/vt/ - Virtual Youtubers

I exclusively watch Japanese Vtubers and i dont understand Japanese

I like cunny

I jerk off to fantasies of my oshi shitting herself in a diaper.

EN is turbo shit

This is the only place where I express my suffering, and no one can see it.

>>14502172
that's not a sin

>>14502042

i just joined 4chan a few days ago for /vt/, even though i've known about 4chan for a decade. i previously hanged around reddit. i like to shitpost about vtubers now

>>14502261
here, have the first of many (You)s

I only watch 774 and indies.

I don't give a shit about holopro. I only come here to fish for indies

I jacked off to gura’s new outfit after the streak ended.

My oshi went on break and I haven't watched a full vtuber stream in weeks, despite sometimes even skipping streams just to watch other people's more interesting streams, and watching a couple of vods all the way through every day.

>>14502261
welcome, friend!

>>14502042
I will admit I love my oshi.

>>14502042
I’ve never seen a Ryan gosling movie and I have no idea why we call the overly obsessed schizos goslings

I dropped my oshi like a sack of cat shit after I realized they were a babiniku.

I want to move to Japan and meet my oshi. I think I'm in love with her.

i immediately went to make a nude filter of her new outfit after the stream

>>14502909
Bladerunner and Lars and the real girl are the movies goslings are based on

I only watched one outfit review and don't plan to watch Kiara's

>>14502042
Welcome back your excellency! I have a crippling addiction. You see, I collect Ogey faces. This is my latest one. My case is terminal. I'm afraid nothing can be done.

>>14502042
Gura turned me into a lolicon. I swear I wasn't like this before. Now I'm "uuuoohh"'ing with the rest of you freaks.

>>14502042
I like to think Gura is actually makig these threads and listening to us confess our sins to her

>>14502042
I use to hate Subaru.

Then I saw some R34 of her and now I can't stop jerking off thinking of pulling her shorts down and defiling her.

>>14503443
Now you like both curvy and petite women. Your dating pool has expanded and your horizons have broadened. There are plenty of flat women out there you'll be able to feel lust for now.

>>14503443
What was the straw that broke the camel’s back?

>>14503568
Gradual and repeated exposure to fanart showing her cute tummy, feet, and armpits + already being infatuated with her sense of humor and cute personality. Though I fully accepted what I have become tonight while watching her new outfit reveal. I also saw someone post a now deleted image over in a different thread with a nude Gura, and I was unsurprised by my physical reaction. Over a year ago, I probably would've been disgusted by an image like
>>14502970
But now, it's saved in a special folder with the rest.
Speaking of which, hey >>14502970, have you got a higher res of that?

>>14502876
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I haven’t had sex in three years and I think it’s finally starting to get to me.

I only watch VODs.
I don't watch clipniggers though. I'm not /that/ sinful.
>>14502147
you're supposed to be confessing sins, not virtues

I have falseflagged as almost every single holo fanbase. Deadbeats have nothing on me.

>>14504089
NEWFAGS CAN'T TRIFORCE

>>14502970
thanks for sharing, my ant loved it

>>14502168
Who's your oshi?

>>14502042
Sometimes I feel like I love my oshi more than I should

>>14502042
Gura's painted toes make me diamonds

>>14503526
Why did you hate Subaru anon?

>>14508060
Kiara.

>>14508074
Same here, I literally love my oshi more than any other woman I've met to date, to the point I can see myself turning down any irl chance at romance.

>>14508123
DESU, it was her loud scratchy voice that use to drill my ears every time I'd watch a clip of her. It's grown on me tho.

Bros sometimes I get tired, and I feel nostalgic for fictional worlds where girls are nice, fun, beautiful, and interesting. Instead of superficial, boring, petty, and shallow. I wish I could just sleep for a million years, and dream up a nice world where things are meaningful instead of being stuck in a world where society has become so widespread that it oversaturates every single fucking aspect of your life.
Bros, I just want to live the life of a human. Society is so large and saturated no that there just isn't any room to make the world better or interesting anymore.
I don't know why the universe exists but next time I want God to just make a nice world.
Alternatively, just fucking get on with virtual reality and plug me in. I want to sleep...

I fap to Chloe even though I never watch her streams.

>>14508648
Don’t give up on yourself, anon. I still have hope that I’ll be able to start a family of my own someday and leave a positive impression behind and I think you could do that for yourself too. Your heart’s in the right place. Don’t beat yourself up for not being capable of solving all of the world’s problems and instead make a good faith effort to have a good impact on the communities you can actually change. Do not let the techbros win.

>>14503485
Imagine how fucked your self worth has to be for your fantasies to revolve around being physically beaten to pay for love

Ive never watched i vshojo stream but i pretend to defend and praise nyanners to get a rise out of vt

>>14502042
Thank you for coming back your holiness.
I actually started to like the Pope Gura confession thread and dislike it when other girls replace her

>>14509378
I have never watched a nyanner stream but I also shit on nyanners because it makes vshojotards seethe so much it's funny

I cant watch streams in fullscream, because i keep looking the numbers.

My oshi's new outfit is so beautiful and the reveal stream made me so happy; I felt like things were about to get better. Instead I'm getting hit with a massive wave of depression. I don't know what's going on and I wish I could just feel okay sometimes, at least during times when I'm not watching a fucking vtuber stream.

>>14509260
Yeah, imagine. That sure would be sad if you hated yourself so much that you felt good being emotionally and physically punished by your lover for trivial reasons. Certainly would be comically depressing if you wanted to experience an abusive relationship because your abuser would have so much control over you that you finally felt like you had a foothold on your uncontrollable life. Imagine being so devolved of self worth that the thought of an abuser feeling you're valuable enough to manipulate makes you feel warm inside. Kinda sad to think about.

