Write what's on your mind

[Anonymous No.18207068]

[Anonymous No.18207078]

I took a few big shits today. Didn't eat any candy at all, tho did drink 3 coffees with cream and sugar. I think I should eat more iron.

[Anonymous No.18207081]

I leave them all unfiltered because I want to complain, get with the programme redditor.

[Anonymous No.18207092]

I'm starving but can't eat this late before going to sleep, otherwise my acid reflux would return... but it won't.
Hope you anons are doing well, goodnight or say or any time of the day you're reading this.

[Anonymous No.18207105]

>read about 50 pages of one book
>start reading other
>50 pages in
>start another
i dont know whats happening

[Anonymous No.18207112]

I thought my english were good enough to start reading books in it, and while I was right for the most part I discovered that the challenging aspect wasn't knowing the $10-dollar words and their meaning, but all the 1-2 syllable words of things that people use or come by in their daily life.
Reading articles or textbooks or 4chan shitposts in english helped me a lot growing up, but I still need to learn the meaning of thousands of words that describe more ordinary things.
So yeh I still have a long way to go.

[Anonymous No.18207115]

>>18207112
What's your first lang

[Anonymous No.18207118]

>>18207112
I don't understand what you're saying.

[Anynomous No.18207136]

>>18207118
He's having trouble with slang and idioms.

[Anonymous No.18207137]

>>18207105
I do this too sometimes. It's usually if I'm looking through my shelf directly after finishing a good book and I'm trying to chase the satisfaction of the previous.
Just have to set yourself a goal and say "If I start it, I'm going to finish it".
Obviously easier said than done.

[Anonymous No.18207146]

>>18207136
Oh I see. I'm an ESL and I don't think they're much a problem, I've read several books in english by now, last book I read what LOTR and aside from having to look up a few words here and there I didn't have any problem with it, same with the other books.

[Anonymous No.18207159]

>>18207146
Not the person you're responding to. I think it's a bigger issue for more modern novels.
I found my sister's Polish ex-boyfriend had a hard time getting Western "cowboy" turns of phrase like "smoke wagon" and "doggie"

[Anonymous No.18207160]

I just saw female sports on tv and all those perfect butts have left me depressed. I don't even get horny anymore, I just translate the sex neuron impulse into sadness

[Anonymous No.18207169]

>>18207159
Hmm, yeah I can see that, I tend to stick to older books so perhaps that's why I haven't encountered slang like that more often.

[Anonymous No.18207172]

>>18207160
Write a manifesto, would at least give me something to read other than the shit ass books my sisters chose for our bookclub.

[Anonymous No.18207175]

>>18207160
>I just translate the sex neuron impulse into sadness
me seing teenage girls in summer clothes

[Anonymous No.18207178]

>>18207169
Older language is of course closer to the root languages they stem from. It makes sense that they'd be easier to understand. (Within reason of course, obviously something that's in ancient Greek isn't easy for anyone unless they specifically studied it.)
For what it's worth you speak better English than most of the yokels I hang out with.

[Anonymous No.18207179]

I will never understand why zoomers are so obsessed with posting Twitter screencap and/or YouTube gossip threads on 4chan. They are on platforms where you can actually interact with them. Nick Land isn't some monolithic philosophical titan permanently out of your reach. He's literally on Twitter. Those of you unfortunate enough to be born in the generation which has regrettably normalized its usage can literally just change the tab on your phone browser and tweet at him. Why the actual fuck do you need to gossip about Twitter fags here? The worst part is that almost all of the posts in those threads are already at or under the Twitter character limit, meaning you're not using ANY of the actual benefits 4chan offers over Twitter. You dumbshit zoomers need to unfuck yourselves.

[Anonymous No.18207188]

Im literally freezing almost in the middle of may.

[Anonymous No.18207193]

>>18207188
Well I'm already starting to take out the fans from the storage and putting them on, it's getting pretty hot.

[Anonymous No.18207198]

>>18207179
>I will never understand why zoomers are so obsessed with posting Twitter screencap and/or YouTube gossip threads on 4chan.
>They are on platforms where you can actually interact with them.
It's because nobody gives a fuck about what you have to say on social media but if you post bait on 4chan you get 400 (you)s

[Anonymous No.18207202]

I've been sad all my life. I'm tired of being sad.

[Anonymous No.18207204]

>>18207179
>actual benefits 4chan offers over Twitter
freedom of speech
twitter is engineered in such a way to segretate userbases into echo chambers

[Anonymous No.18207206]

>>18207198
Jannies are trannies but I appreciate how heavily they've been pruning those gay gossip threads lately. I hope they crack down even harder and make the posting of a Twitter screen cap in and of itself a banworthy offense.

[Anonymous No.18207215]

>>18207204
So maybe you should just ignore Twitter instead of bringing its drama and personalities over here, where you say the same thing you would on Twitter except now you can say nigger. That's almost precisely the use case of the Twitter crossover demographic, by the way. To them, 4chan is Twitter except you can say nigger.

[Anonymous No.18207222]

>>18207202
same anon but its so hard for me to say no to the old friend and just venture beyond the horizon of sadness

[Anonymous No.18207227]

>>18207215
The point is that zoomers don't want to use 4chan, they see 4chan as Twitter (you)s by proxy because their lives are dictated by FOMO.

[Anonymous No.18207237]

>>18207215
>4chan is Twitter except you can say nigger
Precisely!
I'm not the people you initially described, however.

[Anonymous No.18207559]

talk me out of buying a small amount of Ethereum

[Anonymous No.18207569]

As I awoke the other day I lied still and stared at the stucco on the ceiling, then, shifting patterns of-I do not know what to call it-something not merely visible, but associated in some way with the perceptual capacities of my mind, fluctuated through different designs, until my view rested upon a settled constellation of an ineffable nature that left me thoughtless. Yet, I was still aware in a way that reminded me of childhood memories of me instilling awareness into unsuspecting features of random areas, pretending to be those areas.

[Anonymous No.18207572]

>>18207569
>lied
>dash instead of em dash
>the perceptual capacities of my mind
Sounds like you're getting a little too enlightened by your own intellect.

[Anonymous No.18207574]

I'm listening my roommate's radio through the ceiling. He's a lonely old man.

[Anonymous No.18207578]

>>18207574
what is he like?

[Anonymous No.18207591]

I'm starting to realize that I've never cared about anyone but myself, I have never put another's needs above my own, I've always acted in self-interest, even when performing actions that at fist glance might seem selfless. I think I've never truly loved anyone other than myself, but at the same time, I also hate myself, I cannot come up with a single personal quality that I'm proud of, I hate everything about me.

I think I'm one of those vulnerable/covert narcissists.

[Anonymous No.18207595]

Got high by myself and spent about 20 minutes admiring my face and body in the bathroom mirror

[Anonymous No.18207611]

>>18207112
It's a never ending process, english is my first language and I still look up new words. Especially with anything pre-1900.

[Anonymous No.18207614]

>>18207572

Care to rephrase this post? Mainly I don’t understand what you’re trying to say with the third green text

[Anonymous No.18207616]

>>18207578
He's very old. His only family here is his middle-aged son who only comes around once a month. He's in his 70s, but looks ten years older. All he does is eat and sit in his room. He's a nice and quiet old man.

[Anonymous No.18207617]

>>18207591
wtf, are you me?

[Anonymous No.18207637]

>>18207614
Imagine you're lying in bed after a long day doing whatever it is you do. You get under the covers, you wiggle your toes around a bit. Your legs quiver a little in restrained excitement. You pull the covers up over your head and smile as your ass cheeks split wide and let loose a glorious, gurgling flatulence. You smell the fart and you really like it. You like it so much you bottle it and try to sell the scent. It excites you. It's YOUR smell, richly nuanced and steeped in the remnants of your last meal. How could anyone not like it?

The fart is your post.

[Anonymous No.18207650]

Should I go play the burning crusade with my friends? It will be very time consuming preventing me from reading much.

[Anonymous No.18207664]

>>18207650
Sure, you can read later.

[Anonymous No.18207668]

>>18207650
You can always read later but never know if this might be the last time you interact with them.

[Anonymous No.18207670]

>>18207637
Guess I got what I asked for, haha. But you chose to be less clear. I was hoping for a concise explanation. If you have anything else to say, please keep “farts” out of it. Along with your bitter interpretations of things you seemingly don’t comprehend

[Anonymous No.18207702]

>>18207670
In and of about the way... that is to say that in the archetype of farts it could be said that as well as with respect to and in relation to your writing, well, I've really gotta say that it's not as much to say that it bears the poop and cum and assorted miscellaneous particles I'm sure could be found by cursory examination to be present in great abundance up your ass and around the corner... well... where was I again? Yeah. Your writing sucks dick. The content of your poopcum fart knockée is not commensurate with the tone by which you relate it. It's like imagining NEETsh or gaygel writing a grocery list for grad students. Steeped in the tone and trappings of profundity but vacuous at the center. Big words, little concept. It's a bad look, and an even worse smell.

[Anonymous No.18207703]

I've never had the experience of actually being wanted by a woman. Is that something that really happens to people? I mean, obviously it does, but to me imagining that kind of thing feels like imagining that I was a billionaire or an astronaut or something. The women I've interacted with all either made it plain that they saw me as a weirdo sperg (which I definitely am) or remained friendly-ish but told me to my face that they couldn't ever see me having a girlfriend.
Does it feel good? Is it nice?

[Anonymous No.18207726]

>>18207703
It makes you feel powerful.

[Anonymous No.18207727]

>>18207068
Why is he going into the wrong toilet?
What do you mean you don't shit in lifts.

