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[Anonymous No.19049830]

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>>19041525

[Anonymous No.19049853]

>Don't be shy.

[Anonymous No.19050190]

>>19049830
I've found myself on the cusp of dysfunctionality in the real world after having lived in the woods for three months before returning to college a couple weeks ago.

What's most disturbing is how everyone around me just readily accepts this sort of life. Where you're surrounded by concrete and plastic with cameras watching you everywhere you go. You need to beg a computer for permission to do anything. Want to get into your building where you sleep? Want to go study in the library? Want to go grab some grub? Better have your keycard. Everyone is reduced to a sniveling beggar.

[Anonymous No.19050194]

I would do anything to not have to work anymore.

[Anonymous No.19050201]

>>19050190
The creation that is man's world cannot compete with God's.

[Anonymous No.19050270]

>>19050201
>And you worship that which you have carved, when God made you and that which you have made

[Anonymous No.19050448]

I was just thinking that a lot of guys who were nerdish, quiet or uneventful in general during school times, whom later became rich, would probably trade all their current fortune and status for a chance to be summoned back in HS as a giga chad with access to hundreds of young pussy.

[Anonymous No.19050545]

I cant make decisions. Even simple stuff like should I go out to buy yoghurt or not.

I have to think everything through.

I hope my therapist helps me with that. Its quite tedious to play through all the different scenarios of buying yoghurt

[Anonymous No.19050610]

>Tell me with whom you associate, and I will tell you who you are. If I know what your business is, I know what can be made of you.

[Anonymous No.19050630]

>>19050545
Byproduct of a sheltered life. The less you do, the more you overthink everything.

[Anonymous No.19050631]

>>19050545
Don't buy yoghurt. Make your own. Exit the paradigm, the shackles of your own creation

[Anonymous No.19050692]

>>19050448
Extremely doubtful. Only losers who peaked in highschool think those few years are worth anything overall.

[Anonymous No.19050708]

>>19050692
You are underestimating men's desire for youthful pussy and especially to have status among them.

[Anonymous No.19050771]

Haven't seen a "questions that don't deserve their own thread" post in a while so I'm just gonna ask this here -

What's a good alternative to using the phrase "I hope" (i.e., I hope this email finds you well, I hope you're having a good day) as a kind introduction in an email or message in a professional setting? I've used and read this trite intro so much in uni and at work and need something that conveys a similar tone without overdoing it. Sometimes I want to send a more sincere and original email and just feel cold beginning my email that way. I've tried thinking of something equally concise and it's driven me mad. Help me out bros, I need unironic advice

[Anonymous No.19050776]

>>19050695
you learn this shit from your father or what?

[Anonymous No.19050799]

>>19050448
20-year-olds still exist when you're in your 30s and 40s

>>19050545
I would say indecision is my greatest weakness. Sometimes I can flip a coin to make a decision, and when I don't like the outcome, I discover what I actually want.

[Anonymous No.19050839]

>>19050799
Having access to girls and being truly desired by them are different things. The former may be fine, yet, the latter is better and can't be bought.

[Anonymous No.19050907]

>>19050692
>le peaked in high school meme
The ultimate cope, I've read this a million times. Has truth to it but there are plenty of high school chads who turn into successful, well-adjusted adults. They had the best of worlds, late bloomers didn't.
High school is worth a lot, people who had good experiences in high school aren't all jocks who burnt out, they were at the top of the hierarchy without money/accomplishments/other factors that elevate status later in life. You can be a rich 30 year old sleeping with a dozen 20 year olds but it'll never be the same as enjoying teen pussy in your formative years or having a wholesome high school sweetheart instead of a few flings with teen sluts 10 years later to compensate for your lack of status. There's nothing wrong with developing those skills later in life but high school reveals hierarchy in its purest form. It is the great equalizer. Hurts but it's true. And I say this as someone who fits the description of the person you replied to so I'm not trying to LARP or put you down anon

[Anonymous No.19050924]

>>19050839
>>19050448
my uncle used to always tell me "Man, if I could go back in time with what the knowledge I have now, I'd have as many descendants as Ghenghis Khan." He also told me that any woman over the age of 16 still eating suckers/lollipops in public are signalling that they like to suck dick.

[Anonymous No.19050944]

You know, I feel like I've always been focused on seeking out mentors, like "finding a Merlin," when in truth I need to be my own guide and not be helplessly reliant on others' advice.

I don't think I'm fast enough in social situations and will say the wrong things in disagreements or comebacks. Been repeating the "night after" with this chick I was so deep in the friend zone with (she was in a LDR) and I think I could have made her mine if I had actually spoken how I felt.

[Anonymous No.19051027]

>>19050448
The only thing I'd like to do is make J my gf and marry her. That girl really loved me. A very pure love that has only grown to be harder to find the older I've gotten. I think I could have grown old with that girl.

[Anonymous No.19051039]

>>19050907
Sounds like cope

[Anonymous No.19051087]

>>19050944
I'm a Merlin. What exactly would you ask of a mentor?

[Anonymous No.19051090]

>>19049830
I’m going to fuck a prostitute the next Friday. I’m very afraid but I feel that it’s something I need to do, my life it’s going anywhere, maybe loosing my virginity would give me something of value

[Anonymous No.19051141]

>>19051090
Your virginity is the thing of value.

[Anonymous No.19051379]

Every time I jerk off I feel like buying another Bible and this is ruining my finances

[Anonymous No.19051404]

>>19051039
The opposite, I was in the late bloomer group. I even admitted this in my last sentence. Cope or not it's the truth true autist.

[Anonymous No.19051410]

>>19050924
based

[Anonymous No.19051416]

I have a test tomorrow but I haven't studied so far. Man I hate studying. Taking tests itself is okay though

[Anonymous No.19051423]

>>19049830
Yes, I like both Hitler and Jews.

[Anonymous No.19051507]

At 25 and still relatively aimless I am being forced to come to terms with "who I really am". While I am still young, I am no longer the bundle of potential energy that I was when I was 18 and I am starting to get the sense that my character traits are fairly firmly set. It's not that I think people are incapable of change beyond a certain age, but rather that any change from this point on is a matter of strengthening and maximising pre-existing qualities as opposed to say, radical transformation into an entirely different person. So who am I? I know that I am not a wild, risk taker. In my youth I admired "free spirits" like Hunter S. Thompson and Jack Kerouac. But I am not them. I think that people like them possess a rare spirit and if I were one of those people I would know it by now. Sure, I like to have fun and I like to have adventures. I enjoy travelling and drinking and driving fast and taking the occasional risk here and there, but the truth is that I enjoy all these things within the bounds of a relatively safe, comfortable, and secure lifestyle. I would love to throw caution to wind and do nothing but write all day, but I don't think I have the balls to live with that kind of insecurity, especially in a contemporary climate where it the possibility of making any sort of a living out of that is close to zero.

Perhaps if I had been born last century, I might have had a chance to at least work at a magazine or a newspaper, but those opportunities - while not literally impossible - are certainly close to impossible. For example, a friend of mine 10 years older has made an interesting career from journalism that has allowed him to travel the world, but the ladder that he climbed to get there literally does not exist in my country anymore - the schools and agencies he worked at to gain experience have all closed down.

That was a tangent, but anyhow - I have to confront the fact that at my core I am person who craves security. I always have been, but I have always resisted confronting that fact because simultaneously I have always wanted to be "cool". But perhaps I am not cool, and that's OK. Or at least, I will have to be content with finding ways to be "cool" in between a relatively normal, secure life. Is this maturity?

R.I.P. Norm

[Anonymous No.19051519]

>>19050545
I trust your therapist will help you anon. As with anything, it is largely about exposure. The more you force yourself to make decisions and live with the consequences (even incredibly minor things like buying yoghurt) the more comfortable you will feel. You have to step outside your comfort zone in other words, which is what your therapist will tell you I'm sure.

[Anonymous No.19051584]

>>19049830
Discovering that I can simply drink raw eggs in milk instead of making a meal has been a life altering event for me. 6 eggs with some milk is 500 calories, 12 eggs is 1000. I can just do that whenever I feel like it instead of having to ever worry about food, which I really hate eating. I ate 30 eggs in one day a few days ago. What's more is my body appears to literally just absorb the entire fucking egg, nothing comes out. And it makes zero dishes, you just clean the egg glass and through out the cartons.

I had to actually cook a meal for people and eat it tonight and it was almost distressing.

[Anonymous No.19051619]

i'm not gonna make it frens

[Anonymous No.19051623]

The government officially introduced the coronapassport here today. I don't want to live in a country where I have to get approved by the government to access public spaces. People should be able to refuse a vaccine if it doesn't align with their religion or worldview. I don't even think the vaccines are harmfull but I'm appalled the government is infringing on people's rights like this. All of this is done under the guise of alleviating pressure on healthcare and protecting the vulnerable. Meanwhile 85% of people is fully vaccinated here. On average 450 people die every day in this country, 4 of them due to covid. The government has done absolutely nothing since the start of the pandemix to expand hospital capacity. The passport is presented as a temporary measure but no end date is given.

