/lit/ - Literature

yes finally

I just really, really, really, really want a daughter/wife.
i have been infatuated for about two years now with a fictional red-haired homeless orphan. i want to see her grow up happy, and healthy.
i want to do daughter-y things with her but i also want to do romantic lovey dovey things with her.
she doesn't deserve all the bad things that happen to her and she has a heart of gold.
i swear to god it's like she was sent straight from heaven

>>20726590
reconsidering reality. something can be perceived but not be real.

>>20726613
you have autism. sorry.

>>20726621
wait a fucking second... this is still me trying to find a way to make value judgements objective... what does it matter whether something is real or not? just gonna kms

>>20726623
everyone on this website does

Every day is a blessing.

>>20726613
You're a pedo that's trying to mask your evil thoughts with "helping" her. She doesn't need your help. Never breed and never go near children.

Life is dumb and miserable. There's no way things are going to get any better. Everything is falling apart and I'm not prepared. I'm going to be one of the people who gets killed and looted. I'll have nothing worth stealing, just a rotting body in the street. Not smart enough to get a real job. My brain is fried. I'll have to get some minimum wage job. I have enough to buy a gun, but I want to live away from my parents for a while, it will be easier on them if I don't die at their house.

>>20726666
im in the same situation. i could probably work most shitty jobs but I am really really bad at keeping myself waking up and going to bed consistently and I am so afraid of failure that I dont even try

If someone is having a hallucination, it isn't real but it still has an effect on the person that sees it.
But things like colors are not "real", as in they do not exist in objective reality. But most people can perceive it.
Are there "levels" of realness? Colors are more real than hallucinations, and something like fire could be more real than colors.

>>20726665
>evil
i don't want to hurt her, faggot.
i don't want to rape anybody.
i just want to do shit like slow dance, or cuddle. or make her a huge fuckin meal.
what's """""""evil""""""" about any of that, you stupid thick headed cunt?

>>20726590
I was thinking about my family's class history.
>Grandfather went from being peasant to proletariat
>Father went from proletariat to petty bourgeoisie, if not straight-up bourgeoisie
I was born into the petty bourgeoisie, if not straight-up bourgeoisie, but my family is at risk of falling back into the proletariat. We are not like our family friends, who are petty bourgeoisie/regular bourgeoisie wealthy enough to not have to worry about falling back into the proletariat. For us, if I or my father lose our job, we will have to sell our "means of production" (rental property) in order to make ends meet. I envy those who are secure.

In any case, I am left to wonder about which class's interests I should agitate for. Liberalism has been wholly discredited, I have no mood for it. A leftist would tell me that fascism is the ideology of the petty bourgeoisie, and so perhaps I should be a fascist. But I don't like fascism, the ideology of conquest is unsustainable. So perhaps I should agitate for the proles. But there are plenty of bourgeoisie who are working for the proles, like DSA, and they accomplish nothing. At the end of the day, the problem is that I have no political sphere advocating for my class. I wish I was rich lol, then I could ignore this entirely.

>>20726675
Why do you want to "slow dance" with her? You're lying to yourself that you just want "innocent" things but you've already admitted to wanting romantic things too. That's why you said "daughter/wife". Why would you include wife? If you actually had her in front of you you would escalate things. You're hiding behind your "innocent" intentions and using it as a shield from criticism. Now you'll just say "all I want is x". You already admitted to romantic feelings. kys pedoshit

>>20726674
>Are there "levels" of realness?
of course, materialists are subhuman

>>20726690
>romance isn't innocent because......... uh......... uhm..... it's just not okay
a loving romance is the single purest thing on the planet
>If you actually had her in front of you you would escalate things
what do you mean "escalate"? like i'd rape her?
shit, even if i wanted to (which i don't) i wouldn't be able to.

making music is the only thing that keeps me alive. the mastery and control i have when I'm in my DAW is intoxicating now. i mix and sculpt sections at crazy speeds and any idea i have i implement with ease. but when I'm away from my computer i look at my life and it at times brings me to tears. a history of failed romances, a family that has given up on me, friends who think I'm insane etc. I didn't even fall into the usual musician trap of drug usage and partying (though i love to party) I worked and continue to work but nothing ever pans out. Here at 24, broke and broken-hearted but at least I get a fleeting feeling of relief from my new demo or finished track.

Alright so I thought about it

"The televisions where suddenly awashing their viewers with a blue light before popping all at once, spraying glass onto the crowds huddling around them, their stunned silence speaking volumes."

>>20726709
Post a demo or finished track for us to judge.

>>20726709
Post some shit anon

>>20726738
>>20726743
hard to totally encompass what i can do in one track since i work w a lot of genres. some hip/hop, some alt guitar music, some electornic. heres a 'color bass' track i can hopefully get on a label.
https://vocaroo.com/1mup1C8sZHrY

i reallly just need one chance w the right ppl and i can get out of this fkn hole...

>>20726706
You already called her a wife pedofaggot. That's a sexual relationship and you know it. Fuck off

In a distant desert, the people huddled around televisions, watching with bated breath, the battle for the world was being fought and they couldnt do anything.
One group hidden in a basement cursed, their plans all ruined, while destruction of the kingdom was what they planned they didn't want utter decimation.
One woman strapped into armor and than into a mech, which stood at around 18 feet, armed with a chainsaw and a gattling cannon.
beneath their feet the earth quaked and cracked, people scrambled to run to safety as the mech rose its engines flaring as it flew out of the ground, its eyes shimmering with a golden light.


The televisions was suddenly awashing their viewers with a blue light before popping all at once, spraying glass onto the crowds huddling around them, their stunned silence speaking volumes.
the planet shook, cracks and sinkholes taking form everywhere as the planet struggled to keep itself together.
The desert people rushed to their airships hoping to find sanctuary in the skies.

The "Mobile suit" flew past a couple of airships, the woman clicking on the radio and asked "So what the hell was that just now? did that bastard do what I think he did?" The response was one she wished she didn't get as she grimaced "The bastard destroyed Acrios. it's completely gone! Just a fucking crater!" she punched her console in anguish hearing those words, stopping mid flight to stare ahead, she made it to where the Realm of Forist used to be, nothing but flames and cracked earth stretching into infinity, a blue light shining in the horizon before her, tears rolling down her cheeks at the absurd destruction before her. "Hey, March? are you okay? you don't have to do this if you dont want to." She stared at the radio than back to the ruined land before her

"yes I do" She shoved the control stick forward, boosters flaring up as she charged forward towards the blue light on the horizon.

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Ive edited it abit but any other advice? please and thank you

>>20726759
>you can't be married and not have sex because uhhhh.... uhm... uh.. i said so
what an enormous faggot

>>20726765
Then why would you call her anything but a daughter? For everyone else in the world a wife is someone you have sex with. Not only are you a pedo you are a delusional retard.

