/vt/ - Virtual Youtubers

my oshi turned me into a numberfag and now I only watch the viewer counter on her streams. however she is a 2view so I am permanently depressed

Spent my college tuition on akasupa and I have to pretend I'm still going to college to my parents, I'm probably just going to disappear once the sem ends and they find out about it.

Oshi is making me skipping work to watch her streams

>be me
>became brony in middle school to escape from bullying and shitty life
>become a fucking autist and can't socialize outside of the internet
>ffw end of highschool
>get in uni, decide to start over and give up bad habits
>make friends, get good grades, have fun
>hate weebs, hate furries, hate bronies for grooming me
>life is good (still no GF tho because CS degree)
>ffw a few years, 8 months ago
>see vtubers in memes
>decide to check it out to see why it's so popular
>ffw to now
>half my youtube feed is vtubers
>watch every VOD of the EN I follow because I can never catch them live, watch a ton of JP clips because I can't speak japanese
>get bored/sad when they don't stream for a few days
>despite my attempts to not fall for it, start getting jealous at the thought of my oshi giving attention to someone else
>and now I'm here

I had my life back under control but vtubers are ruinning it. It might not make me as anti-social or autistic as when I was a brony but it's slowly making me into a weeb and, worst of all, more attracted to fake 2D women than real ones (CS degree didn't help in fixing that since the only women around me are either in a relationship or have a dick). I wish I never got into it in the first place, but then again they're fun to watch and I'm trying my best to avoid the parasocial relationship. I'd say they made my life worse overall.

I heard a rumor about my oshi recently and I spent hours trying to track down the source. Dug into her PL even. Multiple of her past lives. Couldn't find shit. Makes me think it could just be totally made up bullshit. But the thought of it not being bullshit stresses me out. Until I know where that rumor came from there'll always be a gnawing fear at the back of my head that my oshi might not be what I think she is.

>>16610889
maximum kek

>>16607666
I sleep maybe 3 hours a day so I can maximize my chuuba watching.

>>16610889
kek

>>16607666
turned me into a reckless spender due to supas/merch and i abandoned all my other hobbies

the first person i genuinely fell in love with is a computer lady who can never love me back and might not even be the person they present themselves to be.

>>16610935
it's all true, anon. i would know, i'm her boyfriend.

>>16615843
It's actually not about her relationship status, but nice try.

>>16610889
>become brony to escape bullying

>>16610889
>became brony in middle school to escape from bullying and shitty life
I told everyone at school I was a brony (big mistake).

>>16616354
Did you do a ppt presentation at school on Bronies?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FTPpHG6vtUU&t=6s&ab_channel=metafluffygamez

I got stomach ulcers and regular migraines because I got addicted to watching vtubers, the more I watched the more cool and funny and talented people I discovered so I'd stay up all night and the stress from lack of sleep also made me unable to drive due to vertigo and bad reaction time, and I got stomach ulcers.

>>16607666
I've fucked my sleep schedule beyond repair

>>16607666
I can't go on without her stream or tweet. If she doesn't tweet once a day, I can't work and do anything. I have to leave everything in order to watch her streams. I have fucked up my Uni exams because I was too busy watching the stream and making art for her and collecting her likes. I skip lunch and work part time for her goods and SC.

>>16607666
Literally all of you turn into cucks and simps lusting for women that dont even care about you aside of how much money you send them in superchats and that only last the time it take them to say "thank you" after that your whole existence gets purged from their memories, how much worst do you want Anon?

>>16607666
While she's not totally to blame, I skipped an entire semester of uni and did nothing but watch her streams.

nijiEN reinvigorated my love of vtubers months ago but now i wish i never got into them thanks to l*xiem ruining everything

>>16610889
>became brony in middle school to escape from bullying

>>16610889
Woof, bronies weren't a thing until I was in the latter half of high school. The ones at my school would carry around their favorite ponies on lanyards on top of wearing graphic tees about it. Was your group of bronies like that?
If I can be so bold anon, I don't think the vtubers are really at fault here. You can not let yourself believe 2D is better than 3D; you could be missing out on someone out there for you. Although, based on what you've just shared you're not really in the right place for a relationship. Do your self-improvement reps, spend less time posting and unironically get some sunshine if your schedule allows for it.

>>16607666
Vtubers have made my life objectively worse. They completely fucked my sleep shedule. I'm a NEET but i used to go to sleep at 2am at most. Now i sleep at 6am every day because i'm watching streams. They also completely ruined any expectation i ever had of women. Every single woman i know just seems painfully uninteresting compared to the holos, and knowing that someone so much better exists somewhere on earth but i'll never be with her frustrates me to no end. I don't even want to date anymore, it feels like everyone is so shit compared to them.