What's most shocking to me is how many people seem to support this measure. It honestly makes me want to leave and never come back

[Anonymous No.19051625]

I want to die, am a failure, wasted my life, feeling alienated, world is disappointing, no role, no future, etc. etc. pipe this post in GP-3 it will surely be mpre interesting.
I should just neck myself
>>19051584
Easy on the eggs, Gaston

[Anonymous No.19051668]

>>19051584
you're gonna shit out your entire lower intestine one of these days

[Anonymous No.19051701]

>>19051668
Why would that happen. That's not even a thing is it, that's just your fetish. Don't involve me in your fetishes

[Anonymous No.19051743]

Tragedy died in the 20th century.

[Anonymous No.19051750]

>>19051743
...BC

[Anonymous No.19051758]

>>19051750
gottem

[Anonymous No.19051760]

>>19051507
>I would love to throw caution to wind and do nothing but write all day, but I don't think I have the balls to live with that kind of insecurity, especially in a contemporary climate where it the possibility of making any sort of a living out of that is close to zero.

You'll find that all of these people are self-destructive. Maybe there's a kind of bravery in that but the simple human things are lost in the process.

[Anonymous No.19051777]

>>19051760
>You'll find that all of these people are self-destructive

Yeah I would agree, which is further justifies my overall conclusion. I know people like this and they're not exactly happy. Not that I think happiness is necessarily a goal one should totally aspire to, since happiness is always elusive - but for every creative layabout that makes it big and has some impact on the world there are a thousand others who are wallowing in stress and alienation. I have to get real.

[Anonymous No.19051846]

>>19051623
Hello fellow negerlander

[Anonymous No.19051850]

Do you guys also have periods where you feel as if you could accomplish virtually anything if you cared enough to try?

[Anonymous No.19051864]

Im so afraid to express myself, even on an anonymous imageboard. I am.a victim of childhood tramau and i have so many walls up that it feels really difficult expressing or even identifying my true emotions, feelings, and actions. Ever since my wife left me in janruary everything is falling, i cant tell if its good or bad. Part of me feels free, but im 30, and there is this other part of me, much louder, who says "youre the same worthless fuck youve alwas been and you always will be. Go die already"
In order to answer the question "should I kill myself" properly, one must first take into account the fact that suicide does make the world an inherently worse place-- you're putting an immense amount of suffering upon all of those whom love you the most-- so the question then becomes "is the world worth saving?" Answering this is tricky because, certainly, one could say that there are people that are worth saving so making the world a more shitty place for them to live does imply that you dont care about them-- or at least that you dont care enough about yourself to get over your individual suffering for long enough to try to get into a better spot.

[Anonymous No.19051948]

I kind of regret not buying this when it was $50. Back then, I was hard up on cash and felt like $50 was too much to pay for what would essentially be an oversized coffeetable book, something that I would keep around as an anomaly and interesting thing that I would never seriously sit down to read for years. Now that I'm more fiscally secure, I've been reading Schmidt's other work on Dalkey (I'm working on learning German to read some of my favourite authors) and I feel that regret of not having at least bought it and kept it. Anyone actually buy this thing and have it sitting around? I do have that School for Atheists from Green Integer and if it's anything like that then I think I was right in thinking I probably wouldn't get around to reading it any time soon.

[Anonymous No.19052034]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=965S7yFAeDI
hmmm

[Anonymous No.19052174]

Why do the tranny and dbznigger always make extra threads? Is comtrol over the OP picture so important to these freaks?

[Anonymous No.19052277]

At a certain point perhaps you have to stop living for yourself and start living the service of others.

[Anonymous No.19052283]

People's limitations are fixed. Unchangeable.

[Anonymous No.19052296]

>>19050448
You people overrate the teenage years. I had a pretty normal HS experience where I would go to parties, smoke weed with the jocks, and hook up with girls etc like all the "cool kids" do and I wouldn't go back to it. It was fun but I'm happier with where I am at now because I am independent and able to make my own money instead of living at my parents with no car. If you're an adult it's rather pathetic to dwell on high school like that past a certain point. You need to focus on the now and the future instead of the past when everyone else has moved on with their lives and begun their adulthood.

[Anonymous No.19052462]

I feel infinitely better in spring and summer. I feel optimistic about things and I see the potential in all I do. In winter I am just morose and cold. I don't believe in Seasonal Affective Disorder, at least in the sense that I don't think that such a simple observation needs a name, but it is true.

[Anonymous No.19052567]

i can't fucking read fuck i pick up my phone every 10 seconds to check instagram and snapchat and discord fuck i lost my consciousness

[Anonymous No.19052648]

Everyday is getting harder and harder, the pandemic has fucked us financially.
Plus since it's my final year the hunt for jobs, committee work and project deadlines are adding to the stress.

How should I cope?

[Anonymous No.19052670]

>>19051777
people at large will think you are retarded for having any ideal of contributing to the world to begin with. I rrealized that in the best case scenario I would never achieve anything but giving people another product to consume.
people are all cynical, nihilistic hedonists.
Let people have their Marvel movies and pozzed Netflix adaptations and porn, it's what they want and what they deserve.

[Anonymous No.19052675]

I looked for this thread and couldn’t find it.
It’s a curtesy to include the link in the old thread man.

Oh well, sorry.

[Anonymous No.19052729]

>>19051507
>In my youth I admired "free spirits" like Hunter S. Thompson and Jack Kerouac. But I am not them. I think that people like them possess a rare spirit and if I were one of those people I would know it by now.
Anon, Jack Kerouac is the kind of person you are becoming. There's a reason he turned out so miserable and died so young, drifting from one idea to another without ever finding any satisfying concrete answers or beliefs. He destroyed himself.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oaBnIzY3R00&t=1s
Watch this video and read the comments. He's in his 40's and a broken and incoherent man, it's sad but a warning for what happens when one tries to be a "free spirit" and explore all the radical depths of thought.
The first reply >>19051760 sums this up pretty well, I just read it after finishing this post.

[Anonymous No.19052758]

I don't understand. Please someone tell me. Why do I loathe revisiting my post comments?

[Anonymous No.19052762]

>>19052758
to be cringe is to be human

[Anonymous No.19052768]

I have a genius sci-fi novel idea:
>In the future, people generally make relationships with robots designed to be their perfect partner
>Our protagonist wants a human gf, not a robot
>Ends up joining neoluddite cult, spends time with hippie anarchist chicks and guys
>Gets a hippie gf
>Struggles with relationship problems
The point of the novel would be to explore whether it is worth keeping some of the challenges in life which technology could solve, and if having challenges make life more worth living than having things solved for you. Sadly I lack the skill to write such a novel. I am training myself with short story writing. Or perhaps I should just plug it into AI Dungeon or the like and have a complete story. Meta!

[Anonymous No.19052806]

>>19052675
anon just go to the catalog and use control-f/command-f

[Anonymous No.19052881]

>>19052806
I’m not using a Commodore 64

[Anonymous No.19053015]

I thought I was doing so well.

[Anonymous No.19053033]

Read 86 pages today, feeling good :)

[Anonymous No.19053048]

I'm deeply afraid of when my puppy will die down the road from old age. I love this animal so much. It obliterates me when I think of it. I don't know if this makes it worse, but I have ASPD and this feeling isn't something that really happens a lot. I've obviously had feelings of grieving, I'm not a robot, but it's so far and few between I don't know how to cope with it. I'm afraid of losing him prematurely and I'm scared to think of him dying.

[Anonymous No.19053055]

>>19052881
I am so terribly sorry for you.

[tgere No.19053106]

The past few months drained my stamina. Throughout endless encounters with new faces, and plentiful of goodbyes and thank you's, and further relentless weather, unsteady ground, and close-encounters with venomous animals... time has taught me to appreciate this temporary, yet seemingly endless experience.

However unsuitable the situation which presents itself - expect the worst, and aim for the best.

[Anonymous No.19053330]

>can only make good money by working in a foreign country
it sucks

[Anonymous No.19053352]

Don't you guys have journals?

[Anonymous No.19053392]

>>19052729
are you suggesting that if I continue along without 'settling down' I will end up like Kerouac, or that if grow and mature I will end up like Kerouac. In other words, are you warning me to change my ways or are you telling me that I'm doomed?

[Anonymous No.19053403]

>>19053352
yes, but i dont update it regularly

[Anonymous No.19053414]

Just read an article about women who regret not having children in their 20s and 30s. All of them placed the blame on "not find an acceptable partner". I'm no incel, but do they not hear themselves? Do they not wonder if *they* were not the acceptable partner in the relationship? That perhaps their standards were too high?

[Anonymous No.19053417]

>>19051404
Yeah, definitely cope...

[Anonymous No.19053461]

>>19053417
that word doesn't mean whatever you seem to think it means

[Anonymous No.19053490]

>>19053414
Everyone has way too high standards regarding finding partner. Besides you need to put a lot of effort into relationship and that's not really the theme of current times.

[Anonymous No.19053494]

is it a bad idea to date coworkers?

i don't know anywhere else to meet people

[Anonymous No.19053517]

>>19051379
if you do you're gonna associate your bible collection with masturbation

[Anonymous No.19053543]

Too tired to do anything other than lay in bed and alternate between reading on my kindle and browsing on my phone.

[Anonymous No.19053564]

>>19049830
I found some very nice leather dexterity gloves at a thrift store today
I am looking forward to when it gets cold where I live so I can pair them with a longsleeve and a nice jacket

[Anonymous No.19053619]

>>19049830
I experienced tenth of what a woman feels like when giving birth. Oof, it is not a pleasant experience—my rectum is on fire, and my anus is suffering from the brutal stretching.

[Anonymous No.19053622]

>>19053619
big shit?

