write what’s on your mind

[Anonymous No.17157801]

the old thread reached the bump limit

[Anonymous No.17157806]

>>17157801
I cheated on my gf and I've never felt worse

[Anonymous No.17157810]

>>17157801
Dear Love,
why don't you love me anymore?
Is it because I encourage and finance Chinese-backed, tribal proxy wars in Nigeria?
Is it because I have a mole in an unsavoury place?
Is it because I squandered our savings on a golden statue of Tony Blair?
Or is it because I purchased the Vatican with inherited blood money made from selling looted art during the Holocaust and demolished it to make way for my signature, soul-food restaurant chain?
Perhaps it is a combination of these things
or perhaps it is much simpler.
Who knows?
Love is complicated.
Perhaps you merely grew tired of me;
we grew tired of each other and our manifold and shared incorrigibilities.
You were always scolding me for not washing the dishes in a punctual manner.
But I am not sad.
I recall the good times.
And with the recent death of Khashoggi,
business seems to be looking up.
Yours sincerely, Lover.

[Anonymous No.17157818]

"What did I think of it?" threads should be bannable

[Anonymous No.17157842]

silky smooth horse nose. tomorrow..

[Anonymous No.17157855]

>>17157801
Egon Schiele should have illustrated a children book. Shit would have been kino. Or Rabelais.

[Anonymous No.17157862]

i am making some soft pretzels right now and i hope they bake right. i have never made proper pretzels before, only pretzel buns and rolls and loaves.

[Anonymous No.17157889]

>>17157855
agree, i’m so fond of his style. his use of color and wavy lines are so whimsical...i can see his art matching up well with somd sort of through the looking glass type of story

[Anonymous No.17157915]

I'm just so unbelievably fucking tired.
I'm stuck in some shitty esoteric loop that gives me satisfaction while I run it but still only has spotty connections with my actual lived life. There are some attachments that I couldn't even understand how a human could detach from them. Basic things like a need to be loved. Having feet to stand on at all. I could do the cheeky thing and play at insanity, saying all of this is superfluous and I do not need to touch ground, but this is a silly game and I can't afford being such a fucking wanker. All spiritual doctrines teach that we should detach from the worry of how we will support ourselves. I suspect we are supposed to let "life" play it, run its course, and that part of ultimate insight is realizing that "life" does indeed run its course. All you can do is not let it torment you, and when it doesn't then you can carry it, and once you can carry it then you can carry others. You just have to realize that the "you" making the choice is separate from "life", it is life. Never born it never dies.

Now how the fuck do you live that? I think a first step would be to no longer view other human beings as moral subjects, but rather as tangles of karmic circuits tacked onto the divine light of a soul, neither of which can really hold much guilt, and neither of which "you", as a tangle of karmic circuits, really have any power to destroy by anything you do. Neither you nor they are real moral subjects. Your only real choices are trying to let the light shine through, or not trying. the rest only consequences. So I suspect. Maybe this can be lived, but it changes radically what other people are.

>>17157806
>and I've never felt worse
in all this badness going on in your life anon, this is a good thing. it would be infinitely worse if you did not feel like this.

[Anonymous No.17157923]

>>17157855
based
he's one of my favorite 20th century painters. things and people sometimes look like his style on psychedelics

[Anonymous No.17157946]

>>17157862
I had a truly incredibly soft pretzel two years ago on a date. Despite only being a pretzel it was one of the best tasting things I've ever eaten, not really sure how they did it. The restaurant no longer exists. But thank you for reminding me of that

[Anonymous No.17157973]

>>17157862
godspeed. made chocolate lava cakes with a friend yesterday, it slapped

[Anonymous No.17157998]

>>17157810
>Is it because I squandered our savings on a golden statue of Tony Blair?
It's probably this of all those things.

[Anonymous No.17158008]

uhhhh

[Anonymous No.17158015]

>>17157842
Based horse anon
>>17157855
>Egon Schiele should have illustrated a children book
Considering that time he got run out of town by angry villagers, it's probably a good thing he didn't.

[Frater Asemlen !XS8vrClKs2 No.17158048]

The tale of Enkidu as he passed through the netherworld and spoke to me.

green goblins seen beyond the grassy field
and humbabas hoary face keeps changing
his old cedar forest where was revealed
Great God Shamash and his glory unaging
green goblins seen beyond the grassy field
and humbabas hoary face keeps changing
his old cedar forest where was revealed
Great God Shamash and his glory unaging
Great God Shamash and his glory unaging
Great god Shamash and your servant unchanging
never was ninsun’s son slain, your servant
sent to slay humbaba the terrible
great and fervent King, he who is fervent
humbaba with presence unbearable
“slay humbaba Hero of holy Ur
humbaba slay, humbaba with wife lure”
Great god Shamash said to his fervent servant
Humbabas head had he held in his hand
Humbabas head had he held in his hand
Humbabas head had he held in his hand
sacrifice had he the head to Great Shamash
for this be known forever, Great Gilgamesh

[Anonymous No.17158105]

>>17158008
Feet?

[Anonymous No.17158114]

Sometimes I feel guilty about fantasizing about leaving, fleeing far away to some cheap, Balkan country, where the vodka pours freely and the woman are easily impressed. But with what? Will this writing thing pan out? It’s not like I’ve really put-in 100% of myself into making it work. Another coffee, and I’ll go back to writing my short story. The sad one about being lonely, about loss, about regret. Yeah, that one.

[Anonymous No.17158123]

>>17157842
Based Learned Horse.

[Anonymous No.17158143]

Alright guys, tell me if I'm the crazy one here.
>be really close to this girl I've known for years
>started talking again a few months ago after taking a year off due to her doing something very messed up to me
>she comes back and apologizes for everything, and I accept it
>spend a lot of time together recently, talking about going on vacations next year and everything
>about a month ago she fell into a habit of always having to change our plans to other days for various reasons
>accept it because things happen
>two weeks ago I get stood up and don't hear from her for a week
>she comes back and apologizes, saying she was stressed out with school
>tell her that it's fine, and ask her if we can hang out around Christmas
>she says she'd love to and tells me what days she'll be free
>I try to confirm a date for one of the days and get left on read
>My messages go ignored for a few days
>I get really frustrated because she's my best friend and has been treating me poorly, so I tell her that I'm going to call her to talk about things at a certain time and to be available for it
>I call and get no answer, my messages are left on read
>Haven't heard from her since, not even on Christmas when I figured she'd at least wish me merry Christmas
>She made some handmade gifts for me and the frame for a glass painting she did finally came in the mail yesterday
>opening and looking at it made me incredibly sad, since it seemed like she cared about me so much just a few weeks ago
I can't help but feel that me calling her to talk about things scared her off a bit, but at the same time, from my perspective, she was not being a very good person to me. What do you guys think? I've only sent her a couple messages over the past couple weeks since I'm not the kind of person who spams someone who clearly doesn't want to talk to me. I just told her that I care about her a lot so it kinda hurts when she ignores me, and that I hope she's doing well. I also asked if I had done something to upset her, but that of course was also ignored.

[Anonymous No.17158154]

>>17158105
I'd like him to stay in full uniform, especially the boots while I kiss his cheerful face and sensual neck in an empty suburb train car

[Anonymous No.17158156]

Considering making an excel spreadsheet to portion out the books I read in 2021.
I want to do at least 50.
Good idea?