>>20726718
i like it
thousands of americans are watching TV for the moon landing, and the CIA decides to blind everyone by making their TVs explode

>>20726590
What happened to that thread with the qt argentine jew cock sucker from texas? I was hoping for name. Went to /x/ for a little to hang out with the schizos and larpers, came back and (poof) no more qt webm.

>Occult Lecture

Why are women such whores? I’ve learnt not to judge single sluts but those in relationships just fuck left and right. I got cucked several times, done some cucking myself, seen every single of my sex-having friends get cucked, Chads included. Background doesn’t matter - poor girls, middle class, rich bitches, liberals, christians - they all CHEAT.

>>20726868
Take it easy anon. Don't take something made for fun too seriously

>>20726868
one of the biggest red pills is the first time you realize that women experience literally no disconnect between saying X when it feels good to say X, and completely betraying and contradicting X five seconds later when it feels good to do that. women like to "try on" male-centric morals and virtues like children playing dress-up, but they don't actually know what it means to set up a virtue as an objective principle for oneself and then resist the temptation to break it in future moments when it stops being convenient and pleasant.

so if you ask a woman what kind of guy she values, she will blab on and on for hours about how noble she is and how she sees through superficiality and only wants sweet genuine men and etc., etc., etc. then five seconds later she'll completely contradict everything she said. the key thing to understand about women is that they don't perceive any difference here. from a man's perspective, you are thinking "but she said 'i only do X' and two seconds later she did 'non-X'?" this is because the fundamental modality of male consciousness is erecting principles and trying to follow them - even if you're a shitty man, it just means you're shitty and weak at erecting principles, not that the FUNDAMENTAL modality of principle-erection is absent. a woman's fundamental modality is "doing what i feel like." to a woman, that behavior is completely consistent: in the first instance, she did what she felt like. then she did what she felt like again. only a man perceives that the CONTENT of the actions was contradictory, i.e., would be contradictory if performed by a man. but for a woman whose primary stream of consciousness is "what do i want to do right now? :) perhaps i'll wear a ribbon in my hair tomorrow, tra la la!," no such contradiction occurred, or indeed is even possible.

>>20726868
The animal kingdom is interesting yet disturbing, it's nice to be above it.

life is so boring now that i have a full time job and not because the job is boring and easy which it is but because now i have disposable money and it does nothing like who cares i could buy a bunch of nice clothes or music gear or gaming shit or whatever who gives a shit. i guess i could spend money trying to get laid going on dates in the city or whatever but who gives a shit you can only eat so much salty overpriced middle tier restaurant shit and casual sex is no better than jacking it really so who gives a shit. i guess i was supposed to waste the money on a bmw or something but i don't give a shit about cars i live in a walkable city with trains all over the god place who cares. i know i know, art, yeah, i guess, but i'm not that talented at anything, i'm always slightly above average but not great in anything like that, so what's the point. i thought about getting back into drugs now that weed is legal, but weed makes me depressed most of the time. i'd consider doing more lsd but idk where to get any and even then it's sketchy cuz it might spiral into one of those depression trips where all your copes dissolve and you're just stuck there with no defense waiting for death.

>>20726868
Whorish behaviours are promoted by the khazars overlords and modern women are vapid and stupid as hell.

>>20726868
Males really really really crave it. Attraction is in very high. They’re just prepping for the males, dummy.

>>20726868
Males really really really crave it. Attraction is in very high demand. They’re just prepping for the males, dummy.

>burned out on writing
>have been for 4 years
>have tried taking breaks, therapy, medications, exercise, other art forms and touching grass
>none worked
>no longer my burnout is curable
>can't give up because I would rather kill myself than give up one more dream
>can't kill myself because I can't do that to my mom

Why is my life like this?

>>20726868
its truly the fault of social media. without going too into detail on how the platforms are constantly fostering desire (which also explains their users low self esteem) by the same techniques that we see in marketing, they're also prime places for cuckers to begin their cuckery via DM. We've effectively raised an entire generation of women/men into having constant sexual thoughts. As much as I dislike women, I don't think this random cheating was very common behavior and that most of it has been 'unleashed' so to speak by social media and permissive society.

For me what's interesting is how this is related to BDSM which is also quite popular now. I'm not gonna flesh out the connection with respect to social media/desire (note: studies show content that expresses anger has the highest chance of virality) but all of this is looking awfully like the death throes of a civilization.

The sound of other people's voices has become abrasive to me. Talking to people is like listening to nails scrape across a chalk board.

>>20726613
> daughter/wife
Castration time

>>20726590
The more successful I am the less my friends like me

>>20726959
Baby steps anon. 30 minutes everyday at the same time every day no matter how you feel. Slow and steady wins the race. Determination and persistence are omnipotent.

>>20726960
well if all this fucking were producing births one could argue it's revitalizing a dying civilization but sadly that is not the case as all of this sex is barren as the birth rate continues to fall.

>>20726960
forgot the image.

>>20726672
I also struggle with keeping a 24 hour sleep schedule instead of free-running a ~30ish hour one. Idk how people do it.
>>20726590
I found out that not only has the book I’m writing been written (sort of), but it was by a Stanford graduate younger than me with a race angle that made it award bait.
Still writing it, but it’s unreal how competitive even the most obscure niches of dying industries are.

>>20726972
anon, I tried powering through it with determination. at my current rate it will take me 2 more years to finish my second draft

>>20726973
yeah the sex is only there to soothe the effects of an exhausting, cold, competitive life. a life where all the women turn to cheaters and men into scammers. we all know something is gravely wrong but its not cool to be sincere even for a second. its a world of all against all.

>>20726984
>woow heckin spacey materialism
Reddit

>>20726998
>2 more years to finish my second draft
Inshallah

>>20727024
I just think size comparisons are fun.

>>20726984
The size of the universe is always comforting to me. There is so much beauty out there.

>>20727029
I don't think he wants me to finis it at all. i think he wants me to kill myself

>>20727038
God made these.

>>20727024
Where were you when you found out the Earth is at the center of the axis of the CMB

My bird finally just sat down and I don't want to get up to get another beer and disturb him. It's way too humid. A woman that I loved will never really understood how I loved her.

>>20726984
It's amazing to think of what's out there and why, I am excited for the the James Webb telescope to start turning up interesting data about the early universe. I know everybody is into the exoplanet thing, and that's okay too, but for me the most exciting is learning about the earliest structures and features of the universe.

>>20727024
You should criticize the people who only see practical applications and meaningless materialism in everything but the book of nature itself is God talking to us directly, even if we don't understand the language yet. I am excited about everything we learn about the world.

To what extent can gender be determined from an individual's writings? What would be some "dead giveaways" so to speak? Is it the subject matter? Style of writing? Tone? Vocabulary, perhaps? Or is this all built on previously concieved notions of gender stereotypes of how we expect the opposite sex to "sound" as we read them?