[Anonymous No.18207746]

>>18207703
It fills you with hatred for the woman who so foolishly devotes herself to you, like a child who does not know what they really want.

[Anonymous No.18207751]

>>18207068
What's up with people in these threads always eating candy

[Anonymous No.18207755]

>>18207703
It's pleasant, but once you realise and get used to your sexual appeal, it stops being magical and becomes a matter of fact of your life.
Women are generally bigger coomers than men, with desire always blinding the reason. They are people, not goddesses.

[Anonymous No.18207761]

>>18207137
But then doesn't another part of you FOMO and wonder why you're forcing yourself to endure something less than ideal?

[Anonymous No.18207767]

>>18207755
>desire always blinding the reason

this is what makes them goddesses anon

[Anonymous No.18207783]

>>18207118
>explains the matter concisely
>I don't understand

Did you try thinking about the words you read?

[Anonymous No.18207795]

>>18207160
based

[Anonymous No.18207805]

>>18207726
Which is a complete illusion and drives you further from reality. If there are any humans superior to one another, it's so insignificant as to tantamount meaninglessness. We are all roughly equally powerless. Forces in the universe exist which would effortlessly dwarf the combined efforts of our entire species. Those people who get absorbed in their own power are just living a lie. They fart, shit and cum the same as the rest of us. They were born from nothingness and to nothingness will return in a cosmic blink of the eye. It doesn't matter at all. Why care about the intricacies and social dynamics of a bunch of primitive chimps floating aimlessly and tethered to an inconsequential rock orbiting a common star in a tiny corner of a galaxy of which there are billions like it? Why care? Really, why give a shit about it?

[Anonymous No.18207807]

>>18207559
don't buy a small amount of Ethereum

[Anonymous No.18207812]

>>18207702
Much appreciated. Perhaps I have something to learn about “content” and “tone”. I wrote what was on my mind, it was about what happened to me the other day. It’s free writing to me, and something worthy of criticism to you. You say it sucks dick, I say that is irrelevant. The purpose of the writing was to convey meaning. And I want to know all of what that meaning did to you, unless you’ve expressed that already. And if the meaning just seems empty to you, perhaps that’s because you see nothing of value in it. Also you seem like a bot. Your post is so commonplace. So bitter, and so willing to make corrections. Why would a person feel it necessary to do this?

[Anonymous No.18207815]

>>18207805
push the boulder

[Anonymous No.18207828]

>>18207812
"Nigger"

[Anonymous No.18207832]

>>18207569
>As I awoke the other day I lied still and stared at the stucco on the ceiling, then, shifting patterns of-I do not know what to call it-something not merely visible, but associated in some way with the perceptual capacities of my mind, fluctuated through different designs, until my view rested upon a settled constellation of an ineffable nature that left me thoughtless. Yet, I was still aware in a way that reminded me of childhood memories of me instilling awareness into unsuspecting features of random areas, pretending to be those areas.

>>18207637
>Imagine you're lying in bed after a long day doing whatever it is you do. You get under the covers, you wiggle your toes around a bit. Your legs quiver a little in restrained excitement. You pull the covers up over your head and smile as your ass cheeks split wide and let loose a glorious, gurgling flatulence. You smell the fart and you really like it. You like it so much you bottle it and try to sell the scent. It excites you. It's YOUR smell, richly nuanced and steeped in the remnants of your last meal. How could anyone not like it?
>The fart is your post

Is it bad that I unironically preferred the prose in the second post?

[Anonymous No.18207833]

I can't stop hearing Tenacious D songs in my mind.
>A LONG-ASS FUCKING TIME AGO IN A TOWN CALLED KICKAPOO

[Anonymous No.18207837]

>>18207572
Em dashes are ugly and you lack taste as a writer. Never forget that. Wipe your tears with your first edition copy of Elements of Style

[Anonymous No.18207838]

>>18207828
Oh no. I broke you...

[Anonymous No.18207848]

I put a grand into DOGE a couple weeks ago and I'm thinking about pulling out. I have no idea what I'm doing when it comes to investing. Should I do it or just wait and see if it recovers?

[Anonymous No.18207851]

>>18207832
I don’t know

[Anonymous No.18207855]

>>18207837
Em dashes are based. You sound like a faggot.
I'm not that anon btw. Did you have a bad day or something?

[Anonymous No.18207859]

>>18207855
please let me know what else reddit thinks

[Anonymous No.18207867]

>>18207859
Do you have autism or something?

[Anonymous No.18207868]

>>18207068
>/sffg/ was derailed because the autists from /wsffg/ couldn't wait to ruin it.

[Anonymous No.18207872]

>>18207815
Thanks for the reminder that the Greeks have already agonized over all of this. Here we are thousands of years later, still at the drawing board.

[Anonymous No.18207879]

>>18207867
No, man. If BuzzFeed is the primary source by which you derive your opinions, that's entirely up to you. I honestly do not care nor do I have any say over what you should think

[Anonymous No.18207895]

>>18207703
>I've never had the experience of actually being wanted by a woman.
>Does it feel good? Is it nice?
It has happened three times in my life that I know of. The first two I had no attraction to, so I just felt uncomfortable. I felt "this is not what I meant when I said that I wanted a woman to want me". Before that I had never understood why women would not automatically appreciate it when a guy shows interest in her.

The third girl was actually hot though. Hearing her talk about what she found attractive in me + getting laid boosted my self-confidence for sure. But I had zero feelings of love for her, I guess I found her a bit basic, and she eventually started sensing that. At one point she flat out said that I seemed distant and said that sometimes she felt like she was just a body to me... I denied it of course and played the uno reverse card saying "If I make you uncomfortable and not seen then we shouldn't hang out anymore, I don't want you to feel bad about yourself" to which she replied that she enjoyed spending time with me and didn't mean it that way. But she was 100 % right.

Sometimes I regret that I gave her up because I know that I will probably never get laid with a cuter and better-looking girl in my life. However, once I sense those feelings coming I always remind myself of how draining it is to be with another person when it is clear that there is an imbalance in importance. You would think that it would make you feel powerful and appreciated but in the end, I just felt dread.

[Anonymous No.18207897]

>>18207848
idk about volatile shitcoins but I personally think the best way to make money off crypto is to make small but consistent 3% - 10% daily gains off of day trading utilizing programs like Market Cipher or Angel Algo and the like. Can be pricey at first and not a guarateed strategy but infinitely but better than guessing. The more capital you begin with, the faster you'll make your money back. But exercise your best judgment

[Anonymous No.18207902]

>>18207837
>Em dashes are ugly and you lack taste as a writer. Never forget that.
Anon, when will you learn? The criticisms I level at myself will always be more significant. When I criticize myself, when I doubt myself, I do it based on specifics—the specific knowledge of what I specifically do poorly. I do it from a body of knowledge that only I have. How can you ever hope to compete?

[Anonymous No.18207913]

>>18207902
>admits they lack self-awareness and I shouldn't bother

Agreed.

[Anonymous No.18207922]

>>18207913
I must respectfully decline, milady.

[Anonymous No.18207925]

>>18207855
>Em dashes are based

Imagine having such strong opinions about punctuation. You're all faggots.

[Anonymous No.18207926]

You can try to make friends while depressed, but it probably won't work. People can spot that emptiness in you, and once they realize you're only there because you feel empty or lonely and not because you're actually interesting or have any thing to show fo yourself, they'll gradually taper off contact until you never speak with them again.

[Anonymous No.18208073]

>>18207926
It comes off as contractual doesn't it?

[Anonymous No.18208075]

>>18207805
>primitive chimps floating aimlessly and tethered to an inconsequential rock orbiting a common star in a tiny corner of a galaxy of which there are billions like it?

Why are we all here discussing shit when there's likely a civilization out there more advanced than us? Why live at all?

[Anonymous No.18208093]

>>18208073
It does. Some people just cut you off before then though

[Anonymous No.18208123]

I backslid yesterday. I watched porn for the firs ttime in a long time. I think I regret it. there's a particular pair of tits that is now seared on my brain. I think I have a significant hedonist and frankly horny streak, but in truth that did get better when I abstained from porn. I don't think masturbating without porn really affects one, looking back. I don't think it makes your hornier, I doubt it's significantly harmful. But things change with porn.

It is enjoyable though, but I really have become less occupied with horniness after having stopped with porn, and I think that is probaby a good thing.

[Anonymous No.18208124]

>>18208075
The same reason I wrote that post: to scream into the void.

[Anonymous No.18208133]

>>18208123
I really can't imagine caring about this. The kind of mindset that leads you to obsessing over how much porn you watch is completely alien to me.

[Anonymous No.18208142]

>>18207926
I have one old friend that I think maybe became my friend because I was lonely. now we've grown apart and there is in some ways not much left between us. I don't know if I want to stay in touch. I think he really wants to be my friend.. I don't like this situation.

[Anonymous No.18208147]

>>18208133
one major reason why I stopped was because I couldn't interact with women without fantisizing about them, and that felt off. it got better after I quit.

[Anonymous No.18208150]

>I DO NOT NEED (he does not need) A MICROPHONE (a microphone)
>MY VOICE IS FUCKING (fucking) POWERFULLLLLL
>AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHA AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

[Anonymous No.18208165]

>>18208133
I don't think it's obsessing about how much porn you watch, but rather the opposite. You stop because you are focused on the porn, and want to not be thinking about it frequently anymore.

[Anonymous No.18208168]

>>18208150
>I FUCKING LOVE THIS BAND. THEY ARE THE BEST BAND EVER. PERIOD!