[Anonymous No.17158162]

>>17157801
Thinking aloud here, I suppose the nature of women makes them bad at being women when outside the standard evolutionary environment, or at least as far away from the evolutionary social environment as they were with the French, Scientific and Industrial Revolutions, and a sexual revolution soon followed. In the meantime, the men remained in their element, not quite, of course, but they were doing much better than the women I would say regarding these conditions.

[Anonymous No.17158176]

>>17158156
yeah cool, feels even better on paper though

[Anonymous No.17158201]

>>17158143
Stop expecting her to show up. If she shows, nice surprise, if not, do what you were doing anyway. She's a flake, so stop expecting her to be there for you when you've plans. She's just doing what flakes do, you're the one who thinks the pattern as set will change. She's not apologizing because she's going to change, but rather because she's a flake so saying shit she doesn't mean is like breathing to her.

[Anonymous No.17158544]

I have all this pent up frustration and energy but no outlet for it. I wish I lived in a country with riots.

[Anonymous No.17158693]

when i try to read paper books my eyes keep getting this weird thing where they feel like they're vibrating. what the fuck is going on. i can read a screen all day.

[Anonymous No.17158735]

>>17158693
are you reading those newly printed books with blindingly white paper? is the screen backlit?
anyway would want to check with a doc, may be an early sign of something treatable
t. blindfag

[Anonymous No.17158757]

>>17158143
>she's my best friend
Clearly not. Just chill man, stop being so desperate for her approval.

[Anonymous No.17158780]

>>17158114
Write literally anything besides another sadboy story. You are young, your sadness is shallow even though it feels immense. I recently went through all my old notebooks. Towards the end of high school I wrote a lot of stories and other stuff about loneliness and regret and all that crap. They are boring, and seem so superficial to me now.

[Anonymous No.17158783]

Anybody want to critique this?

[Anonymous No.17158808]

>>17158143
I sincerely recommend ghosting her and never contacting her again. She clearly doesn't care about you and will only cause you distress.

[Anonymous No.17158844]

Here's a poem I wrote for a schizoid female friend of mine, it's in French but I'd like some feedback :


Camille aux camisoles, assez naive pour croire en l'homme.
Morte, pourtant se meut.
Gavée de pilules, elle danse au milieu des fous.
Les autres, bien nés, se jouent de son malheur.
La neige tombe sur son petit studio.
Dans l'edredon blanc, il s'emitoufle.
Enfin, je suis débarrassé de l'indesirable, se dit-il avec entrain.
Camille, ne se désirant plus, ne rêvant que de belles bottes de ciment
Morte, pourtant se meut.
Au fond de l'eau, elle danse pour les poissons.
Le regard vide, ils se jouent de son malheur.
La neige tombe sur son petit toît.
Bientôt, je serai débarrassée de l'indésirable, se dit la rivière avec entrain.

[Anonymous No.17158865]

>>17157806
The burden you feel is that of a decision you took for her, you decided to make her a cuckhold.
If you have an ounce of respect or love for her, tell her the truth.

[Anonymous No.17158894]

>>17158735
hey bro what screen reader do you use? is there anything better than jaws?

[Anonymous No.17158915]

>>17158894
not actually blind kek my eyesights just is shit from too much screen exposure
i only read from kindle (bw, no backlight) and paper. used to read a lot from phone in middle school

[Anonymous No.17158984]

Finally went through with hiring an escort. Hopefully i can just get this sex shit out of my system and not have to worry about it.

[Anonymous No.17159017]

>>17158048
might I ask for your take on this
>>17158902
?

[Anonymous No.17159037]

>>17158984
>Hopefully i can just get this sex shit out of my system
it is very unusual that this happens
you may be going down a very long and shitty rabbit hole of wasting all your money getting nothing from women who actually hate you, and not knowing how to stop, and finding yourself more and more distorted from how the people around you view relationships and how relationships should work.

[Anonymous No.17159064]

How to get gf?
My sexual frustation has only worsen ever since taking 30mg Zinc Picolinate everyday.
It had also been getting to a point where unsolicited images would suddenly appear in my mind. Images where I can see myself bare naked, an erected penis, and like a wildman, I would lunge on a temptress who is completely unaware of my presence, pinning her down by pushing my hands against hers with all my might and allowing my whole body to weigh her down to the soil.
I would then slide both of her arms over her head allowing me to hold it with one arm, and with the free one, I would free her lower body of any covering but her underwear. Reaching for my manhood, I would then guide it towards her groin, setting her underwear aside with the head, and, without any intention to penetrate, I would glide my phallus back and forth on her labia lubricated by its juices. Shivering, realizing her helplessness, the whore eventually gives up any resistance against me. My hands, now that they no longer need to put out any force, has all the freedom to explore the temptress's body. They can run themselves along her spine, they can glide themselves inbetween her ribs, grope her breast, or insert themselves into the temptress's salivating mouth. All this would eventually lead to penetration.
I had sought the help of people in a position for these kind of thoughts. They were of no use other than telling me that I should fornicate with a woman. It had been years ever since my last sexual experience. I have no intent to harm a woman. It's just that I need to dissipate my sexual energy into one of them

[Anonymous No.17159091]

It was supposed to mean more than this, I'm sure. But I know it won't. Yet I still ask and strive. Demand some kind of coherence where there is none. Art for this feel?

[Anonymous No.17159092]

>>17159064
Stop taking these random supplements and have sex

[Anonymous No.17159137]

>>17158143
sounds like your friend is struggling with shame over whatever she did to you. Maybe tell her explicitly that you forgive her. If you can’t tell her that honestly, don’t. Either way, take a step back and focus on other people. Give her the space to reach out to you.

[Anonymous No.17159191]

>>17157915

[Anonymous No.17159261]

>>17159092
>>17159037
You cant fucking win. Unicorns may very well exist but for men like us it ain't nothing but a dream.

[Anonymous No.17159282]

>>17159261
>Unicorns may very well exist
The fuck are you on about?

[Frater Asemlen !XS8vrClKs2 No.17159296]

>>17159017

Hope the phenomenological analysis helped.

[Anonymous No.17159312]

Does any of you have Tolino Page 2? Would you recommend it? I would rather choose Kobo but no one sells it in my shitty 3rd world country

[Anonymous No.17159390]

>>17159037
May very well but it's worth trying once right? If i don't like it then it's just money saved and i don't have to worry about it anymore. But really i work and have very few expenses so paying an escort isn't really a lot of money, i already spend more on cigarettes for gods sake. I didn't really care much about sex before but this year I've been going crazy thinking about it 24/7. I just need some kind of release. I've tried meeting women the regular way but nothing is open obviously and online dating doesn't work because i'm uggo so i don't have much choice (at least thats how im choosing to rationalize it).

[Anonymous No.17159435]

>>17159282
perfect women. I haven't got time for you fucking newfags

[Anonymous No.17159505]

>>17157801
I don't enjoy the company of my family. I think I'll start to excise them from my life without broaching the issue because I don't think it's redeemable.