Can a man write in such a way to be perfectly indistinguishable from a woman? Can the opposite be true? What is the default, anyway, when reading text? And what of this very message?

Such questions have fascinated me as of late as I have been reply to clearly male posts "ywnbaw" -- how do I know this for certain? Somehow, I just do, and I can't seem to explain further.

>>20727135
Female writing is dumb, cutesy/whimsical, obsessed with social matters and sex.

>>20727135
The differences are greatly exaggerated, such that outside of extremes it is generally not easy to tell the difference, and even then half the time it’s cross-sex, i.e. a massive fag writing like a woman or the inverse.

>>20727140
>dumb
>obsessed with social matters
>sex
But that's all guys write about on here

Death grip syndrome is the blackest of black pills. You get your shit together through sheer willpower, and against the odds actually get a girl to agree to sex with your only to find out its all for nothing because you busted your dick jacking it for the last 10 years of your life.

>>20727222
The more effeminate the man, the more interested he is in emphasizing the differences between men and women for fear of being found out.

may HaShem bless us with another fruitful day

my sister brought her fucking dog inside the house and it left a massive shit at the door. a big wet one. it has stunk up the house

these dog people are disgusting. take your filthy animal somewhere else

why we still up?

and the fucking thing keeps following me around and trying to get into my shit

holy god, i hate dogs so fucking much

i fucking hate sundays. there is this pervasive melancholic quality to them. guess it's the dread and vague uneasy of the thought that tomorrow is monday and the whole bullshit starts over.

>>20726590
The mainstream internet is one giant reactive corpo-politio-media propaganda conditioning machine. What really brought this out was how all the normies swapped out their BLM signs for Ukraine flags right on cue. In this way they walked bleeding heart liberals right into supporting the military industrial complex and becoming war hawks without even realizing it.

It's hard to fathom how plugged in some people are, and how uncritically they absorb whatever is promoted within their social networks. The social need to signify in-group status is so overwhelming with so many people that this can easily be surreptitiously manipulated without them even noticing. Group psychology is manipulated at the mass scale. Facebook has researched social contagion and how sentiments propagate over networks. The level of social engineering that is possible with tools like tiktok and the like is unimaginable. Especially in the hands of Chinese state apparatchiks.

>>20726868
our societies are descending into hedonism. we have left the comforting blanket of religion behind, but have not replaced it with anything else, so we are left naked and alone in the cold void, and we turn to hedonism desperate for distraction.

>>20726960
A simpler explanation is that it's just operant conditioning. A girl posts her butt cheeks on social media. Thousands of likes from slavering simps ensue. This is a social reward that reinforces the behavior. That's really all social media trends are in a nutshell. We're not special. It's a glorified Skinner box.
Just look at this pigeon do the latest tiktok dance.

Most of the Philosophical Pessimist Philosophers and artists possessed a certain pride or an aristocratic style. They all stood before death and faced darkest corners of Being fearlessly like heroic figures of despair.

I have failed my myself once again. My fear of death has completely paralyzed my Being. I have no pride, no strength to stand fearless in front of death. I am broken and weak. I don't even have pity and honour for myself to commit suicide. My brain and body are acting as the instruments of consistent suffering. I don't want to live and I don't want to die, above all I really fucking wish I wasn't born.

What should I buy from 7-11?
I'm going to walk there in about 30 minutes.

>>20727590
Spicy cheetos nigga

>>20727593
I'm on it cuh

>>20727590
>>20727593
dont listen to this guy, grab a dog and a fountain soda. make sure you load your dog with onions, or else you aren't doing it right.

>>20727642
Although I like a dog, one from 7-11 does not seem appealing at all

>>20727659
>>20727642
Where the fuck can I get a hot dog at 5:30 am that isn't 7-11

Help me out

>>20726973
As I got in my mid-20s my respect for parents skyrocketed.

Thank God for a light breeze on a sunny day

>>20726968
you're gay and also retarded
>>20726773
okay perhaps gf and not wife is a better term
i'd still totally do romantic things with her though

Think I'm learnin to accept communon with others and to walk in the grass under the light of the sun, but in doing so have rejected communon with God and will see the sun turn black. I've always prefered the heat to the cold anyway. Time to get to sweatin

If I had possession, over judgment day
If I had possession, over judgment day
Lord, the little woman I'm lovin' wouldn't, have no right to pray

>>20726960
>As much as I dislike women, I don't think this random cheating was very common behavior and that most of it has been 'unleashed' so to speak by social media and permissive society.
Look up some 23andMe or whatever other dna data you can find, then specifically the "non-paternity event" data which is, said as simply as possible, when cuckholds are made. After you have numbers which represent how common such events are historically, then consider how many cuckings weren't producing babies. Spoiler alert, women have always been awful.
>this dumb fucking cunt pseud drones on about women's behavior through through time based on nothing but his super deep thoughts about social media
Man, I love this board.

This board is nearly completely unusable.
>constant /pol/ posting
>constant incel posting
>constant frogposting
>constant tradlarping
>constant religion posting
>on-topic threads get spammed with soijacks

How did it get this far? This is an embarrassment. No other board is this bad.

>>20726960
>As much as I dislike women, I don't think this random cheating was very common behavior and that most of it has been 'unleashed' so to speak by social media and permissive society.
Look up some 23andMe or whatever other dna data you can find, then specifically the "non-paternity event" data which is, said as simply as possible, when cuckolds are made. After you have numbers which represent how common such events are historically, then consider how many cuckings weren't producing babies. Spoiler alert, women have always been awful.
>this dumb fucking cunt pseud drones on about women's behavior through through time based on nothing but his super deep thoughts about social media
Man, I love this board.

I haven't jacked off in about two weeks so if this date doesn't pan out I know exactly what else I'll be doing today

I just woke up. Here it comes, another miserable day.

>>20727794
Both options end with premature ejaculation

>>20727886
you're a weirdo

>>20727934
he's just stating facts.

Holy fucking shit, wisdom tooth removal is so incredibly unpleasant.

>>20727934
He’s right tho, his cock be sensitive now

if you thought living with your rich parents in manhattan was better than whatever you're doing:

>“He displayed a lot of signs of depression,” a former classmate from the elite Poly Prep Country Day School in Brooklyn told The Post. “He was not going out to clubs or doing much of anything. He was anti-social. I didn’t reach out to Doug but, after talking to some people from our Poly Prep friend group, it sounded like he didn’t want to be reached out to. You don’t want to ask what’s going on to a person who has nothing going on.”

>Police sources described the son of retired New York justice Charles Solomon as “rudderless.” A background check on Doug, who still lived at home with his parents, nearly eight years after dropping out of Rhodes College during his 2014-2015 freshman year, shows no history of employment.

>The former classmate added, “We all loved Doug. But if he was still alive, and if we hit him up right now, he would probably be chilling in his room.”

