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>be me
>go to bookstore for kierkegaard book
>greeted by cashier as i walk through the door
>dont even look at them and rush to philosophy section
>human creature already there
>awkwardly squeeze by them
>pretend to be really interested in the psychology section
>really just waiting for them to leave so i can browse the philosophy books in peace
>employee walks by
>"finding everything okay, sir?"
>sweating, want to vomit
>fear_and_trembling.pdf
>manage to mutter out, "yeah..." not even looking at them
>creature finally leaves
>look for a while, decide to get either/or
>go to checkout, place book on counter
>muttering anime theme songs to myself as i akwardly dig into my pocket for a wad of cash
>"some interesting stuff you got here"
>dont even respond
>"JUST SCAN THE FUCKING BOOK," i think
>"are you interesting in getting a membership with us, you could save up to 40% on future purchases"
>"n-no thank you"
>get change
>try to stuff it into my pocket but i drop it
>awkwardly scurry around on the floor trying to find my money
>everyone is looking at me
>the height of despair
>my god my god why hast thou forsaken me
>pick up change and run out of store and get into car
>break out into tears, screaming at self for being so autistic
>people still looking at me
>quickly drive off hoping i get in an accident and die

>> No.13849542

>be me
>used to be op
>discovered Amazon

>> No.13849558

>>13849527
Pretty good, I especially liked "fear_and_trembling.pdf". A true patrician would have quoted "Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachthani?" though

>> No.13849576

>>13849527
Do you need a hug, OP?

>> No.13849609

>>13849576
what's a hug

>> No.13849621

>>13849609
I'll show you.

>> No.13849632

>>13849527
Seems to me that you're not even reading for interest or wisdom anymore but just to cope

>> No.13849639

>>13849621
Don't let him, OP, he wants to touch your special area.

>> No.13849654

You're overthinking everything
No one gives a shit, 2 minutes later you're out of sight out of mind. How often do to think about other people? Not so much time spent doing that everyone's occupied with themselves

>> No.13849686

>>13849639
I only want to touch his heart.

>> No.13849691
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>>13849639
>>13849686
i dont know who to believe anymore

>> No.13849693

>>13849527
You care about what people think about you, which is surprisingly astonishing for someone who is into philosophy it seems, enjoy your own personal hell, friend.

>> No.13849702

I really hope this story isn't true. I know how it feels to have anxiety, hope you can overcome it.

>> No.13849706

>>13849691
I wouldn't lie to you.

>> No.13849708

>>13849702
it's based on real events

>> No.13849712
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For free

>> No.13849724

>>13849527
I used to be like you, I still am to a certain extent but you just have to stop caring. I still have little anxieties when in public but I just focus on what I'm doing. When people go up to me ask a question or whatever I still can't really look at them when I respond but I just remember that all I am to them is a shy dude going about his life. And that all they think of me for all of 15 seconds after they leave before they forget I exist and you just have to go about everything like that. It's not like your relationship with the random people you see in public affects your life anyway.

>> No.13849729

>>13849527
Holy shit OP, I bought a big black copy of Mein Kampf from an old Jewish lady at the used bookstore with less anxiety than this.

>> No.13849731

>>13849542
Go fuck yourself, man.

>> No.13849758

>>13849729
how do i be like you

>> No.13849781

>>13849758
It's not because I'm incredibly confident. I just wanted to get my hands on a cheap copy, and even my university's massive library didn't have a copy (and I guarantee you it's not because they couldn't find a copy). I saw it at this book store for 12 bucks and got excited, didn't see the woman's star of David necklace until it was already too late. I figure if they didn't want people to buy a book, they wouldn't be selling it. I still go to that store.

>> No.13849803

>>13849758
Just go out and do it. Pretend like nobody else is around. Obviously don't have a total lack of awareness and bump into people or whatever. Maybe have some headphones and music if you think that would help.

>> No.13850273

>>13849654
This mindset only works if your a neurotypical. We autists who overthink everything think about other people's actions constantly, that's why we are so self-conscious.

>> No.13850311

>>13850273
Would it help if I held your hand?

>> No.13850335

>>13850311
Sure we can hold hands and go to the bookstore. No homo tho.

>> No.13850350

>>13850335
Of course. It's not gay to help a fren, right?

>> No.13850382

>>13849654
I think about myself all the time so it's only natural to assume others do as well.