[Anonymous No.19053626]

>>19053622
The biggest on my life. I don't think I'll get over the shock any time soon.

[Anonymous No.19053629]

Fortyfive minutes ago I made a bet on chicken that smelled a bit out of date
I am going to find out soon if I have food poisoning

[Anonymous No.19053634]

The earth can’t move

[Anonymous No.19053651]

>>19053626
you have my prayers, anon

[Anonymous No.19053670]

>>19053651
Thanks, fren.

[Anonymous No.19053680]

>>19053619
The longest I went without going to the bathroom was a week. The painkillers I were taking caused major constipation and I wasn't eating much anyway. I took laxatives that whole week because I knew what was going to happen.

But when I finally went the bathroom, it still felt like a knife was passing through my lower intestine. I thought I was going to die.

[Anonymous No.19053686]

>>19049830
Whenever I daydream narratives I always use a lot of cool camerashots that I've most likely taken from films

Do you think this has permanently affected our ways of imagining scenes in our head? I don't think Medieval people had the idea to view something through a 'Dutch shot' or whatever in the past

[Anonymous No.19053793]

>>19053564
Nevermind, the gloves broke
Easy come easy go

[Anonymous No.19053797]

>>19053793
That was quick. Did you try masturbating with them or something?

[Anonymous No.19053804]

Reading these threads will make you more stupid

[Anonymous No.19053807]

>>19051519
Thanks bro, or broette.

Yeah, the question is what do I truly want, where do I need to listen to reason and where am I reasoning too much.

[Anonymous No.19053808]

Is it okay to talk about dinosaurs on a first date.

[Anonymous No.19053813]

>>19053417
he's self-deprecating, you're retarded

[Anonymous No.19053825]

>>19053797
I wish they could've withstood highspeed masturbation
The leather was just aged/thin and shitty and the seam along the left thumb split when I tried putting it on. Attempts to fix it just caused the leather to tear more, and the right one just split open at the back of my hand
But it was $1 so I'm not disappointed or anything

[Anonymous No.19053828]

>>19050448
Probably
It was never in the cards for me either way, things were already going to shit by the time I was 12

[Anonymous No.19053829]

>>19053494
>is it a bad idea to date coworkers?
yes
>i don't know anywhere else to meet people
go to college and become a forever student or use dating apps (if you're willing to sacrifice your dignity and waste hundreds of hours with minimal to no gains)

[Anonymous No.19053946]

What did he mean by this...

[Anonymous No.19053967]

Memories of days gone by...

[Anonymous No.19053973]

>>19049830
I have developed a disdain for humanity. I know it's cringe, and I know it makes me look bad, pretentious, etc. But in my opinion, it is true.
To illustrate my point, let's take the known catholic priests=pedophiles thing, most discussion about catholicism will eventually end up with it brought up, occasionally for good reason, everyone knows of them, which is good, but, if you would check some statistics about it, the rate of molestation is on par with most other professions that interact with children on a regular basis; (Know that I am not minimizing anything). So I wondered, why is this? Why is the catholic church the ever eternal child rape institution, while the education system gets a pass? Because the motherfucking screen told them to, that's why, because mass media ran story after story, launched investigation after investigation, that's why. Nothing else, these faggots only care at whatever the screen tells them to care about or affects them directly. There are a lot more examples of this kind, everywhere you go.
I know some of you already knew this, and will roll your eyes, but I didn't, and I am starting to hate it here.

[Anonymous No.19054033]

Ethics is so secondary to other forms of philosophy such as metaphysics and semiotics lmao ethics literally cannot exist by itself. How does one even develop an ethical system without a metaphysical system or without an understanding of semiotics. Ethics is like sub-philosophy. It fucking blows

[Anonymous No.19054044]

>>19053973
It's an interesting topic because it can tell us a lot about both humanity and the catholic church. The first thing that jumps into your mind when you hear about it is "catholic priests are pedos", but it's more like "many pedos chose to become catholic priests" in reality. There is nothing inherently bad about the relationship between priests and young boys, but it's a dynamic that was abused by pedos to fulfill their lust, and the fact the catholic church attempted to cover it up makes it look terrible. But if you think about it, ultimately the worst part about this story is the fact that these guys not only molested children, but lived lives of total hypocrisy and basically lived the opposite of what they preached. It makes Christianity look terrible when these guys who are (supposed to be) living their lives in direct service of God at all times, and who hear scripture and discuss faith constantly, still manage to lose to that lustful side of themselves. More than anything, it really evokes cynicism in mankind as a whole. If there's any proof that truly damned souls do exist out there, it's these guys that constantly interacted with the word of god, were exposed to it for most of their days, and still went and diddled kids. I'm sure plenty of them came up with some inner coping mechanism to justify it to themselves. It doesn't matter. It's just sad

[Anonymous No.19054065]

>>19054044
That's how life is, one finds copes to deal with it. Most copes are so overly elaborate as to create a completely false reality of many things.

[Anonymous No.19054072]

>>19054065
We have gotten far on the art of ignoring harmful pieces of information.

[Anonymous No.19054160]

>>19052768
Very nice anon

[Anonymous No.19054244]

Wish anons would chat about post-structuralism or hegel/spinoza with me on /lit/ instead of us constantly having the same 5 threads every day about NIETZSCHE SCHOPENHAUER GUENON EVOLA GNOSTICISM CATHOLICISM ADVAITA VEDANTA HOW DO I GET A GF BOOKS FOR THIS FEEL this board is so predictable, what a shame.

[Anonymous No.19054269]

This OP. This song.
https://youtu.be/7U7BDn-gU18

[Anonymous No.19054283]

I wish I had grown up in a farming family.

[Anonymous No.19054289]

You know just to finish what I began talking about I really think that if Nietzsche and Schoppy are the most discussed philosophers on here it is because they are the most accessible pop psychology philosophers and are very easy to read and this place is full of retards

[Anonymous No.19054291]

>>19054283
Funny way to say "I wanna fuck my sister".

[Anonymous No.19054299]

>>19054244
What's funny is I hear post-structuralism and Hegel/Spinoza mentioned IRL way more than all of those (perhaps excluding Nietzsche). With art students, you can bet that nearly any intellectual reference will be somehow related to what you've mentioned.

[Anonymous No.19054305]

>>19054299
Where do you live where art students reference Spinoza? Kek

[Anonymous No.19054322]

>>19054305
Chicago. References to him are more rare but this past weekend someone mentioned him in a panpsychism argument.

[Anonymous No.19054323]

I subscribe to Oswald Spengler’s view of race, namely, the notion that the land exerts a secret force on the people. The problem with that is I’m American, and I really don’t want to be…

[Anonymous No.19054334]

Me : Trying to read what Kant said about art
My mind : Polish twink... Polish twink... Polish twink

[Anonymous No.19054347]

>>19054291
Well, who doesn't?

[Anonymous No.19054350]

>>19054323
>the notion that the land exerts a secret force on the people
proofs

[Anonymous No.19054368]

>>19054350
Americans

[Anonymous No.19054388]

I don't have a sister or brother but do brothers and sisters really want to fuck each other or is it a meme

[Anonymous No.19054395]

It feels like my gf has lost passion in me, I’m just not gonna give her any attention any more since she takes it for granted now. It really is a terrible feeling, she’s just not the same person from the 5 months when we first got together. I’ll look at pictures of her from that time and tear up because of how much I miss her. I had never felt something so emotionally strong then, it was so overpowering that it completely eliminated all worries. There is no other feeling so powerful . I’m convinced that’s what believing in gods love must feel like. So free so joyful, like I had more than everything I needed, so fucking alive as if ever touch sight and smell was 100 fold stronger. but that feeling now is clearly gone, I no longer feel alive just a husk

[Anonymous No.19054413]

>>19053808
Talk about anything that makes you "you".

[Anonymous No.19054418]

the vax made my balls ache for two weeks. i'm not doing booster shots. i'm just not. i am not in a risk group and hospitalizations are well below 2020 levels in my state.

[Anonymous No.19054445]

>>19053680
>lower intestine
>knife
Holy shit! And I thought I had it hard.

[Anonymous No.19054449]

>>19054388
Yeah but not really. You feel sexual attraction but not in the way you'd feel it towards someone who isn't in your immediate family.

[Anonymous No.19054475]

I miss her. :( I feel connected you, somehow. I know you’ll read this and I hope you know I have a crush on you.

[Anonymous No.19054584]

>>19050190
Gotta find those hidden places around campus, lad. There always are some, places that most people don't know about, that exist independently from the morass of the normal. An unlocked door here, an abandoned lecture hall here; these are what await you if you know where to look.

[Anonymous No.19054613]

>>19054388
There is never active sexual tension or a desire to bang but I remember one time I was in the kitchen in a flat we moved into my last year of high school, and my sister was wearing a really loose tank top where I could see most of her breast from the side, and if she leaned forward I could easily see all of it. I stayed in the kitchen chatting with her for like 30+ minutes just trying to get a closer look, and I got a really strong hard-on that I had to try and hide. She commented I was talking to her for an unusually long time so I don't think it dawned on her why I was doing it.

That's the only remotely sexual encounter we've had. But I still have a recurring dream where we have sex and I just really go to town on her. It's weird because I don't feel that attracted to her irl

[Anonymous No.19054620]

>>19054613
Fucked up

[Anonymous No.19054632]

>>19050771
Depends on the context, but honestly just cut it out all together. Especially for work related stuff, people care about the actual content of your message, not how unique your pleasantries are.

