Write What's On Your Mind

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Write What's On Your Mind Anonymous Mon Jul 25 16:27:24 2022 No.20733415 [Reply] [Original]

/wwoym/ Permaculture edition

Previously >>20726590

https://youtu.be/sRPP4Ilpxso

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 16:30:09 2022 No.20733426 I'm 30 years old and I have nothing.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 16:31:30 2022 No.20733438 I want to jerk off so fucking bad. I'm legit 14 hours into nofap and I can't stop thinking about stroking my big hard cock. FUCK.

Anonymous Mon Jul 25 16:40:41 2022 No.20733483
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>Used to write 4 books a year (200 page notebooks)
>Began to slow down during the 10th book
>Now on track to only do one book a year

I miss when I could just sit and ideas would fall out of me. Now I need OUTLINES and RESEARCH. Which is all well and good, yeah, you know, don't have a completely shit story, sure, but I didn't ever plan on actually *needing* to do these.
>And they're not even that bad
I just miss writing for writings sake. Does anyone else know this feel?

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 16:41:37 2022 No.20733488 I'm 37 years old and I don't have much.

Anonymous Mon Jul 25 16:45:38 2022 No.20733514

I did something horrible to a woman I love very much. I never knew I was capable of that. It hurts that I am. It hurts that I became a source of that much pain to someone I loved and won't stop loving. It hurts to remember that that's what I'm thinking about—myself, not the amount of pain she's in because of me.
I just want it all to end. I never want to touch or be touched by another human being again. I hope she hires someone to kill me or even beat me up or something.
It wasn't physically violent, nor illegal. If it had been, I wouldn't be posting about it. I'd probably already be in the ground. But trust that it was truly awful.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 16:48:20 2022 No.20733525 >>20733514 >trust no coloreds please

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 16:50:40 2022 No.20733539 >>20733525 >I trust to come unto you, and speak face to face. 2 John 1:12, KJV.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 16:52:00 2022 No.20733548 >>20733539 k but still no coloreds

>>	the xi jinping of weed smoking !!oqyjkIO5smI Mon Jul 25 16:53:26 2022 No.20733559 >>20732280 my friend has shilled me Tarkovsky for years lol, still haven't watched anything from him. anyways, these all look cool. thanks.

Anonymous Mon Jul 25 16:53:36 2022 No.20733561

If no great works really be written and literature isn’t what it used to be, but you find something more enjoyable in day movies, video games, comics whatever, why should writers look away from novels and towards these other things? It seems like they’ll get more out of them, and more people will enjoy them.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 16:54:00 2022 No.20733563 >>20733514 I read this story like 50 times now. I think you like reveling in the drama and torturing yourself.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 16:57:16 2022 No.20733577 Every day is a blessing.

Anonymous Mon Jul 25 16:58:51 2022 No.20733583

>>20733415
there's really no better first impression than doing something (mildly) anti-social for the benefit of a girl. I met a girl by an unguarded cooler where I preceded to steal a beer for her and myself. I must have jumped like 5 points in her mind because she was so sweet and feminine from the jump.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 17:02:13 2022 No.20733596 >>20733583 let's bring up that a notch. if you dont punch a girl during the first meeting, it's pretty much over impression wise.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 17:05:55 2022 No.20733611 >>20733596 Idiot

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 17:06:57 2022 No.20733616 >>20733583 >do something nice for woman >woman reacts in positive way >anon creams his pants you guys kill me

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 17:09:06 2022 No.20733620 >>20733426 Lucky

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 17:09:35 2022 No.20733621 >>20733563 What else am I to do? I've done something terrible. I shouldn't, I mustn't know peace. Of course I know that doesn't help anyone. But until someone actually gets revenge, what is there to do?

Anonymous Mon Jul 25 17:13:25 2022 No.20733646

>>20733616
if you don't agree that it was the 'anti-social' nature of the interaction that opened her up so quickly, you're an idiot. i once had a women buy me a drink after i grabbed her simpy friends hand and brought him to his knees to bring him eye to eye while i was sitting on a couch.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 17:13:35 2022 No.20733648 >>20733426 0 years old and you have everything

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 17:16:33 2022 No.20733660 >>20733621 Forgive and move on. This kind of obsessive drama bullshit is what probably lead to you harming someone in the first place.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 17:18:42 2022 No.20733674 >>20733611 That's proven tactic.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 17:19:00 2022 No.20733676 File: 9 KB, 207x215, eeeek.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] The cute cashier with curly hair in a ponytail at 7-11 touched my hand as she handed me my change. Maybe everything will be okay.

Anonymous Mon Jul 25 17:22:05 2022 No.20733688

tips for accepting your homosexuality?

>just be yourself bro, its 2022, nobody really cares anymore

thats the thing. i hate myself. i hate the modern state of the world. i hate how i am in a way, a part of the problem. and i hate how these feelings i have wont go fucking away and women do absolutely nothing for me. was it really all in the water supply? what went horribly horribly wrong

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 17:22:58 2022 No.20733694 >>20733688 just be in the closet.

Anonymous Mon Jul 25 17:25:41 2022 No.20733702

>>20733688
Mean and noble men alike have given themselves to hedonistic abandon and been better for it. In the best of times, most lives aren't too good for it; in decadent times, what better could there be?
Live, anon. Revel. We may be all on our way down, but we deserve some last few laughs.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 17:27:13 2022 No.20733708 >>20733674 For kidnappings and abusers. You’re a degenerate

Anonymous Mon Jul 25 17:29:47 2022 No.20733714

>>20733688
Romanticize everything including wrestling with your flaws, the story wouldn't be interesting if everything went how the protagonist wants. Don't make it the main narrative, a story about a gay guy that does nothing except be angsty about his faggotry is not a good story. You'll be bored soon.

Anonymous Mon Jul 25 17:33:16 2022 No.20733734

Here's the story of every white girl who's ever been molested or "raped" as a teenager:
>Be 13-17 years old girl
>40-something guy approaches you
>You don't really like the guy, he's clearly married, he's not good looking, isn't exactly rich, and you would very much be with someone else, but you appreciate the attention. You're insecure and miserable about your looks, so you don't really mind having male admirers
>Guy gets girl gifts, takes her out, girl is to timid and agreeable to say no and just goes along with everything (plus the gifts are nice, they certainly don't hurt)
>Guy eventually corners the girl in a car or apartment or something, and again, like 98% of women, the girl is just too agreeable to resist, so he just has his way with her
>Girl now gets attached to guy even though he's not really the type girls like to get attached to
>Guy is obviously a douche, ghosts her, treats her like shit, then comes back out of the blue whenever he feels horny
>Things go on like that until they reach a breaking point or someone intervenes or whatever. Some years later the girl goes to therapy and gets told she was raped instead of just being in a shitty relationship resulting from the way our societies have ditched traditional modes of courtship (having your parents vet your husband to be was exactly meant to avoid having you go through something like that)
>Rinse and repeat ad infinitum
And that's it. Thanks for reading my blog. The douchery men get away with inflicting upon women is absolutely bonkers, and "chads" all instinctively know this, that girls are just too insecure and too agreeable to set boundaries or say no. Let me know what tou think in the comments below.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 17:37:58 2022 No.20733748 >>20733688 I think homosexuals have simply been given a cross to bear. Your task is to bear it. Live properly despite your affliction. That’s what I think.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 17:37:59 2022 No.20733749 >>20733446 What exactly do you want to know?

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 17:47:35 2022 No.20733802 File: 57 KB, 976x850, pepe.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I have to celebrate you baby I have to praise you like I should

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 18:03:49 2022 No.20733901 >>20733676 It's somehow likely that she was grossed out by the accidental physical interaction.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 18:05:56 2022 No.20733916 File: 2.78 MB, 250x350, shelly.gif [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Friendly reminder to filter and hide all tripfags.

>>	the xi jinping of weed smoking !!oqyjkIO5smI Mon Jul 25 18:09:49 2022 No.20733930 ^^^^^^^^^^ this guy does NOT smoke weed ^^^^^^^^^^

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 18:11:52 2022 No.20733943 >>20733734 I am a complete Virginia and have no first ha dexpwrienxe with any of this, but fuck it, I could see it.

>>	rape connoisseur Mon Jul 25 18:14:35 2022 No.20733955 >>20733415 i'm, like, the Marcel Duchamp of rape

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 18:21:00 2022 No.20733977 I fucked up

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 18:22:02 2022 No.20733982 >>20733488 >>20733577 >>20733611 >>20733688 >>20733955 >>20733977 checked

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 18:22:58 2022 No.20733983 I’m really troubled by how much more I get lost in games or manga than in books or even movies. I can’t stop thinking about it.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 18:24:40 2022 No.20733990 >>20733688 Stop watching porn you dumb coomer. How the fuck do you let porn turn you into a degenerate goblin even while being conscious of that fact. You should start eating shit so people will know to stay away from you.

Anonymous Mon Jul 25 18:27:19 2022 No.20733993

>>20733426
It's a more common fate than you might imagine . Millennials are the brokest generation apparently since the great depression. And even those who lived through the great depression got through it , fought a war, and then reaped the benefits of the post-war boom.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 18:30:12 2022 No.20734012 >>20733993 I cant even afford mortgage and it doesnt seem like its going to be possible in the future.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 18:33:39 2022 No.20734023 >>20733802 Days go by and still I think of you Days when I couldn't live my life without you Lol lmao lml

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 18:35:25 2022 No.20734028 I want God to smite me. I hope hell is real so that I burn forever.