[Anonymous No.18208177]

>>18208147
Did it get better? You should try accepting yourself as you are. If you are experiencing intrusive thoughts to the point where they are causing you distress, you may want to entertain the idea that by refraining from masturbation you are treating a symptom rather than the illness. As for the latter, consider looking into disorders where intrusive/compulsive thoughts are a central diagnostic component. I am not your therapist and cannot diagnose you, but it sounds like you could use some more qualified help than an internet movement completely unvetted by any real scientific methodology.

[Anonymous No.18208195]

>>18207105
>>18207137
How do I stop this? I can’t remember the last time I read an entire book.

[Anonymous No.18208215]

>>18208195
Set yourself a deadline for when you want to finish the book, then calculate how many pages a day you'll have to read to achieve that. Ideally aim for something in the 15-20 pages a day range. I have to read books from time to time that I have no personal interest in reading, and this is what I do. It works really well for me. If you actually enjoy the book you're reading, it should be easy.

[Anonymous No.18208240]

>>18208177
yes, it got better. I'm not gonna claim I don't carry a lot of weird baggage pertaining to women, but this particular thing got better.

[Anonymous No.18208257]

How is it that I failed so spectacularly to not only figure out what I wanted to do but secure any sort of path for myself and find a partner by the time I was 25? All of my peers seem to have managed more or less. It’s only me that’s crashed and burned and the irony is, I’m the one who had to go through the most and was always a good person.

[Anonymous No.18208275]

>>18207068
Helping a buddy with some technical issues. Sheesh I have to drink some coffee, 9:30 and still dry? That won't do.
I think my girlfriend's cheating on me.
I should pick up that Zettelkasten book, it'll help with the channel.
What do Protestants think about the Luke verse saying Zechariah and Elizabeth were holy in the eyes of the Lord for following the law?

[Anonymous No.18208354]

killing a day. thought I was gonna read but it looks like I'll just lay in bed. maybe cook something for dinner. I need to do shit but it is what it is.

[Anonymous No.18208422]

>>18207872
Did we really advance at all since then?

[Anonymous No.18208442]

>>18208422
Well, we die older and less often from trivial things, so there's that. But philosophically? You could make an argument that we haven't advanced a single solitary step.

[Anonymous No.18208579]

I wish I had been an only child or grown up with only sisters.

[Anonymous No.18208602]

>>18208579
y

[Anonymous No.18208681]

I'm patiently waiting for my motherfucking spaghetti.

[Anonymous No.18208703]

[Anonymous No.18208714]

>>18208602
I grew up with brothers and I’ve always just felt like that experience forced me to be someone I didn’t want to be.

[Anonymous No.18208717]

IMMA READY FOR MY SPAGHETTI

[Anonymous No.18208722]

I been looking into some courses regarding computer stuff and found two of them - java and testing. I'm not really sure which is worth more in the long run.

[Anonymous No.18208740]

Does anyone got recommendation on some book related to topic how free market exploit human nature (-for money)?
Appreciate it.

[Anonymous No.18208776]

[Anonymous No.18208783]

[Anonymous No.18208785]

T-minus 50 minutes until spaghetti time :)

[Anonymous No.18208811]

[Anonymous No.18208825]

Niggy Stardust

[Anonymous No.18208875]

>>18207068
you are slowly killing lit. Please stop.

[Anonymous No.18209493]

>>18208740
do you want to start a cult?

[Anonymous No.18209518]

>>18208875
I've been posting more on lit than I have in a while which is kind of funny because as an author this would be the natural place to do so. These kind of threads are helpful for me to engage the community in an environment where I can't promote myself. It's fun to mess around in threads with other readers.
I also like the vtuber girls. They're fun. I only like updating my work in the wg when I have hard progress though so I'm not going to reply to the one there.

[Anonymous No.18209740]

>>18207703
It does happen. I've had several relationships that were initiated by the woman.
You'd think in that scenario they'd be more prone to staying because relationships are work, but from the outset I make it very clear that I would want them involved in my books and paintings and they realize when I reference shadows it's not just me being romantic, it's me trying to make a path where no path has been before.
I can't direct them, I work 40+ hours a week and turn around and get into writing. I need a partner. I understand they may have small problems but overall the focus needs to be on us as a unit.
You could see how this could buckle a relationship but the way I see it the one that will push for me will be the one willing to push out my babies and wear a ring.

[Anonymous No.18209761]

Think I'm going to make doughnuts from scratch.

[Anonymous No.18209766]

Can someone red pill me on Don DeLillo? I’m like interested but I’m not interested.

[Anonymous No.18209774]

>>18209761
Nice.

[Anonymous No.18209781]

>>18209518
You sound like a fucking newfag redditor.

[Anonymous No.18209810]

>>18209781
I don't really use social media other than this. Too busy writing. I do like Newgrounds though.
>desu

[Anonymous No.18209833]

>>18207068
No.

[Anonymous No.18209841]

>>18209810
Newsgrounds was basically the Reddit of its day.

[Anonymous No.18209879]

>>18209841
Eh. I dunno. We had neurotically yours and happy tree friends and Pico and the celebrity kill games. I'm sure modern users would have a conniption if they were exposed to what we had. (I'm also sure thats why they were ultimately moved or hidden) plus flash retiring didn't help.
Newgrounds is a creative medium while that other site is just suffocating. I'd rather be anonymous on 4chan than promote my work out there because God forbid 2 years later someone digs up a post of mine they don't like and rake me over the coals.
Ain't doin it. No Sir.

[Anonymous No.18209889]

aight immah make a foot thread after this

[Anonymous No.18209893]

How good are the odds that we're gonna see cloned mammoths in our lifetime, /lit/?

[Anonymous No.18209943]

>>18207092

Hope you too are doing well anon

[Anonymous No.18209962]

I bought some Starbursts :)

[Anonymous No.18209995]

>>18207569
Fuck the stuck-up cynics in this board. I enjoyed what you wrote, for what it's worth...

[Anonymous No.18210033]

>>18207591
Same here, dude. But, y'know, it's not all that bad. Narcissistic people are pretty fucking cool sometimes.

[Anonymous No.18210038]

>>18209962
Awesome! What a Chad.
>>18209893
I read somewhere they did some work on it in 2019 I think but I dunno. I'd be worried about the animals quality of life.

[Anonymous No.18210285]

"Wanting people to listen, you can't just tap them on the shoulder anymore. You have to hit them with a sledgehammer, and then you'll notice you've got their strict attention." -John Doe
I know this is from a movie but i find this quote to be extremely poignant in today's world and it seems to have only increased in it's forecast from 25 years ago.

[Anonymous No.18210333]

The simple fact that we hold in our poo when we sleep is proof that intelligent design is real.

[Anonymous No.18210342]

I never really developed my interest in literature until I was pretty old and that bothers me quite a lot.

[Anonymous No.18210401]

I love small youtube channels
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r9Ya80j6POY

[Anonymous No.18210455]

How to start with poetry? It may sounds stupid but do I need some background? An introduction to poetry?

[Anonymous No.18210493]

>>18210455
You could be a poet and not even know it.
I digress, I play with poetry sometimes. I started with haikus, but as I wrote more my vocabulary expanded and I found more words that rhymed with each other. That helps get the mental paintbrush going.
I don't think anything in our art really requires prior schooling. Just trial and error and a lot of practice.

[Anonymous No.18210534]

>>18210455
carry a writing block and a pen with you. if you have ideas you have ideas. if not then you don't. it's ok either way.

[Anonymous No.18210546]

Windows is not honoring the deal we had where I click an item in the taskbar and the window becomes minimized. This is an unacceptable violation of the social contract. This flies in the face of natural law.

[Anonymous No.18210547]

>>18209774
We'll see how it goes. I halved a new recipe. They're on their second rise now.

[Anonymous No.18210620]

>>18207160
Hot olympic-level female athletes feel wrong to me. Shouldn't they have to sacrifice their beauty to reach that level?

[Anonymous No.18210631]

>>18209893
Non-zero. But there are a fuckton of ethical issues involved with bringing a species back from the literal dead. So realistically what that means is China will be the first to create a mammoth clone, and that'll be so they can grind up its tusks to play make believe with what they pretend it does for them.

[Anonymous No.18210638]

cool story bro, but have you seen my new gf?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8whLTXxkIpY

[Anonymous No.18210649]

>>18210638
Wow poggers bruh

[Anonymous No.18210667]

join the challenge

[Anonymous No.18210691]

>>18208142
It's not something we should assign blame for. Ideally this would just be common sense. Friendships can't happen unless people are on equal terms, if a depressed or lonely person latches onto someone healthy it's not going to work. You can support him as a friend and give compassion to him for what he's going through, but hanging out and doing normal friend stuff is really hard when one person isn't healthy and socializing normally. That's just the truth of it. Friendship between two lonely/depressed people is possible, but it won't be a normal friendship of course.

[Anonymous No.18210792]

>>18210667
JOIN THE GOD DAMN CHALLANGE

[Anonymous No.18210913]

The unemployment numbers are funny, a bunch of normies got a taste of the NEET life thanks to those stimulus and unemployment checks and now they don't want to go back. Wagies have probably taken the NEETpill, too bad it won't last.

[Anonymous No.18210927]

>>18208442
I'd say we regressed. The Enlightenment killed Aristotelian ethics. Aquinas kept the idea of telos alive through religion during the Middle Ages but now there's no platform to bring it back.

