Write what's on your mind

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Anonymous Fri Mar 10 22:03:28 2017 No.9221017 [Reply] [Original]

Write what's on your mind

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 10 22:08:06 2017 No.9221033 Has anyone here seen Coherence? I'm watching it now. Also, I need entry level physics books.

Anonymous Fri Mar 10 22:08:31 2017 No.9221035

I wish my best friend wasn't dead so I could talk to him. He was the only one that ever made me feel better about myself. Now I've put the walls back up and fell back into my old self. Regressing back into my shell isn't necessarily bad, but I feel like im just a ghost in my own life wading through nebulous experiences, touched with anxiety here and there. I don't feel like I have adrive to do anything anymore, I just want to sleep for a long long time, and maybe wake up when everything and everyone has blown over. Maybe never, but that's just the depression talking I suppose.

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 10 22:08:31 2017 No.9221036 >>9221017 I really want some solo time to play in a jumping castle right now.

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 10 22:10:54 2017 No.9221045 File: 112 KB, 999x763, liberal crack up.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Im watching The Great Debaters and thinking about going back to school. I'm 25 and don't know what I am doing.

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 10 22:11:49 2017 No.9221048 >>9221017 what's on your mind

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 10 22:12:31 2017 No.9221050 i have a feelin the person who keeps making these threads is just using this shit to help write his own shitty novel

Anonymous Fri Mar 10 22:14:12 2017 No.9221057
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>>9221017
Gay Pride parades are a lot like catholic processions. Except God is Dead and Faggotry hath replaced him. Notice how even far right parties try to market themselves as the gay alternative. If this is the last stand of Western Values, just bring on the Caliphate already

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 10 22:26:01 2017 No.9221102 File: 41 KB, 960x574, 12802945_985260541561711_3319094384031305487_n.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] ohgodiwishiwasdead

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 10 22:31:03 2017 No.9221120 >>9221102 Why man? Let it all out

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 10 22:33:03 2017 No.9221123 >>9221120 dont' wanna take bath

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 10 22:35:41 2017 No.9221135 >>9221017 >>9221101

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 10 22:37:04 2017 No.9221141 File: 1.41 MB, 300x223, 1488930937701.gif [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Just another Friday night of reading in bed. It's gonna be real comfy.

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 10 22:40:02 2017 No.9221155 File: 31 KB, 500x495, MI0002418950.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>9221141 Just another Friday night of joyless compulsive shitposting in bed. I fucking hate myself

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 10 22:40:57 2017 No.9221157 >>9221123 Are you that doggo?

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 10 22:41:01 2017 No.9221159 >>9221155 Instead, why don't you read?

Anonymous Fri Mar 10 22:42:52 2017 No.9221169
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I'm obsessed with my distant German cousin. I've never wanted to have sex with anyone so badly in my life. Maybe I'll visit her this summer and try my luck. I just want to eat her pussy, spread her legs apart, and come inside her. Fuck me.

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 10 22:53:09 2017 No.9221205 File: 1013 KB, 971x3604, enlightenment.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Does anyone here experience a kind of electric, "tingly" sensation on the skin when sleep deprived? Like a kind of electric jolt. I really need to go to sleep.

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 10 22:55:41 2017 No.9221216 File: 180 KB, 1440x439, Screenshot_20161129-220900.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>9221169 Was this you, Anon?

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 10 22:57:17 2017 No.9221225 File: 2.86 MB, 320x240, 1488338221475.gif [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>9221216 Yeah, it most definitely was. Why do you have that saved, friend?

Anonymous Fri Mar 10 23:03:21 2017 No.9221251

>>9221225
I screenshot anything that makes me smile, laugh, or leaves an impression on me.

2 months, 9 days later, on an Anonymous image board with thousands of visitors, it's just you and me again Anon.

Let's hope we run into each other again sometime in the future. :~)

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 10 23:05:39 2017 No.9221257 File: 35 KB, 484x497, 1487223024482.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>9221251 Until then, friend.

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 10 23:07:53 2017 No.9221261 >>9221257 I didnt say we were friends

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 10 23:09:29 2017 No.9221267 >>9221216 >>9221169 I want to help this anon achieve his dream of German girl sex, and that is how I choose to look at it.

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 10 23:10:33 2017 No.9221271 No one ever answers me. I fucking hate everyone else on this planet.

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 10 23:14:43 2017 No.9221286 >>9221271 Hey me too but not really.

Anonymous Fri Mar 10 23:16:47 2017 No.9221294

lets see i have an math exam next week sunday that i need to pass or i drop below 60% and fail the class. but my friend is taking the same class and im he said he'll sit infront of me so i can copy his answers.

have an 600 word essay dude this sunday that i guess i'll get starting on tomorrow morning.

found out my ex-gf is camgirl/sugar baby. used a vpn to change locations and spent $20 on a private show with her. made her finger and ass and degrade herself. bit disappointed during our relationship she was really vanilla in bed but with $20 shes doing whatever. quite sad even though i shouldn't be.

also got a personal trainer job at the local gym but now here comes the hard point getting clients.
really wish i could take adderall again. was happier times

Anonymous Fri Mar 10 23:29:09 2017 No.9221326

Does anyone else think they've lived too long? Like past their due date? I've lived past my expiry date and now all I've got to look forward too is a slow mental decomposition, and unhappiness, and the degradation of all that was once good in my life. I feel had I have gone through with killing myself last year, when I utmost swore and promised too, I would've been okay.

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 10 23:31:15 2017 No.9221335 >>9221294 >found out my ex-gf is camgirl/sugar baby Pretty sad, anon. Same https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HrMZuFn7Q9w

>>	Anonymous Fri Mar 10 23:33:07 2017 No.9221342 >>9221335 nice song anon reminds me of sonic youth https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Frg-n_DTSQ4

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 00:22:57 2017 No.9221506 wish i didn't get drunk last night, so i could justify getting drunk tonight

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 00:35:03 2017 No.9221547 >>9221506 I'm drinking, anon. I'm about to watch branded to kill. Drink with me

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 00:40:05 2017 No.9221559 >>9221547 nice selection man. i want to, but i've already been drunk a few times this week and i'm supposed to go drinking tomorrow. have to take it easy on my liver. plus i'm trying to cultivate a decent body and i need to avoid excess calories.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 00:56:38 2017 No.9221613 >>9221559 Even on 4chan I am denied. Good bye everyone.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 01:03:32 2017 No.9221631 >>9221613 sorry lad. meet me same time next week in one of these threads and we'll get sloshed.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 01:11:34 2017 No.9221645 >>9221631 Go to bed hammer

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 01:17:14 2017 No.9221662 >>9221645 i don't follow

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 01:19:23 2017 No.9221668 >>9221017 >>9221017 it feels like everything is fine even though i know my soul is in peril and on occasion i get these bursts of feeling like total fucking shit and it scares me. i've forgotten how to connect with others.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 02:28:25 2017 No.9221786 >>9221326 yeah, I feel that. I kind of have this drive towards sacrifice. Like I'm dead, but if I could just try and save somebody in my death. I guess I'm saying my life hasn't been meaningful, but maybe in death I could do one worthwhile act

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 02:33:16 2017 No.9221793 >>9221169 Lowkey, if she's distant enough, I think it doesn't really matter. That is, if you can keep the fucking a private matter.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 02:34:27 2017 No.9221795 This isn't literature, this is fucking blogging

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 02:36:45 2017 No.9221804 >>9221257 >>9221261 lmaooooooooooing @ this

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 02:38:26 2017 No.9221807 >>9221017 that is the funniest fucking picture I've seen in a long time.

Anonymous Sat Mar 11 02:39:04 2017 No.9221811

>>9221294
>spent $20 on a private show with her. made her finger and ass and degrade herself. bit disappointed during our relationship she was really vanilla in bed but with $20 shes doing whatever.

top fucking kek this made me laugh out loud. good on you anon. we are all going to make it.

Anonymous Sat Mar 11 02:39:18 2017 No.9221812
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Breath of the Wild is good. The artistry of video games lie solely in its definitive quality- freedom and control. Unlike other artistic mediums, plot in video games are necessarily an opposing force to the freedom it allows. This creates a very strange and interesting tension to video games as an art form- a tension that will be fertile ground for the most compelling stories of our generation once the technology can support it.

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>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 02:48:39 2017 No.9221834 >>9221294 Is it bad that I still routinely check my exes twitter even if I have a new gf. I don't think I still have feelings for her

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 03:03:51 2017 No.9221868 Day 3 the air conditioner hasnt been turnd on. Im sweating like whore in church or like one of those prisoners on that show lockup love ya pop

Anonymous Sat Mar 11 03:10:48 2017 No.9221885

>>9221812
>plot in video games are necessarily an opposing force to the freedom it allows
In the first place, one couldn't have a piece of art that is "free from plot." The "plot" (narrative) cannot be what limits freedom of motion in the game, since the game could not exist without the plot. Bad game development is what undermines free play in a game, in the same way that bad Dungeon-mastering leads to railroading. The problem, though, is as you say: the technology has not advanced to a point where the game can itself be a game-master.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 03:38:39 2017 No.9221941 I feel like I should be doing something but I don't know what. I fantasise about leaving, leaving it all, living in some far off place where I'll live until I die.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 03:54:43 2017 No.9221963 >>9221326 Have you ever been in love?

Anonymous Sat Mar 11 04:00:56 2017 No.9221971

I don't know what to do anymore. I wonder if I should search for something higher, distinct from school, work, or love. Is there something higher?

Plus, I'm wondering if it is possible to prescind from our experiences. I'm ruining my relationships because I can't seem to "look back at the past" when a new situation comes.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 04:02:51 2017 No.9221972 >>9221963 To put such a question to such a man is sheer cruelty.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 04:02:56 2017 No.9221973 >>9221971 * "to not look back at the past"

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 04:05:12 2017 No.9221974 Pope Francis is about to get FUCKED, and it will be a deserved fucking. You should have answered the dubia, Your Holiness.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 04:13:28 2017 No.9221991 >>9221974 Can we get a good right wing pope next time and not some cuck?

