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[Anonymous No.19157002]

[Anonymous No.19157012]

We're all slaves to slavery.

[Anonymous No.19157014]

I wish the Latin Empire still existed and that Eastern Europe was Catholic.

[Anonymous No.19157033]

i dont know how to act my age. i dont think i ever will. uneasy feeling of always being behind the peer group, but am i really? would prefer to be delusional and immature rather than sensible and mature respective to what society expects.
artists are venerated for maintaining the persona of their 20s well into their 50s and 60s. why are normal people ostracized for acting even 10 years younger than they are?

[Anonymous No.19157041]

>>19156982
>Lovely movie. Bunzo is cute.
One of my favorite films of the last couple of years. I don't know what it's like to be a Japanese OL, but working a crappy job, having parental expectations you can't live up to, and desperately wanting to go far away and see something new is very relatable.

[Anonymous No.19157044]

everything will be okay

[Anonymous No.19157074]

Ate a huge breakfast

[El Arcón No.19157075]

+RAPE DICK+

[Anonymous No.19157079]

So I have a problem: I need to stop using this place (and by extension, all time-wasting internet), but I can't bring myself to just go cold turkey and never come back here again. So I've decided that, during the week, I won't come here (or use Reddit or YouTube, etc) at all; I will only use the internet for essential stuff like school or paying bills or work, but during Saturday and Sunday, I can go and check social media and come and shitpost with you guys. That way, the majority of my week is spent productively but I still get to have some fun. I'm going to try it out this coming Monday.
At first I was worried I would miss something by being gone most of the week, but the last time I left for almost a month and nothing happened really, and if anything important does happen, I will definitely still be hearing about it after a week.

[Anonymous No.19157081]

>>19157033
Depends how you don't act your age.
Are you 30 years old but still collecting pokemon cards? Are you inexperienced with relationships? Are you just less cynical than other people?

[Anonymous No.19157093]

>>19157002
Literally how did people get tricked into giving women rights?

[El Arcón No.19157094]

>>19157079
>So I have a problem
Problem is the jew

[El Arcón No.19157103]

>>19157093
>Literally how did people get tricked into giving women rights?

[Anonymous No.19157107]

You are not irresponsible because you are sick in the head, you act sick in the head because you are irresponsible. Being realistic,rational, and responsible will cure your “mental illness” better than any ssri. Becoming a worthwhile person in your eyes will make you feel worthwhile to others. Respect your body and mind, be responsible and feed it the healthiest substances and thoughts you can. Lastly, humans are spiritual beings and if you neglect this aspect of you you will be unhealthy. Be sure you are not toking the flames beneath you because you have grown used to the smell of roasted ass.

[Anonymous No.19157114]

>>19157093
Women got the rights because they deserved it. Any nation that doesn't give women rights is bound to fall behind because after the industrial revolution a lot of professions were open to women. If you don't allow half of your population to become engineers and scientists, you won't keep up with the other nations and get outpaced technologically and militarily. Giving women rights is GOOD to keep your country competitive. The problem is men are faggots who can't control women like the natural order dictates despite them having "rights". Women should have rights. Men should men up and stop being cucks. It's typical of a cuck like you to blame women though becaues you're not man enough to take responsibility and coincidentially you and your kind are also responsible for the downfall of civilisation. My woman has well-deserved and earned rights and also respects me and understads men lead relationships.

[Anonymous No.19157116]

what does nihil mean

[Anonymous No.19157117]

>>19157116
nothing

[Anonymous No.19157121]

My life sucks.
But I'm happy with it, yes.
Vidya is bliss, see?

[Anonymous No.19157123]

>>19157114
I'll have a laugh if you get divorce raped.
You talk as if you can do something drastic as open the full labour market to women without it having a devastating effect on society.
Maybe you'll understand once your own little experiment falls apart.

[Anonymous No.19157125]

>>19157121
what are you playing anon?

[Anonymous No.19157126]

>>19157114
holy shit based

[Anonymous No.19157130]

>>19157125
Dark Souls and a bunch of fighting games, mainly JoJo HftF and Touhou Hisoutensoku. Been trying to get into that Hokuto no Ken fighter from ArcSys

[Anonymous No.19157134]

>>19157125
pharaoh (1999)

[Anonymous No.19157141]

>>19157123
>devastating effect on society.
That's just because cucks like you need a several centuries period of accommodation. Unfortunately, we can't allow ourselves to be outpaced technologically by waiting for your "traditionalist" faggot ass to keep up with the times.

[Anonymous No.19157142]

Why are there so many German backpackers?

[Anonymous No.19157146]

>>19157141
You're living in a fantasy world.
You think you could open up the market without consequence to the social situation. You do not live in reality.

[Anonymous No.19157150]

>>19157146
Look at who's talking. Dipshit.

[Anonymous No.19157152]

>>19157150
You're seething. You sure you're not a woman yourself?

[Anonymous No.19157153]

>>19157146
>without consequence to the social situation.
I don't think that. I just told you the reason for that is weak men. There are of couse many weak men. I just happen to not care about you unless you man up and start benefitting society instead of complaining. Women rights stay because it's the only way to be competitive. Keep up or fuck off to middle east and live in a shithole that is at risk of being nuked out of this world whenever the West feels like.

[Anonymous No.19157159]

>>19157153
Or, alternatively society goes the same direction it has been going and the family as we know it will be the minority. People will stay alienated, people will drop out of society and birth rates will continue to collapse. How competitive will your country be then, when it gets out bred by soon to be billions of africans?

[Anonymous No.19157161]

>>19157152
What if I am? In any case, I won't argue with someone like you and I thank you for making me realize I'm once again arguing with stupid people on the internet. Go fuck yourself, goodbye.

[Anonymous No.19157162]

>>19157161
You're embarrassing yourself by getting to emotional.

[Anonymous No.19157163]

>>19157002
Sleep schedule resetting is always in the pipeline, and I'm always hearing the bosses saying we got to stick to it, but nothing ever happens.
Every night, 3 or 4 AM comes around and whaddya know, we're still in the world of the living until near or past whence day comes breaking down our windows & blowing it's white light into our eyes.
Inevitably by the time we wake up, noon has come and past, often for many an hour. Set an alarm for before 2 pm? In the half-dreaming stupor, the consciousness isn't present to the degree needed to follow the protocol. All the best men are still at home, dressing up & drinking caffeinated mud to stir the senses. That snooze button doesn't require the same mental capacity to disable, nary even needing an open eye to be performed after a few car alarms openly reverberate through the sheets.

One could move the alarm, say across the room, requiring substantially more function to send a cease & desist notice to.
But then how to fall asleep without the sweet cooings of cheap pickerels and swine as you close your eyes.
Gently enjoying rubber-coated fingers slipping knuckle deep into your auditory escape. If only there was the way to replicate the hot breath of someone gently breathing down the nape of your neck, eliciting goose pimples from head to head.

[Anonymous No.19157164]

>>19157162
so*

[Anonymous No.19157165]

>>19157159
Don't care how much slave races multiply, they'll always be slave races. Birth rates are down because economic growth is down and people can't afford it. The white race, the family, and Western civilisation is not going anywhere. You're just panicking like a woman because of a brief downturn. We survived worse.

[Anonymous No.19157173]

I just woke up in the middle of the night as I always do. Went to the bathroom and drank some meal replacement to avoid waking up with a headache.

Usually, I choose some random shit or a lecture from YouTube to fall asleep to, but for some reason I felt compelled to see what the idiots at lit were discussing.

Generally I don’t post in this threads but I’ve been telling myself that I should write more.

My ex is an unbalanced narcissistic bitch.

[Anonymous No.19157174]

>>19157165
>Birth rates are down because economic growth is down
Say what now?
If you go purely on growth it doesn't make sense. Eastern Europe has seen a greater rise in economic growth yet their birth rate is lower than the west. Same in South Korea vs North Korea. Alternatively countries like Afghanistan and certain African countries have seen a rise in birth rate despite terrible economic results. I think it shows a lot that you think it's economics that influences birth rates. Looking at economics first and foremost is an outdated way of looking at it, something that should have ended in 2010s.

And I'm not panicking, just asking when a country has bounced back from a steep decline in birth rate. Can you name me when that has happened?

[Anonymous No.19157191]

I'm 29 and have never kissed a woman. Now it's been years since I've even felt attraction to anyone. I still want female companionship but I legitimately don't feel it with any woman I meet in real life and am wondering if it isn't some sort of defense mechanism to avoid rejection.

[Anonymous No.19157194]

>>19157191
At 29 you might as well go pay a whore.
Are you satisfied with life besides your relationship with women? I wouldn't be but if you are then don't sweat it.