[Anonymous No.17159513]

I'm getting too addicted to the mini dopamine hits this dumb website gives me. Every couple paragraphs of reading I tab back over here. It's such a waste of time. Maybe I should try just taking one solid hour a day for /lit/ and not allowing myself on otherwise

[Anonymous No.17159518]

>>17159296
man I can't read all that

[Anonymous No.17159539]

rewatching Xavier
when they find the slave in the underground railroad and the hippie/punk tells him "I totally know what you been through maan, I was a slave to pop-culture"
this show is so fucking good

[Anonymous No.17159565]

>>17158143
Clearly she doesn't like you. It shouldn't have to be forced.

[Anonymous No.17159635]

>>17159092
I supplement with Zinc (in the form of picolinate which has good bioavailability) because I had suspected that I may be low on it given that I rarely eat red meat or shellfish-its best sources. Might be placebo but ever since taking it for a week I had noticed that I am once again getting morning woods and random erections, I unironically started to let out gas from my anus more frequently and loudly, I keep dreaming vividly every night, and I no longer get wrist ache from mincing whole bulbs of garlic every day. Those are the most noticeable ones. I know that I should consult a doctor before taking anything but 30mg is still below the upper tolerable limit so no worries.
As for the sex part. I'm simply having a hard time forming new relationships with women currently. The few who I am currently close with are all volcels since they don't want to be pregnant until the had finished college

[Anonymous No.17159664]

Why is the "write what's on your mind" thread often the best thing on this board?

[Anonymous No.17159672]

>>17159565
why dont women ever like me?

[Anonymous No.17159679]

>>17158143
Bro, are you me? Man, these hoes nowadays...it happened to me a really similar thing

[Anonymous No.17159722]

>>17159672
>>17159679
do you think these things would be different with a strong marriage-norm, where a relationship would always be an all-or-nothing deal? I feel it should clear up a lot of this wishy washy shit

[Anonymous No.17159748]

>>17159679
>>17159722
>171
>>17159672
How do you stop this from happening? I am only 21 but this has happened every fucking time (10 times at least)

[Anonymous No.17159753]

>>17159664
Because you're here.

[Anonymous No.17159779]

>>17159753

[Anonymous No.17159787]

>>17157862
>>17157946
>>17157973
thanks anons. the shapes/sizes are wonky but they tasted nice so i consider this not terrible for my first try. next time i will get some coarse sea salt to top with and i’ll tinker with my oven temperature and the amount of flour in the dough.

[Anonymous No.17159825]

>>17159779
>>17159787
this is what I come to lit for

[Anonymous No.17159843]

>>17159664
They are full of interesting thoughts and testimonials from life from (usually) interesting people

>>17159748
I don't know for sure, maybe giving less attentions to girls, and being less "submitted"

[Anonymous No.17159863]

>>17159843
id rather just be myself

[Anonymous No.17159890]

>>17159863
Me too. But in life sometimes we need to act, and put on a mask.

[Anonymous No.17159953]

>>17159890
i wish life was like the movies

[Anonymous No.17160042]

>>17159953
Everyone does, sometimes I wish my life was a 90s cheesy tv serie, where revelations happens every three minutes. Instead, life is slow and problems take months or years to fade away.

[Anonymous No.17160077]

>>17159635
All of this is so surreal. Mincing garlic hurts your wrists and the zinc pills are making you fart? Your female friends are "volcels?"

[Anonymous No.17160080]

>>17160042
How do you cope? How do you cope with the fact that your life didn't go the way you planned it would?

[Anonymous No.17160105]

>>17159722
I thought this girl was your "best friend?" Bro, it's obvious. She doesn't want a romantic relationship with you and you probably won't stop bringing it up

[Anonymous No.17160278]

>>17158844
I don't speak French so I'm sure some of it is lost on me but I google translated it and I dig it gives kinda lonely vibes in a good way, guessing you went through some shit with a lady, nice read Anon.

[Anonymous No.17160302]

>>17158844
Pas mal

[Anonymous No.17160316]

>>17159312
Where you from?

[Anonymous No.17160317]

>>17160080
It really depends on the context. As for girls, right now I try to concentrate on other things such as reading and studying, but sometimes feels hit hard anyway, it's not easy to forget some things

[Anonymous No.17160515]

>>17159635
Nigga what...

[Anonymous No.17160705]

I'm looking for a German speaking absurdist writer (similar to kafka I've heard) but I don't remember his name. I really don't know anything else about him except that he died really young I think. Can someone help?

[Anonymous No.17160908]

>>17159787
They look tasty af. Recipe?

[Anonymous No.17161011]

I had a panic attack and fainted today. I became extremely dizzy and eventually just collapsed. I went to the ER to check for head injuries, but I didn’t have any. The doctor told me that I need to eat more because my body is burning fat that it shouldn’t be. I am 5’10 and 133 pounds. The rest of my day was odd and melancholic. I will lie in the shower.

[Anonymous No.17161021]

i wish the internet didn't exist

[Anonymous No.17161076]

>>17160105
That guy you're replying to isn't me. She is/was my best friend, and I never brought up a relationship with her because I have been very apprehensive of getting too close to her due to some very bad habits she has and what she did to me at the end of last year.

>>17159137
We already talked about what she did last year and I explicitly forgave her for it, so I'm not sure why she would still be feeling bad over it. I've been planning on giving her space to work through whatever is going on with her, since there's nothing really left for me to do at this point. I've told her that her actions hurt me and that I care about her, so there isn't much left for me to say I suppose. It just feels really bad because I have no idea why she won't talk to me. Things seemed fine just a few weeks ago when we were hanging out all night multiple times a week, just to abruptly be given a cold shoulder. I know she goes through seasonal depression, so I'm hoping that this is just something that will pass

[Anonymous No.17161161]

Probably the most nihilistic thought I can have is the realization that everything ultimately reduces down to chasing a high. Even my own intellectual curiosities and explorations, which I take pride in, are just another high to be chased. Morality and acts of do goodery are another high. Granted, these highs are distinguished from purely hedonistic highs in the sense that they carry at least the prospect of some benefit to myself or others outside of the stimulus of the high itself. Addiction is a tight suffocating circle: the motive and the pleasure become a strict loop, and nothing exists outside of it, and it lives only for itself. To say I'm addicted to knowlege sounds odd; but what really is the difference between an addiction and a passion if not this subtle distinction between a reward as an end in itself or as a means to something greater?
Even hugging my own mother feels like I am being compelled by some bogus imperative that it "feels good", there is no underlying reason. At the end of the day this is a worthless thought unless you happen to be, like me, hopped up on the drug of philosophy.

[Anonymous No.17161171]

>>17159664
Because I post in it.

[Anonymous No.17161179]

>>17160908
thank you! you'll need:

1 packet of yeast (2.25 tsp)
1.5cups/360 ml lukewarm water
1tsp salt
1tbsp sugar
2tbsp melted butter
3.75/4cups all purpose flour or 460-500g
and then
9 cups of water and 1/2 cup of baking soda for the soda bath

let the yeast activate in the lukewarm water at the bottom of your mixing bowl for about a minute. then add the sugar, salt, and butter. let that stand for 30 seconds or so and begin adding in your flour a cup or so at a time. mix it with a big spoon or if you have a stand mixer you can use the dough hook. do that for about 4 minutes. the dough is ready to be kneaded if it resumes shape after being poked. knead it for 4 minutes on a floured surface and then roll it in a ball and cover it with a cheesecloth or some other towel for about 1--15 minutes. while this is happening boil your water and dump in your baking soda. take off about 1/2 cup sections of your pretzel loaf and roll them out to about 24in/61 cm and then twist the ends together twice and lay them over the circle to form your pretzel shape. toss 1-2 pretzels at a time into the baking soda bath and remove them with a slotted spatula after 25 seconds and place them on a baking sheet lined with parchment paper and greased with butter or some other oil of your choice. sprinkle with coarse salt and bake at 400 degrees in the oven for about 12 minutes or until they are golden brown.