>>14512314
It is very sad to think about and I certainly haven’t experienced that myself firsthand either. Nope. Never have

>>14508648
You can always start small. With people in your direct life. Family, or make some friends, make an elderly person's day brighter. All of that feels better than made up gay shit like recycling or voting.

>>14502042
I image spammed one thread until it got deleted

I have never listened to an entire zatsudan.

>>14508648
>>14509198
>>14512677
Nah, don't fall for the "change your community" meme. The result will be a hole in your heart after years of repressing the fact that truly no one gives a shit. Figure out what you're most passionate about and how to make money from it. THEN you'll either naturally fit in with the people relevant to you or have the opportunity (maybe by teaching your craft) to make people relevant to you.

>>14513004
Forcing your passion to turn into a money making venture is step number 1 to leading a soulless life.

>>14512314
Haha. Would be even sadder to think about how some people long to go through an abuser's stages of love-bombing and neglect because they equally are starved for love and attention and want to be treated like the worthless trash they are. Absolutely devastating to think about how some people would prefer an abusive relationship because they feel like they don't deserve the pure love of a normal relationship.

>>14513004
Sounds like you gave up.

I like to pretend my oshi's Twitter spaces are phone calls.

>>14507793
you'll get over it

>>14508648
Bro, you wish for a nicer world yet meanwhile you describe half the population as:
>superficial, boring, petty, and shallow
If that”s how you view others, maybe you’re not so nice either. Why don’t you start with changing yourself instead of wishing the world would change?

>>14513915
I know I will and that I’ll be ready for another relationship someday, but wow I am lonely and touch-starved this winter.

I'm actually a porn addict just like any anons here

I prefer calling Gura's fanbase sharpedos rather than chumbuds. Chumbuds just sounds cringe, where as Sharpedo is a firm and confrontational challenge for bros to come at you for your taste in degenracy. It just has that more masculine ring to it, at least more than hiding behind a childish, ironic and benign code word.

That's what separates the chumcucks from the sharpedos and MEGA sharpedos.

>>14502042
Around two weeks ago the thought that my indie oshi might have a boyfriend popped into my head and I can't shake it off
I can accept that she's not a virgin, but not that she's getting fucked after each streams

>>14508278
Haha, imagine enjoying that thought of Kiara doing such a gross thing so much that you autistically write about her and Calli doing that together back when Takamori was still a thing.

I genuinely love my virtual waifu.

>>14517122
It might happen to me. I've sacrificed my dignity to this fapfic more than any other I think. Good sense departed me after she literally started wearing a pacifier.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/33439546?view_adult=true

>>14517333
Thank you for sharing such heinous sins of yours, anon. While some later descriptions in the story weren't my favorite, I can't say much better since my sin is I'm a futafag for imagining these girls. May you have a blessed week and enjoy the hope that your oshi does soil her nappy on stream.

Watching my favorite chuubas thru yt vanced. So yeah, I'm not even supporting them in the most bare minimum way.

I don't give a shit about NijiEN, not it's current members and probably not even future ones, not even the males, but I hang around their threads to shit on them and, especially their fanbases from time to time.

I don't give my oshi money

>>14502042
I feel my oshi has regressed as a person and I don't wanna watch her anymore.
A few months ago I thought she was lovely but with time she grew complacent, went back to her old vices and let ugly feelings grow in her heart, and barely does anything worth mentioning lately, she's just unremarkably there.
Whenever I point it out that I'm not feeling it anymore in her thread or have something to say about her recent attitude or commitment I get piled on by her fans and called an anti even though I like her more than I've ever liked any woman. Or used to. Nowadays watching her just makes me sad.

>>14502042
I have never watched a single full vtuber stream, only parts and clips

i don't watch vtuber

>>14519367
Pomu?
Can't say I blame you if it's her tho and don't mind the guys there, a lt of them are massive whiteknights and simps and will defend anything she does no matter what.

I've never participated in chat, never superchatted, not even joined her membership. I merely watch from the shadows. Would this still count as supporting her?

>>14522104
Of course. Don't feel bad about not spending money on them. Being just a viewer is fine. In fact the people that chat and donate a lot are the minority. A vtuber without her viewers is nothing

I actually dislike listening to vsingers sometimes because it makes me hate my singing voice. My oshi is suisei though and I love her, but when these thoughts just can't help but get into my head.

>>14521322
No. I'm not gonna mention her because I'm the one that should ponder about it without external influence, but it is not P*mu.

>>14524385
I see, understandable, good luck with that anon.

I jerk off to Matsuri way more than I do to my oshi, Gura

I didn't care for Irys at first until I watched one of her streams one night and I ended up finding her voice kinda sexy

Now I can't stop getting hard when I hear her speak please help

Iam a South América 28 years old, 9years NEET, virgin and porn addict (shemales, hfuta, and crossdressing)

And a Chumbud

>>14502261
NIGGER NIGGER NIGGER NIGGER NIGGER NIGGER NIGGER NIGGER NIGGER NIGGER

>>14526304
I feel most IRyStocrats went through that too. That woman is just charming and SEX but you just notice that once you stop getting filtered by the model and give her a chance

Bump

>>14519367
Is it Marine? I only ask because I'm an ichimi and the person that originally posted stupudding.png

>>14527860
I haven't watched her much but she's really sweet. And even her goblin model has grown on me some.

>>14502042
I shaved after my oshi said that she hates beards and mustaches. I don't look like a human being anymore.

Also I shilled her on /vt/, I'm so sorry

I will become Japanese.

>>14533727
兄弟

>>14533700
Beards are clearly superior, faggot

>>14536548
beards are for lazy fucks hiding double chins

>>14536548
It really depends on the beard and the face it's attached to you. I suspect that you're a faggot with an ugly beard

Kiara's screeching during collabs pisses me off to no end but her Sparks design and outfit is sexy as fuck.