[Anonymous No.19054687]

Just realized I got emotionally addicted to reading as a coping mechanism for the shitfest that was my life for the past few years. Not only that but it had accelerated due to a certain global "unprecedented" and "the new normal" that I'm certainly sick of hearing about.
I finally gots the reading fatique but can't be happier about it.

[Anonymous No.19054693]

Reading the Bible makes me grow.

[Anonymous No.19054724]

>>19050771
It depends on context, if it's a cold email to someone new or in a professional setting to a higher up, be polite but don't use "hope", it's too familiar. If it's to someone you have a rapport with, then don't worry about dispensing those pleasantries. I find that I'd just google a list of greetings or sign offs and consult a thesaurus if I'm feeling too cookie cutter about it.
If anything, I just mimic the recipient's tone (be it casual, with emojis, or just to the point with no fluff) and pattern of writing.

[Anonymous No.19054917]

>Man is by nature a social animal; an individual who is unsocial naturally and not accidentally is either beneath our notice or more than human. Society is something that precedes the individual. Anyone who either cannot lead the common life or is so self-sufficient as not to need to, and therefore does not partake of society, is either a beast or a god.

I've only recently understood how much people in my boat crave social contact. There have been years where I haven't spoken to anyone, and the solitude only became comfier as the months went by. You begin to notice your senses heighten with time. Walking in the woods is such a joy when you look at mosses and lichens, and they appear more striking than ever before. Today I wrote several pages about moss, yesterday it was about the moths flitting around lamplight. I can't wait to see what tomorrow will bring

[Anonymous No.19054989]

My therapist told me today he's worried about my drinking too much, so I just sat down at the bar to spite him.

[Anonymous No.19055011]

It shocks me that more Americans don’t want to leave this country. Like me, many others are not revolutionary or patriotic ideologues. They feel little affinity for the ideologies and mutual com patriotism that floats around in this place, and the absence of thay doesn’t overcome the obvious ethnic boundaries. My family wasn’t even here during the civil war. We’re not even English. They came here because they had to, because they wanted a better life and as such, I want to leave for reasons at least the same and more. Why shouldn’t others? Why don’t others? They should feel themselves trapped in a civic prison and be eager to escape.

[Frater Asemlen !XS8vrClKs2 No.19055021]

Light of the morning descend from empyrean Glory,
Heaven unveil soft before me as Rose tinted Dawn,
Great One dispel the conceit from old ages Hoary,
Love with unborn Wings thou arises and Death withdraws.

Light of the Vastness of incorruptible Being,
Sight of the endless and innumerable Planets
Filled with the opulence of uncreated Splendor
Girth with the Empery sempiternal and unknown.

Praiseful I bow to thee, great one of Spirit perfect,
Heart be Confonded for deus has thee for Dais,
Soul be confonded, for God himself shall correct thee,
Spirit be confonded and burst forth in holy Praise.

Mighty and terrible one who has Void for dwelling,
Self of my self, mirror of I, unveil before me.

[the xi jinping of weed smoking !!oqyjkIO5smI No.19055036]

I need to stop smoking weed. I NEED to. I'm going to continue until Sunday and then try to stop on weekdays again.
If I come back here on Monday saying that I've smoked again I need you guys to shame me ruthlessly. Please. I'm just so tired of this debilitating habit. Please...
https://youtu.be/WALAGgptZE4

[Anonymous No.19055083]

> want to build strength and muscle
> don’t want to go to a gym or lift weights

[Anonymous No.19055147]

I've been thinking: It would be great if there was a platform that imitates /lit/ in a way, but implements more gatekeeping in order to assure higher post quality.
In an ideal world, this platform would require a user to submit some sort of proof of academic credentials, e.g. at least a Bachelor's in a relevant field. However, this would be rather hard to implement; it would require a potential user to share personal information with someone he can't trust.
I've yet to come up with a proper solution for this. There are services like DegreeVerify, which offer online verification of degrees, but I don't know if they are comprehensive and how much personal information they require. I'll have to research this further.
Until then, I might put this project on the back burner.
/blogpost

[Anonymous No.19055308]

I work part-time in a pharmacy as a pencil pusher and today my boss asked me if i can take a look at some of payments her and her daughter got from insurance for braceletts and simiar stuff; apparently she just couldn't wrap her mind around the numbers and tables or something. So i got to work and made her a nice little excel sheet with a all the relevant bills and the payments she got from the insurance company, but to my suprise she got extremly pissed; not at me but at the insurance guys. Apparently she talked to that corpo and they said they would take up to a max of 80% of whatever medical costs would come up (note the "up to"), while in reality they took up a bit more than 2/3rds. This is where it gets weird; my boss was so mad about this grave injustice she had all staff come to us to collectivly seethe at this disgusting affront. My relative indifference seems to have bothered her, so she asked me right then and there if this wasn't a good reason to get really mad.
I've had my fair share of dealing with these bloodsuckers too, but isn't this a bit much, almost performative? Based on her job i know she has to deal with insurances on a daily basis so why the suprise? Am i too young/sheltered/ not-female to understand this?

[Anonymous No.19055356]

>>19055036

He pulled his necktie down smooth while he gathered his intellect, will, self-knowledge, and conviction and determined that when this latest woman came as she surely would this would simply be his very last marijuana debauch. He'd simply smoke so much so fast that it would be so unpleasant and the memory of it so repulsive that once he'd consumed it and gotten it out of his home and his life as quickly as possible he would never want to do it again. He would make it his business to create a really bad set of debauched associations with the stuff in his memory. The dope scared him. It made him afraid. It wasn't that he was afraid of the dope, it was that smoking it made him afraid of everything else. It had long since stopped being a release or relief or fun. This last time, he would smoke the whole 200 grams—120 grams cleaned, destemmed — in four days, over an ounce a day, all in tight heavy economical one-hitters off a quality virgin bong, an incredible, insane amount per day, he'd make it a mission, treating it like a penance and behavior-modification regime all at once, he'd smoke his way through thirty high-grade grams a day, starting the moment he woke up and used ice water to detach his tongue from the roof of his mouth and took an antacid — averaging out to 200 or 300 heavy bong-hits per day, an insane and deliberately unpleasant amount, and he'd make it a mission to smoke it continuously, even though if the marijuana was as good as the woman claimed he'd do five hits and then not want to take the trouble to load and one-hit any more for at least an hour. But he would force himself to do it anyway. He would smoke it all even if he didn't want it. Even if it started to make him dizzy and ill. He would use discipline and persistence and will and make the whole experience so unpleasant, so debased and debauched and unpleasant, that his behavior would be henceforward modified, he'd never even want to do it again because the memory of the insane four days to come would be so firmly, terribly emblazoned in his memory. He'd cure himself by excess.

[Anonymous No.19055365]

>>19054620
Yeah man. If I weren't fucked up I probably wouldn't be here.
>>19055011
There are plenty of good reasons to leave but none that quite ground the "Get out ASAP" mentality a lot of aspiring expatriates have. The country is obviously in decline but unlike what most people say, it's probably going to be a long, slow decline, and things will remain calm while the economy is running smoothly. I dunno why but it's impossible to imagine any real civil conflict in modern America, even protests where a few people die always have a sense of unreality to them. Riots could become more common, but until something truly shakes up the order of things, day to day life should remain pretty normal. Still, I understand you. It's the difference between holding out a shred of hope that things will improve versus abandoning that hope that makes a difference. America has no real intention to solve the most important problems like healthcare or student debt or poverty because everyone has been tricked into thinking the 20 or so dozen black guys that get killed by cops a year is a bigger issue. There is something weird going on that just outright prevents actual conversation now. History might be predestined by nature but increasingly it feels like we have less a say in it than ever.

[Anonymous No.19055420]

>>19055365
Hope really has nothing to do it. Hope implies any one particular ideology or desire for this country’s future. As for me, I desire nothing at all for it. I feel no affinity whatsoever. The way I see it, this is a place my ancestors came to because they had to or because they could, not necessarily because they were motivated by ideology or affinity and to any extent they were, I’m free to counter it. Such is the fleeting nature of ideology. And the older I get, the more I shed off ideologies and the more any affinity for it and it’s people remains in me. I believe that’s natural. Thus, the only natural consequence is to inwardly detach from it and all “places” entirely as a matter of coincidence or just leave as soon as possible.

[Anonymous No.19055427]

>>19049830
God.. I'm starting to regret not going to college this year. I have no job cz no skills, spend my days reading, farting, and playing vidya. I feel so left behind. Could somebody convince me that I made th right decision to take a year off college

[Anonymous No.19055442]

>>19053946
I have absolutely no idea

[Anonymous No.19055469]

>>19055011
Like many, I've thought about leaving. But it would be expensive, and where would I go?

[Anonymous No.19055474]

>>19054989
>spiting your therapist
Just stop going if you're gonna be such a brat

[Anonymous No.19055480]

Social justice activists at universities in C*nada are burning books that contain "problematic language".
As Bertrand Russel openly stated, you won't be allowed to read books in the future.

[Anonymous No.19055484]

>>19055427
Get a job that doesn't require skills if you're really that desperate for something to do

[Anonymous No.19055491]

I keep dreaming about this girl I went to highschool with and it's fucking me up. She's bleeding into my thoughts in my daily life. I will definitely never seek her out.

