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Anonymous Thu Mar 22 21:38:02 2018 No.10882902 [Reply] [Original]

Write whats on your mind

Posted from my iPhone.

>>	Anonymous Thu Mar 22 21:42:39 2018 No.10882923 phone posters should all be gassed posted from my shitty korean cell phone.

>>	Anonymous Thu Mar 22 21:43:21 2018 No.10882924 >>10882902 My life is going good and I ow it all to God. Posted from my interactive journal simulator

Anonymous Thu Mar 22 21:48:45 2018 No.10882947

Someone posted a picture here on /lit/ yesterday that I believe was a photo of someone I used to care about very much. It was a girl in a dress, short black hair, her face turned away from the camera. I could have sworn it was who I thought it was. I knew her neck, her hair, her ear, her fingers, her dress, the cabinets behind her, the lighting of the room, it all looked so familiar. I'm 99% sure it was her. But I couldn't see her face. It was like a bad dream, except here on /lit/, the place I haunt to put thoughts about her out of my mind. The more I think about it, her current boyfriend is probably the kind of guy who would post here.

>>	Anonymous Thu Mar 22 21:49:32 2018 No.10882950 >>10882924 My life is not going good and I owe it all to God. Posted from my gameboy advance

Anonymous Thu Mar 22 21:51:38 2018 No.10882958

>>10882902
Funny story. My father was taller than him. In aircraft mechanic school we played hackysack during our breaks. The other guys bragged about how badly their fathers beat them. I told them that my father was 7'2" and his weight ranged between 250-500lbs. They asked me if he beat me. I told them that he beat me with a Volkswagen. They literally ROFL'd good times. Thats what comes to mind. He didn't beat me by the way. Just knowing that he was angry was enough to scare you.

Anonymous Thu Mar 22 21:57:42 2018 No.10882973

Everyday when I walk home there is a Jamaican man walking in the opposite direction singing his heart out along to music from his headphones. At first he disturbed me, but I've gradually begun to enjoy my encounters with him. It feels like something is missing on days when I don't see him.

Posted from my Pleiades supercomputer.

>>	Anonymous Thu Mar 22 21:59:39 2018 No.10882985 >>10882950 I am God and my life is going good. Posted from my Game Boy Advance SP

Anonymous Thu Mar 22 22:01:43 2018 No.10882995

I can't stop drinking. It's making me persistently unwell and nauseous every day and I'm certain it will, one way or another, lead to my death before the age of fifty. I am so used to drinking while writing that when I tried to sober up in the fall, I went 37 days without writing a single sentence. I had no inspiration, no vision, no nothing. Now I'm back on the sauce and thinking about tying up my affairs for when I eventually get hospitalized.

>>	Anonymous Thu Mar 22 22:04:46 2018 No.10883010 >>10882995 When did you start drinking? Why do you think you drink so much?

>>	Anonymous Thu Mar 22 22:07:30 2018 No.10883021 >>10882995 I want to drink with you anon and talk about literature.

Anonymous Thu Mar 22 22:09:26 2018 No.10883027

>>10883010

I got drunk for the first time when I was thirteen. Touched alcohol at most once or twice a year until high school. Didn't become a problem until I was 20 when I slowly started drinking after school and work. Now it's every single day.

Why? Nothing I can disclose here, other than conditioning and a lack of real-world pursuits.

>>	Anonymous Thu Mar 22 22:10:06 2018 No.10883030 File: 49 KB, 625x461, url-3.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Just read up on this pic related. Any books similar to what he did?

Anonymous Thu Mar 22 22:13:15 2018 No.10883042

>>10883021

I would like that too. The thing is, there's a ceiling on how much you can drink before conversations lose their sheen.

Good conversations about literature, history, politics, and culture are one of the last things in my life that are still enjoyable. For those of you who don't know what alcoholism is like, imagine the ten things that you enjoy the most in your life right now. Ten. Now imagine that, no matter what you do, every three or four months, one of those things will stop being enjoyable. You will lose it forever.

And now imagine that you know this, and your brain and body still convinces you to buy another bottle.

>>	Anonymous Thu Mar 22 22:19:13 2018 No.10883073 File: 3.84 MB, 2209x2945, 1521687009943.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>10882947 im not the original poster

Anonymous Thu Mar 22 23:55:08 2018 No.10883557

>>10882973
that used to happen to me and one day i made eye contact with him and the next time we passed he invited me to smoke weed in an ally, now looking back on it maybe he was a homosexual but i was brainwashed by rap music to think black gays didnt exist back then, anyway i bought like an 8th off him, it was ok weed

>>	Anonymous Thu Mar 22 23:59:44 2018 No.10883579 >>10882995 >needs to be drunk to write i think the poetic duo Mobb Deep put it best when they said: >real niggas don't try to profile >You just a chump who needs to get drunk to buckwild

Anonymous Fri Mar 23 00:02:20 2018 No.10883588

oh shit 12am friday morning, new music on apple music, <dj clue voice> NEEWW SHIIIIIIT </dj clue voice> that new unknown mortal orchestra album better be out i couldnt find a copy of the leak, then again umo the kinda band has two good songs per album and i already heard the singles, anyways lets see

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 00:04:11 2018 No.10883596 >>10882958 If I were from a line of giants I'd become a boxer or a soldier

Anonymous Fri Mar 23 00:17:33 2018 No.10883644

I’m drunk. I didn’t mean to be drunk but I am. My roommates wanted to go to Del Taco for the surf and turf burrito - steak and fried shrimp. Not lobster, but would you expect lobster? Actually for a second I did. Anyway I took pulls from the handle of Svedka I bought the other day. I don’t drink much but it’s the year anniversary of my father’s death tomorrow. Death. It’s strange. I would like to write for him a long piece with stories of how I saw him... This idea intimidates me more than it excites me. Paul Thomas Anderson made Magnolia in the wake of his father’s passing. I have made nothing. I wrote a song, it was okay. It was on ukulele so people would probably find it stupid. But I guess not everyone can write a song. You all might be amused by this: my father was very similar to Franz Kafka. Incredibly low self-worth with an overbearing father. Although when Dad read The Trial he understood none of it. He was a pleb that way. But he was the kindest man I’ll ever know.

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 00:27:35 2018 No.10883667 >>10883644 I have this disease late at night sometimes involving alcohol and /lit/.

Anonymous Fri Mar 23 00:28:23 2018 No.10883671
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>>10882902
My girlfriend is far from perfect. She obsesses over her marketing job, gossip, money, and material things like jewelry and clothes. In the three months we’ve been together, she has not read a single page of a single book. Sometimes she likes to talk about guys who flirt with her just to ignite a reaction in me, and this makes me angry.

Nonetheless, she is redeemable. She possesses certain qualities I love and respect: work ethic, physical beauty, an open mind, a positive outlook, a generous heart. She comes from a good family. She loves me, she cares about my happiness, and she often goes above and beyond to put a smile on my face when I’m down. She also smells like lavender and honey, and when I find a sweater or scarf she’s left behind on my apartment, I often sniff them lightly and feel a warmth come over me.

The truth is, she may be a little shallow now. But we’re young, and she’s far busier than I, which leaves her little time to do things like read or write, things she claims she wants to do. I’d thought very briefly of leaving her for someone else, someone more like me. But honestly, I feel grateful to have someone in my life after all these years who loves me for who I am. I don’t need her to change. In fact, I plan to love her and nurture her and introduce her to things that I believe will enrich her life, that we may be fulfilled together.

Anonymous Fri Mar 23 00:29:09 2018 No.10883676

Facts are simple and facts are straight
Facts are lazy and facts are late
Facts all come with points of view
Facts don't do what I want them to
Facts just twist the truth around
Facts are living turned inside out
Facts are getting the best of them
Facts are nothing on the face of things
Facts don't stain the furniture
Facts go out and slam the door
Facts are written all over your face
Facts continue to change their shape

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 00:31:06 2018 No.10883682 >>10883676 yo u gotta rap that over an old school 80s beat

Anonymous Fri Mar 23 00:33:13 2018 No.10883685

no way man craigslist shut down their personals section due to that stupid human trafficking law congress just passed, now how am i going to find gay guys weed to smoke or trannies? damn man this is truly fucked, i would often read the m4t and t4m posts when fappin, shit man this blows

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 00:46:18 2018 No.10883745 >>10883685 It is a sign from God for you to change your ways.

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 00:48:25 2018 No.10883754 >>10883745 >>10883745 how is it that craigslist has to shut down but tinder is still a thing, dont tell me tinder isnt full of hookers

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 00:50:08 2018 No.10883764 >>10883685 >no way man craigslist shut down their personals section due to that stupid human trafficking law congress just passed thought they shut that down back in 2011

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 00:51:21 2018 No.10883768 >>10883745 i'm sure r/sissyhypno will hip me to the new spots, unless they got caught up in that recent reddit purge, the powers that be are really crackin down, 4chan better be careful

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 00:52:00 2018 No.10883770 >>10883685 Just go on >>>/lgbt/

Anonymous Fri Mar 23 00:54:11 2018 No.10883778

>>10883764
the shut down the "sexual services" section which was 100% hookers, but they left up the regular casual encounters section which in the straight parts like w4m was basically just black prostitutes and the occasional russian or dominican, but the gay section was rad u could meet wall street dudes, insane cross dressers, old dom dads going back to stonewall and shit, always a chance to find excitement and stds, i only really hooked up with a couple people from it in the 2000s when i was younger and waaay hornier, but i still read it and occasionally would send long ass erotic emails to people lol

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 00:55:13 2018 No.10883783 >>10883770 why but that's all weebs and kids in their mom's basement in the suburbs, in the m4m sections you could meet grownfolks from the city

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 00:56:59 2018 No.10883789 >>10883778 fucking disgusting >>10883768 on account of you trying to fuck underage boys yeah

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 00:58:11 2018 No.10883794 >>10883789 sorry never met any priests on there. try your local church faggot

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 01:05:29 2018 No.10883821 >>10882985 I don't believe in god, and I'm not sure how I'm doing in life. Posted from my Game Boy Micro

Anonymous Fri Mar 23 01:12:02 2018 No.10883835 [DELETED]

You say Socrates, I say Milo Yiannopalous

You say Kant, I say Ben Shapiro

You say Kiekegaard, I say Sargon of Akkad

You say Schopenhauer, I say Jordan Peterson

You say Plato, I say Alex Jones

You say Stirner, I say Richard Spencer.