[Anonymous No.19157199]

>>19157174
>their birth rate is lower than the west.
Now check for white birth rate. The west has higher birth rate just because of how many immigrants it imported. African countries generally have high economic growth (pic).
>Looking at economics first and foremost is an outdated way
Lol
>when a country has bounced back from a steep decline in birth rate
1930s-60s was a large bounce after the Great Depression.

[Anonymous No.19157205]

>>19157142
We all have a surpressed death wish

[Anonymous No.19157208]

Leave your room and go contemplate this beautiful new day.

[Anonymous No.19157214]

>>19157199
That map proves you wrong.
As you can see China, Ireland, Iran, Papua New Guinea prove you dead wrong.
You cannot state that fertility has a correlation with economic growth, you're simply wrong.

And you can Lol all you want but it's true. It's an outdated way to analyses the world and societies.

And you talk about a large bounce, I'm talking about coming back from being below replacement level. Even in the 30's to 60's the fertility level was double what it is now. I'm looking at my own country and at it's worse the rate was 2.5
Now it is barely at 1.5 with no hint that it is going to rise. Despite all the amazing female engineers, how odd!

[Anonymous No.19157215]

All the characters I write are invariably neurotic urban professionals or clerks.

[Anonymous No.19157238]

I unironically find Nikocado entertaining. he only has a few moves, so he gets old fast, but those moves are top comedy

[Anonymous No.19157245]

>>19157214
>Despite all the amazing female engineers
it has to be essentially self evident that if you move from having women becoming mothers in their teens to a situation where they maybe become mothers in their 30s, that this should affect birth rates

[Anonymous No.19157248]

>>19157245
It obviously does, but some people think that if the economy number goes up this means people will have more children.

[Anonymous No.19157254]

>>19157079
I have the same problem, gonna try this out as well. best of luck anon

[Anonymous No.19157267]

>>19157214
>You cannot state that fertility has a correlation with economic growth
Of course I can. Without economic growth you can't afford new places to live in and jobs for your children. It's called the Malthus effect. I do accept that GDP growth is not the best measure and wealth inequality may mean that despite apparent economic growth, it won't trickle down to the lower classes who are most fertile. Nonetheless, there is an obvious correlation between needing more resources and being able to grow the population. How can you deny something so evident?
>And you can Lol all you want but it's true. It's an outdated way to analyses the world and societies.
I don't care about what's outdated because it has little bearing on what's true. Race realism is also outdated and anything that is not social constructivism. Economists said immigration doesn't keep wages down despite it obviously being false.
>And you talk about a large bounce, I'm talking about coming back from being below replacement level.
That's just no true scotsman. The bounce will happen when there will be enough resources to allow whites to buy houses to live in and to make sure their children have jobs to work at. First halting immigration then deportation.

[Anonymous No.19157286]

>>19157267
Obviously a country should grow, but to say that that is the main factor in birth rates is just not true. And people typically do not decide not go get kids because they might have a tough time finding a job in 20 years, that's ridiculous. The main reason birth rates are down is because of birth control and women having a path besides becoming a mother. It's telling you start talking about economics over those 2 issues.

And where was the bump in fertility in the period of growth (80's and 90's)?
From what I can see across multiple countries it went up about 0.2 which is almost negligible. And that's with decades of high growth. It's a simple fantasy that you'll get birth rates up to replacement level by just focusing on economics.

[Anonymous No.19157307]

I feel like sea calm my emotional state. Sadly, it lasts that much and im back to discord before you know it. Can one harnest all this energy into passion?

[Anonymous No.19157324]

>>19157307
learn active deep contemplation. sea is a great thing to meditate upon.

[Anonymous No.19157358]

>>19157286
>people typically do not decide not go get kids because they might have a tough time finding a job in 20 years, that's ridiculous.
That's not how it works. Jobs not being available affects you today as it affects your possibility to settle. If there are jobs available for your children, then there are plenty available for you as well. Why don't you just read pic related actually? It goes over the arguments well or is it too outdated for you? The fact that you talk about outdated theories is telling of your intellectual mindset too.
> The main reason birth rates are down is because of birth control and women having a path besides becoming a mother.
Similarly, I can say because of low economic growth, women can't afford to be a stay-at-home mother while supporting their family. You give more importance to cultural factors, I give more important to economic factors. I see no reason to prefer your view at all.
>And where was the bump in fertility in the period of growth (80's and 90's)?
Why has the fertility rate been going down in ME? Is it also because of feminism? There just aren't enough resources to support the increase of population while also providing decent living conditions. Humans adapt consciously or subconsciously which has downstream effects on reproduction choices. It happens to all organisms: a self-regulating principle of population control that ensures there are sufficient resources for the size of the population. This has been discussed not since Malthus, but since the dawn of history as even the Trojan War was interpreted by Greeks to have been a war of regulating the increased population of Greece (and Europe in general because it was just before invasions from the north.)

You take your views from a few decades of observations and academic consensus, I look at history and prehistory and notice that resources is a powerful regulator of human and animal population. Your view will be "outdated" in a few decades.

[Anonymous No.19157364]

>>19157358
>Why don't you just read pic related actually?
Replaced the pic further down the post

[Anonymous No.19157374]

maybe I should become a biologist. it is possible that it will turn out to be too hard to love people. I could just love the trees and the grass instead.

[Anonymous No.19157405]

>>19157044
What a great picture anon. Thanks for posting.

[Anonymous No.19157445]

>>19157044
thank you anon.

[Anonymous No.19157473]

>>19157358
You're getting to be snarky while making less and less sense. You specifically said
> you can't afford new places to live in and jobs for your children
>jobs for your children.
No one having kids is thinking about the jobs of their children. And besides, in current western countries this is not an issue yet birth rate is low. Does the Somalian think about the job prospect of their children or do they just fuck and have kids because they don't have birth control like we do?

>I see no reason to prefer your view at all.
Obviously you don't because you're deep in your dogma of economic thought. Never mind that I have shown that growth does not correlate with birth rate increases. You not seeing how women being grown up on birth control has a higher factor on them having fewer kids rather than them not knowing whether their kids will have jobs in 20 years shows how deep in the dogma you are.

You also sidestepped my argument of the lack of birth rates growing during decades of high economic growth. You quoted it but sidestepped it completely. You want me to talk about the ME when you haven't explained how during decades of economic growth fertility barely rose, and didn't come close to replacement levels.

You're seething and this reply has been by far the most pathetic. Your view is outdated because it has been proven WRONG by real examples. Economic growth does not lead to a spike in birth rate. You haven't been able to prove it even a little bit.

[Anonymous No.19157568]

should i continue buying books if i can just download the pdf for free (i cant read pdfs)

[Anonymous No.19157576]

>>19157568
just print the pdf

[Anonymous No.19157588]

Age of consent at the start of puberty allows females to act like they should and be attached to a single male due to their hormones seeking a biologically needed partner instead of whoring themselves at older age for money like roasties and turn into bitter feminists.

But jews don't want society to be stable. Can't make money off of stable people.

[Anonymous No.19157589]

>>19157576
but paper is expensive for my dad

[Anonymous No.19157597]

>>19157588
>jews are pedophiles
>but jews also want to raise the age of consent

pick a lane

[Anonymous No.19157618]

>>19157116
it doesn't mean anything :^)

[Anonymous No.19157630]

milf porn

[Anonymous No.19157637]

>>19157597
I pick two

Because they want to rape children below the age of 5 (read the talmund)
But they also don't want non-kikes to have pure maiden love.


(כח) כִּֽי־יִמְצָ֣א אִ֗ישׁ נער [נַעֲרָ֤ה] בְתוּלָה֙ אֲשֶׁ֣ר לֹא־אֹרָ֔שָׂה וּתְפָשָׂ֖הּ וְשָׁכַ֣ב עִמָּ֑הּ וְנִמְצָֽאוּ׃ (כט) וְ֠נָתַן הָאִ֨ישׁ הַשֹּׁכֵ֥ב עִמָּ֛הּ לַאֲבִ֥י הנער [הַֽנַּעֲרָ֖ה] חֲמִשִּׁ֣ים כָּ֑סֶף וְלֽוֹ־תִהְיֶ֣ה לְאִשָּׁ֗ה תַּ֚חַת אֲשֶׁ֣ר עִנָּ֔הּ לֹא־יוּכַ֥ל שַׁלְּחָ֖ה כָּל־יָמָֽיו׃ (ס)
Deuteronomy 22:28-29
(28) If a man comes upon a virgin who is not engaged and he seizes her and lies with her, and they are discovered, (29) the man who lay with her shall pay the girl’s father fifty [shekels of] silver, and she shall be his wife. Because he has violated her, he can never have the right to divorce her.

https://www.sefaria.org/Mishnah_Niddah.5.4?lang=bi

A girl who is three years and one day old, whose father arranged her betrothal, is betrothed through intercourse, as the halakhic status of intercourse with her is that of intercourse in all halakhic senses...