>>20728022
>"Manhattan"
>post about Brooklyn

>>20728031
>doesn't realize going from manhattan to brooklyn to attend a $50k day school is probably a shorter commute than taking a school bus from his cheaply made suburban house to the failing public school he attends somewhere in arkansas
do flyovers really

>>20726984
how many stars in this bad boy?

>>20726613
you have autism. sorry.

>>20727768
>No other board is this bad.
Anon, I...

>>20728134
i actually tried going on /r9k/ today cuz i thought they must have tons of threads where you can sit around whining about how pointless life is, but i scrolled the first page of ops and noped out of there.

>>20726590
Is this the thread where 18 years old teenagers complain about the woes of a life they do not, cannot, understand yet?

I am a 22 year old virgin woman. Are my standards too high? At what age does a woman being a virgin become a turn off?

>>20728180
>Are my standards too high?
Absolutely, but all women are like you.
>At what age does a woman being a virgin become a turn off?
+30

>>20728180
too late already. if you didn't even have sex once in college, you just seem like a frigid prude or a repressed lesbian. no dude wants to waste time on that. grow up, oh wait, too late.

I'm reading Pale Fire.
Is the whole Kembla thing real?
Because it feels it would make sense that it's kind of real but exaggerated, but also makes sense that it's completely invented. At the same time, in the world of the book, it wouldn't make much sense for Kinbote to invent a completely new country that everybody would know is not real at all.

Why I buy more books than I read?

Also, I want to buy The History of the Peloponnesian War desu

>>20728153
i spoke too soon, /r9k/ rules, you can talk about life without some pseud interjecting with some book they didn't read.

>>20728195
Meh, not too heartbroken if the ship has sailed. Maybe I don't know what I'm missing out on but at least it seems less complicated this way. In other words, I'm coping but not seething.

>>20728226
just get railed by some rando from a dating app to get it over with and move on with life.

>>20728212
You don't like the books you buy. My advice is to perhaps buy shorter books first and also make use of the internet to get free material

>>20728180
the fact that you're posting on 4channel is the biggest turn off, would not touch you.

>>20728180
>Are my standards too high?
What are you standards?

I believe that I am, on a fundamental level, simply as broken person to the core. In many ways, I suspect, nothing more than primally defective as expressed on a genetic level. Thus, the only way I can find peace from all the trouble and pain I inflict on other people, is to isolate myself, the same way one would quarantine a leper.

But I, in my destuctive nature, can't seem but to continue interacting with other people. Why am I like this? Am I really here on this Earth just to cause ruin and sorrow? What a wicked creature I must be, to continue doing what I do, and yet I simply cannot help myself!

Perhaps the solution really is to slay this beast in the mirror, if only I can find the strength once and for all.

>>20728242
Risking pregnancy and/or STDs just to find out what sex is like seems like a poor choice.

>>20728268
oh ya you are definitely repulsive. you will die alone.

>>20728264
My only non-negotiable is no sex before marriage lol

>>20728180
>22 years old
>female (female)
>virgin
severe autism or ugliest woman alive

>>20728277
have your family arrange a marriage to some dominating muslim guy who will turn you into his personal servant. that's the end point for women who "save it for marriage".

>>20728277
Was this always the case?

>>20728282
Waiting for marriage results in better marital sex, higher marriage satisfaction and a decreased divorce rate. It seems like the most logical course to take if I'm trying to maximise my own future happiness and that of my future children.
So what part of that indicates that I want a misogynistic, piece of shit muslim husband? I would rather die alone.

>>20728307
oh ya you are really unpleasant.

>>20728297
Yeah, Orthodox upbringing and all

>>20728307
based and redpilled. just go to a church and eye some nice young man

>>20728326
No suitors in your local church?

>>20728356
I live rural which I love but makes for very few eligible, church-going men. Maybe I need to bite the bullet and move back to the city...

>>20728397
oh this is a larp

>>20728397
well then you know what to do before it's too late. tick tock, don't be a christmas cake

I gulp caffeine and sugar like mad. A tea kettle a day, coffee, small packs of synthetic coffee throughout the day, all reinforced with doses of pseudoephedrine. This way I can study for anywhere between 7 to 11 hours a day depending on circumstances. By the end of the day I'm dead tired but my cortisol levels are so fucked I just sit in bed groggy but unable to sleep. When I do sleep, I sleep for something like 4 or 5 hours, hardly enough, and I just go back to bed to nap in two or three hours. To get around that, I've started using sleeping pills. They allow me to sleep comfortably for something like 8 hours and I wake up fully charged afterwards. On weekends I take Oxazepam and just sleep for 12 hours straight, letting all the tiredness of the week drain out of me. At first I used to think it was wrong to medicate yourself like that, but you know, we were not evolved to memorize textbooks all day. We evolved to hunt and fight, and that entailed a good deal of sympathetic stimulation, something our modern sedate lives no longer offer. What I'm doing is just emulating that to some extent, and it works. I don't feel tired, I'm doing well in school, and most important maybe, I'm not abusing Adderall like I've seen some do.

Tfw you have to pretend to be a woman to get (you)s

>>20728686
Holy fuck bro, you’re a machine.
What’s it all for?

>>20728715
Med school

Writing your thoughts out is such an important thing to me in order to function and behave properly. It helps if you're identifying with stupid profiles instead of a more mature mode of being. But often when I'm reading interviews of writers I can't help but feel a tiny spark of cringe because it has this LARPy characteristic to it. Being serious or genuine as just another equally worthless and false way of facing reality.

I might be a covert narcissist.

>>20726751
I liked it, but if it's only sounds then it quickly becomes monotonous after the second repetition. And that's what happened for me.

na-hum-na-hum-na-hum-da-da
hum-na-hum-na-hum-da-da
I have a heart that's made of lead
I am not alive or dead

I am living my life in desperation
I wish I could go back in time and change everything

>>20728888

>>20727489
They were first of all themselves. You anguish because you lack that fearlessness of death. They anguished because they lacked that fear of death. You are not the same, and will never be the same. Your path is different. It is nobler to become meek and humble than to claim yourself as something you are not.

From here on, don't let anyone ever hear you utter anything akin to "I hold death in contempt." but rather "I do not hold death in contempt, but I respect it and consider it my master though I read about and respect those who have an opposite nature; I will never not quiver in my boots when any prospect of death beckons me, but I will yield and let it subsume me; and it isn't even a subsuming since I have always been afraid and am afraid and only fancied the contrary. I will do these tasks while being afraid since that is all I can do and have done. I will not sip the hemlock drink without dread but with it instead, and I will take solace only in my not pretending. And hopefully, I will seem worthy in the eyes of the Gods."

>>20728686
There's no way that can be good for your health.