[Anonymous No.17161202]

>>17161179
this is a modified version of a recipe i found on https://sallysbakingaddiction.com/easy-homemade-soft-pretzels/ (i tweaked it to make the pretzels have a slightly higher fat content and more flavor)

[Anonymous No.17161228]

>>17161179
based

[Anonymous No.17161252]

Life feels empty again these past days. Not in a romantic or existential way but in a nauseating, suffocating, nothing-there-but-my-own-B.O. sort of way. This lockdown is driving me crazy. I have never been lonelier, more frustrated, more longing for connection. The notion that others are going through it too does not help someone as unempathetic as me.

[Anonymous No.17161300]

>>17161161
Surely you can see that this is just reductionist thinking though, yeah?

[Anonymous No.17161356]

Where do I go from here?
...

[Anonymous No.17161437]

>>17161300
cant everything be reduced to principle?

[Anonymous No.17161451]

>>17161011
Registered physician anon here, sounds like a case of drastic onset homosexuality.

[Anonymous No.17161458]

>>17161011
It might not be a panic attack so much as symptoms you're going to faint. They're easy to confuse. I faint sometimes from anemia/under eating, and I'm about ten pounds heavier than you. The second last time I thought I was going to faint, I was relieved to find out it was a panic attack because I was in public and people will call an ambulance on you if you faint in public. I'd recommend working on your diet so you don't get other under eating problems. Shit like going blind or having to lay down with your legs elevated so your heart/brain doesn't run out of blood/oxygen is not fun, so most of my diet is built around that not happening so often. Panic attacks are relatively quick and painless compared to those problems, and you're pretty unlikely to faint from one.

[Anonymous No.17161684]

Some months ago i met this girl online, she was depressed because her bf left her and was obviusly seeking help, i took the bait and we clicked instantly, liked the same things, chatted a lot, i then helped her get back with the bf even when he was obviusly bad for her (he is super jealous and the girl is preatty open with sex things) because im stupid and wanted to make her happy. The bf was so jealous he wanted to read her chats and found out mine was pretty flirty because i talk a lot about hentai and fetishes. After a while she said she didnt want to talk to me anymore because her bf is more important and blocked me. I never told her about my feelings nor how i think the bf is bad for her because my self esteem is so low i cant imagine someone liking me more than any other person. Thx for the vent, the question is should i chase her knowing that my message could make her depressed again or just bury my feelings and live with the remorse until i forget it?

[Anonymous No.17161729]

>>17157806
kill yourself scum

[Anonymous No.17161779]

>>17161011
damn skelly, you need to bulk up. make a habit of 3 meals a day, or, if you already do, increase your portions. that was my height and weight when I was 15 years old

[Anonymous No.17161810]

>>17161437
everything can be reduced to the flux of atoms, but that's not practically useful for us

[Anonymous No.17161835]

>>17161684
Nah, you irreparably fucked up, you practically guided her to the slaughterhouse. Now you're going in there asking to take back your breeding mare. Too late, she's already dog food. Forget it son. Other women will come along in a few months or a year or two. Focus on yourself positively.

[Anonymous No.17161846]

>>17157801
Bingus

[Anonymous No.17161892]

Have you ever done anything cowardly? I don't think there's any worse feeling.

[Anonymous No.17162076]

I'm phoneposting right now because my laptop fucking died. It won't turn on and it won't charge.

I think it might be that the motherboard is dead. Whatever it is, this is infuriating, I've had it less than two years.

[Anonymous No.17162182]

>>17161892
Genuinely haven't. I've made plenty of bad decisions and embarrassed myself on many occasions, but by God did I at least make an effort instead of cowering in a corner. I still remember a time in middle-school when one of the most popular guys in my grade came up to me and told me that he respected me a lot for having the balls to ask out a girl who was clearly out of my league (She told everyone about it. We actually ended up becoming friends later, though). I don't respect cowards at all, because they go through life having never truly lived

[Anonymous No.17162185]

The pandemic has taught me that human nature exists and it's to be as stupid as possible. The lack of empathy is beyond what I at first believed. Greed? A product of our environment. Malleable. Empathy? A moral problem that many lack on a basic level. The only thing that can truly control humanity is fear. Sadly.

[Anonymous No.17162374]

>>17161892
In sixth grade I feared punishment over my horrid grades and threw away my report card
it haunts me to this day

[Anonymous No.17162388]

How underhanded would it be for me to plot to fatten up my wife/girlfriend?

[Anonymous No.17162535]

>>17162374
I used to sometimes try hiding mine in my room lol. It really doesnt make any sense if your parents are involved at all. Mine used to go to all the parent teacher conferences so there was no true way to conceal anything. But when you're a kid you dont think like a criminal I guess

[Anonymous No.17162857]

I'd love to write novels but my french has been described multiple times as not university standard.
I still get good grades despites the mistakes I make. The criticisms feels a bit harsh sometimes.

[Anonymous No.17162888]

I am giving myself to consumerism and the carrot on the stick capitalist approach to life beacuase otherwise life is a nightmare that ends in death, it's a void.
I am consumed by a constant, never ending fear of death. It's no longer just ceasing to exist, now it's how it is going to come.
I live long enough to become a senile suffering husk? maybe I'll get dementia, maybe I will die in a car crash or tortured to death, or in a freak acccident or in a violent robbery or by breaking my neck or by developing a cancer somewhere.
10 years went by, I was confused and afraid, I picked up dreams and left them behind to rot. Now all I have is this vision of hard work and dedication leading to "success", leading to having nice shiny things in a nice shiny country while I make myself feel proud I accomplished something. I want to fuck I want to scream I don't know what the fuck I want anymore. I don't know what I am working towards other than "success". I want to accomplish something, that's all that has changed in 10 years, and that something is a nice car in a nice place. And everything feels absurd. I wish I had the talent or drive to express this things that live inside of me, but I'll take it to the grave.

[Anonymous No.17162904]

My New Year's resolution it to get a qt boxer gf.

[Anonymous No.17162912]

>>17162904
Good luck Anon.

I swore at the end of last year that 2020 was going to be the year I got another girlfriend and got closer to meeting the woman I'm destined to marry. Obviously it's been a shitty year to meet people. But I'm going to keep trying. I want to get married and have a family. I'm going to try until I find the girl for me.

[Anonymous No.17163489]

We are conditioned to revolve our lives around possessions. Our time is spent accumulating more and more things. We then need to buy a bigger house to store all these things in, which requires that we spend greater amounts of time at work earning money to afford it. I prefer the simple, quiet life free of these distractions, gizmos, knick knacks, and frivolities. For me I simply need a warm bed or wish to enjoy solitary pursuits like reading a book or painting. I place greater value on experiences than material possessions, on life rather than things. It is imperative that human beings break free of this mental slavery to material possession in order to truly be free.

[Anonymous No.17163502]

Humanity needs to go back to settling their differences man to man. We need a little more taste of aggression. Bring back masculinity and vigor. Men should settle their differences by engaging in fisticuffs no bars held back. Get the effeminate nanny state out of our lives and let people duel again.