92% of teenagers have turned to MEME and KEKED philosophers. If you are part of the 8% that is A RED PILLED REAL MAN who still reads REAL PHILOSOPHERS, paste this on 5 different videos and DON’T LET THE JEWS WIN.

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 01:24:51 2018 No.10883874 >>10883794 I'm talking about (You) all who try to flirt with and have sex with teenage and pubescent boys, go on any of the gay boards on this site and that's what its filled with, hebes and ephebes and a minority of actual unironic pedos

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 01:30:28 2018 No.10883889 >>10883874 sorry i dont go on the gay boards of this site faggot second of all this site is 18+ homophobic catholics likes u are so embarrassing everyone can tell ur overcompensating for getting diddled by a priest

Anonymous Fri Mar 23 01:35:19 2018 No.10883899

>>10883889
>homophobic
I strongly dislike gays, I'm neither afraid of them nor do I hate them. I want them to be pushed back into the shadows basically and their culture banned from public sight
>catholics
I hate catholics more than any other group of people besides Jews and Nazis
>can tell ur overcompensating for getting diddled by a priest
no one did anything to me as a kid anon, I strongly believe faggots are closely related to pedos because of certain psychological antagonisms within them. If you go onto the gay boards on this website you will see a large number of hebes, ephebes and pedophiles. this is also the case on straight hentai boards as well. All of these alternative sexualities devolve into basically lusting after minors and animals. I can't exactly say why, but I have some ideas

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 02:01:38 2018 No.10884001 >>10883899 >devolve into basically lusting after minors were you ever 14? If so, did you find any 14 year old girls attractive?

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 04:31:21 2018 No.10884400 How can anyone enjoy modern city life? This is hell, you'd be better off drinking from puddles and eating bark if only you were to escape it

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 08:39:19 2018 No.10884922 >>10883671 OFF MY BOARD REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Anonymous Fri Mar 23 10:49:06 2018 No.10885357
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It seems to be that art is primarily motivated by suffering, a well-adjusted, happy person does not feel compelled to express themselves artistically. There are, of course, happy artists, but they do not produce work of particular note compared to their stricken colleagues who are able to pour their emotional turmoil into their work and create something magnificent. Now, it is the position of most that society's evolution should be directed in such a way that reduces suffering with the ultimate goal of eradicating it entirely. This sounds beautiful and noble, but if we accept the initial premise it implies an end to art that is truly artistic.

My question is if this is a bad thing. Is art nothing but a symptom of a imperfect society and will we evolve past the need for it?

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 10:55:58 2018 No.10885377 >>10885357 Even if we stop producing art, who fucking cares? We have thousands of years of artistic endeavors to explore. The really bad possibility is us becoming unable to appreciate art.

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 13:08:10 2018 No.10885826 i used to come to 4chan for memes why the fuck are there no memes anymore? which board should i be at, everyone is stale as heckeronii and memes are fucking normie unfunny trash now.

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 13:58:00 2018 No.10886009 >>10882947 I'm fucking her right now lmao sorry bro want some pics?

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 13:59:43 2018 No.10886015 >>10885357 Do not blame artists for the faults of society, they are the only ones who have the freedom to expose them.

Anonymous Fri Mar 23 14:20:56 2018 No.10886098
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>>10882902
I'm in love with a girl from school but am in a constant state of unknowing and purgatory regarding whether or not she loves me back. One time we interact, it will be great and I'll come away from it happy and loved, but similarly, there are times when I come away feeling melancholy and sad, spending the entire evening in constant unending thought and depression. I don't know what to do: I'm planning to ask her out for the first time in a couple of weeks when we both have some time off. I'm hopeful, as there are more positives than negative in our relationship (touching hair, long glances, constant chit-chat and laughs, etc.), but small things like me always texting first just make it so hard. Like today, for example, I tried to keep talking with her after our lesson and walk back with her, as we have many times before, but it was didn't go so well as she ended up with her friends and I had to awkwardly sidle away from the group.

I know I'm probably being very autistic but I'm not going to publish my diary anytime soon and wanted to get this off my chest. Thanks /lit/.

Anonymous Fri Mar 23 14:37:18 2018 No.10886183

>>10885377
>The really bad possibility is us becoming unable to appreciate art.

Nope. The possibility is that the glut makes it impossible to appreciate good art. Appreciation is in itself a basic human skill of discerning. But each day we move closer and closer to telling each other that eating broken glass is the same as a sinful apple.

Anonymous Fri Mar 23 14:38:20 2018 No.10886186

>>10885377
That's true, but aren't the only people who really appreciate are those who are (at least somewhat) artistically inclined? The end of art and the end of the appreciation of art are probably pretty closely related.

>>10886015
I'm not blaming them at all, if anything they're victims in my formulation.

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 14:46:42 2018 No.10886218 >>10886098 How you end up feeling after your interactions with her has much more to do with you, your mood, and your perceptions than it does with her or anything she's doing. Trust me.

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 14:47:54 2018 No.10886221 >>10886186 Art isn't going anywhere you absolute donk

Anonymous Fri Mar 23 14:49:34 2018 No.10886232

>>10886098
Ask her out and you'll get an answer. The true test comes with what you'll do with it. If she says "no" what will you do? I will say that if you are emotionally drained and unsatisfied after hanging out with her, that's probably not a good sign.

>>10886218
Can you expand on this please? Interested

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 14:53:51 2018 No.10886250 >>10886218 Thanks, that's helpful :) >>10886232 Yeah: if she says yes I'll be fucking over the moon; if she says no idk... Gotta take the chance though I agree.

>>	REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE(...) Fri Mar 23 14:55:48 2018 No.10886264 File: 135 KB, 800x800, y9zlvlt49xey.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>10883671 What the other guy said.

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 15:01:58 2018 No.10886295 >>10886250 By all means go for it, but if she says no get the hell out of there. You don't want to be her friend, so don't. You'll save yourself a world of hurt.

Anonymous Fri Mar 23 15:15:40 2018 No.10886356

>>10886232
>Can you expand on this please?
I'll try. Every external thing you experience comes to you through your senses, and it is then made comprehensible by unconscious portions of your mind. When you see a person on the street, for instance, what you see is filtered through your biases, past experiences, and current general state of mind (among countless other things), and only then does your reaction consciously register. Have you ever tripped, and simultaneously heard someone laugh, and then assumed that they were laughing at you? Odds are good that they weren't, but your feelings of vulnerability at that moment predisposed you to the thought. It's like taking a picture with a scratched lens or expired film, the final product will bear the mark of the tool that produces it.

In the case of that other anon, he probably spends a lot of time thinking about this girl, maybe runs some hypothetical situations in his head about their next meeting, imagining how it will go and what her reactions portend. So when she meets her friends instead of walking home with him he takes it as a snub because he's put himself into a position where that's how you read that situation, when in reality she may have had pre-existing plans or something, and she could be looking forward to seeing him again in private.

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 15:29:35 2018 No.10886406 >>10883579 Which mobb song is that from?

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 15:43:27 2018 No.10886473 >>10885826 s4s and facebook meme pages

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 16:08:13 2018 No.10886578 How old were you when you realized so-called "smart" people are just as dumb as the rest of us? Me? I was 74.

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 16:09:28 2018 No.10886581 >>10886356 Thanks. That makes sense. Really enjoyed the second paragraph.

Anonymous Fri Mar 23 16:15:21 2018 No.10886604

What’s the deal with all this incest porn at the moment? When I get depressed/one of my relationships goes to shit I tend to rub a few out. But every time I find a pornstar worth jacking off to it seems like all she does is incest role plays. Is it really that big a market?

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 16:18:27 2018 No.10886613 >>10886578 when they didnt order crab legs at the theaters

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 17:04:06 2018 No.10886792 >>10886356 Original anon here, wow that was actually really interesting and helpful. Thanks a lot :)))) >>10886295 Solid advice desu, thanks

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 18:40:27 2018 No.10887182 >>10885357 you are mostly wrong but i'm to tiered for explanations. you got this!

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 18:46:17 2018 No.10887213 I can't stop thinking that everyone's life is better than the shit I'm producing right now. The dumbest thing is that I know that it's all for show and that we are all equally fucked up, but I can't shake this feeling off.

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 19:11:27 2018 No.10887345 >>10886604 all the good milfs are incest porn, I find myself venturing into the mom category of pornsites only because the preview picture is the best girl of them all, what proves to be right all of the time

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 19:20:54 2018 No.10887383 "At night the birds huddle in groups, puffing their feathers to an inch thick and tucking their heads to conserve heat." I want to be a bird.

Anonymous Fri Mar 23 19:26:20 2018 No.10887406

My old man raked the cinders together with a piece of cardboard and spread them judiciously over the whitening dome of the coals. When the dome was thinly covered his face lapsed into darkness but, as he set himself to fan the fire again, his crouching shadow ascended the opposite wall and his face slowly reemerged into light. It was an old man's face, very bony and hairy. The moist blue eyes blinked at the fire and the moist mouth fell open at times, munching once or twice mechanically when it closed. When the cinder had caught he laid the piece of cardboard against the wall, sighed, and said:
"Son, I've loved you."

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 19:26:22 2018 No.10887407 File: 126 KB, 1171x540, D121D9AB-7F9E-4D8F-A330-F029AA72407C.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>10883671 This is top-tier bait

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 19:28:16 2018 No.10887416 >>10886604 i've also seriously been wondering this for a while now. not that i'm complaining. mom/son is my shit. no, i did not want to fuck my mom.

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 19:34:34 2018 No.10887436 History of mankind: Man is born, man lives, man dies.

Anonymous Fri Mar 23 19:37:14 2018 No.10887446

Something that makes complete sense to me yet leaves behind all logic in parting is the idea of astral expansion.

It's the eventual fate for humanity--we've agreed upon this for some time now. Yet we'll likely never start preparing until it's too late. We're to caught with the nows.

There's something tragic in this that hangs about just far enough for me to care.

Anonymous Fri Mar 23 20:16:48 2018 No.10887589

What causes the change in demeanor whenever one switches from one language to another? Is there a word for it? As of late these thoughts have left me perplexed and anxious. I reckon the English me is the ideal I should strive for. He's somewhat articulate, confident and can dominate conversations. My German persona on the other hand is very robotic and is incapable of expressing emotions or affection. The Spanish lad in me is a dimwit, but he means well.

