014
>We won’t interact again unless he initiates it.
come on anon
don't be entitled, he's not in charge of your life, you are, if you're obsessed with him, it's your duty to get to the bottom of the issue.

>>19945066
Of course it is

>>19945014
As a guy that has been the object of sperg girls' affections. Next time just say to the guy "I want to be with you". You will save yourself a lot of pain by getting a definitive answer, which, like for most of us, will often be no.

>>19945107
That’s more or less what I did last year, and he did give me a definitive answer. It just hurt way more than I had anticipated, which is why I’m still so fucked up about it.

>>19945145
I'll validate you ;D

>>19945160
You don’t even know me— how can you validate me? Nothing you could say would be an accurate reflection of my value.

>>19945201
I'm starting to understand why that guy got bored

>>19945223
don't be mean, anon

>>19945223
I can’t even argue with that.

>>19940379
I'm not looking forward to my recreational Vyvanse comedown. nice while it lasts though

>>19944932
because this shit means more attention