[Anonymous No.17163515]

All my male friends are in my old city. This city only has female friends for me. As a result I am developing parasocial relationships with the cast of True Anon podcast. I wish I could meet someone from /lit/ IRL and hang out with them when the pubs open again. At the moment I only hang out with women and I have to not be disgusting. I know that I'm theory some women cope with disgustingness but not this lot. They are all so very fancy. This city is fancy, desu.

[Anonymous No.17163529]

>>17161451
What specialty are you? Love to see fellow med anons on here.

[Anonymous No.17163551]

I hate cities.
I hate how they look, how they smell.
I hate how many people there are
I hate those people, the scum, the whores and the other degenerates.
I hate the structures they're built on, structures of concrete and of ink
I feel claustrophobic, I'm trapped, I'm watched.
I can see it even from the countryside, the sickly yellow lights.
It makes me want to vomit.

[Anonymous No.17163592]

Humans are not the most intelligent species on earth; in fact, they're quite stupid. They are just like lab rats. You put them in a cage (the city), and they have nothing to do but eat and drink, fuck, sleep, shit, buy shit from the store around the corner (Amazon or Walmart), watch TV shows or play computer games. Humans are so accustomed to the spectacle, they don't know how to live life anymore.

[Anonymous No.17163643]

I am an underachieving student. I have always been a prankster and court jester at heart. I never took my studies seriously enough, or life in general.

[Anonymous No.17163740]

>>17158783
The imagery is getting there, but it could be more focused.
Likewise, the point of depicting Autumn as a river and what that comparison conveys is murky.
Overall, the poem possesses a creative adventurousness that could be honed and directed more toward a purpose (theme, allegory, etc.).

[Anonymous No.17163815]

she left because she said she didnt love me anymore. 5 years. can i make her love me again and come back. i miss her

[Anonymous No.17164087]

I alone
stride along
to strive
alone

[Anonymous No.17164090]

>>17163815
no. im sorry

[Anonymous No.17164093]

I searched 4chan on twitter for some reason and found this
https://twitter.com/rantegalitarian/status/1344390794774421504

Look at all these normies high fiving over how they wish their girlfriend engaged in gangbangs. It's a story about a dude breaking up with his gf because she was a slut before they dated, and the c ucks are just coming out of the fucking woodwork

>doomer skeleton #BlackLivesMatter @DoomerSkelly13
>If my partner told me that I’d be like “uhm based?”
I bet you would lad

>andy @andy_tanei
>Anyway, I'm willing to empower a consenting female in a gangbang with my homies.

>Thijs Moerman Sparkles @autoautism
>Imagine breaking up with someone because they're cool.

>xx evᴀ xx @soi_girl
>Dropping a 2 year long relationship over that lmaoooo. He deserves to be alone and miserable
This one is a broad so can't expect her not to be retarded but still

>Usernaiyme @usernaiyme
>The only thing the guy did wrong was freak out about something that happened before the two even met. What does she have to explain to him lmao?

>Ranting Swagging on the KulaksCrab Amphora Egalitarian
>The gangbang was before they dated so it wasn't cheating

>always good posts @JezButt91
>"My girlfriend is open to cool consensual sexual stuff better dump her ass."

>champion of sols Staff of aesculapius @SiriusSaiyanA1V
>torn between the hilarity of this cringe and concern that this deranged response, even if wholly fabricated, is probably not far removed from a mindset that would commit "honor killings"
Dumping a gangbang gf = honor killing

>Glowballist Soclib Globe with meridiansOrange heart @glowballist
>A woman enjoying herself and hurting no-one. The horror!

>Slippery Lemons@SilkStreets
>People are calling him insecure, but to me it sounds more like he's just a sociopath

It goes on like this. This isn't cherry picking, this is every tweet. They LOVE dating a girl who does gangbangs. Is twitter a mass psyop to turn normies into this? This is the first time I've really read a tweet chain/thread and it's a unanimous celebration of prepping the bull

[Anonymous No.17164102]

>>17162857
Kerouac wrote novels in phonetic Quebecois. I don't like Kerouac but they're probably some of his best work. University standard French is probably the most annoying French in the world, and nobody likes or speaks the academic standard French. You'll be fine, anon.

[Anonymous No.17164122]

i've been invited multiple times to a party tonight and a good friend is going and she said she wants to see me, but its mostly her old friends so realistically i'll have to make smalltalk with strangers and do that whole spiel. there will be music which may or may not be good. company might be fun because parties are always what you make of them and chances are i might have a laugh and meet some interesting people (maybe).
on the other hand i'm kind of enjoying being alone, i have my music and other media here and enough alcohol and drugs to keep me entertained. it's also a full moon and it is illuminating this rural property nicely. frogs and insects are chirping and theres a distant sound of bass coming from a houseparty somewhere in the valley which isnt bothering me.
i don't want to drink and drive and i've already had a beer, so my next drink tethers me to where i am now, or i can hop in the car and go to this party.

[Anonymous No.17164132]

>>17164093
Twitter and facebook is an echochamber for this type of people.Maybe because they banned everyone who is even slightly right wing. Or maybe its just an american zoomer thing.

[Anonymous No.17164135]

>>17163489
so like working part time?

[Anonymous No.17164179]

>>17161179
>>17161202
ty pretzel brother. I look forward to snacking on them whilst reading

[Anonymous No.17164191]

Forestanon's cabin looks magical all done up for the holidays.

[Anonymous No.17164313]

>>17163489
i know a chick with this attitude. she's a gen x wine aunt who lives in a slummy apartment and always talks about how she "chose not to have kids".

[Anonymous No.17164347]

>>17159037
Well you were partly right anon. It was a waste of money and i won't be doing it again, so no rabbit hole to go down for me

[Anonymous No.17164352]

>>17164191
oh, he posted more videos? i haven't checked out his stuff since the fires

[Anonymous No.17164569]

>>17157801
Sometimes I wish I could disappear up the ass crack of a dimensional rift, step through a portal into elsewhere and leave everything and everyone behind.

[Anonymous No.17164744]

>>17164352
Yeah he has a few since the fires. I'd seen the others but not his Christmas video. I wish we could send him clothes or books or something but he doesn't have a PO Box and he'd have to lug anything he did get up a mountain, so maybe it's for the best we can't. It'd be pretty funny but also awful if he got one and then had like 40lbs of random shit anons sent which he didn't really need.
Forestanon, if you see this, let us know if you need new trousers.

[Anonymous No.17164813]

Is feeling like you're not smart enough to write good fiction a common feeling? I don't know how to stop doubting myself.

[Anonymous No.17164840]

>>17164813
Probably, I know I've felt that way. Self-doubt is almost a necessity for good, fictional prose. Art through, adversity, friend.

[Anonymous No.17164872]

There is no taking the savagery out of war. What you don't allow the soldier to express on the battlefield becomes the bottled-up emotion that goes on to ruin him.

[Anonymous No.17164875]

>>17164840
thanks anon, I appreciate that. Trying my best to power through it, giving up is very frequently tempting.

[Anonymous No.17164889]

>>17157806
That’s a pretty shitty thing to do Anon. Figure out why you did it was it just lust or do you really not love her.