Anonymous Mon Jul 25 18:36:10 2022 No.20734032

>>20733688
As a homo myself I can offer you some advice. You can have a good life. Being gay in the current year has its advantages and disadvantages depending on your circumstances. Gay couples are happier than straight couples, if you can manage to find a relationship. They are inherently more compatible. Men and women are practically different species. You can also get laid more easily if gay, even if gay hookup culture is generally unhealthy and psychologically damaging in the long run.
> a part of the problem
You yourself are not part of the problem, but the "gay community" and "gay culture" with I loathe is an embarrassment and disgusting. I'm not self-loathing but I am certainly "other-loathing" in that I hold gay culture in contempt. (Although I like some individual gays.) You don't have to be involved with gay culture or participate in its "community". History is full of based gays who had integrity and principles.

The way to accept your homosexuality is simple. It is the only way to become psychologically whole and to escape the torment of repression. Eventually your psyche will get to a point where you are offered a binary choice: accept it and find some relief and hope , or continue to reject and deny it and live a double life, suffering from needless shame and guilt and self-loathing.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 18:36:51 2022 No.20734036 women suck dick women lick cum women eat feces women are shit

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 18:37:11 2022 No.20734039 >>20734012 Again, that's true of most millennials. We're screwed and it's not our fault.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 18:38:13 2022 No.20734040 I'm tired of my life

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 18:53:58 2022 No.20734109 I thought 9/11 was pretty cool which is representative of the nihilistic hopelessness that I think was even more common then than now. Hang on and listen to 80s neoplatonist witch-rock. https://youtu.be/o7dJ3a-U6WQ

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 18:55:03 2022 No.20734114 >>20734032 There are gays who hate lgbtiqa2s+?

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 18:58:02 2022 No.20734131 >>20734114 You'd have to be a gay retard not to be a self-hating gay.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 18:59:13 2022 No.20734134 Should I read Rhythms of War by Sanderson or Abbadon's gate by Corey next? I'm gonna do both eventually but help me decide.

Anonymous Mon Jul 25 18:59:38 2022 No.20734136

>>20734032
i thank you for your earnest, helpful reponse. it really sounds like you've been there, done that, at least from my point of view. if i could trouble you with one more question from your last tip, but where did you meet your partner or where would you say is a good place to meet a suitable partner that shares a similar sentiment to how you feel about the "gay community", because i feel the exact same way

i ask this because i did at one point try to accept who i was and googled a gay bar in my area. i just didn't feel like i fit in, at all, i tried not to judge but i felt disgusted being there and disgusted at what i was doing. most of all i was disgusted at the person i almost spent the night with before i politely declined.

i was talking to a friend about this, and she told me i could just be one of those "conservative gays", whatever the hell that means. i just don't know what to do, other than yeah, maybe stay in the closet or bear the cross for life like that one anon said. but that line of thought saddens me to no end and this kind of confusion and anxiety has really seeped into my work performance to where i need to figure something out. im just losing it.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 18:59:40 2022 No.20734137 >>20733916 Based. But I enjoy bullying them as well.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 19:00:32 2022 No.20734142 >>20733916 Thank you friend, I will.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 19:01:45 2022 No.20734150 >>20733415 The jews did this. All of this. We need some kind of final solution.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 19:02:48 2022 No.20734152 >>20734114 >lgbtiqa2s+ I thought you merely typed random letters and symbols but I verified and it's actually a real term. I am both amazed and disgusted.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 19:04:21 2022 No.20734156 >>20734137 you shouldn't interact with them in any way, even for (merited) bullying. every (You) they receive only encourages them in their degeneracy.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 19:05:19 2022 No.20734163 >>20734136 >"conservative gays" It means being gay without being a fag about it. If all guys were like this no one would care. That's why they're not.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 19:06:20 2022 No.20734170 >>20734163 Gays*

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 19:08:31 2022 No.20734181 >>20733415 I have nothing on my mind

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 19:12:36 2022 No.20734194 >>20734181 I lied. I want to make my video game series, so I think a lot about that, but am incompetent.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 19:12:36 2022 No.20734192 >permaculture How do I build a machine that makes plants grow everywhere and stuff? I'm lazy, I can provide it with water and stuff but I don't want to do the day to day stuff. Stuff? Any stuffers?

>>	the xi jinping of weed smoking !!oqyjkIO5smI Mon Jul 25 19:12:52 2022 No.20734195 so like, what do you guys read?

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 19:14:18 2022 No.20734205 >>20734192 basic hydroponics setup i guess

Anonymous Mon Jul 25 19:24:19 2022 No.20734249

>>20734205
I'm thinking more about building up biomass in areas with little of it. I've been thinking of ways to automate production and distribution of compost on a scale I can afford. It also generates heat which can power some of the process or charge a heat battery.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 19:28:18 2022 No.20734270 >>20734249 compost production in very large (and on any scale too, domestic to small farm size) quantities is already done quite efficiently, you would not be able to ameliorate the process. you should focus on other issues.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 19:29:14 2022 No.20734280 time passes, it goes fast, I'm still paralysed by anxiety I need to act, I don't know what to do, my mind has only doubts

Anonymous Mon Jul 25 19:29:43 2022 No.20734283

>>20734163
oh, i guess that term makes sense and would describe me. im too old for this. for context i'm divorced with a child and this is all hitting me like a truck as i sit here day drinking and wallowing in my misery. when did this all get so complicated?

it eats me up you know. it really does. it absolutely tears me inside that even if i were to accept myself as a modern gay man, there may come a time i would have to have a sit down with my kid and talk about "daddy's special friend." christ, that's going to be me. God help me if i'm asked what exactly does this all mean to someone so young and innocent. i was always one for thinking kids shouldn't be exposed to this kind of stuff, it's not right.

and now here i am, middle aged. wife left me when i caught her seeing another man. i asked why, said i wasn't paying enough attention to her, like i wasn't attracted or made any effort. and i tried sometimes you know, to be romantic, i spent so much money, but you know what? she's right, i was never attracted. because i only did what i thought i was supposed to do as a young man and doing what i thought maintained a stable socieity: a focus on family. now she tells me i've robbed decades of her life even though i told her for the sake of the child, im okay with it, but she told me i am just too pathetic to be with anymore. it's all too much and i feel so alone.

what the hell was anyone supposed to do in my shoes with the information they had growing up? i know for certain it wasnt to see a young man at a gay bar who very clearly had daddy issues. this world makes no sense anymore.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 19:29:45 2022 No.20734284 What did you think of Noelle Parker's performance in the movie Ernest Saves Christmas? https://youtu.be/7Imxq9ifOM0?t=195

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 19:30:01 2022 No.20734285 >>20734270 It's not about doing it more efficiently but doing it in a way that I can do locally and be lazy about.

Anonymous Mon Jul 25 19:31:06 2022 No.20734293
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>>20733676
Based. Reminded me of when I was the cashier and a cute and overly hyperactive girl with soft hands paid by grabbing my hands, putting the money in my palm and then she physically closed my hand around the cash and cupped her hands around mine. She then proceeded to talk very energetically at me for the next twenty seconds while still clasping my hands, excitedly gesticulating with both of our hands as she spoke, tenderly squeezing and affectionately rubbing my hands with her thumbs. No joke. At one point we even interlocked fingers. Twenty fucking seconds. I was utterly speechless. I didn't process much of what she said beyond her complimenting me on the size of my hands, I was too flabbergasted by her sheer boldness and how surreal the situation was. She then just walked out and I never saw her again. I don't even think she was trying to be intimate, it felt like I was a cat or some shit

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 19:31:17 2022 No.20734295 >>20734283 >i'm divorced with a child wait, did you realize about being gay when being in marriage or were you in the closet the whole time?

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 19:31:33 2022 No.20734296 >>20734285 But for what purpose? As a side business for making money? If so and if you priority is laziness and not doing anything, nothing will ever work out, even for a side thing.

Anonymous Mon Jul 25 19:33:15 2022 No.20734303

If I had super powers I would absolutely have used it on anyone who ever bullied me. As a kid I never stood up for myself because I didn't want to get in trouble with the school or my dad and I knew attempting to fight back would only make it worse. If I had super strength or whatever, any I would've left anyone who ever messed with me a weeping mess shitting on the floor and I would've loved it.

Anonymous Mon Jul 25 19:34:31 2022 No.20734313

>>20734114
It's funny, the worst homophobia I have received is from the "gay community"

>f i could trouble you with one more question from your last tip, but where did you meet your partner or where would you say is a good place to meet a suitable partner
Well, I wish I could answer the first part of that question. I'm permanently single ;_; . But this is mostly because of my autism and personal issues even though finding relationships as a gay is generally more challenging.

As for finding a partner, I wish I could tell you lol. Gays use the apps way more than straights because it eliminates the guess work of trying to find out who is gay. It also lets you escape having to get involved with the community.

>i was talking to a friend about this, and she told me i could just be one of those "conservative gays", whatever the hell that means.
See this is the problem about gay culture which is that it encourages you to view everything about yourself in terms of your sexuality. (Racism does this with black people too.) So you aren't a conservative gay, you're a conservative person who happens to be gay.