Jews are the scum of the world and should all be murdered.

[Anonymous No.19157687]

I can't eat, I can't sleep, I can't work. How the fuck do I get over this bitch?

[Anonymous No.19157949]

I wish I could still enjoy things that did not involve me writing.

[Anonymous No.19157969]

Bump

[Anonymous No.19157970]

>>19157637
Does your parents love you?

[Anonymous No.19158190]

My sister left for college today and I already miss her. I hope I get a chance to improve our relationship before she graduates because when that happens she'll move out and I'll probably never see her again.

[Anonymous No.19158196]

>>19158190
You should impregnate her so she can be with you forever

[Anonymous No.19158292]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2aXtLtfv2bE&list=LL&index=1

[Anonymous No.19158382]

>>19157473
Buddy you're the only one seething and projecting here. Based on your response about Somalians, it seems that you completely missed the point, so perhaps that's why you're so upset? Stick to reactionary thought

[Anonymous No.19158420]

Do any of y'all niggas get sad when niggas don't text back. Like damn, I know y'all niggas is busy n all dat. Didn't mean to intrude on ya day or no shit but damn. Just tryina keep up with y'all niggas nah mean.

[Anonymous No.19158429]

>>19157687
time heals all wounds, dawg. You just gotta live with the pain for a while. Not gonna promise it'll go away quickly. Not gonna promise it'll go away entirely. But you'll learn from every second of it.

[Anonymous No.19158431]

I keep typing porn websites consciously and unconsciously

[Anonymous No.19158445]

>>19157215
If you want to write new characters, you need to be a new character yourself. Or just take an acting class and learn to method act.

[Anonymous No.19158457]

>>19158431
hang in there coomerbro. You are afflicted with an illness. But you are so much more than that.

[Anonymous No.19158470]

>>19158431
I hate porn and I don't even enjoy cooming but I still like women enough to look at porn and force myself to coom. How is that even possible? I hate everything about the process and the experience. I don't even enjoy the climax.

Shouldn't the insane desire for women go away once you no longer care about cooming? How is it still tormenting me?

[Anonymous No.19158502]

Time on the chan sites have caused my mind to spin into a chaos. I no longer can tell apart my ironic shitposts from what I firmly believe, stating complete opposite and incompatible opinions in one thread and then the next. Anonymity completely breaks down any form of socialized self-monitoring of one’s beliefs, thoughts and statements. I enjoy typing out and posting utterly horrible things which in my heart of hearts I don’t truly believe but which I find humorous and cathartic to indulge. I have learned a niche and obscure dialect of memetic cues and catchphrases that only allow me to engage and communicate with an anonymized and often equally disassociated pseudo-community of transient others engaged in the same futile language game.

My capacity to take venerable or pressing issues seriously has deteriorated as I intersperse sincere comments with crass and often peurile comments . I have developed a taste for trolling and savor observing anti-social activities online as if they were performance art. I luxuriate in the giddy limbic thrill of uttering ethnic and racial slurs and articulating forbidden thoughts. All the while I color this untoward behavior with a self-conscious half ironic half serious and paper-thin Stirnerian philosophy as if to rationalize my descent into decoherence instead as being the operations of a higher and more complex grade of mind that has transcended social mores and enjoys unlimited freedom of thought and mental autonomy. While I do this I the post above mine is about someone jerking off to anime and the other one is by a kid who wants to shoot up his school. The mounting inconsistency of my shitposts verges into pure randomness .

Thanks to this site and how much fun I have on it I don't know what I believe or think any more. Everything has glommed together into a mass of irony and sarcasm. And you know what? In a weird way I might just be better for it. Perhaps it is better to say it all, unleash the beast, rather than remain a hushed up good boy all my life even when granted the rousing and heady stimulant of anonymity to play with.

[Anonymous No.19158513]

what is it about fall that's so comfortable? is it the air? a new school year? halloween? what makes fall so nice?

[Anonymous No.19158592]

>>19158513
I always liked the smell most. Something about the scent of wet, decaying earthen matter.

[Anonymous No.19158701]

>>19157173
Excuse me mate, I think you're me

[Anonymous No.19158709]

>>19158429
Cheers lad. Any ideas for speeding it up?

[Anonymous No.19158712]

The new James Bond movie didnt feel like Bond movie at all. It was a family melodrama.

[Anonymous No.19158751]

Abstract art is awesome and I'm tired of pretending it's not

[Anonymous No.19158782]

>>19158709
you probably shouldn't. it's good pain. once it leaves you you will be happy you went through it. it's a kind of a readjustment, and it needs doing.

[Anonymous No.19158784]

>>19157002
I need some comfy books bros. Any suggestions?

[Anonymous No.19158798]

>>19158784
The Phantom Tollbooth is very comfy, but it is children's lit.

[Anonymous No.19158831]

>>19158382
I accept your surrender.

[Anonymous No.19158832]

CHAMBER OF SOLAR IMAGERY
concentricity that paused,
slow enough to burn after the escape of its summit
and keeps designs for curious imagery that traces
the warm and palpitating sides of a man before he faints.
simple so that it shears the roughness from air and faraway objects
as quickly as it abandons a fantasy, living as a sort of eye without organs
and an eversion of the eyes.
that blank space is paranoid

[Anonymous No.19158853]

>>19158782
Yeah, I suppose you're right. I just feel like I've been through it all before :(

[Anonymous No.19158895]

>>19158709
no drugs/media consumption to avoid it, face it head on
write down how you feel, can be in a journal, a poem, a song, or just bits of thought
you don't have to keep your writing, you can destroy it if you want, but expressing it in some way and literally getting your feelings out of your body and into something else can be cathartic

[Anonymous No.19158941]

>>19158751
it sucks. if I want to look at abstract art, I'll go outside and stare at some tree bark. immeasurably more beautiful, evocative and thought provoking than anything some artist fag will ever produce.
that's my problem with, or rather complete disinterest in, abstract art. nature does it far better. you just have to look

[Anonymous No.19158955]

>>19158853
it'll be alright anon

[Anonymous No.19158956]

I can feel another depressive episode coming on after a good two years of feeling good. I have a pretty different attitude to the whole thing these days. Back in the day I almost enjoyed it, in that idiotic way as some people love having a mental illness to make them feel special. Now I'm facing it as something to survive, get rid of, end as soon as possible. I feel that it's a definite improvement, but this time I'm genuinely afraid of reaching the same lows again.

[Anonymous No.19158965]

To the one guy who keeps posting this comic I made: please post this improved version.

[Anonymous No.19159086]

>>19158941
I dunno. Lately I've been thinking, and I feel like abstract art is the best way to depict things like love, God, sadness, hate... anything which transcends the physical, really.

[Anonymous No.19159115]

Just fucking great. My pc decided to just die. First the graphics card, then in mere minutes a pc box panel.

[Anonymous No.19159208]

>>19159086
Agreed

[Anonymous No.19159221]

All I have going on for me in my life right now is work and when I'm not working I prefer to sleep. I take a lot of naps. It's a shame I can't just sleep entire evenings, nights, and weekends. Sleep is quite close to not being alive and that's what I want.

[Anonymous No.19159235]

I think I might like to go back to University to study English literature, comparative literature, or creative writing but also can’t help but feel like that would just be a total waste at my age (28).

[Anonymous No.19159351]

How the fuck do I leave 4chan? This is the only site that I still go to and it make me miserable. I hate every second I spend here.
The problem is that I cannot cut this last thread from the online world or I'll become completely 100% isolated. I have spent my life online for the most part and with a good reason: I hate my town. It's the most awful hellhole you can imagine. Being online has pretty much saved my life, but now it's indistinguishable from the shitty environment I was trying to escape from. Everyone is vile and disgusting.
I have tried a bunch of smaller alternatives and they all suck for one reason or the other. Mainly that the more niche you go, the more degenerate the users will be. I really need to move up on this ladder, but anywhere outside of here is just a Reddit tier social media nightmare made of screeching attention seekers.
I was thinking of going back to IRC but IRC is dead, there is a reason why I quit using it. I've been juggling this shit for months and months, I have to stop making excuses and just admit that I have to leave the internet for good. How the fuck do I prepare myself so I don't come crawling back to this shithole?
>inb4 you are here forever
I successfully managed to leave this site for 2 years when I had another outlet. I am not tied to this place, the problem is that I have nowhere else.
It's incredible that now that there are so many people online the internet feels more narrow than ever. When there used to be mere thousands of people online it felt like an unlimited sea of possibility.