[Anonymous No.17165001]

Who are we? Our bodies are nothing more than tools we use to interact with the outside world. Even our brain is just a tool we use to understand our surroundings and react to it. Our eyes, mouth/voice, ears, are not us, though we act like they are. They are, again, just tools. Everything inside of us are just tools. I'm not talking about the soul, I'm talking about US as individuals. Are we our subconscious?

[Anonymous No.17165008]

I've been procrastinating lifting regularly since Thanksgiving. TODAY IS THE DAY LADS.

[Anonymous No.17165019]

>>17165008
>tfw last day swimming pools are open here

[Anonymous No.17165506]

>>17164872
I like it in general. Can you condense the second sentence, or do you mean for it to be lengthier?

[Anonymous No.17165531]

Can anyone recommend me a play with a really good Chekov's gun?

My play basically opens with the "gun" being established, the character who has the "gun" being mentioned sporadically throughout the rest of the play, and then the antagonist falling victim to it as the climax.

>>17165008
We're all gonna make it, bro. Finally picked up Rippetoe's book a few weeks back.

[Anonymous No.17165552]

>>17157801
I really really really like this image.

[Anonymous No.17165678]

>>17165531
Not exactly what you're looking for but Eugene O'Neill's Emperor Jones is a great use of it.

[Anonymous No.17165881]

>>17161076
>what she did to me at the end of last year
Why are you guys always so evasive? You can tell your story here, you will never be found out. But also, if a friend sat me down for a big talk about how they forgive me and all that, my first reaction is "fuck off, buddy." People often "forgive" others to assuage their own guilt, the person they are forgiving is an accessory in an ego game.

[Anonymous No.17165977]

>>17161684
she wasnt meant for you buddy. The stars will align one day

[Anonymous No.17166113]

>>17162912
Same boat. We're gonna make it, fren.

[Anonymous No.17166156]

I almost had a crush on my tutor back in high school. Should I see her again?

[Anonymous No.17166167]

>>17166156
Yeah, duh.

[Anonymous No.17166178]

>>17158156
Just read 'em.

[Anonymous No.17166197]

They should’ve eaten Wilbur in Charlotte’s Web. I first came to this conclusion as an edgy kid but I’ve had some time to meditate on this and I still wish they ate the pig.

[Anonymous No.17166213]

>>17161684
>i talk a lot about hentai and fetishes
Cringe

[Anonymous No.17166216]

>>17166197
I'm still mad Charlotte died

[Anonymous No.17166254]

My very long distance best friend sent me the loveliest new year message. I don't know if I'll ever see her again, don't know if I'll ever be able to say that I love her. It's more than likely she will be forced into an arranged marriage, and I expect the day to come eventually. It's like a soul mate with an expiry date and it's bumming me out.

[Anonymous No.17166314]

>>17166197
>>17166216
Charlotte dying was natural order of things, she fulfilled her use as mother of future generations that will conquer the world.
Wilbur couldn't die, because as a sickly specimen he was unfit for his fate, a bit how sickly men are unfit for war. So good specimens die under the knife, while faulty whiners get to live quite comfortably.

[Anonymous No.17166317]

It is at this point in my life that I realized that I am the smartest man in the world. Completely unparalleled.

[Anonymous No.17166392]

>>17166317
heh, but are you street smart kid?

[Anonymous No.17166400]

>>17163815
Not now, but maybe in the future if you grow. There are also plenty of other fantastic women.

[Anonymous No.17166407]

i just want to play hades all day, damn that is a good ass game wtf

[Anonymous No.17166426]

>>17166314
nicely put.

[Anonymous No.17166458]

>>17162388
That's a super scummy thing which only a man with an ugly mind would attempt. If you do try it I hope she works out what you're doing and leaves you.

[Anonymous No.17166792]

>>17159064
Live well.

[Anonymous No.17166960]

>>17166314
I'm still mad.

[Anonymous No.17167075]

Happy new year you crazy bitch

[Anonymous No.17167211]

>For the very first time, he felt the flames of ambition engulfing his heart.
I had this phrase bouncing in my head today. I have no idea what context it can be used in.

[Anonymous No.17167222]

Ahh, my hobbies? Well, I run a blog where I psychoanalyze memes to dissect what they say about our generation.

[Anonymous No.17167245]

>>17167211
I feel like it would work nicely in characters lowest point in the story. Like at an end of a fantasy book, that's first of 3 or something, where his "party" gets all killed and he fails his mission and ends in chains or something.

[Anonymous No.17167263]

>>17167211
Someone finally figuring out wtf they want to do in life.

[Anonymous No.17167287]

>>17166254
i hope you get to meet again

[Anonymous No.17167289]

It's funny how the internet can immortalize a person in a negative light. Perhaps the facility with which I can think of examples proves my brain has been rotted terminally by web culture. But pic rel immediately comes to mind. A woman (?), in an ill-timed public display of emotion was captured on camera screeching in hysterics as Trump was sworn in as president. Immediately it became infamous on the internet, subject to the infinite machinations of the meme machine and its endless parodies and riffs.
Imagine the dubious honor of becoming an internet meme, a depersonalized and dehumaniized joke lost among the echos of scornful laughter.

[Anonymous No.17167376]

i get paid to do me thats a fact check
i run it up then retrace my last steps
im in her eardrums talking bout assets
do you wanna...YES!....hold up i aint even ask yet

[Anonymous No.17167434]

I'm a horrible person. Despicable to the core. I crucify myself mentally every day over my past actions, but there is no release. I feel the only way to get over it is to drill a hole in my head and return to dust.

[Anonymous No.17167451]

>>17167075
You too baby

[Anonymous No.17167589]

>>17162076
must be a shit laptop. I abused the shit outta mine and it lasted me 7 years. I physically overheated it and dropped it so hard it got bent, and it still lasted for a pretty long while.

[Anonymous No.17167601]

I didn't realize what neuroplasticity actually implied, I had heard the term but assumed it was only of relevance to people recovering from head injuries, but it actually means you have near complete power to reshape your mind and thought patterns. Being a depressed, anxious, awkward loser unironically *is* a choice, a choice I'm going to stop making this new year.

[Anonymous No.17167652]

>>17157801
Should I spend every second of my life except for the last ten without experiencing any pleasure whatsoever, but then experience 100x the amount of pleasure experienced throughout the average human life, all compressed into my final ten seconds? What would the rational choice be?

[Anonymous No.17167665]

>>17167601
https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/london-taxi-memory/
Neuroplasticity can do freaky shit. Good luck m8

[Anonymous No.17167724]

Why do some people go to great lengths to secure their privacy on the internet when they could just not use the internet at all? It was created by DARPA, for Christ's sake, of course it's not going to be a private place. You might as well try to send cocaine through the postal service.
Honestly, the more I think about it, the more I realize just how stupid the idea of an online counterculture and "cyberpunk" really is.

[Anonymous No.17167735]

>>17167724
Lack of total security does not imply lack of utility

[Anonymous No.17167752]

>>17167724
>some kid just found out the us military industrial complex built the internet
no shit, but it was designed to be decentralized to withstand a soviet nuke, not to be "private" since it was never intended to be "public" in the first place

[Anonymous No.17167763]

>>17167724
People aren't good at evaluating their own actions. I know a lot of people who code, do data security, and all kinds of computer things that bore me to tears but apparently pay them well. They envy my totally empty spam bin and my near zero online footprint, and refuse to accept the cause is just I didn't sign up for those things. Some have convinced themselves I'm some tech ninja superbrain rather than believe I'm dumb and lazy.