Anonymous Sat Mar 11 04:15:04 2017 No.9221994

>>9221971
Why would you want to "prescind" from them? You can use them. Don't fear them, don't feel shame about them; reconcile yourself to them, and understand how they make you yourself.

There is nothing "higher." You are more than every "higher" power.

Anonymous Sat Mar 11 04:17:54 2017 No.9221999
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>>9221991
We absolutely will, because there was an article recently about how even the left-wing cardinals who voted for Pope Francis have come to regret their decision to vote for him.

Get ready for some hard monarchist shit with the next pope. Get ready for The Young Pope to actually happen. Get ready for things to veer very hard to the right.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 04:36:25 2017 No.9222024 I feel trapped. I want to kill myself

Anonymous Sat Mar 11 05:01:02 2017 No.9222067

>>9221994
Yes, I know, I can use them. But it's useless. When I'm in some situation I think "now it's gonna be that way", but then? I act in the way I want, even though I know what's expecting me.
I hurt someone who didn't deserved that. In that way I wish to prescind from them, but I can't.

I am more than every higher power, but a purpose is necessary. Don't you think?

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 05:07:09 2017 No.9222075 >>9221999 neat. i'll rejoin the church if this all actually happens

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 12:48:48 2017 No.9223546 I let my beard grow and it's first time in my life that I don't hate my face with a passion.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 14:00:24 2017 No.9223880 >>9221994 >You are more than every "higher" power tips fedora

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 15:52:20 2017 No.9224470 DEATH

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 15:56:18 2017 No.9224489 >>9221033 >Coherence? Yeah . It was pretty decent for one of those low budget bottle movies. Need to rewatch Cube again. It's been awhile.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 19:04:39 2017 No.9225306 >>9221017 Sex.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 19:06:03 2017 No.9225314 >>9221045 It could be worse. Three years from now you'll be 28, and you still won't know what you're doing.

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>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 19:14:19 2017 No.9225362 Will college be much better than high school? I don't think I can keep living like this much longer. (I'm going to a small LAC, if that makes a difference).

Anonymous Sat Mar 11 19:17:16 2017 No.9225371

>>9225362
+more intellectually stimulating
+no one will bully you
+classes can be taken later so you can sleep in
-harder to make friends

such was my experience anyway. for full disclosure i commuted to a small liberal arts school which possibly explains my difficulty in making friends.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 19:19:07 2017 No.9225379 I've got friday on my mind. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oCgNCczbixc

Anonymous Sat Mar 11 19:34:20 2017 No.9225435

>>9225371
thanks

I've moved around a lot so I'm hoping college will be easier if only because I'll be starting at the same stage as everyone else (rather than moving into a place where everyone's had the same friends since 1st grade).

I'm worried that I may have missed some critical stage in social development with barely having any friends in high school that I might not be able to make friends anyway.

Anonymous Sat Mar 11 19:42:07 2017 No.9225464

>>9225435
everything about my experience in life tells me that friendship has to be initiated in your youth anyway. to this day my closest friends are those whom i've known since childhood, and even the other friends i did make in high school were only made through the aforementioned childhood friends.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 19:45:36 2017 No.9225482 >>9225464 >people who move in college or adulthood can't make new friends This can't actually be true (right??)

Anonymous Sat Mar 11 19:51:27 2017 No.9225511

>>9225482
i'm sure it isn't impossible, just a whole lot harder. imo one of the most meaningful bonds in any given friendship is that of a shared history; so that even if your paths and interests diverge along the way, that common set of memories and rituals can sustain your relationship. but of course, this belief must to some extent be informed by my own experiences of acquiring friendships at an early age and developing them over a lifetime. and old relationships can always disintegrate, and new ones can be very fulfilling as well.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 19:58:37 2017 No.9225538 >>9225511 Ah, so it's not that there's really something special about making friends in childhood, just that having a long history is extremely valuable to making a strong friendship (and it's still very possible to start that history later on)

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 20:14:57 2017 No.9225579 bumping because good thread

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 21:51:51 2017 No.9225887 bump

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 21:52:59 2017 No.9225892 I feel like I'm running out of time.

Anonymous Sat Mar 11 21:59:47 2017 No.9225914

I'm quitting my job in computer security tomorrow to work at a library. Secure software is a myth, a cat and mouse game, and the mouse has been juicing for years. Security should be proactive, not a stage of the design process, not a cleanup crew, not an afterthought to rampant, unmitigated connectivity. Secure self-driving cars are never coming. It's not possible with the still immature industry processes that are in place now.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 22:05:51 2017 No.9225926 Why am I talking to girls on a dating app. They're either all brainless or they want me to act like I want to shag them. I'm just looking for a girl that I can write poetically to and have her appreciate it...

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 22:10:55 2017 No.9225937 File: 84 KB, 736x563, 4196d59ed2230396e6cdd72b70e63eb6.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>9221971 Yep. See: Blood, Honour, Fighting for One's Race

Anonymous Sat Mar 11 22:14:58 2017 No.9225948

I wish my sexuality and libido were consistent/more controllable. I can go weeks without many sexual thoughts, then I can't resist them for a few days or week and binge on porn, or sometimes I'm more gay than straight, etc. Although I guess the worst part is that I put so much thought to it sometimes that it wastes even more focus than any sexual thoughts would.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 22:16:34 2017 No.9225954 Morrissey is growing on me

Anonymous Sat Mar 11 22:18:33 2017 No.9225958
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>>9221017
I have been rejected for, literally, the 21st time in the last 2 years. I am not an unattractive person, I've been told I look handsome by people who see me in person, but I'm the total opposite of photogenic. I look fatter and more 'derpy' in photos than real life. I'm not even fat for fucks sakes. And if I'm not rejected because I simply look ugly I'm rejected because the person wants a 10/10 blonde Twink with a 10 inch cock and submissive bottom personality, basically the Stacy of the gay world. Gay people suck and gay dating fucking suck.

Anonymous Sat Mar 11 22:22:58 2017 No.9225968

i lost my virginity to a man seven years older than me yesterday
i am not the first girl he's taken the virginity of--this makes me feel a bit bad, but i know that this doesn't matter, because we love each other.
i feel weird. i'm sore. i'm comfy but i feel odd. it's not sad but it's not exactly 'happy.'

i'm trying to read the phenomenology of spirit.

Anonymous Sat Mar 11 22:24:04 2017 No.9225970

>>9225958
I had a similar situation when I was single (married now). Not very photogenic. I shamelessly played the numbers game, checked the ego entirely. Randomly added and contacted hundreds of women on social media. Only a handful were actually willing to meet me, but it results in fucking 5 women. The effort wasn't even that much, probably equal to 1% the time I spent moping about being single. Ended up marrying one of those women, we happened to hit it off. God's speed, anon.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 22:42:15 2017 No.9226034 >>9225968 This is the most bizarre post I've read.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 23:35:30 2017 No.9226198 >>9225968 Are you 18 btw?

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 23:41:05 2017 No.9226219 >>9226198 Yep, as of last night.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 23:41:11 2017 No.9226220 File: 47 KB, 184x182, 3454.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>9226198 yes, 18 on the dot. >>9226034 what in particular makes this post bizarre? i suppose it may seem a bit odd but it doesn't seem any more odd than other stuff posted here.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 23:47:12 2017 No.9226243 >>9225958 No one gives a fuck about your degenerate faggot problems, you fucking bug chaser.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 23:49:00 2017 No.9226251 >>9226220 Jeez you are me. How can you be so sure that you love him? I couldnt even looking at his eyes when in my mind was the thought i was never the first

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 23:49:36 2017 No.9226254 >>9221017 just fuck my shit up senpai

Anonymous Sat Mar 11 23:53:55 2017 No.9226272

>>9226251
we've been together for half a year now. he used to have a lot of casual, random sex and do drugs, but he had a terrible upbringing and i understand what led him to do what he did. he cried for the first time in years in front of me during a really intense conversation.
"i've had sex with a lot of people but i didn't love a single one of them. i love you. i don't care if you even don't ever want to have sex. it doesn't matter. i love you."

i really do love him, and he does love me. it does feel bad to know i far from being his first, but the fact that i'm with him now, not those people, and we love each other is what matters.
he likes kant a lot.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 23:55:11 2017 No.9226279 >>9226251 >>9226272 also just to be clear he hadn't had sex in two years before me and hasn't done drugs in over a year

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 23:55:45 2017 No.9226280 >>9225958 It honestly amazes me that people expect a ten inch cock and you last an hour. It's bizarre.

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 23:57:34 2017 No.9226283 >>9226272 >>9226279 Is this the first time you ever fall in love? It seems like that

>>	Anonymous Sat Mar 11 23:59:39 2017 No.9226293 >>9226283 This person is 18. Dating for six months someone who is 25. If it's love, it's their first one.

Anonymous Sun Mar 12 00:01:56 2017 No.9226298
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>>9226283
>>9226293
y-yes
but i know it's -love- and not some silly infatuation, for sure.
it feels safe and secure, there aren't any issues and he's a good person.
i know this must sound silly and naive, though.
wish me luck in life anons

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 00:02:56 2017 No.9226304 I haven't masturbated in over a week.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 00:03:25 2017 No.9226307 >>9226298 Good luck. Even though I want to kill myself just a little more. Nothing ever lasts for me more than a month. I'm sure I engineer it that way, either through actual self-sabotage or partner selection.

Anonymous Sun Mar 12 00:04:46 2017 No.9226315

I think I've finally outgrown 4chan. I used to be on here for hours everyday but this is the first time I've been on here all day.

Also Everyman's Library's Poetry series has wonderful aesthetics but almost all of the poets they showcase have larger collections worth about the same price.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 00:06:56 2017 No.9226323 >>9226243 Yet you replied you stupid fucking pollack. Go watch some cuckold porn because we all know you secretly love niggers.