[Anonymous No.18210991]

>>18210638
yea you posted her yesterday

[Anonymous No.18211014]

>>18208354
well, now the day is over, and I kilt her. slept a lot, cleaned a little, cooked some food that turned out shitty, ate melon, debated online, watched dota.. I did leave the appartment once to go shopping, that counts. Tomorrow, in theory, I should be productive. It seems conceivable that i will be, read articles on political science and take meticulous notes for the upcoming paper. It should be alright. I had a really good weekend so I should be ready. But we'll see. Who knoooooooows what tomorooooooooooooooooooooow will briiiiiiiing

[Anonymous No.18211017]

>>18210991
cute isn't she?

[Anonymous No.18211034]

>>18211017
yep. I wonder if she'll have a musical career

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[Anonymous No.18211127]

>>18211113
oh yeah, fan... I get it...

[Anonymous No.18211145]

>Read book by some respected philosopher on another philosopher
>Find it mostly agreeable
>Read book by another respected philosopher on this topic
>he says the first guy was totally trash and completely misunderstood the other philosopher
>Dont know what to think
yeah i know it's a midwit take, but still

[Anonymous No.18211154]

>>18207068
I hope she got away from the tentacle monster

[Anonymous No.18211193]

>>18207068
Just turned 21 a few weeks ago. Been stuck in the past lately—probably down to having too much time on my hands—but I have been feeling very down lately after randomly having a dream about this girl I really liked in my senior year of high school. She was in my music class and laughed at my stupid jokes. For some reason at the time I would think about her at random times without wanting to, sometimes while I was taking a shit, to my disgust. (Not out of some coprophilic fantasy—I have dealt with intrusive thoughts in my life.) But it ended up affecting my relationship with her, as I started to blush every time I spoke to her, and I would mentally berate myself for having the romantic skills of a middle schooler, only making things worse. After months of being a fucking depressed loser and not being able to speak to her, I wrote her a letter saying all the things I couldn’t express in person on the last day of school, and exchanged a few text messages where she wished me luck with college and I said the same to her.

After that I went on a gap year and got laid once with a good looking older girl at the club but failed to bust a nut. Tried to cut down on the porn since then. Haven’t been with a girl since.

Can someone (preferable someone who doesn’t identify as an incel) please snap me out of this brain fog. Everything was fine until I dreamed about this girl a few nights ago, woke up and found a bunch of her Spotify playlists, listened to some of them and felt that nauseating, miserable wave of self-loathing and inadequacy all over again. Please shock me out of the simp, I know I can do better than this.

[Anonymous No.18211200]

>>18211127

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>>18211193
You'll get over it. Might take a while but you'll do.

[Anonymous No.18211257]

I took 3 shits today. And not small ones, either

[Anonymous No.18211260]

>>18211193
>Everything was fine until I dreamed about this girl a few nights ago, woke up and found a bunch of her Spotify playlists, listened to some of them and felt that nauseating, miserable wave of self-loathing and inadequacy all over again.
What's her spotify?
Not an incel, nice to meet another fellow blocked in the past. You should just meet some other girls, perhaps have a trustable friend that happens to be a girl and just tell her about this all. I'm sure it'll do you some good.
That said, I don't believe the pill will ever pass, it never did for me. Almost married and still dreaming of girls I once loved from times to times. Enough to say there must be a thousand timelines in which everything happened differently inside of my head. It's a sad, dirty secret, but it's how I cope with my past loves and never feel like returning with any of them. The ultimate secret of fidelity.

[Anonymous No.18211263]

I've been meaning to write up my notes for this video review of a book and instead of moping about it, I actually went and wrote up notes for two thirds of the book and I'm hoping to finish off my notes tomorrow so that I can put a script together. The productivity feels good desu. I've been struggling to figure out how I feel about the book for a while and actually putting my thoughts into cohesive notes has really helped.

Because I've got three separate editions of the book, I'm flicking from book to book to make note of any differences and it feels like I'm back in uni again but without the stress of uni. In all honesty, as long as this video gets a single like, I'm going to do more because I fucking love reading and making notes lol.

[Anonymous No.18211274]

>>18211193
Start listening to rap music to boost your confidence instead of whatever sadboi shit you found on her Spotify. Start lifting weights or doing bodyweight exercises. Important- any time you feel sad, a good 15+ minute run will put her out of sight and out of mind, guaranteed. Trust me, there are so many girls out there, a young guy like you can improve himself and do well with females in the long run.

And don’t worship or fixate on women, ever. Put your life and goals before anything else. Just live your life with a one track mind, focus on your goals, and good things will come. Don’t ever ever ever waste time looking at someone else’s life or stuff from the past. You’re taking away from your own potential. You can do it you fucking faggot.

[Anonymous No.18211358]

>>18211260
I’d prefer not to share it for privacy reasons, but it’s also not anything super out of the ordinary, just varied, decent-ish taste in music that I didn’t know she had. Just made me feel a kind of way because it was like looking into something personal of hers that I wasn’t supposed to have seen, and made me reflect on how things could’ve gone. To add, I was a serious musician at the time and wrote some songs about her— in fact, I even wrote a song titled in her name before I ever met her or knew who she was, and was pleasantly surprised to have met someone with that name.

> The ultimate secret of fidelity.
Man, I never saw it that way, maybe because I’ve yet to be in a serious relationship. Perhaps there’s a silver lining to it after all. I appreciate your words anon, all the best with the marriage.

>>18211274
And yeah man, I do tend to gravitate to the sad stuff, maybe to an unhealthy degree, so I’ll check out some hip hop, do you have any recs? As for exercise I have been running from time to time and I think it’s definitely good for mental health overall. Appreciate the tough love advice.

[Anonymous No.18211397]

I wonder if I will manage to become less judgemental. I think it is right as the christians say, that if you judge someone you will be judged the same as your judgement. I think they mean that by expecting so little of your fellow man, you are admitting that that is how little you expect of yourself. I wonder if I can do better.

[Anonymous No.18211442]

>>18210667
join the fucking challenge, NOW!!!

[Anonymous No.18211483]

>neurotic anxious mess about starting a job tomorrow
>due to this feeling feel little joy in finishing a book I was previously enjoying
fucking sucks desu now I'll permanently associate this book with this feeling

[Anonymous No.18211498]

join the challenge

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>>18211498
Love B Montero

[Anonymous No.18211524]

My name is blank. I'm blank years old. I'm from blank. I like to blank.

[Anonymous No.18211531]

>>18211524
plank*

[Anonymous No.18211533]

I’ve got some past job choices that I’m actually pretty embarrassed about.

[Anonymous No.18211535]

>>18211533
pimp?

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[Anonymous No.18211601]

Why is nearly every thread a poorly disguised bait made so some midwit can ben shapiro style own the retards
Pic related its the face of /lit/

[Anonymous No.18211613]

$

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>>18211559
I love how badly painted the moon and star is.
Its like whom ever made the probe couldn't give a fuck or where mentally retarded

[Anonymous No.18211623]

>>18211601
Edit: thank for gold remember to upvote

[Anonymous No.18211719]

bump

[Anonymous No.18211754]

I've been doing pretty well recently but I woke up this morning with the unmistakable feeling of dread in my gut. It's going to be a long week.

[Anonymous No.18211756]

>>18211535
Nothing like that. Just stuff that’s kind of cringe.

[Anonymous No.18211821]

In my mined I'm gonna vry so much I goota to go before thec ourt order ho boy lol what huh yueah yeah yeahyheyaeyah truth story i need to pay for adult diap[ers notification sounds beeping lice blinking on my head its real not a nightmare am i dreaming its all isreal case against my pilking like an order when i die they send me cross the wadder sun shone smile laugh live cum onside the open window case against pikling like and order send my bodfy cross the wadder pikliung bodies laughing

[Anonymous No.18211839]

>>18211756
Cashier, fast food mascot, telephone assistance? Working isn't something you should be embarrassed about, even homelessness isn't something to be embarrassed about as long as it was because of circumstances you could do nothing against and not because you were a lazy shit.

[Anonymous No.18211840]

>>18211756
I was a security officer at a one direction concert, where I had to stand all day in the middle of a stadium full of little 13y old girls and had no ear protection and the little girls screamed so loud that my ears hurt .. I stood there like the last complete idiot with my emo hairstyle, I looked like I was there for one direction, hadn't even noticed that everyone else was wearing ear protection and the worst part was, the job was over a friend and I never got the money for the job (I even helped with the dismantling, carried away whole barriers and bars). so I don't know what more cringe should be. I was 17 back then and I hated one direction btw. Don't be like me, say fuck you and do what u gotta do! Fuck them haters, GLOW GANG, BRICK SQUAD!!!

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>>18211840
they screamed for 7 hours btw, I stood there for 7 hours... omfg BITCH

[Anonymous No.18211895]

I'm naked under the clothes, skin, meat & bones, atoms, quantum foam.

[Anonymous No.18211901]

>>18211623

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>>18211895
chill, I don't know u like that

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[Anonymous No.18211988]

It's about time to move again. I've been here for thirty years and people have started to notice. Ten years ago, I started coloring my hair, pretend to have aches in my back and complain about my age to anyone within earshot. It's hard to maintain the hair, the color always comes back so I shaved it and started wearing an obvious wig. I grew a beard instead as the color is easier to fix. I immigrated from the US when the troubles started so I won't be coming back there any time soon. Maybe I'll go to Latvia or Belarus, I do miss the colder climate.

This pandemic, like all other major population upheavals, has been a boon to me as the bodies have been piling up and no one ever notices one or two dead in a week among the hundreds every day. Still, I think I'm ready to taste European flesh once again.

[Anonymous No.18212011]

>>18207160
And to think there are men who watch mens sports staring at men's butts like faggots.

[Anonymous No.18212035]

I don’t think I have any real talent to write but the thing is it’s sincerely the only thing I still really want to do with my life and if I can’t make it doing that well, then I’ll just end it abruptly.