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 20:18:41 2018 No.10887597 >>10886604 incest, pedo baiting and borderline homosexual femdom shit is big because men are becoming psychotic eunuchs who can't get off to tits and ass anymore

Anonymous Fri Mar 23 20:18:45 2018 No.10887598

>>10887589
I can relate to this.

I feel like my attitude changes completely. In Spanish, I'm someone well spoken and musical. In French I sound quiet and solemn, in Chinese I'm thoughtful (though, probably stupid to natives) and in Russian I sound like a drunkard.

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 20:20:10 2018 No.10887604 >>10887383 this would be good opening line of your novel

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 20:22:10 2018 No.10887616 >>10887598 >I'm someone well spoken and musical I'm sure you are anon

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 20:26:33 2018 No.10887636 >>10887616 Habla por ti mismo.

Anonymous Fri Mar 23 20:34:33 2018 No.10887663

>>10887598
>I feel like my attitude changes completely. In Spanish, I'm someone well spoken and musical. In French I sound quiet and solemn, in Chinese I'm thoughtful (though, probably stupid to natives) and in Russian I sound like a drunkard.

this could be a rad opener to a novel but only if the protag is a total clown kind of douche, like notes from underground but not self-aware

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 20:36:29 2018 No.10887668 >>10887406 how u gonna see the color of his eyes in the firelight

Anonymous Fri Mar 23 20:38:16 2018 No.10887676

I used to feel betrayed by society because it hadn't prepared me for mediocrity. But over time I've come to understand that thoughts like "you'll make it one day" or "it gets better" are necessary lies that underpin society.
But now all I feel is a sort of cold, dispassionate sympathy for those of my peers that cycle the drain of hopelessness. I see it coming a mile away. "Oh, anon, you're into books, did I tell you I'm writing a novel?"
An almost predictable journey through hope, self doubt, self contempt and then finally a sort of phony nihilism. The ups and downs of someone not good enough to write stories that only children enjoy. On one level I root for them. Be better, learn the basic mistakes of history. But on another I take satisfaction from their failure. After all, was I not the same? Wasn't I the "man with an idea" preaching his unremarkable science fantasy nonsense as a "metaphor for, like, society and stuff"? Has it really been so long since I felt I could do something of note?

Anonymous Fri Mar 23 20:41:34 2018 No.10887691

>>10887676
u should chill with more immigrants, all they care about is banging out the cheapest accounting degree possible and then stacking paper, all this "if i'm not a canonical western author by the time i'm 25 i have failed at life" shit is gay as hell, get over yourself bro

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 20:43:33 2018 No.10887697 >>10887691 those are subhumans

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 20:56:45 2018 No.10887761 >>10887697 yeah thats why they have professional degrees and middle class jobs while u snackin on a tendy shitpostin from the neetcave aka moms basement

Anonymous Fri Mar 23 20:58:16 2018 No.10887765

>>10887691
I mean, I'm not going to go out and find somebody that looks foreign and then awkwardly try to befriend them just for some misbegotten notion that I'll be a more rounded person for it. But I take your point. Things could be worse.
What I will say is that I think equating the principle struggles of two alien societies is a gross over simplification and that a healthy fear of failure is good, even if I've gone too fr in my own fear.

>>10887697
look at yourself, anon. And I mean really look at what you are in the mirror and ask yourself; is this okay? Because this "johnny foreigner is responsible for all my woes" shit is just childish.

Anonymous Fri Mar 23 22:31:16 2018 No.10888114

I went to see a friend play a show for a band in her college that she invited me to. She also invited another one of her friends, she and I had met a few times before so we sat together.

After the show my other friend had to leave and go do some meeting with the band or something, so me and the other girl sat there and talked for 40 mins. We talked about a lot, mostly about our thoughts on relationships, loneliness, fears. Not really things one talks about with someone they barely know. I said how I believe there are some people who you just connect with above all others, I then realized I feel like I had a connection to her because of how meaningful our conversation was to me. So above the mundane. Yet I can't help but shake the feeling she was just entertaining me. Maybe she was enjoy the conversation also, but I couldn't stop feeling like she didn't care.

I never get to talk to a girl like that, and I'm still thinking about it quite happily, thinking it means something, thinking maybe she'll try and get in touch with me, but in reality she's probably already forgotten. I doubt there was really a connection, just me hoping there was as a way to escape my loneliness.

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 22:37:52 2018 No.10888140 File: 3.10 MB, 343x324, 1521049865998.gif [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] How does one make friends in a new city?

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 23 22:57:27 2018 No.10888225 >>10888140 Idk, I'm thinking about becoming a Catholic when I move to a new city so I can meet people at church... though I'm sure they'll all be either 80 years old or immigrants from Latin America.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 00:45:21 2018 No.10888661 File: 713 KB, 420x420, 15153691356303.gif [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] recently got a fresh hit of willpower, just as my motivation was flagging. feels fucking good man.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 00:52:28 2018 No.10888700 >>10886604 >>10887345 >>10887416 >watching professional porn i only watch the amateur stuff and only then when i find a video where they look like they love each other that shit gets me diamonds

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 00:54:15 2018 No.10888705 >>10888700 is this minimalism?

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 00:55:41 2018 No.10888714 >>10882902 war is love, love is war

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 01:17:00 2018 No.10888804 this place is basically just /pol/2 at this point, time to find a new site, the influx of alt-right retards over the last year or two has just dropped the education level too much

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 01:41:34 2018 No.10888888 >>10888804 Make sure to tell us if you find anything sow we can bail too.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 01:43:01 2018 No.10888893 File: 537 KB, 732x743, dfwpain.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>10888888 wasted

Anonymous Sat Mar 24 01:45:59 2018 No.10888901
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I want to write a Novel that at the end of the day is slightly different, more nihilistic tone than the rest of the novels that would come after it. And I don't know how people would react to it.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 01:54:02 2018 No.10888926 >>10888114 >I doubt there was really a connection, just me hoping there was as a way to escape my loneliness. iktf. I would just savor the moment.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 01:56:30 2018 No.10888930 File: 91 KB, 750x600, Combo_6d3cf0_77725.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>10883821 i am a giant faggot posted from my tin---cc-c-c-c-c-ombo breakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkker

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 01:58:26 2018 No.10888935 >>10886098 come on breh post it on here im tryna read some shit

Anonymous Sat Mar 24 02:07:06 2018 No.10888959

Iam lost in the very moment. Life is seeming to pass me by. Weeks feel to blend together, i seem to feel like nothing is happening except what i remember.
People are nice, but all of them seem fake. Nothing seems real. People use me to get something that they want. They use me to get a reaction, to make themselves feel better, to expend negative energy. To laugh at me. I am just trying to express myself. Is the expression of ones self laughable today?
Is masculinity important to me?
What masculinity am I talking about?

I want to be strong. I want my spirt to be directing. I want to be in control of my situation. But as you or I, we do not own enough resources. It used to be if you didn't have resourses you would die. Now it is you are enslaved to those who do have those resourses.

Is society worth it?
should i just go into the woods and die?

WE are all human and we share each other. Why must we pull each other down?
There is a difference between playful laughter and degradation of someone.
I laugh when someone does something I deem funny. Such as fall down, such as look a way i don't look.
Is that wrong? Or is it necessary to break tension?

Laughter is the cure to all. Laughter has never made the world a worse place. Laughter leads to happiness. I Laugh at myself because nothing should be taken as seriously as it does. I don't know.
THis shit fucked breh,
Who tryna suck sum dick?

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 02:17:28 2018 No.10888977 >>10888888 We could always try setting up a colony on endchan.

Anonymous Sat Mar 24 03:17:10 2018 No.10889127

Malory used to wear flowery clothes
Hobnobbin' with the snobs at the gallery shows
Now, I know what you doin' when you powder your nose
I could've done somethin' lookin' back, I suppose

Here come Jimmy, way too skinny
Down one forty from about two fifty
Hangin' out on the wrong side of the city
I used to have pity now I don't have any

Anonymous Sat Mar 24 04:07:35 2018 No.10889260
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all of us have a responsibility to make 4chan as good as possible.

its just like jordan peterson says: each day we all matter in the universe. we can make it a little bit better or a little bit worse. who knows what the world can be if we all try to make it better. let's start with this place.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 04:08:34 2018 No.10889263 no i dont wanna right now

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 04:24:02 2018 No.10889282 I want to stop biting and picking at my cuticles and nails and finger skin. It's very difficult trying to break this habit.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 05:12:22 2018 No.10889382 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5aV_850nzv4

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 05:32:40 2018 No.10889424 Im so horny my dudes. Im pretty sure IM the most heterosexual and horniest guy on the planet Im obsessed. Theres a burning energy flaming inside of me, begging to burst out. I either need to fuck, dance or run at all times

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 08:30:44 2018 No.10889863 >>10886406 Right back at you

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 09:40:20 2018 No.10890084 I have a choice between rightful native creatures and a thin and stray cat, but the cat mewls so pitifully

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 09:43:02 2018 No.10890095 >>10883027 I hate potheads and there’s the probability that you’ll just get addicted to both weed and alcohol, but you should become a pothead instead. Still kinda bad for you, but probably not as debilitating.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 13:08:51 2018 No.10890908 >>10886604 personally i'm only into father/daughter and brother/sister, probably because i don't have a daughter or sister.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 13:20:38 2018 No.10890962 Is bohemianism attractive, or is better to pretend that you live a normal life when interacting with people?

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 13:39:07 2018 No.10891007 File: 48 KB, 800x721, DHes5bqW0AEvHLy.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>10888888

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 13:41:10 2018 No.10891016 >>10888888 CHECKED It's time for the Exodus

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 14:13:04 2018 No.10891121 >>10883682 it's talking heads

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 14:39:01 2018 No.10891224 >>10888888 There's raddle if you're a /leftist/. The format is too reddit for my preferences though.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 14:40:30 2018 No.10891229 >>10882902 It should have been Discworld.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 15:23:06 2018 No.10891387 Listen to Haydns String Quartets https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FXCYeGovsOw&list=PL-FaA4k7UdNZRipzTZ9ibBo3BcMCf_qzP

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 16:29:07 2018 No.10891694 >>10888888 C H E C K E M H E C K E M E C K E M C K E M K E M E M M

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 17:12:37 2018 No.10891888 Marcus Aurelius for how we ought to live Nietsche for how we do Hume for what living is

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 17:16:48 2018 No.10891904 >>10891888 CHeKD

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 18:07:28 2018 No.10892114 >>10883671 I'm happy for you, anon.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 18:08:59 2018 No.10892122 >>10882902 I think that it's nonsense that people bash the 70's for disco's camp and then worship the 80's even though it was just the same thing but with a distortion peddle and heroin.