[Anonymous No.19159352]

>>19159351
start with the greeks

[Anonymous No.19159438]

I want to write poetry but I cant tell if it's good until someone says it good. I'm a hit or miss poet because of this, some poems getting broken by others and dissected in front of me, while others praised. I am losing motivation to write more, I wish I was better

[Anonymous No.19159459]

>>19158751
Abstract art is really good at embodying a feeling, really cool for that reason but substance beyond the initial impulse is usually lacking. There's some really beautifully technical abstract art but I've always loved landscapes the most.

[Anonymous No.19159467]

Stop caring. Keep your perspective broad and remember how short your time is here. Don't become overwhelmed by emotions.

[Anonymous No.19159472]

>>19159467
Life is short, but not short enough

[Anonymous No.19159504]

>>19159351
Use Discord servers

[Anonymous No.19159516]

>>19159472
I don't care.

[Anonymous No.19159533]

>>19159504
Fuck. So be it.
The public ones are shit though.

[Anonymous No.19159587]

A scientists presents you with the option of getting into a machine that will mentally put you in the position to fix every mistake you've ever made in your life. Catch is that it won't be real, but while in the machine, you won't know that. You'll be kept alive indefinitely via IV while you get to live your fixed life. Do you enter the machine?

[Anonymous No.19159660]

>>19159587
No because it would be a simulated experience and I might be trapped forever in the nightmare of a life free of mistakes where I am unhappy just the same.

[Anonymous No.19159679]

>>19159587
no, because I'm quite sure that as far as Gods judgement goes, the materiality is consequential

[Anonymous No.19159778]

>>19157134
Anyone have that screencap?

[Anonymous No.19159791]

>>19159587
no such thing as a mistake

[Anonymous No.19159856]

>got covid last month when busy season started
>returned to work with almost 90 work orders assigned to me
>at least I got paid on my sick days
>today sort of feel similar symptoms albeit heavily reduced in intensity
>have to either work remotely and get nothing done because nothing can get done remotely or take a chunk out of my sick bank
I don't think I can mentally handle 90+ work orders again. The commie cough pretty much ruined my already shit life

[Anonymous No.19159870]

>>19159791
except for being born in the first place

[Anonymous No.19159879]

the only emperor, is the emperor of ice cream. the only thing that should rule are the transient joys we face in everyday life, the ones you must not take for granted. They are the ones that fill out your everyday life, like that first cup of coffee, or the smell of fresh morning air. We are incapable of comprehending those ideas and thoughts that are permanent and never-ending. We face death in our dreams with rude awakenings and sweat covered sheets, because of our incapability of imagining that which is beyond. We don't think of ourselves in systems, or can really comprehend the lives of others. We are simply other worlds to each other. It is because of this divide that we inherently are attracted to things filled with immediacy, as they have the most impact on our lives in the here, and the now. They prove to us that we exist as individuals in a set space, that "I" am really here, right now, writing out this on a board, as I expect to see either a response to these words, or have it electronically published right here, in front my own eyes. The impact of this is immediate, and I can see from my own writing that I have made a dent more so in my own soul, rather than add to the greater whole. We are individuals, we all have our own desires, therefore the most attractive desires will never be those that are either communally based or non-material. We will never place big-picture goals above the immediate, we slaves to the emperor, the emperor of ice-cream.

[Anonymous No.19159886]

>>19157116
It means Odisseus

[Anonymous No.19159916]

my room is totally fucked.. i need the spirit of Jordan Peterson to assist me

[Anonymous No.19159919]

I’m quitting my insane civil servant bureaucrat office job. What else can I do instead?

[Anonymous No.19159927]

>>19159533
Good luck with your transition, anon

[Anonymous No.19159929]

>>19159927

[Anonymous No.19159943]

>>19159919
Planting trees is fun if you're an outdoorsy guy.

[Anonymous No.19159944]

I don't understand how adults without kids can enjoy Halloween and the "Halloween season." Trick or treating is lots of fun when you're a kid, and when you're a teenager it's a chance to get out of your parent's house and go to parties and have sex or whatever. For adults, Halloween means playing along with either of these two activities depending on how old your kids are. If you don't have kids, there's nothing for you to do except watch from a distance like some kind of pervert. An adult without kids of their own who still gets really into Halloween strikes me as a weirdo or a terminal nostalgia addict.

[Anonymous No.19159978]

>tfw poems about the flat ass thread got deleted just after posting my limerick
I thought it was funny

[Anonymous No.19160026]

My student loans are fucking me so unbelievably hard. They won’t offer forbearance, forgiveness, or deferment at all and they won’t allow me to refinance.

[Anonymous No.19160033]

is it too weird to be thinking about being boyfriend/girlfriend with a girl I haven't touched yet?

[Anonymous No.19160041]

>>19160033
No, you're attracted to her. It's the logical conclusion of your feelings. Just don't get too deep into your own head.

[Anonymous No.19160049]

>>19159916
The ghost of Jordan Peterson past?

[Anonymous No.19160054]

>>19157107
Irrefutable

[Anonymous No.19160064]

>>19160033
thats depraved

[Anonymous No.19160065]

>>19157107
Great post

[Anonymous No.19160074]

>>19160049
kitchen is clean. there is fucking cat hair EVERYWHERE. never get one of these little shits

[Anonymous No.19160092]

I haven't eaten all day. I'm losing too much weight, but I have no hunger. I went for a fourmile run just now. All the fat old people were leaving the stadium after the football game with their fat wives. All the coeds were dressed in tight shorts and tight shirts. I was getting a cub during my run. The shamelessness of having your nipples visible really gets me going. Our football team is very bad. I have work to do. I ran out of marjijuna and I dont want to go buy more, but I will certainly have trouble sleeping tonight. I need to go buy food. I can feel the tide of suicidal ideation rising. I am bored. I am apathetic. I am horny. I need a haircut.

[Anonymous No.19160099]

>>19157002
>Why am I wasting time on /lit/?
>People’s egos here are as big as the amount of books they read but don’t understand
>Just a bunch kids who were told they were smart instead of that they worked hard
>I already know what I need to do in life and how to do it but curiosity is my addiction
>I should turn off my phone so I can have a better day tomorrow

[Anonymous No.19160288]

The state of Psychiatry is kind of pathetic when you look at it objectively. I have a hunch that Psychiatrists don't even believe in their own profession, because if they did, they would actually be engaged in treating a patient like doctors are. Instead all the psychs I've seen have this totally disinterested mentality like they're not actual medical professionals, but more like human vending machines for pills that could literally be automated and for 99% of patients it wouldn't make a difference. I don't want to be too mean, I'm sure there are good ones out there, but if you've ever been through this stupid system I'm sure you know how totally ineffective most of these guys are at doing anything other than handing out an SSRI. It's pathetic

[Anonymous No.19160332]

>>19159351
>Hahahahahahahaha How The Fuck Is This Even Real Hahahaha Nigga Just Walk Away From The Screen Like Nigga Close Your Eyes Haha
It's that easy your retarded zoomie.

[Anonymous No.19160385]

I didn’t realize there were such ridiculous fucking requirements to be a teacher. Not only does an education or a graduate degree seem to be required but you have to get state certifications. And even working abroad requires certifications.

[Anonymous No.19160390]

>>19159944
Adults still have halloween parties. I think its somewhat of a release for them. Plus the holiday is heavily commercialized.

[Anonymous No.19160407]

Met a girl by fate or fluke last week. A girl from my past. One I felt obscenely comfortable with, as we sat and talked for five hours straight. Just being around her filled me with vigor, with a sneaking joy. She had a boyfriend who she put down repeatedly, even after he finally arrived. Something in me wished to rob him, to take her like some maiden, to be a savage. I sewed it up, I got home, drowned in her, and sewed it up, I'm stuck now with her face, a tumor in me, an aching void of want. I refuse to text her, I refuse on all grounds to try to split them, or to become some orbiter. Within me gnaws a hunger that I had left maimed for dead. I have no one to listen to this, so forgive me, I tried to do the right thing for everyone, but I still feel I've done wrong. Should I be a beast, a ravaging monster? I refuse. I just want that ache to die, to return to my dusty books in my filthy hovel, and to forget it all. I was just minding my own business, I wasn't hurting anyone!

[Anonymous No.19160413]

>>19160407
bro just send her a dick pic

[Anonymous No.19160414]

>She had a boyfriend who she put down repeatedly, even after he finally arrived.

Massive red flag.

[Anonymous No.19160422]

>>19160414
yeah, I just keep telling myself that her nitpicking was in store for me if I laid any claim. Why the hell can I logically dismiss it all and still I can't stop thinking about her? I wish it had never happened at all. Bother.

[Anonymous No.19160437]

>>19160422
Idk, I can send my emotions away. For me it's easy when I come to a conclusion about what is good for me and what is not. When I've finished an evaluation of a feeling and take it to it's conclusion(the conclusion being the action the feeling is moving me towards) and that feeling is moving me towards something bad I just dismiss it.