Anonymous Sun Mar 12 00:08:10 2017 No.9226325

>>9226307
do you often fear that people will leave you? i think this often incites instability in relationships, it leads to a lot of paranoia -> arguments and whatnot.
you need someone that will let you know that they don't hate you, they're not plotting anything, they accept you, ya know?
i'm sorry, regardless of the reasons your relationships end in the way they do. what have your past partners been like? what leads you to become attracted to them?
please don't give up, on love or life..

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 00:09:18 2017 No.9226330 >>9226323 >Yet you replied you stupid fucking pollack. I've never in my life understood this meme. Replying doesn't mean caring.

Anonymous Sun Mar 12 00:11:13 2017 No.9226335
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>>9226330
It means you not only took the time to read my comment, but you also took the time to think of a le epic homophobe snarky generic pollack reply and post it, so I think you do care a little bit

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 00:12:59 2017 No.9226338 File: 12 KB, 400x400, 1488265806642.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>9226323 Fuck off, fag. Take your degeneracy back to Rebbit, where people actually give a shit.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 00:13:00 2017 No.9226339 >>9226335 Not him but >Sees a retard >Reacts to a retard >Somehow, he cares for the retard ????

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 00:13:48 2017 No.9226341 >>9226335 I'll let you think about this a little more.

Anonymous Sun Mar 12 00:45:58 2017 No.9226421
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>>9226338
>>9226339
>>9226341
>keeps replying to me
>"I DONT CARE!! CANT YOU SEE?? I DONT CARE ABOUT WHAT YOURE SAYING IM JUST REPLYING TO YOU TO TELL YOU I DONT CARE, OKAY?? AND IF YOU THINK I CARE YOURE RETARDED BECAUSE I DONT CARE"

Sod off cunts.

Anonymous Sun Mar 12 00:46:26 2017 No.9226422

>>9225362
It's a bunch better, anon. Lots of fun, new friends and a lot of intellectual stimulating stuff, as the other anon said.
You'll be fine, as well as I was: we share the same shitty high school experience and I'm doing just fine now. I am even happy.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 00:48:32 2017 No.9226426 >>9226421 Ok, anon.

Anonymous Sun Mar 12 00:55:09 2017 No.9226440
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>>9226421
>"I DONT CARE!! CANT YOU SEE?? I DONT CARE ABOUT WHAT YOURE SAYING IM JUST REPLYING TO YOU TO TELL YOU I DONT CARE, OKAY?? AND IF YOU THINK I CARE YOURE RETARDED BECAUSE I DONT CARE"

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 01:12:15 2017 No.9226479 >>9226422 Thanks a lot anon. That's what I was hoping. What college do you go to, (or what type of college, if you'd rather not be specific)?

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 01:17:45 2017 No.9226487 File: 16 KB, 200x193, image.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>9226426 >>9226440 Don't even bother spewing your filth outside of pol next time if you can't back up what you say.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 01:51:20 2017 No.9226568 >>9225464 >>9225511 That's obviously because the ones you made in childhood are your oldest friends by a significant magnitude. When you're 45, I'm pretty sure friends you made when you were 25 will be pretty close to you, you fucking retard.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 01:55:48 2017 No.9226577 >>9226487 Back up what? You're basically incoherent at this point, anon. If you want, I can tell you I care.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 03:02:05 2017 No.9226594 >>9226568 if you can make them in the first place

Anonymous Sun Mar 12 03:11:57 2017 No.9226618

>>9222067
>I know I can use them, but it's useless.
Explain this.
>When I'm in some situation I think "now it's gonna be that way"
This isn't using i.e. learning from experience. By thinking the undesired occurrence will repeat itself, you bring it into repetition through fear. Don't say, "Now it will be this way" if "this way" is an unwanted outcome; say "This situation is going off the rails; what can I do to change this?" Although this advice presupposes you have knowledge of positive experience at your disposal upon which to base reorienting action.
>I hurt someone who didn't deserved that. In that way I wish to prescind from them, but I can't.
You can; this is what atonement is. "Guilt" is the emotional part of your brain telling you that you fucked up. Let yourself feel that, and go where your instincts tell you to go based on that feeling. I don't know the details of the pain you caused, so I can't tell you how to atone; you know that yourself.
>I am more than every higher power, but a purpose is necessary. Don't you think?
Not "a purpose," your purpose. Whatever benefits you, over any span of time, do it. This will make you happy.

>>9223880
Nice memeing bud.

>>9225330
Suck Pinochet's cock in Chilean hell faggot

Anonymous Sun Mar 12 03:13:32 2017 No.9226622

>>9226568
>That's obviously because the ones you made in childhood are your oldest friends by a significant magnitude.

The people that I hung out with when I was a teenager are the biggest fucking plebs, a bunch of proletarian whites who no doubt love trump right now, the people I hung out with in college are all fucking commies, but now my friends are all chill normies, sure they're a little boring compared the insane drug binges and road trips of my teen pleb days, and the extremist political views of my college homies in leninism, but quite pleasant for a night out eating fine food and talking about fashion and our careers etc.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 03:22:41 2017 No.9226637 I'm probably going to end up a grease jockey in a salvage yard and die of cancer before I can ever really learn anything about literature or philosophy, but that's okay because I'll have my cute mtf gf by my side

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 03:23:18 2017 No.9226638 >>9221017 Was feeling down a few days ago but I'm back to my senses again. >>9221033 Nice, I was going to post about a movie too. I just rewatched Chungking Express. The vibes I get from it are pretty fucking undescribable.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 03:26:18 2017 No.9226645 >>9226637 if you really work some hard proletarian shit like in a salvage yard your test is gonna go up and your betaness will go down and eventually you'll start wanting to fuck real vaginas instead of small numales dressed up like girls

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 03:28:21 2017 No.9226650 >>9226645 I don't think betaness and test work like stats in an rpg my man

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 03:34:10 2017 No.9226660 File: 262 KB, 1280x708, 1436377657307.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>9226638 I love Chungking Express. Have you seen Fallen Angels?

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 03:36:50 2017 No.9226665 >>9226650 Stats in RPGs are an imitation of nature...it's like saying "I don't think reality works like Homer".

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 03:40:07 2017 No.9226675 >>9226665 Min/Maxing in real life has a lot more shitty consequences than it does in Dark Souls

Anonymous Sun Mar 12 03:40:36 2017 No.9226677
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>>9226665
>Stats in RPGs are an imitation of nature...it's like saying "I don't think reality works like Homer".
>Stats in RPGs are an imitation of nature
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Sure thing brodie, I'll remind myself to allot extra points to mana next time I level up so I can cast more testosterone buffs.

Honestly one of the funniest posts I have ever seen, 9/10

Anonymous Sun Mar 12 03:43:05 2017 No.9226685

>>9226677
so do you think a boxer has been in 30 fights is better than a boxer with 5 fights? have you ever sparred with one of those cuban dudes with 150 amateur fights? vs some kid who came out of golden gloves with 30 fights? and do u suppose when u eat if you eat things high in protein instead of donuts it might help "buff ur strength stat" gee... get some life experience you fucking nerd. do you think gary gygax just dream experience levels and stats and shit out of the ether? it was an imitation of nature. protip: you are fucking stupid.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 03:45:18 2017 No.9226693 >>9226675 >Dark Souls brah if u wanna talk rpgs come with something that ain't pleb as shit

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 03:46:41 2017 No.9226698 >>9226660 No, but I just downloaded it today. It's next on my list. Even if it's half as good I'll be satisfied.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 03:46:56 2017 No.9226701 >>9226693 My dude the only other rpgs I can think of off the top of my head are pokemon, final fantasy, and escape from butcher bay, the last one doesn't even have stats

Anonymous Sun Mar 12 03:48:29 2017 No.9226702

>>9226685
>being this autistic
"Experiences" are not "experience levels." Compare two boxers with thirty fights each, and one will be better than the other, because they are different people. They will not be exactly equal in skill as you and (ostensibly) Gygax would have us believe, though I doubt Gygax was such a flagrant retard.

Time to turn in the scouter, Napa

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 03:48:53 2017 No.9226703 >>9226701 well then maybe you should shut ur jizm hole about whether testosterone and betaness "work like an rpg"

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 03:49:49 2017 No.9226704 >>9226650 They really do.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 03:51:10 2017 No.9226706 >>9226702 the original point still stands, if you work a hard labor job for any amount of time you will be less of a little bitch, try it sometime

Anonymous Sun Mar 12 03:53:51 2017 No.9226716

>>9226706
I have. Literally fuck you to death with a rusty cultivator, you have never worked a "hard labor job" if you think it makes you in any way a better person. Each one will work only specific sets of muscles, and overwork them at that, so if you do the job for more than a decade continuously you'll end up hunched, hobbling, or otherwise crippled.

You have no fucking idea what you're talking about. Die

Anonymous Sun Mar 12 03:55:52 2017 No.9226721

>>9226716
>Each one will work only specific sets of muscles, and overwork them at that, so if you do the job for more than a decade continuously you'll end up hunched, hobbling, or otherwise crippled.

Dude, it's so obvious you have never left your mom's basement in your life. just stfu.

Anonymous Sun Mar 12 04:02:44 2017 No.9226731

>>9226721
>Dude, it's so obvious you have never left your mom's basement in your life. just stfu.
My father used to be 6'2. He is now 5'8, not from age, from daily heavy lifting. I worked in his line for three years and have nothing to show for it but callouses and back problems for which I have been prescribed painkillers and physical therapy. You'll probably say something to the effect of "ahaha only pussies have health problems," and this will prove what a fucking child you are.

Having had the experience of performing heavy physical labor on a daily basis, I would rather work service; at least mental anguish can be easily staunched. You, on the other hand, are projecting neckbearddom onto someone who has actually lived. Again, fuck off till death shitfiend.

Anonymous Sun Mar 12 04:09:28 2017 No.9226748

>>9226731
cool story, but you don't get shorter from lifting heavy things, are you retarded? you are aren't you? you'r dad is probably disappointed he had such a beta son, you should probably forget about the tranny wife and just fucking end yourself before you bring any more shame to him

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 04:11:36 2017 No.9226757 >>9226731 What were you doing, anon?

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 04:12:39 2017 No.9226764 >>9226660 >>9226638 Are either as good as In the Mood for Love?