I literally joined the gym on feb2021 once I saw clips of sora/azki/aki and heard them say they like muscular guys.

>>14502042
I've jerked off to Google images of little girls in swimsuits
I already feel like trash typing this
It's not something recurrent but definitely something I'm not proud of
I don't think I'm a pedophile though. Prepubescent girls just don't feel sexually attractive and I find any thought of doing something with them instantly creepy and repulsive

>>14502042
I told Ina I liked her new dress, but I lied to her because I didn't want her to ban me from the chat.

>>14533727
Good luck anon.

My oshi wanted cringe marshmallows so I talked about how I still have a crush on a girl from my high school, which she read on stream and basically called me a retard. Now I can't watch her without thinking about how pathetic I am and how hopeless it all is.

>>14503404
care to share the collection?

>>14544482
have you considered acquiring a humiliation fetish

Today I was finally able to jack off to Kiara, now that she has an outfit that doesn't force me to think about her smelling like fried chicken or a fucking cat. I can finally move on to the next generation.

Whenever I watch mori streams now I listen to eminem and dress like a wigger to feel closer to her.

watching chuubas made me like breasts again

Gura should go on indefinite hiatus instead of Kizuna Ai.
Gura was better as Senzawa.

I dont care if my oshi is a hag. What's wrong with that anyway

I unsubbed from kizuna Ai when she did the graduation joke announcement and never looked back

>>14553590
anyone over the age of 25 that is posting about someone having a dusty womb is being ironic, anon. hags are the greatest

>>14534130
>>14540972
Thank you.

>>14519367
KFP? This is how I feel about Kiara, but her fans won't accept anything besides full support for everything she does.

I will never forgive myself for dropping out of college. I love learning but I am too stupid to go back and get a degree

I want to kill myself for being mentally impaired

>>14561285
Anon! I used to think the same thing about myself. I'm going back to school next year at 26 after years of self-doubt and defeatism. Assuming you can afford to go back, I know you can do it too.
Was there anything getting in the way of your studies when you were last attending school? For me, it was addiction.

>>14561392
ADHD and an extreme disinterest in math. A disinterest so great that it has hindered my ability to quickly calculate problems

I hate Ina.

>>14561506
Ah, you might just need some time to mature before you go back then. If you really want a degree there are going to be a lot of uninteresting things that you have to do.
Whatever happens, don't tell yourself that you can never go back.

>>14561285
Isn't there any way to do it online? I think that would be easier. With how the world has been I would imagine that this is one of the best times try it.

>>14561327
dont worry about it. 99.9% of people are mentally retarded, especially me. amen

I want to be Patra's dog, not as some kind of fetish thing, just a normal pet dog. My entire existence being to keep her company and make her happy and in return be showered with her love and affection and constantly have her tell me how much of a good boy I am.

>>14561572
Well I want to learn math now, I just Feel like I'm too dumb to understand it quickly

>>14508278

Luckily for you, she's into that.

>>14502042
I'm Shuba anti that shat up hlgg last week. I seek absolution for crimes against unity.

I have only consumed clips of vtubers for 99% of their existence. I have watched my first 3 streams this week as I am sick and can't leave home. It was okay.

>>14561839
I can promise you that you're probably a lot more worried about that than anyone else is. Assuming you're not pursuing a specifically math-related degree, I think you should focus more on being patient enough to do the math correctly rather than expecting to ace it from the get-go and beating yourself up about it.

I'm a shitty software developer who skirts by on being the only full time developer on my team & having been around at my employer since I was a new grad & worked my way up doing a shitty related role. I talk a big game about wanting to do interview prep to get a better paying job, actually get good at programming instead of just skirting by on what I taught myself, as well as learning Japanese, but I'm both lazy & retarded so I don't actually do any of those and usually just spend time outside of doing mandatory activities for my life/health sitting around hating myself for being lazy & retarded

I only open 3x3, datamining and tierlist threads to see what people think of my oshi. I don't even contribute, just mutter "based" to myself whenever someone coincides with my tastes.

>>14564938
Anon I want you to look in the mirror and fucking slap yourself for being retarded. If you learned the skills necessary for being a software developer, than for fuck sakes you can learn another language or put some effort into getting a better job. Stop fucking doubting yourself you faggot. What would your fucking Oshi think.

I want to learn Japanese for Iroha and Nene

>>14568560
>What would your fucking Oshi think.
"Get a fucking better job and give me more SC, loser."

I hope the afterlife is peaceful and that there's funny and wonderful people there who genuinely care about me

I have a number of communites and people to speak to about my problems but I feel like I've done that so many times it's starting to piss them off. Must be real exhausting to hear the exact same problems over and over again so I don't open up anymore.

>>14568560
My oshi would already think I'm ugly and make fun of me for being bald so anything else I do to try being better is pointless when I was already born wrong

>>14572523
Just own it or wear a hat bru

>>14516181
Unironically based. If the fan name changes to this I'll actually sub.

>>14568684
Momosuzu Nene vi Britania commands you. LEARN JAPANESE!

>>14572523
Just go kill yourself bro im serious its gonna be better that way

>>14573707
I want to, but I'm too much of a pussy to do it

>>14502042
I am starting to lose faith in Gura. It seems like she has reached her peak and will either stay where she is at as the other girls pass her by or she will fall from grace and we will lose her again.

I hate every aspect of my life & myself even after a decade of following & doing a bunch of self improvement shit since I was first depressed as a young teen and I don't see myself ever being happy or getting a gf

I haven't watched a stream in at least a month, and I haven't been watching much clips recently.