>>19055308
Nonfemale, she wants someone to share in her anger with her. It is performative to an extent but she was probably quite angry.

[Anonymous No.19055492]

>>19053973
but it's because of the contrast. it's because even secular minded people, whether consciously or unconsciously, expect a church to be a holy place. they expect priests to be better people than others even if they themselves are irreligious. I think it's a deep seated instinct in us all. so when the deepest corruption is found at the heart of the institution that presents itself as the intermediary between heaven and earth, it's a shock. it's because an institution like the Church inherently operates according to a different standard than worldly institutions, and there is an expectation present that isn't there in a different context. yes, our culture is rapidly shifting towards manifesting the Antichrist, and that's some part of why anything christian is fixated upon, but regardless, I think the fixation is entirely justified. the pedophile priests are the embodiment of wolves inside sheep's clothing.

[Anonymous No.19055494]

>>19054989

Your therapist is showing you professional concern. This act of 'spite' will mean nothing to them. They are not emotionally attached to your behaviour.

Self-destructive behaviour with intention of hurting someone is really just an extended form of self-pity. You want them to feel something for you.

Enjoy your drink, anon

[Anonymous No.19055497]

>>19054989
it's okay anon but be sure to tell him about it.

[Anonymous No.19055624]

I tell myself that I don't need to live my life to the fullest. I don't need to enjoy it. I don't need a girlfriend. I don't need to go on holiday. I don't need lots of friends. I am OK with all of this because we all die in the end. It is not serious.

Am I enlightened or depressed?

[Anonymous No.19055632]

>>19055624
If you've met those desires and quelled them - enlightened
If they still torment you - depressed
Realistically somewhere in the middle.

[Anonymous No.19055649]

How do you find a hobby to feel fulfilled and to fill up that void ? or just everything is temporary

[Anonymous No.19055759]

>>19055365
Yeah it's hard to see how a civil war would work in 21st century U.S. Though I know some political scientists raise it as serious possibility in the near future, I find it hard to believe. But maybe that's just hopeful naivete. It does certainly feel like decline is in the air. If we're lucky it'll be more of a long stagnation...

[Anonymous No.19055794]

>>19053973
True but I think it's more the response of the church that provokes outrage rather than the absolute numbers. But who knows maybe that too is exaggerated by the media.

[Anonymous No.19055836]

dad found out about transnistria

[Anonymous No.19055858]

>>19055083
calisthenics mang

[Anonymous No.19055866]

>>19055147
you think minor academic credentials would ensure higher post quality? lmfao

[Anonymous No.19055966]

Good morning Alix Lynx

[Frater Asemlen !XS8vrClKs2 No.19055967]

song of Urizen

Songs of Urizen abound eternally,
Unconquerable compass, line and ruler,
Regulation, revelation, both admix,
Reveal phenomenal the triune-divine.
Triangle and Square, contrast of black and white,
A sphere the mind, and Cubic altar it Shrines,
Pentagram behold invoking hexagram,
Betold of excrement reformed excellent!
Gold from Lead this life from death from Ash-cloud Breath,
Behold the blade, behold the chisel, true I
Am reformed and transformed to a Pyramid,
I am become I am who I am and who
Was from endless atziluth-eternity
And bornless-oroboros-I-am-become I.

[the xi jinping of weed smoking !!oqyjkIO5smI No.19056011]

>>19055356
This hit hard. I cant relate to the quantity being smoked but I can definitely relate to this lifestyle.
I no longer smoke because I want to. I smoke because its all I know anymore.

[Anonymous No.19056304]

I think I’m being called to something but I worry I like the constitution, the in-born nature to see it through.

[Anonymous No.19056468]

Sometimes i see threads here about decline of art or something similar.
That makes me wonder what art should be about nowadays. History painting and religious painting are kind of dead or at least not as relevant as they used to be. Modernism and post modernism feels lacking.

[Anonymous No.19056474]

I don’t want to go on /ic/ anymore. They’re always so mean to me. I’m just just to stay on /lit/ and /biz/ from now on

[Anonymous No.19056491]

>>19056474
Could you recommend any /biz/ read for a noobie who wants to try at investing?

[Anonymous No.19056499]

The future is going to be unvelievably dark.
https://youtu.be/x0Iay1Kp9Vk

[Anonymous No.19056534]

>>19049830
Does most of this board believe novels are better than movies? I believe virtually all movies are far superior to novels.

[Anonymous No.19056544]

I went in with low expectations, arriving two minutes prior to the appointment which is usually out of my taste. I parked crookedly on the already slanted lines and strolled in with my short tie making me feel the part of a clown. The ladies look to me from their counters and I tell them, "Here for the three o'clock interview." Next comes the part where you sit and pretend not to exist but that cut close arrival time worked out in the end.

They led me down the hall, I don't recall their names and if I did I couldn't tell which name belonged to who. I offered my hand and they wiped it clean with sanitizer as we spoke. I've been getting good at these interviews. Really learning how not to care. So we kept it casual and they told me the hours. For once they read the resume and all I had to do was nod.

They unlocked the doors and showed me out. Whole affair was done in less than fifteen minutes. I expect to get my hopes up before they're dashed but this time it went by so fast I'm worried I actually got the damn thing.

[Anonymous No.19056545]

>>19056534
I think I already told you to read Lessing’s Laokoon, which explains why oral, written art is always superior to visual art.

[Anonymous No.19056551]

>>19054033
Based

[Anonymous No.19056555]

>>19054033
Based and Jay Dyer pilled

[Anonymous No.19056569]

>>19056545
Lessing was wrong my friend.

[Anonymous No.19056598]

>>19055480
Your amygdala is controlling you. Not only has reading been confined to a small population in the past, its pursuit as an activity has been overshadowed by Brave New World-esque forces NOT this supposed 'authoritarianism'. All this bs about SJWs and CRT is a chimp out on both sides.

[Anonymous No.19056646]

>>19056491
I’m not someone you should take /biz/ related advice from anon, I lost a bunch this year and I’m reevaluating my TA

[Anonymous No.19056655]

>>19056569
He wasn’t though. It Laokoon was depicted in sculpture in the Vatican as he’s described in Virgil it would be hideous.

[Anonymous No.19056663]

>>19054033
It’s easy. You have them revealed to you buy instinct or divine intervention. They’re uncovered from the earth and not borne of the rational mind alone.

[Anonymous No.19056684]

>>19056598
What you are doing is gaslighting. Bertrand Russel literally said himself that you won't be allowed to read books in the New World Order. You will consume the approved entertainment.

[Anonymous No.19056705]

I have to be one of the most rotten people alive. I think it is possible that God has planned my life to be a miracle of His mercy, because while I sure haven't earned to breathe another breath, I do still hope for His forgiveness.

[Anonymous No.19056733]

>>19056598
>it's either one or the other
>it can't be both
Typical middlebrow dialectical retard thinking

[Anonymous No.19056743]

I feel like I should start rereading things, I avoided it so far because there are so many books I haven't read yet that I want to, but looking back at some books, I'm pretty sure some books went way over my head when I read them at 15-16. It's still hard to justify not reading something new.

[Anonymous No.19056767]

>>19056705
What did you do?

[Anonymous No.19056779]

>>19056743
I read about 80% of Brothers Karamazov when I was 20 or so, then finished the whole thing this year, now being 30. There was a lot that I missed 10 years ago, in particular I know a lot more about religion now so very large parts of the book were dear to me now that were at best arcane then. My point is: I think you should give it a shot.

[Anonymous No.19056808]

>>19056767
it is possible that if the law of men condemns me severely, I will not fight. The best thing I can say is that I did the worst of it before I had found faith, though I certainly still do awful shit. I've recently started remembering all kinds of things from my old life, things I had kind of blocked out. It's good because I should never again feel superior to anyone.

[Anonymous No.19056860]

>>19056733
It can be you idiot, I was just responded with why that line of thinking is more conducive to create a state of fear than the other two I proposed. it's nonetheless a chimp out and I hope you enjoy your enlarged fear response faggot.

[Anonymous No.19056895]

>>19056705
I feel exactly like you.

[Anonymous No.19056996]

What is the book equivalent of The Goonies?

[Anonymous No.19057017]

>>19055420
"Hope" that it will become a place worth living in again. If you had no standards for where you lived then living in America would be fine too and you would have no impetus to leave. There is nothing about ideology here, it's just looking at the current state of the country and acknowledging it's not good enough.

[Anonymous No.19057020]

I know what I want to do but what I do now actually undermines it.

[Anonymous No.19057079]

I just did a sad fart that sounded like a deflating balloon.

[Anonymous No.19057081]

>>19056996
probably some Stephen King shit

[Anonymous No.19057170]

evens and it will all go right

[Anonymous No.19057192]

>>19054445
And it was coming out sideway. I was seriously worried that it was going to tear my butthole open .

[Anonymous No.19057223]

>>19056996
Literally Spielbergs best film. I fucking love the Goonies.

[Anonymous No.19057240]

>>19057223
Are you high?

[Anonymous No.19057250]

Very soon, in this exact thread, I am going to post the n-word.

[Anonymous No.19057265]

Nigger.

[Anonymous No.19057273]

>>19057250
don't...

[Anonymous No.19057278]

>>19057240
nah. what the fuck is empire of the sun

[Anonymous No.19057282]

>>19057240
You must be fun at parties.