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 04:14:03 2017 No.9226769 >>9226748 >you don't get any shorter from lifting heavy things I would tell you to google "lumbar compression fracture," but you're so obviously trolling at this point it isn't even funny.

Anonymous Sun Mar 12 04:14:17 2017 No.9226770

>>9226731
>someone who has actually lived

you worked three years and then went on disability like the white trash you are, hopefully a hearty mexican with a wife and a flock of anchor babies is happily working your old job that you were too decadent to do

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 04:14:20 2017 No.9226771 >>9226764 I like them better personally, but they're really very different films.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 04:16:35 2017 No.9226778 >>9226769 lumbar compression fracture is from osteoporosis as a result of aging. no wonder u are such a failure at life, when fathers have children late in life the kid is more likely to have autism, which is explains why you're such a fuckin sperg

Anonymous Sun Mar 12 04:23:11 2017 No.9226799

>>9226770
I'm not on disability, I'm working service.

>>9226757
Tree work. Mostly brush clearing and stump removal.

>>9226778
You still have no fucking idea what you're talking about. You googled the thing I told you not to bother googling, now you think you're an expert. My father had his first fracture before the age of 50, and to this day has no signs of general osteoporosis or osteoarthritis. Stop trying

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 04:27:19 2017 No.9226816 >>9226799 My man the dude is obviously fucking with you, he's got grammar you would normally see on /b/ and an attitude straight out of /r9k/ and /fit/ you don't need to defend me, this shit's a farce

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 04:30:59 2017 No.9226829 >>9226799 so you dad broke is spine doing brush removal? wow man i guess you really do come from degenerate stock, i think maybe you really should marry a tranny after all.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 04:32:49 2017 No.9226837 >>9226816 dude, i'm on 4chan i'm going to use internet vernacular, not write like an uptight academic faggot

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 04:35:03 2017 No.9226841 File: 148 KB, 797x515, 1383835586040.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>9226837 >proper grammar and punctuation >academic

Anonymous Sun Mar 12 04:37:50 2017 No.9226853

>>9226816
If it's a farce, at least it's amusing someone. I'm not trying to defend you, work salvage if you like, I thought I might get a real argument about whether or not manual labor is "virtuous," since /lit/ used to be the one place we could have some semblance of decorum despite the requisite swearing and insults, but obviously, this man >>9226829 is too obsessed with transgendered matrimony. Is there anywhere left on the internet to discuss things reasonably, anonymously, and without censorship?

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 04:39:21 2017 No.9226862 >>9226841 propert grammar is nationalist propoganda

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 04:49:25 2017 No.9226888 >>9226853 >I'm not trying to defend you, work salvage if you like, did u ever read the thread? he said he was too much of a pussy to work manual labor, he got a callous on his hand and had to go on disability and pop oxies all day

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 05:07:47 2017 No.9226937 itt: shit flinging monkeys

Anonymous Sun Mar 12 05:11:18 2017 No.9226950

I hate this shithole more and more every day. I hate how political it has become. I hate that the 2 worst boards have taken over. I hate how ignorant and depressed everyone is. I think most of you are awful people who only barely understand how society functions, on any level. I don't think most of you ever had any meaningful relationships ever. I hate how terrible the site is when Americans are awake. I hate m00t for selling to a useless nip and I hate nipm00t for not nuking it yet. I hate the ceaseless contrarianism. I hate when anyone mentions reddit without realizing we're just the other side of the coin. And I especially hate all the faggots wallowing in self pity that can barely function in society. Yes you, you godawful luckless autistic miserable pieces of shit, making this world a worse place just for existing here. Probably because I see a path I could have walked but chose not to. You are my mutant hunchback dark reflection and you disgust me.

See you tomorrow.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 05:21:50 2017 No.9226989 >>9226950 i love you too

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 07:26:25 2017 No.9227312 >>9226220 It's bizarre the mix of youthful naivete and trying to read Hegel.

Anonymous Sun Mar 12 07:48:44 2017 No.9227360

I'm at uni again, 2 more years to go and I can do what I want in my career. future will be fucking great but I just fucking LOATHE university.

on top of that being busy busy running my guts out but I enjoy it. much better than when I was a jobless neet and/or stoner.

I actually really celebrate life, I enjoy trying to do things and I enjoy having a laugh at the end of every day. if something happens I work to resolve it and move onwards to the next goal in my plan. I generally progress and I feel good about myself. There are periods where I go through a downer but I acknowledge them and let them pass quickly so I can go back to enjoying all of what life has to offer: I have my meditations for this.

but still I am surrounded by bleak. My housemate (55yo bitter woman) is constantly nagging and trying to bring down the mood forever. ( random cheapshots of "you'll never be good enough" et al. at random points of the day ) - I don't understand but she *IS* a 55yo divorcee with no friends and I'm guessing autism.

I went to a friends house the other day, who I haven't seen in a while. I just knocked off work and knocked on his door at 6. he answered in pajamas, told me he's been unemployed for the last 5 months, and he's waiting on his "gormet" fast food to be delivered to him ( while he's unemployed ) : generally he was a downer and very "woe is me"

I hate victimisation. "I'm a victim" is the worst thing anyone can say.

and tl;dr: I won't bring girls into this.

Anonymous Sun Mar 12 07:58:38 2017 No.9227389

>>9226618
>Explain this
My experiences let me see "how should I act" in some situation. But, even though I know this, I do what I want anyway. I move toward pain, toward emotions.

>This isn't using i.e. learning from experience. By thinking the undesired occurrence will repeat itself, you bring it into repetition through fear. Don't say, "Now it will be this way" if "this way" is an unwanted outcome; say "This situation is going off the rails; what can I do to change this?" Although this advice presupposes you have knowledge of positive experience at your disposal upon which to base reorienting action.
Even though I think "what can I do to change this", and I KNOW what, I act differently. I can't ignore my will, even though I know it will lead me to pain.

You can; this is what atonement is. "Guilt" is the emotional part of your brain telling you that you fucked up. Let yourself feel that, and go where your instincts tell you to go based on that feeling. I don't know the details of the pain you caused, so I can't tell you how to atone; you know that yourself.
You are right, in fact, I told that person that I was sorry, and that relieved me.

Not "a purpose," your purpose. Whatever benefits you, over any span of time, do it. This will make you happy.
The fact is I don't have any real purposes at the moment. I'm free, but an empty freedom.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 08:24:03 2017 No.9227484 >>9226950 Leave :^) But seriously, do leave. Lurking 4chan is harmful. Coming in once a while to shitpost or to get recs is fine, but staying fucks you up. I've been coming for some time, now.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 08:43:08 2017 No.9227536 >>9227484 I only ever post on /lit/ and /sp/ anymore. /tv/ had a few great threads lately but I only lurk. I guess I'm just out.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 09:50:16 2017 No.9227773 >>9221035 Do you ever get tired of being completely unoriginal?

Anonymous Sun Mar 12 11:26:46 2017 No.9228013

>>9225538
yes, of course. just that, naturally, the friendships you make earliest are going to be your longest. good luck on the friend quest, buddy.

>>9226568
nobody is disputing this. the point is that it's a bit harder to make them later in life (see >>9226594 ). there's really no need to be angry, friend.

Anonymous Sun Mar 12 11:54:49 2017 No.9228090

Last month I had the first proper relationship I've ever had. I'm a student just over 20 and all my sexual experiences have been thoroughly dysfunctional and served only to fuel my self-loathing ever further. But by chance I knew that this girl, a friend of my sister's, had broken up with her boyfriend, and that she was attending a leaving party for another mutual friend. At the party I took MDMA and on the bus home I asked her to dinner. I took her out twice and each time liked her more and more. We would go back to my house and watch a movie, drink together, laugh together, occasionally staring at each other in quick, briskly ignored moments. She's 18 and utterly, utterly beautiful, with a sensual, geometric neckline, deep, inquisitive eyes and soft and full lips. It's difficult not to veer into cliche when I talk about her. She has a soft, delicate little body and clear skin dotted with little moles. One night we returned to my room and for some unexplainable reason, I reached out and kissed her. I ran my fingers down her spine and moaned and purred like a cat. We made love for over an hour while she squealed and panted and whispered encouragement in my ear. I told her she was special and we stared into each other's eyes as we fucked and rutted like a farmboy and a milkmaid in the hay. For a moment I realised that I was experiencing the kind of furtive, explosive happiness that comes with being unthinking, unquestioning, only moving and loving. I was the happiest I have ever been: for a moment all my guilt and shame and fear disappeared.

We saw each other practically every night for the rest of the week, her body in my hands, looking into her eyes, seeing her smile, coaxing that familiar moan of delight from her with my fingers and my mouth. I took her out, cooked her food, read her my poetry, discussed the books we were reading. I was trying to ignore the certainty of this relationship collapsing. I focused on her warmth, on work, on books, on everything but the incipient suspicion that this was never something that would last. A couple of weeks later I took her to an art exhibition in London. I stared at the canvasses and tried desperately to make the lies I was telling myself more convincing. We went to a bookshop and sat together, she showing me the pages of an art book while I nodded attentively and watched her lovely eyes dart from page to page, her fingers tracing the corners of the hardback. I kissed her in the bookshop. That evening we walked home and she told me how complicated she felt, that I was one of her closest friends and that she didn't want to lose me. I told her never to worry about upsetting me. We hugged and I went home. I took some morphine. We didn't see each other again for a week. I reached for her neck and she told me she couldn't, she couldn't.

Life settled into the same routine I had before I met her. Every night I drink several cans of beer and whatever spirits I can find. Every few days I take morphine.