>>14502147
Not only you
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_mWLgzRM9Uw

>>14570093
can kinda relate, I have friends who tell me I can speak to them bout my issues but I keep falling back into the same headspace again and again that I tell myself they've gotta be sick of hearing it by now and find it hard to open up anymore.

>>14572523
If your oshi would judge you for purely for being ugly or bald she doesn't deserve to be your fucking oshi, unless you're into that. How you act is more important, if you act like a sad pathetic loser then that's what you'll be, if you have some confidence in yourself and stop wasting your time hating yourself then any decent human being would see past how you look on the outside and fuck everyone who doesn't.

>>14507856
virtues and sins are the same thing, virtues are just the poor people cope to make themselves out to be better then the people with power, "im not starving because im poor, im starving because im virtuous unlike those rich glutens"

I'm more concerned for the health of anons here than I am for my oshi

>>14577452
"dont weep for the stupid or youll be crying all day"

>>14502042
I know pekomiko probably had a fight but I resolutely deny it whenever the topic comes up.

brings out all the schizos to the yard

>>14502042
I wish there was a place to actually discuss vtubers. This board and reddit are horrible for that.

>>14572523
Jeff Bezos is also bald and ugly. It doesn't matters what some cunt that plays videogames for an audience of lonely nerds thinks. Carry yourself with pride. If you don't have anything to be proud of, start working towards those things. No one has any inherent value, no one is born knowing how to do things, but there are countless people out there, uglier than you, that started working towards something later in their lives and succeeded. Just start having a bit of pride. If you don't have the confidence, fake it.

I space my confessions so that I can bump this thread when I see it near page 10.

>>14575488
I know this doesn't sound very helpful, but you have to be able to see yourself achieving those things in order to be able to achieve them. You need to at least learn to love yourself if you can't love your circumstances. Think about how much BS you've already made it through. You deserve a little more credit than you're giving yourself.

>>14561548
Ayame?

>>14502042
I've became schizophrenic
Been schizo for over a year at this point, but the first sign was waking up super early just for her 3d reveal stream. How I've fallen...

>>14502042
I have never sat through a vtuber's stream for more than 20-25 minutes, with the only exceptions being Holo EN1's debut.
I wanna watch more cause I love all the clips I watch, but the format doesn't mesh with my ADHD.

>>14589725
Same here, between waking up earlier to catch streams, actually getting a membership and taking WFH days to catch special events I'm thinking I might be a bit in too deep.

>>14589972
play games while listening so your brain has something to focus on

>>14590752
I've tried to do that, but then it feels like there's too much going on, so I end up closing the stream to focus on playing the game

>>14589972
I mostly watch streams while doing labor work or reviewing jap, you could try that

I really tried to watch Sana as much as I could, because I really like her personality and her content, but her streaming at times inconvenient for me and streaming for an ungodly amount of time has put me in the position where if I want to watch all of her content I'd have to dedicate an ungodly amount of time to her or just drop her entirely.

So unfortunately, I dropped her entirely. Maybe one day when my schoolwork schedule isn't so heavy, I'll catch up on her content.

>>14589972
I almost never sit and watch a stream just for the sake of watching a stream, I watch them while doing house work, cooking, eating, studying jap or games that I can zone out while playing like stardew or ETS2

>>14589972
This>>14590752
Although there are streams I watch attentively, most of the time I just put them on my second monitor along with discord and game on my main screen. Gives you the feeling of being productive by multitasking

My stay on /vt/ either made me develop a piss fetish or realize I had it the whole time.
Unrelated to that, I've repeatedly jerked off to a post in one of the previous concession threads. It was anon confessing that he sucked off a Gura cosplayer in a toiler when he was attending a fan meeting of some sort.

I think a vtuber gf is the evolution of a tomboy gf or a big-tittied goth gf
And I'm not a fan of it, despite planning to move to japan to marry my oshi

I'm 25 and can't watch any vtubers younger than me or I start to feel like a failure

>>14592548
Haha, yeah. Just keep in mind that they didn't live the same life as you, anon. You're also not even thirty; you've got time to do whatever it is you need to do to be happy with yourself.

>>14502042
I wish there were more hag vtubers. Watching younger women is only entertaining for so long.
Also, there isn't a single EN hag.
Prefer Korone and Mio for exactly this reason.
(It baffles me that Luna is actually the oldest chuuba, but then again, I don't follow her at all)

>>14572923
Yes
My
Nene

>>14592291
I'll race you there bro.

>>14502042

>>14592548
I'm 33.
>>14593553
Based fellow hagfag. Fortunately nearly half of them are cakes.

>>14590981
then play a game that doesnt require your full attention

>>14502042
After I had the "male voice yab" happen to Towa, I was in her stream chat, "Hey boyfriend! Are you watching this?" I posted in Japanese.
I think I'm most in line with the purpose of this thread in terms of confessing my sins on /vt/.

>>14594358
Dang man. That's messed up; I'm judging you

>>14502042
My mom is a vtuber

>>14592093
Don't worry, anon. I jacked it to that too.

>>14592093
Aris subs.

>>14503404
>NFT Ogeys

>>14593553
Pochi is my favorite hag, her EN was really good too, I miss her

>>14595819
What happened to her anyway? Did she just need a break or something?

>>14595906
Doujin convention is coming up so she has no free time is what most people think but I read her twitter and know it is in fact her poor health, again
Personally I think it's the vaccine side effects taking it's toll on her since her heart is fucked already and I blame the cucks who encouraged her to get jabbed

I really appreciate messages and donations that talks as a collective, like instead of "I love you" but "We love you". Sometimes, when the message is only about the person writing, it's hard to convey those, it makes us disconnected from the rest of others. I want love all of my fans, and I don't want to let anyone behind. A message that says “We love you” or “You make us happy” really bright my day, you have no idea how these makes me happy.