[Anonymous No.19057284]

>>19057282
>implying I get invited anywhere

[Anonymous No.19057303]

>>19050194
There's things you can do to make that true in the future

[Anonymous No.19057315]

>>19050545
Try flipping a coin

[Anonymous No.19057326]

>>19057284
I would invite you to my parties fren.

[Anonymous No.19057334]

>>19051584
You won't be getting enough balance that way. I recommend supplementing with vitamins and trying out different protein shakes or meal replacement drinks instead of focusing on just eggs and milk

[Anonymous No.19057335]

>>19050545
>>19057315
It works for me.

[Anonymous No.19057435]

>tfw you find traps attractive
>tfw this led you to extensively try jerking it to gay porn just to see if this was what you were really into
>tfw it doesn't seem like it
>you like women and dicks
>tfw this indicates that on some base level you recognize trans-women as women
unexpected turn of events

[Anonymous No.19057451]

>>19057435
>tfw this indicates that on some base level you recognize trans-women as women
well, as long as you get there in the end

[Anonymous No.19057467]

>>19057435
>>19057451
Cringe

[Anonymous No.19057505]

How did Americans become so dominant. Even in relatively amateurish sporting events and competitions, I’ve seen them consistently dominate others.

[Anonymous No.19057513]

>>19057505
America is literally losing as we speak

[Anonymous No.19057551]

>>19054584

Long ago, back when I had friends, we did a good bit of tunnel hacking on campus. A disused bathroom area was sometimes left unlocked opposite the bicycle storage room for which we were issued keys, littered with roaches and smashed fixtures. Imagine a room similar to the prison room in Saw. A nearby tunnel led into the plant area, and if you could sneak past the guy in the office, you got into the service areas. I always compared the thing to the tunnels that Dallas crawled through in Alien. Eventually we got caught, but it was worth it. Then we got into the attic of the dorm shortly before move-out. At the end of the attic, near the unique top-floor unit, was a large, door-sized wooden panel plastered with softcore 1970s pornography. Clearly, the nearby denizens had an access to this attic space, somehow, and had a seedy spank-chamber all to themselves. I hope it is still there.

Later, I found more practical uses for the spaces. In a nearby dorm, another basement bicycle storage room had a functional sink, and this proved to be a good place to blast out my ears with water. It was also a nice quiet place to drink alone in peace while studying.

[Anonymous No.19057558]

>>19055011

The other places are worse you idiot.

[Anonymous No.19057561]

I think I am very ugly :(

[Anonymous No.19057571]

what exactly makes 4chan so addicting?

and how can this addiction be treated, or at least, substituted for something more productive?

[Anonymous No.19057574]

>>19051850

Reecently I have been allowing msyelf to remember the dreams I used to have.

[Anonymous No.19057584]

>>19057571
make real friends

[Anonymous No.19057589]

>>19054584

Another time, we hacked an elevator in one of the classroom buildings, only to discover a mezzanine area between floors 1 and 2, where a bunch of old chairs were kept in musty storage.

Then there was the disused brewery in the next town, we scaled an extremely dangerous "staircase" that must have gone about 20 feet in the air, basically only the spine was intact. Clambering into one of the brewing vats, we banged on the drum, making music for a few minutes. The sort of industrial wastelands that I would later learn were used by Metgumbnerbone to record improvised music.

[Anonymous No.19057590]

I mean, I want nothing more than to like what I see in the mirror. I just don’t.

[Anonymous No.19057602]

>>19057590
why

[Anonymous No.19057610]

>>19057571

It is possible to be honest with others, and with minimal risk to one's self (for now, unless TPTB weaponize our naughtier posts against us in the years to come). The FBI keeps tabs on the site but most anything short of an immediate, direct threat doesn't raise an eyebrow.

[Anonymous No.19057664]

>>19049830
What my gf did to my asshole is unforgivable. She pegged me with the might of a bull. At my yoga class this week I had trouble holding in my shit in certain poses. Will my poop hole be loose like that for ever? Now she wants me to wear a butt plug this whole week just like last week. Its a big no no now. I want to be able to hold in my shit ffs.

[Anonymous No.19057764]

>>19057602
Why don’t I? I think I’m unsightly. My body has strange proportions, my nose is slightly hooked, I have sunken eyes, one of them slightly lazy, thin, dry, and receding hair. I think I’m hideous.

[Anonymous No.19057772]

>>19054584
>>19057551
>>19057589
I'm not that anon but you don't get it at all.

[Anonymous No.19057779]

I'm actually still a little surprised I did so well yesterday. After she cooled down, she showed me her notebook that she wrote her thoughts in.
>Surprised you even want to talk; I was ready to move on
>You know what sucks? I let you in so much and you kicked me out
>I don't wanna be here; if you have something to say, make it quick (quick is underlined)
>I don't want your sympathy or pity
>I'm here to tell you what you did wrong for the next person
>Reenact the texts
>A bunch of stuff about poor communication

And she pretty much stuck to it as well. She was very impatient, told me to speak quickly, didn't want to waste time (we booked an hour but she treated it like she had 5 minutes), reenacted the texts, etc.

At the start she said didn't want to be near me, even made me walk across the room so she could look at something that was near me, and put a chair in the door so it was ajar.

By the end of it, she was inches away from me, too afraid to wipe the blood from my brow because SHE WAS TOO TEMPTED. She started swooning over my blue eyes. I started cooing at her "you looooved it when I touched your shoulder", "you want to hold my hands", "you want to touch me; to kiss me" and you could tell she was considering it. I definitely could have fucked her yesterday.

How did I become a chad?

BEING MASCULINE.

I think the next time I see her, I'll go in for a kiss. I'll sweet talk about her wanting me to caress her neck, shoulders, and hips while miming the motions without actually touching her, then lean over lean over and whisper in her ear "I'm going to take you", pause, "is that what you want?". If she says "yes" (lmao she will), I'll grab her by the waist, pull her to me, stare into her eyes, order her to take off her mask, take off mine, and get to kissing. Realistically, I should have done this yesterday, but ah well. Live and learn.

>>19050776
No, I learned it through not apologizing for being masculine. Women are easy: just be a capital em Man and treat them as capital double u Women

>>19051850
Usually when I'm too busy to fap or spend a significant amount of time around women

>>19055083
Lift.

[Anonymous No.19057793]

is it wrong of me feel suspicious of a friend that I've reconnected with? not in the sense that they mean to do me harm or that they're malicious, or that they even have negative feelings for me. it's just that this friend suddenly abandoned me for months and months and ignored my attempts to mend that until eventually we just patched it after a long time had passed. on one hand I feel selfish because I think if they really just wanted to leave me behind and end our friendship, they had the perfect time to do so when we were apart but they still came back. on the other hand, it did happen before, and they admitted as much it was intentional, so I guess part of me is just waiting for it to happen again but more permanently.

[Anonymous No.19057824]

>>19057584
Don't know how.

[Anonymous No.19057829]

>>19057558
Sure developing nations are worse, but that's not saying much.

[Anonymous No.19057832]

>>19057303
Like what

[Anonymous No.19057838]

>>19051850
Not anymore. I used to feel that way but I suffered a huge blow to my confidence around 21 years old and I don’t feel that way anymore. I tend to feel pretty bad and stuck and like a failure actually.

[Anonymous No.19057839]

>>19056684
Doubt, show me the quote. You got this from /pol/ or some other foul hole

[Anonymous No.19057859]

>>19057779
You are just autistic with Chad delusions. Sorry.

[Anonymous No.19057870]

Maybe I should consider quitting my job to do work away for a while? It’s a stable, secure “career” but I don’t really care. I should have just been a teacher or something.

[Anonymous No.19057882]

>>19057779
That's a wife, you're an autistic fuck and this girl is swooning all over you. What a keeper.

[Anonymous No.19057892]

I’m a good bit older already but I think I want to join the military.

[Anonymous No.19057955]

Look how clever I am.

[Anonymous No.19058004]

>>19057772

Oh, but I do.

[Anonymous No.19058039]

>>19057859
Fake it 'til you make it ;)

>>19057882
The real truth is it's because I'm 6'3; better luck next time manlets

[Anonymous No.19058154]

Had a vague interest in pursuing this one girl, but I guess she moved recently. Something of a good thing, as it means I have less an idea of whether it could work out, as now it can't be proven.
Also, wagecucking is becoming too much of a nuisance and I wish I was on unemployment again.

[Anonymous No.19058168]

>>19058154
I was rejected recently. It hurts, but on the other hand, it's kind of liberating that I don't need to worry about being a disappointing boyfriend.

[Anonymous No.19058178]

I keep buying books because I like having something to look forward to in the mail.

[Anonymous No.19058233]

>>19057870
>to do work away for a while?

What do you mean

[Anonymous No.19058236]

>>19058168
>disappointing boyfriend
You kicked me right in the dick, anon. I haven't dated in like eight years, so I feel like it would take too much out of me to try to get back into the swing of things. And even when I did date in the past, I was always more interested in beating off and/or watching anime alone to put much effort into being a decent boyfriend.
On a related note, I saw a girl with green hair downtown on my way to work this morning, and my first thought was that I wouldn't mind hanging out with someone like her for "practice," but would never be able to "settle down" and have kids with someone who dyes their hair like that after their college years. Which means I'll probably never be able to stomach a relationship with anyone, and accordingly will never be a decent partner for anyone because of such pretensions.