Anonymous Sun Mar 12 11:58:28 2017 No.9228099

>>9228090
I see her in every woman I see. My work drifted away from me, I'm dropping out of college next week. My family noticed my morphine use and search my room regularly. I'm travelling to New Zealand for a month soon. She'll be with me, in my head, in every second thought. We exchange sterile, polite messages. Next week we're translating poems in our second languages together. When I'm with her my desire is seething under my skin like an illness. This is a mess, a terrible mess, and I have no idea what I am going to do about it.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 12:03:45 2017 No.9228118 >>9228099 Why morphine? Surely heroin is cheaper

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 12:05:31 2017 No.9228123 >>9228118 morphine is bad but manageable, heroin is crossing the rubicon into uncontrollable territory

Anonymous Sun Mar 12 13:10:51 2017 No.9228325

Drank a bit too much last night. Blew through all my cash and cut myself up after a meeting with the pavement. Hangover hasn't kicked in yet, which I'm not looking forward to. Hoping that part will be circumvented. All in all, feel a bit like Kerouac circa Dharma Bums: generally content with life, in an almost spiritual sense, despite unhealthy drinking habits. Now if only I had his charm with women lol

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 13:34:45 2017 No.9228389 I'm 25 but with a penis of a 65 year old man.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 14:26:31 2017 No.9228572 >>9221017 I'm uneducated white, mid 20s male that has no home country, and no education other than German college and I'm moving to another country with what little money i have and I'm so sad and scared it is killing me rn

Anonymous Sun Mar 12 14:39:44 2017 No.9228629

I knew this wouldn't last. She's not even the most beautiful or smart girl, but I don't really care about it. She accepted me. Without any conditions attached. With all my troubles, my defects and my fears.

She would tell me I'm cute and beautiful. That the girls that have rejected me don't really know me. But I know that I'm an ugly piece of shit. I thought that maybe she would like to be with me.

But the distance and her boyfriend make it impossible. I don't know, anyone would tell me I'm a beta orbiter, but I don't feel like that. She's really kind and lovely. I have trouble writing what I feel. I just want to cry because I will never fall in love with someone that can accept me.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 14:41:18 2017 No.9228638 >>9228629 Grow up kid.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 14:41:59 2017 No.9228641 >>9228638 ebin

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 14:45:42 2017 No.9228662 >>9228641 I'm serious.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 14:51:06 2017 No.9228686 >>9228662 I didn't ask for your help :^)

Anonymous Sun Mar 12 15:13:02 2017 No.9228756

I don't know what the point of living is. By all accounts my life is great (good job I enjoy, paid house and car, nice bank account) but everyday I wake up like a robot in a routine. I don't feel joy anymore or sadness or anger or any of the things that make us human. I don't know what to do.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 15:17:20 2017 No.9228774 >>9228756 wow man so meaningless to be well off how bad for you that you dont feel that you are living fuck you

Anonymous Sun Mar 12 15:18:52 2017 No.9228780

>>9228090
That's tough, but hopefully it'll make you realize that a relationship between two people is based on more than lofty dreams of timeless love. It's a tough, pragmatic thing that requires attention, not in the way of a being attentive about a piece of art, but in the way of being attentive about your garden: it's hard work

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 15:28:45 2017 No.9228820 >>9228090 how is morphine, anon? is it worth the trouble?

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 15:40:42 2017 No.9228847 >>9228629 >I will never fall in love with someone that can accept me and then, it happens again and again https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PQEiWxJIFkE

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 15:41:54 2017 No.9228850 >>9228756 you need danger!

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 15:51:04 2017 No.9228881 I can't bear to be alone. I think I might be borderline.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 15:56:29 2017 No.9228894 >>9228881 you're not alone you're on /lit/

Anonymous Sun Mar 12 15:58:12 2017 No.9228900
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I am accelerating, doing more and more stuff. Projects, meetings, interests, school and so on. Some day i am going to crash, everything falling. It has happened before. I will not do anything about it though, it is just late modernity in its purest form.

Also i realised that if i succeed in studying philosophy (and actually make a career) i will become a right wing Zizek. I am already sniffling because of perpetual cold/allergy/whatever and rambling like an absolute madman. I dont know if i should go with it or become a STEMfag instead.

Anonymous Sun Mar 12 16:09:20 2017 No.9228927
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I need compliments. I always thought that the common practice of friends (especially female) constantly complimenting each other was contemptible vanity, but now I understand. I never used to put myself 'out there' and just stayed at home, so I never experienced rejection. Ive been trying to learn social stuff, and only 2 weeks in the continual rejection is taking a real toll on me mentally. I need someone to give me brainless compliments as a recovery mechanism. At first I felt ashamed about this, but I think its probably normal.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 17:27:56 2017 No.9229268 My computer was so dirty it literary stopped working.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 17:56:35 2017 No.9229389 >>9228847 I'm sorry but what does this mean? You feel the same anon?

Anonymous Sun Mar 12 18:04:42 2017 No.9229422

>>9221017
I've been thinking about writing a dystopian short story (a fictional manifesto of the ruling party if you will), and one of their methods of control is by genetically breeding out all races (black, white, hispanic, asian, and all the like) to where humanity is ethnically homogenous and easier to control. Also, because it takes place after a nuclear war, most of humanity is dead anyway, so the need for any concentration camps are minimal. Regardless, I believe it would be pretty racist and wrong of anyone to do something like this, because it destroys so much valuable culture in the process. What do you guys think, and why?

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 18:19:29 2017 No.9229480 >>9229268 damn u a freak, son

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 18:23:20 2017 No.9229495 File: 101 KB, 600x579, 1455789147482.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] If God is omniscient then it means He doesn't have a free will. It keeps bugging me

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 18:25:57 2017 No.9229500 How does one write if one has nothing to say?

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 18:26:35 2017 No.9229503 >>9229500 just write some genre shit i guess

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 18:26:55 2017 No.9229504 File: 43 KB, 600x174, the_pipe_strip.gif [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] Im going to write a 10 page essay on this dumb comic, put my friends name on it, and leave it outside my professors office. that oughta embarass him.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 18:30:41 2017 No.9229516 >>9229504 Do it, faggot.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 18:33:59 2017 No.9229538 >>9229495 God is Omniscient and Omnipotent in the sense that he can't engage in paradoxes.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 18:36:20 2017 No.9229546 >>9229480 I live in a dusty place.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 18:37:23 2017 No.9229552 I can only masturbate to amateur porn from my country. It feels more real.

Anonymous Sun Mar 12 18:44:52 2017 No.9229576

I'm tired. Not physically tired. Physically I'm restless and can't settle to anything. Nothing holds my attention for more than five minutes. I'm emotionally tired. Mentally tired maybe. Like all that's left deep down inside is something worn thin and pulled taut and there's nothing really left but exhaustion and simmering fury that crops up at the most inopportune moments.

I enjoy nothing anymore. Every thing I do is a chore. I feel sick always and my head aches. I snap and snarl at the people I should hold dear. I regret it, but I hate being around them now and want them to leave.

I want to go to sleep.

My medication isn't working anymore.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 18:51:18 2017 No.9229602 why won't these niggers stop blasting their fucking music every damn day

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 18:54:05 2017 No.9229616 Plato was right about democracy btw.

Anonymous Sun Mar 12 20:21:27 2017 No.9229965
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>>9229516

okay, just finished
whaddya think?
Hope you guys dont mind, I took a lot of the ideas in the earlier thread to quickly write a 6 page essay on The Pipe Strip.

Im gonna hand it into my professor under my friend's name I think.

Tell me what you think, friends. I'm a STEMfag, so i'm not good at writing, but I did my best. Suggestions welcome.

https://docs.google.com/document/d/1kE6sL5ptUEofa9y43k3bs-taTQdHuxwDFx1ngFyDBU4/edit?usp=drivesdk

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 20:22:09 2017 No.9229968 >>9229965 was jim davis jewish?

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 22:05:55 2017 No.9230336 both my cups of coffee tasted like shit today wtf

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 22:09:18 2017 No.9230346 >>9230336 Both my shits tasted like coffee today. This is strange because I drink tea.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 22:11:05 2017 No.9230352 >>9230336 >both >only drinking two cups of coffee woo laddie maybe your milk went bad if u use milk? or maybe someone pissed in the coffee pot? i seem to remember that as a recurring theme in "hidden cam" shows

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 22:12:52 2017 No.9230359 File: 12 KB, 243x243, thoughts.png [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>9230346 hmmm

Anonymous Sun Mar 12 22:19:00 2017 No.9230381

To be literally minded, you have to write in prose like this.This is prose which suggests a semblance of intelligence but which has no real substance or character behind it. It is quite easy to see how visiting this board would dilute one's writing style to this point of mediocrity if one were to subscribe to the ideology of the left-hand Suzuki method, a practice which is quite obviously held in high esteem by many of the posters here, if misunderstood and malpracticed such a method would be if applied to writing.

Anonymous Sun Mar 12 22:20:19 2017 No.9230386

>>9230352
the day is far from over but i feel if i have another ill just get more shit tasting water in my mouth instead of the usually smooth brew.

In fact I don't want to do anything else today, for just another Monday this one has been fair more disappointing than most. I wish i could just go back to bed and try again tomorrow.

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 22:22:04 2017 No.9230389 >>9230381 This reminds me of when Geir criticizes Karl Ove for donning an essayistic style in book two: "It's the easiest thing in the world(.)".(?)

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 22:44:07 2017 No.9230478 >>9230352 it was the milk the day is saved

>>	Anonymous Sun Mar 12 22:45:09 2017 No.9230481 >>9230478 yeah, if ur coffee literally tasted like puke, it's expired milk

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 00:22:41 2017 No.9230821 >>9228090 You need to kill yourself ASAP

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 00:29:36 2017 No.9230848 I just got my period for the first time but it's coming out my asshole and I'm a man what do I do

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 00:37:08 2017 No.9230879 >>9230848 I can help you, but first I need to know what it tastes like.

Anonymous Mon Mar 13 00:50:40 2017 No.9230913

>>9227389
>Even though I think "what can I do to change this", and I KNOW what, I act differently. I can't ignore my will, even though I know it will lead me to pain.
Your will is only leading you to pain because you "think" it will, i.e. you will that it will. Also, you have to remember that every situation is, in fact, different. So, if you think you "know" how to act around a person you have just met because you have previously experienced emotional rejection, that "knowledge" is something you have to be cautious of. Every new situation needs to be treated uniquely; experience helps you understand how this unique situation is similar to other unique situations you have been in.