[Anonymous No.19160447]

>>19160437
I think it's mostly because it's my only chance in heck to have a woman in my life. It truly was a freak event.
Never take for granted that emotional control, my friend. I don't go so far to say I envy it, but it's an admirable trait. I hope in a few weeks it will stop smarting, like some burn. She's robbed me of my peace.

[Anonymous No.19160459]

> study business
> get a corporate job
> write on the side and hope to be a good writer
> realize good writers don’t study business or work in corporate

[Anonymous No.19160462]

I'm writing a Cthulhu Pen and Paper adventure for my friends but I'm kinda stuck. It is supposed to be a oneshot set in India, 1924. I watched a lot of black and white videos from the BFI archive of that time (very comfy btw) and read up on wikipedia articles of what happened around that time. i tried to look up some hindi slang and speech patterns to make the dialogues more believeable. the characters seem pretty fleshed out, but my main story is lacking. something something time travel portal in a temple in tunisia in 1899 and the hostess learned of the old ones while traveling through the ages. the players can find some documents which are clearly from other timelines and come to their own conclusion as to what is the meaning of this. in the end they have to fight a huge triceratops skeleton. i now think this is stupid, but i am already too invested to change it now.

[Anonymous No.19160519]

>>19160459
quit ur job

[Anonymous No.19160537]

>>19157002
Writing blogpost tutorials is hard. I'm writing a tutorial on shell, but I just feel really awkward doing it. Any anons have any insight on writing this shit?

[Anonymous No.19160559]

>>19160519
Somehow, that’s even worse. It’s like it makes the LARPiness of it even more concrete.

[Anonymous No.19160566]

>>19160559
ok quit ur dream then

[Anonymous No.19160571]

>>19160462
>in the end they have to fight a huge triceratops skeleton
based

[Anonymous No.19160578]

>>19159944
>dress up so all the demons and ghosts know that living humanity is 2spooky4u
>spend winter safe from demons and ghosts
Admittedly it won't keep you safe from horse demons or living humanity but you probably don't want to go out that much in winter.

[Anonymous No.19160610]

>>19160571
guess i won't change it then

[Anonymous No.19160643]

>>19160459
>realize good writers don’t study business or work in corporate
they do, I know they do because you are doing it. never give up.

[Anonymous No.19160652]

>>19160643
Nice of u, but no. Pretty much every good writer who’s published a book since 2000 did some pseudo-odd job stuff like programming or literal day job stuff like being janitors and working retail or security.

[Anonymous No.19160655]

>>19160566
I wasn’t asking for advice

[Anonymous No.19160674]

>>19160459
I ended up getting jaded on academia and dropping out of my grad program only accept a job in my Uni’s administration and that’s what I’ve been doing ever since. I’m basically an accountant or a financial analyst. I hate it. Working for a University isn’t the worst thing ever but the Administrative office job is in a lot of ways the worst place to be on a University campus. Faulkner was a post master at the University of Mississippi and there’s a million writers who have been faculty at various Universities. It’s the in-between which is truly shitty.

I’m considering asking the University’s HR to help me work in groundskeeping or something. Or else I’ll just get fired and never work this sort of job again. That’s more or less my plan.

[Anonymous No.19160678]

>>19160655
i dont give a shit loser i say what i want when i want bitch

[Anonymous No.19160712]

>>19157002
When I was 20 y/o I dated this cosplayer girl, she went by the name of The Lady of the Lake, when we were dating I didn’t knew her real name, just that she hated it. When we had dates together, she was kind of a bitch, at the same time I was forceful, really an incel kind of mindset, a douchebag on purpose. She used her cellphone a lot and I didn’t. She was busy working and I didn’t. We lived in two separate cities, I was a really spoiled child, so I didn’t have my own means for transporting myself, I relied on a lot into my family, which was overprotective during my up bringing. I never developed a spine at that time, I never thought that I could endure this relationship and get to know her. Over some petty shit I ghosted her. And we never spoke to each other again. We used to watch anime movies, and she had great taste. We watched together the Song of the Sea. Years later by some stalking, I realized her real name was Selene. She was pretty and used to paint her hair blue, she was into pagan stuff, while I was a normie focusing on my studies, failing at that too, so I had to focus, which resulted in blocking her. I was also a /pol/rack. Almost six years later, I am getting into pagan-spiritual stuff, I am not less of a loser I was then, but I am more willing to hear women, and perhaps get to understand them, rather than dominating them. I think I own something to the moon, like would she forgive me? and why does it matter? at times it feels I don’t have any right to talk to witches, but all that cringy stuff, it helped me grow as a person.

[Anonymous No.19160734]

>>19160026
What it is like to have student loans?

[Anonymous No.19160742]

>>19160026
why did you take a loan you couldnt repay?

[Anonymous No.19160789]

>>19160459
Does anyone have the image of Kant as a woman from that thread where philosophers were turned into women with faceapp or whatever?

[Anonymous No.19160798]

>>19160652
every good writer also doesn't care what other good writers did for their day job

[Anonymous No.19160903]

ok i finished cleaning ^_^

[Anonymous No.19160959]

>>19160798
I’m certain that more than a handful of them were neurotic enough to care about it or they simply didn’t live in a time where there was a need to care about it. I’d like to see them do my job for a single day without killing them elves.

[Anonymous No.19160967]

>>19160742
Nobody can repay a student loan you fucking idiot. You’re a student when you receive the loan. Students don’t have that kind of financial capacity.

[Anonymous No.19161028]

Finna sue this idiot doctor for a fuck-ton of money

[Anonymous No.19161040]

>>19161028
no you're not, clown

[Anonymous No.19161129]

>>19159235
It would but so would literally everything else you could possibly do to be perfectly honest. There’s nothing worth doing anymore.

[Anonymous No.19161246]

>>19157002
Everywhere online is so heavily fuckng moderated I can't open my mouth without getting banned. What the fuck is going on. I even get banned from here sometimes. Fucking coward though police.

[Anonymous No.19161352]

Something is going to happen to the world, or at least to human society. I do not know what exactly will happen or when it will happen, but it will happen. I am certain that this is going to happen, and that certainty may be truth or the product of my delusions. It may be a great blessing, a great catastrophe, or somehow both.
Whatever it may be, it will be a cleaning and a reset of the structures of culture, and we will be reduced as to insects scrambling to safety after the shelter of their log or stepping stone was lifted. We, or what may be left of us, will then have to take the responsibility of refederating something resembling a society anew.
However, we cannot simply pick up where we left off. Some of our modern conveniences, such as the Internet and major electricity grids, will be downed for good, whether it be by whatever happens or the mutinous revolts resulting. Automobiles may still exist, but would be considered a luxury, as many of them may be destroyed and who would be there to supply the gasoline? Who would be there to turn the crude oil into gadoline? Who would be there to extract the crude oil?
Everyone in this thread do yourselves a favor and learn bushcraft, off-the-grid living, and other related subjects.

[Anonymous No.19161414]

It's 3rd Oct already. I need to get my life on track.

[Anonymous No.19161426]

>>19161246
finally got banned off twitter, so i'm going to be shitting up 4chan more frequently now.

[Anonymous No.19161453]

It should be both legal and socially acceptable to torture nazis to death. if 1/3 of the public is mindless enough that they can be tricked into agreeing with it, they need to fear the consequences enough not to

[Anonymous No.19161459]

I wish that I could stop jerking off to my smut ideas and actually write them down and post them

[Anonymous No.19161463]

>>19160967
yes but you should have had a very certain expectation of the future ability to get a job and pay it off, otherwise you are a fool. I joined the army becuase I am smart and did not want to be faced with dilema you are in. So, it is you who is the fucking idiot. Have fun being a debt slave for the rest of your life.

[Anonymous No.19161471]

>>19161426
Bro I got banned from an MMA live stream chat because I said basketball is inferior to mma. That is just one of many times an innocuous comment has gotten me banned. Banned disliked downvoted blocked timedout im going insane im going to go scream in the streets until they ban me from life!

[Anonymous No.19161480]

>>19161471
you said the N word, didn't you

[Anonymous No.19161481]

>>19157114
Women make up only a small proportion of scientists and engineers. Those fields are overwhelmingly dominated by men. Well, not just any men. Engineers and Scientists are typically virgins, with a unimpressive body type.

[Anonymous No.19161483]

Is it suicide if I'm just incredibly curious if there is something beyond our life?

[Anonymous No.19161488]

>>19161463
You joined the army because you were a dumbass kid and didn’t know what the fuck you were doing. It just happened to work out for you. Stop it already.