I'm a worthless piece of shit

>>20728952
You have worth

It's been two months and I'm still as depressed as the day we parted. We were best friends for so long and only realised our true feelings a few weeks before he left. He is the first person I think of in the morning, and the last person I think of at night. I see him in every dream. Every buzz on my phone, I hope it's him.
He tells me not to pine over him, not to hold any expectations that we'll get back together when he comes back in year... or two years... and I don't want to do that to myself either, but fuck.
I know he's not waiting around for me either. He has a life to live. I'm not mad if he's seeing new girls. I want him to be happy. A bitter voice inside just asks why couldn't it be me.
At least I can comfort myself with the fact that apparently he was a mess after we parted ways. I had to leave for a work trip a day before his flight leaving the country, so our friends saw the state he was in. And even now, though he keeps in touch with everyone, he talks to me every single day, and flirts with me too.
Maybe that's why I'm nowhere closer to moving on. That and the fact all our mutual friends keep telling me they hope we get back together when he comes back. And that we were perfect for each other. Fuck.
He's told me not to expect anything, that he doesn't know when he's coming, if I'll still live in the city, or what he'll want. And I'm not expecting anything. But it's impossible to kill a hope isn't it?

>I do not hold death in contempt, but I respect it and consider it my master though I read about and respect those who have an opposite nature; I will never not quiver in my boots when any prospect of death beckons me, but I will yield and let it subsume me; and it isn't even a subsuming since I have always been afraid and am afraid and only fancied the contrary. I will do these tasks while being afraid since that is all I can do and have done. I will not sip the hemlock drink without dread but with it instead, and I will take solace only in my not pretending. And hopefully, I will seem worthy in the eyes of the Gods.

>>20728968
>It's been two months and I'm still as depressed
>he left
boohoo gayboy

>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ackx4eYembg
wow i never realized how gay this is

take action, do something, fix your life
let the powerful play goes on and may you contribute a verse

studying Ancient Greek has made it clear that language is 100% the origin of music and poetry and music should have remained the same thing

How can you, as a man, sit there and take pictures of yourself to post on social media?
Do you not feel like a fool?
I'll never understand it, there's too much mental gymnastics going on to justify that behavior.

>>20729045
they want to get laid. the end. it's not hard to figure out.

I wish I was rich and powerful

>>20729072
Have you gotten pussy like that?

>>20728180
I wouldn’t mind at all.
>>20728277
How about just the tip? Are you religious or something? Waiting is reasonable, but if there’s a real connection and trust established I don’t think there’s any reason to wait for marriage.
But then, I don’t care about the institution of marriage. I’d stay with who loved for life without it

>>20728980
this is clearly a female writing?

Fat chicks saying they’re “thick” to pretend they are attractive.
The ones that tuck their guts inside their waist high jeans to hide they’re fat

>>20729101
also fat chicks who think their flabby tits are attractive. tits only count as far as they stick out past your belly, ok.

>>20729101
Same thing in the husky male.
Matches made in heaven’s buffet line

>>20729110
Check out >>>/s/ some time. There are men who appreciate natural breasts, and even big hangers

What sort of toppings, spices or sauces do you guys have at your desk?
I just have Ketchup and MSG.

>>20726973
Our civilization is over. It was running on fumes since WW2.

>>20729151
WW1, not 2.

>>20729098
You will never be a woman?

>>20726973
Higher birth rates aren’t a measure of civilizational health.
That’s it’s lower means healthy in that we don’t feel a need to have a bunch of kids who will take care of us in old age. But this technocracy puts old folks in homes now. (The generations are categorized to separate them for no reason but to break us). But if the birthrate is falling because more people are waking up to the bleak future and can’t trust a future in these states, a rising birthrate won’t fix it.

>>20729155
it was over when they had to call vatican 1, people bitch about vatican 2, but they went three centuries without an ecumenical council after trent.

>>20729185
>Higher birth rates aren’t a measure of civilizational health.
i disagree.

>>20729199
You're also wrong. African countries have the highest birth rates anywhere and yet no civilization of their own.

>>20729185
>>20729204
Wdym?
I use population growth (ie, birth rate - death rate) as a proxy for evaluating the success of a society. Places with high birth rates are places where people feel comfortable having lots of kids. Places like Africa, Israel, etc. are successful societies on this level.

If you're like Europe or East Asia and you have a declining population, you've failed at the most basic of things. You've created a society where people prefer extinction to life.

look at me when im replying to you

>>20729213
>You've created a society where people prefer capitalism to life.
ftfy

>>20729213
You know exactly what I mean, that's why you moved the goal post to "societies".

>>20729204
every successful civilization is the result of a huge birth explosion starting form the indo-aryan diaspora, to the arab conquests of north africa, to the turkish conquest of byzantium, to the british conquest of north america. if your population is collapsing while another's is growing it's over. my american neighborhood is all egyptians because egypt has one of highest birthrates with egyptian women averaging five children including in america. i hope you like arabic.

>>20729237
I wasn't the anon you were replying to. Replace 'society' with 'civilization' and my point still stands.

>>20729231
China and Cuba have sub-replacement birthrates and are communist.

>>20729204
the german barbarians who destroyed rome didn't have a "civilization of their own" either but they sure did have a high birth rate.

>>20729253
Egypt's birthrate is 3.2, which is a little above Israel's. Arab countries in general have lower birth-rates than you'd expect for Muslim nations.

>>20729256
No, it doesn't. Sub-Saharan Africans do not have a civilization of their own.

Still dragons

>>20729271
>rolls eyes
Okay anon, their version of Western civilization is more successful than Europe's or America's. Happy?

>>20729271
well they're going to go to your dying country and vote in people they want and make it their own. enjoy growing old with your cats.

>>20729298
They don't have their "own version" either. They have the remnants of European civilization. I wouldn't call begging all of the white farmers to come back because your people are starving to death without them after you booted them from the country a sign of success.

>>20729213
High birthrates are also associated with precarious living standards. They make more children to support them in old age. Now lower birthrates are a sign of prosperity, but this is in a modern lifestyle where women can decide how many kids they want. They usually opt out of large families. I guess what I’m trying to say is that it’s not the best indicator anymore. There many factors. To consider. We certainly don’t need more people, and I don’t even mean to echo the global oligarchy who actively want to grind up a lot of human refuse

>>20729317
>We certainly don’t need more people,
So long as Africans are breeding like AIDS rats we do.

>>20729267
>Egypt's birthrate is 3.2,
that's almost twice america's. we can import them and try to boost our shitty numbers, but suppose they decide they'd rather go somewhere else?

>>20729317
>They usually opt out of large families.
Do they opt out of it, or are they just financially unable to have the number of kids they want? The very wealthy have more kids than the middle class, for example. Maybe the middle class couple want more kids but can't afford it.

>>20729312
>>20729323
This arrogance regarding Africa is my biggest pet peeve when it comes to politics on 4chan. They have higher birthrates you idiots, they are doing something right. Learn something from them instead of gloating about your supposed superiority.