"How you should act" in a given situation can only be determined when you're in it. Experience allows you to make that determination more quickly, i.e. the "I'm fucking up" alarm goes off in the situation, as opposed to afterward.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 02:18:37 2017 No.9231116 I really sorry you still have feelings for him but its not worthy anymore. Just please stop posting discreetly about him.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 02:23:08 2017 No.9231132 >>9221251 I always wonder how many repeated interactions I have on /lit/. It's such a small board so it probably happens often

Anonymous Mon Mar 13 02:27:02 2017 No.9231142

>>9221668
Sometimes I physically gasp as I get an overwhelming of despair, usually when I'm lying in bed, like now. The feeling usually passes in a second. It's almost like a micro-panic attack.

(If anyone has any idea what this is, or can relate, please share).

Anonymous Mon Mar 13 02:30:37 2017 No.9231151

>>9221786
I relate anon. Although I'm young enough that I haven't given up on committing meaningful acts while I'm still alive.

Have you ever considered doing volunteer work in dangerous areas? (think helping refugees, doctors without borders, that sort of thing).

If you don't die, maybe your life will suddenly feel worthwhile because you've done good for people, and if you do die, it will be exactly what you've been hoping for.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 02:32:31 2017 No.9231156 >>9221795 It builds a sense of community because it is so lacking in most of our personal lives

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 02:36:36 2017 No.9231167 >>9222024 Why do you feel trapped, anon?

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 03:04:34 2017 No.9231234 >>9230913 You know what, you're absolutely right. It's like you said. Only now I can realise it. Hoping my mistake will be forgiven. Thanks for the conversation, anon.

Rina Nagai is Goddess Mon Mar 13 03:14:30 2017 No.9231256

>>9221017
What is On my Mind
Lately, Now, usuAlly?
Which?

Is that open for selection? Fine
I choose lately

LAtely
I feel myself not a member of a nation
or a religion, or a race, or a political ideaology

It annoys me when I read "spiritual" books and the main thrust is that it attempts to remove from me these ideas that I belong to this or that group

Well I've never felt that

But I'm not a bodhisatva, so where does that leave me? this is never addressed

Stop addressing the layman, the slag, the mainstay nobody

Address ME

I dont care about that shit

I want to KNOW

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 03:33:25 2017 No.9231287 >>9221017 damn this is a very cool picture and it looks like an album cover

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 05:13:55 2017 No.9231461 >>9229965 i think i love you. i'm going to save this and show my boyfriend. i was telling him about the strip the other day. i got really excited and he called me "weird in a good way." i felt bad. i really like this, though.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 05:24:23 2017 No.9231494 >>9231142 You're so fat that you LITERALLY SUFFOCATE YOURSELF TO THE POINT OF GASPING FOR AIR.

Anonymous Mon Mar 13 05:36:21 2017 No.9231532
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>>9221017
political divisiveness seems to be pushing more people to the left and to the right, but it seems to be pushing me towards the center
you see people cutting ties with friends and families, fighting strangers, over things they can't control and it just makes you less certain of things

I suppose the only political conviction I can be certain of is taking care of yourself and your own. Try and be the best person you can be, and everything else will fall into place.

hopefully

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 05:37:58 2017 No.9231536 >>9229965 lol, that's some top shelf stuff

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 06:53:22 2017 No.9231643 >>9221017 If rooms for the mentally insane looked like that I'd go bonkers.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 07:08:35 2017 No.9231668 >>9221017 Pussy

Anonymous Mon Mar 13 07:45:24 2017 No.9231736
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i'm having a bit of a minor episode but i feel better for having recognised it as an episode, an episode, by the very nature of being 'an' episode, which will end, and which is only temporary. i feel bad now and erratic and frustrated, but it will end and i will return to 'normal' at some point.
it will happen again and when it happens again i will do the same thing and remind myself it is only temporary and that i will return to 'normal' at some point.

i love to read for pure and utter escapism, im not talking escapism as in disappearing into fantasy worlds but just escaping into the world the author has created. when i'm reading a book it is almost like a sedative. all i want to do is read forever.

it is late at night and i am hungry.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 08:38:27 2017 No.9231835 I sincerely believe that if you're a guy in your twenties and you're not using most of your free time chasing and having sex with women, then you're living your life wrongly. There will be enough time for philosophy and classic novels later.

Anonymous Mon Mar 13 08:43:22 2017 No.9231848

>>9228780
Love is a process, like Fromm said, and when we were together what we had was reflective of that. We bought each other gifts, we made an effort for each other - it wasn't at all a matter of me going full fedora and constantly showering her with praise, presents, poems, all that stuff. That's the shit you learn not to do in your teenage years.

I don't think that it was timeless, or so transcendental that it makes me go all solipsistic. It was just a very, very good thing. That's all it was. Now I don't have this good thing, I am sad.

>>9228820
Don't take heroin. If you want morphine, don't make it a habit. Use a sealed, sterile new needle and take a low dose. Don't do it while seriously drunk. To be honest, the safer option is to buy a packet of codeine, measure out about 200mg worth of pills, grind them up and cold-water-extract them. It feels about as good as a mainlined or plugged dose of morphine. Do it at night, put on some music, read something. Don't make it a habit. It's worth it but make it a one off.

>>9230821
If my country permitted handguns I worry that I would have done it by now. Been in hospital twice for overdoses, I know what they feel like and it's a thoroughly nasty way to go. But hey, if a few months pass and I feel the same way, who knows?

Anonymous Mon Mar 13 12:10:14 2017 No.9232442

>>9228099
You are such a bitch. You lost your marbles over a relationship and you're destroying your long term plans. If you continue to let it wreck you, you're going to look back and cringe how you childishly squandered your life away to bitch and moan. This isn't a book, this isn't a movie, this is real life and you're going to waste it.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 12:24:11 2017 No.9232481 I'm not really a man, I'm a child who can't anything by himself and whose penis don't even work properly. I should have received the Spartan treatment as a baby.

Anonymous Mon Mar 13 12:25:54 2017 No.9232488

This is a true story, which has weighed heavy on my conscience.
I fancied a girl. I did nasty things to express my love: endless likes on facebook, poems which plagiarized Joyce, and a senseless abandon for any kind of common sense.
She took the hint, to which she told me I was interesting, but could not date me, as she was with another.
I did not care. She was a toy to be played with, a prize to be won. I got the name of the guy, with some clever subversion. I told her I was gay, after all, what straight man writes poetry? I summoned the Machiavellian in me to do this. After finding his name, I found him. He did not know what happened until I had already clubbed him on the pavement. He was a weak man. I felt some remorse after I saw him look up at me when I told him my name and to remember my face. What had gotten over me? What barbarism existed in me to do this?
I got her to visit me at the park later that day. She had known nothing of the previous encounter, of the clubbing, or of his broken knees to my surprise, after all how could this homosexual be capable of such violence? I had pleasant conversation with her, and we had agreed to meet again the next day.
The next morning police came to my door and arrested me. I denied all claims. I fed my lawyer a stunning story: that of a boyfriend jealous seeking to stifle the freedom of a helpless homosexual who was subverting the attention of his woman, a man on the wrong side of history. His lawyer had only his defendant's word, and I had the massive and tutelary power of a liberal ideology behind me. His girlfriend had testified against her boyfriend (recently broken up). I was gotten off of all charges, declared innocent and cut loose.
In the months that followed I revealed to her my feelings, and my recent attraction towards females. She saw me as a sensitive man, unmarred by the atrocities of masculinity. I began to have sex with her regularly. I stopped communicating with her after a few months. I had grown tired of her, and I wondered what this whole thing was for. I had realized that the person I was was not the person that was seen, and everyday since I have become weary of the mask that separates me from the outside world.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 12:31:30 2017 No.9232507 >>9232488 Nice short story.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 12:56:05 2017 No.9232603 We knew it was not forever, from the very start. Arrivederci Our sunny days are over, now's the time to part. Kiss me again for the last time, darling forgive me, forget me. I'm stepping out from your life.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 13:15:50 2017 No.9232665 >>9232481 wow, that's dark

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 13:21:56 2017 No.9232683 >>9232488 How much of this is true?

Anonymous Mon Mar 13 13:24:11 2017 No.9232690

>>9231848
>If my country permitted handguns I worry that I would have done it by now.

i feel the same way. i'm not even really that depressed or anything, but sometimes i wake up in the morning and if there was a gun on my table i would just reach over it blast my head before i have a chance to think about not doing it, sometimes when I was wake up i'm just like oh crap another day of this bullshit, i'm not even unhappy or anything, just kind of bored i guess, but then i wake up and drink some coffee and skim macrumors.com and watch the latest video on the thrasher youtube channel and continue with my life.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 13:24:37 2017 No.9232692 File: 1.17 MB, 1280x720, 1488771877559.webm [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>9232488 >I had the massive and tutelary power of a liberal ideology behind me You fucking hero

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 13:25:56 2017 No.9232697 what's on my mind? i'm not going to be able to wack off for like two weeks. i'm going to be so fucking horny, i hope i don't end up fucking a slut or a dude or something.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 13:32:57 2017 No.9232714 >>9232665 You would agree if you saw me.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 13:36:14 2017 No.9232722 Actually, not only was Plato right about democracy, I'd say it is even worse in the long run than tyranny.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 13:37:47 2017 No.9232724 File: 76 KB, 750x998, the-son-of-man.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hmNUhG3SJfo

Anonymous Mon Mar 13 13:39:53 2017 No.9232731

>>9232714
There are certain games where you will lose and other games where you will win. Kant was fucking disgusting, every woman that saw him was disgusted by him, and yet he is one of the most important philosophers of all time. Hitler had one ball, and yet he conquered Europe. FDR was paralyzed from the waist down, his dick literally didn't work, but brought the country out of WWII and the great depression while being one of the only presidents in history to ever be elected for a third and fourth term.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 14:08:18 2017 No.9232843 >>9232731 Maybe they excelled in other areas of life precisely because they were without something else and were compensating.