The way forward for you is to stop giving your sexuality such decisive importance in defining your identity. The poison of modern culture encourages this, but it must be resisted. Your identity is determined by your values, principles, and deepest self, not by what gets you hard.
The best you can do is strive to put your sexuality in its place and not let it define you. Easier said than done because society will keep wanting to emphasize the fact that you are gay and put it on display but who cares

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 19:35:32 2022 No.20734320 >>20734313 Oops the majority of this post was directed at >>20734136

Anonymous Mon Jul 25 19:36:19 2022 No.20734327

>>20734296
>As a side business for making money?
No the goal is stated in the first post. Make plants and stuff.
I can imagine a manual process where I start small and the plant matter the small plot produces provides soil for the surroundings to grow the plot but it's too muchwork. There are no expensive materials needed, just work and water. If I can reduce the labor enough it starts becoming worth doing.

Anonymous Mon Jul 25 19:37:47 2022 No.20734335

>>20734313
>deepest self
Also this is why you must keep the gay community at some distance. For those who are deeply involved in it, they have cursed themselves with thinking their sexuality IS their identity. "Sexual identity" is garbage nonsense. As such, they have nothing in common other than who they like to fuck, and all they have to do is fuck and have sexualized interactions. As a result it's a very vacuous, soulless, and depressing lifestyle that reduces you solely to your appearance and desirability.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 19:39:47 2022 No.20734345 >>20734313 >The way forward for you is to stop giving your sexuality such decisive importance in defining your identity. Based fag.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 19:44:18 2022 No.20734369 >>20733415 I'm 30 years old and I have nothing.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 19:51:40 2022 No.20734415 im not just another anon on this website im a human being!!!

Anonymous Mon Jul 25 19:55:56 2022 No.20734440
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I feel trapped in a prison of my own design. I know that I've put myself in this situation, but I cannot for the life of me get out of it. I am fucking up my life and my three therapists have basically lost hope in me, because they keep saying I have to do this and do that, but I can't get myself to do pretty much anything. I feel like time is running out for me, yet I cannot get out of this depressed state that I've been in for many years now. Tomorrow my psychiatrist will call me about this medication called moclobemide that he wants to put me on. I pray to God that it will make me feel better and give me some energy to socialize and get a job. I have written a letter to my estranged family, but I do not have the heart to send it. I don't even know what I'd do if they contacted me in response. I feel so alone, yet I don't want to be around anyone, because I don't have the energy to pretend like I function anymore. Sometimes I feel like I'm just irreparably broken, messed up in the brain partly as a result of my childhood and the many years of depression, addiction and social isolation that followed. Maybe it has altered my brain chemistry or something. Sometimes I feel like I'm just one of those people of whom they'll say "It's a shame, he had so much potential."

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 19:56:30 2022 No.20734442 >>20734369 Somebody reposted my post.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 19:59:19 2022 No.20734463 File: 61 KB, 570x712, oswald_spengler_cultural_pessimism.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Why write?

Anonymous Mon Jul 25 20:01:11 2022 No.20734478

I have awful memory, most likely due to a childhood head injury. It's so bad that I have trouble recalling the basic plot of books that I read only a year ago.
I've always wanted to gradually build up my knowledge of both fiction and philosophy, but the whole thing stands on shaky grounds. Intertextuality is lost on me and what's worse, I can't discuss all the books I've read like other people can.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 20:01:33 2022 No.20734480 >>20734463 That's like asking why white people climb mountains

Anonymous Mon Jul 25 20:05:24 2022 No.20734497

>>20734295
looking back you could say i was gay the whole time, sure, i mean i always had a special admiration towards other men and felt a much deeper connection with them than with any women, moreso than even with my wife at the time. its not that she was unattractive either, she always had her options, but at the time i did what i believed would be in the best interest of the family name, my parents, and of course my future children. i simply never explored my interest in other men because well, i saw that as a childish, short sighted thing, and culturally that's how it is seen in my background.

it's funny, i never told my wife this but i did kiss a boy once when i was younger, and frankly looking back i enjoyed that moment more than all the time i spent with her. still, i love the child we created together more than anything in the world and thats really what gnaws deep inside me, is that i'm supposed to be the role model. god knows its not my ex.

Anonymous Mon Jul 25 20:05:43 2022 No.20734499

>>20734478
Same here, it's so bad that when people ask me "What do you read?" I legit don't remember, even though I read many books. It's the same with birthdays. I have my parents' and friends' birthdays in my phone notes, because otherwise I'd forget them. Kinda feels like groundhog day, because I pretty much forget everything as soon as it's the day after.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 20:12:10 2022 No.20734535 >>20734499 Have you thought about writing a reading journal? I've never done it because I'm lazy, but I imagine that it might help.

Anonymous Mon Jul 25 20:19:37 2022 No.20734580

>>20734497
>i always had a special admiration towards other men and felt a much deeper connection with them than with any women
I feel the very same but I dont really see myself as a gay (not anymore) but as a very sexually repressed guy. Me being gay in a closet would explain a lot and especially being a wizard but when I think about I never had a male crush or any desire for homoerotic experience.

Anonymous Mon Jul 25 20:20:24 2022 No.20734585

>>20734313
well i still appreciate all of your advice and insight and hope you find the one too. this is all really eye opening to me, and i think you really did a good job capturing what i've been thinking for a long time about how people mix identity and sexuality, i think i will use that

i guess i have no choice but to use these apps then. the young man i talked to at the gay bar mentioned that too, about how he had a no show that night with the app but its okay because he tried to flatter me how he found someone better at the bar while mentioning prior that he does this every weekend. do these people have no sense of shame or commitment? poor kid, i think he needed a sense of direction in life since i asked him what he did for a living and it sounded like he was unemployed. i then started rambling about how to be self-employed and starting a business before he got too forward and i left.

i was clearly out of my element being ther, i don't know how those people live like that or what their parents must think

anyway i am going to keep trying the app he mentioned and keep what you've told me in mind. i don't really feel like i have a choice, but i have to do something. i can't think straight or make executive decisions like this

please take care of yourself anon, i am just glad that i had someone hear me out for once and i get my say, and that i am not alone. that knowledge is enough hope for me for know, maybe i can figure the rest later. be safe

Anonymous Mon Jul 25 20:22:05 2022 No.20734595

I grew up in a poor and isolated alien village on the moon. To me filtering the gold out of trash like satellite TV became an art and access to books was an opportunity I exploited fully whenever available. I rarely remember sources, thinking too much in terms of separate statements by different sources would conceptually isolate the ideas but I want to integrate them into my worldview.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 20:22:51 2022 No.20734598 >>20734480 No. I'm not seeing that.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 20:26:29 2022 No.20734611 Should I moisturize my penis and scrotum daily?

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 20:52:11 2022 No.20734781 >>20734585 :) I'm glad I could help ease your suffering somewhat. You're dealing with a solvable problem. You just need a fresh perspective. Good luck out there.

Anonymous Mon Jul 25 20:59:54 2022 No.20734831
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Planning on making a long post/video about working a trade compared to working in an office.
If you are planning on going into a trade or are just curious, reply with what you would like to know.
Made the switch 2 years ago myself.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 21:03:40 2022 No.20734841 >>20734831 Is it fulfilling. How is the pay. How is your status.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 21:04:03 2022 No.20734843 >>20734831 What was your office and tradie position? What are the main differences?

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 21:11:51 2022 No.20734870 >>20733415 It surprises me how much people seethe whenever they get ban for their off-topic bullshit.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 21:13:38 2022 No.20734885 >>20734870 Everything surprises you because you don't understand anything.

Anonymous Mon Jul 25 21:21:49 2022 No.20734928

>>20734831
How you feel after work. I have a remote office job, which really is not very demanding at all time wise but somehow 5 pm rolls around and I’m mentally tired. I really do feel like the job is somehow mentally emotionally even spiritually draining. I’ve thought about leaving but I’ve never worked a trade. I haven’t had a manual labor job since I was 18.