Anonymous Sat Mar 24 18:14:05 2018 No.10892159

The Buchlaworks have these two modes. This most recent piece began so tinny and makes such a dramatic use of reverb reverb that eventually it sounds like something Electroacoustic / pulsating and formless, but at other points it sounds like warm progressive electronic music because the square harmonies of the Buchla synthesizer can be programmed similar to Music Mouse and other software Laurie Spiegel uses
nah I refuse to believe this was performed live

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 19:06:06 2018 No.10892444 No matter what I do I'll never make up for missing so many key experiences while I was a teenager. While my peers move on in life I continue to dwell on the past; development arrested.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 19:47:05 2018 No.10892607 >>10892444 you didnt miss much, nothing you cant experience many times in the years to come if you cheer up and quit enjoying being sad with your cozy made up excuses

Anonymous Sat Mar 24 20:10:42 2018 No.10892700

>>10892444
Think about what your peers missed out on though. Many of them never had to find solace in literature or music or cinema or hobbies. Think about what they might be missing out on right now, or what they will almost certainly miss out on in the future. We all miss out. We all have FOMO.

Anonymous Sat Mar 24 20:38:16 2018 No.10892829

I want to read Nietzsche but am religious and the whole "God is dead" thing makes me uncomfortable. Trying to figure out if I should buy Beyond Good and Evil on Amazon. Trying to decide if I want to get a physical copy or start getting into audiobooks.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 20:49:54 2018 No.10892889 Starting a philosophy reading path. Just ordered "Mythology" by Edith Hamilton. Wish me luck, bros.

Anonymous Sat Mar 24 20:50:14 2018 No.10892891

>>10892829
You stupid idiot, you don't even know the context of the quote, and the fucking thought "oh this might disagree with my beliefs let's not read it" boy oh boy you sure are fucking dumb

>Trying to decide if I want to get a physical copy or start getting into audiobooks.
Retard

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 20:51:36 2018 No.10892895 >>10892889 Good job man, I started exactly there five years ago

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 20:53:15 2018 No.10892900 >>10892891 thanks for the help

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 20:54:12 2018 No.10892905 >>10892889 I'm reading this right now. It's like reading wikipedia.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 20:56:48 2018 No.10892912 >>10892905 Yeah same here I thought it would have more action and stuff, be more like Percey Jackson, way more epic Hope Socartes is more exciting lol

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 21:03:07 2018 No.10892941 >>10892912 I'm enjoying it and I like the brevity of most of the stories, but I feel like I can't read more than two or three sections at a time before the names just all start merging together and I feel like I'm forgetting everything I just read.

Anonymous Sat Mar 24 21:04:47 2018 No.10892948

>>10892900
i fuckin love audiobooks but unfortunately the nietzsche audiobooks produced by "naxos" are read by some douche with the most asspained faux-"noble" voice, when ever i listen to it i just want to be like "talk normal ya fuckin fag" so it's probably better to read them, if u wanna listen to some shit about nietzsche tho get "nietzsche and the post-modern condition" lectures by rick roderick, i think his family put them up for free online after he keeled over dead

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 21:09:05 2018 No.10892965 >>10892829 >https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OisdFRGlK-Y

Anonymous Sat Mar 24 21:17:49 2018 No.10893002

>>10892607
I guess, it just feels like there was a period where people were simultaneously mature enough to have interesting experiences and not burdened by responsibilities.

>>10892700
I understand this argument, but to me it's fatally flawed due to the simple fact that I, despite the hobbies and skills I've accumulated over the years, am still deeply unhappy while John GenericLife is content.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 21:19:34 2018 No.10893008 File: 149 KB, 530x600, 1518881356066.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>10889260 >its just like jordan peterson says

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 21:19:35 2018 No.10893009 >>10893002 Lol what makes you think John GenericLife is happy?

Anonymous Sat Mar 24 21:19:58 2018 No.10893012

Sitting on a south bound BNSF freight train in Fort Worth Texas, just toned up UP dispatch to talk to their side. Massive failure at Tower 55 on the Choctaw. 4 hours on duty already and won’t be departing North Yard anytime soon. Can't spell stupid without UP. Gonna be a long one.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 21:22:28 2018 No.10893021 >>10893009 He says "yeah anon my life is pretty good!" and doesn't relate to my jokes about jumping off bridges.

Anonymous Sat Mar 24 21:34:22 2018 No.10893072

As if it wasn't going over and now I still might be able, even now with all this I try and try but it never lasts. He even thought it wouldn't, now he is not what it seems. Being for the benefit of whom, and when will it be time to see what it really is.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 24 23:16:07 2018 No.10893429 >>10885357 Great artists transcend beyond that bullshit. If you are very creative and intelligent and can understand other people you can tell stories about other peoples lives that are more moving than any pathetic sob story some sad fuck can create.

Anonymous Sun Mar 25 00:49:25 2018 No.10893802

>>10893021
Try to be happy for 10 seconds, satisfied, content. And then be like, I was just happy for 10 seconds, 10 more seconds are coming up, im gonna try to be happy for those, and then try to do it. And then some time later be like, hey there are 10 seconds here, and I remember once it was possible for me to be happy for 10 seconds, im gonna try again, and then just be like, all there are is a bunch of 10 seconds that are connected together, that you can try to be happy in, its not as if you can do it in one section you can do it in every, because external circumstance dictate changes, but its worth a start, and its worth a try

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 25 00:52:05 2018 No.10893812 >>10893802 u shud expand this to like 300 pages and releases it as a self-help book called "the ten second rule" or the "the power of ten" or some shit

Anonymous Sun Mar 25 03:11:44 2018 No.10894409
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>>10892444
Daily reminder:

When you were 15, watching porn and playing video games everyday, ATTRACTIVE males your age were already having sex.
Everything was happening behind your back and no one told you because you were deemed UNFIT to participate in such sexual activities .
It was over before it even began.

Life is all about being YOUNG and cool, a generically handsome jock who lays with his virgin gf under the stars, seeing her priceless face as you first enter her pure pussy, moaning your name when her parents aren't home. Having a cool group of jock friends to hang out with...THAT is what life is all about.

Sneaking out at night to lie with your virgin gf under the stars. Penetrating her for the first time. Seeing her face in the crowd at your HS football game. Having a huge group of jock friends. You never experienced any of that. It's over. You lost at life. Time to man up and become a provider. Time to downsize and save for retirement. Time to acknowledge that you were always destined for mediocrity. Welcome to hell. Welcome to life.

THIS WILL NEVER BE YOU

ITS OVER

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 25 05:09:43 2018 No.10894725 >>10894409 I lost my virginity at 36 fuck off. Better to have sex and elope with an experienced woman over some prude twat anyway fag.

Anonymous Sun Mar 25 08:51:25 2018 No.10895208

>>10892829
He is, of course, an atheist, yeah, but, as anon pointed out, that quote has a wildly different meaning when taken out of context. Which is always, when it's on its own.
It's not a declaration, as it seems to be, but more of a contemplation on the implications of society abandoning the idea of God. It's a much more honest image of atheism than the ideas the Harris / Dawkins types peddle.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 25 10:25:03 2018 No.10895502 >>10893429 Can you name a single artist who wasn't a neurotic mess in some way or another? The only one I can think of is Shakespeare, and we don't know a lot about his life.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 25 10:43:39 2018 No.10895563 I'm going to die soon and no one will notice

Anonymous Sun Mar 25 10:47:37 2018 No.10895570

I wonder what it will be like to regain my emotions and my capacity for pleasure after once having it all only to lose it very slowly. Will it be like taking a drug? And should I put it down in writing? Very few people know of this state in general, and of the scant few that do survive it, they never quite convey the feeling. I don't consider myself a good writer, but someone has to try it. If I do, I'll let you guys know.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 25 10:54:42 2018 No.10895585 >>10888114 Lowkey ask your college friend to bring her along to next gig. If things go well a second time around ask her out.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 25 11:18:18 2018 No.10895654 >>10894409 When I was 15 I was playing guitar in my room and reading books. What Chad doesn't tell you is that he will be a truck driver after graduation and you will be befriending your heroes at 18

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 25 11:20:19 2018 No.10895660 File: 893 KB, 660x868, greetings stranger.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>10892122

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 25 11:20:19 2018 No.10895661 >>10882902 is anything good?

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 25 11:21:52 2018 No.10895670 >>10895661 inb4 the chive

Anonymous Sun Mar 25 11:54:20 2018 No.10895767
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>>10895654
No chad will become the CEO because he's assertive and doesn't give a fuck about the anal nuances of laboring. He will talk about sports with all the other CEO at closed-door meetings while you increase value for his shareholders.

I used to believe in the myth you're spouting too, but that's just Capitalist bootstrap mythology and you're essentially licking Chad's boot.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 25 13:15:50 2018 No.10896050 It takes me five days to get through a book I'm sure the average person here could get through in an afternoon.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 25 13:16:22 2018 No.10896051 >>10896050 I've been reading the same book for 2 months that in college I would have finished in 2 days.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 25 14:05:10 2018 No.10896254 >>10882902 I miss my wife.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 25 14:15:03 2018 No.10896298 >>10895654 it's already after graduation and you're still in your mom's basement posting on 4chan, meanwhile chad is wrapping up his internship at goldman sachs

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 25 14:43:24 2018 No.10896447 >>10886264 >>10884922 it's my board now, my dear spooked individual.

Anonymous Sun Mar 25 15:52:35 2018 No.10896755

I was bullied about a dozen times as a kid, but for some reason, most of them apologized to me later of their own volition. One time, a girl even said sorry for teasing me behind my back despite the fact that I would've never known about it otherwise. Supposedly, people give off certain invisible vibes in social situations that evoke similar reactions, so perhaps that's how it is for me. It's probably narcissistic to dwell on it though.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 25 16:00:28 2018 No.10896799 >>10896755 no one ever apologized to me at all for treating me like shit lol

Anonymous Sun Mar 25 16:05:31 2018 No.10896838

>>10896799
Shit, now I've got to dig out that article
http://slatestarcodex.com/2017/10/02/different-worlds/
Not sure what you guys think of Scott Alexander (or his politics), but I found this piece to be super interesting, since it might legitimately explain some of the differences between us.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 25 16:27:59 2018 No.10896959 >>10896838 No idea who he is but it's a pretty interesting article. Also, he (unwittingly) used the same very distinct sentence twice. I guess he forgot he hadn't finished editing or something.