[Anonymous No.19058261]

This afternoon, I was stricken with a devastating realization. I was speaking with the head IT guy from another of my firm's offices, and I was just shooting the shit in a very jokey tone, when I realized I'd somehow created a false personality to get along with people in similar positions in this company, and that it's probably far too late to inject any Sincerity into my work-life. Then again, between suicidal depression and anti-Semitism, there isn't much of my sincere self that's really appropriate for the workplace.

[Anonymous No.19058271]

>>19058236
>I wouldn't mind hanging out with someone like her for "practice," but would never be able to "settle down" and have kids with someone who dyes their hair like that after their college years.

I have done this. Dated a girl for about 6 months to "get practice". She was pretty dumb, but had enormous tits and a tight body. It ended horribly though, which is really no surprise because really its a horrible thing to do to someone - but I will say that it worked. It gave me a whole lot more confidence in both relationships, dating, and sex.

[Frater Asemlen !XS8vrClKs2 No.19058283]

Lion of Judah I love thee the most,
gold is thy mane, gold as the starry host.
tender and tiger-faced I give thee praise,
life is thine, You are the Sun, life thy rays.

thunders thy voices oh Shepard,
thunders like lightning or Leopard,
Shepard thou, lamb-like thou Gambol,
Shepard, Shepard, thou art humble.

friend, my sweet friend,
when my life ends,
I know who tends
when all things end.

Holy Dove,
you are Love.

[Anonymous No.19058286]

>>19051948
I have it. If I decide to kill myself before year's end, I'll sell it to you for MSRP. Of course, I'll have no need for the money, which I'll probably just Venmo to my kid brother.

[Anonymous No.19058291]

4chan is a secret level of Dante's Inferno, the circle of hell corresponding to: Autism

[Anonymous No.19058295]

>>19053352
I don't like to write in a journal, because I'm afraid of the risk of re-reading the contents.

[Anonymous No.19058332]

>went for a drink in the hotel bar last week
>cute girl sitting by herself in the counter
>I try to ignore her
>she leaves as I was getting ready to leave too
>I wait a while so it doesn't look like I'm following her like a weirdo
>waiting for the elevator
>she suddenly shows up out of god knows where and takes the elevator with me
>asks where I'm from, what I do and so on
>I answers kind off bluntly to not look like I'm hitting on her
Oh shit bros, just realized I might have missed a real chance

[Anonymous No.19058345]

>>19058271
Yeah, I've been flirting with the idea of lifting and trying to get with 5/10s or something, to see if I can find value in living. But it seems like it would require too much effort and it will be much easier to just become an hero. That said, I've gotten more and more into fat milkers the past few years, so I'd probably easily fall in line for a girl with big tits who is stupid enough to find me interesting.

[Anonymous No.19058443]

i spilt my cum bucket

[Anonymous No.19058448]

>>19058168
>>19058236
I've got a problem somewhere in the same space. Though my fear has nothing to do with being a disappointing boyfriend, with my last(and only) gf from the outset I made it a big point that we communicate clearly and often. I feel like in all ways I was capable of I satisfied her needs. We unfortunately broke up after a little over 2 years because of factors out of our control and I'd rather have lost her than have us spend months torturing each other with a long-distance relationship.

My problem is just really that since then I have no romantic appetite. Maybe I'm just so spoiled from having been with a sensible, loving woman but I've no desire to flirt or play little texting games or obscure myself to attract women. It's so fucking tiresome and small.

Three years have gone by now and it's not like there are no girls that are attracted to me, I just can't suffer them. I must've mated for life or something I really don't know. What I do know is that I have no stomach for the base or coquettish nature of dating.

[Anonymous No.19058458]

I'm opposed to vaccine mandates in theory, but the people at my work who are going to be fired for not getting the vax are all the laziest least productive people, so in practice, i can't wait for this shit to kick in!

[Anonymous No.19058585]

You guys are pussies.

[Anonymous No.19058588]

>>19058585
does that mean you want to fuck me?

[Anonymous No.19058592]

>>19058585
Thank you for sharing what’s on your mind.

[Anonymous No.19058685]

I increasingly don't understand why corporal punishment fell out of favor in the West. It's still used in portions of Asia and Africa. Singapore is an advanced city-state and they still use corporal punishment. Why do our only options for punishing crimes seem to be jail or the death penalty? You can even make the argument that corporal punishment is more humane than jail, given the state of modern prisons. Just take a whip or a flail and put some stripes on a man's back if he's committed grand theft auto or aggravated assault. It's probably better for him in the long run than five years in prison.

[Anonymous No.19058690]

I have so much reading to do but I can't complain

[Anonymous No.19058756]

>>19058685
I think if someone stole my car and I locked them in a basement for 5 months, people would probably say I overreacted

If someone stole my car and I whipped them with their hands tied around a tree

[Anonymous No.19058786]

>>19049830
I hate everything about myself. Nature is psychopathic. Fate has favorites, and everything is determined by genetic lineage.

[Anonymous No.19058827]

>>19058685
I'm not sure where I stand on corporal punishment, but I think its interesting when cultural approaches to punishment clash. Australian aboriginals would traditionally do things like spear a guy in the thigh if he did something that went against clan law and there have been calls by some elders to bring this practice back to deal with youth crime. Part of me thinks it could actually work, because a young indigenous man may respond better to punishment from his indigenous elders, than from being locked in a prison by a white government which really only perpetuates a feeling of resentment between the two communities. But then on the other hand I'm very squeamish about the idea of spearing a cunt in the thigh. Nonetheless, its interesting.

[Anonymous No.19058896]

to grow in intelligence you actually need to hurt yourself spiritually and admit your reasoning previously was flawed. thats what i think makes it so not everyone can become real smart

[Anonymous No.19058927]

Fuckin hell lads. I've got to go to work with 3 hours of sleep and a hangover in me. I wish the Lord would take me now.

[Anonymous No.19058935]

Each morning I wake up I die a little.

[Anonymous No.19058951]

>>19058286
Buddy, I don't want it bad enough that I'd wish harm on anyone else. Damn, I'd drive the 50 miles to LA every day just to read it at the public library before I ever allowed even the shadow of a hope someone would kill himself for my gain. I have days like those, where I have to remind myself that all life is precious; and—though I wish I could beat and strangle all of my problems away—it is all a part of the endless miracle. Don't forget you mean something, maybe only an infinitesimally insignificant decimal of an integer of life, but a meaning all the same. And I think we're privileged more than cursed; because we know our worth, and can better relate to the rest of the human race. There is alove deeper than sexual, romantic, filial, parental, a numinous aura you have to see to believe; and when you do,

[Anonymous No.19058953]

>>19058896
>the pursuit of knowledge is ultimately meaningless
i think i have strayed further from god by admitting to the opposite

[Anonymous No.19058968]

I have a mint first english edition of Mishima's Sun & Steel.

Should I sell it?

[Anonymous No.19058978]

Don't people still get married, grow old together and die happy? Did they ever? I feel so confused about everything man, I just want to be a good husband.

[Anonymous No.19059100]

Derrida time

[Anonymous No.19059363]

I hate art. I wasted so much time on it when I could have become religious instead. It's poisoned my mind forever.

[Anonymous No.19059409]

I want to strangle most people I talk to on the internet.
Seeing how people behave in pseudonymity has made me even more disgusted with the human race than I was before, and I've fucking hated people for as long as I can remember. I can forgive open wickedness but the ccowardice of the internet awakens the most hateful feelings in me.
I haven't genuinely smiled at anyone in several years. Why is this world so fucking shit, filled with shit people, hypocrites, whores, crooks, assholes? Why is everything so consistently shit?

[バイポラーたん !Gh99z/1SzU No.19059430]

>>19059409
"if everyone around you seems like an asshole, you're the asshole"

[Anonymous No.19059435]

>>19059430
Whoever said this is a stupid retard. 99% of people are walking, talking sacks of refuse.

[Anonymous No.19059499]

>>19058927
been there, you can do it man - keep your eye on the prize; just gotta get to the end of the day

[Anonymous No.19059504]

>>19058978
Yes but if you spend all your time online you wont see it. I think its difficult if you're in your early 20s and don't know anybody older other than your parents, you don't have anyone to point to for guidance or even anyone to compare your own life too.

[Anonymous No.19059557]

>>19054388
No, they don't
it's a sexual fantasy for single children only
Real siblings feel no attraction

Scientists found that this is due to smell! and it's an innate anti-inbreeding instinct

[Anonymous No.19059562]

>>19054388
don't listen to the freaks here, it is not normal to want to bang your sister

[Anonymous No.19059579]

>>19054613
>I don't wanna bang my sister I just uhh have dreams where I dick her down and this one time I kept lusting after her tits... I'm not attracted to her though I swear

[Anonymous No.19059589]

>>19059562
since when should this website worry about what's 'normal'?

[Anonymous No.19059623]

I've been having strong feelings for my gf's friend, and after taking her home tonight (just the two of us) they keep getting stronger. What upsets me most is that these feelings are just ways for the unconscious to reach me in changing things about myself. Not to mention the truth of her being my gf's friend and nothing happening romantically is heavy, but a necessary weight to carry. The idea of how I feel being projections skewing the reality of our relationship terrifies me. I'm standing inbetween making someone's life hell, and keeping things in check to not go to shit for no reason. A good outside of being able to better myself has come out of this though, the muses seem to have taken a liking to this.