Anonymous Mon Jul 25 21:38:49 2022 No.20734992
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>reading carlyle's Heroes and Hero Worship
>"I liken common languid Times, with their unbelief, distress, perplexity, with their languid doubting characters and embarrassed circumstances, impotently crumbling down into evr worse distress towards final ruin; all this I liken to dry dead fuel, waiting for the lightning out of Heaven that shall kindle it. The great man, with his free force direct out of God's own hand, is the lightning. His word is the wise healing word which all can believe in. All blazes round him now, when he has once struck on it, into fire like his own. The dry mouldering sticks are thought to have called him forth."
>start thinking, this really is weimar isn't it
>something is about to happen isn't it
>check 4chan absentmindedly
>pic related
Carlson isn't the Great Man, but there are a surprising amount of Carlsons out there preparing the way for him

Anonymous Mon Jul 25 21:40:03 2022 No.20734996
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>>20734992

“Two ideas are opposed — not concepts or abstractions, but Ideas which were in the blood of men before they were formulated by the minds of men. The Resurgence of Authority stands opposed to the Rule of Money; Order to Social Chaos, Hierarchy to Equality, socio-economico-political Stability to constant Flux; glad assumption of Duties to whining for Rights; Socialism to Capitalism, ethically, economically, politically; the Rebirth of Religion to Materialism; Fertility to Sterility; the spirit of Heroism to the spirit of Trade; the principle of Responsibility to Parliamentarism; the idea of Polarity of Man and Woman to Feminism; the idea of the individual task to the ideal of ‘happiness’; Discipline to Propaganda-compulsion; the higher unities of family, society, State to social atomism; Marriage to the Communistic ideal of free love; economic self-sufficiency to senseless trade as an end in itself; the inner imperative to Rationalism.”
“The soil of Europe, rendered sacred by the streams of blood which have made it spiritually fertile for a millennium, will once again stream with blood until the barbarians and distorters have been driven out and the Western banner waves on its home soil from Gibraltar to North Cape, from the rocky promontories of Galway to the Urals.”
>Yockey

“The coming of Caesarism breaks the dictature of money and its political weapon, democracy. After a long triumph of world-city economy and its interests over political creative force, the political side of life manifests itself after all as the stronger of the two. The sword is victorious over the money, the master-will subdues again the plunderer-will. If we call these money-powers 'Capitalism,' then we may designate as Socialism the will to call into life a mighty politico-economic order that transcends all class interests, a system of lofty thoughtfulness and duty-sense that keeps the whole in fine condition for the decisive battle of its history, and this battle is also the battle of money and law. The private powers of the economy want free paths for their acquisition of great resources. No legislation must stand in their way. They want to make the laws themselves, in their interests, and to that end they make use of the tool they have made for themselves, democracy, the subsidized party. Law needs, in order to resist this onslaught, a high tradition and an ambition of strong families that finds its satisfaction not in the heaping-up of riches, but in the tasks of true rulership, above and beyond all money-advantage. A power can be overthrown only by another power, not by a principle, and no power that can confront money is left but this one. Money is overthrown and abolished only by blood.
>Spengler

Anonymous Mon Jul 25 21:47:39 2022 No.20735021
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>>20734535
I've never done it either for the same reason lol. Might be something to try honestly to force myself to really engage with the subject matter.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 21:50:17 2022 No.20735029 >>20734440 same

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 22:08:47 2022 No.20735092 I'm stuck

Anonymous Mon Jul 25 22:18:17 2022 No.20735140

Recently discovered Harold Lamb. The guy was a historian fluent in Latin and French, with some knowledge of Russian, Turkish, Arabic, and whatever they speak in central Asia. He worked for the OSS in Iran during WW2, and became very good friends with the Shah. He published a large number of stories for pulp magazines, in addition to writing acclaimed biographies of Genghis Khan, Peter the Great, Ivan the Terrible, Alexander the Great, and Timurlane. I often come across such widely accomplished figures from the early 20th century, and I just wonder if such types exist anymore. My guess is that they do, it's just they're all in tech.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 22:26:55 2022 No.20735178 life's a journey to find everything you can live without

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 22:35:19 2022 No.20735216 I need an internship, desperately so

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 22:43:07 2022 No.20735245 >>20734870 People don't like getting punish, also, /lit/ is improving.

Anonymous Mon Jul 25 22:46:00 2022 No.20735267

I was walking to the store today and this 8/10 gilf was doing some yard work(picking some random shit out of her lawn) and she looked at me got up, then turned away and bent over completely opposite to where I am and points her ass all the way up and starts picking weeds.
Wtf bros? I am hard thinking about it now.

Anonymous Mon Jul 25 22:56:35 2022 No.20735317

>I’m 30 and have nothing. I’m stuuuck. Send heeewp!

>“One other thing I know is that eventually you have to come to be part of a place—part of its hills and streets and waters and people—or you will live a very, very sorry life as an exile forever. Discovering meaning for yourself, as well as discovering satisfying purpose for yourself, is a big part of what education is”

—Dumbing Us Down, John Taylor Gatto

Anonymous Mon Jul 25 23:00:07 2022 No.20735335

La illaha il Allah
Wahdahu, la sharika lah
Lahu al Mulk, wa lahu al Hamd
Wa huwa 'alaa kulli shay'in Qadeeran

There is no god but God
Unique, Singular, Apart, without companion, without need or shortcoming
His is the Kingship
Unto Him is all praise due
And He alone determines in every affair its measure*

*afaik "qadar" is usually translated to pertain to all-power of determination. However I am sure I've heard a shaykh mention that it pertains to determining somethings measure, and I personally find this a very helpful way of thinking of His dominion, that His mercy is in the measure of all things and all things are of their intended amount.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 23:05:24 2022 No.20735357 I think I would’ve liked to have drawn manga.

>>	the xi jinping of weed smoking !!oqyjkIO5smI Mon Jul 25 23:05:54 2022 No.20735362 so how was everyone's day?

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 23:06:43 2022 No.20735368 If you’re in your early or mid twenties thinking about quitting to dedicate yourself to something creative, just do it. You might regret it if you doD but you will regret it if you don’t.

Anonymous Mon Jul 25 23:29:12 2022 No.20735464

How does a person kill their libido? I already don't care about sex, so the urge is as annoying and fulfilling as needing to piss. I hate wanting to jerk off, and I hate doing it even more. There has to be like, a vitamin, I can take, right? Can I chew sage leaves or something?

Anonymous Mon Jul 25 23:29:30 2022 No.20735466

>>20735368
The world could do with fewer mediocre artists, of whom it's filled to the absolute brim. Unless you absolutely know yourself to be in the tiny 0.00001% minority of people endowed with genuine creative genius, don't dedicate your life to artistic pursuits. There's nothing wrong with leading an ordinary life.

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 23:31:01 2022 No.20735469 >>20735464 Try finasteride for a while and tell us how it goes

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 23:33:16 2022 No.20735475 >>20735368 You don't need to quit though

>>	Anonymous Mon Jul 25 23:57:27 2022 No.20735581 >>20735464 >already don't care about sex, >has libido >I HATE IT Just stop. You would stop if you actually hated it. It fades with age. Abstain for the most part, but let it happen on occasion till you’re an old codger, (or you start a family).

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 00:01:05 2022 No.20735601 this site has gotten really bad, i don't think i can continue reading this shit.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 00:05:11 2022 No.20735630 >>20735601 It gets worse because the quality posters leave first.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 00:07:13 2022 No.20735643 File: 290 KB, 1280x688, 96B9CD7B-D826-4FC8-99E0-75CF76550F54.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>20735362 Teetering

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 00:07:31 2022 No.20735646

Alien life will likely be irrational and harmful to humans. Our data from Earth's life show that the most common lifeforms are irrational, not self-aware. Do you not think the ants who create bridges to traverse water could not evolve to create spacecraft to traverse space? I don't see why human sentience is necessary for spacecraft when it's unnecessary for bridges.

>>	the xi jinping of weed smoking !!oqyjkIO5smI Tue Jul 26 00:18:29 2022 No.20735685 the despicable amoral things I would do for a can of ginger ale right now

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 00:18:29 2022 No.20735684 >>20733514 What did you do? And if you truly loved her, why did you do it?

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 00:19:06 2022 No.20735688

>>20733426
Turning 32 next month and I'm nearly the same. I don't have much drive either, as I've come to the comfortable numbness of understanding just how knackered we are as a species and the ultimate pointlessness that is existence. I understand that some people don't care and make their own purpose but I can't. I'm on medication and I'm ok with it. I don't really want material things beyond my hobbies that cost money which I pay for by my extremely part time job.

I was never kicked out of my parent's house, and they weren't kicked out of my grandparent's house. Maybe this has stunted me in some way, but at the same time I still see my peers struggling or just not where they want to be because of financial obligations that I simply don't have. I don't even understand why someone would want to piss away rent money, though I do understand why someone would want to have their own home. Luckily, I get the one I live in now. My girlfriend is perfectly ok with it too, which was a bit of a shock when everything was said and done but I was very upfront with it. She even understands my mental problems, which for some reason was also shocking.

See, this is the problem that others have told me I have. I live a comfortable life. I don't really stress over anything except, admittedly, stupid shit. My friends when I was younger wanted me to move out. They even offered to help me. I said I didn't see the point. They said I'd never mature, as if paying money equals maturity. I have responsibilities that I deal with but I also don't have a lot of unnecessary bullshit going on. The friend(s) I have now don't even care since I've acquired them through my hobbies. Maybe they look down on me. Maybe they don't care either. It doesn't really matter.

I just want to read books and think, for God's sake. That's what's on my mind now.

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 00:21:41 2022 No.20735699

I wanna thank the random /lit/ anon that linked https://easypeasymethod.org/ randomly a while ago when I chanced upon it. I've gone a month without looking at porn, something I've not done/been able to do since I started watching it 14 years ago. Even when I started thinking its effects were insidious rather than harmless, I still kept watching it. Anyway, it let me look at the compulsion to view pornography in a different way, and I definitely think it stunted me in some ways, and will stunt a lot of kids views and development in the coming years unless something changes (including the way they use the internet in general).