Anonymous Sun Mar 25 16:38:34 2018 No.10897026

>>10896959
Yeah, you can tell he's onto something but it's unfortunately too vague and subjective for a serious study. Still, you can see it in action even on this site because there's certain black actors who never get insults based on their race, or like how /v/ somehow still likes Todd Howard despite having a direct role in several negative video game trends whereas they thoroughly dislike gaben altogether. It's worth thinking about, at least.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 25 16:38:53 2018 No.10897030 >>10890962 Depends on the person, obviously.

Anonymous Sun Mar 25 16:40:37 2018 No.10897044

>>10897026
>like how /v/ somehow still likes Todd Howard despite having a direct role in several negative video game trends whereas they thoroughly dislike gaben altogether
I browse /v/ occasionally and I've never noticed this. If anything, it would be the contrary - Todd is almost universally hated and made fun of, whereas Gaben is sometimes defended as the savior of PC gaming or whatever.
Really activates the almonds

Anonymous Sun Mar 25 16:44:05 2018 No.10897066

>>10897044
I dunno what to say, really. I guess we're reading different threads. Complaints about gaben center on his business practice, though, while people like Todd based on his personality. But yeah, that's not as good of an example as, say, Will Smith, where the reaction is clear as day.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 25 16:49:29 2018 No.10897089 >>10897066 >I dunno what to say, really. I guess we're reading different threads. You sayin' we've self-selected different bubbles?

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 25 16:50:28 2018 No.10897096 >>10897089 I gravitate towards shitposts so yeah possibly

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 25 16:56:26 2018 No.10897126 >>10897096 Can't be, so do I. Different flavors of shitposting, perhaps?

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 25 16:57:45 2018 No.10897134 >>10886604 Porn is a jewish weapon to weaken the goyim.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 25 17:00:00 2018 No.10897156 >>10886604 What do you need a girlfriend for when you've got a sister?

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 25 17:00:41 2018 No.10897158 >>10883579 Mobb Deep also said: >I think the whole world's going insane >I fill my mind up with liquor, and drink away the pain Which is also a fair point.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 25 17:01:36 2018 No.10897163 File: 132 KB, 1920x1080, 1445695283638.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>10897126 Yeah, let's leave it at that.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 25 17:02:48 2018 No.10897169 I don't care anymore. I'm going to make my first game even if it has to be a pale shadow of what I wanted it to be.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 25 17:23:14 2018 No.10897237 File: 55 KB, 600x600, 13c490a677051c88.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >it's another crisis day

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 25 17:24:54 2018 No.10897246 >>10886604 HMMMM REALLY MAKES YOU THINK DOESNT IT ??

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 25 17:27:46 2018 No.10897255 >>10882902 whats on your mind Posted from my iWatch.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 25 17:49:43 2018 No.10897335 File: 268 KB, 621x491, 1510796849169.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I'm so tired of life. I can't wait for the spring break so that i can just sit and read with having to worry about dumb shit

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 25 17:56:38 2018 No.10897382 File: 564 KB, 1500x1714, 1465564957653.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>10897163 I say, this Todd Howard is a rather handsome fella.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 25 17:58:13 2018 No.10897393 >>10886009 this is juicy plz keep me updated

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 25 18:12:15 2018 No.10897459 I think the demiurge created the material plane and the only possible redemptive and moral act is to kill oneself. This only applies to me, however.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 25 18:31:07 2018 No.10897555 >>10897459 >the only possible redemptive and moral act is to kill oneself what's your reasoning?

Anonymous Sun Mar 25 19:20:43 2018 No.10897786

>>10897555
You ignored the last line which makes the whole thing solipsistic and funny. But the reasoning is that procreating or really interacting with this world at all is inherently immoral because it propagates the malevolence of its creator and constitutes the suffering to be found in every feeling and every instance of agency.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 25 19:34:01 2018 No.10897835 >>10897335 hella bro i just started spring break so stoked

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 25 20:02:22 2018 No.10897971 so for fun i decided to browse 4chan using the "brave" browser, wow, so far it blocked 14 trackers... easy on the cambridge analytica, 4chan

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 25 20:09:38 2018 No.10898005 >>10897971 Just use ublock origin and add >amgload.net >piguiqproxy.com >smcheck.org >4chan.org##:xpath(/html/head/script[6]) to the block list. Brave is a meme.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 25 20:20:29 2018 No.10898052 >>10883030 Atlas Shrugged

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 25 21:36:42 2018 No.10898353 File: 48 KB, 539x550, flat,550x550,075,f.u4.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I tried smoking cigarettes and i really don't see the appeal. It hurt my throat and i didn't feel relaxed in the slightest.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 25 21:54:35 2018 No.10898459 >>10898353 You just did it wrong Get on puffin boy

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 25 21:59:30 2018 No.10898483 >>10898459 well how do i do it? i smoked a joint which felt way better and didn't fuck my throat up, but cigs just hurt.

Anonymous Mon Mar 26 00:41:37 2018 No.10899075

i know i am a rapid cycling dysthmic bipolar, which to me just means i experience mood shifts often (usually over periods of a few days at the most) with the highs being mediocre and the lows being self abusive and suicidal

I want out yet i am trapped in the meatsuit. Sick of making new friends just to have them be terrified of me. Ive always had abandonment issues ever since mom died then dad disowned me at 13. I just want someone to love me. Everyone leaves. Everyone

So i sit alone for years now. I only see other people for work, but the moments are superficial and i feel empty, like im not a person. Just pretending to be nice so i can get paid. Besides they dont actually want to know me. They would hate me if they knew me

Things arent so bad right? I mean i have a warm bed and food and im relatively healthy despite being mentally unstable. I cant stop it. The energy to stop it was there years ago, but now im just tired. Im slowly slipping into alcoholism and im trying to stop drinking but there is some part of me that really wants to die and i cant kill myself because i know the one person who does care would
be really hurt, and i cant do that

So if i cant kill myself ill just drink myself to death. I want out of here. I hate the constant negativity, always unstable (when was the last time i went to bed at the same time two days in a row?), addictions, isolation, and not wanting help

Things arent so bad right?

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 01:22:29 2018 No.10899182 >>10899075 are you a writer? If so what do you write?

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 01:29:46 2018 No.10899206 >>10898483 Double inhale. You gotta suck the smoke into your mouth, then "swallow" it into the lungs

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 01:32:54 2018 No.10899209 I was but a fool of apollo Ruled by law of daphne And tomorrow, Im scared For scarred I am, hallowed now The dance may start again

Anonymous Mon Mar 26 01:37:03 2018 No.10899219

Who ever runs this universe wants me to work on my novels.
I spent the entire day learning blender and modeling (which wasn't hard because I have a Bachelors in CS/Math) only for my computer to fuck up extracting the Source Tools stuff to make the actual posing I was going to use.
That probably didn't make any sense but I'm here and that's what matters.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 01:39:21 2018 No.10899226 >>10899219 Make music

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 01:41:20 2018 No.10899232 >>10899226 I'm tone deaf

Anonymous Mon Mar 26 01:42:23 2018 No.10899234

>>10899075
This post resonated with me a lot.

You have to get out there man. It pisses me off that there is no community life these days because that is exactly the part of human existence that is supposed to connect you back to people in times like this and make you find that odd friend that makes life worthwhile again.

You could try going to AA or church or volunteer work. Or go hang out at a weird bookstore regularly, or start a research project that makes you interact with other people and go outside your comfort zone. Join some groups, a hobby store, do something, anything. Don't sink into fatalism. The one constant in life that I've found that makes all this kind of suffering endurable is weird friendships, weird little connections you can make. Just don't let yourself become isolated any further please.

Anonymous Mon Mar 26 01:47:47 2018 No.10899251

I care more about entertaining stories than I care about actual literature. I want to be holding my hand over the next paragraph so that I don't accidentally spoil myself and grinning with excitement of how the fuck this book is going to end with only so many pages left. The same feeling I get when I see I only have one chapter left in the manga I'm reading or five episodes left in whatever anime I'm into.

Anonymous Mon Mar 26 01:48:39 2018 No.10899254

>>10882902
I am a young man that has just uncovered the wonders of the Great Conversation. After years of emptiness and despair the beauty of possibility has started to bloom in my mind for the very first time. The questions that have eluded my for all these years finally has an answer. All I need is time to uncover it. But time is the only thing I do not have. I live in a country where 80% of my fellows want to bash my skull in. I have to stomach how my own government dehumanizes me on a daily basis. They have almost collapsed the country with their all-consuming greed and they are in the proccess of implementing communist policy to squeeze the last bit of life out of its people. I have to look into eyes filled with hatred for the simple sin of existing. How cruel is fate to show me a glimpse of what I have been looking for my entire life, just to swipe it away and shove me into the meatgrinder of corrupted political machinations.

A projection Mon Mar 26 02:11:42 2018 No.10899295
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To those of you who have managed to surface out of the cyclical behavioral patterns of depression and other trifles, and create a complete piece of work or art, I salute you. To the rest of the anons in the struggle, do not quit.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 02:31:59 2018 No.10899347 >>10899295 Thanks man Depression was a bitch

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 02:35:12 2018 No.10899354 File: 92 KB, 450x525, CF239574-316F-44F7-89D8-91AE027F4D64.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>10882902 we all need to post more images on 4chan.org

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 02:36:25 2018 No.10899355 >>10882947 >>10883073 >>10886009 >>10897393 i'm a little upset that this hasn't gone further

Anonymous Mon Mar 26 03:16:11 2018 No.10899468
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>Talking to girl
>She says how she's lonely sometimes
>Say she has pretty much no friends
>Says she doesn't really do anything, doesn't party, doesn't drink, etc
>Whole time she's saying this I'm remembering how 2 days prior I had seen an instagram of her at a party, drinking
>She talks to me on the weekdays, but on the weekends she's more silent, (because she's out with people)
I don't understand why she lied about that to me. She's a wannabe intellectual, recently she's been coming to me for books to read cause she knows I read a lot. She's been following many of my interests in philosophy, religion, war, etc. It's like she knows her favorite authors and shit were loners and wants to be one. And it's annoying when she told me this, because I genuinely feel that way, I can't even remember the last time I hung out with someone on the weekends. I make up imaginary people to talk to in my head just for company. I have actually spoken to a different girl and she was similar, says she's lonely, no friends, etc, and that girl was definitely full of shit cause she's constantly out doing stuff.
Why did they lie about that? Were they trying to impress me or something? Is being a loner seen as smart?