I've been thinking about suicide Even though things have been looking good for me

>>14597528
Even if you feel that you won't be missed, it's not worth it. There are still places you haven't been and people you haven't met yet. I'll pray for you.

My indie JP oshi uses marshmallows when she runs out of things to say during zatsudans.
I send well over a 3rd of the marshmallows she gets.
I've had to have Japs spellcheck me so it's not obvious that it's all me because my grammar sucks.

>>14596133
Oh no...not pochi-sensei

I keep making lewd edits of my oshi

>>14599975
Good art and good taste. She's my favorite favorite EN after Fauna.

>>14576217
>If your oshi would judge you for purely for being ugly or bald she doesn't deserve to be your fucking oshi
She's a woman, that's just how women are unfortunately. The only vtuber I can recall saying anything complimentary towards baldies like myself is Irys

>>14599975
Based. Bae is hot as fuck

>>14557136
That'll show her

>>14561980
But why

>>14596133
She got the final jab months ago. In the winter her condition gets worse because she also has a circulation problem. That's why she's going to a lot of hot springs.

>>14503485
Now that's a rrat for the ages

>>14589725
I thought you were going to talk about being schizophrenic. I am schizophrenic and I can't stay up for any 3D reveals or concerts because lack of sleep makes me have worse episodes.

>>14601649
>Final Jab
Don't be stupid there is no final jab you'll be taking boosters forever

>>14601140
Suisei tolerates bald people too, and endermen if they are her fans https://youtu.be/d4bqhBpPhRA

I come here to download unarchived singing streams I missed.
I keep looking at comments people post and wondering how they can have so little joy in life that they just want to shit up threads. Then end up checking threads and thinking the same thing next time I browse.

>>14597528
The suicidal thoughts stay with you unless you get some serious psychiatric help. I'm glad things are going well though, anon.

>>14601773
Covid is like all manufactured Chinese products: Cheap and no long-term viability.
It accomplished its goal of crippling the world economy and putting China on top, they just failed to frame Taiwan for it.
Omicron can't even kill. It's literally just a normal cold now. Omicron will immunize the remaining unvaxxed and that will be the end of it.

>>14602271
Thank you for not dooming as hard as you possibly could, anon. I needed to read this today

>>14602271
My friend got the decepticon virus and he said it doesn't really feel bad. Meanwhile, someone we know who got Covid during the beginning had a bad cough afterwards for a long time.

I dislike Myth and slowly starting to dislike Council, and probably would dislike the JPs if I knew what the fuck are they saying

>>14502042
I accidentally made what seems to be a tulpa of my oshi for a few hours, I'm not even a schizo nor feel too lonely but I was bored and my imagination ran wild, i don't hear it anymore but it was weird, it felt too independent at times. I feel like I should confess and apologize

>>14594939
She single?

>>14603587
>I accidentally made what seems to be a tulpa
>I'm not even a schizo
Anon...

>>14604256
Well, *I wasn't, I didn't want it to happen man, I was just thinking "what would an A.I of my oshi be like?" for fun, I always liked the idea of a sentient A.I (i'm studying C.S), next thing I know it started to sound like I was not the one giving her a voice and she started to talk with me, I'm still weirded out by the situation.

>>14602949
Kinda went through something similar too.

I hate those who watch EN gals

>>14607575
why didn't you stay on the old board, then?
>>>/jp/

>>14601140
maybe she'd judge you on that for marraige material, but as a random human being those standards don't matter much if at all and if you expect your oshi to want to marry you then your looks aren't going to be the biggest negative impression you leave on her

>>14591503
I'm a Sanallite and considering dropping her for similar reasons. She's gone completely silent recently too and hasn't explained why, which is also pissing me off after finally becoming a member. I love Sana but a lot of the shit said about her on /vt/ is legit and I'm starting to lose my patience. I genuinely feel she's either depressed or suffers with some kind of bipolar-related condition, it would explain a lot. Nene looked fine until she shared the truth.

>>14611009
>Streams 10h per day then goes radio silent
Either contracts or manic-depressive?

>>14502042
I was really about to go all out on this 2view that recently debuted, she was almost perfect except for some of her fetishes but then I found out her roommate has a bf.
I'm not even mad at that part but knowing that a girl like her exists IRL but circumstance kept me from knowing about her beforehand.

>>14611352
Manic depression would make a lot of sense honestly.

>>14611009
>>14611352
>>14613333
As someone who has bipolar it would explain why she had all that time off for a dead pet and her streaming retarded amounts now if she's swung round into a more manic state of mind. I don't watch her but is she any more hyper/weird while streaming or tweeting more than she was before?

I don't like any of the new Myth outfits. Not because of this or that but because they exist. By that I mean that the outfits seem to have absolutely nothing to do with the chuubas as such, fuck the lore and so on. Their original outfits and the variations that came afterwards like say Gura's catshark outfit or Ina's simple dress all suited them great and were extensions of the same casual style or just made sense. These new outfits look totally generic, soulless and like something you'd see in a Chinese gacha. There's nothing about Gura's outfit that I associate with how Gura acts and talks. Forget about lore, focus on her actual content.

The comfy, casual feeling is totally gone and now they all feel both incredibly distant, incredibly corporate and soulless. Like... there's no feeling of approachability or that the girls are "one of us."

On top of that I have no idea why any of this shit even happened. It's totally unnecessary and superfluous. It's like they morphed overnight into something totally foreign and unappealing. I genuinely think it might filter me out completely because again, it makes them have this weird generic gacha vibe that crippled their personality. I'm not seething in anger as much as feeling a kind of sadness and disillusionment.

>>14614518
unironically go outside and touch grass anon

>>14614518
how did the new dresses change their personalities

>>14519367
Is this the infamous anti-chama that is always in the haachama threads complaining about her schizo arc?