All I need to do now is stop coming here, which shouldn't be too hard since I've started coming on here less frequently anyway.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 00:29:39 2022 No.20735721 I have no social life anymore, no friends, no girlfriend. I’m awkward as hell. Things changed after about 25 but I really thought I’d have figured it out by 30.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 00:32:52 2022 No.20735737 >>20733426 What would you have? A house? Some money? Is that it?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 00:33:10 2022 No.20735739 >>20734463 sex gifs

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 00:36:55 2022 No.20735754 >>20735688 jesus christ, are you me?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 00:40:50 2022 No.20735767 >>20735688 jesus christ, are you me? i don't live at home, but i am on benefits. the only thing that really bothers me is the feeling that i'm a bad person for not feeling worse

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 00:42:18 2022 No.20735773

I have a used van and the suit I wear to weddings is from 1998. I could buy multiple lambos in cash tomorrow. The only person I know that gets half of what I talk about happens to be schizophrenic. It does occur to me that this is a clue I'm simply fucked in the head but when I apply my ideas it works out so I can't be completely delusional. The person that gets the other half of what I talk about is like the opposite of a schizo, completely formal thinker, now a high level programmer at some globohomo corporation.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 00:47:49 2022 No.20735787 >>20735362 shit

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 00:50:09 2022 No.20735796 Wife filed for divorce today because she caught me with the teenage babysitter who lives next door. There is definitely a silver lining though and bright times lie ahead

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 00:58:15 2022 No.20735827 almost all trance tracks sound the same

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 01:02:07 2022 No.20735842

>>20735796 Last time you posted about this I said that I hope your wife leaves you and takes your kid with her. Looks like I got half of my wish. I hope you lose custody, you despicable perverted degenerate. I hope the poor teenager you’ve been grooming has enough common sense and outside support to get away from you.

>>	the xi jinping of weed smoking !!oqyjkIO5smI Tue Jul 26 01:02:32 2022 No.20735843 >>20735827 not such a horrible thing https://youtu.be/HqoZTsSxqLQ

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 01:08:00 2022 No.20735858 i had chest pains the other night and i thought i was going to die. all i could think was "ive taken a good life and made it bad"

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 01:08:49 2022 No.20735862 >>20733514 lesbian? you sound like you have a VAGINA AHAHAHAH

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 01:08:57 2022 No.20735865

>>20734293
Maybe she was on drugs.

Not related but I really like this picture. It almost makes me wish I had a family. Imagine waking up and going in the kitchen for some coffee and the family cat is chilling at the table. It's so peaceful. This will never be my life. fug

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 01:10:20 2022 No.20735877 >>20734463 They're minerals.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 01:16:03 2022 No.20735914 Your honor, I confess. I confess to all of it, every single instance, uncontested. Let the whole court hear me when I say: I plead guilty... of being innocent! pepe_wearing_a_tuxedo_and_dabbing.gif

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 01:18:03 2022 No.20735925 AND OF COURSE IT DON'T MIIIIIIIIIND CHASING A BEE INSIDE A JAR

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 01:20:06 2022 No.20735938

>>20735842
Nah. The wife was a bitch and the girl still wants to see me and does sometimes. Her dad tried getting in my face and getting tough with me but his wife calmed him down. Good thing too because I would have told him she blew me after a Fourth of July party a few years back

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 01:21:48 2022 No.20735949

>>20734283
This is why representation is unironically important for people to see. You can be gay and still be a productive member of society. I think I read a study that gay men add property value to a city or something because they tend to have good jobs and take care of things.

Even if you weren't gay, marriages failing is something heteros do all the time. Don't feel too bad about it. Like everyone else, you were told the world is a certain way and did your best to meet those expectations. A lot of what they tell us ends up being bullshit and we have to figure out the truth for ourselves.

You don't have to tell your kid about your new relationships. It's better not to introduce another person unless you're very serious and they're here to stay. As long as you love that person and it's a healthy union there's no shame in your relationship. Your kid might resent you a little in the future because it's going to look like you broke up the family on purpose but just assure them that you love them and nothing is going to change that. You just had your own circumstances and will move forward the best he can.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 01:22:01 2022 No.20735950 >>20735796 >>20735842 Holy based

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 01:26:24 2022 No.20735980
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>writing a comically disastrous thesis, literal monkey business
>a cokehead that owes me a thousand developing a taste for eastern european hookers
>brother on some flavour of psychotic episode deciding to go homeless
Makes me appreciate the monkeys

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 01:32:09 2022 No.20736007 I don’t want friends or romance, I just want to be able to participate in conversation

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 01:32:13 2022 No.20736008 >>20735980 At least monkeys know who they are

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 01:32:26 2022 No.20736010 do I change the subject of my undergraduate thesis? evens yes, odds no

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 01:33:27 2022 No.20736018 >>20736010 evens angle control odds some study on temperature and angle

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 01:34:33 2022 No.20736028 >>20736010 >>20736018 Bruh this is the most retarded way to make decisions unless you just don’t actually care about what you’re studying

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 01:41:26 2022 No.20736062 >>20736028 Flipping a coin is actually less retarded than cognition

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 01:43:29 2022 No.20736068 >two annoying flies in my kitchen won't go away >finally decide to go and get some flypaper >hang it up in the kitchen and go to sleep >next morning there are 30+ dead flies on it What the FUCK. I have to stop leaving dishes in the sink.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 01:43:56 2022 No.20736069 >>20735950 Which one?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 01:51:42 2022 No.20736092 File: 247 KB, 449x478, 1656090607496.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] It's hilarious to see how beyond dead my libido is now after being such a coomer until a few years ago. Very relieving too.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 02:00:09 2022 No.20736132 >>20734150 Like throwing them a great big party!

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 02:02:49 2022 No.20736145 >>20736132 we'll call it the Nice Semites Deserve Ample Praise party

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 02:03:44 2022 No.20736149 >>20735843 What happened to only engaging people who reply to you, you dishonest faggot?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 02:05:20 2022 No.20736156 >>20736092 >He said on his favourite porno site

>>	the xi jinping of weed smoking !!oqyjkIO5smI Tue Jul 26 02:08:42 2022 No.20736169 File: 42 KB, 573x258, la notte.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] so what are some movies you guys enjoy? gonna smoke some dope later, need ideas https://youtu.be/S0vMlSDqf8k

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 02:10:13 2022 No.20736178 >>20736092 Mine came roaring back in my 30s.

>>	the xi jinping of weed smoking !!oqyjkIO5smI Tue Jul 26 02:10:37 2022 No.20736179 >>20736149 idk been in a different mindset lately. been craving more conversations with anons sorry

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 02:20:50 2022 No.20736221 Been tired of my wife lately. I'm finally going to go through with my plan of gaslighting her into smoking meth and then calling CPS on her so I can have full custody of the kids.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 02:22:24 2022 No.20736230 >>20736169 Marchello reminds me of my love of Nights of Cabiria.

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 02:25:42 2022 No.20736235

i just woke up from this horrible dream in which my daughter and i (i don't have a daughter; i'm in my early twenties) were being hunted by an angry mob. i was desperately trying to get away from the crowd of people.
someone should analyze my psyche like carl jung would

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 02:36:04 2022 No.20736271 >>20736235 it wasnt your daughter and its the woman you love

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 02:37:27 2022 No.20736277 >>20736235 I think those kinds of dreams are not that uncommon. My ex once told me she had a dream about her son dying. Well, I had a dream about my son dying in war a couple weeks before that. Obviously neither of us had any children.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 02:39:26 2022 No.20736283 >>20736271 i don't really have a woman i love right now to be honest >>20736277 it was strange for me, i don't think i've ever had a dream like that. it was also a lot scarier than my dreams usually are

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 02:45:47 2022 No.20736300 >>20736283 but you will someday id imagine you didn't recognize the woman in your dream right?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 02:46:39 2022 No.20736307 Need a birthday present for my girlfriend this week. She loves David Sedaris, weird European post punk and animals. Thanks lads

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 02:47:42 2022 No.20736313

>>20736300
no, i don't think i've ever seen her before. in the dream i just looked at her as the embodiment of some innocent young female that i cared for deeply. the fact that we were a hair's breadth from being brutalized horrifically was extremely stressful

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 02:57:52 2022 No.20736348

I grew up in rural part of a guerilla and paramilitary infested country. As a little kid I had hundreds of nightmares about the guerilla coming to my house and killing my mother and me.
Then as a pubescent boy I moved to the city and those nightmares were finally gone. But then, for a few months, I would recurrently dream about murdering my mother with a knife. I developed a fear of sleeping as was going to bed really late.
It went away somehow, but the later are still the most terrifying shit I ever saw. I thought I was becoming a psycho, and I still don't know the cause of those fucking dreams.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 03:01:48 2022 No.20736371 File: 23 KB, 480x360, C3C9E62F-BA28-4D29-8469-87C793AA99C9.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>20736307 Trip to a nature preserve

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 03:02:34 2022 No.20736378 >>20736313 people you don't recognize in dreams are placeholders, maybe for your emotions?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 03:05:14 2022 No.20736387 I have never banged a gong in my life but I would like to someday.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 03:06:42 2022 No.20736397 >>20736378 that sounds about right. i just don't know which emotions or what part of myself the girl would symbolize. i also don't know what the dream could mean: why were we being hunted, etc.