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 03:19:33 2018 No.10899477 >>10882995 >for when I eventually get hospitalized. Why do losers always think they are going to get to become wards of the state?

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 03:21:04 2018 No.10899481 >>10899477 I think he means he's going to use his health insurance to get kidney/liver treatment so he doesn't die, whenever this breakdown of the vital force happens. Wasn't implying that he's going to be a "ward of the state" anon

Anonymous Mon Mar 26 06:18:10 2018 No.10899767

>>10899481

I recently got hospitalized for detox. I don't say I went to detox since it wasn't a detox centre but the local hospital. Was so bad off that I spent days on diazepam and vitamin B, drip and monitoring and that sort of thing. Got home with warnings about my liver and other future things and sleeping pills for a week. Now the medical bill keeps me up at night. What keeps me from drinking now is probably my appearance. I don't want to look like a scared plum that's been used as a football.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 06:21:39 2018 No.10899771 >>10899767 cont. there was a man in similar condition that the nurses had to put in fucking diapers. For a young person without too much damage done the experience of detox might be slightly interesting but it'll get very, very ugly soon enough.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 07:22:00 2018 No.10899934 >>10884400 By being in positions of power or in financially important careers

Anonymous Mon Mar 26 07:47:26 2018 No.10899976

Ingsoc was true
War is peace, freedom is slavery

Knowledge is the enemy, health is wealth
Monomania, scribomania they will bring you somewhere
We all think we are special, but we are not. Youth is not the thing to reminisce and ache for when you are old. Do not grow old, and one should not grow old without first becoming wealthy.
These days it is very easy to be exceptional in mediocrity and amongst everyone else, so do that.
Hypocrisy is humanity.

Sent from my Chinese.

Anonymous Mon Mar 26 07:50:32 2018 No.10899980

The shadow spoke with a gravelly and rather deep voice, a mysterious aura surrounding his cloaked dark body from head to toe. His hands were held behind his back, a dark hood hiding his identity. On his chest was a strange symbol: the symbol of peace but perverted and corrupted, now flipped upside down and displayed a figure in pain, his arms stretched out to the sky in agony, filled with hate and vengeance. For their people it meant war and victory, a sign that would poison the hypocrisy that mankind prided itself with and stood upon. Violence was not ignored or downplayed, but shown to all, to be accepted and reviled.

A rather bold statement, she thought, for him to wear it so openly in a time like this.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 08:40:00 2018 No.10900065 I’m not perfect. But I can be good, at least. Forgive me what I’m still not.

Anonymous Mon Mar 26 08:48:30 2018 No.10900082

>>10899468
She wants you to like her. You will bite and get into a relationship based on imagined shared interests. Eventually both of your true natures will surface and you will start resenting each other, slowly hoping for the relationship to die but being too cowardly to end it.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 09:07:27 2018 No.10900124 >>10899976 me likey

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 09:20:31 2018 No.10900158 Living a full and engaged life is terribly overrated compared to being free of worry. Posted from my second hand desktop computer.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 10:15:48 2018 No.10900295 >>10900158 Oh I really doubt this, really very much

Anonymous Mon Mar 26 10:22:58 2018 No.10900312

>>10900295
Most people do, after all the general narrative is that you have to work very hard so you can financially commit to cramming your free time with paid 'experiences'.

Most people have never tried taking it easy for long periods of time though so they have little comparison to their running around way of life.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 10:31:05 2018 No.10900337 >>10900312 No, I doubt it because I've lived that carefree life for too long and it's just about ruined me. You will make your own worries if your external life isn't giving you any

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 10:34:36 2018 No.10900348 >>10900337 I'm seven years in and it keeps getting better. I prefer my own worries about bird feeders and herb gardens and books and groceries over bosses and deadlines and traffic and naggy women desu.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 10:47:23 2018 No.10900388 >le unmotivated genius has reached meme-status but I do think it's a real phenomenon.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 10:54:11 2018 No.10900412 >>10900388 You're behind the curve, that was years ago >I'm an underachiever Meme born out of (single) mom's telling teachers their child was "just bored" in class

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 10:59:00 2018 No.10900430 >>10900388 The meme status of something doesn't say anything about its veracity

Anonymous Mon Mar 26 11:27:47 2018 No.10900519

>>10900430
No, but it does make it harder to discuss with people. For example my parents, both of whom hold doctorates, struggle to understand how someone can be able but not motivated. Perhaps because they don't come from upper / upper-middle class backgrounds and haven't been subject to moral decay.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 12:07:50 2018 No.10900623 >>10900519 Maybe they haven't even reached the level of moral contemplation if they don't grasp why a thing being possible does not necessarily make it desirable.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 12:13:23 2018 No.10900638 >>10886604 Goddamn, those Alex Tanner videos. Goddamn....

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 12:15:00 2018 No.10900642 >>10888140 Just pass by the gentrified neighborhood and get drunk at a hipster pub

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 12:19:01 2018 No.10900662 >>10900337 if ur making ur own worries then ur not so good at the carefree life

Anonymous Mon Mar 26 12:36:12 2018 No.10900698

I can't seem to make new friends. I can't get enthusiastic around people I don't care for, and I can't lie to people I do care for. It feels like I've been left out my entire life, I haven't been anyone's truly best friend since I was 9, after that it's just been friends friend or a normal friend. This is something I noticed but didn't care much about until recently.

If I'm being honest, the times I've been asked out directly, since I was twelve it's less than five times, it feels like I've been forgotten my whole life.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 12:37:43 2018 No.10900702 File: 176 KB, 934x540, M6uqyBM.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] How do you get over crippling nostalgia? I've dwelt so much on the past I don't know what to do with myself in the present. I just want it to be three years ago desu

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 12:38:58 2018 No.10900704 >>10900702 Exact same here I got nothing

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 12:48:14 2018 No.10900727 File: 319 KB, 803x688, Langaugegames.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>10896447

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 13:02:22 2018 No.10900769 I've become a raging tryhard pseud retard somehow. I swear I used to have a brain, wtf.

Anonymous Mon Mar 26 13:19:55 2018 No.10900839

>>10900702
>>10900704
Practice.
Learn about memory, about memory pathways.
Practice the realisation that your thoughts are not your self, that your self is in the present, a present that you need to practice paying attention to in order to be in control of yourself.
It takes time, but even five minutes here and there works to ingrain the practice.
Save the nostalgia for sleeping. Let the unconscious do the work your conscious is trying to do.
Focus on tasks, become your space.
Have I sounded guru enough for you to get it?

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 13:21:36 2018 No.10900845 >>10900839 >Just be yourself

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 13:28:43 2018 No.10900883 >>10900158 Shutup, Pessoa

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 13:30:36 2018 No.10900894 I need love that is as big as life itself

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 13:31:32 2018 No.10900901 >>10882902 I won't be graduating on time. Again. I haven't told my parents yet. They know I've been extremely depressed. I'll probably never succeed. Fuck. May kms

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 13:34:29 2018 No.10900911 File: 44 KB, 635x473, 1521425612451.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] i'm tired of falling in love with people who won't feel the same way.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 13:34:55 2018 No.10900915 >>10900662 I'm just not good at life, my friend :'^) >>10900698 Do you conceal yourself much? Maybe people forget you because they don't know you well. >>10900894 The perfection of love is being lover, not being loved, anon

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 13:43:05 2018 No.10900958 >>10900915 >the perfection of love is being lover, not being loved If we're talking real love, then yes you are right. Not him, but thanks anyway. I feel I need to accept this.

Anonymous Mon Mar 26 13:58:41 2018 No.10901017

>>10900958
No problem anon. I wish I could take credit for it, but that line's paraphrased from Eco's island of the day before. It's a good read despite the unnecessary display of historical erudition.

And really, I think it just applies to Love, not any one particular subcategory.

Anonymous Mon Mar 26 14:08:31 2018 No.10901044

>be me
>be 27 year old ugly beta loser loner autist with no friends or social experiences since school, no female attention ever, never been to a pub, club, or party
>woke up at 10 am on a sunny day
>told myself I'd have no junk food or coffee after yesterday
>feel sad because I have no reason to go outside without coffee and doing that while feeling sad outside and browsing the internet on phone has been my main hobby for 3 years (and gives me a boost in optimism)
>browse internet then start reading a new book while feeling like a consumercuck
>decide not to go in to work
>feel tired because coffee has ruined my sleep almost every day
>sleep at noon for 4 hours while it's sunny through the curtains so I felt like the ultimate waster
>go to gym but it's too busy to get a squat rack so I just do cardio (will have to wake up at 6 am to go to the gym when I work 9 to 5
>leave flat at 6:45 pm to go to the library, drink coffee, eat at McDonalds or burger king, feel less alone, reassess my life, and maybe plan to give up junk food and be productive tomorrow
>have seen tonnes of shellshocked wagies and enough Staceys to demoralise me for a month

Anonymous Mon Mar 26 14:14:16 2018 No.10901064

>>10899468
Everyone has a conception of who they are that combines both the actions they do and the thoughts they have, or their intentions. Everyone's conception of themselves is off. That being said, men don't build images of themselves in the same way women do. Men focus waaaay more on the actual actions; women focus more on what they intended to do.

I was talking to my sister the other day, and she was telling me that some guy asked for her number. She thought he was cute, so she was going to go on a date with him if he asked. He texted her and asked if she wanted to go out on X day. She was busy on X day, and told him so. He asked what she was doing, and she said she was doing blah blah blah. Later he texted her and asked how blah blah blah went. Well, in the course of doing blah blah blah, plans changed, so my sister actually did whatever-it-is-she-did, and she tells him that.

After telling me this, she asks if I think he's going to text her again. I, of course, said no, and she asked why. I tried to explain that from his perspective she blew him off with some excuse, and then when he asked about that excuse it looked like she had lied, so of course he wasn't going to keep trying to get a date with some girl he barely knew. She was aghast. From her perspective, she wanted to go on a date him, and he had asked for her number, so since they both wanted to go on a date eventually they would go on a date.

To bring it back to your story, this girl wants-to-be an intellectual. But she's friends with people, she has a life routine that she's already in, and the actions that result from that are somewhat illusory to her. They're relics of old intentions. The fact that what she wants to be and what she is completely escapes her. When she told a lie, it wasn't a "lie" in the sense that she was trying to mislead you, but rather it was a lie in that she mostly sees herself as what she wants to be, not what she is.