[Anonymous No.17167776]

>>17157801
Having a gf is overrated, specially if they are obsessed with you and won't stop wanting to spend their entire waking day with you. I don't have any time for myself, and I feel guilty for not being around her when I try to go away for a bit to focus on myself.

[Anonymous No.17167787]

>>17167289
Just looked up this person and holy shit that screaming is hilarious:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wDYNVH0U3cs

[Anonymous No.17167793]

>>17167724
I knew an IT professor who used random 20+ character passwords he had memorized and not written down anywhere, not even on a scrap of paper in a safe. People who understand internet technology put extremely limited trust in it, because the system is far too complicated to understand completely and flaws are always sitting out in the open waiting to be discovered and exploited.

[Frater Asemlen !XS8vrClKs2 No.17167818]

Wrote this short poem while thinking about the new year and time. Do tell how it comes off
A question to time and an answer

How chance the roses there do fade so fast?
and the virgin marble must be broken?
because the light of life must never last
and calm silence is the last word spoken


Shall I then silent be, or shall I speak?
and will I wake or shall I stay asleep?
the young trees are soft and terribly weak
yet the strong tree is slain and cannot weep

will the mother who’s maw mangles her young
mingle my breath with the briar’s own blight ?
or will the Welkin’s Wyvern whirl his ancient tongue
and let me dwell in eternal delight?

the question of the bard I shall not wait
my heart has chose to have undying faith

[Anonymous No.17167828]

>>17167763
>>17167793
before you get too smug, every post you have made on 4channel can and will be linked to you via the google captcha you fill out to verify your identity before every post

[Anonymous No.17167834]

>>17167601
Good luck, anon. Planning on doing the same thing this year. We're all going to make it if we just put in the effort

[Anonymous No.17167841]

>>17167834
you have to drop the transparent copes first

[Anonymous No.17167850]

>>17167776
i think every guy who bitches about not having a gf really understands this at a fundamental level and avoids it, even if they claim they are too ugly or autistic or something in order save face

[Anonymous No.17167858]

>>17157801
my head splits and fuses together again only for it to repeat, all my thoughts of merit leak out before they solidify; my mind is filled with momentar eureka followed by pain and agony, and wishing of a better presence

[Anonymous No.17167943]

>>17157801
Many a based are said in cringe.

[Anonymous No.17167998]

All the big titty threads on /a/ have warped my perception of breast size.

[Anonymous No.17168022]

>>17159679
>>17158143
same. I went through something very similar to op this summer. Months of these same antics of me telling her that I want to hangout she says yes and then doesn't answer messages and changes dates.

I really liked her and was in love with her. I felt closest to her in the whole world. I realized that it was always me that was reaching out to hangout so I decided to test something. I was going to wait until she invited me to hangout. It has been probably around four months since I last messaged her and she has neglected to message me at all. I found out just how much she cared about me.

We're still really good friends and have met at parties a few times since then, but the lesson I learned is that you can never chase someone that doesn't want to be chased by you. Sure, they say ZOMG I WOULD LOVE TO HANGOUT!, but really she's just trying to be a "good person." She's trying to be polite and a "good friend" but you're not what she wants. Her actions make that clear. The bottom line, she's getting more out of this than you are. She's taking advantage of your attention and compassion for her, all the while she is still wating for someone she actually likes to appear. Never try to date someone who has to try to like you. If she hasn't made an effort in your relationship now don't expect her to change her personality on a dime. Accept the way she has acted as she truly is. Always with women, trust their actions not their words. I love you anon. Good luck.

[Anonymous No.17168071]

>>17168022
>I was in love with a girl who would ignore me
>We're really close even though we haven't spoke.in months
I truly cannot believe this shit.

[Anonymous No.17168114]

>>17168022
Love you too, anon. It sucks, but her actions really have shown me just how much she cares about me, which is not at all at the end of the day. It really did seem like she wanted to date me for a while, and we were starting to act like a couple despite not explicitly talking about it, but something happened that completely changed how she felt overnight. I've come to terms with the fact that I may never know what happened. It could have absolutely nothing to do with me, but the way she has treated me has shown me that I need to focus my attention elsewhere. I've been told repeatedly by other people that she's not a good person, and despite my efforts to see the good in her, perhaps it's time for me to face reality

[Anonymous No.17168119]

>>17167850
Are you a self-hating woman?

[Anonymous No.17168159]

>>17167850
>>17167776
i agree with this, and dont pretend i actually want a gf. i just couldnt handle the obligations and admit that but people think youre just making excuses

[Anonymous No.17168163]

>>17168119
no, i'm just saying if u'd rather post your thoughts as a shitpost on a toxic forum of freaks than text them to a hot chick, u prob aren't that interested in a relationship, idk

[Anonymous No.17168170]

Should I coom when it's new year or not?

[Anonymous No.17168178]

>>17168159
the only time i want a gf is when i'm at work and some dbag brings his thot gf to a party or sth, or some new guy goes around fucking all the hot chicks before quitting, but now with the pandemic and remote work, i don't have to see any of that, so my competitive urge to reproduce is never activated, so i'm like u don't really want a gf do u

[Anonymous No.17168219]

>>17168159
>>17167850
I don't think I really want a gf, I want an external source of love and validation. Which is deeply delusional, I know, and is why I'm somewhat jealous of people who have unironic anime waifus since I think that's what they get out of it.

[Anonymous No.17168223]

I am convinced that the amount self satisfaction is directly proportional to your ability to subjugate short term pleasure. And it is worth increasing this ability, even if it requires asceticism, or drug usage.

[Anonymous No.17168234]

>>17168163
I do wish my thoughts to be read by my fellow /lit/ brothers who understand beauty and pain rather than having it skimmed and misinterpreted by a barely conscious breeding machine that only sees values in men insofar as they are conducive to a successful reproduction. If you so much dislike these "toxic freaks" then do us a favor and leave immediately.

[Anonymous No.17168237]

>>17168219
An anime waifu can't love or validate someone, because they aren't real people

[Anonymous No.17168247]

>>17168223
yeah of course pursuit of longterm meaningful goals that align with your self-image and values is the best way to satisfied life, seems obvious t b h, but maybe i just listened to too many self-help books

[Anonymous No.17168259]

>>17168234
>toxic post crying about being called a toxic freak

hehe

[Anonymous No.17168307]

2021 and still no flying cars. doesn't feel like a future. what future is this? i watched tomorrow's world as a kid, they made promises. i don't see any of it. this world is shit and my life is shit. i don't feel any different to some serf cunt that existed half a millenia ago, i'm still bound and fucked by the higher ups. this country doesn't mean a fucking thing. machinations beyond me conspiring, feels like all they want to do is wire me up and take my head for bounty. these motherfuckers. these motherfuckers. i wish i had a home i knew ad cared for but what is this by an old warehouse where i jack in and tune out and pack boxes for the vans. the lorries come and go and booked and ready for the service. what am i and where am i. i'm nowhere. 2021 and where am i? who the fuck are you and what is all this going on can't i be somewhere else oh god help me i don't want to be alone again. how many years has it been now? the pan f'ar is seven years seven years for a vulcan mate. how i wish it were only seven years for me but it's much longer. i complain but i know its not so bad i get by i have my laptop and my porn i have a few sites i cycle between to keep me entertained to keep me tipped and ready and all over tingling. is that it, i am tingling? all this and all i want is to lie down and go to sleep. is it? am i? falling over is all i am good for now. just a barrow meant for filling up with dirt. i'm a grim worm slumped low and heavy with sweat, just a fu

[Anonymous No.17168362]

>>17167818
good metre, fine rhymes. boring content. antiquated language. no style worth mentioning.