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 03:07:05 2022 No.20736398

>>20736307
does she collect vinyl? maybe you could get her something cool and obscure like this Belgian cold-wave album
>https://www.discogs.com/release/254154-Parade-Ground-Cut-Up
for an animal related thing go to a thrift shop and just find something animal related. could be a coffee mug, a vase, a desk statue. could be anything, there is always animal stuff.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 03:08:32 2022 No.20736408 >>20736397 theres probably so many interpretations for that, ill leave you to look it up. could be societal pressure?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 03:11:25 2022 No.20736418 >>20733426 clearly have internet and a computer like device

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 03:11:33 2022 No.20736420 >>20736387 This is what these threads are made for. Thank you anon this made me smile and laugh very hard.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 03:12:20 2022 No.20736424 >>20736408 i guess i'll just ruminate on it for a while, thanks anyway

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 03:13:40 2022 No.20736426

Palaces on top of clouds, doors painted on to walls, unclimbable mountain faces untouched by human hands, empty stretches of icy wasteland in the Antarctic, hallways inside mirrors, lost lands sunk beneath the sea, sealed basements underneath disused buildings, tunnels under the Polish Carpathians welded closed in the last days of the Second World War, sheer, cliff-sided islands in the Pacific on which no ship may dock, hollow spaces in the walls, catacombs buried under sewer lines, secret listening posts silently recording data in windowless, doorless rooms, ancient caves on Nepalese peaks too sacred to approach, the bottoms of long-dried medieval wells covered in grating and used to dispose of empty beer bottles, steps leading to a doorway cut into the rock of an asteroid beyond the orbit of Mars, glyphs incised on granite monoliths predating the Cambrian Explosion, a figure standing on the waters of the primordial Earth and seeing its own reflection,

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 03:16:15 2022 No.20736437 >>20736420 Lol nice, my pleasure, thanks for letting me know. Cheers.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 03:17:25 2022 No.20736440 >>20736424 no problem, but don't dwell on it too much, some things are meant to just be random mysteries

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 03:25:36 2022 No.20736472 i'm 33 and i feel the call of the woods

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 03:37:30 2022 No.20736520

For the first week I couldn’t cry— I was just numb and shocked and dazed. Now it’s all sinking in and I can’t stand it. My heart feels like a raw, open wound. Every time I go outside I feel consumed by shame and terror and self-consciousness, like everyone who sees me knows what I did and how fucking stupid and delusional and disgusting I really am. I don’t deserve to be seen or acknowledged or cared for by anyone. All I want is to hide forever. At home where no one can see me, I bury my face in my pillow and convulse in anguish, trying to block out the thought that always comes back to taunt me, my constant companion: Never. Never. Never. Never. These torturous reminders are all that I’ll ever have. All I deserve is contempt. I can’t even escape myself— believe me, I wish that I could.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 03:39:18 2022 No.20736529 >>20736520 You should read Winnie The Pooh

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 03:46:05 2022 No.20736556 >>20736520 well, what did you do?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 03:47:36 2022 No.20736565 >>20735464 Take leuprolide.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 03:55:31 2022 No.20736598 >>20736418 That’s worse than nothing

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 04:02:37 2022 No.20736628

Women say the most mind boggling, unhinged, nonsensical shit in fetish porno. If I were the director I'd break the fucking camera over her head and ask her why she's ruining my shoot. Stop ad libbing you fucking unsexy idiot. Nobody asked for your weird, boner destroying take on the act you're performing. Everything was going fine and you had to say some shit that makes me think about how you even came up with it for a week afterward. Just shut the fuck up.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 04:05:20 2022 No.20736634 >>20736520 Fuck off tranny.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 04:06:03 2022 No.20736640 File: 125 KB, 1124x788, EC2D0EB0-3CD0-44D1-A63F-3282B3337155.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>20736628

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 04:08:02 2022 No.20736651

Please recommend me some movies that are about 90 or 100 minutes. I'm bored of rewatching Bergman, Bresson and Rohmer whenever I don't want to spend 2 hours or more watching a movie. Thanks.

To keep it lit related, I read sonnet 64 of shakespeare earlier today, pretty good.

When I have seen by Time's fell hand defaced
The rich proud cost of outworn buried age;
When sometime lofty towers I see down-razed,
And brass eternal slave to mortal rage;
When I have seen the hungry ocean gain
Advantage on the kingdom of the shore,
And the firm soil win of the watery main,
Increasing store with loss, and loss with store;
When I have seen such interchange of state,
Or state itself confounded to decay;
Ruin hath taught me thus to ruminate
That Time will come and take my love away.
This thought is as a death which cannot choose
But weep to have that which it fears to lose.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 04:10:02 2022 No.20736656 >>20736520 it's ok you banged a hooker, so what

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 04:10:58 2022 No.20736659 >>20736651 Fast Times at Ridgemont High

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 04:13:55 2022 No.20736669 >>20736651 The Last Wave (1977)

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 04:15:05 2022 No.20736672

>>20736169
I'm the guy 2 posts above, so I'll list movies that I've watched and rewatched lately.
Knight of Cups
The Thin Red Line
After Hours
Boyfriends and Girlfriends (Rohmer)
Autumn Sonata
Reprise (2006)
Taxi Driver
The Remains of the Day
Pulp Fiction
Le Trou
A Summer's Tale
Cries and Whispers
Maurice (this is probably the best movie about love I've seen, but it's about fags)

>>20736659
>>20736669
will check them out, thanks bros

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 04:15:54 2022 No.20736677 File: 118 KB, 1125x890, BB37EBC4-5D74-462F-9D76-4067E20BF762.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>20736628

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 04:18:22 2022 No.20736687 Why did porn titles get so incestuous

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 04:20:10 2022 No.20736690 >>20736687 Any time you see weird shit online, it's ESLs changing the game. Porn titles in 2004 >Hot girl strips porn titles in 2020 >My mom makes a sexy fuck to my dick

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 04:27:17 2022 No.20736701 >>20736520 So no one told you life was gonna be this way. Your job's a joke, you're broke and your mom makes a sexy fuck to my dick every day.

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 04:29:10 2022 No.20736707

>>20736640
I’m not one to promote excessive porn consumption, but this is yet another cringy broken male-made image. What makes the incel chud “worthless” is his anger, bigotry, misogyny, the feat of being both self righteous and self centered yet spineless. Well, I could go on, but there’s hundreds of other things on women’s minds than their icky porn habits. I mean seriously. We all masturbate to one degree or another. Some anons insist we’re all just like his perpetually masturbating camwhores. Yeah. Too much porn for a lot of you isn’t great either. Not denying that.

the xi jinping of weed smoking !!oqyjkIO5smI Tue Jul 26 04:29:47 2022 No.20736709

>>20736672
thanks. for 90 min movies watch some Woody Allen or Pi, Suburbia, The Stepfather, The Blob, Sonatine, Stranger Than Paradise, Half Baked, Elevator to The Gallows, Punch Drunk Love. idk those are just some random ones and some favorites
>>20736669
good movie

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 04:35:09 2022 No.20736724 >>20736707 > this is yet another cringy broken male-made image I literally got this from a rad gem forum

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 04:36:10 2022 No.20736729 >>20736724 *radfem

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 04:37:18 2022 No.20736734 >>20736724 From a male. Nobody likes fucking cringejack but broken males

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 04:39:10 2022 No.20736740 >>20736628 Real cringe, asshole. Now look what we have ITT. How about I break your computer over your head?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 04:43:04 2022 No.20736754 >>20736640 Based As much as I despise what radfems stand, I love their stance on trannies and porn

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 04:45:28 2022 No.20736758 >>20735466 >There's nothing wrong with leading an ordinary life. There is and especially if you're not suited for it.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 04:47:08 2022 No.20736762 >>20735688 >has house >gf >friends >nearly the same lol

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 04:49:40 2022 No.20736765 >>20736754 Those are pictures.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 04:51:12 2022 No.20736768 >>20736765 Do you think they'll have sex with me?

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 05:18:04 2022 No.20736826 [DELETED]

this site will actually make you more stupid. it's a battle to not let it erode your brain, and many posters have lost already. you think it's making you smarter because you can identity a grainy photo of guenon or hp lovecraft, but in fact your intellect has declined.

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 05:34:28 2022 No.20736873

Maybe it’s just my mid 20s biological clock, but lately I’ve realized that I really want to have a baby. Like my career and my hobbies seem increasingly pointless and all I want is to be a mom. I literally daydream about it all the time. I’ve always liked kids but I’ve never felt such an intense desire to have a child of my own until now.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 05:37:45 2022 No.20736878 >>20736873 Wanting a kid is fine as long as it's not because you're bored and looking to escape. If your career bores you think about working somewhere else. Child rearing is a very monotonous job that you can never quit. Choose wisely.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 05:39:54 2022 No.20736882 >>20736878 This is bad advice for most normies. Millions of women are currently waiting for the "right time" to stop sitting on strange dicks and working in strange offices. The time is now, and the right is mine: the right to pummel childless women.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 05:41:00 2022 No.20736883 >>20736873 YWNBAM

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 05:45:23 2022 No.20736892

>>20736878
It's worth it though. If you have lots of kids and raise them well so they also have kids and raise them well, you end up a happy and well loved matriarch of a small clan with kids and grandkids who respect you and enjoy spending time with you. Family holidays will always be lively, there will always be someone visiting you, and to eventually take care of you in your old age. Sounds preferable to being a wage slave until you retire and then die alone.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 05:46:04 2022 No.20736894 >>20736882 >the right to pummel childless women. What

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 05:47:04 2022 No.20736896 >>20736892 Are you a mom?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 05:48:40 2022 No.20736898 >>20736896 Nope, I'm describing what my own mum and dad has achieved

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 05:49:33 2022 No.20736901 >>20736873 inb4 births tyrone's kid without marrying also where are the tits

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 05:50:38 2022 No.20736903 >>20736901 she needs those tits for nursing, so either put on a bib and diaper or you can act like a gentleman

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 05:51:30 2022 No.20736906 >>20736898 Childless men shouldn't tell women how great it is to be a mom. You don't know anything about the work that goes into it. You take everything your mom did for granted.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 05:58:32 2022 No.20736921 >>20736687 Psyop

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 06:00:11 2022 No.20736927

>>20736906
>Childless men
I'm a woman fully intending to have kids myself
> You don't know anything about the work that goes into it
I'm a very involved aunt to a dozen nieces and nephews. I am not totally naive in the kids department.
>You take everything your mom did for granted
I don't.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 06:03:51 2022 No.20736933 >>20736927 What are your husband standards?