As to why this particular expression of self-delusion keeps happening to you, it's probably because you only associate with people who want to be intellectuals. Or perhaps they come to you because that's the image they have of you, for whatever reason. Maybe she was trying to impress you, maybe not. At the end of the day you just need to accept that these girls' images of themselves are not accurate. That doesn't mean that you should just ignore these glaring inconsistencies, but at least you'll understand why they happen.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 14:17:29 2018 No.10901079 >>10899767 >>10899771 How old are you anon and for how long have you been drinking?

Anonymous Mon Mar 26 14:20:51 2018 No.10901091

>>10900702
>>10900704
everyone's nostalgiafagging nowadays anon, it's more visible in the entertainment industry than anything. and who can blame them, there is no longer anything appealing about the future for most people like us nowadays. there's nothing to look forward to, and the past seems so much simpler and better in retrospect

Anonymous Mon Mar 26 14:27:48 2018 No.10901117

>>10895767
Have you ever thought that maybe people are more complicated than this whole chad virgin thing? there are a lot of successful, rich, okay looking weirdos out there. There are also alpha and dominant guys whose lives absolutely suck. There is more at play fellas.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 14:29:42 2018 No.10901126 >>10901091 Well what's the solution then anon? Round up a bunch of malcontents and start a commune somewhere? Change at a societal level seems impossible while the boomers are still running everything.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 14:33:42 2018 No.10901145 >>10901117 I only use Chad as a meme but I think there is some truth to the dichotomy, at its core it's just a rephrasing of Bourgeoisie-Outsider.

Anonymous Mon Mar 26 14:34:24 2018 No.10901150

>>10901064
Thanks for the response anon. I think you're spot on.
Me and the girl had spoken previously once about our current life situations and she said that she was no longer interested in the party life she was used to living. She wanted to turn her attention to reading books and getting smart and making money. Me and her had lost contact for awhile and about 3 months ago she contacted me again and it wasn't long after she told me that.
We used to work together and she would always see me reading on my breaks. I guess she came back into my life because I'm one of the only people she knows who reads, and I guess in comparison to her I could be seen as smart.

As for my association issue, I assume you're right. As I said previously, I'm a loner, this girl is now the only person I've talked to in the past few months. Previously, the girls I've been with have all been airheads, which I don't find to be an attractive quality, but that's really all that is around me. I have been trying to figure out why it's only those type of girls who I've known, and you perhaps have hit the nail on the head. They all think I'm a very smart person so they flock to me.

Anonymous Mon Mar 26 14:56:22 2018 No.10901245

>>10901145
to me chad just represents those kind of guys (and sometimes women) who just do whateever it takes to get what they want and make their goals a reality, the neetvirg just faps and reads startup porn, meanwhile chad hammers the vag and also secures funding for his latest venture...

they seem like some ideal but if ur in a big city and socialize at all u will meet these kind of people, nyc i have met them, they're just people who assume they can get whatever they want and then do whatever it takes to get it it just doesnt phase them, its weird but some people really do operate on this belief that the world is theirs...i'm sure los angeles, london, hong kong all have these people, and nyc absolutely does

the problem tho is i dont think u can change your personality to be that, as soon as u start accept less than your goal or start considering something only a fantasy or for "other people" etc. its already too late, once who meet a couple self-made rich people, the first one its like "probably got lucky" then its like "well, maybe he had family connections" but eventually you just have to admit that there are people that do whatever the fuck they want in life, and that those people are the one percent, and you are a fucking pleb, definitely ego crushing, itll melt ya snowflake..."but mom always said i was smart and special her little genius" so why does that guy have a phd from columbia and a million dollar business, shit im not special...damn u CHAD

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 15:03:49 2018 No.10901276 >>10882902 Iife's but a walking shadow blah blah blah

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 15:17:24 2018 No.10901335 >>10900915 >>10900958 >>10901017 >The perfection of love is being lover, not being loved, anon the battlecry of the cuck

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 15:21:59 2018 No.10901364 I want to apply for a library card but I'm too nervous about doing something wrong and looking like a dumbass. Hell, I don't even know if you have to pay for a library card.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 15:24:09 2018 No.10901373 >>10900901 I got a 930 on my SAT, at least you have some kind of opportunity. I'm probably destined to sit on welfare my whole life.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 15:25:21 2018 No.10901378 >>10900901 lots of people dont graduate on time. the important thing is to finish

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 15:26:48 2018 No.10901381 File: 341 KB, 493x653, 1522032458966.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>10900642 but I'm not a normalfag

Anonymous Mon Mar 26 15:28:38 2018 No.10901393
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Is there any book about someone just being happy. like theres not major conflict, not drama, nothing crazy or drastic happening, just a book where the people live their lives and go to bed sure of themselves that everything will be okay tomorrow no matter what happens. Just a book of daily life and little bumps.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 15:28:43 2018 No.10901394 >>10901126 a war between generation x, y, z vs. the boomers

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 15:34:03 2018 No.10901419 >>10901381 what city you live in?

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 15:36:11 2018 No.10901428 >>10901393 The narrative structure of a book is based around some conflict. While someone could do what you're describing I don't know if anyone has because it would be incredibly boring to read. Poetry would be a better medium.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 15:36:18 2018 No.10901430 >>10901419 DC

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 15:39:27 2018 No.10901448 >>10901378 So I shouldn't "give up"?

Anonymous Mon Mar 26 16:14:58 2018 No.10901582

" i want another orgasm, you street child " she moaned into his mother's warmth.
When dinner was over, her clit nodded nervously and looked quickly at his mother. Terri watched her breasts gradually, as though mom would insist that she needed more contingency dick. This gave john melvin standing bag disease, but he knew that the mom hole was for Terri.
" oh shit cock inside cum drip " john explained for them, "mom never does this. "
Terri was surprised, but not overly hands. " you know happens when i'm cock pressing, John. "
He couldn't live as a long pants, but she voted with her pussy. She wanted fulfilling mom women that would scratch her eyes.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 16:16:22 2018 No.10901589 >>10900901 I dropped out of Northwestern and ended up getting my degree at a shitty state college later on. I was much happier going to that shitty state college as well.

Anonymous Mon Mar 26 16:29:50 2018 No.10901662

>>10901582
Her breathing quickened and she arched her back to the floor behind her ass. " i do that to derek, " she mumbled to the hole.
" john, " said mom, "i'm going to fuck her. "
" oh shit, " he replied, " that's my wife. "
mom spoke vietnamese and crept to the bathroom. "c'mon, you haven't seen a woman with a noticeable bulge before? "
Terri gave a couple of fingers to her pussy and fondled her ass against his mother. He wanted to slap asian boobs but mommy pussy lips locked passionately. When dusk came, he pulled out a chair and unbuttoned mom unobstructed. She couldn't be embarrassed about it because bigagrafoods moved closer to orgasm, trying john something fierce.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 16:36:06 2018 No.10901685 >>10882902 I should get around to finishing my NUPOC application.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 16:38:09 2018 No.10901690 >>10899219 Were you gonna make blender porn

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 16:51:20 2018 No.10901741 >>10901690 That wasn't my main thing but eventually yes.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 17:03:26 2018 No.10901800 >>10901393 Just watch SoL anime

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 17:06:46 2018 No.10901812 >>10901800 Recs? I'm usually someone who posts >anime replies along with a smug wojak, but I could use something comfy right now.

Anonymous Mon Mar 26 17:18:17 2018 No.10901858
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>>10901800
I don't want to watch an anime. all that has is high school stuff and cute girls doing cute things. the reason i posted it was because i wanted to write a book like that, where i would use grandiose and epic imagery ond prose to describe the most mundane of things. It would make you feel comfortable and how maybe life isn't so bad after all

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 17:22:50 2018 No.10901882 File: 736 KB, 600x338, 1518234565601.gif [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>10901812 If the Japanese countryside sounds comfy then try non non byori

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 17:28:28 2018 No.10901909 >>10901858 That's why I watch mecha that's genki and moe.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 17:31:17 2018 No.10901920 What do you talk about with normies? For now, it seems to me that they could only talk about Tv series and sports

Anonymous Mon Mar 26 17:41:02 2018 No.10901966

Purveyors of Fine Silks and Hide.

The intellectual agenda, accelerated. Our aim is to imbue this current civilization with the poison of previous humanity's darkest kept truths; we wish to allow the flow of great knowledge.

We will discuss the hypothetical, all inclusive "Primate Society", to great lengths. This is very important to me. My very existence, please. This I have invested much thought in, and I do not believe in any single item more than this. We wish to discover our very own race of unlikely pygmy people's, then spending weeks on weeks, sat in a great hall rank of turpentine and odour, deliberating such fine nomenclature. Certainly, a treat. We are known to pronounce "aluminium" and "laboratory".

The fine Silks that so often grace my loins while in my most tranquil of moments, laid 'neath the beating sun and betwixt my most ancient and generic bronze maidens, this fantastic quality is only second to my extensive collection of hides.
Join us, and together we will unravel the weeping existence you have led until this moment.

(I came up with this months ago and had fun with it for a while. I'd like to write but it always comes in these short things like this. Let me know if you enjoyed reading.

Anonymous Mon Mar 26 18:37:34 2018 No.10902174

>>10901448
Yeah, don't give up, and never burn all your bridges. A lot of admirable people go through some major strife in their adolescent years, and sometimes you've got to be patient and bear the burden. I left college last year due to depression, but now I'm extremely relieved they're letting me come back.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 18:56:51 2018 No.10902251 >>10900883 i've yet to read the lad

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 18:59:32 2018 No.10902261 It's impossible for two people to feel exactly the same way about each other. A perfect connection is nothing but a dream. Despite this, I love her.

Anonymous Mon Mar 26 19:07:34 2018 No.10902290 [DELETED]

>>78946534
No, I'm the guy who started this and I have a mighty book collection and a love for nature based activities. I've gone for a long time without internet and I CAN DO IT AGAIN. Truth be told, my middle school shattered my life. They gave me a free laptop to "Help Me" do my school work because I was deemed "Lower Class", like what the fuck does that even mean. 6th grade is when it all began. I got addicted to Pivot Stickfigure animations and mastered it myself but ALAS that wasn't enough. I had to torrent FLASH and learn how to animate. That led me nowhere. So then I began ripping models out of video games and uploading them to various websites with new textures and claiming them as my own work. You'd be surprised how much some nigger is willing to pay for a poorly detailed Banana Peel. FOOL. but then I upgraded to a MAC nad 3DS max isn't wineskinnable. BULLSHIT. So then I began music production. I'm still learning but whatever. i'm smarter than the rest of you in Music Theory, thanks to the help of my "Music Theory: For Dummies" book for 12.99 on Google Books.
>Implying I'm not a survivor
Get fucked kiddo.