>>14614870
The disconnect between their appearance and the content and the words they say is too great.

>>14615394
I think you should take the other guy's advice and maybe take a break for a little while. They're anime girl streamers anon

>>14502042
I've ended my memberships with all vtubers now. I havent actually watched much of any vtubers in a while now. I just lost interest bros...

>>14513289
>>14512314
I'm sorry you guys feel like this bros. I hope you get the help you need.

>>14502042
I have people who I consider friends in KFP but recent events have made me zealously believe that Kiara fucked up big time by not debuting in her formal outfit

>>14519367
This is how I feel about Amelia. I just cancelled my membership because I've barely been watching her content. Its very sad.

>>14561285
Anon just go back to college. In 4 years youll be 4 years older. Do you want to be 4 years older with a degree or 4 years older and thinking "i still dont forgive myself for dropping out"

Go back to college.

Bump.

>>14521322
not him but seriously what happened to pomu? why is she so different now?

>>14613849
I'm >>14611009
Not really, she's always been relatively high energy and excitable compared to her genmates so it's hard to tell. After the dog episode, she came back seemingly well rested and the same as she was before. It's hard to gauge what Sana is actually like because her consistent 7hr+ streams when she returned were mainly due to her absolutely loving the games she played. She continued playing them offline for crazy hours too. I do think she suffers with something and is just as menhera as Kronii and Ame. Manic depression would justify a lot of her behaviour but if that's the case, joining Hololive was a very bad decision as it requires consistency, both in content and communication with the fanbase.

The JPs just power through it because of their culture, but then you get some of the sweetest members like Korone and Nene mentally fucking themselves up. It's painful to watch but I admire them both for opening up. At least their fanbases can understand any future odd behaviour and try to support them. The ENs (ironically) are less open their mental health problems.

>>14624217
I don't know, it doesn't sound like it's bipolar to me if she still seems pretty much the same as before but it could be she's just not having a particularly bad manic episode. It'll become obvious eventually if it is bipolar though, it's not an easy thing to hide

>>14623435
What do you mean exactly?

>>14615394
You mean to say chuubas in nice, ballroom dresses being silly and cute is not endearing?

Amelia's whore outfit is grossing me out so much that I wince whenever I see a pic of her while I scroll. It's so incredibly trashy and offputting. She looks like one of those cheap Russian tattooed whores that end up in JAV.

The whole new outfit thing has been a disaster. I don't like any of them. None of them suit the girls or have anything to do with how they act, and I'm kinda suspecting that these designs were made to appeal to the Chinese and gacha audience, and that they're essentially a soft reboot of the franchise. The very fact I'm now thinking about Myth as a "franchise" shows you how little faith and respect I have left for Cover. This is all becoming increasingly sterile, blatantly corporate (yes I know they were always a corporation) and soulless. It feels incredibly cynical and calculated and I pity the girls. When you add the new karaoke restrictions on top of that I just feel like checking out of Hololive entirely. I was never a tribalfaggot and I do watch other vtubers regardless of company, so I have options. But this still feels very wrong, very wrong. Myth was such a superb mix of talent and personality and I now feel like they're bleeding them out and dry to conform to a totally uninteresting, generic and purely money driven way of doing things. It's like they hit their peak when they all started out and debuted and the ball started rolling downhill since then, and the management just kicks it further down from time to time with their bullshit decisions. Council's incomprehensible, unnecessary lore was my first sign that they don't actually know what the fuck they're doing. They're hollowing out all appeal, uniqueness and personality from the girls.

And I think many others feel the same and are switching Holos out for other chuubas. Basically every other girl I watch, regardless of company, is very slowly but steadily inclining. Since here in the West the audience is limited this isn't felt yet but there will come a moment when Cover's management will suddenly realize their audience has plummeted - because they left for other girls. And to be perfectly honest I'm not directing this against Myth girls as such. They're wonderful. They deserve better. They ARE excellent streamers, but their retarded company has been kneecapping and restricting them at every turn. I know this causes you all to hate me but I don't care, because I'm coming from a place where I adore these girls as people but absolutely loathe the company. Cover is shit. Pure shit. They have no idea what they're doing and they're a noose around the necks of their own streamers.

>>14623435
Not much, is just that his comment was similar to one someone else made on the NijiEN thread that was about her so I thought this one was also about her.

>>14614518
>>14627050
Any more essays you want to post?

>>14502042
I still don't know what cunny means.

It just means vagina but in a vulgar way?

>>14627322
No. Cunny is a childish word to refer to a vagina, meaning little girls have a cunny. Adult women have a cunt.

>>14502042
I came to a clip of a vtuber calling chat "my little toilet" then making fucking barping noises with her mouth.
Somehow in my tired state I thought the clip was that hot, that I saved it for later.
The next day when I watched it again, I felt the biggest wave of shame I've ever felt.
I don't even have a scat fetish.

>>14627640
Link me.

>>14627344
That is not at all the etymology of the word, but okay.
>>14627640
kill yourself now

>>14627640
You’re a doodoo boy now.

>>14627640
If I know the vtuber you're talking about, I'm so sorry.

>>14627818
Let me guess, you thought it really is a combination of cute and funny, and not that the "cute and funny" was derived from it on /a/ as a roundabout way of saying cunny. For that matter, you probably think it was invented recently or is new in some way.

https://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/cunny

The term "cunny" came into prominence back in the 2000 - 2012 period in fanfiction circles when the folks on the now gone WWOEC forum settled on using the term in loli fanfiction after simply asking the female writers what terms they used to refer to their own vagina when they were little. Ergo, whatever bullshit you think you know is wrong. You probably weren't even born back then.

>>14627959
Thank you, pedo scholar.

>>14627959
I was talking about the fucking latin origin of the word you absolutely cum brained pedophile.