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 06:06:37 2022 No.20736939

>>20736927
Well to each their own. You still shouldn't tell people that this is the best life for them because many can't handle the responsibility/expenses. To me, having people around me 24/7 sounds like a nightmare. And careful about the image you have for yourself. Maybe you're a matriarch in your own mind but everyone else sees you as a Karen/soccer mom. The only place I've seen people reverent of parents is in religious groups. Are you religious?

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 06:33:30 2022 No.20736982

Indeed, the truth that many people never understand, until it is too late, is that the more you try to avoid suffering, the more you suffer, because smaller and more insignificant things begin to torture you, in proportion to your fear of being hurt. The one who does most to avoid suffering is, in the end, the one who suffers the most: and his suffering comes to him from things so little and so trivial that one can say that it is no longer objective at all. It is his own existence, his own being, that is at once the subject and the source of his pain, and his very existence and consciousness is his greatest torture.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 06:34:14 2022 No.20736984 I pray every day for a zombie apocalypse so I can assume my rightful place in the world.

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 06:43:34 2022 No.20737006

Oh why, my Lord,why did you make mans soul so variable. Why did you entrust me with so much control over my own soul? A slip in habit, a realization that civilization is done, and I have lost myself. I've spend 2 hours a day on /gif/ now. Tonight I listened to Tchaikovsky piano concerto no 2. Name someone more human than me. Who else weeps to tchaikovsky after jacking it to tranny porn? I'm a disgusting human in a world that demands machines. My Lord, what a faustian bargain I was born into. Crisis of faith. We cannot be saved unless we suffer. We cannot live on earth unless we suffer. Crisis of faith. I cannot handle Faustian infinity. I plead my ancestors to settle for appollonia or magia, or anything other than Faust and his bargain. The sins of thy father. No. We must be better. I can fix everything. I know the solution. Now enters punishment for Nietzchean world view. The sins of thy father. Why do I struggle when I know nothing? Why am I cursed with this timeline? I just wanted to have friends and a family. I used to have both before the devil of social media took over. I struggle so much. I am alone. I can be God on earth but I live in hell on earth. This is Faust. Have mercy on me. My Lord. I am a sinner and I yearn for salvation.

The Father made me clay despite my faith. The Son makes stone but my faith fails so I sink and drown. The gin is hitting me. I can't even make a good 4 chins post. Please my friends, seek salvation above all. Your soul is beautiful despite all its flaws. You are my brothers.

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 06:44:27 2022 No.20737008

>>20736939
>You still shouldn't tell people that this is the best life for them
In the west at least, motherhood is certainly not widely promoted as a valid and fulfilling choice. I'm just sharing my thoughts and experience to balance the scales a little
>having people around me 24/7 sounds like a nightmare
I currently feel the same but I am predicting that I won't when I'm 50+.
>You'll be a Karen
Becoming a Karen is one of the many pitfalls I will strive to avoid. It won't be easy to achieve what I envision for myself but it's possible
>Are you religious?
Yes

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 06:44:47 2022 No.20737010 >>20734283 Just stop being gay you fucking idiot

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 06:59:02 2022 No.20737041 >>20736307 buy her a killing joke t-shirt in your size

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 07:02:17 2022 No.20737049 no bishops unbeaten remember the rage I felt then nine out of ten would suffer again

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 07:20:53 2022 No.20737084

>>20737008
It's pretty polarized. You'll either get people who tell you it's the only way to live life or it's a horrible mistake and you should reconsider. I lean towards the latter but it's because I've seen what happens when people blindly follow what they "should" do and resent their families. It makes me wary when someone says they're bored with life and think babies will make them happy. More than likely there're other issues going on.

>I am predicting that I won't when I'm 50+
Well, that's 20+ years of intense work so I hope that's what you want in your younger years.

People can call you a Karen even if you're not actually being one. I've seen women get called Karens when they were actually complaining about something reasonable. People don't like seeing middle-aged women complain or do anything really.

>Yes
Ah. When you're looking for someone to marry don't go for an "alpha" guy who thinks it's a woman's job to take care of everything in the house. He won't help out and it will make you feel overwhelmed and alienated.

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 07:30:05 2022 No.20737095

Really wish I had more energy, both mental and physical. I'm just so tired lately, despite good habits. My dreams are more vivid than waking life, like stepping into a parallel world each time. I often wonder if they really do splinter off and the inhabitants live on without me.

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 07:34:51 2022 No.20737100

>>20737084
Trying to walk a woman out of motherhood should be a gassable offense, right next to trannies grooming kids. It should be covered under corrupting or subverting nature. Your response to someone saying they're going to chop their 12 year old son's cock off would be "you do you," but a woman wanting to be a mother gets a gaslighting manifesto about how they shouldn't ruin their life.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 07:39:10 2022 No.20737111 >>20736873 haha it will only get worse

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 07:44:00 2022 No.20737117 >>20736878 Only in a sick, Jewified capitalist society could someone describe raising children as a "very monotonous job that you can never quit".

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 07:45:35 2022 No.20737119

>>20737100
Whoa... where the hell did you see the connection between motherhood/no motherhood to trannies grooming kids? I don't know if you've ever looked outside but there are many mothers (and fathers) who shouldn't have had children. It isn't for everyone. A big mistake is thinking a baby is going to solve your problems when in fact it just adds to it if you're not fully prepared for it with the RIGHT person. That's not gaslighting, it's just being realistic. You should never idealize parenthood. It's a serious endeavor.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 07:46:49 2022 No.20737123 File: 1.17 MB, 708x626, Sammy.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>20733426 I'm 28 with a divorce and multiple failed careers behind me and no money saved or useful job experience. I am the negation of a negation.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 07:47:18 2022 No.20737124 >>20737117 It is monotonous. Have you never cared for kids before?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 08:08:18 2022 No.20737156 >>20737123 atleast you're not a virgin.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 08:18:26 2022 No.20737169 What philosophers advocated being like vegetation?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 08:25:36 2022 No.20737181 >>20737169 You be the first, Jacko

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 09:04:11 2022 No.20737245 >>20733426 I'm 29, was meant to be starting my career this year and getting married. Now I'm alone at my grandma's house eating cup ramen. I want to die every single day. I am so lonely but I can't move on. Maybe I should Jeff Buckley into the lake.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 09:09:08 2022 No.20737252 Little bird, under shelter.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 09:15:36 2022 No.20737262 >>20736933 >Antivaxx >Anti-porn

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 09:41:14 2022 No.20737317 >>20737262 Good taste. My ex got the vax immediately after we both agreed we wouldn't. Would've cared less if he didn't lie.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 09:47:57 2022 No.20737329 >>20737262 A low iq husband? Gotcha.

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 10:28:45 2022 No.20737433

I'm stuck in a regressive state, because I need to hold on to whatever it is I think won the heart of someone 15 years ago. I forgot a lot of things for along time, and now I remember, and that should be reason enough to drop the whole thing but is of course psychopathology enough not to. So I'm trying to hold on to the memory of who I was 15 years ago so that I could win again who she was 15 years ago. This seems like a great big waste of time, but is not easy to put away. Maybe there is some secondary reason to infantilize myself infinitely.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 10:30:04 2022 No.20737435 >>20737433 This is how I'm going to end up. Probably should just kill myself before it gets worse.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 10:30:26 2022 No.20737437 >>20736892 are you the jewess?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 10:48:13 2022 No.20737492 >>20736520 God will not abandon you.

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 10:56:48 2022 No.20737517

>>20734283
you're at a crossroads. Don't do it. Making this your identity will make having a genuine spiritual life very difficult. It would absolutely and most certainly be better for you to abstain from whatever desires you have for men. This life is only for the next. It is most certainly against Gods will for you to act upon these feelings. Give it time and pray. Things will change. You are in a very difficult, confused place. If satan gets to pull you down this track it can eat up very much of the time you have in this life, and that's the best case. You are being tried.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 11:07:35 2022 No.20737552 Did no one else notice how many times they re-use bosses in Elden Ring? Is this a scam?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 11:13:55 2022 No.20737567 >>20737552 For me, its the quality drop after the capital. Japs cannot into open world.