Anonymous Mon Mar 26 19:09:10 2018 No.10902300
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No, I'm the guy who started this and I have a mighty book collection and a love for nature based activities. I've gone for a long time without internet and I CAN DO IT AGAIN. Truth be told, my middle school shattered my life. They gave me a free laptop to "Help Me" do my school work because I was deemed "Lower Class", like what the fuck does that even mean. 6th grade is when it all began. I got addicted to Pivot Stickfigure animations and mastered it myself but ALAS that wasn't enough. I had to torrent FLASH and learn how to animate. That led me nowhere. So then I began ripping models out of video games and uploading them to various websites with new textures and claiming them as my own work. You'd be surprised how much some nigger is willing to pay for a poorly detailed Banana Peel. FOOL. but then I upgraded to a MAC nad 3DS max isn't wineskinnable. BULLSHIT. So then I began music production. I'm still learning but whatever. i'm smarter than the rest of you in Music Theory, thanks to the help of my "Music Theory: For Dummies" book for 12.99 on Google Books.
>Implying I'm not a survivor
Get fucked kiddo.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 21:01:47 2018 No.10902686 >>10901909 Do you watch symphogear?

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 21:13:07 2018 No.10902729 >>10902300 >that pic Perfect body every woman should strive for with the exception of the boobs and most likely busted face.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 21:16:16 2018 No.10902733 Im alone. I have God. I have no one. I am one. I know no God. I know no one. I am no God. I am no one. And I want one. And I want God. And Im alone With God

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 21:20:15 2018 No.10902741 >>10902729 t. latent homosexual

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 21:20:45 2018 No.10902744 File: 81 KB, 604x604, cc86627b28e9c2adca39247009841231.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>10902729 Fit thots thread?

Anonymous Mon Mar 26 21:23:38 2018 No.10902753
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>>10902300
Want to contact me
Stephan_stephan_96@hotmail.com

You seem very similar to me and have peaked my interest.

>t. A person who has seriously held their shit together through tribulation

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 21:24:48 2018 No.10902755 >>10902753 >peaked my interest NOT GONNA MAKE IT

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 21:26:11 2018 No.10902759 >>10902755 Its a term of phrase, not literally used.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 21:30:12 2018 No.10902777 >>10902759 It's spelled "piqued" in this context.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 21:32:20 2018 No.10902782 >>10902759 >term of phrase

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 21:33:27 2018 No.10902785 File: 64 KB, 743x741, rBVaGFZhMouAZpQQAAESRyRt3ko217.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>10902744

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 21:35:53 2018 No.10902793 File: 182 KB, 645x756, 1521144878795.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>10902777 >>10902782 Well aren't I just a little nigger.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 21:39:40 2018 No.10902806 File: 214 KB, 1106x699, aQv9YM6.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>10902793 Nigger test coming through

Anonymous Mon Mar 26 22:07:24 2018 No.10902906
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>8:15 on a Monday night
>talking to girl
>manage to suppress autism long enough for natural conversation to start
>actually going well, we talk for a good hour
>ask for her number, she gives it to me
>maybe there's a chad inside all of us after all
>feel will to live for first time in forever
>not two minutes later some weird guy comes up
>"oh, this is my boyfriend anon!"
>stalk out into the night, sit in the park listening to the Glow pt ii while my hands and face freeze the fuck off
>mfw when I get back home and think about what just happened

What. the. fuck.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 22:08:30 2018 No.10902909 >>10902906 If you weren't so jelly you wouldn't be alone

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 22:14:49 2018 No.10902932 >>10902909 To clarify, I'm not mad at her or him. I'm mad that things have consistently gone horribly for me for the past year. Sorry that didn't come through in my 10PM green text.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 22:17:33 2018 No.10902939 >>10902932 He's right though, learn to be happy alone and others will wish to join you

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 22:17:43 2018 No.10902940 >>10902906 >>stalk out into the night, sit in the park listening to the Glow pt ii while my hands and face freeze the fuck off sounds like a good time nice night

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 22:18:20 2018 No.10902942 >>10902932 >for the past year fucking normies

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 22:20:57 2018 No.10902950 >>10902806 This seems like bullshit, a race war will not happen. Washington state is far left winging, and this is incredibly edgey thing to spread. Got a reason, brainlet?

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 22:48:34 2018 No.10903049 >>10902686 Symphogear isn't mecha :^)

Anonymous Mon Mar 26 22:57:56 2018 No.10903084

>>10899182
I will be a writer some day. Lately i have been obsessed with the idea of creating a darknet blog(hosted on the onion patch) that acts as a beacon of information for drug users and dealers (think like the deepdotweb except independent and run by one dude, all text no images with a weekly monthly and yearly digest that encompasses news from all darkweb sources forums etc into one spot- perfect for those who disappear for months at a time and want to know how things change)

I also write in my diary desu but the beleaguered ramblings, free form skipping around makes it difficult to write on any subject. I prefer the distracted free flowing writing that entails nuggets of emotion rather than a dusty tome dedicated to SADNESS: ONES MAN EXPERIENCE

If i were to focus on a subject, it would encompass something akin to New Sincerity(dfw was a fraud in some ways but he was right- the slippery slope of pomo is unredeeming and we need a partial return to modernity), law (centering around the antagonism of authority or why authoritarianism has not worked for 5000+ years), alienation (kafka), substance use, relativism, the absurd (camus is one of my heroes [the fall, not the stranger camus], and technological renaissance (our technology is a double edged blade that cuts both ways- how can we use it to help rather than hurt etc)

>>10899234
I know i need community. I grew up (i counted) in 20 different “homes” over 20 years, with a revolving door of hosts, characters, friends, and lovers even. I am afraid of going to volunteer, or recreational sports, honestly. Not the thing itself. Just exposing myself to other people. Knowing that they will give me pain and i will love that pain (sadistic) yet knowing they will hate the pain i give them, and i feel like im robbing them

I appreciate your response and i know that i can get out of here. In a month i am moving out of state, away from my home state, to the desert.. it is my opportunity to be a different man

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 23:17:55 2018 No.10903157 >>10899075 Become a monk.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 23:23:27 2018 No.10903184 I look at the French Foreign Legion website sometimes and daydream. An open door, a way out.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 23:28:44 2018 No.10903206 >>10903184 Do it. Life is short.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 23:32:18 2018 No.10903221 >>10899355 Same. I've checked this thread every day since it was posted to see if anyone has claimed it, if they could just tell me what state they live in, so I could know for sure if it's really her or if I'm losing my mind from missing her so much.

Anonymous Mon Mar 26 23:47:04 2018 No.10903268

>>10899468
I knew a girl like this in college. She claimed to be very Catholic, very serious about God and tradition and all that. We went on walks and she wore very cute modest sun dresses. We talked about books and Italian neorealism and etymology and our families and our dreams. She seemed very passionate about politics too, she complained about how she was the only conservative in all of her classes, and how she thought liberalism was destroying the west. She was basically like a mix of /pol/ and /lit/ but slightly less racist and in the body of an extremely attractive 20 year old girl.

Later on I found her instagram and it's just pictures of her in extremely tight club dresses, with girlfriends, with drinks in hand, brunches, just incredibly basic stuff. I got a phone call from her number one Friday or Saturday night and it was some voice I had never heard yelling "come get your friend, she's puking everywhere, she can't walk, you need to drive here and get her." I had no idea where she was, and the person calling was very drunk too. After like 5 minutes of trying to figure out how to get to her location, the person just tells me, "never mind some guy here is taking her with him and he said it was fine." I asked who it was, if he was a friend or just some random date rapist, the person said they didn't know, it was just a guy who was at the bar. For all I know she could have been drugged and raped that night, or many other nights before or since.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 23:50:48 2018 No.10903280 >>10900901 Graduating early or on time is so overrated. I wish I stayed in school an extra year.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 23:52:26 2018 No.10903284 >>10901430 ugh gross

Anonymous Mon Mar 26 23:58:12 2018 No.10903306

>>10901393
I also want this. I generally enjoy the parts of books and movies and even video games before shit really hits the fan. The setup is the comfiest.

If you haven't read it you should read Oblomov. It has conflict and drama and stuff, but there is a chapter that is basically a dream sequence of his ideal idyllic country life and it's the comfiest thing I've ever read.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 26 23:59:30 2018 No.10903314 >>10901393 I think The Evenings by Gerard Reve is translated now. It's basically a book about nothing happening and it's great.

>>	Anonymous Tue Mar 27 00:07:57 2018 No.10903360 Sharing a living space with another person feels like wearing a straight jacket whenever they're around. I don't know if it's because I'm an introvert, or if it's another one of several idiosyncrasies that make me unhappy in particular.

>>	Anonymous Tue Mar 27 00:14:36 2018 No.10903392 >>10903360 iktf, that's why i'm bad at having a gf. i need at least 8 hours of alone time a day not including sleep.

>>	Anonymous Tue Mar 27 00:14:36 2018 No.10903393 >>10903360 No, I'm the same way. It's just introversion. And it varies with me depending on the people I'm around but roommates are the worst.

>>	Anonymous Tue Mar 27 00:16:38 2018 No.10903400 >>10903392 >>10903393 That's a relief, thanks. In the back of my mind I'll be ready to lash out in frustration, but then I realize they're just doing the dishes. At least I'm not alone on this.

Anonymous Tue Mar 27 00:50:07 2018 No.10903521

My parents are dead, I've been living with a foster family for about a month because of that, I've lost my house and I'm not even close to living in my own neighborhood anymore, the foster family are the most fucking Mormon people I know (I live in Utah, help me...), I might transfer schools for the 2nd time this year, and I don't know where my cat from my original house is.

That's mainly what I've been thinking about for the last couple of weeks.

>>	Anonymous Tue Mar 27 01:12:51 2018 No.10903607 >>10902950 You pass the test. Welcome home fellow white man

>>	Anonymous Tue Mar 27 06:44:33 2018 No.10904479 >>10903184 I would hope to meet you there someday brother. I would look at it as well, but I thought things went too well and now I'm on my way to the Canadian forces. Now I look at the legion and wish I'd had the gall earlier. Perhaps !

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