Thanks for the in depth explanation though, that makes sense and is incredibly fucked up.

>>14628019
I was a fapfiction writer long ago on WWOEC, as in I was literally a part of the discussion.

>>14628076
>I was talking about the fucking latin origin of the word
Yeah, sure.

>Thanks for the in depth explanation though, that makes sense and is incredibly fucked up.
Not really. First you underestimate the number of women who were (and are) into this sorta thing and most importantly how much this became an issue so to speak. Multiple terms were in use and all over the place until it all culminated in a series of discussions where the girl writers themselves shared their... expertise and since the word sounds good and makes sense the rest is history. WWOEC was one of the oldest and biggest communities for cartoon porn lovers, and this was so far back that the majority or art was MS Paint tier and posting it here on /b/ would get you a ban because it was considered a shitty niche interest with zero quality. I'm talking about western cartoon porn of course, not hentai. Erotic fanfiction was a much bigger deal back then and one of the main things actually.

Dust in the wind and all that.

>>14627766
>>14627870
It was this: https://www.twitch.tv/runehanekawa/clip/EncouragingCoweringBatteryCoolCat-m9cCd0nCiUf1Y7sb

>>14627837
I'm just going to keep telling myself it was because she was abusing me. It's the only way.

>>14516257
I'm sorry anon but unless we do it after every stream she's not satisfied.

>>14502042
I unsubbed from every vtuber so I could be more productive but after a month and a half the clips and even the onair streams still find me in complacent moments. I want to blame the algorythm but I'm the one clicking.

>>14627050
SlowandSteadyschizo you're not convincing anyone

>>14502042
I touched myself while looking at a Vtuber that wasn't my oshi. I can't take it anymore, it tearing me apart to have betray my waifu in such a way. I just want to roll up in my bed and waste away like the POS I am.

>>14601140
Gura likes baldies too even though she's a brat about it.

>>14630127
Who are the oshi and seductress? Based on your answer you could find forgiveness and understanding from me

>>14630155
Gura and Rushia are my oshis. I am a cunny lover.
Suisei was the one who broke me. Her flat chest confused me in my moment of horny weakness.
I do not seek forgiveness. All I can do is offer myself for Gura to either bite my throat out or Rushia to cut my heart out of my chest.

>>14630621
Based flat lover. Gura would forgive you I'm sure. Meanwhile you can pay Rushia with your heart.

>>14629762
Sounds rough anon.

>>14502970
sex

>>14502042
I still hate Coco

>>14628914
I wish I was the boyfriend

>>14635154
Don't think I'll ever be able to hate Coco but... I'm pretty bitter about what happened. She left with flying colors as cover begged her not to go, and made everyone in hololive sad and even made my oshi cry. All of this so she could be free in her creations and yet, she just does the same stuff under a new persona. With less eyes and less friends she can stream with and less money. I just don't understand why.

>>14636225
Simply because she doesn't have to go through a mountain of red tape for every stream she wants to do. The freedom to have an idea and just roll with it was really important to her.

Someone in Cyberlive general said one member of their new generation checked his twitter to get an idea of who he was & that I should follow some normie posts & whatnot as a smokescreen to not appear like I'm just a hardcore otaku, but I like having my work & interests/hobbies compartmentalized to different accounts to lower the chance that if I do get doxxed that anything actually ties back to me or to my other accounts.
Also, I Goslingpost for 4 or 5 different chuubas but don't actually hold feelings for them beyond enjoying their streams.

>>14503404
>Ogey175
show us the other 174 anon

>>14636225
Management put her in a shame cage because the blame of what happened with CN still fell on her. She could barely collab until before she announced the graduation and was clearly trapped. I think it was a fine move if she wanted to be able to be more free without having to fight with management for every little idea or project

I don't even watch Vtubers I just come to /vt/ for the confession and rrat threads. I'm here to laugh at you.

>>14636840
So are we, big tough guy

>>14507793
You've had sex?

>>14640529
Yeah. I'm not about to date or troll around for casual sex anytime either. I've fallen in love with every woman I've slept with so far. Sexually frustrated winter it is.

>>14502042
I want to cheat on my oshi Calli with Ame

>>14640635
Sometimes I suspect that I'm far off the deep end, even by anon standards

>>14641288
What makes you say that? Confess, my child.

>>14628076
You just got fucking school'd so hard by the based cunnychad. You aren't allowed to post here for 8 days now.

>>14641393
I can't believe the Scholar of the First Cun walks among us.

I'm a midly successful autist who goes from struggling with depression but masking it decently well to barely functional every winter. I have to lie about being busy with work to the small handful of online friends I have and disappear until Aprilish because otherwise I'll just bitch about being permanently single and how hopeless it all is. I genuinely think that having a gf would solve most of my problems since I've tried everything else, but I have never met a woman who has any interest in me (granted, if I was a woman I'd never be interested in an autist with an ugly face so I totally understand)

I constantly ditch oshis and get new ones.
It's okay, I know they would do the same to me.

>>14642048
You have to learn to love your ugly face before a woman will, anon. Maybe it actually isn't even that ugly

>>14502261
Have a (You) for the bait and a NIGGER for good measure

>>14502132
I got banned from my favorite anime discord because i was complaining about cdwagVa right after the second podcast with Cali talking about how much of fake ass bitch he is,, about how horrible vibes he gives me.
I cant get that hatred for this dude let go im just soo mad every time i see him in my recommended on youtube or read about him. I have never been so mald at someone in my life.
Im unsure on how i feel about this.