Anonymous Mon Mar 13 14:22:38 2017 No.9232911

>>9232843
This is exactly my point, except they weren't compensations in order to justify their worth, they were motivators. Your weaknesses are one side of a coin, the other side being your strengths. You won't do great things out of a desire to prove yourself, but rather out of a rage against all of that inside of you that is futile. Frustrations are the most potent fuels with which to kindle great fires.

Anonymous Mon Mar 13 14:57:22 2017 No.9233075
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Little bit concerned i molested a guy on saturday night.

He asked if I wanted to dance at this club, and I was wayy drunker than I usually like to be. While we danced I pulled him close and kissed him a few times, but he didnt reciprocate and he never explicitly consented to me kissing him either.

While I was wasted I felt pretty good about it all, but now I'm sober I feel guilty and a little bit ashamed. It was just so loud and i felt so bulletproof.

Kill me...

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 15:02:08 2017 No.9233097 >>9233075 fag

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 15:06:54 2017 No.9233119 >>9229602 because it is lit

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 15:11:11 2017 No.9233145 >>9226298 be careful the more you love the more you'll get hurt what doesn't kill you makes you stronger tho

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 15:15:07 2017 No.9233156 >>9233075 don't worry he liked it

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 15:16:32 2017 No.9233160 >>9233075 Tracing your ip now, rapist.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 15:38:37 2017 No.9233263 >>9231461 you should check lasagna cat on youtube

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 15:39:47 2017 No.9233267 >>9232911 Say more things about this

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 15:44:27 2017 No.9233288 >>9233097 Why do people feel the need to point that a man attracted to a man is, indeed, homosexual? Can someone help me understand why this is even something someone would care about?

Anonymous Mon Mar 13 15:47:42 2017 No.9233308

>>9233288

Same reason any time a black dude posts on /fit/ he gets 1-3 replies that just say "nigger".

A lot of underage 4chan users are new to the site and anxious to fit in. Making quality post is difficult, so they just rely on the cliches theyve heard about 4chan from other sites and think being racist or edgy will make them "cool".

Plus some people like the "You"s.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 15:49:55 2017 No.9233324 >>9233308 Shut the fuck up, faggot.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 15:50:02 2017 No.9233325 >>9233308 And if you ever criticize such childish behavior, you're either derided as a cuck, a redditor, or being mad.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 15:50:57 2017 No.9233331 >>9233075 Enjoy your aids, you wretched faggot.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 15:55:45 2017 No.9233347 >>9233324 u mad reddit cuck?

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 16:00:58 2017 No.9233387 I'm afraid of women and I want to hate them but I can't

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 16:03:49 2017 No.9233401 >>9233387 you'll find happiness

Anonymous Mon Mar 13 16:25:13 2017 No.9233513 [DELETED]

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>>9233387
Fuck. Why do the always seem to have secretive, malicious intentions towards us? Maybe I'm too paranoid but I can't connect with them because I think they eventually do something shitty against me.

Anonymous Mon Mar 13 16:26:56 2017 No.9233519
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>>9233387
Fuck. Why do girls always seem to have secretive, malicious intentions towards us? Maybe I'm too paranoid but I can't connect with them because I think they'll eventually do something shitty against me.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 16:40:47 2017 No.9233566 >>9232731 >one of the only presidents in history to ever be elected for a third or fourth term Are you fucking retarded?

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 16:51:36 2017 No.9233595 File: 107 KB, 640x1076, image.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] sometimes I forget I have literal autism until I see stuff like this only reading the god delusion just cause

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 16:56:17 2017 No.9233611 File: 1 KB, 50x50, 1489150762738 very small Kant.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] >>9232731 >Kant was fucking disgusting, every woman that saw him was disgusted by him Source on this? Would like to know more about his personal life.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 17:12:44 2017 No.9233665 >>9233566 It really is true, though. Dude ruled for twelve years.

Anonymous Mon Mar 13 17:35:40 2017 No.9233756
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Sometimes I think that it would be great to be the right-hand man of the leader of a decent-sized post-apocalyptic community, or otherwise someone of importance in a similar setting. There would always be something concrete to do and achieve: expanding the farms by chopping down forest, organizing combat training and partaking, interviewing and evaluating survivors that have stumbled on the lands of the community and would wish to join it... No day would be exactly the same: while there would be physical tasks, like scavenging, building and stockpiling, you would mostly carry out the planning and organizing of such things.

After a day of going through manifests from scavengers and comparing them to catalogs of the central warehouse, and making plans about future loggings, you'd get to sit down with a good book from the library you organized. Maybe you'd go and spend some time with some of the other high-ranking people of the community after that, or ask your children what they learned at school today - a school you had a pivotal role in creating.

You'd be good at your job. You know it, and so do the people around you. They respect you, and even though some of the laborers might occasionally mutter about the damn white-collars who rarely get their hands dirty, they'd still know that you have a crucial role in keeping the settlement up and running.

Life wouldn't be too easy. The stakes would be high, but that's precisely why you'd feel alive.

Anonymous Mon Mar 13 18:44:58 2017 No.9234023
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For years i've been struggling to love myself and be confident in who i am. Like i don't fucking know what the fuck is wrong with me. I know i'm a good person inside, i care deeply about my few friends and i know they like me too. I know a lot of things and when i'm at ease, can be a great conversation partner. Yet, there's always this thick layer of shyness i guess? keeping me from connecting with other people and making me look like a closed emotionless robot.

It seems like i made some progress but yet again today met some coworkers and my mind went blank again never saying anything and laughing nervously while they were talking to each other. They eventually ignored me since they realized i wouldn't say anything.

After shit like that happens i close myself from those people delusonially thinking that they don't like me or something. It's the same pattern over and over again. Driving me crazy.

I'm moving to a new city this summer and i feel like this is my chance to restart anew. I really really hope things are gonna go well since i'm gonna live by my own for the first time in my life.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 19:29:53 2017 No.9234197 I feel like life is very much like that old blues standard "nobody Knows you when you're down and out" Is it really true that no one will ever know the "real" you? That we're supposed to live our entire lives lonely? I want to die.

Anonymous Mon Mar 13 19:32:57 2017 No.9234209
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>>9234197

Thats what love is for, man.

And I dont just mean relationships I mean *the* relationship with recipricol and generous love. The greatest thing about love isnt the sex or the social prestige or even spending time together, its having someone who you let know the real you in confidence that you know theyll love you anyway.

Anonymous Mon Mar 13 19:34:09 2017 No.9234212

>>9221017
I thought I was really clicking with this one girl in my class. She was great, so explosive and full of life and interesting, but today she was so cold. She lied and told me she was going another way so she wouldn't have to walk with me.

It hurt, I guess. I don't understand. God am I really that obnoxious? What did I do?

Anonymous Mon Mar 13 19:34:13 2017 No.9234214

>>9232442
nigga please with the stoic bullshit

I've cut ties with a degree I didn't enjoy and in a year's time I'll be studying something I probably enjoy much more, likely at a better college. What have I got to waste? I didn't really have any long-term plans to begin with. I'm not rich and I live in one of the most expensive cities in the world. I speak a few languages and I'm going to end up with a much better degree than the one I was doing. If doing a degree in a mechanical subject to prepare myself for a life of drudgery and debt slavery is what is meant by a "long-term plan", then I'll childishly sqaunder it again. You ever fucked a woman so well that you didn't give a fuck about anything, just for a moment? I have and I'd burn every book I own to do it again.

>>9232690
To be fair if I lived in the US I'd probably want to kill myself less. Britain is like Japan only without the highly developed sex indsutry to occupy lonely fucks like me - obsessed with euphemism, severely emotionally repressed and rigidly fixated on tradition. I'd rather live in Germany than this shithole.

Anonymous Mon Mar 13 19:39:10 2017 No.9234231

I am incapable of expressing myself in a meaningful way. Every single time I feel as if a feeling of mine might hint at something deeper than the steady nothingness of everyday existence I cannot express it. I grab a pen to write it down. I grab a pencil to sketch it. I fill my lungs to sing it. Meaningless words, formless scribbles, raw noises. I can craft nothing of meaning and I can't help but feeling that this is not because of some invisible barrier holding back the enormous depths of my majestic soul, but rather because I am just shallow. More and more I have come to think that those short moments of perceived meaningfulness are nothing but more expressions of how lacking substance I truly am.

This sucks.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 19:44:29 2017 No.9234249 >>9234197 There's no real 'you' nigger.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 19:53:04 2017 No.9234270 When I look at myself in the mirror I think I'm mildly handsome but when I try to take a picture of myself I think I'm pretty ugly. I don't know which image to trust.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 19:54:08 2017 No.9234275 >>9221017 I want to have a wank but I know if I do I'm gonna be sleepy afterward, so I've got to finish my essay first.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 19:56:58 2017 No.9234286 >>9234270 The picture, you unconsciously hide your defects from yourself in the mirror.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 19:57:21 2017 No.9234288 File: 574 KB, 2000x1000, o-MAN-SITTING-facebook.jpg [View same] [iqdb] [saucenao] [google] I'm feeling very sad at this time.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 19:58:18 2017 No.9234290 >>9234270 me2

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 20:00:26 2017 No.9234299 >>9234286 fuck...kill me now

Anonymous Mon Mar 13 20:01:05 2017 No.9234300

>>9234286
Nah, I'm hot as fuck when I take like a mirror pic. But selfies are terrible. It's just the shock of not recognizing yourself. Like hearing your voice for the first time.
Though, you're probably right and I'm just ugly, I've never believed any of the women who have said otherwise.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 20:01:53 2017 No.9234305 >>9234288

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 20:11:30 2017 No.9234350 >>9231835 How can i chase women if i'm a STEM student?

Anonymous Mon Mar 13 20:16:00 2017 No.9234366

>>9234350
tell them all the big bank you'll be making once you graduate and starting working as an H1B indentured servant side by side with other third world street shitters! she'll totally fuck you and not that literature major who's dad is a banker! baaalllllin!

Anonymous Mon Mar 13 20:17:53 2017 No.9234372
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Some years ago I found a random journal in the middle of a junk pile in the desert.