>>16633492
The way I look at this is that if there is one woman out there like the vtuber that you idolize, there's bound to be plenty more like them. You haven't met every woman on Earth yet.
Assuming you don't have some sort of disability, you should quit being a NEET. Learn some skills. Fix your sleep schedule. Try to become the person that your ideal woman deserves.

I became a schizo and stalked my oshi’s roommate online for months. Had a mental breakdown when the roommate said they were graduating (their old persona) because I wouldn’t be able to get fresh information on them anymore.

dear satan,
my oshi and i chatted about personal stuff in dms on and off for months. i know she will never feel the same way about me as i feel about her. it hurts. i lash out at my family, friends, and coworkers. i harbor resentment towards the other viewers when she laughs at their comments. i even became furious at my oshi for ignoring my feelings. my feelings that i never tell her about. i am a pitiful shell of a man. if my oshi could fathom the true depth of my depravity she would hate me. i want to go back and never have those conversations with her. i long for those days when she was just another vtuber to me. too late for that now. see you in hell satan.

>>16607666
My oshi might be making me a cuck. She's testing the waters with male collabs. I love her so much that I might be alright with it. Now I can't stop thinking about how inadequate I am compared to these celebrities she'll be having fun with. Yes, I give her a lot of money.

>>16610889
>>despite my attempts to not fall for it, start getting jealous at the thought of my oshi giving attention to someone else
Fuck I hate that I relate to this so much

>>16633730
Man, if my ideal woman exists she deserves better than me

>>16635748

>>16635748
That's what I'm saying man, you can become that person. It takes time and work to get there, but you can do it.

Life's been pretty rough as of late. Coming home and watching Ame/Gura streams last year was a reliable way to escape - HoloEN was a clean, curated streaming culture that elevated itself above outside drama.
Now, it feels like HoloEN may be a hope spot (TV Tropes). The charm is dissolving as external drama and personalities worm their way into HoloEN. Guess everything changes.
*Ame/Gura are still great, but Calli and Kiara need to graduate. NOW!!!

>>16610889
>Holobronies meme was true

>>16610889
I can't relate to that gay details but I do relate to the end result. I had also gotten my life under control even if it wasn't an existence other people would want, I was happy with it. But vtubers ended up being a surprise loophole that has allowed me to feel like I'm interacting with humans again and it fucking sucks, I know I should just cut them out of my life to regain control of my emotions but I don't know what to replace them with.

>>16635219
Hey, we've all fantasized sucking a penis for the approval of some bitch we liked. You'll move on with time.

I don't know whether this is objectively worse but even if I don't care I know some will see it as sliding backwards. Before I discovered vtubers I was working to get back out into the world after a decade of mental health problems, drug abuse and just not giving a fuck. Then vtubers appeared, reignited my interest in otaku culture shit and gave me the motivation and constant language input to make noticeable progress at learning the language. Being able to understand a reasonable amount of Japanese has just made it worse, as I can now enjoy asmr, manga and games that never got translated, weird stuff on dlsite and the porn properly. So while I'm honestly the happiest I've been in years I've lost any desire I had to continue trying to get back out in the world and stop being a neet shut-in, but hey at least vtubers haven't convinced me to go back to opiates yet.

>>16607666
my oshi made me hate vtubers which were one of the few things I found enjoyable about life.

>>16607666
My little brother caught me watching Vox and called me a kankerhomo.

All my hobbies went to shit because I'm watching streams during my whole free time

>>16607666
still waiting for a chuuba i like to say they have a boyfriend. like a movie that has a bad ending i want the realistic yet excruciating pain that comes with it.

>>16610889
>>became brony in middle school to escape from bullying and shitty life
I too jump into swimming pools to avoid getting wet when it rains

I used to feel like absolute shit every night going to bed because she wasn't there with me, and when I heard her sing I'd always start to tear up.

>>16635748
Then get to it anon

>>16607666
kek
i used to be into high brow stuff like pure mathematics and philosophy now i watch chuubas

I cut Rosemi's name into my leg today

>>16641841
.aybe if youre actually enjoying it just go so hard at being an otaku and learning japanese that you can monetize it, maybe apply to teach english in japan if the country opens up in the summer, or try to make money translating texts/manuals or something

>>16607666
My oshi gave me the NTR fetish

Mine is Akai Haato and when she went full schizo/Haachama with the whole killing haato lore, with my how my mental state was with stay at home orders, I stopped taking my meds and stayed up for days on end and tired to cut my own arm off to cook it for Haacham cooking.

>>16607666
my oshi is turning me into a footfag and a pedophile and I don't like that I like it

>>16648214
> if the country opens up in the summer
>He still has hope that the logistical suppression will ever end