/lit/ - Literature

>>22616862
As my teacher, master, and friend.

>>22616862
I once knew you, but didn't accept you.
You never found that reason. You kept pushing me away. I hate you.

>>22616929
Soulless faggot

>>22617244
I am full of gifts anonymous?

>>22616929
Why didn't you accept him? Because the cross is too heavy to bear by yourself. I absolutely want to connect with people but alas, people are not good. And now you dare want to connect with me.

Jesus was most likely a cult-leader who said things of common wisdom. It is only as "profound" sounding as you are impressed by self-help books and spiritual cult charisma.

If I meet him in Heaven, and he really was the real thing, I'd probably just shrug and tell him we used to be friends back when I was a kid and that I hope he remembers me. I used to like him. But his believers were spiteful, sadistically evil people who hurt me, and not only that, but the entire mythology is illogical and not realistic to believe in if you actually care about truth. But if he really is waiting there for me...

If he looks upon me, an atheist, with a face that shows no recognition, no love for me, no fond memories of our previous friendship when I was young, then I know very well a spiteful traitor when I see one. If he simply gives that same sadistic smile other Christians give as they mock you, hate you, and wish for you to be crucified for being a transgender girl, and he pulls the lever that opens the gates to hell, I think I might have just enough energy in my dead corpse to leap forward and wring his shitty little neck for being a shitty little traitor to a child who once shed tears as she prayed for mercy and received none.

On the other hand, perhaps he's not so bad. I had shed tears for Jesus too once, wondering why people would hurt and crucify a person with such a pure, benevolent heart as he. Maybe if I met him in the afterlife, he'd explain EVERYTHING to me, and I'd understand that he was really my friend the whole time. We'll see. In the end, I expect death to be as bleak and terrible as my instincts imply it will be.

Eternal Darkness Forever and Ever.

>>22617270
Traitor? Of what exactly? Call someone a Judas and let slip the hounds of war Michael. I remember my mercy becoming stronger. Can your Fuhrer say the same?

>>22617270
You're a shitty negro.
You get privileges because you're black
Fair?

>>22617284

If I was to arrive in Heaven, and see Jesus, I'd recognize him as a childhood friend. If he did not recognize me as a friend, and decided to cast me into hell, he'd be a traitor.

Of course I'm an atheist in this world. But that doesn't mean that if I'm wrong about that one little fact, that I should go to hell. Jesus should recognize that we were friends once, and be kind to me due to that.

If not, then he's a traitor. I'll offer an olive branch once I meet him, and if he rejects it, then he's malicious and that's that. We'll just have to see what happens. Until there's proof, this entire concept is just a pipedream.

>>22617298
What should I do then? If it's just a dream.

>>22617298
What's wrong with mixing the most powerful mind with marijuana? Disdain for plebs face?

>>22617308
If life was a dream. I don't want to accept that I am alive because of the meds they put me on.

>>22616862
You all are weak minded sheep. unable to think for yourselves

>>22617320
>tips fedora

Christ is King and Lord.

>>22617270
YWNBAW

>>22617298
The fact that you are even having these thoughts about Christ is a pretty strong indicator that you still have an attachment to him. No matter what pain his believers may have caused you, know that he himself has always loved you and will continue to love you, no matter how hard your troon brain might try and convince you otherwise. There's a lot in your post, but I'd like to address just this one point.
>but the entire mythology is illogical and not realistic to believe in if you actually care about truth
I am going to reference the Bible.
>Inb4 le fairytale storybook.
I am not a Protestant, if that means anything to you.