>>20729326
>suppose they decide they'd rather go somewhere else?
Oh nooooooo

>>20729317
america's economic peak was during the boomer's coming of age. it's not a coincidence.

>>20729334
Got it, you're just pretending to be retarded.

>>20729337
do you see how absolutely dead cities with declining populations are? i luckily live in a desirable area where the population is growing rapidly, but having the entire midwest full of hollowed out hellscape is not going to be sustainable.

>>20729337
so you think you're going to have low birth rates AND no immigration? good luck with that.

>>20729351
Filling it with unproductive brown people isn't sustainable either.

Had my talk last friday with my employer about me moving abroad in dec/jan
The idea I had was to NEET it up from September to then.
But they were more understanding than I thought and have no issue with keeping me on for 3 days a week until then (I will be following courses 2x a week)

I was really looking forward to going NEET mode for a few months. But I guess that would be a bad thing. Better to make money in the meantime. Still living the dead wagie life for another 3 months minimum I guess.

>>20729356
You forgot Japan exists. Better luck next time with your intellectual dishonesty.

>>20729356
The world will have to solve that scenario, and sooner than you might think. Africa will not be a place which exports people forever. Our economic system is a Ponzi scheme built on infinite growth but that won't last.

Literally the only writing I did was during the prodromal phase of schizophrenia, it sucked, and now I can't write or think anymore.

>>20729357
well if you're not going to have kids that's what's going to happen.

>>20729373
Japan and China are full of brown people?

This kindof sucks because when I show my friends my stories, they absolutely love it despite my clumsiness, and while I am really really happy that they like it, I wish they could also spot these problems and tell me it without me having to rely on you guys, dont get me wrong im very very thankful for all the pointers you have given me, but Id prefer if you guys weren't my last resort.

>>20729373
I'm a father of 4 industrious white sons.

>>20729364
remember when japan almost conquered east asia all the way from korea to the philippines? how's japan been doing lately? putting out a lot of cartoons i guess.

>>20729386
How's America doing these days?

>>20729383
oh now you're a family man, i guess you were only larping as a cat lady up the thread there

>>20729393
wow thanks for inferring my point

>>20729401
No problem roastie.

>>20729394
Seethe and cope mudbaby.

>>20729403
>>20729405
you will, sadly, never have sex. say hi to your imaginary sons.

>>20729412
You're angry and upset because you lost a simple argument.

>>20729345
The wealthy having more children than the middle class in America is well-documented.

>>20729412
You did both! I guess you can read after all. You must be the smartest mudbaby on the internet.

>>20729414
oh we've reached the stage where you graceless misdirect the thread. you could have just stopped replying, but that's fine. at least you now have some understanding why a falling birth rate is a problem.

>>20729431
I pwned you.

I don't know what to read.

>>20729435
Read Between Two Fires

I've been wearing those surgical masks for covid while shitting so I don't smell my stink. It's genius. It's the only use I have for those masks nowadays.

I am my fathers son.

>>20729445
I put a towel over my legs so the smell doesn't hit too bad.

>>20729431
>where you graceless misdirect
You're literally sweating right now.

Im sitting in the shotgun seat and the cars name is my life.

Why is everyone so dumb? Surely the fancy bookreaders will prove me wrong, turn the tables and and show me how dumb I am. Nope.

>>20729478
So smart there's no need to impress a pleb

A subtle hireath, not my own,
taunts me, but delightedly so.

>>20729478
dunno if 4chan is such a great place to hold such debates or shitflinging, especially in a thread where people are just putting their thoughts on a basket weaving site but im just a dumbass writing a dumb anime story because I thought it was fun.

bros...

>>20729484
I want to be intellectually dominated and humiliated by a big strong brain. Dominate me senpai.

>>20729518
good writer

>>20729386
How’s that third decade of recession?

>>20729540
yea i read a few of his short stories. what are some good ones?

>>20729564
idk but i was blown away by the one with the depressed car salesman

>>20729572
do you know the name? ill check it out

>>20729580
https://magazine.nytyrant.com/how-can-i-tell-you/

Though pain and sadness often take their grip on me; though I often feel dismayed, indifferent, and listless; though I regularly find myself attracted by pessimism about the state of the world, about politics, about the human condition itself; though I positively hate myself in almost every day of my life; yet I know that Christ loves me. I know that Christ is waiting with open arms for me to return to him every moment. I know that he desires most of all the perfection of my soul and all of his creation. I know I will be changed. I know the creation will be exalted. I know that my Redeemer lives.

>>20729585
thanks bro

>>20729599
christ is very disappointed with you and has a long list of all the times you've masturbated

>>20729606
Read the parable of the prodigal son.
> I tell you that in the same way there will be more rejoicing in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who do not need to repent.

Trying to get back into the swing of things. Tell me what you think.

An astronaut finds himself alone, on a doomed collision course with his destination. An excerpt:

“This is specialist Meyer, there seems to have been an incident.”
Alarms blared in the background, so many in number that their purposes were indistinguishable. One by one, switches were thrown behind the camera, and the cacophony was brought to a manageable din. Finally, a gloved hand appeared in-frame, tapping a large red warning on a touchscreen that read “MASTER ALARM”.
In the silence that followed, Meyer’s breath licked at the microphone. Shuddering, adrenaline-filled huffs that betrayed his attempt at a professional demeanor. He drew in a long breath of precious atmosphere, and choked down his despair. The moment had passed, and now it was time to work the problem.
“We just finished the TMI-1 burn. I heard and felt a huge bang or explosion or something. I don’t know how bad it is, but I think the others, in my compartment at least, are dead.”
He brought the camera to an ovular porthole, washed in screaming white sunlight. As the brightness sensor adjusted, the extent of the damage became apparent. A million bits and pieces, ranging from man-sized chunks to imperceptible flecks, now spun and flashed outside the window. Had it not been for the circumstances, Meyer thought, the eerie ballet would have been astonishing. In this moment, however, it was a danse macabre.
“I have good reason to suspect that mainline comms are down.”
An S-Band antenna floated gaily past the porthole.
“I’m recording this so that if secondary comms come online, or still exist for that matter, this can be transmitted at a later point.”
Or if all else fails, the recovery team would have enough evidence for a thorough investigation. If it ended up being that a technician forgot a sponge somewhere in one of the millions of tubes that made up the Wonder, Meyer swore he would become that man’s personal poltergeist.
“My suit has inflated, so it’s going to be a little hard to move. I’m going to try and make it to the cockpit to get more information.”
With that, he tapped the “disconnect” button on his phone, and felt the headset inside his helmet buzz twice to let him know it was turning off. The ability to record both the internal voiceover from inside a helmet, and the external soft winds of the Martian environment with a commercial phone, was thought to be a public relations boon. Now, it would be driving the public relations disaster.
Meyer clipped his phone into the mount on his arm, and made his way over to the door. He tried to focus only on the blue anodized handrails, going arm over arm, praying he wouldn’t have to look at his crewmates. A red blob, viscera of some kind, was slowly tumbling at the edges of his vision. He felt his stomach fall another hundred feet, yet mustered some robotic will to keep moving to the door. He had to keep working the problem.