Shit was deteriorated as fuck and very dusty. Plenty of what was written on it was too smudged to understand, and what wasn't smudged had an almost unreadable handwriting.

Some of things on it were salvageable thought.

It was made a little before the year 2000.

It was used by more than one person, as it has letters between some of its alleged users and different handwritings.

It has two or three pages dedicated to random quotes (from kant to Bruce Lee)

One of the users played guitar, since there is a list of chords.

One of the users was learning Portuguese. There's a list of useful sentences.

At least one of the users is from the US. There was one address.

One of the users drew like hr giger

For some reason the company that made the journal put its name on the back of it in gold letters but nothing on the front.

Pic related. One of the drawings on it.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 20:18:18 2017 No.9234376 >>9234350 Tinder, bars. Be creative you robot fuck.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 20:26:04 2017 No.9234408 >>9232714 >>9232731 another one was Satre. Lazy eye, 5 foot tall, troll-tier ugly. still made something of his life

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 20:31:55 2017 No.9234437 >>9233519 you are insanely paranoid. most of my friends are girls and they literally do not care about sweaty neckbeards

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 20:44:44 2017 No.9234495 >>9234212 Don't let it bother you. Just turn your attention to another girl. The more you let it bother you, the more it'll twist you.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 20:56:55 2017 No.9234549 >>9234437 Fair enough.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 21:34:34 2017 No.9234687 >>9234275 *okay, now I've done both and I'm having a bit of carrot cake before bed. Updates as events warrant.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 21:58:25 2017 No.9234787 i'm going to cut back on drinking. just not tonight.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 22:14:40 2017 No.9234855 >>9234787 I've been saying that everyday since I relapsed about a month ago.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 23:19:10 2017 No.9235120 >>9233665 You are fucking retarded.

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 23:21:17 2017 No.9235139 >>9234372 That's so cool, do you plan on somehow contacting them via the address?

>>	Anonymous Mon Mar 13 23:21:25 2017 No.9235140 >>9234787 This reminds of the joke I tell every girl I want to fuck who smokes. >Quitting smoking is easy, I've done it hundreds of times.

Anonymous Mon Mar 13 23:59:14 2017 No.9235262

it's literally halfway through march and there is a gigantic blizzard coming through, this winter just never fucking ends, i want to go outside without putting on three layers, and being able to talk on the phone outside without my hand going numb, and being able to get home not half to thaw out for ten minutes before i can type my fucking password to login, this is fucking bullshit man, seriously. oh, and for some reason when there's snow, mother fuckers feel like they don't have to clean up after their dog, so for the next week or two (until there is a strong cleansing rain) there will be fucking random dog shits being revealed in melting piles of snow like some long lost bronze age explorer who died in the fucking alps, dude, fuck this shit.

>>	Anonymous Tue Mar 14 00:01:21 2017 No.9235267 >>9235262 Western New York here. It was like 65 degrees a week and a half ago. It's like 12 now and yes, a fucking blizzard. It makes me angry.

Anonymous Tue Mar 14 00:08:40 2017 No.9235277

>>9221017
is this the best i could do with my life
why does it seem like people never take me seriously
why do i look so young
all my former friends and classmates have exciting fulfilling lives and i languish in a small room, can't even open a fucking window, paper thin walls separating me and 3 other people.
they bring people over a t every opportunity
i escaped a life at home for this
why the fuck am i even alive
why the fuck havent i killed myself yet
my job is a joke
im tired of being patronized all the time
is it even worhtt trying
i miss khadijah
it can't be wrong to commit suicide
i'll never be somebody worth knowing
just delusional and small and simple

Anonymous Tue Mar 14 00:18:48 2017 No.9235293

>>9221251
>>9231132
outside the trinity I would wager it happens remarkably often. Many more anons that post as regularly and more regularly than many tripfags that became recognizable, and they had dumb attention whore antics on their side.

These smaller boards really are small. only about a hundred people have posted in this thread.

Anonymous Tue Mar 14 00:19:09 2017 No.9235294

>>9235277
>i languish in a small room, can't even open a fucking window, paper thin walls separating me and 3 other people.
>they bring people over a t every opportunity
>i escaped a life at home for this
>why the fuck am i even alive
>why the fuck havent i killed myself yet

i can relate to that, although my jobs are ok, but i don't trust them to last long enough to upgrade my living conditions, so despite having some decent cash coming in still live like a high school dropout, i just know if i go and get a nice apartment downtown, or god forbid try to put a down payment on property, one or both of my jobs will dry up. i know there's at least one guy at one job who is trying to force me out, luckily he doesn't have the power to do that and the big boss knows i work hard as fuck, but i still feel like if they need to cut someone it's going to be me, or they will just try to screw me in some way that i'm forced to leave even tho my job will technically still exist (like moving me to an impossible location, or give me some fucking up schedule that fucks with my other job) and my other job seems stable for at least a year or two, but some dude with an mba and suit come through at any moment decide the shit i'm working on isn't what they want to do anymore and end my gig, so it's like fuck my life man, fucking baby boomers with their bullshit jobs for life with a high school diploma and shit, and yeah, some normie who always has tons of ppl over moved into my building and it's so fucking disruptive, i don't know man, i guess i should just get lost in working and forget my problems, but sometimes i just have to take some time out to shitpost

>>	Anonymous Tue Mar 14 00:45:24 2017 No.9235366 >>9221017 Fuck off belly fat.

Anonymous Tue Mar 14 01:08:31 2017 No.9235430

>>9235366
it's almost spring time, by an Apple Watch (tm) and Close Your Rings everyday, not even shilling, do it. I sold my old Apple Watch, but now I miss it and am going to get a new one to track my runs when they announce the new batch of bands next week

Anonymous Tue Mar 14 01:14:35 2017 No.9235453

After I get home from a long day of work, what I wish I was doing was reading literature or working on my novel.

Instead I end up wasting my time on the internet and/or jacking off to porn.

An image of myself: on the stage, accepting an award for my groundbreaking novel

The reality: I'm wiping cum off my stomach again after jerking off for 2 hours.

>>	Anonymous Tue Mar 14 01:16:15 2017 No.9235461 >>9235453 hey that sounds ok to me, i live with a lot of ppl i never know when i'm gonna get a chance to get a nut off

Anonymous Tue Mar 14 01:19:00 2017 No.9235468

>>9221017
I've been talking to a girl since August, last August.

We aren't in any romantic relationship, but at the same time I've never felt closer to another person, especially one I have never actually met.

She is not a perfect person but neither am I, and around her I feel no need to be anyone I am not.

Before I met her I'd been going through a rough patch, and seeing her facebook profile pic in that chat bubble and feeling the two sharp vibrations made me feel like someone cared to talk to me. That was everything to me when I felt like my existence positively impacted nobody. Here was this person, a fellow amalgam of monkey and mutations, who had no reason to talk to me other than because she wanted to.

Being noticed feels good in a cosmic sense, and being noticed for being you feels even better.

In this big wide world it's easy to get lost.

What she has taught me it's fine to get lost if you're not alone.

Diane, you don't go on 4chan so you'd never see this, but thank you for being you and for being you to me. It means a lot.

I can't wait to actually meet you in April.

To anyone reading this who feels as I once felt, and in time may feel again, know that if you want someone to care about you, start by truly caring about you for who you are. You need to first care of yourself. Look into your soul with love and purge and foster as your love sees fit. This is not narcissism. Narcissism is letting the weeds grow with the grain.

Allow your thoughts and reflection to carry you away from conclusions you thought you had made.

It's OK to cry and talk yourself through things alone.

Turn off all electronics and put books down and just sit there and allow your mind to wander.

And remember, I care about you and I want you to succeed. I do not know you, and I likely never will, and that's fine, but I care about you just the same.

You may not feel as though you mean anything to anyone, and that may be true, but it honestly does not have to be. Love and care for yourself and others will follow your example. I've been where you are before and I've escaped.

Thank you for reading.

>>	Anonymous Tue Mar 14 01:21:08 2017 No.9235476 >>9235468 >I can't wait to actually meet you in April. doh ho ho ho lol

>>	Anonymous Tue Mar 14 01:21:45 2017 No.9235480 >>9235476 ???

>>	Anonymous Tue Mar 14 02:04:48 2017 No.9235585 20 hugless virgin no friends. Im well read bad have 0 social life and dont attent college or neet because of anxiety etc typical autistic anon characteristics

Anonymous Tue Mar 14 02:24:47 2017 No.9235656

>>9221017
People are too stingy with their own intelligence, even in incorrect or ideas or poor aesthetics there is always a philosophical takeaway even if it isn't the intended programmatic content. Every stupid statement is an opportunity to derive something intelligent. Stop treating ideas as commodities. Rather than just disagree, you should agree so as to supersede.
I know this is hegelian as fuck but I knew this shit since I was like 14 cmon.

>>	Anonymous Tue Mar 14 02:34:05 2017 No.9235680 Redpill me on when to use nevertheless and when to use nonetheless

>>	Anonymous Tue Mar 14 03:39:08 2017 No.9235868 hoping for two days off from work

>>	Anonymous Tue Mar 14 04:12:42 2017 No.9235974 >>9231532 the way of the middle desu

>>	Anonymous Tue Mar 14 04:40:08 2017 No.9236050 it's a snow day and i have four audible credits, hmmm, what to cop? looking for some good teaching company course, but i gotta find some rare shit that isn't on every torrent site on the planet, hmmm, so many choices, today gonna be comfy af senpai

>>	Anonymous Tue Mar 14 04:43:07 2017 No.9236060 this shit hit the bump limit? fuck it im going to bed

>>	Anonymous Tue Mar 14 05:41:44 2017 No.9236200 I can't have a solid view on anything that doesn't change after an hour

>>	Anonymous Tue Mar 14 06:04:19 2017 No.9236254 >>9236200 It most likely means you don't know a whole lot about anything. In that case, it might also mean you'd have a very solid stance on those issues if you had an intellectual basis for your views.

>>	Anonymous Tue Mar 14 10:59:10 2017 No.9237001 >>9221257 Why does his hand have three joints?

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