[Anonymous No.19059665]

>>19059623
It's fucking people like you who make me not believe in human relationships and are the reason why I have trust issues

[Anonymous No.19059831]

>>19059623
Why the fuck did you take her friend home? You should do some soul searching and figure out if you still love your partner.
>>19059665
This is more indicative of a crisis in the relationship. He's not cheating. This sort of shit can happen, the reason why people are scumbags is that they cheat or refuse to deal with the crisis and just pretend.

[Anonymous No.19059900]

Why am I so fucking horny all the time? I'm 28 for fucks sake.

[DR. GONZO !!JUfMKYBLVi9 No.19059920]

>>19059900
Take SSRIs. Cutting your balls off wont work because the adrenal glands also have T.

[Anonymous No.19059936]

BLEEDING GIBBONS

[Anonymous No.19060004]

>>19059831
>or refuse to deal with the crisis and just pretend.
this is indeed a big thing in human life

[Anonymous No.19060218]

>>19059920
Not him but what if I am female and horny all the time with no T

[Anonymous No.19060237]

>>19059900
have sex
>>19060218

[Anonymous No.19060246]

>>19054613
Are you a Haruki Murakami protagonist?

[Anonymous No.19060272]

>>19060246
>>19054613

[Anonymous No.19060283]

Begin a mod on a social media seems to be the perfect way to find the perfect someone especially where I can engage her questions without her knowing. But what if she knew from the beginning and hinted at it? I personally would not trust someone with that type of intelligence nor attempt to play games/bother her, only an idiot would. Who knows what she knows and what is it all to her? But that doesn't mean I can't be some kind of distanced friend of some kind.

[Anonymous No.19060291]

I'm in pain but i don't want to take ibuprofen because i have a sensitivity to it

[Anonymous No.19060301]

>>19060218
have sex with Chad

[Anonymous No.19060326]

Is it possible i have fucked up my head by reading auto biographies from serial killers? Should i lay down on reading and focus on chasing butterflies? I just had a dream with my ex, that cunt would always pissed me off asking to get hurt, trying to pretend she was kinky, perfectly balancing between a lady and a slut, fucking cunt. In my dream i decapitated it after raping her and placed her head on a stake.

I need a break.

[Anonymous No.19060329]

i am really struggling to make friends in a new small town. some advice i received was to "buy friends."

i figured i could do this by having drugs and giving them away for free/cheap but i have been living a sober life for a year

[Anonymous No.19060338]

>>19060329
those aren't friends

[Anonymous No.19060340]

>>19060329
Step one, stop being so pathetic.

[Anonymous No.19060349]

>>19060338
why not?
>>19060340
fuck you

[Anonymous No.19060360]

>>19060349
>fuck you
Almost good.

[Anonymous No.19060368]

I'm a spineless piece of shit. I lack guts. I don't know how to confront others. Yes, I have my own opinions and can express them, but I'm always hesitant to "hate". I think that some things must be hated. When something or someone opposes or insults your most fundamental beliefs you must hate it. But I can't. I feel that if I express that hate I'll hurt others, or maybe the real problem is that I'm afraid of getting hurt. It's probably the later. I think I have some serious self-steem problems. I have 21. I'm young but not that much. It's embarassing for an adult to not be able to ACT in real life. I can't impose my will. How the fuck do I solve this? I need to work on it, and other anon mentioned in this thread that exposure is always useful, but how do I start?

[Anonymous No.19060372]

>>19060368
i feel you anon, in industrial society and it's future ted describes this as being "over socialized."

[Anonymous No.19060387]

>>19060372
I think that may be it, I cherish social harmony too much, and I feel like I'm losing part of my individuality. I wouldn't blame anyone but me though.

[Anonymous No.19060413]

>>19060387
Society is trying to manipulate your behavior to make it "proper." Why not just tell society to fuck off?

[Anonymous No.19060479]

>>19060368
Even that

>When something or someone opposes or insults your most fundamental beliefs you must hate it

is part of the social conformism. Simply put for elementary school kids, it would be plagiarised into ''it is natural to hate what is different''. Your only mistake is you take your beliefs too seriously. Why are you certain they hold a higher value than the ones that oppose yours? Could they exist without the ones you seem to hate? It is all a game, nothing can be proved to be right, true or valuable. You are giving them their value.
Yet that is needed in order to live life, so do what you do but don't let others get under your skin. Instead of getting angry or pissed try to understand why they think in a different way. That's the game. Confidence will come, you are still 21 and it is only natural to be doubtful or feel spineless. A healthy amount of doubt is always virtuous, no belief is as solid as we tend to think, we just accept it to save our selves time and sanity. You are doing well anon (for your age).

[Anonymous No.19060500]

>>19060413
Like I said, don't know if society made me like this, but without a doubt there's "something" that needs to fuck off.

[Anonymous No.19060516]

>>19060283
Schizo post

[Anonymous No.19060561]

>>19060479
Don't get me wrong, I know that I'm not always right. Of course that multiple points of view can coexist. And I think that I'm pretty tolerant. I don't want to change that, it's a virtue. But believing in something is useless if you can't defend it. Let's be honest, in real life a lot of people will try to step on you. I feel like I wouldn't be able to step up in those situatons. I don't want to get mad for the sake of it, I want to underwrite and reassure my existence. By the way, thanks for your post, I really appreciate it and made me feel a little bit better.

[Anonymous No.19060570]

>>19060326
reported to cyber police

[Anonymous No.19060602]

>>19059430
That’s what the Nazis said to that pole in Treblinka

[Anonymous No.19060626]

>>19060561
>>19060561
We all have genes of slaves and masters inside of us. You decide what you want to be. You will allow others to step on you well you are allowing your slave genes to overcome and become you.
Nobility is when all your ancestors were masters. They must rule the country for they will defend their slaves with not only their material wealth and power but also with their spiritual might from being pure and untouched from slavery.

[Anonymous No.19060648]

>>19060561
you and I are similar I think, unless I'm projecting, but I'm a fair bit older than you. when someone does something that hurts or insults you, do you tell them or do you try to pretend it didn't happen?

[Anonymous No.19060663]

buddha is right, the amount of harm done in the name of desire is immeasurable

[Anonymous No.19060705]

>>19060663
nothing wrong with desire.

[Anonymous No.19060751]

>>19060705
he probably meant pleasure, buddha was not that retarded, he very well knew he had his own desires, a desire to flatten life.

[Anonymous No.19060760]

>>19060751
>>19060705
maybe "desire for sensual pleasure" would have been a clearer way of expressing myself

[Anonymous No.19060771]

>>19060648
It's not that I pretend that it didn't happen, but I tend to "justify" that aggression. I think things like "well, I guess he's allowed to think that" or "it's just his opinion, it's fine". That's why I say that I cherish harmony too much and that I am overly tolerant.

[Anonymous No.19060779]

>>19060771
if this does upset you on some level there may well come a time when you become like this
>>19059831
>>19060004
it's probably possible to be "above" things that upset you and enlightened and all that, but I sure ain't and what tends to happen is that people piss me off, I don't tell them, and hten I silently begin to resent them until I do something to hurt them so that they will go away. this is very dysfunctional on a lot of levels I think. I am in therapy for it. I don't really have any solutions to offer, and I'm surely not qualified to say anything about you whatsoever, there was just something about your posts that felt familiar.

[Anonymous No.19060793]

>>19060792
>>19060792
>>19060792

[Anonymous No.19060863]

>>19060779
Everyone has its own struggles, good luck with that anon

[Anonymous No.19060867]

>>19060863
thank you anon

[Anonymous No.19061662]

>>19059831
>>19059665
>implying you're immune to this
It's all about how you handle influences that matter and see what they are, rather than kneeling to them.

[Anonymous No.19062095]

>>19051623
>refuse a vaccine if it doesn't align with their religion
Which religion is this? It sounds like maybe Christian Scientists?

[Anonymous No.19062115]

>>19052174
The tranny started making extra DBZ threads. That's why a lot of the recent DBZ extra threads are yaoi, because the tranny is apparently into that more than gifs. I don't know why trannies do any of the shit they do, and I suspect they don't either, crazy mofos.

[Anonymous No.19062135]

>>19053808
Depends how het you get about the brontosaurus situation.

[Anonymous No.19062230]

>>19053973
People like to believe they're safe. Before the news stories broke, both my parents and all their friends and family knew about abusive priests and nuns. It was an open secret in a lot of Catholic countries and communities. But they believed in the overall good. The same thing happens with teachers and doctors. The American gymnastics scandal about the doctor molesting kids spent years with the same kind of open secret, as did the movie industry, as do schools, therapy, and nursing homes. People who want to abuse the vulnerable can find places where they have nothing but vulnerable people around them, and where people believe the greater good is somehow worth the open secret of abuse. You see it a lot in care facilities for not just kids, but disabled and elderly adults. Beyond obvious forms of abuse, those groupings of vulnerable people also attract those who want to do charity so they can feel superior to someone else, which can lead to authorities being offended if the vulnerable assert their independence or rights. The scandals about conservatorships for celebrities often have some validity in that they're vulnerable, but also tend to be fought on the basis that they make the vulnerable more so rather than provide any path to independent living.
Ironically, the de facto hierarchy implied by any service to any vulnerable group often means that the people most damaging and dangerous to the survival and thriving of the vulnerable are those entrusted with their care. Logically, if the problem of the vulnerability is solved, they're out of a job.