[Anonymous No.19161499]

>>19157002
Whenever I'm alone I feel overwhelming sadness and physical pain in my body because I've never had anyone to love romantically.
This has been ongoing for years.
The reason why is because of my social anxiety. When you're male and have social anxiety, people just let you rot by yourself if you're unable to make friends so I never learned how to socialize. When I try to my throat tightens up and my voice cracks and my thoughts freeze up. I also do and say retarded shit that gets me weird looks from people when I try to interact with them. The prospect of social interaction makes me panic. My heart pounds. Women don't find that attractive.
But all I've ever wanted is someone into whose heart I can radiate all my love.
Life is about seeing how much we can endure.

[Anonymous No.19161501]

>>19161488
No, i joined the army because i wanted to go to war. I didn't even need the college money, my parents would have p[ayed for school like they did for my brother and sister. I was old enough to know signed a loan contract that will enslave you is foolish. Its simple math. You are the idiot, not me. You knew the army would pay for your school too.

[Anonymous No.19161504]

>>19161488
stop writing comments slave that interest is adding up by the second, go get to work.

[Anonymous No.19161510]

Imagine if all of a sudden, and with no warning, your life plunged into a pure hell and stayed that way for years. You're about 14 years old, and suddenly everything you learned up to that point is thrown away, and you must learn the ropes all again for this new private inner reality. Still you share the same physical world as healthy people, and you pass for normal at a distance, but in truth you're struggling against a fight completely different from every other person around you.

There are some "cures" science knows about but you've tried more than a dozen, and none of them worked for you. Actually they didn't even have an effect, not a single reaction, except for two cures. And even then, those cures only helped a little, and stopped doing anything within a few weeks. So no matter what, you are steeped in this hell reality, burning all the time, and not even your closest family understands what is happening. The flames are so hot that you are overwhelmed - you want to grab the attention of someone and say, jesus christ, can't anyone see I'm burning here? - but no one does. If anyone could at least understand the extent of what you're going through, it would help, but that appears increasingly unlikely.

This has been my life for 7 years. Every day life is just finding a new coping mechanism to pass the time. When there's minimal hope for you, how do you even keep going? This is the question I struggle with daily.

[Anonymous No.19161516]

>>19161510
stop faking your fibromyalgia you jewess

[Anonymous No.19161521]

>>19161510
You can leave life right now.

[Anonymous No.19161531]

>>19157002
i'm just so tired of queers and faggots and niggers and kikes. but more than that, more than anything. i'm tired of white people. i'm so fucking tired of white women and white dudes smuggly walking around like they fucking own the place and pretending like they're such good fucking people for wearing their gay little masks and sucking all the black and brown dick they see every fucking day. i hate old white people, i hate young white people, i hate female white people, i hate male white people. i don't even know what i see when i look in the fucking mirror anymore, it's hard to detach myself from the disgust i immediately feel but somehow i find a way to do it by coping that i'm "not actually white" because i can convince myself after years of /pol/proganda that i'm somehow immune to the extreme faggotry of white people because i'm a slav. i mean, i know that it's really not any different. i'm white passing, there isn't a person in my life that wouldn't call me white, but i guess it's a tiny bit of respite from the obnoxious smiling faces of the coomskins i see all and every day.

i probably do a lot of mental damage to myself by going on my local city's subreddit regularly and reading the comments of dumb white people. i don't post, i'm not that much of a faggot, but i guess i should probably stop.

[Anonymous No.19161537]

>>19161501
> I didn’t join the army for that reason
> you should’ve joined the army for that reason
> now thank me for my service
Second, no you didn’t. Stop it with your gay little warrior LARP and your Dave Ramsey tier preachy bullshit. It is seriously ANNOYING and you de facto don’t know what you’re talking about.

[Anonymous No.19161541]

>>19161531
>using reddit.

You did this to yourself buddy. I've only used reddit to view video game commentary but even then I've stopped doing that.

[Anonymous No.19161546]

>>19161521
Yes, but in practical terms not really.

[Anonymous No.19161553]

>>19161537
I know why i joined the army. The money was a secondary perk. The fact is youre in debt and i aint because you are a fool who took a foolish loan and I am smart and got a good deal. I have no debt, you have crippling debt. I win. Just think about all that money you owb and how long it will take to pay off. How it will affect so much of your life. It must be stressful.

[Anonymous No.19161559]

>>19161546
Its practical if you are actually suffering so horribly, must likely you are just being a bitch. Read epictetus. Stop complaing, or kill yourself.

[Anonymous No.19161563]

>>19158445
So basically, just contract a personality disorder. Easy enough.

>>19158470
Cooming is a biological imperative. God made men horny fuckers so that we could continue our species. If we could control our sexual desires it is possible that our species would die out so mother nature makes sure to make us all get hot and bothered easily.

Anyways, on to me. So basically I want to develop my own video game. I am tired of consuming, and trying to find a video game that satisfies me, so I want to make a video game that suits my tastes.

[Anonymous No.19161564]

>>19161559
Do you have any living family who care about you? If not this must be hard to understand.

[Anonymous No.19161578]

>>19161564
This isnt about me. You need to get over that little barrier, it is an illusion. Stop pretending you are carrying your fake pain like a cross just so your family wont feel sad.

[Anonymous No.19161597]

>>19161578
This is what I was talking about. "fake pain". You have no clue what this is about. It's so exhausting

[Anonymous No.19161614]

>>19161597
Are you ignoring me on purpose becuase you cant accept that im right? You can end the pain right now. You said yiurself there is no cure. If it is so agonizing you can make it stop with one trigger squeeze. If it isnt that bad then stop whining.

[Anonymous No.19161631]

>>19161614
It's not that there is no cure, but that there may be one and I just haven't found it. It's true suicide is always an option but part of the difficulty here is that it may not be a death sentence. You simply have to keep going either way until it becomes unbearable, it's not that you want to die but that you would rather die than live forever in that state.

I am not going to argue about it here. I don't really care for arguing in general since it's an exercise in narcissism. If you have something profound to say then say it, otherwise move on.

[Anonymous No.19161642]

>>19161631
You obviously care about arguing because you keep replying to me and wont stfu. I gave you the answer to your fake problem and you are trying to worm your way out. You move on bitch.

[Anonymous No.19161647]

It's always the worst sort of person that tries to turn everything into an argument.

[Anonymous No.19161649]

>>19161647
You are a fucking coward

[Anonymous No.19161661]

>>19158431
Once in a while I'll find myself embedded to a coom material for weeks. I'll just keep viewing it.

[Anonymous No.19161676]

I wanna learn a language.

[Anonymous No.19161701]

Before I met her I'd started to worry I didn't even desire girls anymore. After I got to know her I desperately wanted to fuck her. Now she's mugged me off I don't know if I want to fuck anyone at all apart from her. What is happening to me? :(

[Anonymous No.19161777]

>>19161676
Learn Dutch, pretty close to English and the grammar is a dollar-store version of German so shouldn't be too hard

[Anonymous No.19161789]

Grandma died and grandpa keeps talking about getting a girlfriend and idk how to cope

[Anonymous No.19161792]

Jerry liked to look at paintings while eating garlic ice cream.

[Anonymous No.19161796]

Grandpa said they had an active sex life until she died. Why would he volunteer that information? I am afraid maybe he is going senile.

[Anonymous No.19161825]

I can't sleep at night because I am frightened of rotty rats and ghosts.

[Anonymous No.19161836]

I didn't know the moon illusion was a real thing. I thought that was just an anime thing.

[Anonymous No.19161857]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JO44WNyb28A

[Anonymous No.19161876]

My apartment lease is run up and I’m unemployed. I don’t know if I should use my savings to secure an apartment or if should live with my parents and my brother for a while. I’m going to be 30 in a few years and don’t want to live with my parents.

[Anonymous No.19161895]

>>19161796
Grandpa sounds based, you should chip in for a cruise if the faggot government will let you

[Anonymous No.19161897]

>>19161876
same, but sving for an apartment in heaven instead

[Anonymous No.19161935]

>>19161897
I don’t get it.

[Anonymous No.19161975]

>>19161935
I'm gay

[Anonymous No.19162027]

My gf was supposed to come home 2 hours ago and I can't get through to her phone and she doesn't reply to texts. I am praying she just fell asleep at her friend's and somehow her phone died but I'm really worried. I'm checking for traffic accidents online but I don't know what else to do. Who do I even get in touch with in a situation like this? What can I even say to 911?

[Anonymous No.19162050]

I find it absolutely insane how much faith people suddenly have in the FDA and pharmaceutical companies over the vaccine. It's as if people suddenly forgot the rampant corruption that has been going on for eternity and the number of blunders the FDA has committed

[Anonymous No.19162083]

>>19159879
I scream, you scream, we all scream for ice cream!

