/lit/ - Literature

I read a post last night at around 4 am about Chinese underground tunnels, human trafficking, new world order. Can anyone post the image? It was a series of posts from an anon

>Found an old thumb of mine I used for school stuff back in middle school and early high school
>Tfw I found the short stories I wrote when I had a phase when I wanted to be an author back when I was 13

>>18095716
I fucking wish m8, that kind of opportunity is out of reach for most people here

>>17982245
>sounding like a pseudo-intellectual dick?
Honestly, I'm not reading anything particularly intellectual but to the average normie I'm going to come off this way anyway, the bar is unfortunately that low. I read on a Kindle, so if anyone asks I just tell them I'm reading Dune in preparation for the new movie, this is usually enough.

>>17930135
>tfw ESL
>tfw barely 200 pages into Infinite Jest after 6 weeks

it g-gets easier, r-right?

>>17903466
Please get out of my head, I know you're not real.

>>17886747
I watched softcore porn on youtube at age 7

>>17847767
ADHD

Philosophy is both improving my understanding of life and eating away at my sanity.

>My life sucks and I can't fix it, but if my life didn't suck I wouldn't know to appreciate it and I would've been a vapid normalfag, which gives me small consolation that in the off chance that everything goes right, I would know to be grateful. But who knows, I'll probably just end up mourning my lost youth.


What's the most uplifting piece of literature you can think of? I don't want to think anymore I just want to be happy.

I feel so fucking terrible. I'm not looking for advice, I just need to write this shit down and blurt it out somewhere.
I've been doing long distance schooling since last march, with a single one month period where I had in person classes but I've basically been home since then.
I was a perfectly mentally healthy person before this whole ordeal. Recently I've started having anxiety attacks and I've developed a crippling masturbation addiction to numb the pain. I feel nothing but I do it once or twice a day anyway.
My academic performance hasn't been hurt, but my attitude has. I used to be excited to be challenged by new material, but now I loathe every assignment I have to do and delay it until the last possible moment to avoid the suffering. This attitude has bled over into my other activities as well. I used to be on the prowl for new video games to play and new activities to explore, but now I've devolved into just playing games I'm already very comfortable with over and over again, even something like modding a game I already know, say Minecraft, makes it feel different and by extension hostile. The only area of my life where I'm still open to new things is literature and I've found myself reading way more than I usually do.
I've no history with alcohol but I've been feeling very powerful compulsions to drink. I haven't given in yet, but I'm sure it's just a matter of time. I'm very afraid, I've seen what surrendering to the drink does to people.
Sometimes I curl up under my desk and do nothing in particular, I just sit there for a bit and think. I feel like it's safer there, but I'm not sure what it's safer from.
Despite making new friends and keeping old connections with long distance solutions I still feel completely hollow and alone in the world.
Sometimes I really want to scream, about nothing in particular, just in general. I don't because I don't want to worry the people living near me.
This is what's on my mind.

>>17676947
/lit/bros, I just found her OF. Too degenerate for me to link it.

>go to a shitty unknown state university
>want to apply to Top 50 Philosophy PhD programs

I'm fucked and my chances of being accepted are slim to none aren't they?

>>17527647
>Why yes, I am studying computer science, while also reading literature on the side. The more I read and learn about computation, human nature and society the more my hope for a brighter future dwindles.

How is it possible that humans managed to dehumanize themselves to such an extent.

>>17445518
WHAT THE FUCK MAN
He was a great philosopher and a better man, involved in so many different efforts to better the world. I’ll miss him anon.

>>17355373
>>17356665
>>17356855
Seriously, who the fuck has actually read this guy? I don't even think OP has read him despite OP LARPing as him.
Every fucking academic in Logic, Mathematics, Language, and Epistemology references him and pretty much everyone knows who this guy is but has any nonacademic pleb actually read him?
Is this the greatest pre-filter filter ever?
>he hasn't even read Bolzano yet
Seriously, where do I start I don't want to be a pleb but https://archive.org/details/bbolzanoswissen03bolzgoog/mode/2up is the only place where I can find a copy of one of his books and I can't fucking speak German.

>when you realize that Ancient Greece was as much of a cultural wasteland as now
>when you realize that the only reason people look at the current times as "culture-empty" is because people look at the past times in a distorted, contracted manner as all the 2500 years of history are now available to us in a single serving, while in reality actually impressive works have always been few and far between

I'm so fucking lonely.

ive read icycalm, horia, AM, rei koz, and goodman. who else to read?

>>17299365
It's just like that. That's how it is all the time.

>want to read something in Spanish but I'm stuck reading Middle English romances until I'm done with them
Reading chronologically is suffering

Can /lit/ recommend me any books that let me self insert and feel like I'm in a loving relationship. The despair is becoming too much

>>17237325
>WW1 killed the european spirit