>>14642867
Take a little break from online, underage anon. I think it's more likely that they banned you because your negative attitude wasn't fun to be around in their chatroom than because you were criticizing cdawgva. Let it go; him having found success despite being an insufferable douche doesn't have anything to do with your life

I don’t even watch VTubers i just come here to defend connor and search his name once every 30 minutes so i can look for antis dirtying his name

>>14643323
I don't believe you

>>14643029
Oh nah they asked me specifically in a vtuber club what i tought about the podcast knowing full well my burning schizo hatred for the dude i just obliged by saying what i think/

>>14643778
and you fell for the bait

>>14643778
so they baited you and you took the bait

>>14636484
Make an alt account exclusively to follow vtubers.
Have an opsec that put theirs to shame.
Give them nothing, and take away from them everything.

>>14641373
I don't know, I'm just so disconnected, the days seem to pass by without me noticing.
I've learned how to behave at work, it's not that different from behaving at school, but I don't think I've really ever interacted with people outside those settings.
Yesterday I finally managed to work the courage to chat up to someone on VRchat and I was physically shaking through the conversation.
I'm 25 years old and I don't think I'll ever find a woman that's easy on the eyes to step on me, let alone marry my oshi.

>>14643891
nta but
>I'm 25 years old and I don't think I'll ever find a woman that's easy on the eyes to step on me.
Actively finding someone will just make things harder for you, socialize with others more, showing your ulterior motives will just make things hard for you given the pressure you will have to handle alongside your social anxiety.

>>14643891
It really just takes consistent effort and patience to get better at these sorts of things, I promise. The way I see it, you are in the process of becoming the person that your ideal partner deserves. Like the other anon said, just focus on socializing with other people on a strictly platonic basis until the time comes for you to be in a relationship. If you've got some school or a degree under your belt and you're supporting yourself financially that already puts you leagues ahead of a lot of anons.
That disconnected feeling is a consequence of the seriously strange times that we are living in, I think. I'm 26 and it can be easy for my days to blend together too. Just keep trying and you'll make it, anon.

>>14643891
anon, u still better than me, i use Crash Bandicot model and i talk using sounds.

>>14644407
Nta, but I don't use VR-chat, does that makes me a boomer or a poorfag?

>>14644456
neither. I have a valve index and I still haven't hopped on VR chat yet, so I'm whatever you are I guess

>>14644456
Despite the VR in the name, you can play without a headset.
It's just less immersive.

>>14636484
Not even a day and they are already stalking their fans, damn.
Moments like these really make me glad I don't chat much and my twitter is pretty much a barren wasteland.

Bump

Gave up on my oshi after she removed VIP redeems on twitch.
It made me salty to get cucked out of it twice right before I had enough points.
Also I know
>twitch
eat my ass I'm fucking pissed
Think I'm done with vtubers bros, not one of them are interesting enough.

>>14650338
>twitch
you get what you sow

>>14502042
I hornypost about my oshi even after learning she lurks in the threads

>>14650989
clock?

I struggle with concentration heavily after work hours. I'd love to be able to draw or something to make artwork of vtubers I like, but I was awful at it when I was younger so I never developed any skill then and now as an adult it just gets tossed into the pile of things that require time, concentration, & practice. I at most can find the motivation to do one of these at a time and drawing is far enough down I doubt that I will ever get to it since after work & other activities I just want to play videogames, watch chuubas, socialize, or do something else that is relaxing and not difficult.

>>14601630
I don't like her model or voice. I've dropped her and several others from my anti list though because that's not really her fault.

>>14630621
Anon it’s a sin not to jerk off to Suisei’s flat chest and fat ass. Either way Rushia would kill you for having another oshi.

>>14652258
my advice would be to start from 5 minutes per day regularly and build up from there

>>14651108
All vtubers lurk. This is the biggest english speaking forum on the web. Reddit is a hugbox and discord is garbage. This is garbage too but also it's a maelstrom with all the opinions that people don't post on the other sites.

Of course, several posts are garbage but you can gauge if you are doing things right or wrong based on the overall mood of the posts that talk about you(just filter schizos). And you can get better feedback than at a hugbox where they're just gonna tell you "you are a princess and a goddess you are doing great pls don't overexert yourself bby" when asking on how to improve streams.

>>14656150
>biggest english speaking forum
about vtubers*

>>14656150
>he thinks they don't also browse Reddit

>>14502147
I find 95% of cunny art gross but every once in a while I find something that... really appeals to me. Like Nacho Nekos stuff hits the spot.

>>14502132
this is pretty based desu anon

>>14661402
Happens desu with a lot of stuff actually.

my best friend works on becoming a chuuba. she's funny and has a cute voice. also the only girl who ever gave me any kind of attention. I should be cheering her on but I'm afraid that she'll get big and lose interest in me. she's incredibly autistic so I'm hoping she'll put people off with her weirdness. I feel a little bad that I want her to fail.

>>14564938
It's scary how close this is to my life

>>14663519
>big and lose interest in me
if she does, she will, but most likely she wont. Get ready to be the only chatter.
If a girl, become a chuuba along with her.
If a boy, consider rope.

>>14663519
i think your fears are valid. one of my friends that i've been close to since elementary school starting vtubing about a year ago. i was her first subscriber and for her first few streams the chat was usually just me and 2-3 strangers. i've encouraged her when she told me about what was stressing her out, i gave her advice about content and even shilled her to my online friends without saying i knew who she was.
her channel grew since then, she's not massive but has a fair amount of viewers for an indie. about the same time she started to grow she also distanced herself from me. she stopped telling me about what she's doing as a vtuber, but she also stopped hanging out with me and barely replies to my texts anymore.

>>14656150
it's cute you think that lol
almost no mainstream vtuber is saying "reddit is a hugbox" they're browsing that instead
this place is a shithole with zero substance and full of shitposting and to think otherwise is delusion of the highest level

>>14502042
I love the human beings that post on vt.

>>14666678
Me too! There are much worse places to post.