[Anonymous No.18212041]

>>18211839
No, it’s all like country boy stuff that’s not me at all and I ended up quitting it all almost immediately.

[Anonymous No.18212043]

>>18211959
My dad had my when he was 26. I'm 26 now, and have never been in a serious relationship.
I dont think I'd even be ready to have a kid.
How did my dad manage to do it?

[Anonymous No.18212112]

Found a dead bird today in my yard. It reminded me of a time when I was a boy and found a dead bird in my childhood yard. The dead bird today was a dove. It looked aged and injured. Having laid in it's resting place for at least three days it had begun to be eaten by the insects, pulled apart as these things are. I have had a life long fascination with animals laying in partial states of decomposition. But birds particularly, in a state of death, stricken, flightless, grab my attention.

What kind of bird was it. I was perhaps 5 or 6. I was playing with my younger brother, we ran through overgrown grass waiting for it's weekly chop on a Saturday morning. Dad was still enjoying his coffee, sitting in his patio chair. Thinking thoughts I will never fathom. As I ran quickly past the shallow water basin of a freshly planted lemon tree, there I beheld my first dead creature.

It was not a small bird by any means. Even taking into account the distortion of time that causes small objects and places to be remembered larger than they were. I know this because I made special note of its outstretched wings. Rigid and extended as if for flight the wingspan was easily larger than that of my own arms. It lay on its back, it's feet stretched into the air. The neck of the bird was twisted and pointed into he dirt so that I have no memory of it's face or beak, making identification harder now. The body and wings of the bird were a light brown with stripes almost black and specks of white.

What held my attention most as I stood there silently, my brother running past me unaware, was how lifelike the poor beast was. Ha ING never seen a dead thing, it had not occured to me that in the immediate time following it's death, it would be physically and visually similar to the living article. There was no ghostly form floating out of the body. No comical Xs on the eyes. The cartoons had been deceiving me about the death business. In this few moments, minutes, or hours between life and death, the body retained every bit of it's beauty.

The other thing that became a sudden realization, as I stood looking at this dead bird with it's outstretched and rigid wings was how very similar the whole thing seemed to one of my airplane toys lying on its back. The connection both structurally and philosophically between birds and aircraft is one that continues to take up a great amount of my mental space. I wondered if I could just pick up this bird by its body as I did my toy airplane and toss it forward and it why wouldn't it at least glide on its wings for some distance?

But as it's feathers flapped in the wind, in the shade of the immature and recently planted lemon tree, I instinctively knew the thoughts I were having were just that. Thoughts that could never be acted on. You can't throw dead birds with broken wings into the air. Broken airplanes won't fly either. I think of that bird every time I go flying.

[Anonymous No.18212120]

>>18211517
>B Montero
what the fuck this is some far out shit

[Anonymous No.18212138]

>>18207068
I'm sleepy, but if I go to bed now it will mess up my rhythm

[Anonymous No.18212139]

>>18211839
>>18211840
I’m almost certain that someone will identify me from this story but I really don’t care so if you know who I am just don’t out me on here please.
> grow up in a small town and work at an Ag store because it’s just what I could get
> go to college somewhere even more rural to study economics and business
> work as a host at a bar and restaurant
> they end up making me a bouncer since they needed people
> laughable considering the way I look and what a loser I am
> think I want to be a finance dude bro
> act like a dude bro redneck to impress people
> talk about how I want to work on Wall Street
> actually hate business but have basically given up on life and want to be a big shot so people like me
> take 6 fucking years to graduate
> somehow end up getting a finance job at a bank but out in the suburbs that ends up being a boiler room type of place
> quit in less than a year
> guy I trusted advises me to go work in the oilfield saying “there’s money to be made there”
> I still think I need to make big money so people will like me
> I get a job as a roughneck
> quit in less than a week
> girlfriend leaves me immediately
> get a dead end job working in accounting with middle aged women back at my college
> give up on having people like me
> hate the job so I quit to work on a ranch outside of town thinking it would be romantic and “cool”
> quit after a month because I’m tired of shoveling horse shit and working sunrise to sunset for pennies
> go back to same job working in accounting at uni
> still hate it
> still stuck in this little town
> realize I’ve been living a lie for years to get my family and “friends” to like me and I actually only wanted to read and write (and maybe be a little cosmopolitan) all along
> getting old
> have the most incoherent career path and life story ever
> probably going to quit soon and just really finally give up
> probably don’t have any talent anyway
> feel immense shame and regret over all of this

[Anonymous No.18212163]

>>18212139
my life is different, but same meandering waste of time.

[Anonymous No.18212194]

>>18212163
Hopefully it’s not too late as you’re typing this. I think you can meander to a certain point and still recover.

[Anonymous No.18212202]

At my fraternity’s formal tonight. Idk man, every time I get drunk partying just looks even less appealing than it already is. I literally just want to vibe and cuddle with some hot chick. Screw this “we gotta gyrate to some shitty music,” let’s argue about a bunch of dumb shit no one cares about. Idk man, I’m out of it and a little lonely. I don’t get modern music. I don’t get modern man. I don’t get why I’m always the one singled out as weird, either because people ignore me or they treat me too nicely. Idk, I’m bitching at this point. Time for more tequila!

[Anonymous No.18212213]

>>18211988
>1988
>world weary, world travelling, first person vampire in liminal periods of human history
I see you Anne Rice, you pseudocatholic weirdo

[Anonymous No.18212245]

>>18207068
I'm going to try better tomorrow, today wasn't my best

[Anonymous No.18212283]

I realize the futility in asking this here but can I please get a legitimate and proven method for leaving this place forever?

[Anonymous No.18212287]

>>18212283
Will power

[Anonymous No.18212291]

>>18212283
Post explicit cunny, get banned. Use that as an excuse to never come back.

[Anonymous No.18212339]

>>18211257
show-off

[Anonymous No.18212383]

>>18212291
Please don't. I'm on nofap.

[Anonymous No.18212411]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a8Ek-4Lfmrk

God, I would like to help "you" somehow by writing something individual for everyone that will open your eyes in time, but unfortunately that is not possible ... everyone is different. The world was made in such a way that one cannot stand for oneself, that one becomes a slave to another instead of loving oneself. and the damage is so deeply anchored in the brain that it is very difficult for many to make it clear that their world is just an illusory world based on propaganda by politicians and fellow human beings manipulated by the same politics. I'm not saying it's good or bad, I'm just saying that you can be free from all that shit. But you decide to become NPC's, as sad as it sounds ...


If you convince yourself at a young age (between 20-25 years old) that you are depressed or too bad, then at some point it will really happen, then you will get really REALLY depressed, it will no longer be a mood, it will turn into a real one illness. You can no longer laugh at stupid jokes because then you are different. If you don't get out of the trap in time, it will become even more difficult to get out of the trap as you get older.

Stop listening to BOTS in this "matrix" who are dissatisfied with their lives themselves.

They don't even want you to be happy. that's the last thing they want. and most older people also have big egos from being trapped, but their brains are already too fucked to admit it. That's why they'd rather that you have a hard life too.

But I'm telling you, live the way you want to live. If that's not a good tip, then I don't know either.

Most of them don't even want to open their eyes because it's uncomfortable. It's more convenient to listen to others tell you what to do and what not to do. It's more convenient to look for the solution in a book and hide from the world.

The world is not like in the books, not like in series in which everyone behaves artificially, with artificial humor, not like it can be seen on the internet or on social media. The world is your own imagination. Don't let external factors spoil this idea.

[Anonymous No.18212412]

>>18207068
eternal life is a free gift of God. you don't have to go to the fire burning hell for your sins /lit/

[Anonymous No.18212450]

I can't feel my brain, hair or nails. I feel all around my head, underneath my nails, but my brain, hair and nails has no feeling to them, but I do feel their weight so I know they're there.

[Anonymous No.18212492]

Sunday night post-party posting :
I'm reminded of Zizeks analysis of modernity at the moment. Everytime I meet a nice girl(at a party) I'm always battling my urge to enjoy. The fact is I'm like this with anything. I use alcohol for its functionality and only to the point where it fulfills its function and no more. I don't enjoy the feeling as much as i enjoy the absence of the negative feelings (anxiety at first encounters with strangers etc). I only smoke cigarettes to open up an opportunity to talk to someone. Although it's slightly enjoyable for 60 seconds having more than 2 a night is dreadful at the time and more so in the morning. I want nothing more than to talk to someone interesting and maybe cuddle a hot girl as >>18212202 mentioned. But it feels as though the moment you decide to cross the line and strategize your conquest the joy of spontaneity that is a party is lost. Unlike the other poster I enjoy parties and all their rituals of dancing and fragmented conversation and so on. You can read this as cope and it (is) may be but I'm angry at myself for not getting the number of a certain young wealthy Spanish girl and now I'm rehearsing the same pattern I've had for the last 4 years which I thought I broke out of. When you fail to act the anxiety is worse than the fake number or lack of response.

[Anonymous No.18212599]

Does anyone else make notes of the things they read/watch that leave a lasting impression?

I don’t exactly take notes of what they’re about or why they left an impression. It’s more like I just make obsessive lists of the things I read and watch, everything from novels to video games, that leave a lasting impression on me for one reason or another and I arrange them by the degree they left an impression on me.

[Anonymous No.18212697]

>>18207703
It's strange, and once it passes from your life, it begins to feel like something that happened to someone else. You'll think about the times you had together and the strange warmth it brought you and say "No, no, that wasn't me."