>Pilate therefore said to him: Art thou a king then? Jesus answered: Thou sayest that I am a king. For this was I born, and for this came I into the world; that I should give testimony to the truth. Every one that is of the truth, heareth my voice.
>Pilate saith to him: What is truth?
John 18:37-38

The amazing scene about this passage is the literal Greek irony in Pilate's question. In one sharp statement, Jesus perfectly summarizes the point of his ministry on earth: to bear the truth. Pilate is completely oblivious to what
Christ just has told him due to his inability to placate the seething Jews looking for a reason to revolt. When Pilate asked "what is truth," the answer is literally starting him in the face. Christ is the truth, the source of the Good. You are absolutely right when you ask why someone would do this to Jesus, "a person with such a pure, benevolent heart as he."
He did it for you. He died for you just so you could come to know him. He'll never abandoned you, no matter how trooned out you may become. He won't approve of your actions, nor will many of the church, but we are called to live as he did and live by what he said. That is the cross we all must bear. Yours is obviously heavier than others, but he will bear it with you, as he already has for you.

He will always remember that child you were, and He will never abandoned the person you've become. Maybe it will take Jesus to explain it all to you one day, but please keep your heart open to him a little bit. Even if you completely reject the church, hate all Christians, and are absolutely sure there is no God. Even if you believe in NOTHING metaphysical or supernatural, and your a cringe I FUCKING LOVE SCIENCE materialist, you can at least agree Jesus is a person that people should try to emulate and had flawless, novel moral teachings.

Pls don't abandon him, little troon.

>>22616862
I’m bipolar so I can’t make head or tail of my beliefs. I see everything in my life as a gift from God and devoutly pray one day then the next I think everything is chance and set for failure and I watch filth and pull on my dick for pleasure. Fuck it.

>>22619353

I quote Jesus nearly any time I speak of truth or love or benevolence. I think Jefferson had the right idea: Cross out all the magic and miracles, and anyone can see that Jesus' words stand alone as wisdom.

So that's what he did. Thomas Jefferson literally cut out the magic from the Bible, and let it sit as if Jesus was a real person who did not cast out demons, cure the blind, nor do anything magical or supernatural. In other words, if Jesus was to appear before us today, do you really expect him to be playing magic tricks that compete with modern technology and medicine?
That would look archaic and obsolete in this day and age. Too much sci-fi, and if he pointed to the sky and a rainbow appeared, people would think he's just some government spook using technology to emulate miracles.

The only thing that would prove his worth are his words and real life actions. But as I said in another thread, I simply believe it is fair for each and every person, if they were to reach Heaven, to be given ten minutes or so to talk to Jesus or God, and have ten minutes to repent, to forgive, to accept the Truth.
Christians who are in a cult want followers NOW, so they do that marketing-email trick, where they say, "Time is running out! Make your decision quickly, before you die, because if you don't join the cult before you die, you go to HELL."

That sort of thing turns the entire religion into a mere cult; a joke, except filled with the horror of what it means to be transgender in this day and age where people openly mock me, despise me, want to crucify me. All I do is dress in my style, and have long hair. Effectively, I look like the most common depiction of Jesus, and I quote Jesus at least once a day. I had wanted to be a priest once, so I had studied the Bible well.

I always felt a call to truth, but my analysis of truth did not yield Christianity, nor Islam, nor Communism, nor Judaism, not Hinduism, nor dogmatic-science, nor Marxism, nor fascism, nor any ideology at all, nor any religion, nor any social-trend, nor even transgender, at least as anything other than just how I live and dress myself on a fairly casual level.

No, my search for truth has yielded just one thing:

The quest for truth is the truth. Living life. Loving people; family, friends, and neighbors. Asking questions, about the darkest truths, about a friend's casual hobbies. Being open. Having fun. Being alive. Finding peace with life; with death. To understand the nature of suffering. To have courage in spite of fear. To know that I cannot know truth. I can only perceive truth from my single perspective.

When I think of truth, I think that Pilates was right. The question is the answer: "What is truth?" But he stopped asking, and decided to silence people with death instead. Silence the angry masses; silence the one who speaks. Silence is not an answer. Silence is absence of sound. Darkness is absence of light. Hate is absence of love. Death is the absence of life.