>>20729615
read the parable of st. ligma

>>20726883
I, too, feel the "who gives a shit" curse. We were, I think, at least, supposed to be parts of communities where helping the group at large would have been the "*we* give a shit". We do not have this, and many people are simply anonymous workers for any given corporation. Motivation and morale are scarce for those of us playing the game of life on single player mode.

i have been filled with euphoria all day at the thought of Proust's writing

in the past 4 days i have condensed all of german grammar down to nine pages of notes and I created over 400 flash cards

>>20729625
Lately I’ve been more and more tempted by the view that comedy and humour are extremely pernicious to the soul. Because when we make everything into a joke we lose not only the possibility for sincere communication, but even the possibility for sincere personal experience. It is much easier to make light out of life than it is to face it head-on, but are we happier when we laugh at everything? I think comedy and humour are really cruel, at the heart of it, though they wear a friendly facade. They seek to make everything nihilistic and meaningless.

It’s nicer to look at a woman from afar and desire her than it is to actually have her. Kissing, as I recently found out, is extremely awkward and clumsy. When you kiss your tongue scrapes across the front of the other person’s teeth, and saliva goes everywhere. Also squeezing a woman’s boobs or posterior is a rather bland experience. It’s interesting at first to see how your body differs to hers but it’s not long before you get used to it. Cuddling is also very clumsy; it’s hard to get comfortable and one feels the urge to constantly change positions. And yet women are lovely to look at; and when you look at them you want to touch them; but when you touch them it’s underwhelming. I hope sex will be better.

>>20729662
You have to give the devil his due and the best way to do that is to forgive him. It's not submission but acceptance.
Humor helps communication. Irony and satire are what tend to have cynical aspects, both have history in Greek plays. The cynical irony being expressed in humor is not a problem with humor, that's the tool they're using to express their cynicism. They're communicating their despair using this tool that helps people communicate.

At 29, I feel too old to really pursue the things I want to pursue.

>>20728918
Oh, how I always boast about consulting the internal yet I quite often find myself taking refuge in words of other like these. Thank you.

>>20729662
I agree. I've been saying this for years.

>>20728105
Like...a gazillion...bro

>>20729945
You've been undermining sincere communication and eroding your soul for years.

>>20729957
That's right.

lmao wsj is reporting elon musk cucked one of the google founders which caused them to get divorced. the wsj says it is "one of a string of personal issues mr. musk as faced" sounds like a bigger personal issue for sergey brin if you ask me, ha.

reality hits hard when you fuck up

>>20730113
the trick is to never attempt anything

>>20726590
Does anyone recall a archival collection of books that was sorted by decades? I'm having trouble finding it again. I found it right before they were going to release the 2000's to 2010's. I coulda swore I found it on /lit/ but can't remember.

A man walks slowly, whimpering with every step, expending all the meager supply of strength remaining in his tired muscles, unsure where precisely he fell into a path of such weakness. He reflects back on a little boy who would go on to make so many mistakes that accounting for all of them seems hopeless, and in trying, before he feels even close to being done, has already amassed a stack of papers standing so tall and casting so great a shadow that he no longer feels the warmth of the sun upon his hardened skin, and can no longer keep track of day and night much less the hour, discomposing the meager routine by which he had intended to maintain his sanity and nudge himself towards a more fertile land.

>>20730132
That's actually what I do.
I am miserable but I can't do otherwise.

>>20729662
>christcuck can't into humor
quelle surprise

>>20729662
I take religion seriously now, but I'm so damn confused. All I can really do is throw my hands up in frustration at the absurdity and if I don't somehow cope with humor I will just end up killing myself, which I obviously am hesitant do give I take religion seriously..

There is something profoundly miserable in Houllebecq's announcing in his last novel that it would be his last novel.

i am my wife's son

>>20730568
It is almost as miserable as this article about it.
https://www.dw.com/en/michel-houellebecqs-new-novel-annihilate-to-be-his-last/a-60387437

dude is the guy from salem polish or sth?

>>20730598

>>20727347
This is some very nice insight. I don't really interact with many people these days, and I do live under a rock, so stuff like this usually doesn't touch me. But to think that it really is just a switch that the powers that be can just switch when convenient for them... Wild and scary stuff.

why the fuck is google putting wikipedia so far down that i have to scroll down? is it because wikipedia has no google ads on it? how about i just go directly to wikipedia and do my searches there and then you lose my data entirely? fuck off.

>>20731015
I don't know but that's based. Wikipedia is not a reliable source of information.

4chan is reddit

I am not an incel. An incel means someone that desires a sexual or romantic partner but is unable to get one. That is not my case. That's not to say I am in a romantic relationship or have sexual relationships. I don't. I haven't had sex or been in love for the last 6 years. That's a statement of fact, not a humble brag. What I've lived in those last years has nothing to do with the soul-crushing anguish that incels usually feel.
There's a reason why I don't have sex, or don't look for love. It's simple really. The pleasure that I can feel through my penis or prostate doesn't even begin to compare to the pleasure I can feel with my brain. The penis and the prostate belong to the physical world, they inherit its limitations. The pleasure I can feel with my brain, however, is infinite.
Now, physical sex usually doesn't prevent you from "brain sex". But in some specific cases, it can. That's because of two elements. First, I am gay. I am a man that is sexually attracted by other men. If I have sex, it is with men. Second, there are some things that you can't do if you had sex with another man recently.
In my case, it's one specific thing: blood donations. That's what I get off to. There's nothing that gets me going like knowing that my life force is being slowly drained away. Seeing the blood bag slowly fill up. Feeling my own warmth through the plastic tube. The weakness that lasts for a few hours after. There is nothing like it for me, no greater pleasure.

From the silence, from the cries.
From the uneasiness of your eyes.
From the half truths, from the lies.
I know that something is awry.

So tell me then, tell me the truth.
I won't go and ask for proof.
Because as things are
And as they were
All I can do is infer.

>>20731101
If I was a woman I would take this as a sign of your competence. It would contribute to my evaluation of you as a potential caregiver and source of beneficial genes.

If women think in streams of consciousness, men must think in the planning of aqueducts.

Every time someone makes a post about women it’s in hopes that a woman replies to them.
You losers are so pathetic lole.
Not me tho.

>>20731458
I'm trans btw, if that matters

>>20726984
>tards actually believe this is legit
cmtsu

>>20731458
That doesn't make sense, most of us are here precisely because we don't have to deal with femholes. They're cancer to online environments, they turn every forum into Reddit.

>>20731461
Nothing about you matters to anyone.

>>20731478
Another post attempting to get a woman to refute what you’re saying.
Pretty cringe bro…

>>20731479
uhm where are the peer-reviewed studies for this outragous claimerino?