[Anonymous No.18212703]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VZpKiqXZqWs

[Anonymous No.18212736]

The desire for love has crept back into my life with no real outlet. My thoughts are consumed by a desire for one woman in particular, but I can only imagine child-like fantasies and scenes of some strange virginal courtship. I cannot imagine her naked, I cannot dream of sex or idly think about taking her to bed. I don't know where these thoughts have come from and it frightens me. I cannot be sure if these thoughts are pure or secretly lustful. I dream about holding her hand, taking her into my arms in the dark, or drawing up her shirt and kissing her bellybutton.
Why?

[Anonymous No.18212748]

Is the enormous glut of WW2 and GWOT movies that have been around since the 2010s the closest thing to modern spaghetti Westerns or is there something else? I thought for a second that maybe all these MCU and Star Wars movies would fit the bill but I don’t think they do.

[Anonymous No.18212757]

i started working at a grocery store and i get uncontrollably horny now. i see all these hot teenagers and 20s people, even milfs in these sexy summer clothes and i literally cant contain myself

i will do something drastic soon

[Anonymous No.18212760]

need help from the bros. meet a girl but she's 17 and i'm 23. is it worth the risk ? i see no issue but this could very easily backfire despite her not seeming like the type to blow me up if things dont go well.

[Anonymous No.18212776]

>>18212760
is it a tinder date? If its through mutual friends or you overlap work/social scenes its not a good idea at all. if its a tinder thing and she lives far enough away it's probably okay. if you're taliong about dating her i have no idea, desu from the outside it looks pretty weird to date a 17 year old at 23 but whatever

[Anonymous No.18212829]

>>18212776
not a tinder date and we don't have mutuals but we are in slight overlapping music scene. this would be dating and yes it does look 'weird' but really thats not my concern. its more about getting fucked over legally or rep-wise if it ends bad. still figuring out if its from covid horny or actual interest. Thanks tho anon.

[Anonymous No.18212830]

>>18207068
I've been depressed my whole life but for the first time I feel a genuine feeling of peace and happiness. My parents never taught me any life lessons and were always so emotionally distant from me and raised me on the 'children are meant to be seen and not heard' mentality. They also tended to never teach me about emotions and feelings and how to express them and all I taught myself was to cut myself off from it. I have never known a single thing about myself outside of the superficial my whole life and while I still don't know myself, I feel happy knowing that I can now. I basically had to raise myself and because of that I've never had friends, never had a relationship, never really experienced life. For so long I've been beating myself up, trying my hardest to bottle everything up inside, and force myself into situations I dreaded. Constantly had thoughts roaming my head that wouldn't shut up no matter what form of logic I tried. But now, now I feel more in control of who I am, even the voices are gone. And, hopefully one day, I can see what life is truly like when I'm fully connected with myself. I don't know what that looks like, but I want to know. I want to live.

[Anonymous No.18212939]

>>18212736
Iktf bro. Sounds like you have a major Madonna Whore Complex. Look it up.

[Anonymous No.18213011]

>>18212830
Hope to see you bloom, my dude.

[Anonymous No.18213152]

Are antisemites aware just how many different types of stupid they sound?

Like, starting with the big picture, any time I hear some idiot talking about how jewish conspiracies are controlling the economy and politics, it's always painfully obvious that they really mean rich people, but are such bootlickers that they can't admit it to themselves, so instead of blaming people who really do have control over the economy and politics they convince themselves the dude with the stupid hat working at the bagel shop is pulling the strings. Then when you actually force them to confront this stupidity they can only point to a small handful of jewish people in finance and have to start convincing themselves the others are "secret jews" to make their theory work.

Then you get into the little nitty gritty shit like Qanon conspiracies. How high off your ass do you have to convince yourself Nancy Pelosi is a secretly jewish vampire sucking hormones out of aborted fetuses or kidnapped children or whatever the fuck some random shitposter on /pol/ said, and accept it as fact? I mean fuck, I don't even think a schizo could make this shit up on their own. You'd need a fucking medication to fuck them up even more

also, do you guys realize what a morale boost some of these stereotypes are? we go our whole lives seeing ourselves as whiny, anxious hypochondriacs who can't escape our mother's disappointment, and then they guys who are trying to belittle us start calling us chessmasters and political masterminds without a trace of irony. Literally the only reason I don't parrot your retarded ass views myself is because every time people start to believe it they try and fucking murder us

[Anonymous No.18213276]

An important difference I've noticed among seriously depressed people is that some of them put a lot of effort into getting treated while others do almost nothing. From an outsider's POV, doing nothing must look like insanity when you consider how terrible all the descriptions of depression are - surely you want it to end ASAP. But the truth is, the current science around several challenging forms of depression (enduring mood/anxiety disorders, anhedonia) is so poor that you can do everything your psychiatrist says for 5+ years and still not see improvement. But also beyond that, some treatment options like proper diet and exercise can take a lot of effort, but there's only a small chance statistically that they'll make a real impact if you're seriously depressed.

For this reason, there seems to be a growing number of people in the above group who are giving up on treatment, and turn "anti-psychiatry" - they believe they're fundamentally broken and can't be fixed. I worry this is the case, but honestly, if you conclude this, there's not much holding you back from suicide at that point. So your only option really is to pursue these 1-2% treatment options, which take daily effort and perseverance, even if you have a difficult job to do or a family to take care of. Because if you give up, then you have nothing left. That's the quiet tragedy of the lives of many depressed people, the sort no one ever hears about or remembers.

[Frater Asemlen !XS8vrClKs2 No.18213304]

The Welkin Wannish as Swans melts as molten bronze,
effluent ebbs the ebon dappled azure sea,
tin moons moult as ephemeral runes, eidolons
webs and wefts sigils upon yon eternal tree,
each fruit a diurnal antiphon heard briefly,
The Ayons of Ayons are through Apastrons veiled,
the vernal psalms Hail and renew the jubilee,
this to me is joy, his flesh torn apart and nailed,
yet His breath knows not of death, Selah, his face paled
thorns crowned him, skin threshed wheat, a grape in the wine press,
the ever fresh rose, his very soul, was exhaled.
though his corpse reposed, the whole world his ghost would bless.
the darkness was withdrawn! returns the Dawn of myth!
my soul yearns, ye! my soul burns lord, I now submit
I

[Anonymous No.18213359]

>>18207068
I want to live few years like a Robinson Crusoe, on an uninhabited island. Only me versus nature. Although, I would like to take with me some books and films.

[Anonymous No.18213394]

>>18212748
Taylor Sheridan

[Anonymous No.18213417]

I never knew there is starbucks in every barnes and noble

[Anonymous No.18213490]

>>18213276
>there seems to be a growing number of people in the above group who are giving up on treatment, and turn "anti-psychiatry" - they believe they're fundamentally broken and can't be fixed.
I have given up on therapy because I have concluded that the only interest of the medical framework is getting you back to work. They don't give a fuck if you lose your feelings entirely and you're a husk that is scarcely a person, as long as you become "functional" again and you can go to work and go back home after you're done, they'll consider that a success. When I confronted the psychiatrist and the therapist I was assigned to about my issues, given that they were structured existential issues instead of gut feelings of being sad, they didn't know what to answer. None of them had any answers to my actual problems with society and the future and my concept of happiness because nothing about their job is about life issues. It's as if I had broken a leg while playing basketball and asked the orthopedist what I did wrong in the play that got me so hurt, or how could I avoid getting hurt again. That's not his job, he doesn't play basketball, he's just there to fix my leg, except to better fit this parallel he's willing to saw off all my other limbs to save the leg, and his only answer to the basketball problem would be "don't play basketball, don't ever jump, never reach high".
The meds were probably the worst and most life-changing thing that happened to me, I've spent so many sleepless nights crying over the realization that even after quitting my brain had irreversibly changed and I was another person. The me from before the amount of quality of medication I was given by these people whom I asked for help but whose only concern was to get me back to work and earn money to someone else and help prop up this diseased societal system, that me is dead. And the person I am right now is going to die too, because all the changes that were made to me did not fix anything about the reasons why I thought about suicide every day.
I'm completely sane. I had clearer ideas than the psychiatrists about why I was feeling like this. It's the system that is a diseased monstrosity but it has grown too powerful and it demands to be fed with souls every single day. Fear of the crash keeps the sacrifices going.

[Anonymous No.18213503]

i've never learned how to put spoilers on posts

[Anonymous No.18213532]

>>18213152
109 is a lot

[Anonymous No.18213569]

Wat u think of vaccine?

[Anonymous No.18213593]

I feel like I've become jaded towards being in a relationship. I may have a myopic view on this but considering people I know, in and out of my circle, has had to deal with being cheated on and on top of that, I got cheated on my last relationship, has left me with an almost cynical view on relationships altogether. I'm not saying there aren't any good people left, just that there's too few between the shit. Makes me not want to pursue anyone romantically and just focus on other things in life.

[Anonymous No.18213616]

>>18213532
yeah, turns out when you're a displaced people with your own separate faith in a continent full of crazy fundamentalists who are constantly killing each other over slightly different versions of the same religion, they will make up any batshit insane excuse to get rid of you

[Anonymous No.18213626]

>>18213503
Why not try it out here?

[Anonymous No.18213687]

>>18213490
Your situation sounds pretty complex. At first it sounded as if you're like any normal guy with normal concerns about life, but it was an existential crisis instead of something concrete so they couldn't help. But thinking about suicide every day isn't normal for an existential crisis - that's more like depression. Going to a psych was the right move then, but for some reason it looks like it didn't work for you. Did you try CBT therapy? That's the one that tends to help most people.