[Anonymous No.17168413]

>>17168237
disagree, you can feel feelings even if they come from imaginary sources

[Anonymous No.17168465]

Sometimes I fantasise about how beautiful, clean and safe my city would be if the trans-atlantic slave trade had never happened, and Blacks had never been allowed to set foot here.

[Anonymous No.17168496]

>>17168465
If it weren't the blacks it would just be the Poles, the Irish, the pakis or whoever. People like you always need someone to hate and fear

[Anonymous No.17168511]

>>17168496
>>17168496
Those need to go aswell, yes. Have you ever smelled a Paki? Good god.

[Anonymous No.17168512]

>>17168496
is your assumption here that his city has no irish people or poles

[Anonymous No.17168536]

>>17168512
No, of course it does. What I'm saying is that if it weren't for black people in his city, some other group would fill the same niche, allowing him to imagine how much better it would be if not for these filthy outsiders ruining it. There is no escape from urban decay and crime, no matter what the demographics are there are still going to be slums.

[Anonymous No.17168560]

>>17168536
Not true, not all races commit crime at the same rate. Removing Blacks and replacing them by poles would still be an improvement to the slums, and striving for the better is a normal part of human nature

[Anonymous No.17168568]

Idk. Should I go to graduate school? I hated undergraduate school.

[Anonymous No.17168586]

>>17168560
I'm tired of arguing with you people, there's nothing to be said because your minds are made up. I've lived in white ghettos and they are truly dismal, much worse than black ghettos in the same city

[Anonymous No.17168601]

>>17168568
Don't go to grad school unless you have an actual plan. Everyone I know who went to grad school hated it, and they were passionate about what they studied and ended up with careers afterwards. It's a lot of bullshit to put up with.

[Anonymous No.17168605]

>>17168586
Are you black?

[Anonymous No.17168621]

>>17168605
No, I'm white as hell. But it's a pattern I've noticed, poor white people are very hostile to anyone the perceive as an outsider whereas poor blacks will at least try to get to know you first

[Anonymous No.17168626]

>>17168621
eh... kinda disagree on both stereotypes there

[Anonymous No.17168635]

>>17168601
>Don't go to grad school unless you have an actual plan.
I have none. I hated my undergrad. I’ve just been working for the same Uni as my undergrad now for like 2 years and I hate it even more.

[Anonymous No.17168648]

>>17168621
Bullshit, kek. Minorities are the most racist people I've met in my life

[Anonymous No.17168701]

How long can the "the good guys won WWII" narrative last?

[Anonymous No.17168706]

>>17168626
>>17168648
That's just how it has been for me

[Anonymous No.17168709]

>>17168701
So long as "the good guys" are in power. Every society needs a mythology to function.

[Frater asemlen !XS8vrClKs2 No.17168715]

>>17168362

Thanks for the critique friend, I appreciate it. I am satisfied that the meter and rhyme were good, that the flow was successful. I know it’s very unoriginal but it was about Muh feels ya know. But again thank you.

[Anonymous No.17168749]

>>17168701
Until they’re not the winners anymore.

[Anonymous No.17168750]

Dueling should be legal.

[Anonymous No.17168861]

>>17168750
Men these days don't have the patience for that, they just settle things on the spot, using their fists.

[Anonymous No.17168881]

Happy new year! It looks like a really good year to read Fantômas.

[Anonymous No.17168906]

>>17168861
Even in that case, they can still get in trouble even if both sides are consenting. It's BULLSHIT.

[Anonymous No.17168928]

Happy new year guysss

[Anonymous No.17168935]

>>17168906
>I want to be a REAL MAN but I can't cuz I'll get in twouble

[Anonymous No.17169017]

This new year, I will try. This year, I did not try anything. I had ruined various good relationships, stopped going to work, and disappoint the people housing me. Ive layed in my room for too long, staying awake to see the sun hit my blinds then waking up to seeing it set its last rays has been my routine, this year has been nothing for me. I have time, the new year will be different, I will try, I will try, because I can.

[Anonymous No.17169036]

>>17168935
>typing like this at all
Fat or twink? Be honest.

[Anonymous No.17169040]

>>17168715
take into account that i am drunk and a failure at everything so don't feel like my few careless words mean shit. not that i lied, of course, just don't...not everything has to be perfect. as long as you really feel it, yourself. happy new year.

[Anonymous No.17169118]

>>17169017
>disappoint the people housing me
You can just say you disappointed your parents

>>17169036
Twink as fuck. Though anyone who says that the law is getting in the way of them fighting isn't much of a fighter.

[Anonymous No.17169135]

>>17169118
they are not my parents

[Anonymous No.17169148]

>>17169135
Well you probably disappointed them too lol

[Anonymous No.17169180]

>>17169118
>Though anyone who says that the law is getting in the way of them fighting isn't much of a fighter.
Never said that, just that it would be nice.

[Anonymous No.17169252]

Happy new year

[Anonymous No.17169303]

>>17169148
you don't know

[Anonymous No.17169344]

>>17157806
why?
>>17157801
keep doing stupid things I know aren't healthy like eating sugar or watching porn. I feel like its messing up my brain. Im getting my sleep on the right track but I still feel gluttonous and negative.

[Anonymous No.17169353]

>>17158114
The women are not impressed there, sorry mate

[Anonymous No.17169364]

>>17157806
Awful. Someone put their trust in you, and you failed them.

[Anonymous No.17169371]

>>17169364
why? Is trust some sort of intrinsic object of inalienable value?

[Anonymous No.17169377]

>>17158844
Camille est si triste que ça ? Sincèrement ça fonctionne plutôt bien

Il neige chez vous ?

[Anonymous No.17169385]

>>17168906
there's nothing stopping you dudes from getting in a boxing ring and going a few rounds

[Anonymous No.17169411]

>>17168750
Isn't it legal in Canada or something

[Anonymous No.17169507]

>>17159390
Just get an escort m8 that's not that big of a deal

[Anonymous No.17170068]

ha ha this year i can chill at home without fomo

[Anonymous No.17170287]

I know this is a retarded place to ask for advice but i feel like I'm at a dead end. I just broke up with my girlfriend of 3 months due to our age difference. I'm 24 and she's 20. I know that's not an enormous gap and there are obviously much bigger age differences out there, but it was something that bothered me from the very beginning. The thing is, when we're together one on one the age difference doesn't feel noticeable at all, but when we hang out with her friends (some of which are 19) I just felt like the biggest weirdo. I felt completely out of place and like I had no idea what I was doing there. It doesn't help that she's got a baby face and looks quite young too. But again, I don't really notice the baby face when it's just the two of us - but as soon as I look at a photo of her or I see the two of us in a mirror it just strikes me that I look like I'm walking around with a child. I can't tell how much of this is in my head or if it's something that I should even be worried about. My heart tells me that I should ignore these concerns and love her for her, but I just can't shake off the anxiety.