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 11:24:13 2022 No.20737596

>>20733415
Why is it that I can write well, at least I think I can write well, yet I speak like a retard?. It's like I can get my ideas down in writing, but when I'm talking to someone and trying to explain a concept, a story etc, I sound like a babbling mess.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 11:29:03 2022 No.20737612 >>20737596 The ancient druids forbade writting for a reason.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 11:41:31 2022 No.20737655 I'm a generous man, I accept everyone's concessions.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 11:44:12 2022 No.20737662 >>20734136 If you want to stop being a sexually depraved fag start by typing like an adult

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 11:50:58 2022 No.20737688 [DELETED]

apple music is such a piece of shit. maybe instead of setting scott forstall up to fail with an impossible deadline for apple maps they should have fired that guido douchebag with the hair who clearly signs off on trash software from apple music to xcode. cook finally got the stones to shitcan ive, now do federighi.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 15:23:47 2022 No.20738590 I just keep drinking.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 15:42:24 2022 No.20738643 >>20737596 You’re missing a part of education they probably purposely leave off nowadays. Rhetoric. Lit meetups should include reciting and friendly debates. Lit meetups need to happen more.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 15:42:45 2022 No.20738646 >>20734843 >>20734928 >>20734841 Thanks for the questions. I'll make a post on Friday (perhaps Saturday) going in depth on my experience amking the switch.

>>	the xi jinping of weed smoking !!oqyjkIO5smI Tue Jul 26 15:44:54 2022 No.20738650 fell asleep reading the Wikipedia page for honey again

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 15:51:03 2022 No.20738676 >>20738646 Thanks for the blog. Make sure to find a good tripcode so I can filter you in the future.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 15:52:03 2022 No.20738681 >>20738676 No I'll stay anon and you stay sour

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 16:02:18 2022 No.20738711 >>20736754 i want to be punished by a radfem for my agp

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 16:18:06 2022 No.20738783

I can't sell my soul to Satan because any bargain I make with him is predicated on what I know. And I know that, by definition, God knows more about my deepest desires than I do. So the min-maxing part of me would never allow me to make an inferior deal.

Whenever I think I want something, but then explore the roots of those wants, I'm always left with either a void or a weakness. The fact that I want something either seems arbitrary or would factually destroy me and the grounds for the want in the first place. Sometimes, after more introspection, I find a new path through what was formerly a void, but the process repeats itself anew.

I'd sell my soul to God then. But unfortunately I can't seem to figure out how. So much for philosophy. Now I'm in aporia. How do get out of it? God's knowledge is too intangible. All I want to know is what I should want and how to unveil it.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 16:19:56 2022 No.20738792 The mortality of us and the suffering of life implies a mode of being that's incompatible with superficial attraction and casual sex : /

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 16:21:19 2022 No.20738797 >>20736028 >>20736062 you're right, I don't care about that shit anymore, I gave up and I just want it to end the easiest way possible

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 16:27:54 2022 No.20738825 >>20733514 Did you cheat?

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 16:31:52 2022 No.20738841

I want to become a midwife. It's one of the few jobs I can actually see myself getting any sort of fulfillment out of. I could help hippie mums with their home births and shit. But I can't be assed going back to uni for 3 years. I wish there was an apprenticeship style pathway instead...

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 16:39:27 2022 No.20738883 >>20737317 The vax is a blessing in disguise, helps one to easily identify the low-grade psyches among us.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 16:43:29 2022 No.20738899 Its almost 40 degrees in Boise, Idaho. I don't live there and have no idea what goes on there, I just thought that was crazy.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 16:45:17 2022 No.20738905 File: 757 KB, 876x1890, 1640134624170.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>20738883 >

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 17:11:20 2022 No.20739030 >>20738841 lmao what kind of deranged pregnant woman would take a male midwife to assist her pregnancy

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 17:27:54 2022 No.20739100 >>20739030 especially one that thinks he's a woman

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 17:29:21 2022 No.20739106 My OCD is remaining consistently bad, and neither therapy or medication is helping with it. I'm thinking I should just get addicted to drugs or something.

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 17:32:07 2022 No.20739119

>>20739106
Maybe OCD is not quite the right diagnostic. If you get evaluated when you're having big compulsive issues, often during periods of stress, then you're likely to get an OCD diagnostic because it's what's apparent at the time but not always mean it's the actual problem. OCD-like symptoms can come from other disorders, most notably autism and ADHD.

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 17:39:41 2022 No.20739140

>>20739119
Haha, no, it's OCD. I've had symptoms of it my whole life, been formally diagnosed for over a decade, been to two different residential OCD treatment programs, and it's gone back to being just as bad as always each time. Being alive isn't very fun right now, I figure maybe if I get addicted to heroin or something I can have bigger issues to worry about, and at least I'll get some temporary pleasure out of it.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 17:43:51 2022 No.20739162 >>20739140 That sucks man. At least it seems you know the sources of your problems. Only advice I can give you is to remember that the ultimate panacea is finding a caring big titty goth gf, so better get to work.

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 17:53:55 2022 No.20739204

>>20739162
It's funny you say that, I was considering signing up for this goth dating site, but I'm worried that since I don't actually dress goth myself they'd assume I was a poser/chaser. I do listen to actual 80s goth music as well as 2000s mallgoth music though, do you think I should just go for it?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 17:54:46 2022 No.20739207 >>20739204 >since I don't actually dress goth myself they'd assume I was a poser/chaser And?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 17:55:39 2022 No.20739210 >>20739207 And that they wouldn't be interested then, I suppose.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 18:01:30 2022 No.20739233 >>20739210 big titty goth gfs transcend genres

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 18:14:53 2022 No.20739304 >>20739233 >>>/s/21311965

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 18:25:26 2022 No.20739372 >>20739140 >OCD. I've had symptoms of it my whole life Get a better psychiatrist. Forget about all previous diagnoses because they are most likely wrong. Don't sell your symptoms like you are shopping for your problem. What medications are you on?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 18:29:30 2022 No.20739398 I'm all alone now, can't tell if I'm about to burst into tears or dance in elation. It's freeing, but at the same time sobering. Cloudy but not dark is the best way I can describe it.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 18:31:17 2022 No.20739408 >>20739398 are you bipolar?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 18:35:08 2022 No.20739424 >>20739408 No, I've never been diagnosed as bipolar, but I also don't know the symptoms. Plus, I'm not a woman so that's unlikely.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 18:37:45 2022 No.20739438 >>20739424 Bipolar disorder is actually more prevalent in males.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 18:39:08 2022 No.20739443 Alright faggots, I'm in a conundrum. I want to keep working inpatient but I hate dealing with addicts. What's a good way to get them to fuck off?

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 18:39:19 2022 No.20739446 >>20739438 Well, thanks for the information, man. :)

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 18:39:44 2022 No.20739448 >>20739424 >I'm not a woman so that's unlikely. You’re a bipolar and have extreme social anxiety. Apparently.

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 18:41:43 2022 No.20739462
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>>20739448
Glad we have reddit/discord psychologists on standby for when I make a post, really makes this place fun.
Appreciate it guys, but I'm not going to take your pills.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 18:42:48 2022 No.20739472 >>20739443 tell your boss that because you have someone in your family currently going through substance abuse issues, you would like to be spared from working those cases if possible.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 18:44:55 2022 No.20739493 >>20739304 gave a good tickle to my dinkle

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 18:49:40 2022 No.20739520 >>20739472 Fuck that's good, might get me out of the most hassle cases. Thanks anon.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 18:54:44 2022 No.20739537 >>20739443 Have patience.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 19:03:27 2022 No.20739580 >>20739537 I have non anymore. Addicts can fuck off, I have real sick people that I could benefit. Get your fix from your dealer, because I'm not giving you anything.

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 19:03:39 2022 No.20739581

>>20739520
yeah just keep it vague and non-incriminating
''I'm just afraid not to pay full attention''
''to give THAT person the proper treatment''
''It makes me think of them...''
''I feel I wouldn't be able to perform at my best''
''I'm afraid that I won't be able to help THEM''

make it feel like you're thinking of your family member, and it might affect how you treat the patient. If prompted just say you don't really want to talk about it, and mix that area of your life with work. And it's why you ask if you could keep it separated and not work case. Imply you work double shifts at home basically, you already are dealing with an addict...

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 19:07:41 2022 No.20739590 >>20739443 Don't be impatient with them, it's not their fault.

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 19:09:59 2022 No.20739604

>>20739581
Won't really work that way, I would just be pushing them to other physicians, but your original post was a good way for me have excuse to refer them to other treatment options with minimal consequences.

>>20739590
It's almost always their own fault. You have a choice that nobody else can make for you.

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 19:15:52 2022 No.20739625

>>20739398
It's going to feel very good and then it's going to feel very bad and you're going to continue to bounce on that rollercoaster at all times except for those where you are numb.

That or you're normal and not crazy like me and it's just a reasonable reaction to your existing situation that will pass like all the others.

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Anonymous Tue Jul 26 20:19:47 2022 No.20740055

>>20739372
>Get a better psychiatrist. Forget about all previous diagnoses because they are most likely wrong.
Ok fucko, how would you describe taking 4 hours in the bathroom at a time between wiping, hand washing, and showering? Fortunately it's not quite that bad anymore, but I fail to see any other diagnosis that would be fitting.

>>	Anonymous Tue Jul 26 20:40:02 2022 No.20740200 >>20740055 Textbook mental retardation.

Anonymous Tue Jul 26 22:57:36 2022 No.20740864

>>20739140
Hard drugs like heroin will definitely make your life worse. It's bad now, but at least you're not breaking into homes to steal money for your drug habit.
If you want drugs how about weed? Seems relatively harmless. Maybe it could help calm down your brain? Look into medicinal marijuana.

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