Sorry to hear about the meds making shit even worse for you, that's the number one reason why people quit psychiatry and call it a scam. As for meds, they do work, but they can also fuck you up which sucks. Honestly, depression treatment is still in its infancy and it shows - taking 8-9 pills before something can work is just absurd. Your best bet is to be extremely meticulous about everything you try and more or less become a detective hunting for promising new cures. Take this guy for example: https://anhedoniamd.com/

The treatment he discovered was something completely foreign to mainstream depression science, but it's working pretty much flawlessly for him. I have gut problems too, so I'm experimenting with my diet now like him. I believe this will help way more than taking another SSRI. It's extremely hard to do this, but for people like us there's no other way. Maybe you believe it's incurable, but honestly I think there has to be a way for each of us. We just have to keep looking

[Anonymous No.18213753]

>>18213687
>Maybe you believe it's incurable
I believe I am sane

[Anonymous No.18213763]

>>18212830
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zkzgRZ6v9Oo
Were all gonna make it friend.

[Anonymous No.18213772]

1 2 load it up
2 to rack it back
3 to pull the trigger, who the hell was that
5 if u lucky, on the ground u funny, praying to a God u b looking dummy. X2

It was March, kinda cold.. .

[Anonymous No.18213774]

>>18213569
I got the jab purely out of economical reasons.

[Anonymous No.18213784]

sex

[Anonymous No.18213789]

Hard to unwind after working so steadily, and finally noticing it's time to go home. I barely remember driving home, and while I was on the freeway I was thinking if I'd wrapped up everything at work for sure. Since I'm now -- I've been home for an hour -- I still don't think I've fully realized I'm at home. When I was walking to the restroom, I walked as I would at work-- as if people are watching.
My greatest goal for a day like this is to finally be alone, to realize I'm totally alone, and then to sleep.
I had planned to drink a beer when I got home -- and I have been so strung that I even forgot that.

[Anonymous No.18213800]

>>18213789
Go on, I am interested.

[Anonymous No.18213808]

>>18207068
I'm doing 50 shades of grey but I'm adding yhe vampires back in.
Any idea how I could shoe horn in the end where the leads love triangle is solved by the daughter of the lead getting into a relationship with the guy left out what would be great thanks

[Anonymous No.18213824]

>>18213808
post smut of that under a sockpuppet "fan" account
if you want to go 50 shades you may as well relinquish every bit of integrity

[Anonymous No.18213833]

>>18213800
I have been aloof since I got home. I left the bandaid on my arm in the shower, and then I had noticed it and peeled it off, then altogether forgot to get a dry one.

Some about the work this evening set me out of my normal rhythm. Most of the time I sit back in my office and read a book or finish off the crossword that Josephine leaves. Tonight I had to do some driving. I think waiting outside the hospital put on edge and I didn't realize it. There was a man operating a lunch truck, not bearing the normal friendly persona, and he was glaring. Apparently, though I only looked in passing, he was fending off a thief. I heard cries, and blanketed homeless people didn't comfort me at all. I think this set me in a weird direction.
I apologized to my friend Suzie tonight for ignoring her. I admitted I was angry, but I said I was especially sorry because I don't know why she makes me angry like that.
I was wondering right now if I have ever called Josephine Josie, and I was remembering that time on her Instagram story that she posted a funny note her boyfriend had left her on the bathroom mirror, and how she was wearing a bra and a towel in that picture. Her skin is very pale, which is not normal for people around here.

[Anonymous No.18213846]

>>18208722
Anyone? tried asking /g/ but you know then.

[Anonymous No.18213851]

>>18213753
Wanting to kill yourself every day may be sane but it's not healthy.

[Anonymous No.18213861]

Any good books on cartels and their history?

[Anonymous No.18213883]

>>18213851
>it's not healthy.
Yeah but it's not a problem that comes from inside me. It's a natural reaction to what surrounds me. The shrink is right in saying that the only "fix" is modifying the individual, but in my eyes this is like relocating a whole happy fishing town somewhere inland where they won't be able to function because someone wants to dump radioactive waste in the sea.

[Anonymous No.18213898]

>>18213883
Do you live in a war zone or something? If your life isn't totally beyond repair and you're not homeless then you shouldn't feel that bad.

[Anonymous No.18214047]

>>18207068
How do I learn/remember to envision a scene?

I can't expect my readers to understand what I'm describing if not even I do. It's like I'm striking out at a formless, featureless grey mass of nothing, featureless plain where characters that should be vibrant are nothing but dull outlines etched across a blank horizon.

[Anonymous No.18214144]

>>18213304
Frater there is something I want to consult with you. You might have heard about the book "Umm al-Kitab", the secret esoteric book of Ismailism. It is about the discourse of the Shia Imam Baqir on esoteric things. I wanted to read it but It was very hard to track down, though I finally managed to find only a partial translation but the original Persian version in full (linked them both below). I can read Persian so I took a look at the original, although it is beautiful, the translation is far easier to understand. I even showed it to with my academic grandfather who is well-versed in Islamic gnosticism/mysticism. He was very interested at first but then got filtered very quickly, said it's utter nonsense and went on a rant about Alawites, kek. Take a look if you are interested and tell me what you think. It somehow reminds me of the Upanishads and if it does indeed resemble the words of Imam Baqir, then it would be very important to me as a Shia Muslim. I even looked it up online to see if there is a discussion of it but there is nothing aside wiki pages. I find it astonishing that such a work of high prominence is so under-read and under-discussed, but perhaps that is to be expected.

Partial translation (first chapter):
http://libgen.rs/book/index.php?md5=FD9CE526A21A965BEFF1FE49A5ED5983
Full original:
http://libgen.rs/scimag/10.1515%2Fislm.1936.23.1-2.1

[Anonymous No.18214212]

Does anyone have that isekai alignment chart meme with the ice truckers people post here sometimes? Can't find it for the life of me.

[Anonymous No.18214223]

>>18213898
>If your life isn't totally beyond repair
Sadly it is.

[Anonymous No.18214254]

>>18213846
I don't think you could do any "testing" if you don't know the programming language first, so Java would be the starting point of those two. Although I would recommend looking up an introductory course on CS instead of a language. You might find this link of value:
https://teachyourselfcs.com/

[Anonymous No.18214342]

A big titty coomer thread on /tv/ just hit bump limit
An elephant on /tv/ last week reached almost 200 posts

[Frater Asemlen !XS8vrClKs2 No.18214421]

>>18214144
While I myself am not educated in Ismailism, a friend of mine who I respect very much is, for this reason I know it is of value and worth the read.

running my eyes and skimming over it, I see an explanation on correspondences and definitions of the esoteric meanings of letters. These are very good signs usually.

[Anonymous No.18214451]

>>18214421
According to the editor, it is a work of early Shia in general, not just Ismaili, but the Ismailis preserved it and hold it in high regard, though weirdly enough, he says they don't discuss its content in their literature. I don't know how to make sense of it though. What does he mean by those definitions of the letters?

[Anonymous No.18214462]

>>18211145
are you me

[Frater Asemlen !XS8vrClKs2 No.18214483]

>>18214451
He’s doing something that’s the basis of pretty much most systems of esotericism but especially abrahamic forms, making a network of correspondences between letters (in an emanationist way) in order that one may contemplate and meditate upon the relationship of these spiritual atomic laws of reality, and may construct various names and words by which you conjoin these meanings and a hermeneutic that allows you to analyze various words and decode their actual significance. For example using this you can decode the name “Allah” or “Muhammad” and you will soon realize the complex web of abstract ideas associated, think of the letters as representations of the world of forms which manifest through their interrelation everything that exists in the appearance world.

First he says that the divisions of the letters only exists when man divides them, as to the mind of Allah all things are an absolute Unity, but when divided, the first to arise is the Point which is the knowable unity, the very symbol of oneness. And from this descends Ba, Aleph etc in progressive stages of manifestation. This is why he says gimel is the rational soul and so forth.

[Anonymous No.18214500]

>>18211145
>>18214462
it's the worst with Nietzsche because you can easily get contradictory views from his works without misreading him, as he is intentionally contradictory.

[Anonymous No.18214529]

>>18214483
Thanks, that helps. But his definitions sometimes seem contradictory. Take what he says of Aleph: he says Aleph is Muhammad ﷺ, it is also the throne of Allah, and also "Vital Rational Spirit", also it is the Spirit of Ali (while he earlier said Ali is Ba, not Aleph), and then says Aleph is the physical body, and also the Luminous Spirit. See, I don't understand how these all represent Aleph at the same time. How is Aleph being the Luminous Spirit and the physical body not contradictory? Is the throne of Allah physical? Maybe I've read too much of discoursive philosophy that this type of thinking is foreign to me.

Although I did understand the part he said Ali is the gate to Muhammad ﷺ, the latter is the outward the former the inward. This is a major concept in Shi'i theology.

[Anonymous No.18214559]

I hate ''the autistic community'' so much. Just reading twitter today after elon musk came out as a sperg holy shit these people are so self-absorbed find a new identity pls.

[Anonymous No.18214568]

>>18214559
He is probably doing it intentionally to appeal to the autists.
>omg he is just like me!

[Anynomous No.18214572]

Women are property.

[Anonymous No.18214578]

>>18214568
wouldn't surprise me, but it's also not crazy to think he actually has a diagnosis

[Anonymous No.18214583]

>>18214572
fact

[Frater Asemlen !XS8vrClKs2 No.18214586]

>>18214529
Aleph is usually understood to be in Hebrew Kabbalah, the knowable expressable unity, so among men, it is Muhammad, among the parts of the soul it is the rational soul, among the material body it is the entirety and so forth. The throne of Allah spoken of is likely man’s conception of Allah and allah’s unity within his heart, the throne of Allah being ones devotion to God as unity within the heart.