[Anonymous No.19162086]

>my gpu died
maybe it's a sign to stop playing games

[Anonymous No.19162097]

>>19159944
it's the atmosphere leading up to and during it, more so than trick or treating or parties. I never trick or treated growing up because Halloween wasn't a thing in my country, and barely is now, but I like Halloween. and October is a really nice month.

[Anonymous No.19162100]

>>19160033
why is this over a mb, is there something hidden in it

[Anonymous No.19162122]

>>19162027
Call 911 and ask about an accident involving a woman with the name of your girlfriend. And ask them if they know the number of the hospital they take traffic accident victims to.

[Anonymous No.19162184]

>>19162086
>play games
>don't feel any excitement towards it anymore
>just completing checklists of tasks in it

[Anonymous No.19162185]

>>19162122
Ended up doing this although I flagged down a cop who happened to be right nearby. During that conversation he was telling me to call the hospitals near where she last was, and she called out of the blue. Bad series of coincidences caused the whole mess. All is fine thank God. Thanks to you also anon.

[Anonymous No.19162191]

oh no i'm playing poker again time to lose all my money haha

[Anonymous No.19162198]

>>19162191
that was fast

[Anonymous No.19162201]

>>19161453
>1/3 of the public
>Nazis
LMAO
you're so thoroughly deluded you may as well be braindead.

I wonder if even in Nazi Germany a third of the public could be considered Nazis

[Anonymous No.19162212]

>>19161857
Nice, thank you

[Anonymous No.19162243]

>>19162184
i was the same before gpu death. i just grinded achievements for a pixelated badge which is pointless when you think about it.

[Anonymous No.19162257]

I'm profoundly depressed and suicidal.

[Anonymous No.19162269]

>>19157002
Just remember:
God loves you!

[Anonymous No.19162301]

>>19161488
You are correct, ignore him. Not everyone can join the military, and in a civilized society you shouldn't have to in order to get education for most good jobs. What he said is partially true, if you went for a degree with no obvious way to pay it back (i.e. English literature degree) and no plan, yes you are complicit. If you studied something with a good plan and were likely to get a job, but didn't, then don't beat yourself up.
Check out teaching English in Asia, it's a cool gig you can do if you have any bachelors and are in the anglosphere, pay is a bit shit though. You don't need to know their language.

[Anonymous No.19162314]

>>19162257
you and probably ten other anons in the thread

[Anonymous No.19162353]

i wish Dan Carlin would keep doing his current event podcast.

[Anonymous No.19162487]

Sunflower seeds might just save me from destitution. I can get a daily calorie intake's worth for ~1euro. It has everything, fat, protein, fibers and carbs. It's not even that oversalted oily type.
Now I just have to find a cheap multivitamin to stave off various deficiencies and I'm set.

[Anonymous No.19162491]

>>19162185
that's great anon

[Anonymous No.19162494]

>>19162269
this guy gets it

[Anonymous No.19162513]

My soul is like a boat in rough sea.

[Anonymous No.19162520]

>>19157002
How to become a MAN.

[Anonymous No.19162556]

>>19162520
First step: clean your damn room

[Anonymous No.19162571]

can't stop thinking about chubby chinese girls

[Anonymous No.19162579]

I want to move to Bangkok but I'm worried my family will think I'm just running away from problems or even worse, sex tourism.

[Anonymous No.19162583]

>>19162579
why do you wanna move to bangkok?

[Anonymous No.19162584]

>>19162556
fucking kek anon, I'm being serious here

[Anonymous No.19162593]

I have a crippling fear of rejection so I don't keep in contact with much of anyone I've known anymore

[Anonymous No.19162617]

>>19162583
>everything is cheap
>city is always busy
>extremely lively car and bike street racing scenes
>certain classic cars are cheaper and more available than in my country, opportunity to make easy profit exporting
And to be honest Australia is boring as fuck. I can buy a 400+ horsepower Cefiro for the price of a shitbox family sedan, hoon around the streets of Bangkok and only face fines of $40 whereas the fines here are over $600 and loss of license.

[Anonymous No.19162655]

>>19162243
Yeah, in the grand scheme of things they're pointless and only there to serve your ego with instant gratification. I've got like 3 games in my backlog and I just wanna get it done with. I don't know what's gonna happen after that.

[Anonymous No.19162659]

>>19162617
This sounds convincing enough to trick your loved ones into believing you're not there to fuck ladyboys

[Anonymous No.19162666]

>>19162579
>or even worse, sex tourism.
there are some very negative stereotypes about Thai people but i must say that they are very lovely

[Anonymous No.19162696]

>>19162520
What is a MAN according to you?

[Anonymous No.19162720]

>>19162487
steal spices and ketchup from Macdonalds and you've got yourself a buffet

[Anonymous No.19162786]

>>19162696
I don't know that's why I'm essentially asking for books that would help me understand what it means to be a MAN so I can take care my shit and put my priorities straight. I grew up without a father, go figure.
In my own, short words though, I'd say that a MAN is someone who works hard to achieve what he wants and doesn't care what others thinks of him. He is strong physically as well as mentally and at peace with his mind.

[Anonymous No.19162787]

Woke up still drunk and not happy about it.

[Anonymous No.19162789]

Maybe the american elite has chosen to focus so much on black people, as a first stage in dealing with the inevitable massive black population growth that is gonna happen in africa. Positioning itself for the next brain drain, and huge consumer market.

[Anonymous No.19162824]

>>19162786
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLh_lXwnePZ_xGVbGeekgxkGA9P0WiHAqG

best male rolemodel you'll find. personified all the mentalities of the prophets

[Anonymous No.19162830]

>>19162824
Mohammed was an inbred pedo who founded the largest ongoing incel movement in history. I have never met any people more insecure and filled with impotent rage as Muslims.

[Anonymous No.19162843]

>>19162786
Seems like hes could be a stoic so marcus aurelius meditations and seneca comes to mind as a recommendations.

[Anonymous No.19162888]

My dick hurts so I tried putting an ice pack under my dick and now I feel less desire to fap

[Anonymous No.19162918]

>>19162786
Anon, I hope you have a job. You have to meet other men. Reading by its nature is passive and effete. Writers don't know anything. When you intellectualize something you lose its essence. You need to spend time with other men, watch how they hold themselves, what they talk about, what they DON'T talk about, and how they spend their time.

I worked in construction for a few years, but those guys have their limits. They have good "frame", but they're often unambitious, poor, and alcoholic. So they basically have the masculinity that only works on the most bottom rung of society. Plenty of machismo, but mostly all talk and posture. Don't take cues from men who don't have any money.

Most men who have only been in school and in office jobs also have their limits. The office is a feminine environment. Office environments also permit too much isolation, and these men, even the best of them, are not that socially capable. Working too long in an office also erodes your sense of masculinity and femininity. It's a unisex nightmare, run by women -- HR is 76% women in the US.

Basically, I'll just say that self-employed men, successful men of any time, and those with a diverse history are the best to learn from. This is one great fucking reason to stop being poor if you're poor (or IF you're poor, start ingratiating yourself with more successful people), because you can't learn anything from poor people. Their lives are proof of that.

[Anonymous No.19162921]

>>19162579
start training Muay Thai. you'll get into incredible physical shape and learn to fight, and it'll be the perfect excuse. tons of westerners go there to train. it's a relatively big scene.

[Anonymous No.19162969]

>>19162918
good post

[Anonymous No.19163018]

>>19162720
I like your thinking.

[Anonymous No.19163047]

Why do black people smoke so much weed? In my city, you see them literally everywhere smoking weed all the time. Everyone else is working. Arabs are working their shops, Mexicans are selling their food, Chinese are working their shops, but Black people crowd up and light up blunts. On top of that, they always look mad. Y?

We hired an intern at my office, a black guy, and he got fired two weeks later for smoking a blunt ON OUR PATIO.

[Anonymous No.19163065]

>>19162918
>Yeah bro, self-employed men, successful men will surely want to hangout with a loser like you

[Anonymous No.19163070]

I'm going downhill again. When I think about my future after graduation as a series of employments and "relationships" interspersed with brief vacations I know that Schopenhauer was right about everything. If I only had a property I could simply subsist but at this rate I am going to be a slave forever

[Anonymous No.19163082]

>>19161857
Do you have a source for the original pic?

[Anonymous No.19163088]

>>19163065
projecting aside, if you don't occasionally buy from/work with self-employed men, then you're doing something wrong, and should be doing less business online, or you know, have a job.

[Anonymous No.19163098]

>>19162918
I'm 25 and I don't have a job or career for that matter, I'm done for.
I am just so fucking lost and confused, I literally don't know what to do and I find myself questioning everything.
Great post though and I really appreciate your input anon.