>>20726590
Last night I got blackout drunk and walked home from the bar. On my way back to the crib I ran into a femoid walking all by herself. Beat the shit out of her for no reason and snatched her purse so she would blame it on a nigger.

>>20731507
Probably Scarlet Johansson

>>20731516
>Scarlet Johansson
Small idol from Ionia. Why did the Mossad name her that? Are they making fun of me?

>>20726751
do you have any house

>>20726876
funniest shit i read

its weed time ahahaha

>>20731804
It's*

Hey fuck you faggots for not reading my astronaut story excerpt, I'll post it on some obscure forum instead

>>20731851
Hey fuck you for not making it good

>>20731811
what's a movie I should watch

>>20731876
Zack and Miri Make a Porno because I hate you

>>20731898
what do you hate about me

>>20731905
You're a fag.

>>20731876
the cell by tarsem sinbh it's on sale on itunes for $5 rn, it has bad ratings but if u know what tarsem singh movies are like u don't watch it for it to be good u watch it to be dazzled by sublime visuals and the cell is singh at his most psychedelic

>>20731911
https://youtu.be/vsT6Zfm_9GU
>>20731917
ill check it out

>once I finish reading against the day, I will be out of "good" Pynchon novels to read
bros...

Fake « Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ » and v_v didn't have what it takes to make it. I get it though, not everyone is cut out for this line of work. Being a tripcode is tough.
https://youtu.be/-AK6X9XNihw

>>20731987
no trips last forever and you won't either. since you don't read eventually you'll find some other forum to blog into.

>>20732004
i only use this site for blogposting in these threads but yes i will disappear from here once my work is complete.
also i like short stories but dont really care to discuss them with you guys as i dont seem to enjoy reading as much as you guys do

>>20732016
oh wait, do they make you put trips on to verify you are actually present on the site? did you apply generally and they randomly assigned you to /lit/ even though you probably wanted to do /mu/? i'm sure there's an nda so you can't answer. interesting tho.

>>20731866
Feck off cunt you didn't even read it

>>20732170
>Feck off cunt
No
>you didn't even read it
Yes
Should have made it good and I would have

>>20726590
I’m 150 pages into hegel’s phenomenology of spirit and am getting filtered hard right now. Should I just push through and finish it and grasp what I can or drop it and go back to basics?

>>20732250
i was listening to the audiobook of it one day and it got so absurd i authentically started laughing. i shut it off and never took hegel seriously again.

>>20731876
>Andrei Ruble
>Tree of Life
>Tekkonkinkreet
>Son of the White Mare
Take your pick anon.

>>20731077
Reject degeneracy

>>20726590
Why tf is this site so slow lately? I also keep getting SSL error pages.

Fix it hiromoot

Stop posting, we can't create new threads anymore.

Is zombie popularity a result of anxiety about our consciousness (widespread knowledge of dementia and other neurological disorders, mindlessness from the swaths of menial desk jobs, seeing how easy people can be from politicians and ad agencies among many others things) or something else?

>>20732478
Zombies are faceless, raceless, creedless, humanity free, entities with no reason to exist beyond being targets.

I think it has something to do with the lack of a real concrete bad guy after the soviet collapse. The War on Terror was too nebulous. Most of the movies, and video games, from that post-911 era were about rogue agencies, PMCs, shadow government, or World War 2.

Zombies let you kill with impunity and without moral consideration. There are questions of politics, religion, culture to deal with. They are the answer to bloodlust of an increasingly integrated world.

I do wonder if the Ukraine conflict will change this. I doubt it though as it is mostly focused on Putin as an evil tyrant holding a country hostage to his whim, which is very different from cold war media involving Russians.

I feel that making friends online is harder than IRL. Like, for them to be friends friends you need to shed some degree of your anonymous facade and have a somewhat consistent identity that's also somewhat consistent with your real self, and the internet is such a minefield of insane people that the risk of running into such a retard just doesn't seem worth it. Maybe I'm too paranoid or just trying to justify my avoidancd though.

might write a script for a feature film adaptation of franks adventure

>>20732894
>a guy doing jobs just to get girls erotic pics

>>20733007
The average wagie with an onlyfans subscription

Written after reading the five love languages book and playing guitar

It hurts so much this morning. I'm fine never seeing her again. I always assumed it would end up like this someday. But to have done her harm like this: it's unbearable.
It's unacceptable to live with the guilt. It's equally useless to harm myself: nobody gets any satisfaction from that and it goes nowhere. I need someone to take revenge on me.

I just started watching Columbo yesterday and it's fucking great.

If I had super powers I would absolutely have used it on anyone who ever bullied me. As a kid I never stood up for myself because I didn't want to get in trouble with the school or my dad and I knew attempting to fight back would only make it worse. If I had super strength or whatever I would've left anyone who ever messed with me a weeping mess shitting on the floor and I would've loved it

>>20733226
Untermensch moods.

The walls are closing in a soon I will need a job. I need one now, really, but I have money to stay afloat for a little while longer. I understand that nany things that have happened to me in my past make doing things now very difficult (for the love if God, if any parent reads this, PLEASE do not isolate your children, and make sure they have responsibilities). I consider suicide daily, sometimes by the hour. I have the means to do it, as well. I feel as though that's not the proper way "out", but then I remember I never really wanted to be "in".

Key takeaways:
>Don't be alone
>Have shit you have to do from a young age, and have consequences if you don't
>DON'T BE ALONE

>>20733226
Contradictory statements. Anon.
Now those bullies are cops and you’re wagie age.
Other bullies come in here and tell us things can never change and they’ve always been this way and don’t even think about making life fair.
Schools don’t educate us to be anything other than this. Hate it so

>>20733266
Get out of my head. Stop writing about me.

>>20733290
>making life fair
If someone has to make it fair, it isn't fair

>>20733316
There’s one now.
Alligator mother prick.

>>20733316
>If life was meant to live, me would have have food in belly already all time!!

I feel stuck

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>>20733418
Get it out

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>>20733394
Stop seeing enemies everywhere. I'm saying this because I see my past mentality in you and would rather no one lived like that, since I know how painful it is.
Nobody is trying to hurt you. Nothing is holding you back that others worse than you have not broken free of before. You are not solely responsible for your current place in life, but you are the only one who can meaningfully change it.
If I didn't care, if I really wanted to hurt you, I wouldn't say anything. You are doing yourselves more hurt like this than anyone ever could.

>>20733313
How did you end up in your current situation?

>>20733441
Kind of an odd post coming from someone who just told me to give up on trying to make a world more fair and just. The about-face is understood and appreciated. I’m fine

>>20733587
>trying to make a world more fair and just
Because you can't. You can help yourself, or you can wallow in resentment.

>>20733598
Hahaha. You don’t understand how the world works. I do understand how difficult it is to alter the course of the river, but it’s been done.