[Anonymous No.18214587]

>>18214559
>autistic ppl have no social skills
not news

[Anonymous No.18214602]

>>18214586
I see. Though the book is short, it seems it would take ages to analyze it down to its parts and properly understand it, and worse still there is no commentary. It seems very much worth it though.

[Anonymous No.18214606]

>>18212202
You would be just as much a lonely outsider in any society at any time. Just embrace it, assign no blame to modernity or yourself.

[Anonymous No.18214613]

>>18214578
Most nerdy people are "autistic" though. I've never seen a psychiatrist but I'm sure if I do they will put a bunch of these, at this point meaningless, labels on me.

[Anonymous No.18214627]

>>18213152
If you really want to understand the historical persistence of the JQ, look in to group selection. As far as I'm concerned it's the basis for the intuition behind the many conspiracies and depictions of the subversive Jew. If group selection is true then there is a possibility that Jews do in fact deploy something like a series of techniques (unconcious or otherwise) to break down the ethnic majorities ability to communicate and identify as the majority while they themselves maintain a relatively close in-group. If this sounds like a stretch then it can atleast be acknowledged that the there is no shortage of Jewish elites in America and that their influence can be seen in for example the mass introduction and recommendation of circumcision to all newborns. This isn't so much an example of subversive as it is a indication of the power and influence held by these elites. You can extrapolate from there the insane or the tame interpretations of the issue surrounding Jews.

[Anonymous No.18214637]

>>18214627
I find it very ironic that the marxist view of art, and specifically that of Adorno, is that art is subversion. The more subversive it is, according to him, the more (((artistic))).

[Anonymous No.18214689]

>>18214637
Yes and its also quite clear that the logic has run its course and anyone who is still within it is play- acting. There's no tradition or institution left to subvert in that manner.

[Anonymous No.18214759]

>>18214613
idk maybe, I'm not too deep into that, but his body language and general demeanour is definitely out of the ordinary

[Anonymous No.18214773]

>>18213833
You are in love with Suzie
Lets hear more, very interested.

[Anonymous No.18214776]

>>18207068
Any of you applying to the Salamander fiction contest ?

[Anonymous No.18214883]

If I ever get out of my depression, I'm writing an autobiography about it, 100%. And if I fail and kms too I'll make a great book as my suicide note. But preferably the former.

[Anonymous No.18214890]

digits and butters has to fart on my face

[Anonymous No.18214895]

>>18214883
Know that you are deprived of nothing and that right now you are complete and no thing was ever taken from you.

[Anonymous No.18214904]

what will happen

[Anonymous No.18214906]

Smack in the middle of making a proof-of-concept visual novel I'm once again hit with internal "Why bother?" And once again, there is no answer. Can't write, can't draw and have to steal music — I'm a step away from actually regretting sinking time into this rather than videogames.

[Anonymous No.18214933]

>>18214895
My feelings were taken from me

[Anonymous No.18214940]

>>18213616
Not a coincidence all 109 countries developed the exact same sentiments. Being a diaspora peoples for 2500 years forced the Jews to strengthen and produce offspring with the skills to avoid persecution. Their strategy is always the same - become a parasite on their hosts by taking control of their political institutions, financial system, and culture to their advantage only to play victim once the host sees through their games. Like the other anon said, it's probably unconscious rather than malicious, and a product of in-group selection. Intentional or not they've mastered the art of escaping persecution by subversion. Their means of survival relies on being a parasite to everywhere that lets them in. Of course this is especially easy in WASP countries with very little culture or identity. And now anyone who notices this and dares to say anything only gives them cannon fodder to exploit their victimhood.

Zionism isn't wrong in and of itself and perhaps I'd have sympathy for them now that they have their own state. Except now suddenly those age-old practices of pluralism, universal rights, tolerance, and semantical games over justice disappear when they have to deal with other displaced peoples, funny huh? Luckily they still command the support of other host cultures they've manipulated so they're insulated from any criticism outside of a Chinese kite testing forum. Now they can continue to leech off of other host cultures and even use them to start wars and fuck everybody else's shit up even more, including people who've always left them alone.

[Anonymous No.18214941]

>>18214933
gay

[Anonymous No.18214958]

I never understood how authors, or even readers, are able to nail down a handful of influences. I have such a wide and varied array of authors who speak to me that I don’t think I could even nail down a single common motif or theme let alone a small collective of authors with much in common that influenced me. Maybe I’m thinking about it too much and it’s all just style, influences of style, not substance but I don’t think so.

[Anonymous No.18214961]

>>18214933
That's not true, you are enslaving yourself to an illusion, you are free.
The weight you feel isn't real. Accept God and His solution to your problem.

[Anonymous No.18214987]

>>18214940
You filtered yourself when you said WASP countries have no culture or identity. If you had said Europeans, and especially WASPs are morally susceptible and have a high degree of openness (proven low ethnocentrism) you would’ve at least made yourself sound smart enough to gain a degree of credibility but you didn’t.

[Anonymous No.18214989]

>>18213898
Shut the fuck up faggot

[Anonymous No.18214999]

I’ve hated the path I’ve been on for most of my life and yet I’ve reluctantly gone along with it anyway. That’s what’s really pathetic and regrettable.

[Anonymous No.18215004]

>>18214906
You should feel bad, if you're not good at any of those things you shouldn't be making a visual novel, time spent on videogames would unironically be more productive.

[Anonymous No.18215006]

we don't need your lame ass incel storys with your shitty >greenmarked text on this board. just ask this bitch out and be happy, but don't share it with us, no one cares

[Anonymous No.18215012]

>>18214999
what the fuck dude that's literally me
I have my dissertation due in 2 days and I have been ignoring it for a while

For some reason I started panicking this morning and I can't function at all

[Anonymous No.18215024]

>>18214904
nobody knows what's gonna happen to anybody, besides the forlorn rags of growin old

[Anonymous No.18215033]

i'm content with being a neet and blazing weed all day and eating skittles

[Anonymous No.18215070]

>>18214989
Why did that make you angry?

[Anonymous No.18215136]

[Anonymous No.18215152]

>>18215136
HA SO RELATABLE

[Anonymous No.18215178]

hi frens
i like frogs
goodnight

[Anonymous No.18215201]

>>18215012
Don’t. If you know you’ll hate the path you’re on, get off it. Don’t do what I did.

[Anonymous No.18215206]

>>18212939
I did some reading, I can see how you'd draw that conclusion but I don't think that's what going on. This is unlike any attraction I've ever felt before.

[Anonymous No.18215228]

>>18207068
The true tell that I’m dissatisfied with my current job is I’d see getting fired as a great opportunity.

[Anonymous No.18215229]

>>18215178
gn

[Anonymous No.18215447]

I been reading vaxx and antivaxx comments. I think that the truth is somewhere in the middle but the both sides are at competition which one will make the most outrageous statement. Internet was a mistake.

[Anonymous No.18215480]

>>18214987
So of all the things in my post, your semantic autism over me not clarifying my generalization of most Anglo countries, which you obviously understood, is what rendered my point moot?

[Anonymous No.18215489]

>>18215447
big if true

[Anonymous No.18215572]

I need a way to make money off some writing fast.

[Anonymous No.18215614]

>>18214500
"i'm a fuckin walking paradox
no I'm not"

- nietzsche the creator

[Anonymous No.18215633]

Why is it that I like Nisio Isin but I don’t like Neil Gaiman?

[Anonymous No.18215824]

>>18215820

[Anonymous No.18215845]

>>18213569
gave my dad shingles

[Anonymous No.18216074]

>>18213569
I got it because I’m expecting Covid passports basically. So far no real problems besides feeling a bit sick a few days later and being extremely tired for a few days. I think people should be able to decide what they want to do. The truth is we don’t know what this thing does long term and anyone who says otherwise is lying.

[Anonymous No.18216092]

I'm lost. I have this constant sense of impending doom about every aspect of my life that I end up freezing instead of going for things I like or want to do.

I envy the homeless and anyone who's hit rock bottom. Must be nice

[Anonymous No.18216268]

>>18216092
I understand your feeling, because of covid my life totally flipped so now I'm back to zero with no idea where I should go from here.
Isolation even made me start envying prisoners in jail since they get some social time with people but then I realized how stupid that idea is. Same with your idea. Being homeless is terrible, not something to envy. Everyday you need to find food somehow, fear of police arresting you or ransacking your home, etc etc, the list goes on.

[Anonymous No.18216729]

>>18207068
A lot of people just try to be edgy and are hiding behind ambiguity and aesthetics leaving the viewer confused while the message could be conveyed in much shorter time. Then most of the time these people aren't even that deep or knowledgeable but since they use the power of beauty, aesthetics and atmospheres the intellectually obsessed viewer assumes some sort of genius insight behind that. Don't fall for that, brothers

[Anonymous No.18216919]

>>18213490
It's because depression is a bubble. Look at disability rates from it. Look at the DSM editors who came out against the DSM because it led to overdiagnosis. There is a long way to go before the bubble bursts.
You should cut your losses, and find a way of dealing with it which make sense and provides results for you.
>>18213687
>call it a scam. As for meds, they do work
They don't. Most of the major players had to admit they cherry picked studies for FDA approval, that they engaged in false advertising both for the effects and side effects of the drugs and for off label uses. The settlements are some of the biggest corporate settlements in history.
Western psychiatry has a very bad track record. The outcomes for patients are worse than in places that think mental illnesses are demons.
One thing you are getting almost right is the important of diet and exercise. Nutrient deficiencies and poor cardiopulmonary healthy make any almost any animal with lungs and a heart feel anxious, vulnerable and deprived.