[Anonymous No.19163100]

i am very burned out and disgusted after reading history books

i hope our future is better

[Anonymous No.19163115]

>>19163098
I started learning a trade at 25. Also very helpful for learning how to act like a man. One of the few manly spaces.
It isn't over.

[Anonymous No.19163162]

I feel like this time, loneliness will get to me. Not yet, it's still early, but for the forseable future the only contact I will have with anyome will be during classes. I'm sitting in my mostly empty room right now and it feels oppresively lonely, not sure for how long will I be able to hold it together.

Any tips for dealing with true loneliness?

[Anonymous No.19163167]

>>19163098
You're questioning so much and you're filled with doom BECAUSE you don't have a job. You have nothing to structure your time and orient your thinking. Just get any fucking job, and let it get you into order. Even if you hate it, stick it out week by week, and if you finally pussy out, then quit then and only then.

If you refuse to even get a job, then I have nothing to say to you. I mean, for God's sake, even illiterate unskilled half-wit elderly immigrants can work 60 hours a week janitoring. Then they go home on the bus and sleep on a bunk. Is your life so much harder than that? So what the fuck?

[Anonymous No.19163168]

>>19163162
Why do you feel lonely?

[Anonymous No.19163213]

>>19163168
Because I am. I have essentially no one to talk to. Due to a recent series of events, I'm away from all my friends and family members. I can call them of course, but it's not the same and I don't want to bother them too much. It's been days since I had human contact outside of cashiers and the turkish kebab guy. This hasn't been the case for a long time and I feel like I can't handle it these days.

[Anonymous No.19163235]

I don't know if my parents are dysfunctional by general standards but their arguing is becoming the straw breaking the camel's back. I just want it to stop, I have too much else I'm struggling to deal with. No one to talk to about it either

[Anonymous No.19163252]

I want to take some time off working but I also want to move to a new city. I can’t really do both. In order to move to a new city, I’d have to take a new job and if I take a new job I obviously can’t quit this one.

[Anonymous No.19163276]

I just wanted to be a composer of late-romantic music. Everything that is taught and praised at music school is atonal / microtonal / serialist garbage. Why is every art form dead?

[Anonymous No.19163297]

>>19163276
That's because arts schools want to maximize admissions, so they lower the bar. Can't exclude the retards by enforcing taste, or God forbid, tone.

[Anonymous No.19163334]

>>19163297
But new tonal works aren't even performed anymore, outside of Blockbuster film music. Also, art school is free here. That can't be it. Or the only reason, at least.
How can anyone like this? What mental gymnastics do I have to do to listen to this and think: "Yeah, I'd like to make something like that."
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p8RTPYaWXj8

[Anonymous No.19163362]

>>19163334
What the fuck is that? Anyway, the reason this sort of stuff is likely praised is that the world of academic art, music included, just turned back on itself and away from society. They make shit only they "like", either finding some strange beauty in it or just pretending to like it to keep the illusion going so they don't get ostracized. Same reason contemporary art is shit. And the fact that almost everything beautiful and impressive you can imagine has already been done so it's hard to make original stuff.

[Anonymous No.19163370]

I want to work in agriculture.

[Anonymous No.19163381]

>>19163334
Fair point. But it's still pretty simple: "democratize" the art forms, and then nobody is excluded. "Everybody can be an artist!" Even though statistically this is impossible since only a small minority are creative, and then a yet smaller minority actually produce anything. It's a joke, it's a just a big playground for overgrown children.
Then you have the effect where "educated" people assume something is wrong with them for not naturally liking this stuff, so they pretend, and its off into obscurantism. Same thing happens in my field (painting).

By the way, I've noticed that the biggest champions of postmodern art are NOT artists themselves. That's because when you actually engage with artwork, you learn there are rules, and tastes, which immediately apply. Otherwise you would not be motivated to work.

[Anonymous No.19163389]

I feel I've lost the desire to learn, to read, or do anything that doesn't involve some sort of productive activity... When I'm not working I'm tired and want to do mindless things like 4chan. Can't help but feel whatever creative spirit I did have has been erased. Whatever vigor I have is sapped and used up by everyone but me. All I get in return is a pittance with which I can afford comfort. I know this, and yet I persist. Comfort at the cost of your soul!

[Anonymous No.19163429]

>>19163362
>>19163334
I can't help but think it also has to do with the psychology of the art world -- which represents a very small minority of privileged young White people in urban areas. Many of my art colleagues are NOT creative types, a fact which continues to stagger me. They're essentially misfit children who went to art school because they imagined it's better than working. That's it. The art world offers an extended adolescence.
Also, the "postmodern" movement has completely handicapped emerging artists, because it basically offers a way out, an "explanation" for why your art sucks so badly. It creates a feedback loop of bad artists, and it happens to work out perfectly for people who go to art school precisely as an escape from responsibility.

[Anonymous No.19163448]

>>19163381
>But it's still pretty simple: "democratize" the art forms, and then nobody is excluded. "Everybody can be an artist!"
This sentiment certainly exists but I don't think that it's the reason for works like the one I posted. These people are able to write beautiful tonal works, they just don't. They need to innovate at all costs and as an effect alienate all of their potential listeners outside of academia and the music world.
>>19163362
This is probably the correct answer. It still bums me out.

[Anonymous No.19163455]

>>19163429
>who went to art school because they imagined it's better than working
tbf it probably is. Should have gone down this route as well. Corporate wageslavery is hell.

[Anonymous No.19163463]

Does a tree fall in a forest if no one is around?

[Anonymous No.19163469]

I FUCKING HATE this fucker SO MUCH IT PHYSICALLY PAINS ME. Why do I even bother texting you? What the hell is wrong with me and why can't I stop. Just die, it'd be better that way. The sadness may not go away but I can at least accept we're not gonna be the same as before. Maybe I can trick my mind to do it, whatever I can do to keep myself away from thinking that you exist. In that case, you'd become my unattainble object of desire - it could have always been like this, only if I had kept my mouth shut

Remember anons, never confess your feelings

[Anonymous No.19163496]

>>19163429
>They're essentially misfit children who went to art school because they imagined it's better than working.
Can you really blame them for not wanting 9-5 job?

[Anonymous No.19163497]

>>19163455
No, it's stupid. You just rack up debt in order to pay for your pretend art career. I know people who have multiple art degrees, and still work ordinary jobs.

[Anonymous No.19163512]

it's fairly likely I will die of old age, maybe 70% or so, but I expect that ripe old age will be roughly 60. now because I have bad habits or anything, I just know that mental illness can reduce your life expectancy a lot (having accounted for suicide), and I highly doubt my system will sustain much more than 60 years of this

[Anonymous No.19163517]

>>19163496
They all end up working 9-5 anyway, so I don't know what you're talking about. I think I know ONE guy who lives off his art, and it's only because his family is in the industry, and he was well-off anyway, so it doesn't count.

[Anonymous No.19163633]

>>19163469
No. Fuck you, you sociopathic maladjusted moron

[Anonymous No.19163653]

>>19163463
Yes. And it makes a sound.

Because trees can hear

[Anonymous No.19163659]

>>19163389
We have to turn this modern boob tube off

[Anonymous No.19163676]

New thread
>>19163668
>>19163668
>>19163668

[Anonymous No.19163688]

>>19163676
You couldn't wait?

[Anonymous No.19163702]

>>19163633
Don't call me that you bitch, I have calmed down now

[Anonymous No.19163704]

>>19163688
No.

[Anonymous No.19163715]

>>19163702
Okay good.
Is this a break up? The solution is never to bottle up your feelings. Don’t talk like that

[Anonymous No.19163751]

>>19163469
I just got out of this exact situation by blocking her on everything. She kept texting me day in day out until she got a better offer then went completely cold. Fucker. Feel worse than I've ever felt in my life

[Anonymous No.19163777]

>>19163715
Yh bro I know when I talk shit like that it has more to do with myself. It's just that I have been betrayed by that person really badly and I'm trying to find ways to cope

[Anonymous No.19163778]

>>19163704
Are you still mad that you got filtered by dbz of all things, trannie?

[Anonymous No.19163790]

>>19163704
you forgot your trip again butters

[Anonymous No.19164301]

>>19157012
You mean the fear of slavery or the topic of slavery being used to guilt trip?

[Anonymous No.19164429]

>>19161796
Its the secret to a long lasting and faithful marriage

[Anonymous No.19164456]

>>19157114
thanks anon

[Anonymous No.19164539]

I have a fear that people will find out that I'm autistic at some point especially at my part time job

[Anonymous No.19164547]

>>19164539
don't worry they know ;)

[Anonymous No.19165179]

>>19164547
Do you know who I am

[Anonymous No.19165766]

Somebody make a new thread, I can't because jannies do not let me upload images.

[Anonymous No.19165835]

>>19163676
>>19165766
Seems the jannies want the general to die.